rockin' my world.: February 2006

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

ACT.369 - a moment to remember.

i will let go.

Sunday, February 26, 2006

ACT.368 - so distant.

sometimes , i wish to get more support from my family . esp dad . Dad always thinks i'm a lousy kid , that has no mind of his own . Does his things stupidly , get into dumb trouble .

but dear mum and dad , what is the most important thing in this world , is getting your support . not support from my girlfriend .

my bro wasn't there too . he's too caught up with his world , and he didn't realise the distance between the 2 of us is so far . he never understands , and never take a step nearer to listen .

But i guess mum is always there for me . thanks for everything .

There are times , i do very stupid stuff , and now i'm moving on to more crazier stuff ever . but it was just a moment of foolishness , and besides , kids are not really supposed to lead ultra obedient lives . i admit , i have done really wild stuff.

But that doesn't mean i have no direction in my life .

well , only my mum hears me out .

this family is so distant , i feel outcasted in the dark.

Saturday, February 25, 2006

ACT.367 - motivation.

DB training today . things were a little messy at the beginning . but i hope all is fine .

well , quite a lot of people think they've got leadership . or at least think others have great leadership . actually , all that is bullshit . Leadership is never a simple term to be used to describe just anyone . it's a far more complex term that can be used .

However , Leaders are always needed in this environment of ours . And the mistake of appointing the wrong people in a committee or a team , will result in unsatisfying consequences. and i dare say , i'm a freaking lousy leader .

Well , DB training is great , not many came , but at least the juniors experienced how rowing should be . i bet it was a very fruitful experience today . =)

life is resuming to how it should be , and that's great . haha , just that it's kind of smooooth , kind of not ups and downs. YES , DOWNS ! ==> EXAMS !

i've gotta find a job soon or something . find a source of income . cause it's time to SHOP once again . jeans , shoes , and 2 BAGS . i can't go on using each bag for 5 years . haha . people keep complaining about it . esp sec sch dudes in the past.

$$$$ and a car , i'll be so satisfied. haha . but of course i rather achieve them myself .

Friday, February 24, 2006

ACT.366- uber bummer.

my creative speakers are not performing . the subwoofer is spoilt . no more bass power . no more techno music . gotta go to creative to change . =( creative products sucks to the max .

ACT.365 - if we hold on to our dreams.

the Oscars are coming . haha , i have no particular fav female actress , but i have one for the guy . TOM HANKS ! =)

particularly impressed by the Terminal and Forest Gump . haha , esp the Terminal , the impression was embeddded deep within my mind , esp the part when he discovered his homeland was in a unstable political state . =) all the way , dude .

Zhang Zi Yi's acting is good too . The role of the blind girl in House Of Flying Daggers was ultra tough , but she did it beautifully . haha , i din realise she was a beautiful lady too . haha , i always tot she was just some chinese lady with an arrogant face .

4 - 5 months for Gi Kian to come back from the USA . shit , i haven got my license . i'm supposed to fetch him . arrrrrgggghhhh , i can't book my TP bcos of my final theory . fail and fail and fail . -___-"" what is wrong sia .

tomorrow is DB training day again . =) exams are coming , but HECK IT LAH . really wish to go penang international , or even thailand . hai , last year liao .

since lower seletar is so near , mum's gonna pop by . haha , she told me she will take leave on that day . how exaggerating . just to see a race her son gonna participate in ? haha . MAY ANNE , you better come HOH . you missed my NCC CLT passing out parade . HAHA . i STILL REMEMBERED . haha , just kidding . =)

Thursday, February 23, 2006

ACT.364 - it was all a fantasy world.

lately, i have been dreaming every night . can't remember all though , but i could remember yesterday's night one .

