rockin' my world.

ACT.49 - Speechless .

We lost in MR500 . no comments . Speechless . i don't know what to say . My bets on June Race . Everyone please work hard .

Study study study ... i hate econs manx . kinda feeling sian lately .. after exams gonna be work , train and sleep ... haiz .

Saw Li sheng jie on GuessX3 , he's really good . can't deny . but too bad he isn't very handsome . but i still love his songs man , maybe consider get his album .

Oh well ... not much to say . Just need luck for the 3 consecutive exams .

posted by Ben @ 3/27/2005 06:09:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.48 - We can win this baby .

Today's the start of MR500 . Tomorrow will be my turn to go down . We can win this . For sure . We were unlucky last race . It's ok , this time no more . Good luck to the team down at Macritchie Reservoir now .

I had running nose for the past couple of days .. and yesterday it evolved into high fever ... i was so worried , cause if the high fever didn't go away , i can't row tomorrow . And that will create a lot of problems .. but i'm feeling great on Saturday afternoon . Still feeling a little bit unwell though ... but i'm sure to get better this evening .

Studying Econs now ... i slept for 16 hrs today ... the longest record man ! i didn't study a crap for the past 2 days ... Econs really make me sick man ...

ok , gotta go ... study study study ... and gear myself up for tomorrow ...

posted by Ben @ 3/26/2005 02:14:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.47 - Drift Drift Drift !

started the day , with ANDY Calling me up at 6.30 !! wah ... my bro woke me up .. and he said a whole load of rubbish , not straight to the pt ... with the purpose to wake me up ! called me at 7 again ... arrgggh.. must wake up lah .. if not endless ! lol .. then go Da jia lai eat bee hoon ... woo hoo !!

took bus to Ngee ann... and ZOOM !! Rx-7 cuts into our lane and i was like " RX-7 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

Orange rx-7 with basic spoiler ... so chio baby !! my dream car .. *drools *

after andy appealled at ngee ann .. Jurong point initial D !! woo hoo ... i break my own new record ..so happy .. must improve improve ... KILL ALL THE EVOLUTIONS OUT THERE !! WAHAHAHAHHA !!

Today's been a pretty nice day ... bought a whole can of Pringles and ate it all by myself during channel 8 9pm show ... Joanne Peh !! wah ... * drools !!!! * fascinating features ! haha ... but Matsu Takako still the best lohx ... have not changed at all !!

haha ... actually , i don't feel that lonely after all .. no GF , still can survive lohx .. i've got good pals from DB , and derrick , andy and lian hua dang and blah blah blah ... better mention my gang in class .. if not they sure kao pei sia ... WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA !!!!!!

gotta go study Trigo .. forget bout that dumb chapter sia ... good luck for me tml !

posted by Ben @ 3/23/2005 10:13:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.46 - My Heart , encoded with forever waiting .

Today BCA test ...oh well , what shld i comment ? don wanna talk bout it .. hate to talk bout studies anyway ... studied with Alex and Eric in library .. all right all right , it was sleeping all right ? studied for like 30mins ? then i went off to meet andy to appeal .. and oh great , tml , thurs and fri , then can appeal .. must a/c to NP tml ... yawnx yawnx ... meeting him tml early morning ... yikes...

went to gym today with DARE dick [ derrick ] .. lol ... haha .. whacked biceps and stuff like that ... sure felt great ... of course , pain in the process .. oh well ... can't wait for holidays to start , new sem to start , and a new me when sch start !

oh well ... today happy for one reason sia... Alex and Eric know ... haha ... just for that small fact arh , makes all guys happy sia ... haha ... talking CRApx ...

woo hoo , gonna spend a lot next mth and this mth .. NO explode , Glutamine , Myoplex ... blah blah .. dye hair , new clothes , Half life 2 , wireless lan card ... 400 plus ? hope mum will be a nice loan shark this quarter ... wahahhaha !!!

aiya .. tired .. want go sleep liao .. update some other time ..

posted by Ben @ 3/22/2005 10:09:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.45 - Lost Dreams .

MR500 race is coming . Next week . Hope . Believe . We can . Gain back what we've lost . Mistakes by heaven once , no more twice .

