rockin' my world.: March 2006

Friday, March 31, 2006

ACT.384 - unsatisfied.

someone once said : " Winning is not everything . Winning is the ONLY thing . "

Thursday, March 30, 2006

ACT.383- when i get lost.

when i got lost , that someone was always there . always there to hold my hand and guide me .

when i couldn't get over heartbreaking issues , she revived me . when i was totally blinded by love until i can't see what's wrong and what's right anymore , she shook sense into me . haha , and when i got lost in this crazy world , she showed me the way . thanks bestie , you've always been there .

Recently , i've gotten into a complex . conflicts with the heart and mind . i knew if i went on with the devil inside of me , many would be disappointed . bcos it only showed i have lost faith and gave in . well , a rather huge dispute within me .

Dad's miserable job ended today . HOORAY ! no more stress or tempers from his boss . cause he's the boss right now and the only temper anyone can throw , is him when he comes back home and we suffer for it . haha , used to it . But like father like son , the 2 brothers are not spared of such a bad characteristic . the only angel in the house is my mum . haha , suffer all the shit from the 3 of us .

but when dad's job ends , that means i can't borrow his lorry to drive this SUNDAY to oliver's house . WHAT THE HECK ! i very much need a vehicle cause his house is such a toughie place on earth to get to . =( and i missed driving .

yeap , flashes of memory keep appearing in my mind like as if God was on the projector showing me slideshow of the past , within my brain . Well , that is no wonder why i always told heartbroken ones to keep themselves occupied , to prevent all sorts of solitary activities including "thinking too much" .

Life is great and i wonder how's denny at China . Where is our dear Gi kian . How is he doing , what is he doing . we were so close , that people tot we were gay . haha , he would make a great GAY partner , but too bad we are straight boys who loved hot babes . lol . i hope no secondary sch mates just saw that . =)

Valentine's day would no longer be Lian Hua Dang's reunion dinner as time goes by , the boys grew to become men , and start dating girls they liked and got together with them . well , it's ok , the guys like me ,jx , and tx will always have each others' company . FOREVER AND EVER k . =)

training tml . i missed the times . inter poly race , june race , sava sprint . i miss dragonboat.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

ACT.382 - i can't trust anymore.

i have been spending my days with work , db , and esp gaming . CS and dota . well , haha , now my life is really occupied .

Just read finish the Da Vinci code . and i don't know what is true and what is not true anymore . actually , i don't believe in christ anyway . so it doesn't matter . =)

Next up , Angel and Demons . and i really wanna get that Marketing book sold at Borders . Some 40 marketing tips thingy. 37.95 bucks . maybe i shld just save up that $$$ .

Kristie , i think you are the one crazy enuf to send me for that competition . There's no way i can even put my face there , haha . i saw the guy who won last year , mixed blood somemore , handsome . haha , u put him and me together , u know what u get ? a celebrity and a commoner . haha .

Work is great , i work alone but the contractors talk to me and my boss from keppeland is friendly . but the other one is very particular about details. haha , but i don't know how long am i gonna be there . i'm not exactly alone , but there's a cat and fishes to accompany me . haha what great company .

i'm meeting my xZar clanmates on friday ! =) meeting them for the first time , but all i know , i'm the youngest member . haha , they are all 21 - 27years old people . gonna have a hell of a time with them on friday . =)

Sunday, March 26, 2006

ACT.381 - a few years later.

today denny left for china - overseas attachment . haha , it was fun seeing him off , and seeing the gfs of my lian hua dang friends . for once in my life sia . so encounting from today , 6 mths it shall be . and YES , GI KIAN Will be back already !

i had a talk with a professional at my working place , she's in the marketing department and although she didn't teach me a lot .. but going overseas to study seemed fun ! haha , and shit , i bet i can't get into NUS liao with such pathetic results . my last bets are on NTU and SMU .

well , me and ervin went to the motorfest at NTU that day , and NTU IS HUGE ! haha , other than that .. the motorfest is not very interesting . I've lost touch with automotive , due to my busy life . i don't even know much now . I guessed i got too deep into studying and other stuff .

