rockin' my world.: November 2005

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

ACT.302 - Future .

i'll be off to Penang from 1st to 5th dec . my HP will be down most probably . So anything important , drop me a mail or a message at friendster .

If you want anything from penang , that one can don't leave a message or let me know . =) lol.

It'll be a so called " break " from all this urban life . i didn't take a break at all ever since exams ended in 16 sept . i was working crazily everyday til school reopen . After i come back .. i've gotta get on with my work and studies . =(

meanwhile , i'll be ultra busy this 2 days . Gotta get a board shorts and a MMC card at sim lim . haha .. then i gotta deal with my project shit too .

what a life . i wish i had a car . =)

Monday, November 28, 2005

ACT.301 - A blink of an eye .

Today's a brand new day . Regatta's over . We are all moving on . Penang race up next ... will be leaving on thursday , think coming back on monday ? haha , i also not so sure myself .

On my way to sch today , yeap , that long 852 trip , the flashes of the race kept appearing in my mind . haha , i don't know whether those are positive tots or negative ones .

But anyway , i registered final theory today . =) haha , one burden off . and i went to PHS to get my Award of distinction 2003 . that mr ang .. don know pass to who . oh great .

Haha , anyway , i went to nyp to catch up with Angelia and SHUN LU catch up with Hui Xuan . haha ... nyp's a pretty great place to be at . i think TP as well . =)

a year passed so fast . time flies . and i realised ... you're out of my life . it's kind of like ... i don't know who you are anymore , i don know whether u exist . I won't wanna know how you're doing , you lead ur life , i lead mine . Life's great the way it is .

i love this way of life . The way , how i led my life last time b4 i met you . Life was all about my friends and dragonboat . I don't need heartbreaking moments to stir up or spice up my life .

life rocks . =)

ACT.300 - Tears .

the end of Regatta . Thank you for the year 3s , it's a memorable experience .

We weren't very lucky , but we still made it through . as Ah Huat has said .. we gotta suck our thumb and just go .

We lost in our ivp race , getting 2nd , losing to NTU . As soon as i came up ... i saw the juniors , all smiling and cheering for us . They welcomed us back to shore with open arms ... i'm touched . Very .

Our guys cried , i almost couldn't hold back my tears . But we all knew , we did our best .

it was all we could have done . thank you all.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

ACT.299 - dogfight .

We made it through the qualifying rounds , moving on to National Championship Semis and IVP finals . It was a dogfight .

A year has passed . it seems like yesterday , that my seniors got crashed by TP. It seems like yesterday .. when i was in the juniors boat and we were knocked out in the first round .

.... so much has changed .

Let us create a hell of performance tomorrow .

ACT.298 - the day of truth .

the last race for the year 3s . oliver and the other gentleman . i'll put it all in for you guys .

The day of truth is today . do your best , NPDB .

Friday, November 25, 2005

ACT.297 - left unsaid .

1 more day to Regatta . a few more hours to my basic theory test . i haven't study well enuf , and i can't lose out on my first try .

arrrrrggghh , fuck it . my dad actually so supportive of me going for car license . now i have to get $$ from my mum to pay . it was all my dad .... how come it's not him paying ? i know , she's earning peanuts , how can i have the heart to take from her . i feel the heartbreak for her . but my heart's burning desire to drive is raging . do i wait it out ? or do i go with it ? or do i pay for it myself ? i'm freaking broke . i'm gonna get my pay tomorrow , and i know it's already gone .

fuck . fuck it all .

i'm going mad . i was this close ... to be closer to automotive .

i'm a fucking broke arse . if i ever have any gf now .. i bet she's gonna suffer . I don't know whether it's my allowance to little , or just that i'm the messed up guy .

hai ... i feel the heartache for my mum . she's willing to do anything for her son . her once so fucked up son .

i wish i'm one of the smart and lucky guys , to already start making it big when they are in poly only . like that IBM guy , who can even buy a BMW during year 3.

if only .

