ACT.207 - learning process.
Life is a learning process , we learn as we grow. we become stronger as we get through each obstacle . - zan-rx .
Gi kian , praying for ya safety . you are worrying us everyday , out there in the sea . We just wish for your safety ... come home safe .
I've heard something happened to our friend , edwin . His blood vessels in his eyes burst ... although he did something real dumb , but i can't help worrying for him .
Trying my best to take care of my health . Bro's leaving ... and i'm left to take care of this family , for once in my life .
Grandma's first journey overseas , to Perth . hope you come home safe too . wanted to see u off , but it was too last min .
hoping everyone will be fine . my friend , wen zhong , believe in what we believe in . you told me that ... don't lose faith . it's ok if we fall .. but we've gotta pick ourselves up again .
my friends are all facing problems ... what bout me ? i'm not really having it good too .... i've watched a sitcom today , a American classic on Channel 5 . Grandma told grandson : " Life is always full of crap . You can either choose to face it , or let it be . " - something like that .
cheers to ting xian , new chance . =)
rockin' my world.
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
ACT.206 - Being stubborn gets u nowhere.
i've made some thoughts lately . May Anne said , i'm stubborn .. and i realised , yeah , i was . i never thought i was stubborn ...
if not exposing myself to continental Cars and believing in Japanese cars , i'm gonna be a huge loser . If i'm gonna keep believing that Mazda is a great car brand , i'm gonna be another bigger loser . If i'm gonna hate Mitsubishi Evolution all my life , i'm gonna make one of the biggest mistakes in my automotive Passion . The Hate for the evolution .. is slowly fading away . I must learn to love it someday , and accept all cars as it is . If not .. i'll never fully understand the automotive line .
I'm on a changing process . a huge one .
To Evolution : Don't be decieved or judged by one's looks . The true beauty is always within . And yup , i'm talking bout your engine room.
i've made some thoughts lately . May Anne said , i'm stubborn .. and i realised , yeah , i was . i never thought i was stubborn ...
if not exposing myself to continental Cars and believing in Japanese cars , i'm gonna be a huge loser . If i'm gonna keep believing that Mazda is a great car brand , i'm gonna be another bigger loser . If i'm gonna hate Mitsubishi Evolution all my life , i'm gonna make one of the biggest mistakes in my automotive Passion . The Hate for the evolution .. is slowly fading away . I must learn to love it someday , and accept all cars as it is . If not .. i'll never fully understand the automotive line .
I'm on a changing process . a huge one .
To Evolution : Don't be decieved or judged by one's looks . The true beauty is always within . And yup , i'm talking bout your engine room.
ACT.205 - my failing body.
Mum said , she's gonna bring me to this awesome sin sei to heal my legs .
but my legs are already permanently damaged ... can he do anything about it ? My nerves , my veins , my joints , my ankles . it's almost the whole leg .
My ankles are in pain lately ... i've just gotta endure .
Hope sin sei can do something bout my legs , but i'm afraid he might say the same thing to me , just like what the sin sei said to Oliver .
I await good news . i've been waiting for the day , to see what's wrong with my body.
Mum said , she's gonna bring me to this awesome sin sei to heal my legs .
but my legs are already permanently damaged ... can he do anything about it ? My nerves , my veins , my joints , my ankles . it's almost the whole leg .
My ankles are in pain lately ... i've just gotta endure .
Hope sin sei can do something bout my legs , but i'm afraid he might say the same thing to me , just like what the sin sei said to Oliver .
I await good news . i've been waiting for the day , to see what's wrong with my body.
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
ACT.204 - the journey of life.
[.shiqi.] problems are created to make us stronger. we learn as we grow. says:
guess things are like a race, everyone have a race they have to complete, just that at this stage, you met with some obstacle such as shattered glass or mud along the way. but no matter what these obstacle are, u have to complete the race still.
[.shiqi.] problems are created to make us stronger. we learn as we grow. says:
hope you can complete it soon
[.shiqi.] problems are created to make us stronger. we learn as we grow. says:
yah, and friends will be waiting for you at the finishing line
Thank you . i realised the importance of friends very long ago ... i'm fortunate to have all of u . really i am .
and lately .. everyone is calling me Ah Beng .... hmm .. am i really beng ? haha ... whatever !
[.shiqi.] problems are created to make us stronger. we learn as we grow. says:
guess things are like a race, everyone have a race they have to complete, just that at this stage, you met with some obstacle such as shattered glass or mud along the way. but no matter what these obstacle are, u have to complete the race still.
[.shiqi.] problems are created to make us stronger. we learn as we grow. says:
hope you can complete it soon
[.shiqi.] problems are created to make us stronger. we learn as we grow. says:
yah, and friends will be waiting for you at the finishing line
Thank you . i realised the importance of friends very long ago ... i'm fortunate to have all of u . really i am .
and lately .. everyone is calling me Ah Beng .... hmm .. am i really beng ? haha ... whatever !
ACT.203 - Happy Teacher's day to you .
Happy Teacher's day to you , Mrs Lee-Goy , my p6 teacher . You're the only teacher ... i really loved in my life . Thank You , for making the man i am today . You've created a path for my future .
I bet you don't even have my blog .. haha ...
Well , i just searched for her e-mail in the school's website .. and sent her a message .... I wonder what will her reaction be . it's been ... 6 years . I should pop over some time this year .
And yes , there was once , she asked me to bring my girl friend over .. haha , sorry hoh , can't do ... no gf !!
happy teacher's day to you , my beloved teacher .
Happy Teacher's day to you , Mrs Lee-Goy , my p6 teacher . You're the only teacher ... i really loved in my life . Thank You , for making the man i am today . You've created a path for my future .
I bet you don't even have my blog .. haha ...
Well , i just searched for her e-mail in the school's website .. and sent her a message .... I wonder what will her reaction be . it's been ... 6 years . I should pop over some time this year .
And yes , there was once , she asked me to bring my girl friend over .. haha , sorry hoh , can't do ... no gf !!
happy teacher's day to you , my beloved teacher .
ACT.202 - fly with me , rx-7.
ok , so what's due this week?
presentation .
logistics proposal .
and i must study my supply chain management .
possible , inventory management .
then what's next ? take a break this weekend , and hang out . and full speed ahead on studying . Shi Qi , you told me it's now or never , and yesh , it makes a whole load of sense . let's count , this diploma costs bout 7000 bucks ?
no regrets . haha ... everyone must ai zai ok .
wen zhong , thanks for everything . i hope , things go over fine on your side too . you , me , 18 and 19 , we won't lose to such a setback . Life's great , beautiful , but full of obstacles that we must walk through . jia you .
gi kian , 10 more months to your arrival back in Singapore !! can't wait ! haha , we miss you . we do .
rx-7 , haven't seen you for a very long time . i've made u my purpose in my life b4 , and i realised now , my real purpose . But that doesn't mean i'm gonna stop loving ya !! haha ... although you've let me down b4 , last year . but still , have faith in u.
zann , jia you in ur studies . now or never .
and ng hong Bin ben , you've made many regrets in ur life . and you never ever repent . and i know , it starts this year .
ok , so what's due this week?
presentation .
logistics proposal .
and i must study my supply chain management .
possible , inventory management .
then what's next ? take a break this weekend , and hang out . and full speed ahead on studying . Shi Qi , you told me it's now or never , and yesh , it makes a whole load of sense . let's count , this diploma costs bout 7000 bucks ?
no regrets . haha ... everyone must ai zai ok .
wen zhong , thanks for everything . i hope , things go over fine on your side too . you , me , 18 and 19 , we won't lose to such a setback . Life's great , beautiful , but full of obstacles that we must walk through . jia you .
gi kian , 10 more months to your arrival back in Singapore !! can't wait ! haha , we miss you . we do .
rx-7 , haven't seen you for a very long time . i've made u my purpose in my life b4 , and i realised now , my real purpose . But that doesn't mean i'm gonna stop loving ya !! haha ... although you've let me down b4 , last year . but still , have faith in u.
zann , jia you in ur studies . now or never .
and ng hong Bin ben , you've made many regrets in ur life . and you never ever repent . and i know , it starts this year .
ACT.201 - Show me the light.
things changed . i don't know what happened . cold treatment is what i'm gettng . i have no idea why too . God , show me the light .
things changed . i don't know what happened . cold treatment is what i'm gettng . i have no idea why too . God , show me the light .
Monday, August 29, 2005
ACT.200 - you weren't here.
i'm doing all my projects alone . i'm studying all alone . i haven went out for aeons . and when i'm free , i have no one to go out with . hmmm .....
send me a guardian angel to be with me . =)
to heal this broken heart of mine too ... to be here when i really need someone . to share my joys and downs . i really hate bottling up issues ..
haha .. everyone take care . end of semester is coming . hope big sis gets a job with prospects too . and soon .
i'm doing all my projects alone . i'm studying all alone . i haven went out for aeons . and when i'm free , i have no one to go out with . hmmm .....
send me a guardian angel to be with me . =)
to heal this broken heart of mine too ... to be here when i really need someone . to share my joys and downs . i really hate bottling up issues ..
haha .. everyone take care . end of semester is coming . hope big sis gets a job with prospects too . and soon .
ACT.199 - the feeling of absence .
i actually went to school for nothing today . so let's list down what i have to do first .
do poster for marketing.
do presentation for marketing .
study supply chain management.
study inventory management .
go to gym , only if possible .
the first 3 , is a must .
so my body is aching now , i have no idea why ... cause i only did running yesterday ! haha ... arrrgggghhhh .... my ankles are hurting lately as well .
i thought bout it .. once i get my car liscence . Dad's gonna do a stunt . he'll get me a car , cause he know i love cars and all that ... and just claim it that , it's a family car , used on sundays for outing . I know him for 18 years , and i know him well . When the time comes , i'll reject him on the spot . I don't need a car , i need you to save that cash ,for your retirement . having transport fees set below $100 each month ,isn't it great ? it's just that we compensate time and convienience . that's all ...
And besides , i'm gonna dominate your mini bus at nite . haha ... so what's the point ? wahaha ... so evil !
i actually went to school for nothing today . so let's list down what i have to do first .
do poster for marketing.
do presentation for marketing .
study supply chain management.
study inventory management .
go to gym , only if possible .
the first 3 , is a must .
so my body is aching now , i have no idea why ... cause i only did running yesterday ! haha ... arrrgggghhhh .... my ankles are hurting lately as well .
i thought bout it .. once i get my car liscence . Dad's gonna do a stunt . he'll get me a car , cause he know i love cars and all that ... and just claim it that , it's a family car , used on sundays for outing . I know him for 18 years , and i know him well . When the time comes , i'll reject him on the spot . I don't need a car , i need you to save that cash ,for your retirement . having transport fees set below $100 each month ,isn't it great ? it's just that we compensate time and convienience . that's all ...
And besides , i'm gonna dominate your mini bus at nite . haha ... so what's the point ? wahaha ... so evil !
Sunday, August 28, 2005
ACT.197 - give me strength.
my legs are starting to ache ... oh crap .. then now feverish ... haha ... hmm , lazy to go get all the lotion or oil to rub ... i have to study ..
i don't know whether i can hold out any longer , but i still have to go on ... soon , exams will be over . i must stay strong ... prevent my body from failing me ... i really wish to give it a rest . but i really can't . all the work is piling upon me , only .
xue ling , i don't really know what's happening in your life anymore , cause we haven really chatted for the past few days . But it's ok , cause i'm always here for u . to listen , complains , or happy words , whatever it is , i won't fail to be there .
thanks big sis , you helped me out in my sch stuff and so , i wasn't really alone . you were there for me , to guide me .
and also , ytd was Alex's birthday . happy birthday to you , my friend . you're sweet 18 now . all the best in your school work , and tone down on your vulagrities ... lol . it's getting too too out of hand . continue to be in love with joey , and forever you guys will be . have my blessing . take care .
my legs are starting to ache ... oh crap .. then now feverish ... haha ... hmm , lazy to go get all the lotion or oil to rub ... i have to study ..
i don't know whether i can hold out any longer , but i still have to go on ... soon , exams will be over . i must stay strong ... prevent my body from failing me ... i really wish to give it a rest . but i really can't . all the work is piling upon me , only .
xue ling , i don't really know what's happening in your life anymore , cause we haven really chatted for the past few days . But it's ok , cause i'm always here for u . to listen , complains , or happy words , whatever it is , i won't fail to be there .
thanks big sis , you helped me out in my sch stuff and so , i wasn't really alone . you were there for me , to guide me .
and also , ytd was Alex's birthday . happy birthday to you , my friend . you're sweet 18 now . all the best in your school work , and tone down on your vulagrities ... lol . it's getting too too out of hand . continue to be in love with joey , and forever you guys will be . have my blessing . take care .
