ACT.248 - erase that memory .
my memory is getting real poor now . could radiation be really the reason ? my memory was good in the past , back in sec 1 days . but i started mass HP chatting on sec 3 ... til today .
i watched initial d ep 3 again , and i find everything unfamiliar . that's impossible ! haha.. and owen told me something bout the movie Anger Management , which i watched 7 or more times , i can't remember . haha ....
i went for financial planning ytd . and the place is so POWER OK ! like 5 - 6 star hotel ... what kind of WORKPLACE IS THAT ??!! haha ... note the place , PARKVIEW SQ . then i was waiting inside for the dude to come out , and i saw ashley [ npdb ] came out from Fly Emirates from the oppposite . haha ... she was surprised . yeah , i'm surprised why i'm wearing POLO tee and jeans and crumpler bag , IN SUCH a environment . i shld have worn more FORMAL !
so i was a NOOB in everything . seriously ~! investment , insurance coverage , what will happen if i die , how am i supposed to reach my life time goals . i did PLAN for my career , but i didn't plan for the $$$ all behind it . the guy was friendly ..but i really wanna apologize to him , cause ... i really know nuts .
i'm tired . really tired . work was BAD ytd . i've learnt something new . china people SPEAK fast , without taking note whether u understand or not , and they are very very kan cheong spiders . Japanese are hardworking , that's good , BUT KAN CHEONG Will only cause more PROBLEMS , if u don't take things slow and STEADY . hai ... such a simple job , can give me so many problems . a bad day . we worked like mad , at production rate to the max . and all these come with cuts all over my arms .
mum's bd tml . planning to go Pariss eat , although it's like 45 bucks per person and the 2 BROTHERS have to pay ?? haha , i insisted on paying . so ... haha . enjoy the meal ,esp DAD !
i miss my past life . when my clan operation zero was active , with the RI kids , with my malaysia friends , and everybody else ... we'll always laugh and have fun .
i miss lian hua dang , bball was our everything . and we wld always hang out , really like a bachelor's grp .
and i wouldn't want everything that has happened , to happen . it was a mistake . i don't know by who .
rockin' my world.
Friday, September 30, 2005
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
ACT.247 - childish you.
i thought about it , the way you address the issue is so childish , and apparently .. there wasn't any issue . this statement stands - women are complicated . only whether you are to the extreme , or just normal . running away , is all u do .
i just ended work , went to work straight after training ... crazy . after 2 plus . i'm dead tired . i was like .. dozing off . or what ... crazily tired . luckily work was as tough as ytd ...
so rushed home , to sleep !! haha ... had my fav mifen for breakfast ... missed it so much !! my pimples are all popping out ... wonder what's wrong now . is it that i'm sleeping in the day and working in the night ?
gotta go . sleeeeeeppp ..
i thought about it , the way you address the issue is so childish , and apparently .. there wasn't any issue . this statement stands - women are complicated . only whether you are to the extreme , or just normal . running away , is all u do .
i just ended work , went to work straight after training ... crazy . after 2 plus . i'm dead tired . i was like .. dozing off . or what ... crazily tired . luckily work was as tough as ytd ...
so rushed home , to sleep !! haha ... had my fav mifen for breakfast ... missed it so much !! my pimples are all popping out ... wonder what's wrong now . is it that i'm sleeping in the day and working in the night ?
gotta go . sleeeeeeppp ..
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
ACT.246 - the measure of a man .
i just returned from work . work today was tough , got lots of cuts on my hands , and i have really a lot of problems communicating with CHINA guys . ladies still not that bad . what the heck . later still have DB , can't wait for Sava Sprint !
i went to see the profile of a guy who actually two-timed his ex gf . what bullshit . , sensible than before , never make mistakes again .. just want her to be happy ? hmm .... bullshit . all bullshit . everytime i look at his profile , it's so crap , i laugh . stupidity . immature .
i have no idea what change i'm going through . but definitely , during this semester , i have grown more hardworking . i have grown to love Logistics so much more , i have a great passion for learning . and it's been a long time since i saw u , Fd .
haven met up with many people . lian hua dang , may anne , adelene , martin . need to do some catching up !! haha ... anyway , mum's BD is coming !! gonna get her a fantastic necklace from Perlini Silver's [ i always call this place , guy's best friend ] and we're probably gonna go for a fantastic meal at a high class restaurant . haha ... with my bro botak of course [ so EVIL** ]
i just returned from work . work today was tough , got lots of cuts on my hands , and i have really a lot of problems communicating with CHINA guys . ladies still not that bad . what the heck . later still have DB , can't wait for Sava Sprint !
i went to see the profile of a guy who actually two-timed his ex gf . what bullshit . , sensible than before , never make mistakes again .. just want her to be happy ? hmm .... bullshit . all bullshit . everytime i look at his profile , it's so crap , i laugh . stupidity . immature .
i have no idea what change i'm going through . but definitely , during this semester , i have grown more hardworking . i have grown to love Logistics so much more , i have a great passion for learning . and it's been a long time since i saw u , Fd .
haven met up with many people . lian hua dang , may anne , adelene , martin . need to do some catching up !! haha ... anyway , mum's BD is coming !! gonna get her a fantastic necklace from Perlini Silver's [ i always call this place , guy's best friend ] and we're probably gonna go for a fantastic meal at a high class restaurant . haha ... with my bro botak of course [ so EVIL** ]
Monday, September 26, 2005
ACT.245 - i don't believe reality.
i slept from last night 11.00pm to today evening . of course , i went to the doc's in the morning and so on . but i practically slept the whole day .. haha , first day of work , and i'm unwell .
haha , i've never worked so far b4 , JURONG ~! arrrggghhh ... travelling time can kill .
i've had a sweet dream just now . but when i woke up , i was .. disappointed .. it was not reality . how much i wished for it to happen , to reverse what reality my nightmare has caused .
May Anne , you were right . all these while .
i suffer for the assholes who let u down . i'm getting the same treatment you're giving them . i don't get it . hurhur . i'm really laughing , at myself .
what will it take , for God to accept me . i wonder.
silly .
this will be the time i change . love is not everything , it is NOTHING .
gonna fly high with my dreams now , i'm gonna work my way up .
i can afford no distractions now . Sava Sprint is coming . and i can't become a burden to the team again .
i slept from last night 11.00pm to today evening . of course , i went to the doc's in the morning and so on . but i practically slept the whole day .. haha , first day of work , and i'm unwell .
haha , i've never worked so far b4 , JURONG ~! arrrggghhh ... travelling time can kill .
i've had a sweet dream just now . but when i woke up , i was .. disappointed .. it was not reality . how much i wished for it to happen , to reverse what reality my nightmare has caused .
May Anne , you were right . all these while .
i suffer for the assholes who let u down . i'm getting the same treatment you're giving them . i don't get it . hurhur . i'm really laughing , at myself .
what will it take , for God to accept me . i wonder.
silly .
this will be the time i change . love is not everything , it is NOTHING .
gonna fly high with my dreams now , i'm gonna work my way up .
i can afford no distractions now . Sava Sprint is coming . and i can't become a burden to the team again .
ACT.244 - changing .
FOOD POISONING . don't count how many times i've been to the loo today , cause it's AMAZING . in 30mins , i can go 3 times . what do u think ? or even more .
can't sleep well , just gotta keep going . and today start work !! i must get well ,if not i'm so dead !
sunburnt . terrible . haha ... fatigue ! i can't sleep well thanks to FOOD POISONING !
just went to the doc's . hope i can be fine soon , so i can join the guys at the buffet later ! haha .. i am so TIRED ... i need to sleeeeepppp !
FOOD POISONING . don't count how many times i've been to the loo today , cause it's AMAZING . in 30mins , i can go 3 times . what do u think ? or even more .
can't sleep well , just gotta keep going . and today start work !! i must get well ,if not i'm so dead !
sunburnt . terrible . haha ... fatigue ! i can't sleep well thanks to FOOD POISONING !
just went to the doc's . hope i can be fine soon , so i can join the guys at the buffet later ! haha .. i am so TIRED ... i need to sleeeeepppp !
Sunday, September 25, 2005
ACT.243 - will be here . always .