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

ACT.296 - limit break.

it's been cold lately ... and what i realised ... i have no FREAKING jacket , sweater , or whatever there is to keep me warm . haha ... arrrrrgggghhh .. i regretted so so so much , for not getting that adidas jacket back then ~! only available at suntec , 69.90 , and it's out of STOCK ~! and probably not coming back .

darn . now i need another solution .

had training yesterday ... well , it was ok .. but my back feels weird right now ... i better take a good break before the race .. for those who wanna support me arh , can come Raffles place , beside UOB plaza at clarke quay there ... want support me , must bring lots of chicks come also k ~! and then must come out a good cheer for me hoh ! haha .. just kidding , not only support for me , but for the ngee ann dragonboat team . =)

haha .. it's been cold . take care everyone .

Monday, November 21, 2005

ACT.295 - the 7 wonders of my life .

the 7 wonders of my life :

family.
May Anne
Lian Hua Dang
team HUAT
Ngee Ann Dragonboat team
NCC .

mazda rx-7.

haha , just putting these down for fun ... thinking bout 7 wonders of the world and all that ...

Ok , so we had training ytd . and as we were walking to KFC from kallang , i had the closest encounter with a moving taxi . He horned a few times , and i didn't much care , i din think it was for me ... and he just dashed thru , it was just a few centimetres that he will knock me down . Daring , challenging . it looks like taxi drivers are the most daring drivers of all , trust me .

i went to Nokia to collect my phone from them , and i'm relieved i found someone to go with me , may anne ~! ok .. i was kind of pissed with the girl who served me . i'm never going to suntec nokia , only wheelocks for me now . On the collection of my phone , i reported another problem , and she asked me to come next time . what the heck .. couldn't she just ask the technician what's wrong ?

i've gotta rush 2 projects , one report by tonight . what a busy semester ....

oh well .

haha , as i was waiting for may anne in SP .... i realised .. i missed GI KIAN ~! i was like as if antcipating to see gi kian , while waiting for may anne .

will only see him in july next year . that's still long though .... take care my friend .

Sunday, November 20, 2005

ACT.294 - perfect storm .

last sea training session . next week is Singapore River Regatta . gonna put in all i can , baby ~!

just had a talk with shevon ... i realised , that this world is so complicated ... it's so hard to find true love . it's all really up to God's will .... well , i'm so lazy to date right now ~~LOL

my pride is my weakness . darn ....

i'm feeling kind of low now . i'm just so tired . i wanna stop the shit that's leaking from the pipe above me . haha .. arrrrrggghhh , a little emotional today . guess i'll be fine tomorrow ...

oh man .. at a time like this .... what can motivate me to strive on ? it's you ... mazda rx-7.

Friday, November 18, 2005

ACT.293 - why did things end up in such an ugly state?

That was the question you asked . But think a little deeper bout this qn .... so why did things just end up in such an ugly state ? you'll find the answer not within me , but ends up in you .

If you think i'm immature on this matter...... think again .

Regatta is drawing near . I'm making good progress , no distractions making me lose my focus for now . The last race for the year 3s ... i wonder how's it gonna be . Well , i don't know , but i'm gonna put in my best . for them .

so i skipped school today again . haha , why ? cause i reached home at 12 ytd , and i was just too tired to wake up . Then i tot about .. today whole day don't go sch lah , cause , might as well do my QMGT report .

Tuedsay was 2.4 km test . haha , i broke my record , with a 8.49 mins . and i have gained another 3kg . haha .. i don't know whether that's good or bad . but the other time , i was 72.5 kg , that was way pathetic .

haha , i missed the tom yam steamboat already ~! i can't DENY MY LOVE FOR TOM YAM ~!

bcos i'm a thai descendant ? haha ... anyway , the team is proposing to go to THAILAND next year for competition .... HUAT ARH ~!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

ACT.292 - something's gone from my life.

my 3230 ultra high pitch alarm din wake me up, i wonder what happened cause i don even hear anything ~! and i don think mum cancelled the alarm ... somehow , mobile alarms don like me very much .

chyrstal got me to vote for some Seventeen Uni pageant . totally awesome , haha , if i managed to get the tickets , it'll be my first event in the esplanade . wahahaha ... hope all my DB guys will go . =) **EVIL** intentions .

