rockin' my world.

ACT.537 - a big scare of my life.

I got a call from DBS today . i thought it was one of the db guys trying to play a prank on me . But no , this guy from DBS called me and told me there were several attempts of my card trying to purchase US merchandise using my debit card . So he has already cancelled my card and applied for a new one which will come by.

I just couldn't imagine if all my cash was just gone , i'll be so dead because i gotta spend quite a big sum on next month expenses .

I only used my card with SSDC lesson bookings and sometimes my friends would use as well . I have no idea how a person could have capture my information and tried to use it . It's darn scary , the internet.

so conclusion , don't get any credit cards . use pure hard cash .

posted by Ben @ 5/28/2007 10:46:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.536 - Aquarama 2007

posted by Ben @ 5/28/2007 03:43:00 AM 0 Comments

ACT.535 - opposite of everything.

she's opposite of everything i hate of a girl.

immature : mature
demanding : ain't demanding
unreasonable: understanding
complains of everything : hardly complain
whiner : doesn't whine a bit.
emotionally weak : independent on her own
materialistic : not a bit materialistic

never a burden . :)

posted by Ben @ 5/24/2007 11:54:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.534 - WHAT THE .

WHAT THE HECK ! IT'S MAY ANNE'S BIRTHDAY
AGAIN !

posted by Ben @ 5/19/2007 03:10:00 PM 0 Comments

posted by Ben @ 5/15/2007 11:19:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.532 - great titles.

ok , so i've got a few dvds and stuff that i must GET and never miss it for the entire world.

- forest gump
- the terminal
- anger management ( been looking for this high and low and damn it , hmv keeps procastinating)
- spiderman trilogy
- lord of the rings

ok , so i have already watched all these before , esp anger management , i watched it 7 times or something . haha , but these titles are still as entertaining as ever . gotta get them allllll !

posted by Ben @ 5/07/2007 11:53:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.531 - home ain't the coziest place.

home is the place where we all seek to go to at the end of a long day. especially when you guys got a really hard day at work , or were busy with school , whatever . you feel good when you reach home isn't it ?

But here i am today , a Sunday , at home in the morning. feeling all fucked up. ( sounds like i'm always complaining but let me just vent a bit because this happens too much. )

the other day i mentioned i want to give up my baby and do some self study . Well , i want to do my work but i really don't want to give him up. In fact , i want the best of two worlds , which can BE DONE. But my parents knowing my decision , didn't want to give a chance of the 2 worlds.

what does that mean . They only want me to study , work , and then go to hell . What does this really mean , i'm having a decent hobby but yet they want to restrict me to just like that . I count them pretty lucky that i ain't a bad ass out there , smoking and having wild nights and kicking somebody's ass out there and land myself in bars.

was joining dragonboat a good thing ? To me , yes . I never regretted . To them , it's just a waste of time. i might as well use the time to study .

STUDY and WORK . that is what my world should be about. earn $$$ and give them the $$$. Isn't that great ?

i feel fucked up now , that i'm doing decent stuff all this while. I should really be a bad ass and spend as little time at home. Oh well , too bad , now i'm going to BUY A BIKE , i don't give a fuck anymore.

I can't do what i want . i'm restricted to what i'm supposed to do . wait a minute , that makes me a BIG TIME PUSSY. Seriously . And next time , in my course of career , I'll be a pussy who never dares to do anything and become just like my parents. BE NOTHING.

Seriously , if you all know , being successful means taking risks and gambles. Daring to take them. You wanna step back and slowing make your way up , then take your time. The thing is , you will hardly climb up fast .

what a fucking pussy . and that's referring to me. gotta change it all man . soon.

posted by Ben @ 5/06/2007 07:31:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.530 - the dumbest people .

I read this article on the New Paper today , regarding speedsters on the road. As we all know , youngsters ( esp guys ) are the majority ending up in road accidents due to speeding and a bit on drinking. This is a fact that we all can't deny , youngsters speed much more than men in their 40s.

so the question was , as presented , HOW DO WE GET THESE SPEEDSTERS OFF THE ROAD? Yes , i bet the government did their best, speed cameras , road block , number of traffic police have all increased until speedsters have barely space to speed. But yet the problem still exists , regarding young speedsters.

One suggestion by some dumb arse : bar young drivers from driving fast cars.