DB camp just ended . haha .. and one conclusion i can make .
npdb is where i wanna be . and no one can change that .
so ok ... now the camp has ended .. my eyes and body are tired , my stomach is having a typhoon within it ... haven't been feeling that well today . diahorrea or something .. i just gotta keep going to the loo . haha ..
but all was great . training was great . and i have to TRAIN harder . get back my form within this time . cause i'm so WEAK . and yes, ACTIONS , no words .
wahaha ... gonna register my basic theory soon ! ok ... not that SOON lah . but it's a moment that i can't wait for k ... getting license , means a huge opportunity to close that gap btw me and automotives .. cause there is still so much i don't know . TOO MUCH .
haha .. starting work tomorrow ... haha ,i'm so dead . my body clock is gonna be so messed up .. i just hope that i can last through this period . =)
DB camp just ended . haha .. and one conclusion i can make .
npdb is where i wanna be . and no one can change that .
so ok ... now the camp has ended .. my eyes and body are tired , my stomach is having a typhoon within it ... haven't been feeling that well today . diahorrea or something .. i just gotta keep going to the loo . haha ..
but all was great . training was great . and i have to TRAIN harder . get back my form within this time . cause i'm so WEAK . and yes, ACTIONS , no words .
wahaha ... gonna register my basic theory soon ! ok ... not that SOON lah . but it's a moment that i can't wait for k ... getting license , means a huge opportunity to close that gap btw me and automotives .. cause there is still so much i don't know . TOO MUCH .
haha .. starting work tomorrow ... haha ,i'm so dead . my body clock is gonna be so messed up .. i just hope that i can last through this period . =)
Friday, September 23, 2005
ACT.242 - i'll be waiting.
today start work ... sia lah , wake up at 5 , will DIE ARh ! haha .. although the earliest i have woke up for is 430 , but .. after a series of training .. you're so very tired !
haha .. now then i realised , what mum was doing ... is actually hard earned cash . really hard earned . i stood so long , scanned so much crap , 41 bucks is what i get for 8.5 hrs .
to think that her pay always go into my bro and me . none for herself . oh well ...
haha , so i'm dead tired , went home after dinner and slept .. now gotta pack bag for tomorrow's DB camp . my arms are still in fatigue mode . hope tomorrow can be better ... and i've gotta admit , i'm freaking weak . compared to last time . i am so poor now .
it's like starting from scratch again . have to train from scratch . and plus that FACT , i have very poor bodybuilding genes . =(
starting overnight shift on monday ... haha , so that's after DB training . the point when we will die is ... on friday . after work , go training . haha ...
Sava sprint is on OCT 8 and 9 . jia you NPDB .
gi kian hasn't been online for a very long time , it must be the Katrina and his busy schedule . where are you dude .
today start work ... sia lah , wake up at 5 , will DIE ARh ! haha .. although the earliest i have woke up for is 430 , but .. after a series of training .. you're so very tired !
haha .. now then i realised , what mum was doing ... is actually hard earned cash . really hard earned . i stood so long , scanned so much crap , 41 bucks is what i get for 8.5 hrs .
to think that her pay always go into my bro and me . none for herself . oh well ...
haha , so i'm dead tired , went home after dinner and slept .. now gotta pack bag for tomorrow's DB camp . my arms are still in fatigue mode . hope tomorrow can be better ... and i've gotta admit , i'm freaking weak . compared to last time . i am so poor now .
it's like starting from scratch again . have to train from scratch . and plus that FACT , i have very poor bodybuilding genes . =(
starting overnight shift on monday ... haha , so that's after DB training . the point when we will die is ... on friday . after work , go training . haha ...
Sava sprint is on OCT 8 and 9 . jia you NPDB .
gi kian hasn't been online for a very long time , it must be the Katrina and his busy schedule . where are you dude .
Thursday, September 22, 2005
ACT.241 - here we go !
i just got a job today . my life's gonna be real hectic , real crazy . cause today i went for training .. and i realised , i'm not in tip top condition . and imagine with the work element added in , i'll be ultra fatigue . but i don't care , i need $$$ .
tomorrow start training le .. if can , then i make it for the modelling audition . cause it's really tight .. my hair is still not yet cut , i don't know what type of hair i can produce for them .
tomorrow wake up 5a.m . that's only for tomorrow . haha , gotta go sleep . =)
i won't be online for a very very very long time , i think . so call me if u need me or drop me a msg .
i just got a job today . my life's gonna be real hectic , real crazy . cause today i went for training .. and i realised , i'm not in tip top condition . and imagine with the work element added in , i'll be ultra fatigue . but i don't care , i need $$$ .
tomorrow start training le .. if can , then i make it for the modelling audition . cause it's really tight .. my hair is still not yet cut , i don't know what type of hair i can produce for them .
tomorrow wake up 5a.m . that's only for tomorrow . haha , gotta go sleep . =)
i won't be online for a very very very long time , i think . so call me if u need me or drop me a msg .
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
ACT.240 - staying focused. lost track of my life.
monday train . tuesday DB training . wednesday DB training . thursday DB training . friday train . saturday DB training . Sunday DB training . how's that for a life baby .
and i'm gonna be working . at ridiculous hours . i need a job . i need $$$ . and i need to gym . oh manx ...
and i'm gonna go for the modelling audition i guess ... recommended by kok yi .. haha .. i know , i just need a job .
i'm gonna be driven crazy one day . haha ... Bro is coming home tomorrow . to think that i can't have dinner with him . but let's hope i can make it on friday ... =)
that's it . i don't wanna say no more . i just wanna stay focus on dragonboat , nothing else.
monday train . tuesday DB training . wednesday DB training . thursday DB training . friday train . saturday DB training . Sunday DB training . how's that for a life baby .
and i'm gonna be working . at ridiculous hours . i need a job . i need $$$ . and i need to gym . oh manx ...
and i'm gonna go for the modelling audition i guess ... recommended by kok yi .. haha .. i know , i just need a job .
i'm gonna be driven crazy one day . haha ... Bro is coming home tomorrow . to think that i can't have dinner with him . but let's hope i can make it on friday ... =)
that's it . i don't wanna say no more . i just wanna stay focus on dragonboat , nothing else.
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
ACT.239 - clouds passing by.
the point when i start thinking about life , is when i start to look at clouds passing by .
went to chalet ytd with the class , was running around the world to get Alex his stuff , haha . and was running around the world , to look for a JOB !! internet , friends , everything !
we had BBQ and it was a LOT of food ! haha ... then we guys had a chat long into this night. then i realised .... there are so many things i've failed to realise too. arrrggghhh ... moving on. =)
i hate this pride of mine . haha ... it seems like all the PHS NCC 2003 Inter-2s are cursed with this huge ego . Can't suppress it manx . haha .. it's not that it's no good .. but sometimes , it's really bad .
my thoughts running wild . and i start to wonder , how are you . where are you. it's been quite a while .
haha , project D. is coming to a end ! arrrrgggghhh ... seriously , Project d is the best initial D stage i ever watched man ! haha ... but let me say again , Jay Chou's initial d is like SHIT ! I SAY SHIT ! =)
i'm back to my work .
the point when i start thinking about life , is when i start to look at clouds passing by .
went to chalet ytd with the class , was running around the world to get Alex his stuff , haha . and was running around the world , to look for a JOB !! internet , friends , everything !
we had BBQ and it was a LOT of food ! haha ... then we guys had a chat long into this night. then i realised .... there are so many things i've failed to realise too. arrrggghhh ... moving on. =)
i hate this pride of mine . haha ... it seems like all the PHS NCC 2003 Inter-2s are cursed with this huge ego . Can't suppress it manx . haha .. it's not that it's no good .. but sometimes , it's really bad .
my thoughts running wild . and i start to wonder , how are you . where are you. it's been quite a while .
haha , project D. is coming to a end ! arrrrgggghhh ... seriously , Project d is the best initial D stage i ever watched man ! haha ... but let me say again , Jay Chou's initial d is like SHIT ! I SAY SHIT ! =)
i'm back to my work .
Sunday, September 18, 2005
ACT.238 - fast paced world.
watching the apprentice now . and what i wanna say is .. the Entire of Magna can go home . lack of capabilities ... lack of seriousness , lack of the BRAINS . a lousy team . even a kid like me , can even understand , when you've gotta be serious , and WHAT THE objective of the task is . so on and so forth . pathetic is what i say .
hmmm , i'm thinking of grabbing a copy of Business times .. haha , see whether it's my kind of stuff . cause , I simply love the MONEY section . Business week too .. haha , but i'm so busy to read everyday . haha .. let's see how bah . i love this high pressured and fast paced world . Bring me more work baby .
and , GYM Starts tomorrow !! haha .. diet and all that ... and you'll see a different me =)
watching the apprentice now . and what i wanna say is .. the Entire of Magna can go home . lack of capabilities ... lack of seriousness , lack of the BRAINS . a lousy team . even a kid like me , can even understand , when you've gotta be serious , and WHAT THE objective of the task is . so on and so forth . pathetic is what i say .
hmmm , i'm thinking of grabbing a copy of Business times .. haha , see whether it's my kind of stuff . cause , I simply love the MONEY section . Business week too .. haha , but i'm so busy to read everyday . haha .. let's see how bah . i love this high pressured and fast paced world . Bring me more work baby .
and , GYM Starts tomorrow !! haha .. diet and all that ... and you'll see a different me =)
ACT.237 - not letting you guys down again.
Sava sprint on 8th october and 9th october . i'm in the sava team !! haha .. oliver was announcing the names .. and all my friends were in except me . then i ask my friend :" he Never call my name arh ?? " **PANIC ** , haha , then my friend ask him , haha then he say ..: "ya .. ben ng . you're lucky . " lol ... Gonna work real hard this holiday . =)
i've gotta keep my mind focused this time . no distractions . i can't become a burden to the team . yeah , training went real well yesterday . haha .. not to mention , it's CRAZY . it has always been crazy . haha ... believe , ngee ann dragonboat team .
Angelia's getting all the shit again from her ex - bf , hope that boy seriously wakes up manx . and another dear friend of mine .. is entering that endless pit again . She's such a Toughie . I really need guidance on this , god .