Anyway , Martin set me up with some date with Megan's good friend tomorrow . Probably only going for some movie , i'm more looking forward to catch up with him though . haha .. not so much of knowing the new girl or whatever it is .

Basic theory next week . HUAT ARH ~! i'm gonna complete one shot head shots , straight in the row . i won't let my dad down . =)

Regatta is in 1 week plus time . Time really flies . Ngee Ann Dragonboat team ... we've braved through so much . this is the last race for my seniors , Oliver and Guys . It's gotta be a memorable one .

24 men . 1 fire . 1 spirit .

Monday, November 14, 2005

ACT.291 - a fine day .

i went for my x -ray today and got my 3230 ~ !

so i started off the day with me oversleeping and sore eyes . arrrggghhhh , what a pair of eyes i've got .

haha ... 3230 is cool . i din wanna get a power phone , cause i have no $$$ and mum has no $$$ . i would love a N70 though =) but this phone is good enuf , besides .. i don even use the camera much . haha , a guy has almost no use for the camera if he doesn't have a gf . lol .

then i went along with HUAT guys for dinner at Tiong Bahru plaza steamboat . it is SHIOK ! the tom yam is just so shiok , i haven't tasted good tom yam for a very long time .... haha , and i can't deny my love for it ! 6.80 bucks, what a way to spend for good tom yam !

haha , so now my house is filled with phones . 7250 , 6230I , 3110 , GD88 , E680 and 7250 . haha , 7250 , GD88 and 3230 being mine . i hate the 7250 for the button interface .. it's just so terrible . i love the GD88 but it's dying out on me . =(

i remembered that very day when i got my GD88 ... haha . can't forget , still remember .

oh yeah , i saw my senior Joanna in MANGO today . haha , wen zhong lah , wanna get some crap for his god sis . and we had to go into MANGO and do unmanly stuff . but it was great to see her , she's one of my FAV seniors ever in PHS . =)

i've gotta extract teeth pretty soon . have to waste $$$ again .... the bottom line : $$ keeps the world spinning .

Saturday, November 12, 2005

ACT.290 - i don't need you in my life.

I am TIRED ~! after training , we guys went to send Oliver off , he's heading for Germany . =) see him in a week . We are only left with 2 plus weeks to Regatta .

i got my 523 jeans liao ~ ! =) my first levi's jeans ! haha , i had one , but i bought it from queensway 89.90 and i think it's a fake . and you know .. who are in charge of the levi's store in Queensway .

Anyway .... it's something to be happy about ~!

haha , i'm gonna get my phone soon , gotta wait anxiously for 25 dec . cause there will be xmas promotions !! haha ...

i promised to go Shopping with May Anne after i get my pay . oh man .. let me think , b4 i even spend my salary , i already know it's gone . how to go shopping man??!! Gotta plan properly le ... if not i go window shopping sia ! ~~

ACT.289 - the one who was there for me 6 years.

hey may anne , remember how we knew each other ? haha ... i bet u have the same reaction when u think about it as well . either smile or laugh . it's such an amazing way how we knew each other . that's what i call .. fate . Fate arranged for us to meet and know each other . and i thank God for you .

You've been there for me all 6 years . and Encounting . You've never failed to be there . Not even one time . =)

remember , i'll be there for you . always .

ACT.288 - immature me .

oh well . what can i say . at this point of time , i hope for myself to be more mature . But my progress is already at its peak and it can't go anywhere further .

God , give me time .

keep my childish tots away . This isn't the way i do my stuff . oh well ....

I don't have time to lose . Regatta is near , and i cannot afford to lose any second , not preparing myself for it .

do your best ngee ann DB . =)

Thursday, November 10, 2005

ACT.287 - the biggest fool ever .