So , me , jx and edwin went to orchard to shop a little . yeah , i've got my slippers and handphone cover . and i need a BAG ~ ! there isn't much bags ard , so i think i'm just gonna get the Adidas Germany bag . better than my current bag , so much better . Crumpler is still showcasing the same old ugly designs , and the price went up by 6 bucks . =( anyway , we saw Cherry and Vivien from PHS and i say ... after a few years , we all have changed a lot . haha , so i'm wondering , where will i be after 5 years ?

haha , yes , i'm in a gaming frenzy right now . i have to play so many games , Counterstrike 1.6 , CS: source , Wolfenstein : enemy's territory , Dota , Half life 2 . i don know which one i shld commit now .

work again tml . digging out time for GYM manx .

Thursday, March 23, 2006

ACT.380 - forever and ever.

Colin Raye - Love me.

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

today is staff race at kallang where the entire school participated in an inter sch dragonboat race . haha , had lots of fun and principal treated us to dinner with chill crab and blackpepper crabs ! haha . it was all great . i really enjoyed this day . =)

i saw the new mazda 6 MPS turbocharged . i say that's a beauty goddess to me . With such a fierce yet stylish outlook , it is able to hit 0-100km in 6.6 seconds . now , that is REAL FAST .

and shit , the Evo 9 hits at 5.1 seconds while the new subaru STI 06' hits at 5.5 secs . ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT WHY ?!

anyway , everybody hates mitsbushi cars . i didn't say that , the drivers said so . an engine prone to breaking down and drinks a lot . the last thing we need in a rush is a car breaking down .

haha , today is a great day . =)

Monday, March 20, 2006

one chance.

NUS NUS NUS NUS NUS .

national champion and ivp gold for this year . if not i'm going nowhere that.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

ACT.379 - goodbye it is .

mr500 has ended . we didn't get what we really want , but i would say , this is the start of our revolution . i don know why , but this is what i feel . we won IVP 2nd mixed and IVP 3rd men's . overall 3rd in mixed .

my family came down and gave me support . i felt that , that was all i need . support from my family . my bro even came down . Even my girlfriend cannot replace them . My family finally saw what i was doing all these years .

national champion . a dream so near , yet so far . we will keep striving towards it .

thanks may anne , i understand about your plight . that message alone was good enuf and i felt great after seeing it . =) it REVIVED me to make it sound exaggerating . lol .

Dragonboat is a weird sport . When you are rowing , u might just burst into tears . when u win , u cry and jump in joy . when you lose , you cry . When we felt like we were flying , it was just like bullet time in the matrix .

People asked me whether i would continue DB in Safsa or Uni . but i made my decision , i will not continue . it's more or less made up , unless something really special make me change it.

my life is great , that's what i know . almost everything that happened to me , is a blessing. Love from my friends , family . i have friends who are willing to DIE for each other . and such friends are hard to come by .

haha , and kok yi , being such a nice guy , cooked for us spaghetti today, knowing boys like me have no gf to cook for them . HAHA , AI XIN brother meal , that's what he call it .

this marks the end of a chapter . a beginning of another .

tired . leaving it for a long time.

Friday, March 17, 2006

ACT.379 - in for a good time.

ok , let's recap what i have done in the hols , DB , GYM , work . haha , i enjoy this holiday much more than the last . the last was HECTIC and crazy . haha .

MR500 tomorrow . well , i'm not gonna ask blessings from God or whatever . what i'm gonna is what i'm gonna get. and i know deep down in my heart what the results will be .

anyway , will be out with the guys tomorrow for seoul garden dinner ! Jia en and Denny treating ! WOOHOO ! Denny's leaving for China , Jia en's bd , as well as he made it to OCS . haha , congrats . OCS is a lifestyle of luxury in the army , plus the studying .

i've been thinking . actually , thinking quite a lot lately . esp about the past . i felt i've committed too many mistakes in the past . and i think immaturity killed me .and even my dearest ones suffered too. well , i still must say , i'm quite naive about a lot of things . and even for now , i'm still committing mistakes which i shouldn't , and next year , i will be thinking why the last year me was so dumb . it's totally a cycle . haha .

well , thinking too much is a bad thing . thinking too much and not letting all the useless tots affect u is another thing.