WHAT THE FUCK ?! oh my god , how can ANYBODY come out with such a suggestion ? Is that person sane ?

so am i supposed to buy a porsche when i'm 60 years old and start utilising the engine at that age ? Won't i be better off with a toyota camry ? or a Mercedes Benz E class ?

and if this regulation is ever implemented , i don't know what else is worth in this country to make me stay on. Things have gotten from good to bad , bad to worse . ( note that i use the phrase , good to bad , meaning that things were all good ONCE )

I have been hearing comments and opinions everywhere , yes , you got it. EVERYWHERE . from unhappy fellow citizens. Things weren't like this in the past.

If the government really really want to stop drivers from speeding , and make us a SPEED free country , then what is it with the Formula one race ? Really . Tell me what is it all about . Is it because car racing is appreciated as a sport or something else ? Oh wait a minute , a formula one race is gonna bring us a lot of revenue in the few industry sectors. there you go , $$$$$$$$ .

soon , this country will be converted and designed to work in such a manner . I work for $$$ . i live for $$$. and i live to pay this country . and make this country wealthy, everything shall be stated in monetary form. the citizens won't be rich , something else will be.

don't call us a safe or clean , green country . because we don't care about that . No Money , No talk please.

posted by Ben @ 5/03/2007 10:59:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.529 - Don't miss it !

just caught Spiderman 3 with the guys. It's nice ! Makes you think spiderman 2 was a loser film ( actually , i don't recall much of spidey 2 but more of part one )

But i do wish that they extended the encounters with Venom because i remembered in the cartoons , he was a pain in the ass that you just can't get rid of.

Anyway , don't miss it!

posted by Ben @ 5/02/2007 11:45:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.528 - i'm so fucked.

oh my . i have no words to describe my feelings now. From what i know , most of my sec sch buddy friends was accepted by NTU. And most of them have much higher GPA than me. I'm only 3.171. And year 2 onwards , i really studied and gave what i could. ( please minus the part about me sleeping in class everytime because dragonboat and gym sessions really tire me out plus , how can i listen to some lecturer that has no passion in teaching as well. whoever that doesn't excite me , makes me sleep. )

and guess what , i landed the max GPA was 3.4 ( attachment was a 4 but don't count that ). I did my projects with all i could , spend late nights with my classmates researching and putting up the entire thing. I guess we gave our best. and I studied and studied , try to store ALL that information into my tiny weeny damned brain , drank all the brain supplements i could get ( that includes Chicken Essence , Berocca , Red Bull , Coffee ) and memorised what i could.

and my max was 12 pages of short notes . anything more than that , what is memorised is lost easily. I'm like a 10gb hard drive compared to anyone out there. plus , with lousy memory RAM so i do not accept storing of data fast as well.

well , now i'm purely a loser. I din think that my cca helped me a lot in grabbing a position in the universities. and i also know , I can't study well also . Look at me , my o level sucks compared to everyone. I never studied well . only during the primary school , i was a freak and only studied under my mum's instructions and always managed to be first 10 in class. And in sec sch , i got myself screwed and had no determination to study at all .

Now in poly , i screwed up my first year and only managed to get back some from year 2 onwards. It was too late , i guess i already ended my last final major school in my life.

Everytime i become paranoid and blame my fucking parents for who i am - the genes. But i don't think i should blame anybody but myself. i blasted my own chances , everytime.

what i wanna know now , whether does all this paper qualification matter in the end.

posted by Ben @ 5/02/2007 02:07:00 AM 0 Comments

ACT.527 - so hard to let you go.

i've been reporting to work everyday aimlessly. that also explains why i don't go to work during the weekends. i hate a job that brings no satisfaction and no fulfilment. Imagine doing telemarketing for the rest of your life , now that's retarded . for Part time , yes . Full time , NO way.

i suppose it's time to leave soon . to go grab another job . Hope Starhub retail calls me up for an interview , like what M1 did . At least in the shop , it's so much more fun , you meet customers , good AND BAD , and there is trouble for you to solve. Trouble makes life interesting , don't you agree?

Maybe attachment was much more fun . hanging out with the guys , the old colleagues. I miss attachment now . :( in a way . but the pay was way too bad ! haha . $500 for hard labour.

ok , now , i can't find any buyer for my fish . Damn it , then my parents are not agreeing to the idea that i keep him . esp my Mum . I think she's fucked up in a sense . Never supportive of such stuff . Give her $$$ , she happy. We study hard , she happy. Do other things , not happy. My Dad just out of the blue scold you and pick a small arguement , at least that's fine . It's just his temper and sometimes maybe work sucks. My mum , maybe one day i should just throw all my money on her lah , fuck. At the age of 30 , I'll be a mummy's boy and let her handle all my money.

sighh .

posted by Ben @ 5/01/2007 01:08:00 PM 0 Comments