ACT.196 - a failing body.
i went for New Balance run today , participate in Men's Junior , i was expecting to get something , cause i'm playing against people younger than me and all that .. i knew my standard was there .
there was road , sand , a trail . the sand was the area that really hit me . my weak ankles couldn't support me and therefore , i could only maintain or slow down my speed ... that means i can't catch up with the first guy . they were so near ... Ok , so let's take the maintaining option . Then shit ... the sand trail really took a lot a lot of stamina from me .
ok ... then now i'm feeling feverish . it's an on and off thingy ... anyway , want to sick .. just make me sick lah ! haha ...
then now , i wanna do work . then i realise ... my body is aching le . i din have enuf rest ..... it's like ... i'm really going too overboard , defying my body limits . haha ... but still , i have to do work . this week , just this week , God , give me another week , one last shot . =)
i went for New Balance run today , participate in Men's Junior , i was expecting to get something , cause i'm playing against people younger than me and all that .. i knew my standard was there .
there was road , sand , a trail . the sand was the area that really hit me . my weak ankles couldn't support me and therefore , i could only maintain or slow down my speed ... that means i can't catch up with the first guy . they were so near ... Ok , so let's take the maintaining option . Then shit ... the sand trail really took a lot a lot of stamina from me .
ok ... then now i'm feeling feverish . it's an on and off thingy ... anyway , want to sick .. just make me sick lah ! haha ...
then now , i wanna do work . then i realise ... my body is aching le . i din have enuf rest ..... it's like ... i'm really going too overboard , defying my body limits . haha ... but still , i have to do work . this week , just this week , God , give me another week , one last shot . =)
ACT.195 - Just ain't enough.
to myself : whatever you're doing , how much you're studying , isn't enough .
yawn , this is so stupid , need to reach habour front mrt by 7 , then siao , ask me meet at 5.55 at khatib . then everytime they late . i don't care ... i'm taking my own sweet time . i slept so little .
to myself : whatever you're doing , how much you're studying , isn't enough .
yawn , this is so stupid , need to reach habour front mrt by 7 , then siao , ask me meet at 5.55 at khatib . then everytime they late . i don't care ... i'm taking my own sweet time . i slept so little .
ACT.194 - our dreams.
didn't we say , we gonna achieve national champion ?Together ? didn't we make so many promises ? didn't we feel it ? We went thru so much together ....
and now you're giving up . the team trusted you ... We all trusted you . you were ... part of us .
i'm devastated . i thought .. i could fulfil the promise to Ryan . I thought ... if we put all our hearts together , and our dream will come true .
i shed blood for Dragonboat . i have had so many scars on my body as proof . you too . but Don't give it up . have faith in us .. and have faith in yourself .
fulfil this dream with us .
didn't we say , we gonna achieve national champion ?Together ? didn't we make so many promises ? didn't we feel it ? We went thru so much together ....
and now you're giving up . the team trusted you ... We all trusted you . you were ... part of us .
i'm devastated . i thought .. i could fulfil the promise to Ryan . I thought ... if we put all our hearts together , and our dream will come true .
i shed blood for Dragonboat . i have had so many scars on my body as proof . you too . but Don't give it up . have faith in us .. and have faith in yourself .
fulfil this dream with us .
Saturday, August 27, 2005
ACT.193 - stay strong .
shiqi , whatever just happened to you , cry if you have to , think if you have to . Once you think it's time to let bygones by bygones , get over it . Whatever just happened ... i understand . i fully understand. i went thru the same procedure of you , but don't fear , time heals . It's all in the mind , all in the spirit . life is a learning process . hope you stay strong =)
oh my ... what's up with Wan Hua and Edwin ? my reputation is bad enough and then ... now i'm known as Mr Vain ??!!! haha ... thanks .. clara . lol ..
So today's the party for My bro , who's leaving for NS . and then .. it turned into an ultimate family gathering !!
Third Aunt's talking bout my cousin again . haiz . Everyone's not really bothered to hear ... Dad tried his best to help , Mum too . But .. they already did what they can , and they're tired . If only ... he was brought up with loving parents . he wouldn't be who he is today .
Thank You Mum and Dad , both of you loved me and gave the best to me . although in life , i have had many setbacks , i'll stay strong . your boy , will always be your boy forever .
And Bro , you'll be leaving for NS soon . this will be the first time , i live my life without you . I just imagine how Empty our home gonna be . i'll miss you . cause you're always there to help me . Take care Bro , i'll see the same old brand new you ! haha .. cause you do need some excercise dude .
shiqi , whatever just happened to you , cry if you have to , think if you have to . Once you think it's time to let bygones by bygones , get over it . Whatever just happened ... i understand . i fully understand. i went thru the same procedure of you , but don't fear , time heals . It's all in the mind , all in the spirit . life is a learning process . hope you stay strong =)
oh my ... what's up with Wan Hua and Edwin ? my reputation is bad enough and then ... now i'm known as Mr Vain ??!!! haha ... thanks .. clara . lol ..
So today's the party for My bro , who's leaving for NS . and then .. it turned into an ultimate family gathering !!
Third Aunt's talking bout my cousin again . haiz . Everyone's not really bothered to hear ... Dad tried his best to help , Mum too . But .. they already did what they can , and they're tired . If only ... he was brought up with loving parents . he wouldn't be who he is today .
Thank You Mum and Dad , both of you loved me and gave the best to me . although in life , i have had many setbacks , i'll stay strong . your boy , will always be your boy forever .
And Bro , you'll be leaving for NS soon . this will be the first time , i live my life without you . I just imagine how Empty our home gonna be . i'll miss you . cause you're always there to help me . Take care Bro , i'll see the same old brand new you ! haha .. cause you do need some excercise dude .
ACT.192 - Fighting Spirit. Defying limits.
So today , i woke up . oh SHIT !! it's the next morning le ! i wanted to sleep only for 1 hr ytd ... 10.00pm to 11.00pm .. to do work . But great ... now i wasted time .
then woke up , with the thoughts of going dragonboat ... but oh SHIT ! once again .. tomorrow is New Balance run ... that means , my sunday is wasted , and i have to do work on either weekends .
Now great ... i think i have to pon dragonboat . haha ... oh man .. guilty .. Oliver is gonna slash me ... haha ..
Feverish . but i still have to go on .... even if my body can't take it . i still have to get my work done no matter what .
I really hoped to spend my day yesterday in a nice way ... but .....
yawn . everyone's not around .
status : Marketing . hope it can be done today . after today's task , i still have to do presentation . then prepare for presentation . this is pure torturing but grooming at the same time . Hold on , boy . Even if you're the only person encouraging yourself , Fight on .
So today , i woke up . oh SHIT !! it's the next morning le ! i wanted to sleep only for 1 hr ytd ... 10.00pm to 11.00pm .. to do work . But great ... now i wasted time .
then woke up , with the thoughts of going dragonboat ... but oh SHIT ! once again .. tomorrow is New Balance run ... that means , my sunday is wasted , and i have to do work on either weekends .
Now great ... i think i have to pon dragonboat . haha ... oh man .. guilty .. Oliver is gonna slash me ... haha ..
Feverish . but i still have to go on .... even if my body can't take it . i still have to get my work done no matter what .
I really hoped to spend my day yesterday in a nice way ... but .....
yawn . everyone's not around .
status : Marketing . hope it can be done today . after today's task , i still have to do presentation . then prepare for presentation . this is pure torturing but grooming at the same time . Hold on , boy . Even if you're the only person encouraging yourself , Fight on .
Friday, August 26, 2005
ACT.191 - My promise lasts for more than a century.and forever . and ever.
" My promise to you , never ends , even until the day i'm gone . It will go on , forever and ever .
Even if i'm no longer here , i'll be watching over you from up above .
See you smile , and be right there when you cry .
Hoping you'll find true happiness . " - zan.
" My promise to you , never ends , even until the day i'm gone . It will go on , forever and ever .
Even if i'm no longer here , i'll be watching over you from up above .
See you smile , and be right there when you cry .
Hoping you'll find true happiness . " - zan.
ACT.190 - Drifting freestyle.
zero to hundred featured FD ~~! cool eh ?? it's owned by a indian guy who looks like he fits the commercial of Dunhill , lol . he's from M'sia . but i heard this FD got sabotaged ... haiz , what a ugly world .
So i finally handed in my marketing proposal . haha , Glad . Big sis told me .. this is the poly standard . yeah .. i must accept it . but i feel , my calibre , isn't that good anyway . what i'm performing , is only basics or even average . well , i don't know .
i also don't know where all my researching skills come from . I guess the training in NCC did make a lot of difference . I was exposed to hardship when i entered sec sch . I was brought to see the ugly world of the working society right away . Thank You , Mr Lai . You taught me a lot , but never too much ;)
So i decided to take a off day [ hoooo ray ! ] , but wait ..i have no activities !! arrrrgggghhh .. how boring can life get ? haha ... i guess all my friends are busy , so didn't ask anyone out .
purple biscuit said she permed her hair ... hmmm ... can't wait to see ! wahahaha ...
mood : I just love work . bring me more . it's best that they don't come with burdens that hinder my production rate .
zero to hundred featured FD ~~! cool eh ?? it's owned by a indian guy who looks like he fits the commercial of Dunhill , lol . he's from M'sia . but i heard this FD got sabotaged ... haiz , what a ugly world .
So i finally handed in my marketing proposal . haha , Glad . Big sis told me .. this is the poly standard . yeah .. i must accept it . but i feel , my calibre , isn't that good anyway . what i'm performing , is only basics or even average . well , i don't know .
i also don't know where all my researching skills come from . I guess the training in NCC did make a lot of difference . I was exposed to hardship when i entered sec sch . I was brought to see the ugly world of the working society right away . Thank You , Mr Lai . You taught me a lot , but never too much ;)
So i decided to take a off day [ hoooo ray ! ] , but wait ..i have no activities !! arrrrgggghhh .. how boring can life get ? haha ... i guess all my friends are busy , so didn't ask anyone out .
purple biscuit said she permed her hair ... hmmm ... can't wait to see ! wahahaha ...
mood : I just love work . bring me more . it's best that they don't come with burdens that hinder my production rate .
Thursday, August 25, 2005
ACT.189 - i hate the fact , that i love u.
xin hui sang just now , and i cannot deny , i'm very touched by her singing .
This is the first time , i'm touched by someone's singing , not to mention American idol and so on . for the first time .
haha , but my fav idol is still William Ok !!
i still can rmb wan hua the other time ask me join Singapore Idol , she's gotta be out of her mind !! wahahaha ...
xin hui , it's so wasted . but for william , it's even more wasted =(
xin hui sang just now , and i cannot deny , i'm very touched by her singing .
This is the first time , i'm touched by someone's singing , not to mention American idol and so on . for the first time .
haha , but my fav idol is still William Ok !!
i still can rmb wan hua the other time ask me join Singapore Idol , she's gotta be out of her mind !! wahahaha ...
xin hui , it's so wasted . but for william , it's even more wasted =(
ACT.179 - you were never here .
World is cruel , Love is blind , Lost in sadness , Blur in mind , Heart is broken , Flame had died , Time has passed , she's not mine !
PON sch again today ... to do marketing . haha .. i just hope i don't get too sianx at home when i'm doing it ... that's why i always love to have my family at home .
woke up today feeling feverish . but i think eat tablets , will ok le bah ... my body still can hold on . =)
i told ting xian this " Love is an issue , everyone wants to know . But the things is , no one ever had their questions answered . "
yeah , even i wish to know more . But we all can't .
yes , me and you have had sad pasts . but everyone else too . everyone on this earth , suffered quite a bit u know . some i knew , had the worst edges God could have given . so stop thinking your past was pathetic . start appreciating.
wah ... to think of it arh .. i don't wanna be sick sia ! the feeling just sucks ... haha .. better start taking care of myself ...
World is cruel , Love is blind , Lost in sadness , Blur in mind , Heart is broken , Flame had died , Time has passed , she's not mine !
PON sch again today ... to do marketing . haha .. i just hope i don't get too sianx at home when i'm doing it ... that's why i always love to have my family at home .
woke up today feeling feverish . but i think eat tablets , will ok le bah ... my body still can hold on . =)
i told ting xian this " Love is an issue , everyone wants to know . But the things is , no one ever had their questions answered . "
yeah , even i wish to know more . But we all can't .
yes , me and you have had sad pasts . but everyone else too . everyone on this earth , suffered quite a bit u know . some i knew , had the worst edges God could have given . so stop thinking your past was pathetic . start appreciating.
wah ... to think of it arh .. i don't wanna be sick sia ! the feeling just sucks ... haha .. better start taking care of myself ...
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
ACT.178 - suppressing everything.
marketing . oh manx , i can't get it off my mind . arrrggghhh !! don't stress myself for nothing man ! haha ...
another 11 months , gi kian will be back , hoo ray ! time just passed , awhile ago , you were here with us . Next thing , you were off for your attachment . I hope your questions will be answered on this journey around the world . Whatever i have said , will be proven , right or wrong to you . But whatever you have said , could be proven wrong to me .
hmmm , i'm on such a huge learning process . with her and her sis , gaining knowledge . i admit , i'm stubborn , being so influenced by the automotive industry . give me time to learn . i have been so lost from this world since 2003 december .
ting xian , don't give up on love dude . there'll be a time for you to come . once you give up from here onwards , it means you're cutting all your chances already . as every girl comes by and hits u , pick yourself , and be stronger . recover , and smile once again .
if everytime in life , you sound so pessimistic bout stuff , because of how reality treats u , you'll get nowhere and you'll lead a sad sad life no matter when minor happy things come by . it's all in the mind . Think about how beautiful life is , for e.g , the ncc times we have spent together . keep them close to your heart , these beautiful memories.
i have had sad pasts . i have had situations when i am against all odds . i have had battles against the darkest of this world . but i'm still alive and kicking right now . and i can't wait to face more . And everytime i fall , i pick myself up , cause there are people here for me , who care for me . Mum , Dad , Bro , my master and so on .
I bet your family loves u as much as ever . even if no girl comes by and love u , then let it be . if no girl comes by and love u , it means no girl will come by , right now . get what i mean ?
no girl ever came by and love me , but i still leave things the way they are . waiting for such a girl to love me and for me to love her with all my heart . i was always waiting and i am always waiting . for that girl to love me .