Maybe yesterday's post was pretty immature . Besides , love is about letting someone go . Love speaks of chemistry as well .

There's a devil in every each of us . And i'm letting mine take full control this time . Where anger and hatred will rule . Sorry , i'm doing this , is for my personal selfishness . I wanna move on .

i laughed at myself . still laughing . Why didn't i heeded advice when it was presented right in front of me ? by my bestie somemore . Bcos i was stubborn , i saw that ray of hope and didn't wanna let go . I laugh at myself again . Being played by God again .

What a rollercoaster ride . Guys , take it from me , cause even the good guys get burnt .

Well , i won't let anyone console me . Cause i wanna get through this myself , and besides ...if i really wanted someone to be here with me , i only wish for one . The one that has been there for me all 6 years .

Besides , i had to suffer all this , i would say , is bcos of my personal stupidity . I allowed myself to take a step , but went in too deep .

The worst thing u can do to urself , is to lie to yourself . but it's the only thing you can do .

I'm in for a changing process again . when does this have to stop . i don't know myself anymore . i'm scared , really scared .

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

ACT.286 - how did i fall in love with u.

My life was smooth-going and peaceful before i met u. I've forgotten what love was and everything else . My heart was at zero degrees .

Then i met u , just like an angel , you brought warmth into my life . We shared moments that seemed joyful . You made my day , every single day i've spent with you . The moments we laughed , we would do stupid stuff to each other , i could remember it all .

I remember that night , when u cried in front of me . A broken heart , i so much wanted to heal that night . And i told myself , i wanna help you recover . i wanna help u gain faith . I wanted to prove .... good men still exists .

We became close , and you became the best thing that ever happened to me . And one day , you asked me : " what would you choose , rx-7 or me ? "

Every living being on this earth that knows me , knows how much i am attached to the rx-7 . my attachment to that car , is almost abnormal . But i still said ... you .

I remembered that very day , when we became suspecting each other . it was 27 july . And that day , would stay forever in my heart . Cause .. it was that day , the day that FD meant nothing no more .

I couldn't love FD anymore . i couldn't feel that FD was part of me anymore . i felt that ... i have lost him .

As we spent much time together , i didn't visit the gym like how i used to . i've lost my everything , i've let my guys down . i became a weakling . i'm sorry , gentlemen . Forgive me , for giving up once .

You changed me . a lot . If you haven't noticed , it's because we are very far apart right now .

I fell in love with you . I was willing to give up everything for you . But i regretted , giving everything in . I've lost many , lost much . I knew i told ting xian , i gave all i have to give , what is left is my life .

It was a moment to remember . The smiles and everything . You were there for me when i always needed you .

But for some reason , you left me . i couldn't stop it within my means . And i asked God why . He gave me no answer .

I cried . over and over again .

Then i cried no more . i told myself , love is shit . I can never trust love anymore . I told myself , and made myself strong , even if i have to live without feelings , i'll abide .

I laugh at myself at the end of the day . What a fool . i fallen too hard , too fast this time .

One by one , i shall erase those memories . In no time , you'll leave my mind . i won't remember you anymore .

Goodbye to you. My guardian angel ? It was all lies . lies . lies .

Monday, November 07, 2005

ACT.285 - I'll keep a part of you , with me .

A beautiful love story , comes with a beautiful love song .
This is my favourite english song by a female artiste . =)

my all time bestie , EDWIN , presented me with my birthday present ... he gave me the package , and i have seriously no idea what it is . until i reached home ... it was a ..... JESSICA ALBA CALENDAR ! LOL!!! he keep telling me , if he didn't see this , he seriously didn't know what to get . haha , thanks pal ...

He must have tot of Jessica Alba cause when we were working , we have to pass by this CLEO mag advertisement featuring jessica alba in Jurong East MRT , and i was like ... SHE's a CHICK ! haha , keep saying everyday .

and ta da , he've got me a Jessica Alba calendar so i can look at her everyday . LOL ! haha .. it's great ... =)

what a tiring day . tuck in early man !