Let it go.

yeap . just let it go . some times , i grab hold of something too tightly , and many times , no , EVERY time , i lose it eventually . i should take a turnaround in how i lead my life .

Somebody once told me , don't let problems affect u , just don think about it , and you'll be happier . It was something like that .

Most of the times , i know problems are left unsolved right behind me , and they just keep polluting my mind , and i carried a heavy heart and a frustrated mind . and yes , in the end , i couldn't do things right at all . What i've realised is , that leave the problems behind , until when the time comes to solve it , then starts the execution . instead of ur mind hogging on to the tots of unsolved issues . this is how my mind works . i'll be just so stressed out thanks to projects .

well , projects really made me a unhappy person . haha . [ i wondered if Ngee Ann VP reads this ] . haha , lesser projects pls !

what a life . i need lots of soul searching.

the most sophisticated stuff on earth isn't science . it's women.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

ACT.378 - probably the laziest boy in the world.

started my work assignment in somerset , some somerset condo showflat . it's a 3 day assignment , and i think u can call me the most slack guy ever . haha , armed with The Da Vinci Code , my laptop , my Creatine and large water bottle , my mouse [ MUST HAVE ! ] and my hp charger , and my brand new walkman phone w550i , i was in for a enjoyable time .

haha , reached there at 8 , read the strait times , a few contractors came in and there to do their work . and i started to play Dota on my laptop . after i felt i was too long on the computer , i started the Da Vinci code . haha , i must say that book is more entertaining than Dota . fed the fishes and so on , got my lunch and chocolate chips cookies and munching away for the rest of the day .

but it's ok , my HSBC work in 2004 still remains the best EVER .

the condo is GORGEOUS . parquet , marble , with all the fixtures , BEAUTIFUL ! =)

the sian thing about work is that it's 12 hrs straight . and i really get sick of staying in the room , that even getting out of the guard post is much bettter .

slack slack slack . $$$$$$$ and more $$$$$$$$$ . =)

Dad started his own entreprenuer venture earlier than me . =( haha , anyway , it's a partnership thingy , i don't know why the sudden idea , but he aims for a car in a year or 2 . well , i shall say THANKS first ! =) WAHAHA ! i know i'm gonna be the one 24/7 using it .

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

ACT.377 - wish you will be there.

MR500 saturday and sunday .

hope .

Sunday, March 12, 2006

ACT.376 - lovin' it ?

i took up driving lessons again today with my mum's instructor , she passed her license almost 10 years ago anyway . Toyota vios is a nice car to drive , but i think the speedometer and tachometer , all the damn meters are not really nice or classy unlike mazda ones . but it's a nice car to drive =)

MR500 away in a week . right at my very home ground . where i lived in all these years that is . haha .

i'm very much in a complex right now . db stuff . db just got another level tougher .

well , just take in what i can at the mean time bah . =)

bad guys rule . good guys get burnt always . get this fact right.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

ACT.375 - one more week to prove our worth.

MR500 in one week plus . saturday and sunday . last race with the year 3 , and the girls in the mixed team . the chance to prove our worth to somebody.

right after training ytd, went for team huat's chalet , BBQ BBQ BBQ . haha , i was so so tired , back was aching like mad . haha , but i sure ate a ton of chix wings . then watched Barcelona VS Chelsea , half dead of course , and YES , CHELSEA is going DOWN !

today's training again , tomorrow , sat , sun . and so on and so forth . haha , how i wished i have a car or motocycle , whatever . haha , running to and fro is damn sianx sia .

haha , and i'm going MOS today ! FREE ! =) driving there too .