I drove my auntie's car , which was a Honda Civic EG6 , turbo charged . and i was high reving all the way from place to place . wahahaha, SHIOOK !

but i have no idea why all the dreams suddenly , haha , luckily not nightmares can liao . but they ain't sweet dreams either , except YTD's . =)

MR500 is at Lower Seletar Resevoir , MY HOUSE here nia ! HAPPY SIA ! haha , but i can't imagine touching the water of that place , that i have known for ten over years . seems a little not clean . haha , bedok resevoir is CLEAN .

i still remembered , i tried drinking the water there , back then in National Camp . way back in 2002 . haha , very sweet memories . that was the camp that all the guys tried to know all the pretty girls and everyone else . haha , i only know one new person . haha , sin wee .

and my hair is total crap now . MUST CUT IT SOON ! haha , Ivan's place is so hard to get to . wished i could drive there always .

i'm so into GAMING right now . cause there's practically nothing to do . =( gaming kind of suck ya know ?

18 and 19 march . MR500 . our first shot at National Champion . HERE WE GO BABY !

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

ACT.363 - futured .

ever wondered what will happen in the future ? you , your friends , and the world .

people change . and we can't stop it from happening . friendships draw part , or even closer . undesirable events occur and there's no reversing of it .

well , all this is reality we must accept . and time doesn't go back for us .

haha , i only know , we must cherish and appreciate everything we have now , and our friends.

like for now , i cherish every moment , every training i've spent with my teammates . once poly is over , we will never be able to gain this powerful bondage anymore. i know .. because i've experienced drifting apart before.

people change . and that's one of the many reasons why boyfriends and girlfriends break up after so many years . there's no stopping of it .

in like a mth and half , i'll be year 3 . last year for poly , last year to give a shot at national champion . i'm sure all of us wonder , what will we be on day 2 June Race and Regatta .

i'm fortunate . that's all i know . to have such parents , brother , best friend , buddies , ncc guys , and db teammates . haha , ya lah , team huat forever and ever with the prawn mee .

many times , opportunities and chances have been thrown at me . and i don't take them . both love and career . well , if i have taken all those chances , i will be on the same level as my brother .

haha , and i've got blasted by Doris for the first time . if any lecturer can see anything unhappy bout me and my presentation , that only means there's a lot more room for improvement . guess i'm not too ready for the working society . haha .

i fear for my attachment in september , cause i am such a sleeeper ! haha . i can practically sleep everywhere . hope heaven blesses me soon with some miracle medicine that stops me from my incredible ability .

wah , i blog til damn rojak sia , no head no tail , everything also say . haha , i now damn tired , i don't even know what i'm saying . haha , i only know , PARTY AFTER the exams .

ACT.362 - fly away , girl.

since you chose this path , i hope you take care . it will be a rough journey , and i will do anything if i can help.

Monday, February 20, 2006

ACT.361 - it was a long goodbye.

had our QMGT presentation . obviously , i didn't perform up to expectations . heck it . it isn't any of my concern now . i only knew i was real tired of it all.

did gym with shun de . was talking with him the prospects of the business company . telling him i had no motivation to do the job . but right now , just heck it and DO IT ! Nissan Silvia S15 , WAIT FOR ME ! $75000 . [ no mazda rx-7 , cause it will kill me with its fuel consumption and maintenance . ]

then the guys went for buffet at Excelsoir hotel . haha, zhe cha buffet . SHIOK ! it was the one that i ate with gi kian and lian hua dang the other time . haha , but after spending so much ... i'm empty in my pockets . haha . eat tau sar piah for lunch and dinner lah . =)

i have to prepare another gaming match with bro's clan soon . i don find sufficient time to even train for it . and i don't really wanna disappoint my guys either . haha ... what a life isn't it ?

GYM is the word for these 2 months .

Sunday, February 19, 2006

ACT.360 - i love u like no other.

i still can remember on Valentine's day that pearl white rx-7 ... SWEE ! haha . ok lah , don talk about it again .

going to Eric's place to do QMGT project . the last project of it all . then exams . then holidays . which equals to PARTY ! and intense db training . =(

haha , i bet this time , db training will be crazy. the guys have no time to lose . not even a second . haha , i bet i will wake up in pain every single day .

the 2006 new honda civic is COOL ! i'm still awaiting subaru's new STI' 06 . wahahah ... kick EVO's ASS !