Sava sprint on 8th october and 9th october . i'm in the sava team !! haha .. oliver was announcing the names .. and all my friends were in except me . then i ask my friend :" he Never call my name arh ?? " **PANIC ** , haha , then my friend ask him , haha then he say ..: "ya .. ben ng . you're lucky . " lol ... Gonna work real hard this holiday . =)
i've gotta keep my mind focused this time . no distractions . i can't become a burden to the team . yeah , training went real well yesterday . haha .. not to mention , it's CRAZY . it has always been crazy . haha ... believe , ngee ann dragonboat team .
Angelia's getting all the shit again from her ex - bf , hope that boy seriously wakes up manx . and another dear friend of mine .. is entering that endless pit again . She's such a Toughie . I really need guidance on this , god .
Saturday, September 17, 2005
ACT.236 - Be a man , do the right thing.
this is for u , my friend .
u know she likes someone else . but yet u chose to go out with her on that day , you know what are u doing actually ? you're digging your own grave .
and yup , you've got shot on that day . you've been slapped with the truth you don't wanna face , but yeah , you did well . you faced it bravely . and yeah .. i've been true such situations too . when the person you love is right beside you ... and yet you can't have them . heartbreaking ...
you say you really felt you did nothing . it's something like you CAN't . so don't feel so useless bout yourself , trust me . you ain't . i'm sure if u wanna do something , you can even go to the moon if she wants a piece of moon stone . get what i mean ?
and yeah .. you're afraid . afraid of the reality monster . Yesh , i am afraid too . but God has planned for that monster to hit me , and it did . and i took it well . because i knew , i could do nothing . nothing at all .
So don't fear , you've gotta be brave . something when things just come , they just come , you can't stop it . and don't fear , cause you get stronger , not weaker .
and one thing i tell u , i'm sure ... you know one fact bout you and her . she can't be with u . you told me that yourself . and it's time , you bring yourself out of this endless pit , instead of falling into it over and over again . think about it yourself .
this is for u , my friend .
u know she likes someone else . but yet u chose to go out with her on that day , you know what are u doing actually ? you're digging your own grave .
and yup , you've got shot on that day . you've been slapped with the truth you don't wanna face , but yeah , you did well . you faced it bravely . and yeah .. i've been true such situations too . when the person you love is right beside you ... and yet you can't have them . heartbreaking ...
you say you really felt you did nothing . it's something like you CAN't . so don't feel so useless bout yourself , trust me . you ain't . i'm sure if u wanna do something , you can even go to the moon if she wants a piece of moon stone . get what i mean ?
and yeah .. you're afraid . afraid of the reality monster . Yesh , i am afraid too . but God has planned for that monster to hit me , and it did . and i took it well . because i knew , i could do nothing . nothing at all .
So don't fear , you've gotta be brave . something when things just come , they just come , you can't stop it . and don't fear , cause you get stronger , not weaker .
and one thing i tell u , i'm sure ... you know one fact bout you and her . she can't be with u . you told me that yourself . and it's time , you bring yourself out of this endless pit , instead of falling into it over and over again . think about it yourself .
Friday, September 16, 2005
ACT.235 - 3months back.
ok , so finally .. peace ! no more studying ... can finally have sufficient rest .=)
haha ... so i searched through my entire phone book and wanna do some forecasting , what to do later and who am i gonna go out with ? ----- and ... there was no one ! wanna go get pressie for my friend .. and then ... seriously can't find anyone .
may anne was meeting her dear boy , angelia's doing her hair [ i have no idea what's it gonna look like ] , edwin meeting his precious diamond , classmates are all busy , lian hua dang having exams soon , if not busy ... like what the heck . haha , most funny one is , called da jie , she say early release work [ I BEAMED SUDDENLY Upon hearing that ] , i ask what time , she say 8 !!! lol , is that early ? haha .. early for her lah . cause her dumb coy is using her like mad ... =(
was standing at the bus stop , thinking whether to go to town or go home . if i were to go to town , i were to go alone .
then met kok yi on bus stop , haha , he say he's going town and meeting his gal in an hour's time , so ... just go lah ! besides , main objective is get pressie . =)
hmmm .. what a way to spend my aftermath of exams .
28 / 7 / 2005 - ACT.127 - the day FD don't mean anything no more.
ever since that day ... things just can't be the same again , fd.
ok , so finally .. peace ! no more studying ... can finally have sufficient rest .=)
haha ... so i searched through my entire phone book and wanna do some forecasting , what to do later and who am i gonna go out with ? ----- and ... there was no one ! wanna go get pressie for my friend .. and then ... seriously can't find anyone .
may anne was meeting her dear boy , angelia's doing her hair [ i have no idea what's it gonna look like ] , edwin meeting his precious diamond , classmates are all busy , lian hua dang having exams soon , if not busy ... like what the heck . haha , most funny one is , called da jie , she say early release work [ I BEAMED SUDDENLY Upon hearing that ] , i ask what time , she say 8 !!! lol , is that early ? haha .. early for her lah . cause her dumb coy is using her like mad ... =(
was standing at the bus stop , thinking whether to go to town or go home . if i were to go to town , i were to go alone .
then met kok yi on bus stop , haha , he say he's going town and meeting his gal in an hour's time , so ... just go lah ! besides , main objective is get pressie . =)
hmmm .. what a way to spend my aftermath of exams .
28 / 7 / 2005 - ACT.127 - the day FD don't mean anything no more.
ever since that day ... things just can't be the same again , fd.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
ACT.234 - only God can explain.
slept at 3.30am ytd and woke up at 5.30am . to study QLA of course . reached school at 7.23am cause dad fetched . haha , slept til 8 and continued revising ..
haha , hmmm , i kinda like studying now . i'm not kidding . just that .. sometimes we've gotta rush here and there .. i don't like that feeling . but i love rushing deadlines , esp for projects . i may be very stressed , on the verge of exploding , but i love to see how i perform under pressure . haha , and when the result is there ... the feeling of satisfactory gets beyond heaven ! haha ..
i can't wait to work myself at GYM !! haha .. dragonboat , here i come ! and .. also .. must work ! then buy lots of clothes , then treat team huat to Cartel , not to forget . haha .. and finally ... REGISTER FOR BASIC THEORY !!! =)
only God has reasons to the current state today. i still have no idea what happened , it's like , i've been shot . at the back , with no idea or any clue , who could have done it . i'm sad to see this today. my best wishes to you , and my promises still stand . i've told you once before , promises are never meant to be broken . and i've mentioned , embark on this journey of finding your happiness , hope you do eventually . don't lose faith . no matter what . goodbye to you , my trusted friend .
slept at 3.30am ytd and woke up at 5.30am . to study QLA of course . reached school at 7.23am cause dad fetched . haha , slept til 8 and continued revising ..
haha , hmmm , i kinda like studying now . i'm not kidding . just that .. sometimes we've gotta rush here and there .. i don't like that feeling . but i love rushing deadlines , esp for projects . i may be very stressed , on the verge of exploding , but i love to see how i perform under pressure . haha , and when the result is there ... the feeling of satisfactory gets beyond heaven ! haha ..
i can't wait to work myself at GYM !! haha .. dragonboat , here i come ! and .. also .. must work ! then buy lots of clothes , then treat team huat to Cartel , not to forget . haha .. and finally ... REGISTER FOR BASIC THEORY !!! =)
only God has reasons to the current state today. i still have no idea what happened , it's like , i've been shot . at the back , with no idea or any clue , who could have done it . i'm sad to see this today. my best wishes to you , and my promises still stand . i've told you once before , promises are never meant to be broken . and i've mentioned , embark on this journey of finding your happiness , hope you do eventually . don't lose faith . no matter what . goodbye to you , my trusted friend .
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
ACT.233 - hoping for u .
supply chain management is over . yeah .. 2 to go . left the calculation modules . i've been practising . so shouldn't be a problem .
hmm , although i've been studying everyday , i think it's still not enough . seriously . i need to study more effectively ... that's the key . haha ... turning into a crazy nerd that loves to study . [ no , i still hate studying as ever ! ] haha ...
2 more days baby , and i'll hit the gym ! haha ... this time , i must hit 25 pulls up man . wahahha ... and get back into shape . =) and i miss ngee ann dragonboat team . sorry guys ...
haha , today was such a joke , i can't hop on a bus on KAP and time was running out , it was almost 9 ! haha , then i saw qijia came down , and i was like panicking , haha , she was calm but i bet she was panicking inside ok ! haha , then each bus that came , was full ! so i told her , let's hop on by the back , since there's a little space we still can squeeze in. wahahhaha , and i tell u , WE ARE THE SMARTEST HUMANS around ! haha ... everybody else was like still waiting for a bus .
in love with corrinne may ! haha .. this song is just so ... beautiful ~ !
haha , wenzhong , me not angry at all lah .. and i don't even find that your attitude was bad or different that day .. it was me in fact . lately i'm very short tempered and all that .. you should know why too . pai sei ...
ok , i'm off to study Quantative Logistics Analysis baby . after this one , inventory management more easy arh !!
supply chain management is over . yeah .. 2 to go . left the calculation modules . i've been practising . so shouldn't be a problem .
hmm , although i've been studying everyday , i think it's still not enough . seriously . i need to study more effectively ... that's the key . haha ... turning into a crazy nerd that loves to study . [ no , i still hate studying as ever ! ] haha ...