So don't worry bout love , hey , we are only 17 manx . i think my dad only met my mum when he was 23 ? that's 6 years away from us lei . so just do well in ur studies first , if love comes along , take it . if not , just focus on ur studies, family and friends .
i hope u know what i mean . i'm always here for u .
marketing . oh manx , i can't get it off my mind . arrrggghhh !! don't stress myself for nothing man ! haha ...
another 11 months , gi kian will be back , hoo ray ! time just passed , awhile ago , you were here with us . Next thing , you were off for your attachment . I hope your questions will be answered on this journey around the world . Whatever i have said , will be proven , right or wrong to you . But whatever you have said , could be proven wrong to me .
hmmm , i'm on such a huge learning process . with her and her sis , gaining knowledge . i admit , i'm stubborn , being so influenced by the automotive industry . give me time to learn . i have been so lost from this world since 2003 december .
ting xian , don't give up on love dude . there'll be a time for you to come . once you give up from here onwards , it means you're cutting all your chances already . as every girl comes by and hits u , pick yourself , and be stronger . recover , and smile once again .
if everytime in life , you sound so pessimistic bout stuff , because of how reality treats u , you'll get nowhere and you'll lead a sad sad life no matter when minor happy things come by . it's all in the mind . Think about how beautiful life is , for e.g , the ncc times we have spent together . keep them close to your heart , these beautiful memories.
i have had sad pasts . i have had situations when i am against all odds . i have had battles against the darkest of this world . but i'm still alive and kicking right now . and i can't wait to face more . And everytime i fall , i pick myself up , cause there are people here for me , who care for me . Mum , Dad , Bro , my master and so on .
I bet your family loves u as much as ever . even if no girl comes by and love u , then let it be . if no girl comes by and love u , it means no girl will come by , right now . get what i mean ?
no girl ever came by and love me , but i still leave things the way they are . waiting for such a girl to love me and for me to love her with all my heart . i was always waiting and i am always waiting . for that girl to love me .
So don't worry bout love , hey , we are only 17 manx . i think my dad only met my mum when he was 23 ? that's 6 years away from us lei . so just do well in ur studies first , if love comes along , take it . if not , just focus on ur studies, family and friends .
i hope u know what i mean . i'm always here for u .
ACT.177 - lucky boy .
i woke up at 10.00 and Logistics comm test was at 10.00 !!
haha , so i performed my ultra quick bathing technique , and b4 that , booked for a taxi . so in 5 mins , i went downstairs . i could have been faster . my hair was a terrible mess ...
taxi came in a while , and driver and me started talking . chatting . but i gave him instructions to fly .
reached NP , and i flew to classroom . after test ... i came home ... and found out , WHERE ARE MY KEYS ???
called Taxi company ... and then yeah , keys was in the taxi ! =)
and the better part was that , he lives in yishun ! like HOW GOOD CAN it get baby ??!!
i can't believe how lucky i could get , but i still went over to grandma's hse , get the spare keys so i could go home and get stuff done ... haha ... ain't i a lucky boy .
i studied til so late last night . and i don remember waking up and walking to the alarm clock and asking it to shut up at 8.00 . tired tired ...
haha , but still ,i'm lucky . very . [ God for once saved my butt .. wahahha !! ]
not feeling myself lately , stress building up and so on . work work work .
last post : i am so harsh to myself , is because i wanna learn , wanna improve , wanna be ... a better man .
i woke up at 10.00 and Logistics comm test was at 10.00 !!
haha , so i performed my ultra quick bathing technique , and b4 that , booked for a taxi . so in 5 mins , i went downstairs . i could have been faster . my hair was a terrible mess ...
taxi came in a while , and driver and me started talking . chatting . but i gave him instructions to fly .
reached NP , and i flew to classroom . after test ... i came home ... and found out , WHERE ARE MY KEYS ???
called Taxi company ... and then yeah , keys was in the taxi ! =)
and the better part was that , he lives in yishun ! like HOW GOOD CAN it get baby ??!!
i can't believe how lucky i could get , but i still went over to grandma's hse , get the spare keys so i could go home and get stuff done ... haha ... ain't i a lucky boy .
i studied til so late last night . and i don remember waking up and walking to the alarm clock and asking it to shut up at 8.00 . tired tired ...
haha , but still ,i'm lucky . very . [ God for once saved my butt .. wahahha !! ]
not feeling myself lately , stress building up and so on . work work work .
last post : i am so harsh to myself , is because i wanna learn , wanna improve , wanna be ... a better man .
ACT.176 - loving yourself .
i am so harsh to myself . mentally and physcially . spirtually .
when i'm heartbroken , i hid in my room and bottled everything up . keeping it all to myself . cry if i have to . no matter how much i wanna shout out my feelings , i kept quiet . i put on a brave front , a smiling face in front of others .
when i'm lost , i confided in my blog . and on my own , i walked my path.
when i have done a mistake , i hid in my room and reflected on it . do some soul searching .
when i realised my mistake , i scold myself .
when my limits are already reached , i tell myself to keep going ...
when i needed somebody , and she / he wasn't there , i told myself to be strong and be on my own .
when i needed support , i stood by myself , thinking of rx-7 as my pillar of strength . i told myself i had to go on.
when i am so stressed , i kept going with my work . in fact .. nobody thought of doing anything for me to distress me . maybe that's a gf 's job . i don't know .
when i was fighting the dark side , i kept quiet and fought an impossible battle .
but one day , i'll fall .
that i know . that means mr hong bin will start loving himself from today onwards , even if no one loves him or bring warmth into his life . no one ever tried loving him anyway . =)
to myself : stay strong . hold on . find happiness and stay happy . love yourself =)
i am so harsh to myself . mentally and physcially . spirtually .
when i'm heartbroken , i hid in my room and bottled everything up . keeping it all to myself . cry if i have to . no matter how much i wanna shout out my feelings , i kept quiet . i put on a brave front , a smiling face in front of others .
when i'm lost , i confided in my blog . and on my own , i walked my path.
when i have done a mistake , i hid in my room and reflected on it . do some soul searching .
when i realised my mistake , i scold myself .
when my limits are already reached , i tell myself to keep going ...
when i needed somebody , and she / he wasn't there , i told myself to be strong and be on my own .
when i needed support , i stood by myself , thinking of rx-7 as my pillar of strength . i told myself i had to go on.
when i am so stressed , i kept going with my work . in fact .. nobody thought of doing anything for me to distress me . maybe that's a gf 's job . i don't know .
when i was fighting the dark side , i kept quiet and fought an impossible battle .
but one day , i'll fall .
that i know . that means mr hong bin will start loving himself from today onwards , even if no one loves him or bring warmth into his life . no one ever tried loving him anyway . =)
to myself : stay strong . hold on . find happiness and stay happy . love yourself =)
ACT.175 - zero degrees .
you weren't here when i needed you most . . . you were never here .
distracted . lots of work . a too bothered me .
bring warmth into my life again . it's been too cold a world ever since .
you weren't here when i needed you most . . . you were never here .
distracted . lots of work . a too bothered me .
bring warmth into my life again . it's been too cold a world ever since .
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
ACT.174 - the ugly end of the world .
just checked out angelia's blog . din realised quite a bit has happened . take care , girl . i know you'll be strong .
anyway , my skull bone is hurting now . i am analysing the cause of this . could it be the metal pole that hit me back 4 years back ? can't be . it would be too late if it hurt now .
but i was thinking , no one whacked me lately or what as well . something's gotta be wrong . haha , but don't worry , could be like the chlorine issue , a while , no more le . =)
just checked out angelia's blog . din realised quite a bit has happened . take care , girl . i know you'll be strong .
anyway , my skull bone is hurting now . i am analysing the cause of this . could it be the metal pole that hit me back 4 years back ? can't be . it would be too late if it hurt now .
but i was thinking , no one whacked me lately or what as well . something's gotta be wrong . haha , but don't worry , could be like the chlorine issue , a while , no more le . =)
Monday, August 22, 2005
ACT.173 - God's mad .
did i mentioned , that everything on earth , liked me , ranging from cats to dogs , kids to gays ? and that girls don't like me ? well .. God heard that .
and today , i recieve a friendster msg from a lady in New York . i can't believe what she've said .
did i mentioned , that everything on earth , liked me , ranging from cats to dogs , kids to gays ? and that girls don't like me ? well .. God heard that .
and today , i recieve a friendster msg from a lady in New York . i can't believe what she've said .
ACT.172 - A stage in life .
i just went running at 10.00pm bcos i'm so stressed and so demoralised . causes :thinking too much bah .
i didn't care of the fact it's seventh month .
i ran seletar dam , the same way , despite it being so so so eerie . but the area where you and i walked the other time , that stretch that had a strong aura , when i was running that stretch , cold wind blew and my brain got brain freezed . the chill was overwhelming my mind and left arm . i knew i had to run faster and get outta there.
i'm stressed . my mind cannot handle the pressure . there's where my weakness comes in again . i can't handle pressure . must overcome this ... relax BOY ~! slow and steady wins the race , mrs lee goy [ p6 teacher ] everyday say this one loh .
seems like no Dragonboat for this week and next week i guess .
anyway , thank you for being my guardian angel . you were always there for me .
i just went running at 10.00pm bcos i'm so stressed and so demoralised . causes :thinking too much bah .
i didn't care of the fact it's seventh month .
i ran seletar dam , the same way , despite it being so so so eerie . but the area where you and i walked the other time , that stretch that had a strong aura , when i was running that stretch , cold wind blew and my brain got brain freezed . the chill was overwhelming my mind and left arm . i knew i had to run faster and get outta there.
i'm stressed . my mind cannot handle the pressure . there's where my weakness comes in again . i can't handle pressure . must overcome this ... relax BOY ~! slow and steady wins the race , mrs lee goy [ p6 teacher ] everyday say this one loh .
seems like no Dragonboat for this week and next week i guess .
anyway , thank you for being my guardian angel . you were always there for me .
Sunday, August 21, 2005
ACT.171 - God , you're outta your mind .
i can't believe what is going on . i just checked out my junior's friendster a/c , i can't believe it , they actually got a chance to be Guard of Honour , and wear no.1 .
when their drills are so pathetic , and so on , and they don't deserve it at all .
When my batch was so so so hardworking , we pushed ourselves to the limit , we did everything for ncc , we wished to put on that No.1 uniform . and in the end , we got no chance . i cannot believe this ...
Do they know what is pride ? or can they even have pride ? to a bunch of people who don't even take care of their uniform properly , what do they deserve to put on that prestigious uniform that 2000 batch was so anticipated to wear .
We got whacked til we went mad , we went thru crazy leadership trainings every training ,we had crazy and blood shedding debriefs after every training . FOR what . [ i wouldn't say for nothing , because we gain a lot in our leadership ]
is there something wrong with the Rabbit year ? my ncc batch cannot stop agreeing that our chances really suck .
i can't believe what is going on . i just checked out my junior's friendster a/c , i can't believe it , they actually got a chance to be Guard of Honour , and wear no.1 .
when their drills are so pathetic , and so on , and they don't deserve it at all .
When my batch was so so so hardworking , we pushed ourselves to the limit , we did everything for ncc , we wished to put on that No.1 uniform . and in the end , we got no chance . i cannot believe this ...
Do they know what is pride ? or can they even have pride ? to a bunch of people who don't even take care of their uniform properly , what do they deserve to put on that prestigious uniform that 2000 batch was so anticipated to wear .
We got whacked til we went mad , we went thru crazy leadership trainings every training ,we had crazy and blood shedding debriefs after every training . FOR what . [ i wouldn't say for nothing , because we gain a lot in our leadership ]
is there something wrong with the Rabbit year ? my ncc batch cannot stop agreeing that our chances really suck .
ACT.170 - future career .
a year ago.
my mind was set on aeronautical in singapore poly . i was set on pilot or the air force.
my dreams came crashing down after i recieved my o level results .
i was lost , i didn't know what to do . all i wanted to do , was aero and automotive . aero is out , automotive not available .. what else can i do ? i seriously have no idea .
i became demoralised . but mum was there for me . she was disappointed , but she knew i did my best . and the only thing i can do is to move on , or retake o levels.
but i will not take a step back .
i went around asking , and went to ask lecturers about my chances of getting into aerospace [ which wasn't so bad ] . they said i have a pretty high chance . i even brought my portfolio and everything .
when open houses of the polytechnics open , i went to find out about every course , the prospects and all . and at the end of the day , i asked myself , what am i suitable for ? what do i like to pursue ? i realised , i was a business / engineering guy .
i asked professionals about everything , regarding the course , i asked the 2nd year students and so on . i really didn't wanna make a wrong choice for my diploma .
i was accepted in Digital Media design . amazingly , they took me in . but i rejected . i thought i could do better in the field of Logistics .
but as i move into poly , i began to love logistics . to love business modules esp. business modules are the ones where i do much better .
my dream is to become an entreprenuer . my family all know that . and i'm working towards that .
i need inspiration for new business concepts / revolutions . no insipration lately =[
didn't know the lessons ihave learnt in design and technology which i didn't really like , helped me out here .
a year ago.
my mind was set on aeronautical in singapore poly . i was set on pilot or the air force.
my dreams came crashing down after i recieved my o level results .
i was lost , i didn't know what to do . all i wanted to do , was aero and automotive . aero is out , automotive not available .. what else can i do ? i seriously have no idea .
i became demoralised . but mum was there for me . she was disappointed , but she knew i did my best . and the only thing i can do is to move on , or retake o levels.
but i will not take a step back .
i went around asking , and went to ask lecturers about my chances of getting into aerospace [ which wasn't so bad ] . they said i have a pretty high chance . i even brought my portfolio and everything .
when open houses of the polytechnics open , i went to find out about every course , the prospects and all . and at the end of the day , i asked myself , what am i suitable for ? what do i like to pursue ? i realised , i was a business / engineering guy .
i asked professionals about everything , regarding the course , i asked the 2nd year students and so on . i really didn't wanna make a wrong choice for my diploma .
i was accepted in Digital Media design . amazingly , they took me in . but i rejected . i thought i could do better in the field of Logistics .
but as i move into poly , i began to love logistics . to love business modules esp. business modules are the ones where i do much better .
my dream is to become an entreprenuer . my family all know that . and i'm working towards that .
i need inspiration for new business concepts / revolutions . no insipration lately =[
didn't know the lessons ihave learnt in design and technology which i didn't really like , helped me out here .