and please mazda come out rx-9 or whatever . rx-8 is just toooooooo slow . stylish , good cornering , value packed . BUT IT AIN'T FAST ! we can't rely on old machines like rx-7 that will rip our wallets because of fuel and maintenance .

i figured it's time to leave everything behind . i thought about what i have been doing for the past 3 years . wasn't fruitful at all . haha , just leave it for everything to decide for themselves .

saw ying hui the other day on Sat . haha , didn't have time to talk to her though , the mrt train was leaving . haha , she looks just a bit different but quite minimal . haha , was reminded of all the past . was sweet . but i have no idea why the events in the past happened . the present me is thinking , what the heck was the past me thinking ? haha . but i guess things happened for a reason .

what a day. intense training starts tomorrow !

ACT.359 - shou fang kai.

finally , Training day is here ! the day started off with the run . manx , i was lagging behind . LIKE WHAT THE HELL . haha ... maybe i haven ran for too long ? although i ate my breakfast quite late .. i didn't felt that " too full " was the problem . i just feel ... it must be that i didn't run for a long long time .

But it's OK ! running stamina is easy to gain back . just the muscles in ur body ain't . haha , that's why i still look smaller than what i was , a YEAR before today . or somewhere ard there lah .

haha , shit lah , but i really need $$ . haha , but i can't work . and plus i am ultra not motivated to work .

taking a long break from everything . =)

oh crap , my friends are driving here and there . make me so so so envious ! me can only drive at night . suxxxx . haha , at night i lazy to go out liao loh.

totally speechless to the occuring events . irreversible and nothing can be done . no reasoning behind it all . for 6 years going.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

ACT.358 - our dream.

QMGT and GLMGT test is over . what a relief . but that just means the exam is real soon . haha , late nights again . I MEAN , late nights the day b4 the test . NOT every night . =) haha . i won't freaking study every night . i'm so so lazy.

and when exams are coming .. that means ... MR500 is COMING ! 500m race , i heard at raffles marina . changed location ... and i heard the condition there is .. insane. We're gonna have one hell of a tough time .

haha , anyway , i felt like it's a long time since River Regatta . haha .. i can't wait for some ACTION . but look at me now . haven't been training gym for a long time . all thanks to studies , projects . and add in a bit of laziness.

that's why i have decided to take the entire holiday off for gymming . No working no nothing . just gym , chill with the dudes , and have fun . haven rested my mind since last semester , cause holidays were crazy . with work ,training and gym . i could easy die from fatigue . haha . at that time i misssed sleep so muccch !

dragonboat . i missed it . and i misss the guys a lot sia . training is just stood down for 2 days and i start to miss everything . haha , now i've realised , how come i didn't feel anything when i lost touch with basketball .

life is now about study . project . dragonboat . gaming . driving . and of course my fav. SLEEP and SLACK. =)

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

ACT.357 - lovin' u each and every day .

started off the day , in sch ! meet the guys in the IS team , and our lecturer . haha , she seems like the naggy sort , but she's real nice and patient . this shows we shouldn't really judge anyone by looks . she rocks ! =)

and ya , the other time , when i was learning WAA in year 1 sem 2 , i told myself , that the lecturer [ forget what name ] , she's someone i must learn from , and i wanna follow wherever she go . haha ... but that's impossible lah . former lecturer from NTU . class didn't like her .. but i love her . she has too much for me to learn from . haha . wish to see her again . =)

Valentine's day is here , and here we are , all single ! not really lah , haha , only me , denny , junxian and ting xian dateless .

But before i met the guys , i caught up with Sin Wee , the girl i knew from National Camp in sec 3 , haha .... great to see her , but she has changed quite a bit lah . i bet i looked real different to her . haha .. it's been 4 years !

met the guys and had cafe cartel ! haha , sick of St louis pork ribs . i'm not gonna eat that again . haha .

then came the most spectacular and best part of the day ....................

my love of all time appeared !

MAZDA Rx-7 SPIRIT R ! pearl white , armed with twin turbo , roaring across the street . SIMPLY GORGEOUS and caught the attention of all .