2 more days baby , and i'll hit the gym ! haha ... this time , i must hit 25 pulls up man . wahahha ... and get back into shape . =) and i miss ngee ann dragonboat team . sorry guys ...
haha , today was such a joke , i can't hop on a bus on KAP and time was running out , it was almost 9 ! haha , then i saw qijia came down , and i was like panicking , haha , she was calm but i bet she was panicking inside ok ! haha , then each bus that came , was full ! so i told her , let's hop on by the back , since there's a little space we still can squeeze in. wahahhaha , and i tell u , WE ARE THE SMARTEST HUMANS around ! haha ... everybody else was like still waiting for a bus .
in love with corrinne may ! haha .. this song is just so ... beautiful ~ !
haha , wenzhong , me not angry at all lah .. and i don't even find that your attitude was bad or different that day .. it was me in fact . lately i'm very short tempered and all that .. you should know why too . pai sei ...
ok , i'm off to study Quantative Logistics Analysis baby . after this one , inventory management more easy arh !!
Monday, September 12, 2005
ACT.232 - fly away .
Corrine May's song talks about this girl with mum at the airport , mum asking , "when will you come home ? " mum lets her go , lets her fly , to chase her dream .
time goes by , and mum now is lying on the bed . time is almost up for her ...
haha , sad . go check out the lyrics , says more . meaningful , haha , and i still love Josh Groban as much as ever . i thought he's supposed to be in Singapore for a concert in August ??!! haha ..
Mum asked me , can u don't go overseas ? haha .. i said no . i have no choice .
can see that .. she really doesn't want me to go . but she lets me fly , to chase my dreams . haha ... your boy has gotta go someday .
oh well , exams gonna be over in 4 days . haha , can't wait ... and i shall begin gym frenzy with edwin . haha ... and of course i'll maintain my size . not gonna shrink again .. =) let's ROCK EDWIN !
Sava sprint is coming [ dragonboat race ] . must prepare . =) october 8th.
haha , in another one mth and half , can't wait !
back to study ... everybody , jia you .
Corrine May's song talks about this girl with mum at the airport , mum asking , "when will you come home ? " mum lets her go , lets her fly , to chase her dream .
time goes by , and mum now is lying on the bed . time is almost up for her ...
haha , sad . go check out the lyrics , says more . meaningful , haha , and i still love Josh Groban as much as ever . i thought he's supposed to be in Singapore for a concert in August ??!! haha ..
Mum asked me , can u don't go overseas ? haha .. i said no . i have no choice .
can see that .. she really doesn't want me to go . but she lets me fly , to chase my dreams . haha ... your boy has gotta go someday .
oh well , exams gonna be over in 4 days . haha , can't wait ... and i shall begin gym frenzy with edwin . haha ... and of course i'll maintain my size . not gonna shrink again .. =) let's ROCK EDWIN !
Sava sprint is coming [ dragonboat race ] . must prepare . =) october 8th.
haha , in another one mth and half , can't wait !
back to study ... everybody , jia you .
ACT.231 - hold on . keep fighting.
first thing to say of the day , SORRY ALEX !! arrrggghhh , stupid alarm clock din wake me up , din ring even ! no idea why so sia ... hai .
i'm supposed to go sch and ask QLA and IMGT . then it's like 3.45 now . i went to changi and study ytd , freaking tired ... . QLA and imgt is really a huge problem ... i've gotta ask my lecturer.
i thought i was doing fine . i thought i could be strong. but ... deep within , i can't fight it . i told myself to face it , yeah , i did , bravely . i tell myself : ai zai , ai zai . but ....
i won't succumb to the challenge you've place in front of me . i'll fight on.
first thing to say of the day , SORRY ALEX !! arrrggghhh , stupid alarm clock din wake me up , din ring even ! no idea why so sia ... hai .
i'm supposed to go sch and ask QLA and IMGT . then it's like 3.45 now . i went to changi and study ytd , freaking tired ... . QLA and imgt is really a huge problem ... i've gotta ask my lecturer.
i thought i was doing fine . i thought i could be strong. but ... deep within , i can't fight it . i told myself to face it , yeah , i did , bravely . i tell myself : ai zai , ai zai . but ....
i won't succumb to the challenge you've place in front of me . i'll fight on.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
ACT.230 - absence.
i looked outside the window , absence . loss .
gotta move on . if only ... but if only ,doesn't stand in reality.
things happen for a reason i believe .
ncc . i wish to be a sec 1 again . haha ..you guys gave me the happiest moments of my life . cadet lieutanent course too . i really spent the happiest moments in ncc . beautiful. =)
haha , talked to val ytd , and yeah .. seems like i have a lot of Girl Brigade girls behind me -___-"" haha .. yes , i know one or a few are crazy over me . or ... i don't know .
loving logistics , rx-7 , automotive , my family , my friends everyday . can't ask for more . haha , is falling in love with logistics in year 2 a little too late ?
katrina ... what a disaster . removed innocent lives . destroyed the hopes of many in an instant . god bless you .
yes , Later i'm studying at airport ! overnight again ... haha , loving it .
soul-searching . reflecting . searchin' frantically for an answer. should i just end this chapter , leaving these questions unanswered? or hold on to that hope ?
i looked outside the window , absence . loss .
gotta move on . if only ... but if only ,doesn't stand in reality.
things happen for a reason i believe .
ncc . i wish to be a sec 1 again . haha ..you guys gave me the happiest moments of my life . cadet lieutanent course too . i really spent the happiest moments in ncc . beautiful. =)
haha , talked to val ytd , and yeah .. seems like i have a lot of Girl Brigade girls behind me -___-"" haha .. yes , i know one or a few are crazy over me . or ... i don't know .
loving logistics , rx-7 , automotive , my family , my friends everyday . can't ask for more . haha , is falling in love with logistics in year 2 a little too late ?
katrina ... what a disaster . removed innocent lives . destroyed the hopes of many in an instant . god bless you .
yes , Later i'm studying at airport ! overnight again ... haha , loving it .
soul-searching . reflecting . searchin' frantically for an answer. should i just end this chapter , leaving these questions unanswered? or hold on to that hope ?
ACT.229 - sorry .
i stayed overnight at changi airport ytd . studied only 2 chapters, arrrrggghhh ...
got home at bout 7.15 and had breakfast with mum and dad ! haha .. the usual gang gathered , auntie and the rest .and yes .. she goes here and there : " handsome !! "
and my aunties are mad ... they want me to join project superstar . i mean ... ???!!!??!!!
so i slept .. til bout 1 . very tired ... but i guess sleep ends here . now decide , study at home or study outside ... most prob outside . cause i'll feel so sleepy at home !
haha , this boy is really having big dreams . and he can't tell u how much he loves logistics and supply chain . and business modules . today i finally bought the strait times and took time off to read ... shioook !!! i love the money section esp.
am i at a state of losing this friendship . or am i thinking too much . i wonder . i really want to change . i can't believe things will turn out this way .
i stayed overnight at changi airport ytd . studied only 2 chapters, arrrrggghhh ...
got home at bout 7.15 and had breakfast with mum and dad ! haha .. the usual gang gathered , auntie and the rest .and yes .. she goes here and there : " handsome !! "
and my aunties are mad ... they want me to join project superstar . i mean ... ???!!!??!!!
so i slept .. til bout 1 . very tired ... but i guess sleep ends here . now decide , study at home or study outside ... most prob outside . cause i'll feel so sleepy at home !
haha , this boy is really having big dreams . and he can't tell u how much he loves logistics and supply chain . and business modules . today i finally bought the strait times and took time off to read ... shioook !!! i love the money section esp.
am i at a state of losing this friendship . or am i thinking too much . i wonder . i really want to change . i can't believe things will turn out this way .
Saturday, September 10, 2005
ACT.228 - Floor the pedal .
haha , the other past 2 entries sounded weird right ? sounded like some sin city crap ? yeah .. i could have wrote it better , but , it would be too lengthy . as long as the point is there .
i woke up today ... arrrgggghhh .. shoulders hurt . nope .. not taking supplements . taking more HL milk rather . and oh yeah .. gotta study . i slept til so late for once . haha ... mum was pestering me just now to go eat breakfast with me , i just din want to . i don't know why i didn't make the effort to go , cause my mind was seriously dead . =(
Angelia , i hope you hold on tite . stay firm and strong . suckers on earth don't deserve u .
Thanks Wen Zhong , stay strong too . you've gone through even worst in ur life . get through this crap , and let's move on in life . Thank you for having so much confidence in me , i didn't expect to hear that from anyone on earth .
May Anne , ai zai k ! FYP sia someone . i'm still stuck in this stupid semester . arrrggghhh .. take care . and tell di lun , i share the same fate as him k ? haha .. just kidding .
haha , May Anne , i just feel like you're my mum =X you watched me grow up , and you've been through every shit with me . and you are always there with me . and i mention , every obstacle , not a few or most . but EVERY . i can't deny , this is such a special friendship . haha , although we know each other for only 6 years , but , it's not the quantity that counts , it's the quality . er.. do i make sense ?
when God hit me down , you were there . When God lifted me up , you were there too . you were .. everywhere ! lol . yup , you watched me grown mature every year , every month , every day . i've changed so much . but , i'm still striving . not stopping . learn through every mistake , reflect upon everything i've done . that's me .
but of course , i need time . soul searching is not easy.
well , now it's to me . you've changed so much . you're much stronger now . it's only been a few months . i know , sometimes , there are stuff you failed to realise , failed to understand . and it may lead to u being so childish . But i know you're trying , very hard . everyone on earth needs time.