Sunday, March 05, 2006

ACT.374 - it's never coming back.

my Dad's getting me a new phone and i'm cracking my brain on what to get . He tells me he wants to get the n70 for me , i'm like kind of nah ... it's a problematic phone and i don see what i shld pay 400 plus for it . and .. nokia's mp3 quality is REALLY bad .

placing my options on the Sony Ericsson W550i and Samsung D500. both phones are real cool , and the samsung D500 has business functions , but it's only 96 mb , and i don't know what the heck i can do with that alone .

but these phones are freaking cheap , but not as good as my current phone . only the W550i can match up . =) haha , i think i have more or less decided .

DB training today and we really burnt our bodies badly . haha , it all felt great to row with the girls again .

oh man , everybody's leaving the bachelor's grp . there used to be say meng , rajeeve , wai leong , jian sheng , me , jun wei , shun de and kok yi . like how many are left ? haha . freaking shit . i'm feeling all the pressure from mum and everything else . haha . life's great anyway . DB and studies all the way baby .

caught Big Momma's hse today . it freaking sucks . it's okok only .. but i felt it's not even worth 5 bucks . shld have just caught final destination 3 with the lian hua dang guys . haha . ARRRGGGH. can we stop wasting money on lousy movies ?

i've put all i've got into my studies this round . if i felt i didn't do good enuf , it could only be the projects . i failed terribly again . oh well , heck it . =) the team was always there to support me and that is good enuf .

Saturday, March 04, 2006

ACT.373 - a fear in all our hearts.

it was DB training today again and it was HOT . scorching hot . haha . saw wei ling today too . guess i have to see her every week since her db club shifted their training location . haha .

well , today training was targeted at MR500 . =) felt good about it , and tomorrow here we go again . haha , i'm really tired manx . i felt i didn't sleep enuf . from 12am to 11am . yawwwwwnnn . it's been a long time ever since i slept well . Even for now , i'm really tired , that i can fall asleep right away. but nah ... not gonna waste my day . haha , think it as : " sleeping is a waste of time " thingy.

went shopping ytd , actually , u can call it window shopping , nth caught my eye at all . bags , jeans . nothing . and now i'm working for the security officer thingy , think i need a pair of sunglasses . mine broke , when i didn't even get a chance to wear it . it was rotting at home for 2 years .

how sickening is that . haha , and now i have to go hunt for another one . no OAKLEY for me cause i ain't got no $$$$ . haha . they not only burn my wallet , but my pants too .

haha , and just 3 hrs in town , got me real tired . haha .

tuesday , wed , thursday , sat , sun all dragonboat . so for those who wanna book me or ask me out , you've gotta try real hard . haha , cause i'm working too . but i'm sure i can spare time . haha .

oh ya , talk about gay stuff . freaking only guys msg me on friendster . and what else , gays . haha , ok lah , got girls also lah . but all of these ppl , i have no idea where they've popped out from .

my poly dudes are having chalet next week .... AWESOME ! say , we can organise a party with lots of chicks and only us , six guys , as the only guys ard ? =) ^__^

haha , just kidding . we'll be LONELY men except for one . haha .

anyway , see u guys , i try to arrange so i can come and have some fun . =)

Friday, March 03, 2006

ACT.372 - not appealing to women ?

haha , sometimes i wonder , am i not appealing to girls at all ? in any sense , appearance , looks , character , personality , whatever . haha , not at all ?

BUT WHY DO I FREAKING ATTRACT WHAT I DON'T WANNA ATTRACT .

guess you all know who they are . gays and more gays . -_-""

haha , maybe i should start looking real nerd now , with the specty look , black combed hair , decent polo tshirts and just a pair of normal jeans or berms .

with real lousy shoes and a unbranded bag . COOL isn't it ? never looked so nerd b4 . haha .

talk about bag , WAH KAO . i cannot even borrow my bro's crumpler bag , the red one , some people comment too small for my size , or gay . -__-"" i bring it out til dulan sia . haha , but why does it look so OK on my bro ? when he's bigger than me ? but not TALLER . WAAHAHAHAHA .