ARRgggghHHH ! Undying and everlasting love for that one and only car .

and it's a Spirit R . limited edition . i must have been so lucky to catch a glimpse of it . haha , not a glimpse .. but totally admiring its beauty as it made its spectacular entrance .

haha , it's the most gorgeous rx-7 i have seen . beautiful i say . haha , that instance , i felt like i have seen a shooting star that would appeared in only 100 million years .

and this must a sign . of good luck . $__$ HUAT ARH !

the last time i saw a Spirit R , was the day before first papers of O levels . haha .. GOOD LUCK SIA !

this day just rocks . =)

ACT.356 - fore v e r love.

Valentine's day is here . Nope , no date , no nothing ...

But i love this day , why ? cause it's bachelor's nite ! with my lian hua dang guys . haha ...

Last year one was great . everybody was complaining and complaining .. cause we were a bunch of losers , bachelor guys . haha ... we seemed like losers .. but i bet we loved each other's company . =)

this year is a little different . Js is with his girl . Eric boy has a new date , i have no idea from where . haha , i hope even after this day , all goes well for him . Gi kian is in US. Jia en in NS .

haha ... 4 men down. this is gonna be one real small gathering . oh well ...

Valentine's day . seems like any other normal day . just having the streets filled with couples , whispering sweetnothings everywhere . young adults selling roses on the street . haha , quite interesting though .

it's ok to be single ... when you have such great buddies with u .

haha , and i'm happy for those who are really madly in love . esp 2 of my close pals . edwin and may anne. haha , everything is so sweet . But edwin , please hoh , don't anyhow ask me go whack people k ... haha , bashing people up bcos of anger is unwise . Bashing people bcos they went totally overboard then is a damn good reason . haha ..

sounds ridiculous ? this is something girls don't understand . Yi Qi between guys . i have no idea why this is embedded within me too .

Happy V day to all . =)

gotta have faith.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

ACT.355 - the efini .

ervin is telling me how fast the evolution is . 0-100km below 5 secs . that is incredibly fast , fastest in the jap industry . even faster than our dear friend , Subaru WRX STI. but subaru is launching their brand new STI this year , to kick evolution's ass again . cause when i know mitsubishi is always try to rise , subaru is there to kick them down again . =)

well , i feel mitsubishi shouldn't be so dumb to launch their models so quickly in every year . take a look at mazda rx-7 , the new launch was after 12 years ? i feel sad for owners of the Evo 8 and 7 . cause their value of the car drop quite a bit ya know . evo7 is so freaking cheap now , but it's not a slow car either . but it's just their newer borned brothers get all the credit.

oh well , all the car talk . i haven't even freaking pass my final theory . if not i already booked my TP le . damn.

DB was great ytd ! first time training in sea, today i have ache on my arms and shoulders . Ytd was a tough one , the boat just seemed to heavy and it can't freaking move . however .. i always felt training is damn effective and all that . You may ask me why the hell i spend almost my entire day in kallang , bringing a huge bag , get myself all tired out , and travelling so far . i say it's all worth it and fun . =) there are many things people outside can't understand about a dragonboater.

i missssss driving ! i can't wait to get my very own car and challenge Rifle Range road . haha , i wish to get Js into this frenzy as well . =) when the 2 of us freaking grow up , get our own mod cars and head there for every weekend . =) you never know , either of me or my buddies may end up Champion in the Drift Event in Sepang. haha . and last year was a freaking Toyota Starlet that won !

ok , now , i know you guys wanna ask me about Valentine's day . YES , i have no date , and i have no idea to date as well . haha , but most probably i'll be spending the day with my guys , the LIAN HUA DANG Bachelor's grp . gi kian is gonna miss this out . =)

i don't see V day as any special day now . it's just a day to hang out with my guys and have fun ! f*** it with the couples and dating shit . i'm fine the way i am now .

i bought V day pressie for May Anne though , lol , actually it's Xmas lah , but no time go buy and an awefully good lobang came by . =)

For God's sake , Mum please stop the girlfriend thingy. i have no girlfriend , no one in sight to date , not interested in anybody. and it's not that i don't want a gf , it's i can't find one. yes , i would very much love to bring one girl for u , but God made it so that it's all fated that i'm gonna be single . Bro has 3 gf's since i had a gf , so WHAT ? it also doesn't mean i suck as a bf. ok , well , i suck . very much . is that a good reason to tell u i have no gf ?

