rockin' my world.

ACT.493 - doing what 19yrs old shld nv do =)

wah , started the day at Intermech with stock take. STOCK take is the worst thing that can ever happen to anyone , count those tiny pieces one by one , KILL .

so we got real bored the afternoon , and yea, i was dozing off and was so damn tired. haha , and we noticed quite a few spiders ard the area , actually , u can say , there are TONNES.

then i came up with a damn bo liao idea .

CATCH THESE DAMN SPIDERS and put them all together. and then it will be SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST . WAHAHAHAHAHAHA !

haha , so we got along our gay bud , jia neng , to gather these eight legged freaks , and only managed to get 4 , one was damn good but escaped , and another one was too high and challenging for us. haha , we have one tiny one , one damn big long legged one , and 2 standard agile quick spideys.

haha , so check out what happens tomorrow . i think we shld start placing bets to make a quick buck out of it. lol .

wah lao , stock take sucks big time , u can blame us for doing this kiddy pastime. haha , and besides , i dun really catch a hell lot of spiders. even edwin's tarantula freak me out.

actually , my initial idea was getting these 8 leg freaks home for my baby who always seem so hungry no matter how much food we give him. tons of worms and prawns for him ain't enuf .

whatever lah , can't wait to see the result !

posted by Ben @ 10/31/2006 10:37:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.492 - when the hurting is too much.

i've nv seen him like that , going mad , all my 19 yrs of life. and mum, dad and i , knew it was all because of the hurting he's been suffering.

we all care , but just that our parents dun know how to express our care , esp Dad.

Dad asked , " why the hell feel so heartbroken when there are tons of girls out there? "

and i said : " cause one can't forget that easily. "

it really hurts me so much so , to see my loved one feeling so much pain within , yet there's no immediate medication for it. i wished when God created humans , he didn't make it to be so sophisticated , to involve all mental , physical and the worst , emotional.

i bet my parents can't sleep 2nite. cause it's gonna bother me too.

so as i have said , the new revolution is starting . dun anyone dare to come say guys are ALWAYS the bastards / players. yes , u still can say guys are bastards , but now , the proportions are changing. there is soon to be an equilibrium between the bad guys and bad girls.

so now we're both in the same boat . just that i'm single for almost 4 yrs , and u for a few mths. it's never easy to be lonely. but crap , you've just gotta deal with it.

Take it from me , cause it's a lesson to be learnt.

posted by Ben @ 10/30/2006 10:22:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.491 - the meaning of birthdays.

through all these years of my life , the meaning of birthdays can be concluded in this way :

- it's just another damned day.
- a day to remind u that you've gotten older.
- it's probably a good reason for everyone to eat a cake.
- a reason for other guys to give u a punch.
- a reason for mum and bro to spend on ME. =)
- a reason to make u think about the activities of that day. and sometimes , u come to NOTHING.
- etc.

fuck tomorrow lah.

posted by Ben @ 10/26/2006 10:18:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.490 - financial planning.

ok , i tot i shld plan out my expenditure for the next 8 mths . so here we go.

bike license - $500 ++
bike - $3000
new tong yan arowana - $1000 -$1300 ++
taiwan tour - $1400 +++
Thailand tour - $500 ++
KL tour - $300 ++

maybe a new tank - $1000 +++

that's about 8300 bucks plus minus .

time to start pumping $$$ after regatta.

posted by Ben @ 10/22/2006 10:38:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.489 - it kills me everywhere i go.

anyway , some updates since i've been long gone. didn't feel like blogging anyway , but here goes.

I was hospitalised last last sat due to some viral fever that seemed exactly like dengue , but i'm discharged on last wed. and i'm feeling all fine now =)

was a little unwell ytd training , maybe due to the haze but after today , i know at least i'm back on track of recovery.

so i've got some bad news , doctor informed me of a new problem - my liver. gotta go for a test next week to confirm what darn problem it is.

oh well , i just count it all as bad luck. just hope i get well after all this. haha , anyway , i'm still taking supplements even after the discovery of the liver problem, who cares when the most impt race ever is coming .

after missing training for 2 weeks , it feels great to be back. and i dare say the team is having major improvements =) but improvements are nv enuf i guess. just gotta work on it.

and ya , i've gotten my rtg arowana ! and currently this is my new baby and i'm adding another one to the collection cause there is just too much perishable food for one aro. and u can guess , me spending my entire pay check on the equipment and the aros. u can acquire a motorbike license with that kind of $$$. however , as long as it makes me happy. =)

that reminds me of bike license after regatta. i've kind of decided to get a bike ard in feb after bike tp , cause i dun wanna be left out from all the boys who are gonna get bikes. and also for my own convenience . =) big expenditure from here onwards , me and the db guys are going taiwan , thailand and maybe KL provided our finances allow. haha . HEAVEN before NS .

yeap , so much happened within this short period of time , and i've learnt that my weakness killed me so badly in many scenarios. i nv tot about really changing it even when wen zhong told me how it could affect me and my life , until now. now , it's gotta go. Well , it's gonna be a real hard process , and definitely a long one. finally , a essential change is gonna start.

posted by Ben @ 10/22/2006 07:50:00 PM 0 Comments