ACT.284 - i'll fly high . i know it .

today was presentation of QMGT project . yeap , good job guys . But be prepared for even more . it was the first taste of success but we ain't there yet .

We chionged the project at yuan hao's house yesterday . and yes , it was last minute . And with a Ng Hong Bin Ben who was already so so tired after training , he was definitely not in the state of mind to THINK . haha , but great job guys . and yes , MAN UTD WON CHELSEA ! i fell asleep on the couch when i was watching the match and chatting with von . haha .

After project , we entirely slept in Facilities Planning Design class , my guys slept , and i unknowingly went into deep sleep .

So after project , i head to the Dentist with Mum , to check up my distorted teeth . haha , great personality humans there , but ... haha , the dentist treats me a little like a kid . But it's ok anyway .

i've gotta go for X-ray and probably a extraction . =( my teeth was all so great b4 this , but now it has to be like that . WHY ??!!

And my eyes are into this sore eye season . haha , hasn't stopped since Sava sprint . arrrggghhh , what's up sia .

i was just like a child that's lost his way . i had no direction , there was no one to guide me . But now , i know where i'm going . And i'm heading full speed ahead towards my dream . i know for sure , i am gonna fly high .

Saturday, November 05, 2005

ACT.283 - if only i understood all these earlier .

i started thinking back , on the events last year . i reflected . if only i understood all these earlier .

i always told may anne , you are immature . No , i'm wrong , i'm the f***ed up guy who's immature . there are many things i've failed to understand , which could have eased the obstacles around her , but , i made things worse .

And if only by then i understood all that earlier , i would have faced 2005 with that maturity level. But it was all too late .

Soul searching is so important . that i've realised .

haha , yesh may anne , i know u would tell me , don't bring up the past . no lah , i'm just merely reflecting .

i'm tired . it's hard ... for someone who doesn't have much of a social life , to dragonboat and gym everyday , and chiong his studies and projects . it's hard ... it's like .. i don get to enjoy my young days . the only enjoyment i get , is during or after training , when i hang out with my db mates. oh well .

haha , oh well . haha , and wen zhong don't be sad . it's merely somebody's case , and if it happened on u , wouldn't u be devastated ? Be prepared for such shit when u enter a relationship . Been there , done that .

3 times , my r/s , it's all been like that . that's why u told me , i think it's a very natural and common thing . If only the other party was stronger , she wouldn't be affected so much .

That's the trouble of love .

** i have a pretty good feeling , all that rollercoaster rides are gonna end . very soon .

Friday, November 04, 2005

ACT.282 - rotary . love at first sight.

today was a sleeping school day . i reached sch at 730 , had breakfast and read Strait times . went to E - commerce [ wong soon fatt ] and his words just seem to be a lullaby to me and a few secs , i'm down . haha , whoever lessons , nothing interesting , just pure talk , i'll sleep .

Next was Biz law in lecture theatre . same thing , sleep . :S

QMGT project up next monday . my mind is still not the groove , i need to change gears fast . I have much to do and there's training on sat and sunday . everyone's first week is still happy happy enjoying , and i'm the ass that has to complete a project . insanity . so much to do , yet only 10% . what the crap . where is all that justice , GOD !

Thursday, November 03, 2005

ACT.281 - a new me .

first of all , i wanna say , sorry to my buddies from my class , if i do sound a little harsh and all that when i demanded for the components of the project , cause i seldom notice my tone and all that .

You guys might have noticed the change in me , i expect a lot from work and i really hope everyone puts in the effort with me . sorry guys , that u have to PIA with me ! i love to play as well , but we can't afford to play right now ! sorry all , for my attitude . i just want all of u to do well as well . This is a very hard semester for us , but we'll brave thru this together .