ACT.354 - was it all or nothing.

my mum kept wanting me to know this girl from her workplace . i simply told her : " no . " "no " " no" . and the last time she asked , i just simply said : " i'm not dating anybody for now . "

in this world , there is no such thing called love for me .

well , taking a break from it all ... moving on to our objectives and goals . national champion . it's the last year . so that's why i have decided to make full use of the holidays . =)

studies has got us mad. i've missed my secondary school days . i've missed the holidays before 2nd year , with guys like , kok yi , js , rajeev, shun de , jun wei and wai leong . life was all good back then . =) really loved such a carefree life.

i am all so tired . of it all.

warmth is all lost in this world . in my world.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

ACT.353 - free .

this few weeks have been so busy , flooded with projects . mum has been rushing me to go to the eye specialist all this while . but i can't afford the time to go . although i'm going through the crap everyday .. but i really can't afford to get myself healed.

haha , i've been really staying up these past few days , and i'm so tired . just to complete some freaking website thingy . which is so dumb .

my mind is not working well . haha , notice that during such a period ,i'll become real clumsy , stupid and slow in thinking. in fact , nothing gets through .

oh well ... year 2 . my last sem is so much better. this sem is SATANIC ! haha .

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

a opportunity.

my clan mate from op zero , m'sia guy is coming over SG to start up a biz , and apparently he's still an undergraduate . haha , have no idea why he's gonna start a biz b4 graduation , but sure am i excited .

he's looking us up , and i'm very interested in reviewing his business concepts and so on . Planning to get one of the other clan mates over , and review it . and if i can , i can help him out and most probably i can . and hook the business up with some lobangs .

i am so excited and i can't wait. no intention of getting hired by him , but it's a good opportunity to learn , what goes on behind a business . =) can't miss such a chance with a good buddy.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

ACT.352 - a rough time .

the db guys and coach had a talk today . well , hope all goes fine , achieving our goals . and i really wish for the holidays to come . it's time to get back what i've lost last year . It's really stupid of me to think of it . haha , well , it's all in the past .

Planning not to work this holiday ... rather , might wanna go to Thailand for a getaway with the DB guys . unfortunately , KOK YI HAS ATTACHMENT . what a spoiler . haha . I figured i really need a good time after all this shit . =) and thailand is ultra BUDGET ! haha . with help of course .

so freaking fast , i'm gonna be year 3 . i really missed the times in year 1 , CS with the guys ! haha ,we still forth in ngee ann somemore . really missed it all .

times flies . and what is lost can never be regained.

Sunday, February 05, 2006

ACT.351 - an angel.

Dreamweaver . QMGT . FPD project . E-commerce tutorial . all in 3 days , 4 days , 5 days . this is insanity .

Dreamweaver itself can kill me . and i don't wanna go through what my bro went through , 10 days without sleeping .

my right shoulder is having this sharp pain , haha , maybe doing work with the mouse for too long . dreamweaver is sickening !

whatever it is ... i am ultra pissed and frustrated . ARRRGGGH !

i just wanna fly away from here.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

ACT.350 - if i could , i wanna start it all back at one.

caught the movie Fearless with the guys , and i think it's cool . there's essence in the movie . maybe girls that don't really like fighting won't like it , cause there's quite a lot of fighting and all that . haha , but i can't deny , it's great . and freak the guy who wanted to check our IC , i'm freaking 18 going on 19. And don't i look like 18 to u ? or 20 ?

Training today was great . Xcampus won first , but i'm so tired . Ah Huat was giving debrief and i was standing , dozing off . haha , and that wasn't my best technique yet .

more projects coming right up . i'm off.

i've got lost in this crazy world.

ACT.349 - break pt .

it's the first time in my life , i did such a thing like that , guess i ain't that decent anymore . But we guys sure had fun , luckily we didn't get into trouble . Everything went well , but at the end , a mitsubishi Evo that popped out at my house area the past few days , spoilt everything . Then i got into more trouble.