Thanks Da jie also , you seriously taught me so much about this world . it's really nice to talk to someone so much more mature than me .
Bro's really in a fantastic relationship now . i've just realised .all the best bro.
God planned it all for me to learn . for me to be stronger . things happen for a reason . that i believe . and i think i din disappoint .thank you.
haha , the other past 2 entries sounded weird right ? sounded like some sin city crap ? yeah .. i could have wrote it better , but , it would be too lengthy . as long as the point is there .
i woke up today ... arrrgggghhh .. shoulders hurt . nope .. not taking supplements . taking more HL milk rather . and oh yeah .. gotta study . i slept til so late for once . haha ... mum was pestering me just now to go eat breakfast with me , i just din want to . i don't know why i didn't make the effort to go , cause my mind was seriously dead . =(
Angelia , i hope you hold on tite . stay firm and strong . suckers on earth don't deserve u .
Thanks Wen Zhong , stay strong too . you've gone through even worst in ur life . get through this crap , and let's move on in life . Thank you for having so much confidence in me , i didn't expect to hear that from anyone on earth .
May Anne , ai zai k ! FYP sia someone . i'm still stuck in this stupid semester . arrrggghhh .. take care . and tell di lun , i share the same fate as him k ? haha .. just kidding .
haha , May Anne , i just feel like you're my mum =X you watched me grow up , and you've been through every shit with me . and you are always there with me . and i mention , every obstacle , not a few or most . but EVERY . i can't deny , this is such a special friendship . haha , although we know each other for only 6 years , but , it's not the quantity that counts , it's the quality . er.. do i make sense ?
when God hit me down , you were there . When God lifted me up , you were there too . you were .. everywhere ! lol . yup , you watched me grown mature every year , every month , every day . i've changed so much . but , i'm still striving . not stopping . learn through every mistake , reflect upon everything i've done . that's me .
but of course , i need time . soul searching is not easy.
well , now it's to me . you've changed so much . you're much stronger now . it's only been a few months . i know , sometimes , there are stuff you failed to realise , failed to understand . and it may lead to u being so childish . But i know you're trying , very hard . everyone on earth needs time.
Thanks Da jie also , you seriously taught me so much about this world . it's really nice to talk to someone so much more mature than me .
Bro's really in a fantastic relationship now . i've just realised .all the best bro.
God planned it all for me to learn . for me to be stronger . things happen for a reason . that i believe . and i think i din disappoint .thank you.
Friday, September 09, 2005
ACT.227 - when life is just like a box of chocolates.
" mama said , life is just like a box of chocolates . You'll never know what you're gonna get .... " forest gump.
went gym early this morning with Derrick .. haha , then bathe .. nua here nua there .. then go changi airport study . i bet the dudes at Pacific Coffee recognise us le .. haha , that place rocks k ! unbelievable customer satisfaction at the same level of price . i wonder if they are profitable at all anot . haha .
Edwin came along and we started talking bout he and his diamond [ wan hua ] , oei , stop saying ur gf how good k ? lol , we all know it ! and , i also have to admit ,she rocks k ? but that's the end of the story , no more k ! haha ...
haha , we started laughing at our memories back in NCC .. i miss NCC so much ! Basic 1s of 2000 . unforgettable batch . haha ...
saw ryan , derick , nicholas and jeff [ DB dudes ] in Changi also . haha , what a surprise .
bro's in army . i think he's so sian to wake up this morning . haha , he will be telling himself : " Ncc life once again . "
mum and dad felt the heartache for me . now i'm underweight by 6 kg . it's really crazy . i didn't let them know all that has happened , i din wanna worry them . but i'm reaching a whole new level . that i know .
forgive me , FD.
" mama said , life is just like a box of chocolates . You'll never know what you're gonna get .... " forest gump.
went gym early this morning with Derrick .. haha , then bathe .. nua here nua there .. then go changi airport study . i bet the dudes at Pacific Coffee recognise us le .. haha , that place rocks k ! unbelievable customer satisfaction at the same level of price . i wonder if they are profitable at all anot . haha .
Edwin came along and we started talking bout he and his diamond [ wan hua ] , oei , stop saying ur gf how good k ? lol , we all know it ! and , i also have to admit ,she rocks k ? but that's the end of the story , no more k ! haha ...
haha , we started laughing at our memories back in NCC .. i miss NCC so much ! Basic 1s of 2000 . unforgettable batch . haha ...
saw ryan , derick , nicholas and jeff [ DB dudes ] in Changi also . haha , what a surprise .
bro's in army . i think he's so sian to wake up this morning . haha , he will be telling himself : " Ncc life once again . "
mum and dad felt the heartache for me . now i'm underweight by 6 kg . it's really crazy . i didn't let them know all that has happened , i din wanna worry them . but i'm reaching a whole new level . that i know .
forgive me , FD.
ACT.226 - i don't wanna fight. no more.
arrrrggghh . blood is flowing out like a waterpipe . i've gotta get out of here . using all my strength left , with the last few minutes of my life , i changed my location . ground level was my destination .
i'm seeing black . it's all gonna be over soon . i've gotta hold on . i'm .... not gonna make it .
the moment i reached ground level , i fell. i can't do no more .
then , i saw a ray of light . it was an angel . my willpower revived . but the next moment , she pulled out a revolver from her side . pointed at my heart.
i knew it was over.
take a few more breaths , i tell myself . close my eyes . smiled . and then ... trigger was pulled .
red sky in the morning. - zan-rx .
arrrrggghh . blood is flowing out like a waterpipe . i've gotta get out of here . using all my strength left , with the last few minutes of my life , i changed my location . ground level was my destination .
i'm seeing black . it's all gonna be over soon . i've gotta hold on . i'm .... not gonna make it .
the moment i reached ground level , i fell. i can't do no more .
then , i saw a ray of light . it was an angel . my willpower revived . but the next moment , she pulled out a revolver from her side . pointed at my heart.
i knew it was over.
take a few more breaths , i tell myself . close my eyes . smiled . and then ... trigger was pulled .
red sky in the morning. - zan-rx .
Thursday, September 08, 2005
ACT.225 - a never ending fate .
armed with a sniper rifle , i could never miss the shot . held my breath , i did what the best sniper would do . pulled the trigger , the bullet flew . it was a headshot . bulls eye. i knew it .
but . the mission failed . target missed. the next thing i knew , i was shot in the chest. lungshot . i won't make it.
went to changi airport to study with DErrick once again .. haha .. so we were in pacific coffee since morning . really studied ... haha ..i love the service there manx . went for lunch , then pacific coffee again ! managed to get a couch during busy hours though ..
Then the lady came and tell us that their customers are not having any seats . so we've gotta move .. haha , she was polite and all that . and i really loved it . i was willingly to move .
so went on to Mac's . saw Zanny girl , but din wanna disturb her . so i sat down and quickly do my Quantative Logistics Analysis work . man .. i'm really in deep trouble ! haha ...
she left without saying a bye . i wonder ....
Bro's in tekong . miss him . i will do what u told me to do . it's time i take over the family for once . take care .
rx-7 , i've let u down . sorry .
to my dear teammates , i knew i was wrong . i'm sorry . well .. i know it doesn't help by saying sorry . i've let u guys down .
you've placed the greatest challenge in my life ever . and it's so cruel and harsh of u to do this at such a critical period . But , it's ok . i know you . you have always been doing this . Running away isn't a option . Facing the reality monster is the only way . i'll fight this battle cause u left me with no choice.
armed with a sniper rifle , i could never miss the shot . held my breath , i did what the best sniper would do . pulled the trigger , the bullet flew . it was a headshot . bulls eye. i knew it .
but . the mission failed . target missed. the next thing i knew , i was shot in the chest. lungshot . i won't make it.
went to changi airport to study with DErrick once again .. haha .. so we were in pacific coffee since morning . really studied ... haha ..i love the service there manx . went for lunch , then pacific coffee again ! managed to get a couch during busy hours though ..
Then the lady came and tell us that their customers are not having any seats . so we've gotta move .. haha , she was polite and all that . and i really loved it . i was willingly to move .
so went on to Mac's . saw Zanny girl , but din wanna disturb her . so i sat down and quickly do my Quantative Logistics Analysis work . man .. i'm really in deep trouble ! haha ...
she left without saying a bye . i wonder ....
Bro's in tekong . miss him . i will do what u told me to do . it's time i take over the family for once . take care .
rx-7 , i've let u down . sorry .
to my dear teammates , i knew i was wrong . i'm sorry . well .. i know it doesn't help by saying sorry . i've let u guys down .
you've placed the greatest challenge in my life ever . and it's so cruel and harsh of u to do this at such a critical period . But , it's ok . i know you . you have always been doing this . Running away isn't a option . Facing the reality monster is the only way . i'll fight this battle cause u left me with no choice.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
ACT.224 - God , you've got me on bended knees.
i today went to Changi Airport and study with DEAR DERRICK ! sorry hoh , not ur superstar Derrick k ! wahahhaa ... my best bud ever . his bro also my best bud ever too . lol ...
inventory management really got into my head today , and sia lah , got the sense of achievement sia ! haha ... spent the whole day on the crap . we were there in the morning .. until like 10 close to 11 .. oh manx .. i missed dinner with bro and family .. the last dinner .... hai .
bro's leaving tml . i can't see him off . i have work . farewell .