ACT.169 - my destiny .your destiny.
i can't believe this . suckers in the world get their chances , and i don't .
there's something wrong with god .
i realised , i am pretty good at one skill . lying to myself . but of course , i can never run from reality though .
i can't believe this . suckers in the world get their chances , and i don't .
there's something wrong with god .
i realised , i am pretty good at one skill . lying to myself . but of course , i can never run from reality though .
ACT.168 - my destiny.
db training . bbq at wan hua's house . movie at tampines .
db training was ok , but satanic because we had to do maximum stroke rate . i almost died , out of breath .
wan hua's hse , she's such a gracious host . din interact with her classmates , being the typical hong bin and derrick , like that . but i managed to know her best friend , clara . Wan Hua lah , go tell her bout me singing that dumb techno song , mr vain , in Kbox . then she wanted me to sing . oh my god , i can't sing that lamo song manx ! and that was like .. a year ago ????
i went to watch the maid yesterday . i can't believe how lame it can get . i think i should stop watching horror movies , cause none really scared me , cause i'm also focusing on the flow of the movie and so on . the technical stuff . thanks for accompanying me to watch that show ... thanks a lot .
after sending u home , i saw a shadow downstairs and disappeared . it was in a shape of a human , but all black , it could have dark . it occurred to me , seventh month sia .... BUT WHO CARES??!!! wahahah .. so i just walked , and as i walk past the corner it disappeared , there was really nothing there . i was so brave ytd .
took night rider home , on the night rider back from yishun , it was so crazily cold , i had to use my extra t shirt to give me some warmth , if not , i'll die . then i slept ... and i reached yishun interchange . sucks ! now i have to walk back ! so when i reach home .. it's 5.00 on the dot . i can study no crap lah .
but today so tired , i don't know whether i can focus . mum forced me to wake up . principle of marketing test , QLA test , and principle of marketing proposal to do , within a day ?
db training . bbq at wan hua's house . movie at tampines .
db training was ok , but satanic because we had to do maximum stroke rate . i almost died , out of breath .
wan hua's hse , she's such a gracious host . din interact with her classmates , being the typical hong bin and derrick , like that . but i managed to know her best friend , clara . Wan Hua lah , go tell her bout me singing that dumb techno song , mr vain , in Kbox . then she wanted me to sing . oh my god , i can't sing that lamo song manx ! and that was like .. a year ago ????
i went to watch the maid yesterday . i can't believe how lame it can get . i think i should stop watching horror movies , cause none really scared me , cause i'm also focusing on the flow of the movie and so on . the technical stuff . thanks for accompanying me to watch that show ... thanks a lot .
after sending u home , i saw a shadow downstairs and disappeared . it was in a shape of a human , but all black , it could have dark . it occurred to me , seventh month sia .... BUT WHO CARES??!!! wahahah .. so i just walked , and as i walk past the corner it disappeared , there was really nothing there . i was so brave ytd .
took night rider home , on the night rider back from yishun , it was so crazily cold , i had to use my extra t shirt to give me some warmth , if not , i'll die . then i slept ... and i reached yishun interchange . sucks ! now i have to walk back ! so when i reach home .. it's 5.00 on the dot . i can study no crap lah .
but today so tired , i don't know whether i can focus . mum forced me to wake up . principle of marketing test , QLA test , and principle of marketing proposal to do , within a day ?
Saturday, August 20, 2005
ACT.167 - love the imperfect me .
i am not handsome , i can't be your handsome knight in shining armor .
i am not cute , and you can't expect me to be cute .
i am not your taizi , i can't melt your heart with just words.
i am not a celebrity , my name never ever appears in the papers .
i am not highly educated , i can't speak or act like one in front of your friends.
i am not rich , i can't buy you diamond rings or designer wear .
i am down-to-earth , i can't bring you to posh restaurants everytime for a meal .
i am carless , i can't fetch you home with a convertible or a posh car .
but what i can give you , is all of my heart . and my love. . - zan-rx.
i am not handsome , i can't be your handsome knight in shining armor .
i am not cute , and you can't expect me to be cute .
i am not your taizi , i can't melt your heart with just words.
i am not a celebrity , my name never ever appears in the papers .
i am not highly educated , i can't speak or act like one in front of your friends.
i am not rich , i can't buy you diamond rings or designer wear .
i am down-to-earth , i can't bring you to posh restaurants everytime for a meal .
i am carless , i can't fetch you home with a convertible or a posh car .
but what i can give you , is all of my heart . and my love. . - zan-rx.
Friday, August 19, 2005
ACT.166 - Defying my body limits.
this is the first time i'm crazy in my life . defying my body limits .. to do work and study . my body is gonna break down soon , anytime . but i'm still gonna study ;)
no lah , it's that i go for Dragonboat and yet i still stay up late to do work .. my body doesn't have enuf rest lah . i hope a fever doesn't come by soon .. cause i'm feeling a little feverish .
study study study . where did all this motivation come from .. i love marketing anyway ! lots of words ... but come on , it's all common sense . i answered my qns using supply chain management theories as well ... wahahha !
but hong bin arh hong bin , pls take care of yourself when there's no one to take care of you . don't be a mad dog and bust yourself up ;)
**Self reminder **
i am so tired . i slept only 3 hrs ytd . and was working the entire day , din rest at all . only on bus trip from habour front to sch . and just a while in supply chain management ....
rest well . although i don't take care of myself well , i always nag at a particular someone bout her health .. u arh ! please take care of yourself , stop your snacking frenzy and have enuf sleep !
and big sis , you better off the light when she sleep ok ! you don need sleep doesn't mean she don't need sleep ok ! lol ...
that's it . everyone take care . insanity period of semester starts . i wonder if you guys have this urgency comparable to mine .
this is the first time i'm crazy in my life . defying my body limits .. to do work and study . my body is gonna break down soon , anytime . but i'm still gonna study ;)
no lah , it's that i go for Dragonboat and yet i still stay up late to do work .. my body doesn't have enuf rest lah . i hope a fever doesn't come by soon .. cause i'm feeling a little feverish .
study study study . where did all this motivation come from .. i love marketing anyway ! lots of words ... but come on , it's all common sense . i answered my qns using supply chain management theories as well ... wahahha !
but hong bin arh hong bin , pls take care of yourself when there's no one to take care of you . don't be a mad dog and bust yourself up ;)
**Self reminder **
i am so tired . i slept only 3 hrs ytd . and was working the entire day , din rest at all . only on bus trip from habour front to sch . and just a while in supply chain management ....
rest well . although i don't take care of myself well , i always nag at a particular someone bout her health .. u arh ! please take care of yourself , stop your snacking frenzy and have enuf sleep !
and big sis , you better off the light when she sleep ok ! you don need sleep doesn't mean she don't need sleep ok ! lol ...
that's it . everyone take care . insanity period of semester starts . i wonder if you guys have this urgency comparable to mine .
Thursday, August 18, 2005
ACT.165 - striving .
i've been looking for information for automotives degrees . But seems like they are only supportive of americans joining . and for every college , they require personal information , i can't go forward anymore with the info search as i can't register .
and besides that , the websites of automotive schools offered online , doesn't seem established at all . i only saw one , that was promising.
i searched for any college in Singapore offering automotive , none . but there was one i remembered , i saw in the papers . only one.
and besides , the automotive degrees the American colleges had to offer , only had the prospects of a maintenance , service technician .
i haven start searching on the business degree , but i believe that one , i need guidance .
this is getting tough . i've gotta ask my uncle sometime . i'm sure both my uncles are very supportive of this idea .
i'm still thinking of new business concepts everyday , new revolutions and so on . so far only one hit me , and applicable . gotta keep thinking ....
i've been looking for information for automotives degrees . But seems like they are only supportive of americans joining . and for every college , they require personal information , i can't go forward anymore with the info search as i can't register .
and besides that , the websites of automotive schools offered online , doesn't seem established at all . i only saw one , that was promising.
i searched for any college in Singapore offering automotive , none . but there was one i remembered , i saw in the papers . only one.
and besides , the automotive degrees the American colleges had to offer , only had the prospects of a maintenance , service technician .
i haven start searching on the business degree , but i believe that one , i need guidance .
this is getting tough . i've gotta ask my uncle sometime . i'm sure both my uncles are very supportive of this idea .
i'm still thinking of new business concepts everyday , new revolutions and so on . so far only one hit me , and applicable . gotta keep thinking ....
ACT.165 - Motivation .
i have lots to do [ work ] , and i somehow have the motivation , lots of motivation .
i have lots of distractions , but it's ok , i have to learn how to handle them .
hope to find a companion to study with me too . i can't find any .
big sis , you taught me a lot . really a lot . and i realised there's a lot of things , i din understand in the past . but i'm trying my best in every aspect , i really am . in the path to be a better man , i never ever stop , never once in my life . i hope people give me a chance and time to learn .
i'm lately checking out career paths and so on in the army and singapore police force , i thought i could get into Automotive engineering and management division , but they don't do what i wanna do . disappointed . but still moving on .
i'll probably be combining marketing with automotive , big sis was right . in a way , i don give up my passion .
that's bout it . i just know , i need to study .
i have lots to do [ work ] , and i somehow have the motivation , lots of motivation .
i have lots of distractions , but it's ok , i have to learn how to handle them .
hope to find a companion to study with me too . i can't find any .
big sis , you taught me a lot . really a lot . and i realised there's a lot of things , i din understand in the past . but i'm trying my best in every aspect , i really am . in the path to be a better man , i never ever stop , never once in my life . i hope people give me a chance and time to learn .
i'm lately checking out career paths and so on in the army and singapore police force , i thought i could get into Automotive engineering and management division , but they don't do what i wanna do . disappointed . but still moving on .
i'll probably be combining marketing with automotive , big sis was right . in a way , i don give up my passion .
that's bout it . i just know , i need to study .
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
ACT.164 - life's beautiful .
i just went to search in my old blog , to find out the entry i wrote , after reflecting on my family and so on . haha .. i was thinking of copying and pasting it , but it's such a long and whiny entry , bet u guys don wanna read it .
yeah i recalled the days , when my parents were so hard up , trying to save on everything , to give me a HP so i won't lose face , skipping their meals to save $$$ .
i'm really glad my family is enjoying our lives right now . we may not be rich like how we used to be , but i bet we love our lives right now , simple as it is . we lost all our spending capabilities , but , in fact we learnt to cherish every cent more. haha , over small issues , my dad and mum would be happy too . i am so so so so so fortunate .
anyway , 25 - 10 -2003 is an unforgettable day ! it was the day , we celebrated edwin's and my birthday . Derrick , edwin , andy , sebastian , marcus , jeremy , martin . it was an unforgettable birthday . spending bout 32 bucks at Brekz , and moving on to esplanade and fullerton . it was a wonderful day . thank you for the memories .
if only every year , you guys are there to spend it with me . cause you guys really touched me , right within . the first batch of guys to celebrate for me . thank you.
Life's beautiful , make the best out of it .
i just went to search in my old blog , to find out the entry i wrote , after reflecting on my family and so on . haha .. i was thinking of copying and pasting it , but it's such a long and whiny entry , bet u guys don wanna read it .
yeah i recalled the days , when my parents were so hard up , trying to save on everything , to give me a HP so i won't lose face , skipping their meals to save $$$ .
i'm really glad my family is enjoying our lives right now . we may not be rich like how we used to be , but i bet we love our lives right now , simple as it is . we lost all our spending capabilities , but , in fact we learnt to cherish every cent more. haha , over small issues , my dad and mum would be happy too . i am so so so so so fortunate .
anyway , 25 - 10 -2003 is an unforgettable day ! it was the day , we celebrated edwin's and my birthday . Derrick , edwin , andy , sebastian , marcus , jeremy , martin . it was an unforgettable birthday . spending bout 32 bucks at Brekz , and moving on to esplanade and fullerton . it was a wonderful day . thank you for the memories .
if only every year , you guys are there to spend it with me . cause you guys really touched me , right within . the first batch of guys to celebrate for me . thank you.
Life's beautiful , make the best out of it .