But amazingly , just like a blessing from God , the problems vanished . But i don't think it would be that simple .

YA ! i'm gonna order tau sar piah again from Ah Huat ! cause i just love it to the max ~! =)

Well, today's supposed to be bro's bd party at home . He invited like 20 plus ppl . but only 15 can make it , due to NS duties . He seems a lil unhappy about it , cause i only see 3 at my place now . So i was wondering , so is this it ? haha , if it was , it sure sucked !

I wouldn't organise a party for my bd , i would love to spend it with my buddies outside or with my loved one . =) wouldn't it be much better ?

But , i never had any fascinatiing bd outings b4 out there . =( the best was in 2003 , ncc guys ~ =)

supposed to go Mr Lai's place today .. but i can't make it bcos of training . Well , that sucks .. cause i really wanna go and catch up with the guys . I seem so freaking distant from everyone .

oh well.... what a week . still gotta rush project . haha ... anyway , driving rocks !

Thursday, February 02, 2006

ACT.348 - my love.

Global Logistics presentation over . =) dreamweaver , Quality Management , and E-commerce left . in 4 days .

Check this out : my schedule on sat

X campus run .
Final theory test
DB training
Bro's BD .

and on friday night , my guys are coming over to do QMGT project . haha , so that means no rest . then next morning X campus 4.8 km .

haha , i am so dead . I'm already so tired now , gotta do a bit of QMGT first .

DB training just now .. haha , had great company with the guys despite the unhappy stuff . haha , as all of us know , life is full of ups and downs .

As andy always said , life isn't a bed of roses !

Took Wai Leong's lorry for a ride just now ... and i must say .. lorry and car a lot of difference sia ! stresssed . haha .

i'm addicted to driving . =)

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

ACT.347 - Drift.

Finally the first step towards driving license , my first practical lesson . I've completed like so much , everything except reverse and parking . And it all started in the public roads , not circuit . haha , and amazingly , the entire car didn't jerk front and forth , because of the clutch . however , the car did stall engine . =(

Drive car stress sia ! So many images and everything else . But never mind lah , first lesson nia . =)

haha , i'm such a one handed guy , now i have to learn to utilise my left hand . however , when i get my license , haha , i'm still gonna stick with one hand . Like my usual style , all these while.

Projects and more projects . sigh . X campus this saturday , 4.8KM . i'm such a old freak and i haven't ran that distance for a long time . Have Aquathlon also . stressed , scared i not performing sia .

Haha , too much CNy goodies and fast food . fast food really makes me sick sia .. haha , then in school , also don't know what to eat , it's always the usual stuff .

Open house starts tomorrow , and that means our school is gonna be flooded with lots of kids .

i'm so so tired today . i'm like not contributing to any project lately , cause my mind is so dead . pretty bad excuse though.

i guess all that means lots of red bull and coffee ! =) off i go . presentation tomorrow.

ACT.346 - a long goodbye.

started off the day at joo chiat temple , then martin's place , got a taste of my fav tau sar piah again ... haha , i must mention , it's HEAVENLY ! . was there for a while then off i go to Ting Xian's place .

haha , we did our stuff , mahjong , gaming , and lots of BAH KUA ! i am in love with bah kua too . =) and somehow , we always use TX's place for one thing . haha , fated sia .

then the dudes came over my place , andy joined in later .. and it was KTV session . haha , of course , andy as our usual entertainer . had lots of fun , just that it isn't as happening as b4 . no jian sheng , no jia en , no GI KIAN ! the usual girls weren't ard too .

haha , Gi kian , u don get to enjoy BAH KUA there man ! haha , quick come back lah . but by the time u come back , it will be the time i leave . lol .

great fun with lian hua dang as always . =) so glad , we're as comprimising as b4 .

but on the other side , things ain't getting too well .

school starts tomorrow , and that will be the craziest period i will ever have in my education lifetime.

if only there's more tau sar piah , to motivate me . =)

rockin' my world.