Katrina ... they claim it's a message from God . tsunami also . we'll see bout that .
tsunami was a shocking news for X'mas . we were traumatised by it , me , gi kian , jun xian and so on ... i really wanted to leave SG and help them the other time . but mum will kill me . that i know .. haha ..
saw zann girl there too . =)
oh man .. i hate fast food ! haha .. BK for lunch , Mac for dinner !! ARRRGGGGHH!!!
but coffee bean was a good place to study =) pacific coffee too .
i'm off . sleeeeepppp ...
i today went to Changi Airport and study with DEAR DERRICK ! sorry hoh , not ur superstar Derrick k ! wahahhaa ... my best bud ever . his bro also my best bud ever too . lol ...
inventory management really got into my head today , and sia lah , got the sense of achievement sia ! haha ... spent the whole day on the crap . we were there in the morning .. until like 10 close to 11 .. oh manx .. i missed dinner with bro and family .. the last dinner .... hai .
bro's leaving tml . i can't see him off . i have work . farewell .
Katrina ... they claim it's a message from God . tsunami also . we'll see bout that .
tsunami was a shocking news for X'mas . we were traumatised by it , me , gi kian , jun xian and so on ... i really wanted to leave SG and help them the other time . but mum will kill me . that i know .. haha ..
saw zann girl there too . =)
oh man .. i hate fast food ! haha .. BK for lunch , Mac for dinner !! ARRRGGGGHH!!!
but coffee bean was a good place to study =) pacific coffee too .
i'm off . sleeeeepppp ...
ACT.223 - one last shot .one last try .
going to changi airport and study .. and i hope , the viewing mall in T2 gets built fast ! i really really love that place . for chill , to study , u name it . even for a party ! haha ..
jia en's going army real soon . then Lian Hua Dang will be short of one man again . haha .. all the best to u . we promoted together , to sergeants , staff sergeants , now .. i can't chase up with u . =) eh .. ya hoh , i now senior CLT .. wahahha..
my medicine run out le ... crap ! haha ..and this crap is still within me ... been drinking a lot a lot a lot of water lately so don't worry bout that . but it's still not getting better . haha .. will pop over the doc's if this goes on ... cause it's almost a week !
stop taking supplements le . anyway .
gi kian's out there somewhere . it's only 2 months since you've been gone .
going to changi airport and study .. and i hope , the viewing mall in T2 gets built fast ! i really really love that place . for chill , to study , u name it . even for a party ! haha ..
jia en's going army real soon . then Lian Hua Dang will be short of one man again . haha .. all the best to u . we promoted together , to sergeants , staff sergeants , now .. i can't chase up with u . =) eh .. ya hoh , i now senior CLT .. wahahha..
my medicine run out le ... crap ! haha ..and this crap is still within me ... been drinking a lot a lot a lot of water lately so don't worry bout that . but it's still not getting better . haha .. will pop over the doc's if this goes on ... cause it's almost a week !
stop taking supplements le . anyway .
gi kian's out there somewhere . it's only 2 months since you've been gone .
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
ACT.222 - faith.
suppressing it all . trying my best . really i am .
went to play bball with guys . i couldn't focus . the virus inside of me got me real tired soon , and i really cannot bring out the best in me . that just sucks ..
how many days of medicine , and this crap doesn't end ? is the flu inside me that strong ? haha .. i don get it . i even used stronger stuff , and it doesn't work .
haha ... i'll see if a fever breaks out in a few days , that means ..it's gotta be something serious . haha .. at the mean time .. sit back and relax , have medicine .. =)
suppressing it all . trying my best . really i am .
went to play bball with guys . i couldn't focus . the virus inside of me got me real tired soon , and i really cannot bring out the best in me . that just sucks ..
how many days of medicine , and this crap doesn't end ? is the flu inside me that strong ? haha .. i don get it . i even used stronger stuff , and it doesn't work .
haha ... i'll see if a fever breaks out in a few days , that means ..it's gotta be something serious . haha .. at the mean time .. sit back and relax , have medicine .. =)
ACT.221 - if you come back.
zanny girl , jia you for ur test this friday . =)
bro is leaving . finally he can get back his machoness like last time . oh crap ..i can't let him catch up with me ! i'm gonna put in effort in training this holiday , and then maintain . =) nv maintain of course shrink lah !
i missed the days of lian hua dang . aft sch , bball . aft sch , denny's hse . change , bball . bball everyday , every night . bball . was my everything .
i'm still sneezing and phelm and all that ... it never ends !! arrrrgggghhhh ... and i sweat like crap even though it's not hot !
haha ... i haven touched much on the Da Vinci Code zann girl lent me . oh manx ... have to find the TIME . i must be on the search with Dan Brown to uncover the secrets of christianity !! wahahahahaha ...
i went to sch today , studied with Alex , inventory management . QLA is the big headache now ... seriously i'm in deeep deep trouble unless someone guides me .
i hate exams . i love projects . i hate projects with hindrances . i love presentations .
zanny girl , jia you for ur test this friday . =)
bro is leaving . finally he can get back his machoness like last time . oh crap ..i can't let him catch up with me ! i'm gonna put in effort in training this holiday , and then maintain . =) nv maintain of course shrink lah !
i missed the days of lian hua dang . aft sch , bball . aft sch , denny's hse . change , bball . bball everyday , every night . bball . was my everything .
i'm still sneezing and phelm and all that ... it never ends !! arrrrgggghhhh ... and i sweat like crap even though it's not hot !
haha ... i haven touched much on the Da Vinci Code zann girl lent me . oh manx ... have to find the TIME . i must be on the search with Dan Brown to uncover the secrets of christianity !! wahahahahaha ...
i went to sch today , studied with Alex , inventory management . QLA is the big headache now ... seriously i'm in deeep deep trouble unless someone guides me .
i hate exams . i love projects . i hate projects with hindrances . i love presentations .
ACT.220 - when i'm not around .
bro just came home and ate dinner , i also had maggie mee too .
he told me , you must spend more time at home . watch tv with mum . do more of the housechores .
i haven't bring my family out for a 5 star dinner yet . and bro's leaving in 3 days ! **calculation error , it's thursday , not wednesday .
yup , leave the family to me . =)
mum always worried bout her boy , cause he always seem so distant from the family ever since he joined sec sch . he never talked , during dinner , he never mentioned anything . even with gangsters , with school , with teachers , with friends , with girls .. he kept mum .
that's me i guess . i always keep quiet . cause i never wanna worry my parents . i'm a very quiet boy at home . and sometimes Dad take it out on me . Bro takes it out on me , i just keep quiet . i never fight back . i just let it be ....
family was in a rubbles back in my sec sch days . mum almost gave up . Dad ... faced problems everywhere in his life . Bro ... didn't do well in his studies . me ... messing around in life . i'm so glad , we're the family we are today.
Mum became very understanding . she knows how big his son's dreams are . and she lets him fly . no matter if how much it takes of her and dad , she tries her best . Mum was supportive of everything . Dad just wanted to give me the best .
We had everything once in our lives . and we lost everything . but it all made us appreciate each other more and the value of money more .
Mum went through a lot . a lot . bringing me into this world , seemed like a mistake . But she din give up on me . even if Dad said i was a mistake . i'm so glad .. =)
life got more great when i met may anne in sec sch . made friends and formed a group called lian hua dang . started my ncc career with a band of brothers . next came team huat , purple biscuit , and ngee ann dragonboat team . thank you all for the memories .
as i move on in life , i got shot down many times . Life's crap . but life's great . God brought me into this earth for a good reason . for a good purpose . =)
bro just came home and ate dinner , i also had maggie mee too .
he told me , you must spend more time at home . watch tv with mum . do more of the housechores .
i haven't bring my family out for a 5 star dinner yet . and bro's leaving in 3 days ! **calculation error , it's thursday , not wednesday .
yup , leave the family to me . =)
mum always worried bout her boy , cause he always seem so distant from the family ever since he joined sec sch . he never talked , during dinner , he never mentioned anything . even with gangsters , with school , with teachers , with friends , with girls .. he kept mum .
that's me i guess . i always keep quiet . cause i never wanna worry my parents . i'm a very quiet boy at home . and sometimes Dad take it out on me . Bro takes it out on me , i just keep quiet . i never fight back . i just let it be ....
family was in a rubbles back in my sec sch days . mum almost gave up . Dad ... faced problems everywhere in his life . Bro ... didn't do well in his studies . me ... messing around in life . i'm so glad , we're the family we are today.
Mum became very understanding . she knows how big his son's dreams are . and she lets him fly . no matter if how much it takes of her and dad , she tries her best . Mum was supportive of everything . Dad just wanted to give me the best .
We had everything once in our lives . and we lost everything . but it all made us appreciate each other more and the value of money more .