Together , was dragonboat training day again . oh man ... a day without gym and dragonboat will be so weird . i'm trying my best .. although i see many flaws in me . esp techniques and fitness .

it's so great , that i see my bro and pearlyn so in love with each other , may anne and di lun .. and how can i forget ... WAN HUA AND EDWIN ! that lovely dovey couple ... can't stand them arh ! it really puts my mind to peace , when my loved ones are blessed . =)

haha ... edwin's a special friend . a very very special friend . he was there with me when i needed somebody . then came along his beloved gf , who became a very nice confidiant too .

other than edwin , my closed friends are all pretty messed up in their love lives . yeap , no reason , no rhyme . guys , you've gotta be wondering , what the hell is wrong with ya . i'll tell u , there's nth wrong , but our time just hasn't come . So let's enjoy each other's company for Valentine's day every year . 2 year going , more to go !

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

ACT.280 - F.E.A.R

F.E.A.R is a new game that just came out .. and i'm gonna get it !

i just played the demo , and i am so FREAKED OUT ~! it is .... SCARY !

but ... i'm not too sure whether i will play it when my bro ain't around . cause .... it's so SPOOKY !

and plus .. the demo only showed the mild part .

aRRRRRGGGGGHHH !! haha , what a way to train my courage .

when the paranormal stuff was happening , i was like : " WHAT THE HELL !! ! GET OUT OF HERE !! ZHAO ARH !! " haha ...

get this game . out in stores now ;) not for the faint hearted . recommended for 18 and above .

ACT.279 - this cruel and ugly world .

this world was created by a big bang , or some would say , by a creator , not the Architect from the Matrix , but by God .

From one innocent man and lady , the world evolved to the present .

This world is cruel , ugly . Reality is disgusting to some . Men made use of privledges and used it with evil intentions .

oh well , this is the world we live in .

but life is beautiful . if you can't reason with this statement , you need more time .

we all claim that life is unfair . yeah ... i do agree . But if life is fair , if everyone was perfect , wouldn't life have no meaning ?

haha , for those who can't reason with the statement , why life is beautiful , you've gotta sort it out yourself . Cause ... i always thought my life had no meaning , that life is f*** up . There was no purpose for me , nothing had it going for me .

WOO HOO !! REGISTERED for basic theory today . oh well , what a " BIG " step towards a car license . haha , i need to fulfil that desire quickly , TO DRIVE !

Many of us don't recieve mutual love . We can't disagree. I hated that piece of reality . But now i've learnt to understand , what's not meant to be , will never be meant to be . and the most important about that , is accepting that piece of reality .

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

ACT.278 - my dreams are gonna be fulfilled .

so here we go ! first day of school , i have recieved my first project , and next monday present . it's only 10% , but ... i can make it a perfect 10 . well .. that depends on whether my team wanna work to that extend , cause it will get tedious and takes a lot of effort . but , it can BE a perfect 10 . trust me .

i'm gonna put in my full effort , regardless of how pathetic that project weightage are . cause i can't do average , i can't do bad , i can only do my best . if i throw in a project with no pride , i feel ..... the worst piece of matter that exists on this earth .

dragonboat training on deepavali ! haha .. we went walk walk ... i got my USB cable from Sim Lim , haha .. happy happy .. now i can watch my initial d wherever i go . =)

i got another shirt from zara , 34.90 . WOO HOO !!! and i love zara . that's the end of the story . hmmm ... maybe consider jeans from zara ? wahahahhaa ... oh yeah , i decided on my choice of levi's jeans . so just gotta wait for it to come =)

i've been training hard in the gym , day 1 started , and yeap .. my back's aching . arrrgggghhh . training hard , but i don think it's hard enuf .

wanna check out my expenditure ?
zara coat 119
zara shirt 16.90
zara shirt 34.90
pariss and pressie for mum 120
cell tech 95
multi vitamin 20
nitro tech 74
mass factor 80
cafe cartel 25
fish and co 20
levi's jeans 114 [ haven't get ]

planning to get 2 more tops and a pair of jeans . and i'm running out of cash ! haha ... i'm off to do project .. i love ZARA !

rockin' my world.