cutting hair tomorrow and that rocks . my hair is a bush and it needs an emergency 911 response to it . haha . shopping tomorrow with may anne too . SINCE she's free , HARDLY got time to go out with her one loh . 24/7 with her boy one . haha , that's a self pro claimed thing from me . not 100% accurate . haha .

i just felt like freaking spend on a pair of jeans. [ bcos there is no other good reason to spend on . i love food but , spending too much on food a bit ... haha . ]

E-commerce . last paper . and the most ... ARRRRRRRGGGGHHHH .... paper manx . ALL MEMORISE ONE . FOR WHAT SIA ??!!! such modules are a waste of my time , and everybody's time . business law is like so much easier , although it's memorising .

FPD rocks . =) i'm only slightly bad in e -commerce cause my common test is like 61 ? all bcos my brain is too small to shuff 11 pages of facts inside .

denny is going China for attachment . shall buy him a laptop for work , cause his computer is so so so lousy . [ talk cock nia lah ! don get excited hoh denny . =) ]

Thursday, March 02, 2006

ACT.371 - you're the answer i seek.

you keep me flying . you keep me smiling . you keep me safe in a crazy world. - corrinne may.

it's 2am and i'm still awake . studying . i can't wait for exams to be over . it's so SIAN to keep studying manx . my parents also can't stop nagging at me . why all of a sudden nag at me , when it's been such a long time since the 2 of u bothered bout my studies at all .

time and again i have shown how independent i can be in my studies , i don't not need attention like primary sch or sec sch anymore . come on , just let me freaking game or relax watching tv . i just hate it when my parents nag at me when i game . my luck gets the worst . esp during matches , i hate them to nag . or even bother .

Josh Groban is supposed to come last year , august . and i guessed he missed the trip. he's a singer i love very much . =)

haha , and i really hope to drop by in the US to catch just one show of Whose Line is it anyway . there's so much i wanna do . Go to Thailand . Taiwan b4 NS . maybe considering the US . haha , on such trips without my parents being sponsors , i usually go to places where i have friends .

maybe Europe . just gotta save the $$$ . lots of jobs coming up for me . Fashion Week . arrrggghh , hate modelling .

HAIR CUT is on the no.1 list , i'm so desperate for one . gonna get martin to drive me over to Ivan's PLACE =) bedok is so so so far .

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

ACT.370 - waiting.

Business Law is over . well , i think i will do not bad for that paper . Next up is some damn Facility Plannind and Design . this one's pretty easy too , I THINK . haha , and e-commerce which is totally memorising. WHAT LAME EDUCATION SYSTEM . all memorising .

it's been years since i hung out . study study study all day . dragonboat db db all day . DOTA DOTA DOTA all day . manx , gaming really sucks . haha , but i game , bcos i have to kill time . arrrrggghhh .

Recently , played against a korean team . I must say koreans are good , and they are just a regular team . anyway , good job guys . [ haha , i bet none of them know my blog anyway . -.- ]

ARRRGGGGHH ! i hate this kind of life . haha , i really am sick of gaming . Luckily , Treddy lent me his Initial D whole collection set , which at least kills some of my time . haha , i can't just keep gaming loh . i'm not a hardcore gamer anyway . haha .

so let's take a look what are the material stuff i need :
1 messenger bag for school.
another bigger bag for DB .
a hair cut plus some other services to it . maybe another colour ?
a new hp since dad's gonna buy me a new one .
a HP pouch .
a mousepad for gaming purposes.
a keyboard for gaming and work purposes.

a decent and nice jacket.
more shirts ?
1 levi's jeans ?

but what's on the no.1 list is definitely the hair cut . my hair is damn pathetic now , haha , i can't even bring myself out of my house .

Denny's going over to China and that sucks . another reduction in the gang . HOW I WISH i COULD GO OVERSEAS . i wanna leave everything behind for once . kind of signifies a new start when i come back . but i can't . cause I DON'T wanna miss out on the team for anything in the world baby .

NPDB all the way . =)

rockin' my world.