Mum went through a lot . a lot . bringing me into this world , seemed like a mistake . But she din give up on me . even if Dad said i was a mistake . i'm so glad .. =)
life got more great when i met may anne in sec sch . made friends and formed a group called lian hua dang . started my ncc career with a band of brothers . next came team huat , purple biscuit , and ngee ann dragonboat team . thank you all for the memories .
as i move on in life , i got shot down many times . Life's crap . but life's great . God brought me into this earth for a good reason . for a good purpose . =)
Monday, September 05, 2005
ACT.219 - fighting the battle .
i have not slept well for a very long time .
bad dreams every night . wake up in the middle of the night in shock . maybe i was just too tired ... haha .. but every night , i have bad dreams . every night sia !! haha ... it's like hauntings manx .
but i definitely don't like what is happening to me . it's kind of crap , it's like , history repeating . i just hope this nightmares crap end soon . i'm not feeling well , i've gotta study . i can't afford not to lose essential and effective sleep .
hmmm .. wanna go Changi Airport to study . can't get anyone to go though . i still think that that's the best place ever to study . wahahah ..
headache arh now ... =[ i am breathing so heavily lately and sometimes my heart beat so hard . lol ... really like machiam in shock . haha ... whatever .
gonna go study now ..
i have not slept well for a very long time .
bad dreams every night . wake up in the middle of the night in shock . maybe i was just too tired ... haha .. but every night , i have bad dreams . every night sia !! haha ... it's like hauntings manx .
but i definitely don't like what is happening to me . it's kind of crap , it's like , history repeating . i just hope this nightmares crap end soon . i'm not feeling well , i've gotta study . i can't afford not to lose essential and effective sleep .
hmmm .. wanna go Changi Airport to study . can't get anyone to go though . i still think that that's the best place ever to study . wahahah ..
headache arh now ... =[ i am breathing so heavily lately and sometimes my heart beat so hard . lol ... really like machiam in shock . haha ... whatever .
gonna go study now ..
ACT.218 - when love gets us down .
bro is leaving in 3 days !! arrggghh .. can't imagine !
haha ... i don't really like to come back home without people at home . it's so quiet and all ... i really would like bro to be around usually .
suddenly , i fear loneliness when he's not around . cause ...
hai .
the other day , i even asked my bro out , cause i really wanna go out , and i have no one . i was so desperate , i even asked my bro out . and the last time we go out , is like , way back in 1999 ? or even earlier ? but he said he was not free .
oh ok , so today , lian hua dang realised something was real wrong . that all of us are single ! and we all are not successful in love ! hmmm ... it's like a curse . haha ... i don't think the problem lies with us , or at least all of us . all 12 people .
edwin leong just got dumped , and ... he's got played . after a relationship of 1 year plus . played .... i can't believe how bad our love life all can get . haha ...
will miss bro for the first time in my life .
bro is leaving in 3 days !! arrggghh .. can't imagine !
haha ... i don't really like to come back home without people at home . it's so quiet and all ... i really would like bro to be around usually .
suddenly , i fear loneliness when he's not around . cause ...
hai .
the other day , i even asked my bro out , cause i really wanna go out , and i have no one . i was so desperate , i even asked my bro out . and the last time we go out , is like , way back in 1999 ? or even earlier ? but he said he was not free .
oh ok , so today , lian hua dang realised something was real wrong . that all of us are single ! and we all are not successful in love ! hmmm ... it's like a curse . haha ... i don't think the problem lies with us , or at least all of us . all 12 people .
edwin leong just got dumped , and ... he's got played . after a relationship of 1 year plus . played .... i can't believe how bad our love life all can get . haha ...
will miss bro for the first time in my life .
Sunday, September 04, 2005
ACT.217 - all i have to give.
i just wanna tell u , may anne , thank you . Thank you , for not letting go of our friendship , thank you for praying for me . so much drama went on during our rocky days , but we pulled it through . i've suffered , but you suffered more .
And here you are right now , with someone amazing . it's really great .. i'm really happy for you . you have my blessings .
well , for me , don't worry . you know who i am , i tell u , good guys still rock . i always believed , that light will triumph over darkness . same rule applies here .
haha... and i realised .. i've gotten over everything . i'm so glad for myself ...
and i told u , that , right now , i regained confidence and faith in myself again . that same old me , i'm who i am again . i'm so glad . for myself that is ! haha ...
haha , i bet u were waiting for this day . i'm a new man once again . and i'm myself once again .
so , i set out on my journey , a new chapter here today . =)
and zann [ blue / purple biscuit girl ] , i hope you're doing fine . i'll be right there when u need me .
i just wanna tell u , may anne , thank you . Thank you , for not letting go of our friendship , thank you for praying for me . so much drama went on during our rocky days , but we pulled it through . i've suffered , but you suffered more .
And here you are right now , with someone amazing . it's really great .. i'm really happy for you . you have my blessings .
well , for me , don't worry . you know who i am , i tell u , good guys still rock . i always believed , that light will triumph over darkness . same rule applies here .
haha... and i realised .. i've gotten over everything . i'm so glad for myself ...
and i told u , that , right now , i regained confidence and faith in myself again . that same old me , i'm who i am again . i'm so glad . for myself that is ! haha ...
haha , i bet u were waiting for this day . i'm a new man once again . and i'm myself once again .
so , i set out on my journey , a new chapter here today . =)
and zann [ blue / purple biscuit girl ] , i hope you're doing fine . i'll be right there when u need me .
ACT.216 - smile once again.
hmmm .. Andy just broke up with Jaime .. it's a year plus isn't it . i guess you've learnt a lot from this didn't you ? your first serious and lasting relationship ... get over it dude . Make sure you don't repeat history again k ? take care my friend .
still having fever ... and my ears are getting blocked .. haha , it's like , even i'm sitting down on my chair , in my room ... it's like i'm on a flight , on a plane . weird ...
must rest .
and also , happy birthday to one of our best basketball players in Lian Hua Dang , DENNY !! you're 18 , and our friendship has all progressed and taken another step . it's been 5 years . and i hope , all the misunderstandings we had .. will be cleared . be like who we are last time k ? enjoy this birthday , forget all the worries , troubles , and the pain . =) happy birthday to u , my good friend .
Gi kian .. it's so sad you can't be here with us . another 10 months , you'll be here with us again .. hoo ray !
haha ... time flies . a while ago , we're all kids , after sch , play bball , after sch , go denny hse play Playstation , then play bball .. i really loved the days with you guys . i still could remember , the days when you guys brought me into the world of basketball . thank you . thank you all . and yes .. i'm still unable to dunk . if only i didn't let go of basketball since sec 4 . maybe today , i'm able to .
for once in my life , basketball was my everything . and then came rx-7 , but no one came , who could replace everything . still waiting ... =)
hmmm .. Andy just broke up with Jaime .. it's a year plus isn't it . i guess you've learnt a lot from this didn't you ? your first serious and lasting relationship ... get over it dude . Make sure you don't repeat history again k ? take care my friend .
still having fever ... and my ears are getting blocked .. haha , it's like , even i'm sitting down on my chair , in my room ... it's like i'm on a flight , on a plane . weird ...
must rest .
and also , happy birthday to one of our best basketball players in Lian Hua Dang , DENNY !! you're 18 , and our friendship has all progressed and taken another step . it's been 5 years . and i hope , all the misunderstandings we had .. will be cleared . be like who we are last time k ? enjoy this birthday , forget all the worries , troubles , and the pain . =) happy birthday to u , my good friend .
Gi kian .. it's so sad you can't be here with us . another 10 months , you'll be here with us again .. hoo ray !
haha ... time flies . a while ago , we're all kids , after sch , play bball , after sch , go denny hse play Playstation , then play bball .. i really loved the days with you guys . i still could remember , the days when you guys brought me into the world of basketball . thank you . thank you all . and yes .. i'm still unable to dunk . if only i didn't let go of basketball since sec 4 . maybe today , i'm able to .
for once in my life , basketball was my everything . and then came rx-7 , but no one came , who could replace everything . still waiting ... =)
ACT.215 - you lied .
just went to angelia's hse and tried to fix up her IE .. can't help much sia . i guess the problem was too big for such a noob to handle .
hmm .. my fever is still here , and it ain't getting any better . the medicine's are not good enuf to suppress it ... i just hope it doesn't turn out to be any virus , like what i have in p1 and p6 . if it's a virus thingy .. it's gonna be real troublesome , hospital and all that . and that means another thing ... $$$$ .
haha ... hope i get well soon . and able to focus on studying . my mind's been quite a whirlwind lately ... getting dreams and nightmares everyday . can't sleep well ...
oh well .. hope this crap gets over soon . =)
just went to angelia's hse and tried to fix up her IE .. can't help much sia . i guess the problem was too big for such a noob to handle .
hmm .. my fever is still here , and it ain't getting any better . the medicine's are not good enuf to suppress it ... i just hope it doesn't turn out to be any virus , like what i have in p1 and p6 . if it's a virus thingy .. it's gonna be real troublesome , hospital and all that . and that means another thing ... $$$$ .
haha ... hope i get well soon . and able to focus on studying . my mind's been quite a whirlwind lately ... getting dreams and nightmares everyday . can't sleep well ...
oh well .. hope this crap gets over soon . =)
Saturday, September 03, 2005
ACT.214 - suddenly ,i'm lost.
anyway , wanna say thanks to beverly , she's been there to listen to my whining and grumbling when i was having problems with wei ling . you just rock as a friend ! stay in contact k ... we haven seen each other or talked to each other for aeons .
thanks to clara also ... haha ..
hmm ... i have worked for so long and today i wanna take a day off . and there's nothing to do .. how pathetic can it get . haiz ... and at the end of everything , i fell sick as well .