ACT.163 - new vehicle !
dad finally got his new minibus .. it's a beauty ! wahahha ..
i went downstairs helped him adjust some stuff for the minibus ... then i stepped on the throttle ... woo hoo !! but it seemed like .. i'm a little too big size ... lol ..
anyway , dad dominate it in the day , i shall dominate it in the night ! we gonna work together well right , dad ?
i just checked out the careers in army and singapore police force . esp the automotive engineering division in the SPF . it's just a ordinary division , what i'm particulary interested is the patrol unit , but they didn't offer a lot of info like how the army did .
you need A levels for their scholarship ... but they said if you have a good cca record , they will take into account regardless of A levels . almost sent in my application :X
i am just so obssessed with automotives .
dad finally got his new minibus .. it's a beauty ! wahahha ..
i went downstairs helped him adjust some stuff for the minibus ... then i stepped on the throttle ... woo hoo !! but it seemed like .. i'm a little too big size ... lol ..
anyway , dad dominate it in the day , i shall dominate it in the night ! we gonna work together well right , dad ?
i just checked out the careers in army and singapore police force . esp the automotive engineering division in the SPF . it's just a ordinary division , what i'm particulary interested is the patrol unit , but they didn't offer a lot of info like how the army did .
you need A levels for their scholarship ... but they said if you have a good cca record , they will take into account regardless of A levels . almost sent in my application :X
i am just so obssessed with automotives .
ACT.162 - Hope to see you soon.
wanna watch charlie and the chocolate factory and the maid . don think i'm gonna watch them anyway.
gi kian , when you were around , i didn't dig out the time to meet you . But you were the most steady guy in Lian Hua Dang . whenever i ask you out , your questions were only what time and where ... i can imagine now , that you're out there in the sea , realizing your dream . Chalet last week was different without you .
I regretted not telling u more on the day you left . i regretted not giving u a nice goodbye . i regretted not telling u , that i'll miss you . i regretted not giving you a hug , and telling you to take care .
i could remember the days , when we were always together , and people thought we were gays .
take care my friend . words from my heart . wanna see the same old you .
wanna watch charlie and the chocolate factory and the maid . don think i'm gonna watch them anyway.
gi kian , when you were around , i didn't dig out the time to meet you . But you were the most steady guy in Lian Hua Dang . whenever i ask you out , your questions were only what time and where ... i can imagine now , that you're out there in the sea , realizing your dream . Chalet last week was different without you .
I regretted not telling u more on the day you left . i regretted not giving u a nice goodbye . i regretted not telling u , that i'll miss you . i regretted not giving you a hug , and telling you to take care .
i could remember the days , when we were always together , and people thought we were gays .
take care my friend . words from my heart . wanna see the same old you .
ACT.161 - Love me , rx-7.
rx-7 shall come back to my life once again . it was just me and you all these while .
my passion : automotive line . hmm , it may not be that realistic .. but it's something i really really wanna do . i really wanna pursue that passion . and i hope you can understand . there's really almost nothing else i wanna do other than automotive .
my parents have understood that love i have for automotive . and they're supportive .
thank you.
i don't believe there are guardian angels in this world , no one proved one to me .
rx-7 shall come back to my life once again . it was just me and you all these while .
my passion : automotive line . hmm , it may not be that realistic .. but it's something i really really wanna do . i really wanna pursue that passion . and i hope you can understand . there's really almost nothing else i wanna do other than automotive .
my parents have understood that love i have for automotive . and they're supportive .
thank you.
i don't believe there are guardian angels in this world , no one proved one to me .
ACT.160 - Defying Reality .
what ShiFu told me has become a guideline for me . and i've realised ... that what she said , is true . the image of the mystery jigsaw puzzle is starting to form . damn , i hate it , but i can't defy .
since i was told of my destiny , might as well accept it . Better than nothing though .
i've been thinking , like what i've said , the career focused life ?
Life will be all bout career , family and friends , nothing else . No love no nothing . if girls don't appreciate me , so be it . my decision won't be changed once it's made .
I'm really really reluctant to decide . but , nothing should come b4 studies isn't it ? i know i know .. but it's just within me , that my girlfriend would be placed on top of everything else .
oh well , once i make a decision , it'll solidfy .
i shall be happy once again . although no one tells me that they really hope to see a happy me or so on . i'll live for myself and for my family , no one else . i'll be happy for myself and for them . i'll start loving myself , and loving them .
my family is all i've got , and i thank god for them .
Been thinking too much today , just let me be . i hope i'll be able to wake up as per normal tomorrow and not having those shitty morning wake ups . Be the real happy me from today onwards , you have to .
i once lost myself , and i'll never let go of myself again .
what ShiFu told me has become a guideline for me . and i've realised ... that what she said , is true . the image of the mystery jigsaw puzzle is starting to form . damn , i hate it , but i can't defy .
since i was told of my destiny , might as well accept it . Better than nothing though .
i've been thinking , like what i've said , the career focused life ?
Life will be all bout career , family and friends , nothing else . No love no nothing . if girls don't appreciate me , so be it . my decision won't be changed once it's made .
I'm really really reluctant to decide . but , nothing should come b4 studies isn't it ? i know i know .. but it's just within me , that my girlfriend would be placed on top of everything else .
oh well , once i make a decision , it'll solidfy .
i shall be happy once again . although no one tells me that they really hope to see a happy me or so on . i'll live for myself and for my family , no one else . i'll be happy for myself and for them . i'll start loving myself , and loving them .
my family is all i've got , and i thank god for them .
Been thinking too much today , just let me be . i hope i'll be able to wake up as per normal tomorrow and not having those shitty morning wake ups . Be the real happy me from today onwards , you have to .
i once lost myself , and i'll never let go of myself again .
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
ACT.159 - bad bad day .
just feel not good bout stuff today .
Stupid ting xian asked me to go support his SPCA booth , then i went look around after my lesson at 12 , i see no crap . so go home first . but i called him , din answer . then on the bus , he called me , and i promised him i would go .
Then i go , he wasn't there , then i was late for some immediate dragonboat briefing .. kao .. run here and run there ...
my presentation was pathetic . i don understand why is my presentation skills is getting poorer and poorer . maybe i din spend enuf time preparing for it .
then DB training , whack and whack . i look at my 2 stupid small arms . all my effort went down the drain , everyday training at gym during the holidays , working and supporting my expenses on supplements . How stupid .
aiya , just don't know why suddenly feel so shitty . SHIT SHIT SHIT . i don sleep enuf , i don have enuf rest . swollen eyes . so on and so forth .
Then adeline from 04 accidentally invited me into their class conversation .. like what the heck .. i really looked like a fool . Not blaming her though ... but blaming my GOOD LUCK for today . maybe it's because i din bring "it " with me today ...
KAO is the word for today .
aiya , all these are minor issues ... but i just feel so shitty today . so so so shitty .
just feel not good bout stuff today .
Stupid ting xian asked me to go support his SPCA booth , then i went look around after my lesson at 12 , i see no crap . so go home first . but i called him , din answer . then on the bus , he called me , and i promised him i would go .
Then i go , he wasn't there , then i was late for some immediate dragonboat briefing .. kao .. run here and run there ...
my presentation was pathetic . i don understand why is my presentation skills is getting poorer and poorer . maybe i din spend enuf time preparing for it .
then DB training , whack and whack . i look at my 2 stupid small arms . all my effort went down the drain , everyday training at gym during the holidays , working and supporting my expenses on supplements . How stupid .
aiya , just don't know why suddenly feel so shitty . SHIT SHIT SHIT . i don sleep enuf , i don have enuf rest . swollen eyes . so on and so forth .
Then adeline from 04 accidentally invited me into their class conversation .. like what the heck .. i really looked like a fool . Not blaming her though ... but blaming my GOOD LUCK for today . maybe it's because i din bring "it " with me today ...
KAO is the word for today .
aiya , all these are minor issues ... but i just feel so shitty today . so so so shitty .
Monday, August 15, 2005
ACT.158 - i can't sleep .
the nightmare was in a way identical in my last 2 nightmares :
losing someone .
i was so afraid when i was in the dream , it felt so real . this is for the 3rd time .. i felt such fear in my life .
Suddenly , i woke up , saw dad calling me up .
as i go on in life , i realised more of my weaknesses . and if God wanted to attack me , he would aim at my weak point , the heart .
oh well ... just glad that i'm back to reality , instead of that fantasy world . haha ... but sad of the fact that i have to wake up with swollen eyes again ... =[
haha ... ok .. i shall get on with work .. happy happy ! what a nightmare . shocked the heck out of me .
the nightmare was in a way identical in my last 2 nightmares :
losing someone .
i was so afraid when i was in the dream , it felt so real . this is for the 3rd time .. i felt such fear in my life .
Suddenly , i woke up , saw dad calling me up .
as i go on in life , i realised more of my weaknesses . and if God wanted to attack me , he would aim at my weak point , the heart .
oh well ... just glad that i'm back to reality , instead of that fantasy world . haha ... but sad of the fact that i have to wake up with swollen eyes again ... =[
haha ... ok .. i shall get on with work .. happy happy ! what a nightmare . shocked the heck out of me .
ACT.157 - weak in the heart .
i've had a nightmare last night .
i was so afraid . but i woke up , feeling so relieved . that i'm back to reality and reality din change .
i've had a nightmare last night .
i was so afraid . but i woke up , feeling so relieved . that i'm back to reality and reality din change .
Sunday, August 14, 2005
ACT.156 - FD's in my wishlist now.
i'm gonna be ultra stressed for the next 5weeks . projects coming right up , marketing esp , there's really really really really a lot to do for that . and of course , dragonboat trainings ... exams and so on .
Give me a FD , and i'll fly it right away . i need to relieve my stress . but right now , stress is not til it's max yet , just yet . so let's wait .
sleeping late again . waking up early tml again . hope my swollen eyeballs get better . my eye drops don seem like they are working . i don't wanna wear specs to sch ....
i haven went out for quite some time . hope to go out and have a real good time ...
haha , i realised ... i don't ever need to set my MSN on busy , ever . even when i'm doing homework and so on .. projects . cause no one ever messages me .. =X
i'm gonna be ultra stressed for the next 5weeks . projects coming right up , marketing esp , there's really really really really a lot to do for that . and of course , dragonboat trainings ... exams and so on .
Give me a FD , and i'll fly it right away . i need to relieve my stress . but right now , stress is not til it's max yet , just yet . so let's wait .
sleeping late again . waking up early tml again . hope my swollen eyeballs get better . my eye drops don seem like they are working . i don't wanna wear specs to sch ....
i haven went out for quite some time . hope to go out and have a real good time ...
haha , i realised ... i don't ever need to set my MSN on busy , ever . even when i'm doing homework and so on .. projects . cause no one ever messages me .. =X
ACT.155.- cause everyday i love you.
yawn ... i woke up at 8.00 . 10am reach sch do IS project . business etiquette ...
then Dad says he's fetching me , so , i could actually woke up at 845 !
now my eyes are swollen ... maybe too too tired .. then i ytd rub a little .. then KABOOM! u get such results when you have my pair of eyes .
i din go for training ytd . sianx .
thursday training was a little mad . started the training with 300 push ups . then you count the whole day ... you've got bout 600+ in a day.
this recalls something . when we ncc dudes were sec 3 , at the ranks of corporals . after training one day , suddenly we were called back . and whacked 100 push ups , i don't know why , but it was ALL SIR SIMON's idea .
i remembered how we suffered for that 100 . and actually ... 100 isn't such a big no. lol ... maybe it was the end of the day and everyone was all shagged out . i remembered i was at the tap and my hands was shaking terribly . the guys too .
i miss ncc . but i will never miss HPT [ high performance team ] wasted my time and effort . but i admit , i didn't put in a huge huge amount of effort . As Assistant camp Chief ...
i miss my class too in a way . esp sec 2 . with jun xian , martin , and some other guys , the class will never be quiet . the teacher may even get SHOT sometimes for nothing ... lol .
that's it .. i go rest le ..
yawn ... i woke up at 8.00 . 10am reach sch do IS project . business etiquette ...
then Dad says he's fetching me , so , i could actually woke up at 845 !
now my eyes are swollen ... maybe too too tired .. then i ytd rub a little .. then KABOOM! u get such results when you have my pair of eyes .
i din go for training ytd . sianx .
thursday training was a little mad . started the training with 300 push ups . then you count the whole day ... you've got bout 600+ in a day.
this recalls something . when we ncc dudes were sec 3 , at the ranks of corporals . after training one day , suddenly we were called back . and whacked 100 push ups , i don't know why , but it was ALL SIR SIMON's idea .
i remembered how we suffered for that 100 . and actually ... 100 isn't such a big no. lol ... maybe it was the end of the day and everyone was all shagged out . i remembered i was at the tap and my hands was shaking terribly . the guys too .
i miss ncc . but i will never miss HPT [ high performance team ] wasted my time and effort . but i admit , i didn't put in a huge huge amount of effort . As Assistant camp Chief ...
i miss my class too in a way . esp sec 2 . with jun xian , martin , and some other guys , the class will never be quiet . the teacher may even get SHOT sometimes for nothing ... lol .
that's it .. i go rest le ..
Saturday, August 13, 2005
ACT.154 - Love forever me .
i was thinking these few days . to choose a choice of route in a cross road .
To forget love and everything else , and focus only on my career . until when i don't know , until the day i find someone who really loves me .
Shan't love anymore . shan't like anymore .
think bout it boy .
i was thinking these few days . to choose a choice of route in a cross road .
To forget love and everything else , and focus only on my career . until when i don't know , until the day i find someone who really loves me .
Shan't love anymore . shan't like anymore .
think bout it boy .
