Is this the end of my journey ?
He caught up with me again . he never stops hunting me down .. until the day he caught me .
i recalled the time .. the period of time there was tension between me and may anne .. i really cannot forget . What i went through .. i guessed , i have been seen the scariest things in life . Losing your heart and soul .. and he took my mind . i was nothing but just a body ... a dead one .
He came for my heart .. then my soul ... then soon , my mind . It was a unforgetable battle . The war i knew , i can never win . The nightmares night after night .. keep me awake . unable to sleep . The craziness sipped into me every day i wake up . and everyday passes by .. i knew , he was nearer . He's coming . And i can't run away from this battle anymore . it was now or never .
So i managed to have a chance to run away from him .. but now , i can feel he's nearer . is it ?
A invisible wound in your heart , you can feel the pain , the physical pain .. and everyday , he cuts through your throat slowly .. unbelievable ? believe it .
it was a spirtual battle . Only those with true spirits can win ..
so what am i saying ? am i crazy ? i'm not . I'm really not . It was this scary . i never had such an incident in my life . it was insane ... and it got me insane . I couldn't guess how much more i can live ..
Good VS the evil . They say the good will always win . is it ? i hope so .
i'm only a freaking 16 , somemore time to 17 . i still have so much to live .. so much to do .. to fulfil my own dreams . And if he comes to take me , i'm not satisfied . i won't let go of my life .
i can't wait for the day to see wedding bells ringing , for me and wife . The first touch i have with my new born child . The first sight of my new car . The first sight of my apartment . i can't wait to see my children grow up . Does it end all here ?
For those who have a good life .. i really hope u guys appreciate it .. cause if u grumble bout your own , take a look at others first b4 saying anything . Then hope u feel fortunate ... I know i am fortunate . Very fortunate.
Oh man .. what am i saying .. well .. guess most don't really understand or know what happened to me some time ago . no one knows , no one could see . Only i could . and to face it all alone .. was the toughest part .
But today's different i guess .. i'm leading a good life .. all i hope , is that he doesn't enter my life again .. i've gained back my heart , soul and mind . Don't take them away and for good ..
Reality took a hit on me today .
i was sleeping til so shuang .. but a while b4 that , i had a bad cramp in my leg .. i also don't know why .. haha .. then .. ERIC CALL me ! at 8 plus ? haha .. he ask me to meet at 10 ... then i tell him , i want to sleep ..
ok , i took a long time to prepare .. then left for school ..
Then after a long delay , we finally get to play . Hmm .. we won 2 teams straight and tomorrow is the quarter finals against X.S.E .. heard they are the top 20 clans in singapore ... oh man , this is very bad .. i don't wanna lose so fast man .. It has been a total of 3 years or 4 years since i lost touch with this game .. Hope we make it through tomorrow . We need a miracle .
hmm .. then i rush to OC right after the competition .. well .. in OC class .. i discovered something .. it was b4 my presentation .. i felt distracted , lost upon discovery .. but , i managed to tell myself to do my best for my presentation b4 anything . And i did ...
Well , i guess .. my guardian angel isn't here yet . and i think it won't be that soon ... oh well ..
in wolfenstein E.T game , we are going to meet up with my brother's clan , 4ce (force ) . kao ... sianx . After this competition .. i have to go catch up on that game ...
Haha .. actually , i'm not really a gamer .. but , if there's any nice game , i would go play it .. Like Need For Speed Underground ? haha .. wanted to go join World Cyber Games one ...
Today morning , i was listening to the radio ever since i woke up til i alighted the bus to sch .. and they were talking bout the Subaru WRX challenge .. and u have to be the 9th / 10th caller to participate .. yup , it's the one that u put your hand on the car for days one ... i wanted to call .. but .. i'm still a 17 year old kid .. they may just reject me or what ..
Well , i can't wait to own a car ... somemore it's a WRX ! High performance engine .. Maybe when i go out to work , i may not even be able to afford this car ..
hmm .. so tired .. S&W was cancelled .. now at library with junxian and jian sheng .. still got dragonboat .. feel like sleeping ...
Take a look around .
Well , i'm blogging these for ya , Ci Yu .
I fully understand what u mean ... cause i myself have been through all these myself . Ever since when i was sec 1 and sec 2 .. this problem keep occuring and it comes back to me every now and then . Spare tyre isn't it ? yup .. that's what we feel ...
But did u realised , that humans can't read people's minds , people's heart , or even their soul ... so maybe u should just let them know how u feel ..
Maybe u can just call this , part and parcel of life .. but don't fret , there are always true friends out there .. just that maybe these friends don't really show how much they appreciate u ..
For me , whenever i feel sad bout this .. i will blog all my feelings in here ... bcos there's so much to be said .. so much that i ain't happy about .. but i didn't dare face them to say all this .. cause i'm afraid .. i'll lose them .
