What do you do, when you know you are in sin and you want to get out of it but you don't know how to tap on God's strength and you struggle helplessly?

Today i went to play BASKETBALL. Putting myself in the risk of skin cancer man...hehehe but i really had a fun time. Lots of screaming and proving myself to be as clumsy as ever again. I think im darker already :P. I went to meet up with Quan Bin later... passed him a card and had a nice loooooooooong chat... Quan Bin, i really enjoy talking to you, we'll do that sometime again kiez? :D

Just now i went for my neighbour's birthday party.Then the group of 6 of us liddat ended up talking about ghosts and spirits. Then someone suggest that we go to this place which is mega creepy to like make it more interesting. When we went there, i got really quite spooked out as it was like quite quiet and the sky was red tonight lor... the whole atmosphere was just creepy. Then at that time, when i was freaking out, i started singing "but for your grace" and God really calmed me down lor. I really understood the meaning of Philippians 4:7 at that time and i will remember it :D

After i reached home, i asked my shepherd ; Zach ; why are there ghosts and haunted places? Then he helped me understand that it's satan's method of making the people pursue and pray to false Gods lor. But thank God we can cast them out because God gave us authority over them :D Amen. Haha another verse comes into mind as well... 1 John 4:18. =)

Today, we had service. I met this really great guy called Aloysius. He's really very nice and i hope to get to know him better... SJI rox man. The service was kinda farny... there was this dedication segment and seemingly 80% of the dedications came from West. And there was a mega long worship session which really rocks lor... :D nothing beats worshipping God. Then we walked around orchard and i went home. So tired i just went plop and fell asleep in the bus lor.... ZZZzzz...

This year's Christmas is definately the BEST one i've EVER had! Never felt SOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooo much warmth and love from so many people before :D Thanks everyone!!! Well, this walk with God is something that i have just begun... I learnt something, don't look to bible and read about all of God's good works, EXPERIENCE it yourself and really, you won't be reading of David praising God for all the things he's done, but you will be telling others about all the things God has done for YOU. Take the plunge, jump straight in. Jesus rox.

Oh yar! One more thing! At this point of my life, there are many roads. God as shown the way for me to National Junior Colledge and im very sure that i'm placed there for a reason, for a purpose. NJC is near to SJI, which i'm pioneering and probably, i have people that God wants to reveal himself through me. I believe that these two goals and roads have been chosen and excecuted by God. So many roads, different routes, common purpose -> Great Commission. Everyone has been called to this great task and we will be able to complete it with Jesus on OUR side! YAY! kampateh! CG 404 coming up... everyone, lets push all the way and we will be able to achieve it. SJI for God. I will do my best. God will use the willing, as long as they are willing.
[Romans 8:37]

Wow, today i am reminded of several things. ONE : To treat people the way they want to treat you with. TWO : Be nice! THREE : To take time to remember God. To see his works, to enjoy his love. His gift of guilt free life. There's these lyrics : Every day are gifts from you Lord. Indeed, everyday is a breathe of life from God, cherish every moment we have now. Time is a gift from God, though it may not be abundant, but we can maximise it. Make full use of your time, achieve the most with your time.

Wow! Christmas time is here... hehe... finally the burden of the drama is off my back man. THANK GOD for his grace that i did not forget my lines or anything. Christmas is a time of giving right? I hardly gave anything to anyone lor... *guilty*. This Christmas, i really learnt something new, and that is to love all people, even though you don't like them. Althought sometimes people are unlikable due to the many differences we have, but we can always show them love in many ways like through tolerance and blessings. :D Meaningful rightz!? Oh well... the stayover at Derrick's place rocks man. So many people went... So noisy... i watched the first CD of finding NEMO... lol! so farny, but in the end too tired to go down again and watch the second half. LOTS OF FOOD. We were eating turkey at like 4 am. So fun! Too bad Raphael can't make it... And most importantly, last night, or morning rather, i really got to spend some with Matthew and i really want to thank him for all the encouragement he gave me and all :D THANK GOD FOR YOU!

so confusing... i feel so blur...