ACT.153 - change the world .
i went out with derrick , edwin and andy for supper ytd . haha .. it's been a long time ... haha , we laughed almost every second .
after prata and lots of laughter , we went andy's house to drink . hmm .. if i wasn't so tired , i would have drank more . played dai dee and kept dozing off ..was just too tired .
haha , suddenly Andy seems to have a lot of lady luck , of course , edwin has his ever lasting wan hua ... derrick has his As to look after .. and me , still the same . haha ... i think they din wanna ask about me .. cause they know , i'm still the same . no nothing has changed . no girlfriend . no girls liking me and all that .
it's great to know they are all doing fine ... i'm glad . yup , i'm doing fine too .. haha , with purple biscuit and sis .. what else do i need ? and of course .. my ever great friends , what team huat lah ... lian hua dang .. and brothers 7 [ ncc gang .]
my last entry seems to be a little dull isn't it ? hmm , i guessed it's something i have to learn and overcome as a leader . in Project tasks , i usually push myself to the limit , if we felt we could do better and we didn't , i will hate that .
Survival of the fittest . this is the working society out there .
i went out with derrick , edwin and andy for supper ytd . haha .. it's been a long time ... haha , we laughed almost every second .
after prata and lots of laughter , we went andy's house to drink . hmm .. if i wasn't so tired , i would have drank more . played dai dee and kept dozing off ..was just too tired .
haha , suddenly Andy seems to have a lot of lady luck , of course , edwin has his ever lasting wan hua ... derrick has his As to look after .. and me , still the same . haha ... i think they din wanna ask about me .. cause they know , i'm still the same . no nothing has changed . no girlfriend . no girls liking me and all that .
it's great to know they are all doing fine ... i'm glad . yup , i'm doing fine too .. haha , with purple biscuit and sis .. what else do i need ? and of course .. my ever great friends , what team huat lah ... lian hua dang .. and brothers 7 [ ncc gang .]
my last entry seems to be a little dull isn't it ? hmm , i guessed it's something i have to learn and overcome as a leader . in Project tasks , i usually push myself to the limit , if we felt we could do better and we didn't , i will hate that .
Survival of the fittest . this is the working society out there .
Friday, August 12, 2005
ACT.152 - good guys and bad guys .
i just thrashed things out with my groupmates in my supply chain lesson .
i admitted , i have been a real bastard in this project . i was out to kill them in the presentation , well i din really PERFORM how cunning i can be , bcos .. i really can't do it .
but after what i have done ... guiltyness sips in .
nr ng asked me to give them the presentation . initially i said ok .
but after that , i say , " NO . i will not give it to them bcos i was the one staying up for the whole nite to do the shit . "
then after a little debate , i decided to give them the report , without the introduction , opinions and remarks ,recommendations and conclusion .
i gave them the answers to the questions , but i want them to relate the qns to the case study .....
This project proved something . i have failed as leader .
i have failed to get the group together , i have failed to get them moving . i didn't manage to utilise them , no matter how incooperative they were ,no matter how they sucked. i have failed everything of a leader .
This is the challenge of a leader . no matter what members u get for a project task , you have to utilise them and handle them . it's a superman job . and i still have a long way b4 that stage . even the people in the Apprentice , people from harvard , people from the best companies , they have failed that stage .
Oh crap , even doing something that isn't SO cunning , i feel so guilty . i think bout it ... the person to be blamed is me . my friends who did everything by themselves too ... they din voice out . they din say a thing .
Emotions got into my work and working behaviour . this is where i fail again as a good employee .
at the end of the day , there's 2 things to change .
separate emotions from work .
dare to lead .
there were so many things i could do actually , and i knew i shld do . but i just stepped back .... feeling bo chup and sick of them .
i've failed mr lai , ms tan and sir simon . for 4 years they have taught me bout leadership and i din execute that leadership i had in ncc .
i watched so many episodes of the Apprentice , Learned the mistakes , and din execute .
ng hong bin , if you wanna go far in life , if you wanna be successful , don't be a stupid crab in a hermit shell .
i just thrashed things out with my groupmates in my supply chain lesson .
i admitted , i have been a real bastard in this project . i was out to kill them in the presentation , well i din really PERFORM how cunning i can be , bcos .. i really can't do it .
but after what i have done ... guiltyness sips in .
nr ng asked me to give them the presentation . initially i said ok .
but after that , i say , " NO . i will not give it to them bcos i was the one staying up for the whole nite to do the shit . "
then after a little debate , i decided to give them the report , without the introduction , opinions and remarks ,recommendations and conclusion .
i gave them the answers to the questions , but i want them to relate the qns to the case study .....
This project proved something . i have failed as leader .
i have failed to get the group together , i have failed to get them moving . i didn't manage to utilise them , no matter how incooperative they were ,no matter how they sucked. i have failed everything of a leader .
This is the challenge of a leader . no matter what members u get for a project task , you have to utilise them and handle them . it's a superman job . and i still have a long way b4 that stage . even the people in the Apprentice , people from harvard , people from the best companies , they have failed that stage .
Oh crap , even doing something that isn't SO cunning , i feel so guilty . i think bout it ... the person to be blamed is me . my friends who did everything by themselves too ... they din voice out . they din say a thing .
Emotions got into my work and working behaviour . this is where i fail again as a good employee .
at the end of the day , there's 2 things to change .
separate emotions from work .
dare to lead .
there were so many things i could do actually , and i knew i shld do . but i just stepped back .... feeling bo chup and sick of them .
i've failed mr lai , ms tan and sir simon . for 4 years they have taught me bout leadership and i din execute that leadership i had in ncc .
i watched so many episodes of the Apprentice , Learned the mistakes , and din execute .
ng hong bin , if you wanna go far in life , if you wanna be successful , don't be a stupid crab in a hermit shell .
Thursday, August 11, 2005
ACT.151 - A better man .
there's a few things bout myself i must change .
first is my vulgarities thingy . trying hard to change it . to be frank , it has toned down by about 80% . =)
next , is bout how much i talk . i sometimes talk too much and words get around .. you know what i mean ? i ain't expressing my point well here ...
but whatever it is , know who you can trust and who you can't trust .
ya , the next thingy is my temper . yup , it has toned down really a lot through these years , but i still think it ain't enough . temper always lead to impulse actions , often undesirable or unintentional . i won't wanna regret something i have done too .
that's bout it , later dragonboat ... haha , long distance running : rifle range road . it seems like it's gonna rain .. and i really hate wet ground running .
my shoe has this huge hole and i'm like !!!! bcos i only bought it a few months ago . gotta have to spend again ..
ps : may anne , hope your relationship currently is a different one ! the pain ends here the day u started it with him ! =)
there's a few things bout myself i must change .
first is my vulgarities thingy . trying hard to change it . to be frank , it has toned down by about 80% . =)
next , is bout how much i talk . i sometimes talk too much and words get around .. you know what i mean ? i ain't expressing my point well here ...
but whatever it is , know who you can trust and who you can't trust .
ya , the next thingy is my temper . yup , it has toned down really a lot through these years , but i still think it ain't enough . temper always lead to impulse actions , often undesirable or unintentional . i won't wanna regret something i have done too .
that's bout it , later dragonboat ... haha , long distance running : rifle range road . it seems like it's gonna rain .. and i really hate wet ground running .
my shoe has this huge hole and i'm like !!!! bcos i only bought it a few months ago . gotta have to spend again ..
ps : may anne , hope your relationship currently is a different one ! the pain ends here the day u started it with him ! =)
ACT.151 - Always look on the bright side of life !
when things get you down , and it seems like there can be no solution .. you just hate urself and you just hate everything that is happening to u , You hate god for everything he has done ... but never fail to ... look on the bright side of life !
ng hong bin , you did urself proud today ! you've smashed your groupmates and BOY DID THAT FEEL GOOD ! i am so proud of you ! wahahahhahahahah ...
but remember , to keep your comments to yourself , maybe saying a little is ok .. but don't be overboard . it may not sound very nice to people . and people might not even wanna hear it .
there are so many things you have failed to understand , ben . But don't worry , move on and learn as we go in life ! =)
my mood today . : HYPER ! but talking too much crap .
when things get you down , and it seems like there can be no solution .. you just hate urself and you just hate everything that is happening to u , You hate god for everything he has done ... but never fail to ... look on the bright side of life !
ng hong bin , you did urself proud today ! you've smashed your groupmates and BOY DID THAT FEEL GOOD ! i am so proud of you ! wahahahhahahahah ...
but remember , to keep your comments to yourself , maybe saying a little is ok .. but don't be overboard . it may not sound very nice to people . and people might not even wanna hear it .
there are so many things you have failed to understand , ben . But don't worry , move on and learn as we go in life ! =)
my mood today . : HYPER ! but talking too much crap .
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
ACT.150 - mr.lonelys.
i realised what the writer of initial d was trying to say .
as a racer , be it street or pro , you'll be lonely . you'll have no love , all u have is your car and your skills .
that's why , all the guys in initial d , don't have any love . it's either they get dumped or something worse than that .
the writer of initial d must have suffered that fate . NO ONE in the show is attached sia.. haha . all they had was their cars.
brave heart ben . confidence . lose those and you can forget bout everything else.
i realised what the writer of initial d was trying to say .
as a racer , be it street or pro , you'll be lonely . you'll have no love , all u have is your car and your skills .
that's why , all the guys in initial d , don't have any love . it's either they get dumped or something worse than that .
the writer of initial d must have suffered that fate . NO ONE in the show is attached sia.. haha . all they had was their cars.
brave heart ben . confidence . lose those and you can forget bout everything else.
ACT.149 - Reality.
there are so many things that we assume . YOU THOUGHT . i THOUGHT .
and because we THOUGHT , we fall deeper . and actually it wasn't what we thought to be , we get hurt . you don't know what the other party really feels or think unless you ask them , or you are them .
this is so true .
there are so many things that we assume . YOU THOUGHT . i THOUGHT .
and because we THOUGHT , we fall deeper . and actually it wasn't what we thought to be , we get hurt . you don't know what the other party really feels or think unless you ask them , or you are them .
this is so true .
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
ACT.148 - drifin' in a fantasy world.
so i spent my whole day today at home . was supposed to go running with purple biscuit .. haha .. but din .. i abit cannot make time .. mum expects everyone at home today . oh well ... =[
i ytd go chalet . haha , it was EAST COAST costa sands and i was at PASIR RIS costa sands. what the heck sia ! took taxi of course ... 1150 liao lei ..
haha , was very buay song .. but the moment i reached there .. my troubles seemed so far away . we all laughed and laughed and laughed .. til we SIAO ! if only gi kian and jian sheng could be around ..
so i took a walk by east coast ... with purple biscuit on the phone accompanying me .. but then again , she dozed off again .. haha ... so i just waited and held the phone .. wished her good night and sweet dreams + sleep tite . and got her sis to hang the phone .
haha ... i'm tired today sia . i need to do my presentation ! so not motivated ...
" you're the meaning in my life , you're the insipiration .
til the world is over , we'll never be apart . "
so i spent my whole day today at home . was supposed to go running with purple biscuit .. haha .. but din .. i abit cannot make time .. mum expects everyone at home today . oh well ... =[
i ytd go chalet . haha , it was EAST COAST costa sands and i was at PASIR RIS costa sands. what the heck sia ! took taxi of course ... 1150 liao lei ..
haha , was very buay song .. but the moment i reached there .. my troubles seemed so far away . we all laughed and laughed and laughed .. til we SIAO ! if only gi kian and jian sheng could be around ..
so i took a walk by east coast ... with purple biscuit on the phone accompanying me .. but then again , she dozed off again .. haha ... so i just waited and held the phone .. wished her good night and sweet dreams + sleep tite . and got her sis to hang the phone .
haha ... i'm tired today sia . i need to do my presentation ! so not motivated ...
" you're the meaning in my life , you're the insipiration .
til the world is over , we'll never be apart . "
ACT.147 - hey you !
A R E Y O U:
*sensitive = hmm .. yeah ?
*easily hurt = ahem .. yeesh .. lol ..
*calm = me calm ? i always panic !
*quiet = sometimes .. with people i don know esp.
*choosy = depends .. people say i am choose with girls :S
*active = YEAH !
*very shy = very shy with the girl i like though ..if not , NEVER !
*confident in urself = YUPZ !
*brand-conscious = yeah and no. :S
*a good listener = yesh , correct anot blue biscuit ? =p
*easily bored = YES ! for sure !
*outgoing = yeah .. but then again , what does this word really means?
*open-minded = okok lohz ..
*an only child = nope.1 elder bro .
*happy at the moment = happy enuf to keep me smiling !
*tired = yeah ..i am never not tired.
*playing any online games = Wolfenstein : Enemy's Territory.
*good at Chess = a man with no patience is a bad player.
*tempted by chocolates = sometimes !
D O Y O U ? ..
*believe the term 'love at first sight' = used to .
*have someone you really care for = arbo then !
*believe in love = never give up on love !
*ever cheated on a test = wah .. don say liao lah .. guilty !
*play the guitar = nopex.
*play the piano = wanna learn.
*like your life = not really.
*like school = love sch bcos of Team HUAT !
*like dancing = yeah , hip hop's the word lei !
*like sweets = nah ..any listerine ?
*like travelling= YES ! TAIWAN !
*own an Xbox/ playstation = my PS busted a few years back..
*like Spongebob Squarepants = watched b4 only one episode lei ..
*like spiderman= yeah , all time cartoon favy.
*ride a bike = bicycle or bike ? bicycle got lah ..
*read Harry Potter = NEVER !
*read a lot = er .. not for me =p
*yell at your siblings = used to ...
*argue with your parents= have lah .. guilty lei , don ask this type qn can ?