Have been busy this week ... ponning school and there ... working and all that ... went to the creativex fair with andy and derrick , then went to adidas fair .. got my pair of running shoes .. simply love it ! now i shall break new records .. wahaha ... all 3 of us got new shoes .. happy !

So the girl who got my shoe , looked pretty nice and had nice personality .. so here we go again " GO ask no. lah !! " haha , but i have to admit she's seems pretty nice , and she's very customer oriented ( what andy said ) ... she might just be a pretty good catch , like a whale in a small net ... but guess what ? i didn't go ask ... wahahaha ... but i may have missed out a pretty nice chance .. but who cares ?

We went to celebrate jia en's bd ytd ... starting with a mass discussion of what to eat and over an hr and plus , we settled down on fish and co. ... the food was okok , but the seafood wasn't fresh , prawns and fish , definitely .. that's where they make money ;)

Catched boogeyman ... oh manx ... was so disappointing .. i was so freaked out by its website ... but why is the movie so poor ?

haha , and b4 we went into a hall , we saw 2 babes around our age at the kajan Puteh stall ... then we were like "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! " haha ... then my bet was that they were watching boogey man as well ... and yes i was right !

When we came out of the theatre sulking and all stuff bout the movie .. we saw them .. .wahahhaha ... then we followed a little , for fun u know , but then again ... they are really that kind of sweet , innocent looking , beautiful ( NOT CHIo or CUTE that type ) ... simple amazing and mesmerizing ... haha .. JS was so mesmerized by them ... well , i have nothing to say or any thing to comment bout them , but their appearance is almost flawless . totally dude .

So i start off the day with that as motivation ..and shall use that for motivation .. wahahah ... like as if my life not motivation like that ... woke up late and was LATE FOR WORK !!!! wah lao !! then i come in the restaurant ... so many people !! OH MY GOD !!! bad timing to be late man !! hope boss don't know ... but then when i see him , clock is right on top of him ... i can't be that lucky bah ...

Oh well , gonna study with js and DB dudes at changi airport now ... exams fever is really rushing in .. Training tml also DB ... race on sat and sunday ! Good luck for NPDB and pls , No more tricks from heaven .

posted by Ben @ 3/20/2005 02:26:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.44 - Further and Further .

" It's Like everyone running ... and i can't seem to catch up .. no matter how hard i try ... " Rinoa FF8 .

lately , i feel like everyone is so far away from me , distant , no mattter how hard i try ... i can't catch up ...

Oh well , feeling pretty lost now . Tomorrow will be better i guess ... So let's start off with me waking up at 1.30 p.m , bro woke me up .. i guess he felt i really slept enuf .. wahahha ... tired ..

Then i was late for training ... today training was mad .. warm up , we did bout 300 push ups in one shot ? or at least 250 ... that was really mad ! my arm joints were in terrible pain ... Then we hit the gym ... well , it was sure fun ... but techno wasn't loud enuf .. ;)

i've been noticing someone lately . i mean.. just noticing . maybe interested ... maybe not . But it's like everyone i see her , i see an angel . oh well , let's take things step by step . But i know , if i really want something , i should go all the way to get it , not stand here and wait for something . =)

Mazda Rx-7 and Rx-8 ! can't stop thinking bout them ... My dream .

hope these mixed feelings get outta me soon ... i need to know and find some answers myself soon . anyway , gotta take care of myself , exams coming . Yawnx .

posted by Ben @ 3/15/2005 11:44:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.43 - Loneliness.

Asked Mum about the dog thingy .. she still said no ... and i checked it out today ... the dog is gone .. people already adopted it .. oh well .. i wonder when she will give dogs a chance .. i don't get it . Why other parents don't even mind dogs ... some children can even just go buy a dog today and boom , tomorrow we start living with a dog . i have asked for a dog since pri 4 .. haizz .

Loneliness is seeping in ... i'm so bored of my life . Life before the o levels was great . i hoped such times can be recalled again in my life . Studying , gym , dragonboat , work , has got me pretty bored . wanna resume my life with basketball , more outings with my friends . haven went out for a very very long time .

Wahaha .. now you know the reasons why i wanna get a dog ? it's much of a companion .. when i come home , i won't face the 4 walls and talk to them ... i wanna have someone to talk to and share my downs and joys . and of course , it can accompany me on my runs to seletar ...

Oh well , mum has always been on the way in the journey to the pet shop . can't wait to get outta NS , start work and get a dog !