God , pls grant me this wish , to allow me to really enjoy within these 2 days , cause it really sucks , to study and do school work for so long , coped up at home for 2 weeks plus , and have nowhere to go after that .
i promise you , i'll study real hard after this enjoyment of time . i too , wanna study real hard .. but i figured , i really needed a break .
anyway , wanna say thanks to beverly , she's been there to listen to my whining and grumbling when i was having problems with wei ling . you just rock as a friend ! stay in contact k ... we haven seen each other or talked to each other for aeons .
thanks to clara also ... haha ..
hmm ... i have worked for so long and today i wanna take a day off . and there's nothing to do .. how pathetic can it get . haiz ... and at the end of everything , i fell sick as well .
God , pls grant me this wish , to allow me to really enjoy within these 2 days , cause it really sucks , to study and do school work for so long , coped up at home for 2 weeks plus , and have nowhere to go after that .
i promise you , i'll study real hard after this enjoyment of time . i too , wanna study real hard .. but i figured , i really needed a break .
ACT.213 - guardian angels.
may anne , i'm touched by what you've said that day . you said .. you've been praying for me to meet the one , ever since 2000 . it's been 6 years ... yet , here i am .
well .... thank you .
thank you wen zhong , this is a pretty rough patch we're going through , but soon ,it'll be sunshine after the rain . i hope .
may anne , i'm touched by what you've said that day . you said .. you've been praying for me to meet the one , ever since 2000 . it's been 6 years ... yet , here i am .
well .... thank you .
thank you wen zhong , this is a pretty rough patch we're going through , but soon ,it'll be sunshine after the rain . i hope .
Friday, September 02, 2005
ACT.212 - stand up yourself .
high fever now ... had fever this morning and taking medicine din help ... haha .. i hope it doesn't get worse thru out the nite ... i worked for too long .
Hmm , bro told me , actually it's ur fault . you've failed as leader , you din manage ur team ... i told him , i know .
so today went out with poly gang for Fish & Co. . we waited very long for seats .. and my fever was getting worst . nevertheless , we still got on with fish and chips ! the girl serving us , had quality service . i just love it manx .
So today , in the MRT , there was a couple that kept staring at me . i don't know what's up with them ..and the lady started making calls . and the guy was still staring at me ... then , so many guys looked at me today . and guess what ... GAYS !! arrrgggghh .. can this end ?
too bad today , majority of the time was spent on waiting . =) time to rest ..
high fever now ... had fever this morning and taking medicine din help ... haha .. i hope it doesn't get worse thru out the nite ... i worked for too long .
Hmm , bro told me , actually it's ur fault . you've failed as leader , you din manage ur team ... i told him , i know .
so today went out with poly gang for Fish & Co. . we waited very long for seats .. and my fever was getting worst . nevertheless , we still got on with fish and chips ! the girl serving us , had quality service . i just love it manx .
So today , in the MRT , there was a couple that kept staring at me . i don't know what's up with them ..and the lady started making calls . and the guy was still staring at me ... then , so many guys looked at me today . and guess what ... GAYS !! arrrgggghh .. can this end ?
too bad today , majority of the time was spent on waiting . =) time to rest ..
ACT.211 - drifting apart.
i guessed it right , i'm having fever already .
today's the last day of everything ..... but i still have to study for my exams .
i need a break .
i feel kind of pathetic , when i wanna go out , there's no one to go out with . or that the timing is just so so so bad .
Fever go away . I must perform for later's presentation ... if not , my 2 weeks plus effort go down the drain .
i'm having dreams everyday lately .... and it's kinda weird . i wouldn't say they are nice dreams .. but most are nightmares . Oh manx .. i'm back to this dumb world again ... haha .. oh maybe i'm just tired ..
But , i think nightmares come true . for me that is .
jia you . i must go on .
i guessed it right , i'm having fever already .
today's the last day of everything ..... but i still have to study for my exams .
i need a break .
i feel kind of pathetic , when i wanna go out , there's no one to go out with . or that the timing is just so so so bad .
Fever go away . I must perform for later's presentation ... if not , my 2 weeks plus effort go down the drain .
i'm having dreams everyday lately .... and it's kinda weird . i wouldn't say they are nice dreams .. but most are nightmares . Oh manx .. i'm back to this dumb world again ... haha .. oh maybe i'm just tired ..
But , i think nightmares come true . for me that is .
jia you . i must go on .
Thursday, September 01, 2005
ACT.210 - the feeling of no freedom.
now i know , the feeling of misery and everything ... when you're in jail !! of course , jail is much more worst than this .
arrrrrrgggghhhh !! i have been doing work for so long , and i nv go out ... and now i'm so BORED ! although i still have work on my hand ... but .. i really wanna get outta here ... break me free from this urbanisation world . i really can't take it anymore .
now i know , the feeling of misery and everything ... when you're in jail !! of course , jail is much more worst than this .
arrrrrrgggghhhh !! i have been doing work for so long , and i nv go out ... and now i'm so BORED ! although i still have work on my hand ... but .. i really wanna get outta here ... break me free from this urbanisation world . i really can't take it anymore .
ACT.209 - Stay strong.
initial d episode 15 :
[project d.]
keisuke's FD rx-7 got smashed , thanks to the Evolution guys pulling some dirty trick . Well , after that ... the always hot tempered , rough , keisuke cried .
Takumi said : " although my feelings of what just happened all riled up , but i must concentrate on the task given to me . i must win those guys no matter what . "
- something like that .
Here , it teaches another lesson . Do not allow emotions to affect your work ,your task . Take focused , no matter what . it's hard , we all know . but it's something everyone must learn in their lives .
wah , my fav character's rx-7 got smashed , thanks to who ? EVOLUTION bad guys again . haha , the initial D writer must have something up against Evolution , making them the bad guys everytime . the first time keisuke cried ...
i always tot he's pretty similar to me . reckless also ! besides , he's driving a FD .
haha , and actually , how can i compare Anime with Reality ? yeah .. i guess you're right , watch it , but don't let it lead u . that's what they say about TV .
courage , zann . Courage , for me too .
everything's throwing at me now , but i must still stay focused on my work . i bet , soon , sunshine after the rain ! =) [ what singlish ... lol .]
initial d episode 15 :
[project d.]
keisuke's FD rx-7 got smashed , thanks to the Evolution guys pulling some dirty trick . Well , after that ... the always hot tempered , rough , keisuke cried .
Takumi said : " although my feelings of what just happened all riled up , but i must concentrate on the task given to me . i must win those guys no matter what . "
- something like that .
Here , it teaches another lesson . Do not allow emotions to affect your work ,your task . Take focused , no matter what . it's hard , we all know . but it's something everyone must learn in their lives .
wah , my fav character's rx-7 got smashed , thanks to who ? EVOLUTION bad guys again . haha , the initial D writer must have something up against Evolution , making them the bad guys everytime . the first time keisuke cried ...
i always tot he's pretty similar to me . reckless also ! besides , he's driving a FD .
haha , and actually , how can i compare Anime with Reality ? yeah .. i guess you're right , watch it , but don't let it lead u . that's what they say about TV .
courage , zann . Courage , for me too .
everything's throwing at me now , but i must still stay focused on my work . i bet , soon , sunshine after the rain ! =) [ what singlish ... lol .]
ACT.208 - emotions.
Kelly , i hope you win . [ project superstar ]
Wei Lian might win ... but with all that sympathy votes ... it's not doing him good . Imagine he's going to Taiwan and all that .. to create his new album . Do what you think is best .
Many of you who made it into the competition .. are all winners . Just that not all people don't recognise your talents . but it's ok , i do . people do .
So i woke up today ... and almost got my left leg cramped ! ytd when i was sleeping halfway, my right leg cramped very badly ... then today morning , in my mind was : " OH CRAP ! don't tell me left leg ... "
What a peaceful morning . time to get on with work ... i need a breather .
Somehow or rather ... wherever i go lately , i see clouds passing by with a beautiful sky as the background . Is this a signal ? maybe just that .. i started taking note more of nature bah ...
It's rather weird for a speedist , but , i've told my friends . When i'm fetching my friends or my gf .. i'll never ever speed . it's a responsibility ...of a driver.
haha ... i wonder how's everyone . everyone please take care ... esp the people i know , who are really going through rough times ...
Kelly , i hope you win . [ project superstar ]
Wei Lian might win ... but with all that sympathy votes ... it's not doing him good . Imagine he's going to Taiwan and all that .. to create his new album . Do what you think is best .
Many of you who made it into the competition .. are all winners . Just that not all people don't recognise your talents . but it's ok , i do . people do .
So i woke up today ... and almost got my left leg cramped ! ytd when i was sleeping halfway, my right leg cramped very badly ... then today morning , in my mind was : " OH CRAP ! don't tell me left leg ... "
What a peaceful morning . time to get on with work ... i need a breather .
Somehow or rather ... wherever i go lately , i see clouds passing by with a beautiful sky as the background . Is this a signal ? maybe just that .. i started taking note more of nature bah ...
It's rather weird for a speedist , but , i've told my friends . When i'm fetching my friends or my gf .. i'll never ever speed . it's a responsibility ...of a driver.
haha ... i wonder how's everyone . everyone please take care ... esp the people i know , who are really going through rough times ...
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