*love McDonalds = CHEAP !
*play basketball = i miss bball !!
*play badminton = oh my god .. don ask!
*play tennis = nah..
*play bowling = not often..
*swim = i prefer slides in chinese gardens.
*watch Disney channel = nope.
*love movies = yeah , love them . no $$ is the thing.
*like Oreo = not bad , but don eat often.
*like chips = lays and ruffles rock !
*do the housework = mop floor every sunday lei, and more.
*prefer your past life to present life = yes and a no .miss ncc and carefree times , don miss the hurt and the pains .
W I L L Y O U...
*get more than 5 piercings = nope . ear also don have .
*curse a friend = got lah .
*hug a stranger =don ask a guy who has hugged nobody in his life =)
*sneak out at night alone = have , buy MIFEN lah !
*further your studies overseas = yup . of course.
*try summoning a ghost for fun = SIAO ! i don dare play sia.
*try alcohol = when unhappy , beer will accompany me.
*love someone wholeheartedly = right of course.
*smoke = never ever.
H A V E Y O U E V E R...
*ever hugged someone = NO !
*looked someone in the eye =haha .. yesssshhh.
*did stupid things that finally made u real embarrased = everybody also have mah ..
*said sorry to someone = yupz . i mean , who don't ?
*thanked someone = of course .. there are so many to thank ..
haha , i got this thingy from Jo's blog . pretty interesting though .. ;)
A R E Y O U:
*sensitive = hmm .. yeah ?
*easily hurt = ahem .. yeesh .. lol ..
*calm = me calm ? i always panic !
*quiet = sometimes .. with people i don know esp.
*choosy = depends .. people say i am choose with girls :S
*active = YEAH !
*very shy = very shy with the girl i like though ..if not , NEVER !
*confident in urself = YUPZ !
*brand-conscious = yeah and no. :S
*a good listener = yesh , correct anot blue biscuit ? =p
*easily bored = YES ! for sure !
*outgoing = yeah .. but then again , what does this word really means?
*open-minded = okok lohz ..
*an only child = nope.1 elder bro .
*happy at the moment = happy enuf to keep me smiling !
*tired = yeah ..i am never not tired.
*playing any online games = Wolfenstein : Enemy's Territory.
*good at Chess = a man with no patience is a bad player.
*tempted by chocolates = sometimes !
D O Y O U ? ..
*believe the term 'love at first sight' = used to .
*have someone you really care for = arbo then !
*believe in love = never give up on love !
*ever cheated on a test = wah .. don say liao lah .. guilty !
*play the guitar = nopex.
*play the piano = wanna learn.
*like your life = not really.
*like school = love sch bcos of Team HUAT !
*like dancing = yeah , hip hop's the word lei !
*like sweets = nah ..any listerine ?
*like travelling= YES ! TAIWAN !
*own an Xbox/ playstation = my PS busted a few years back..
*like Spongebob Squarepants = watched b4 only one episode lei ..
*like spiderman= yeah , all time cartoon favy.
*ride a bike = bicycle or bike ? bicycle got lah ..
*read Harry Potter = NEVER !
*read a lot = er .. not for me =p
*yell at your siblings = used to ...
*argue with your parents= have lah .. guilty lei , don ask this type qn can ?
*love McDonalds = CHEAP !
*play basketball = i miss bball !!
*play badminton = oh my god .. don ask!
*play tennis = nah..
*play bowling = not often..
*swim = i prefer slides in chinese gardens.
*watch Disney channel = nope.
*love movies = yeah , love them . no $$ is the thing.
*like Oreo = not bad , but don eat often.
*like chips = lays and ruffles rock !
*do the housework = mop floor every sunday lei, and more.
*prefer your past life to present life = yes and a no .miss ncc and carefree times , don miss the hurt and the pains .
W I L L Y O U...
*get more than 5 piercings = nope . ear also don have .
*curse a friend = got lah .
*hug a stranger =don ask a guy who has hugged nobody in his life =)
*sneak out at night alone = have , buy MIFEN lah !
*further your studies overseas = yup . of course.
*try summoning a ghost for fun = SIAO ! i don dare play sia.
*try alcohol = when unhappy , beer will accompany me.
*love someone wholeheartedly = right of course.
*smoke = never ever.
H A V E Y O U E V E R...
*ever hugged someone = NO !
*looked someone in the eye =haha .. yesssshhh.
*did stupid things that finally made u real embarrased = everybody also have mah ..
*said sorry to someone = yupz . i mean , who don't ?
*thanked someone = of course .. there are so many to thank ..
haha , i got this thingy from Jo's blog . pretty interesting though .. ;)
ACT.146 - and i swear this to you .
Presentation tomorrow again . wah , the proposal and presentation 20% only sia . lol ... what the heCK !!
Principles of marketing ... if only this project is individual .
haha , i wonder , what girls really want in a guy ? by the way , this is just a crap question , so don take it that i'm really thinking into this .
is it the cash ? or is it the looks ? haha , but for sure , i have neither of this .
Or is it the CUTE thingy ? i know , i ain't cute ! i don't do those cute stuff or whatsoever .
or is it the MACHO thingy ? i'm neither macho too !
ok lah , something different , or is it the ability to talk ? YES I HAVE !! lol .. but , no link lah !
woo hoo , can prepare for another V day next year with Lian Hua Dang liao . i never ever celebrate V day with my loved one . haha , of course , i have loved ones , but don tell me celebrate with my FAMILY right ???
Lian Hua Dang . i never ever fail to laugh when i'm with them . i just really wish , we can be together forever . i really cherish this group of friends . it's ok if i don spend Valentine's day with my girlfriend [ cause i don have one ! ] but the day is good with them around too .
Lian Hua Dang never ever stops talking bout me and wan xin . what the , guys , that is in 2002 !!!! now it's 2005 ! haha ... i know , it's a Trauma to u guys , but , LET it be bygones !! haha ..
i said b4 , i will never let anyone hurt you anymore . well , i'll swear it again .
Presentation tomorrow again . wah , the proposal and presentation 20% only sia . lol ... what the heCK !!
Principles of marketing ... if only this project is individual .
haha , i wonder , what girls really want in a guy ? by the way , this is just a crap question , so don take it that i'm really thinking into this .
is it the cash ? or is it the looks ? haha , but for sure , i have neither of this .
Or is it the CUTE thingy ? i know , i ain't cute ! i don't do those cute stuff or whatsoever .
or is it the MACHO thingy ? i'm neither macho too !
ok lah , something different , or is it the ability to talk ? YES I HAVE !! lol .. but , no link lah !
woo hoo , can prepare for another V day next year with Lian Hua Dang liao . i never ever celebrate V day with my loved one . haha , of course , i have loved ones , but don tell me celebrate with my FAMILY right ???
Lian Hua Dang . i never ever fail to laugh when i'm with them . i just really wish , we can be together forever . i really cherish this group of friends . it's ok if i don spend Valentine's day with my girlfriend [ cause i don have one ! ] but the day is good with them around too .
Lian Hua Dang never ever stops talking bout me and wan xin . what the , guys , that is in 2002 !!!! now it's 2005 ! haha ... i know , it's a Trauma to u guys , but , LET it be bygones !! haha ..
i said b4 , i will never let anyone hurt you anymore . well , i'll swear it again .
Sunday, August 07, 2005
ACT.145 - No chance.
"what's not yours , will not be yours .
i agree with you wenzhong , i know and understand too .
it's something we've gotta learn . if people don give us chances ... there's nothing we can do too .
"what's not yours , will not be yours .
i agree with you wenzhong , i know and understand too .
it's something we've gotta learn . if people don give us chances ... there's nothing we can do too .
Saturday, August 06, 2005
ACT.144 - raining in my heart .
Takumi [initial d] , i understand your feelings . When the girl you love , actually has a man out there ... you feel disappointed . you hate reality . and you just wanna run away ...
That's when you realised .... AE86 is all you have . he was there to understand you , he was there with you everytime . and you realised , he's the most reliable friend around.
Like FD . when i needed him , he would appear .
i'm like you , i wanna run away too .
"Have you noticed the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them ... "
i got this from a email sent by May Anne in 2001 . i still keep the mail though , and i treasure it a lot .
haha , when i'm troubled ... i will always look up , and seemed confident . but actually .. inside , it's a heart filled with fear .
Purple biscuit , once you go on with the MLM thingy , we won't talk or meet up that much anymore . you'll be busy and so on . but it's ok ... i understand . it's your decision ...
haha , it's ok ! =)
Takumi [initial d] , i understand your feelings . When the girl you love , actually has a man out there ... you feel disappointed . you hate reality . and you just wanna run away ...
That's when you realised .... AE86 is all you have . he was there to understand you , he was there with you everytime . and you realised , he's the most reliable friend around.
Like FD . when i needed him , he would appear .
i'm like you , i wanna run away too .
"Have you noticed the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them ... "
i got this from a email sent by May Anne in 2001 . i still keep the mail though , and i treasure it a lot .
haha , when i'm troubled ... i will always look up , and seemed confident . but actually .. inside , it's a heart filled with fear .
Purple biscuit , once you go on with the MLM thingy , we won't talk or meet up that much anymore . you'll be busy and so on . but it's ok ... i understand . it's your decision ...
haha , it's ok ! =)
ACT.143 - Be here with me .
i saw efini FD today . it's been a long time .. rx-7 .
alamak .. i talk with her half way ,she doze off .. haha ,and don want hang phone ... lol .. then keep repeating .
i just cut my hair , weird meh ? haha .. i find still ok lei ... don really like long hair lah . hard to maintain . with frizzy hair somemore .
if only i could .
i wanna change . vulgarities have to leave my life . my temper has to change . i must learn how to respect others more . i must learn how to suppress my feelings within . i must process my words well b4 saying them out .
that's it . more to come .
i saw efini FD today . it's been a long time .. rx-7 .
alamak .. i talk with her half way ,she doze off .. haha ,and don want hang phone ... lol .. then keep repeating .
i just cut my hair , weird meh ? haha .. i find still ok lei ... don really like long hair lah . hard to maintain . with frizzy hair somemore .
if only i could .
i wanna change . vulgarities have to leave my life . my temper has to change . i must learn how to respect others more . i must learn how to suppress my feelings within . i must process my words well b4 saying them out .
that's it . more to come .
Friday, August 05, 2005
ACT.142 - if only i could .
i slept at 5.15 ytd . i'm tired . my SCM group mates are fantastic . they suck like crap .
no vulagrities campaign starts today ! in fact , yesterday , hmmm .. i used one ytd after i started the campaign . i've got slapped by JS . orbi for me . so if you see me scolding anything , slap me . i give you permission . be it hard or soft .
my limit is near . i'm gonna black out anytime . i'm gonna have a very very long day today . ben ng , just another 15 more hrs . you've gotta hold on .
a worried mind , a worried heart . will be praying at waterloo street later . i have something to ask from God . to bless you .
haha , thinking too much eh ? yeah !! that i know . but i can't help it . lol .
i decided on short hair ! sianx .. go cut hair alone =( haha .. doesn't matter anyway , used to it .
ok , luckily project is done , if not , i definitely can't focus on my project . and i'm so tired . i slept like 45mins only . no breakfast . protein as my breakfast , lol .
ok , my limit is almost here . let's just wait .
i slept at 5.15 ytd . i'm tired . my SCM group mates are fantastic . they suck like crap .
no vulagrities campaign starts today ! in fact , yesterday , hmmm .. i used one ytd after i started the campaign . i've got slapped by JS . orbi for me . so if you see me scolding anything , slap me . i give you permission . be it hard or soft .
my limit is near . i'm gonna black out anytime . i'm gonna have a very very long day today . ben ng , just another 15 more hrs . you've gotta hold on .
a worried mind , a worried heart . will be praying at waterloo street later . i have something to ask from God . to bless you .
haha , thinking too much eh ? yeah !! that i know . but i can't help it . lol .
i decided on short hair ! sianx .. go cut hair alone =( haha .. doesn't matter anyway , used to it .
ok , luckily project is done , if not , i definitely can't focus on my project . and i'm so tired . i slept like 45mins only . no breakfast . protein as my breakfast , lol .
ok , my limit is almost here . let's just wait .
Thursday, August 04, 2005
ACT.141 - Flying without wings.
Saddest comment of the day .
Senior : " Ben , have u not been going to the gym ? "
Ben : " yeah , been busy lately . "
Senior : " can see lah .. ur arms shrunk . "
OH MY GOD !! now i look at my this pair of gay arms ... lol . arrrgggghhh !! $$$ and effort went down to the drain ...
Today fitness test .
Running : 9.05 [ target was 9.00 :( ]
pull ups : 16 [ was aiming for 18 . ]
sit ups : 56 [ no target ]
wah , i broke 2 of my personal records . was doing sit ups today , the first few i did , i felt like i was so so so light , so i just whacked it out . for the first time in my life .
Running . it wasn't my ultimate limit . i felt i could go more . if only my legs were at tip top condition , weather wasn't so cold .
pull ups : cannot say anything , i haven been working out . i'm to blame .
haha , i ended training early today , to come home and DO SCM project. thanks to the "magnificent" group formation i have , 2 nite is my last bet and last attack . it's gonna be a hard nite . i'm looking forward for a good time soon .
i missed my bus stop . sianx . lol . my day's great . chiong SCM !
once my hair is black , i'll go back to ncc whenever i can .
i have many responsibilties . that's why my grades suffer . but it was out of my willingness . i have no one , but myself to blame .
time management boy . you've gotta work hard .