Anyway , in my 3 years in poly , if any chance to go overseas for further study comes by , i won't hesitate . Even if i hesitate , my decision will be still to take it . i can't stand Singapore's education . i seriously think i'm wasting my time in poly and NS . it slows a man's career so much . yawnx ... pros and cons . but i think the cons overwhelm the pros too much.

arrrrrrrggggghhh .. tomorrow working again ... sunday also ... haiz .

posted by Ben @ 3/11/2005 10:00:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.42 - operation Get Dog

so after so many searches on the internet .. i finally found an ideal dog ! the type of dog i wanna have .. and it's for adoption , and it's just found today !

i just asked my bro about it .. he happens to support it ... so i'm not sure whether parents will give in after some persuadsion ..

but i'm still considering ... whether i can commit to the dog .. oh well.. gonna ask my parents tml ...

posted by Ben @ 3/08/2005 10:19:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.41 - Fatigue taking over me !

Let's start with ytd .. started work in the morning .. woke up at 5.30 .. then friday i never sleep early ... then didn't have enuf sleep ... after work , went for dragonboat .. cut my hand by barnacles .. luckily i react quick enuf , if not my whole hand is gone ..

After work , we head to PS GNC ... rajeev bought his stuff then we went to kopitiam upstairs .. then we got our dinner and guess what ? When i was holding the 2 plates , one mine and one william , then a kid girl walk like nobody's business and i called her so loud , then she walk below my hand , i dodged her ,lifting my whole arm up , then the plate shifted on the tray , and shit , C.G changed . i can't balance the shit , and POOM!! the food fell on the floor . Didn't scold that girl though ... i kinda blamed it on myself and my fate . Got another plate for william after queuing so long ...

After dinner , qi jia and nicole joined us ... chatted a lot , got js , rajeeve ,kok yi and joanne ... then we headed to istana park to continue .. wahahah ... then i reached home at 12.00a.m .. and i had to wake up at 5.30 a.m today !

i woke up today with sharp pain in both my legs .. i overworked my legs on friday ... i played bball with ncc guys in yishun after sch ...

Tml gotta go run SAF 50km run relay .. i wonder whether i can perform ... hope so .. i need to pump protein at night into my body ... wahaha , later gonna dye hair .. mum sponsor ...

i was sleeping in the mrt ... then all of a sudden my whole body shaked , like a big jerk , and on the spot , there's my station . i wonder if that didn't happen ... i wouldn miss my stop . But i feel it's kinda weird ... for no reason , it's like a reminder ... by somebody ... a reminder that's so right on time . i'm not sure . i guessed i shocked the 2 persons beside me . lolx...

well , i have to get on with work today ... MOL , IAC project ..i'm kinda stressed out . i still got a maths test coming up . there's quite a lot to do .. and i'm tired . yawn yawnx ..

posted by Ben @ 3/06/2005 01:40:00 PM 0 Comments

ACT.40 - Fucked up.

Was watching Black Hawk Down today in school .. then there was a part when the sergeant got shot .. and the soldier shouted " Christ is Fucked up !! "

I have to say , Yeah , YOU ARE fucked up . I can't stand the way , christians say everything bout God , like as if everything we do relies on God . Tsunamis and the world war 2 , i bet was for no fuck .

If God created everything , then God created Hitler . And he made Hitler killed so many .

Wahaha .. i'm not too sure i always like to talk bout this topic ... it must be the 4 years in a christian sch ,and how christians always put their msn nicks ... " God blah blah blah ... "

I don't restrict myself to scold God , Cause if i go to hell , i won't regret . who cares , at least i believe in myself .

haiz , i'm so tired of life . i just wanna be at the beach now and shout " FUCK YOU!!!!!!!! " haha , well , i guess that's crazy . and THAT is crazy . not feeling very happy lately i guess .

And i wanna say something else . Piak , pls stop calling me childish or whatever crap . It was VERY NICE OF YOU THAT DAY TO SAY ALOUD " BUT BEN'S CHARACTER SUCK ! "
look who's talking , pal .

To think that , that day i apologised in my blog when you were angry , now i know , i shan't bother bout your feelings anymore . Nice to play with me ,pal .

posted by Ben @ 3/02/2005 09:27:00 PM 0 Comments