Saddest comment of the day .
Senior : " Ben , have u not been going to the gym ? "
Ben : " yeah , been busy lately . "
Senior : " can see lah .. ur arms shrunk . "
OH MY GOD !! now i look at my this pair of gay arms ... lol . arrrgggghhh !! $$$ and effort went down to the drain ...
Today fitness test .
Running : 9.05 [ target was 9.00 :( ]
pull ups : 16 [ was aiming for 18 . ]
sit ups : 56 [ no target ]
wah , i broke 2 of my personal records . was doing sit ups today , the first few i did , i felt like i was so so so light , so i just whacked it out . for the first time in my life .
Running . it wasn't my ultimate limit . i felt i could go more . if only my legs were at tip top condition , weather wasn't so cold .
pull ups : cannot say anything , i haven been working out . i'm to blame .
haha , i ended training early today , to come home and DO SCM project. thanks to the "magnificent" group formation i have , 2 nite is my last bet and last attack . it's gonna be a hard nite . i'm looking forward for a good time soon .
i missed my bus stop . sianx . lol . my day's great . chiong SCM !
once my hair is black , i'll go back to ncc whenever i can .
i have many responsibilties . that's why my grades suffer . but it was out of my willingness . i have no one , but myself to blame .
time management boy . you've gotta work hard .
ACT.140 - Life is beautiful .
hmm , i've thought bout it . thanks , purple biscuit . really . it made me think a little .
Yeah , you were right , make the best out of everything you have . uh - huh , understand .
it wasn't a mistake knowing you . it was a blessing . it was a prayer answered . thank God for everything . i know , smile and look forward ! and yeah , i look forward to spending more time with you , you just make my day .
hmmm , Rx-7 aka FD . i miss you .
haha , shi fu already gave me an answer i needed to know .about my love life. it's better than nothing though . it was just like , God telling it to me myself .
but what i can do , is to reflect and think bout that answer given to me , and accept it . it's already decided , it's my destiny . there's nothing i can change bout my fate . so accept it .
Be happy . i wanna be happy from today onwards . i wanna feel once again in my life . i wanna spend my life , like in the past , smiling and laughing everyday with my ncc budds and lian hua dang . i was really happy within , that time .
Mum got worried the other time bout me . the day i went crazy . i guessed it was very shocking for my family to take . hmm ... i'm a fortunate boy to have such parents , and a bro . i was borned with such loving parents , and a bro , who's destined to help me . no matter what , no matter what i do , he'll be there to help me , to get me out of trouble .
So the more , i can't be a burden to him . he has his life to lead , i have mine . i cannot be the spoilt or pampered kid i used to be . this has to change !
purple biscuit , i promise you this . i'll be myself once again . i won't lose myself again . =)
hmm , i've thought bout it . thanks , purple biscuit . really . it made me think a little .
Yeah , you were right , make the best out of everything you have . uh - huh , understand .
it wasn't a mistake knowing you . it was a blessing . it was a prayer answered . thank God for everything . i know , smile and look forward ! and yeah , i look forward to spending more time with you , you just make my day .
hmmm , Rx-7 aka FD . i miss you .
haha , shi fu already gave me an answer i needed to know .about my love life. it's better than nothing though . it was just like , God telling it to me myself .
but what i can do , is to reflect and think bout that answer given to me , and accept it . it's already decided , it's my destiny . there's nothing i can change bout my fate . so accept it .
Be happy . i wanna be happy from today onwards . i wanna feel once again in my life . i wanna spend my life , like in the past , smiling and laughing everyday with my ncc budds and lian hua dang . i was really happy within , that time .
Mum got worried the other time bout me . the day i went crazy . i guessed it was very shocking for my family to take . hmm ... i'm a fortunate boy to have such parents , and a bro . i was borned with such loving parents , and a bro , who's destined to help me . no matter what , no matter what i do , he'll be there to help me , to get me out of trouble .
So the more , i can't be a burden to him . he has his life to lead , i have mine . i cannot be the spoilt or pampered kid i used to be . this has to change !
purple biscuit , i promise you this . i'll be myself once again . i won't lose myself again . =)
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
ACT.139 - wanna love you , all my life.
all right , let's start off with this . blue biscuit shall now me called purple biscuit [ like what sia .. ] lol , cause she prefers purple more ?
Boy was i mad today , running in the rain .
sorry girl , i know my attitude was bad these 2 days . really sorry bout it . shall compensate by treating u better ! [ i treat u not good enuf meh ? hmmph ! ]
haha ...
i talked to someone today . yup , sometimes , we're single , we wish for someone to love us with all their heart . but when we get attached , we wish to be single , cause we can't breathe or we get hurt .
haha , but i asked her , but are u happy with him ? she said : " yeah ... i've spend the happiest days of my life with him . "
i said , well , then don think too much ! think bout how to love him more !
yup , i also hope for someone to love , with all my heart and soul , and all my life ! haha .. shall wait .
so God , you've answered my request today , what bout another one for today ? ;) haha , don't like that lei !
all right , let's start off with this . blue biscuit shall now me called purple biscuit [ like what sia .. ] lol , cause she prefers purple more ?
Boy was i mad today , running in the rain .
sorry girl , i know my attitude was bad these 2 days . really sorry bout it . shall compensate by treating u better ! [ i treat u not good enuf meh ? hmmph ! ]
haha ...
i talked to someone today . yup , sometimes , we're single , we wish for someone to love us with all their heart . but when we get attached , we wish to be single , cause we can't breathe or we get hurt .
haha , but i asked her , but are u happy with him ? she said : " yeah ... i've spend the happiest days of my life with him . "
i said , well , then don think too much ! think bout how to love him more !
yup , i also hope for someone to love , with all my heart and soul , and all my life ! haha .. shall wait .
so God , you've answered my request today , what bout another one for today ? ;) haha , don't like that lei !
ACT.138 - believe in me.
i've realised quite a lot lately .
there's a lot if still have to accomplish , to be a better man .
Anyway , in life , because everyone is groomed and had different influences in the society , we can't expect the other party to do or react what we want them to , or simply just say it , we can't expect them to be what we want .
Yup , life's hard . It's hard on me , it's hard on you , it's hard on everyone in fact . everyone out there , is eating crap from God ! but that doesn't mean i should fall . That only mean , i should get stronger .
In reality , we don't get what we want most of the times .But what we can do , is just to deal with it . but you can run away if u want to , you have 2 choices .
i've been troubled , but come on boy , if you're so troubled , you'll never be able to move on ! you'll be stuck down here . When there's a will , there's a way . Don't think bout it , pick yourself up , GET moving ! throw everything in the past behind !! besides , God sent you an angel already , so the more you should appreciate !
Today , i was in a foul mood . [ AGAIN ! ] lol ... but i've got better . it seemed like heavy rain with lightning and dark clouds . But i just put on my PT gear , and ran . I've got wet of course . but as i was one third of the journey , the rain got bigger . I told God : " 5mins !!! that's all i need ! " then a thunder replied right away .
I floored the pedal [ like as if got pedal sia ! lol .. ] and ran faster .. neglecting of my pain and systems . Then Suddenly .. the rain got smaller and became nothing . Is it a miracle ? the rain that seemed like a huge storm , disappeared . it could be a coincidence ..but whatever it is , i completed my run and it sort of remove my frustration .
now back to my work . no excuse . tomorrow Nafa test , i must jia you . prayin' for ya ;)
i've realised quite a lot lately .
there's a lot if still have to accomplish , to be a better man .
Anyway , in life , because everyone is groomed and had different influences in the society , we can't expect the other party to do or react what we want them to , or simply just say it , we can't expect them to be what we want .
Yup , life's hard . It's hard on me , it's hard on you , it's hard on everyone in fact . everyone out there , is eating crap from God ! but that doesn't mean i should fall . That only mean , i should get stronger .
In reality , we don't get what we want most of the times .But what we can do , is just to deal with it . but you can run away if u want to , you have 2 choices .
i've been troubled , but come on boy , if you're so troubled , you'll never be able to move on ! you'll be stuck down here . When there's a will , there's a way . Don't think bout it , pick yourself up , GET moving ! throw everything in the past behind !! besides , God sent you an angel already , so the more you should appreciate !
Today , i was in a foul mood . [ AGAIN ! ] lol ... but i've got better . it seemed like heavy rain with lightning and dark clouds . But i just put on my PT gear , and ran . I've got wet of course . but as i was one third of the journey , the rain got bigger . I told God : " 5mins !!! that's all i need ! " then a thunder replied right away .
I floored the pedal [ like as if got pedal sia ! lol .. ] and ran faster .. neglecting of my pain and systems . Then Suddenly .. the rain got smaller and became nothing . Is it a miracle ? the rain that seemed like a huge storm , disappeared . it could be a coincidence ..but whatever it is , i completed my run and it sort of remove my frustration .
now back to my work . no excuse . tomorrow Nafa test , i must jia you . prayin' for ya ;)
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
ACT.137 - the day 2hours seemed like a million years.
2 hours today , from 4.15pm to 6.30pm , seemed like a million years .
i was waiting for her ... on that bench outside suntec tower 2 . not moving my butt ... feeling worried , i took out my mp3 to make myself feel better .
Holding tight to my lucky charm / pi xiu , hope she was ok .
haha , but she was ok after all , i think too much le !
i walked away and left her in such a bad way ... because i din feel that good . but ... it wasn't intentional . i know i was so cold ...
well , you ought to treat me better from today ! i never ever waited 2 hours and feeling so worried that my heart almost popped out and sat on the same old bench and didn't realised my butt was so pain , LOL ! i spilled a cup of water and i din even realised . thoughts were flashing in my mind , like what you see when you flip the world's history book of a million years.
hope you enjoy your day girl .
2 hours today , from 4.15pm to 6.30pm , seemed like a million years .
i was waiting for her ... on that bench outside suntec tower 2 . not moving my butt ... feeling worried , i took out my mp3 to make myself feel better .
Holding tight to my lucky charm / pi xiu , hope she was ok .
haha , but she was ok after all , i think too much le !
i walked away and left her in such a bad way ... because i din feel that good . but ... it wasn't intentional . i know i was so cold ...
well , you ought to treat me better from today ! i never ever waited 2 hours and feeling so worried that my heart almost popped out and sat on the same old bench and didn't realised my butt was so pain , LOL ! i spilled a cup of water and i din even realised . thoughts were flashing in my mind , like what you see when you flip the world's history book of a million years.
hope you enjoy your day girl .
Monday, August 01, 2005
ACT.136 - you make my day .
went swimming with blue biscuit and sis today . aiyo .. she hoh .. keep complaining she fat .. haha , me must buy extrim for her liao lah .. =X if not she not happy ..
haha ... she lah .. sms me . then actually i not going swimming with them one .. then i was like : "aiya .. heck care liao lah . " then go pack my stuff , put on my centenary walk t shirt which is like so small , and Run , just run !
you just make my day .
wahaha ... she agreed to go waterloo street with me to pray .. happy sia ! lol , but it's weird .. cause she come with me , then i go there ,also pray for her .. :S but nevertheless .. happy lah .
FD suddenly disappeared from my life . lol , it's weird though ...
ok lah , i go do my work le ... =[
went swimming with blue biscuit and sis today . aiyo .. she hoh .. keep complaining she fat .. haha , me must buy extrim for her liao lah .. =X if not she not happy ..
haha ... she lah .. sms me . then actually i not going swimming with them one .. then i was like : "aiya .. heck care liao lah . " then go pack my stuff , put on my centenary walk t shirt which is like so small , and Run , just run !
you just make my day .
wahaha ... she agreed to go waterloo street with me to pray .. happy sia ! lol , but it's weird .. cause she come with me , then i go there ,also pray for her .. :S but nevertheless .. happy lah .
FD suddenly disappeared from my life . lol , it's weird though ...
ok lah , i go do my work le ... =[
ACT.135 - open your heart.
yawn .. changed my dumb tagboard le . not reliable one sia .. haha .
hmm , i woke up today morning .. not with a heavy heart , but with heavy eyes ! boy am i tired ... wore specs to school today .. ain't i a nerd !
haven gone to the gym for so long . i've gotta clear my projects and studies first lei ... hmmm .... but i can't skip the gym for too long .
haha .. i have been sleeping in class lately . sometimes , i come to school to sleep . no good lah ... i'm one boy that can't function without sleep onex.
life is full of troubles . life is never a bed of roses . as time passes by , the fast paced society pressurises us . hmm , if only we could be kids once again ? or go back to the stone age .. and live life as simple as ever . =)
time flies . i was 1 year old awhile back . it's almost 2 decades gone .
precious time .
cherish and appreciate the ones we love . live life with no regrets .
yawn .. changed my dumb tagboard le . not reliable one sia .. haha .
hmm , i woke up today morning .. not with a heavy heart , but with heavy eyes ! boy am i tired ... wore specs to school today .. ain't i a nerd !
haven gone to the gym for so long . i've gotta clear my projects and studies first lei ... hmmm .... but i can't skip the gym for too long .
haha .. i have been sleeping in class lately . sometimes , i come to school to sleep . no good lah ... i'm one boy that can't function without sleep onex.
life is full of troubles . life is never a bed of roses . as time passes by , the fast paced society pressurises us . hmm , if only we could be kids once again ? or go back to the stone age .. and live life as simple as ever . =)
time flies . i was 1 year old awhile back . it's almost 2 decades gone .
precious time .
cherish and appreciate the ones we love . live life with no regrets .
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