There are many type of friends , u cannot expect everyone to treat u their best .. so u gotta judge for urself who are ur true friends .. the friends that will be there for u when something happes .. ya ? that's reality i guess ..
haha .. same quote from me ... " don't give up on life ! "
Bout ur mum .. it's about gaining trust from her . You have to realise .. you're a girl , and you're the only child .. you're all your parents have . Imagine you were a mum , and all bcos u gave too much freedom to your daughter and she misused that freedom , and she lost control of the situation and got herself into trouble , what would u do ? you'll be the most guilty , as u are the one who could have prevented it from happening , and to add on to the pain , she's your dearest and beloved daughter .
You get what i mean ? my Mum was very protective over her youngest son ( which is me la ! ) .. this son , had no freedom , he didn't possess such freedom like all his friends had . Going to a good friend's party .. staying overnight to play .. watch soccer .. even Staying overnight to study , she wouldn't allow . I had a curfew everyday ... i had to go home at 7 .. or 10 .. if not , she will start flooding my phone nad scold and scold me .. and get my mood so bad . You know , how good my mum nagging is and how bad when my father scolds . I can't even ride a bicycle at times ... cause they are afraid of me getting hurt and getting killed in a accident .. which is totally riduculous when their son is so good at biking .
The reason , cause i'm their son . They don't want to lose me . They don't want their son to get influenced by the bad . They love their son . My brother and i , are all they have .
You see , now u know why they are " cannot this cannot that? " the only thing u can do , is to gain trust from them . Slowly of course . That's what i did last year .. i told mum and dad , why i'm going over to Changi Airport lately to stay overnight to study for the o's . They didn't allow initially . Cause they were afraid i had nowhere to sleep , and maybe some gang will look for trouble , but i told them , how safe it was , how good the atmosphere is for studying .. "from here is the wrong part " haha , i had a quarrel with them of course .. saying , " i'm going OVER THERE TO STUDY LA ! WHAT DO U THINK I'm TRYING TO DO ? GOING TO SOMEWHERE SO FAR FOR WHAT ! i MIGHT AS WELL SLEEP AT HOME ????? RIGHT ???!!! "
Hmm .. but that night .. the first night i went to changi .. was the night i sorted out my thoughts .. about my life and parents .. haha , wouldn't elaborate .. but it was the turning point and one of the meaningful nights in my life ..
Haha , if u don't know how to get about gaining trust from your parents .. well u can ask me .. cause i'm pretty good at it .. telling u what u can tell them so they will change their mind..haha .. learn from my cousin Martin one .. anyway , take it easy all right ? i'm sure they only mean the good for ya ..
Yesterday celebrated mooncake festival with dragonboat ... man , missed Dragonboat training bcos of BUSINESS STATS TEST ! wah kao ! haha ..so i just joined the celebration ..
well , i missed the time when we would go the park , hill at yishun .. with Lian Hua Dang .. and the childish us , will play with candles .. blowing fire .. all that crap .. haha .. guess we will stay childish forever to have such celebration every year ..
oh NO !! mum's birthday in 2 days ! Why didn't i realised ? ??? oh shit .. this is bad .. last year , we didn't have anything in plan for mum .. so MUM WAS VERY ANGRY ! haha ... then my dad and bro were panicking .. so they called me up to quickly get a cake .. haha .. Dad was the most comical .. he asked me to hurry up bcos he said mum very angry .. haha ..
This year .. hmm .. maybe i should bring her to Sakae Sushi .. well ,Brother , have you got any plans ? cause u are always the one with the fantastic ideas .. it's up to u le ba !
Brother is lately crazy gaming .. i bet his girlfriend might feel that even his gaming is more important than her .. so bro , u better do something .. and u better stop ur PMS ok ? i'm so sick of that ..
Well , presentation and CS competition coming up tomorrow .. hope everything goes well for me .. cause i have a test this week and next week , LIS Project next week .. oh well ..
i heard bout the SP student committing suicide . it's sad .. truly sad .. well .. Life goes on isn't it ? Death isn't the way to solve things .. cause you are only telling the world .. you can't face reality .. but shouldn't u prove them wrong ?
well , i seem like i'm losing hope in life too .. oh well .. i'm always pick people up onto their feets .. but never be able to pick myself to stand up and fight on .
Empty street . Empty heart . A hole inside my heart .
Fallen so hard . So fast , this time .
2 bad days in a row . So what's up man ? Don't spoil my day again tomorrow .
21km today . We first went to watch new police story yesterday night, with junxian , jian sheng , jia en , derrick ,edwin Leong and Edwin ong , Gi kian .. the movie's cool man ! but too bad the storyline concept was a little bit simple .. if not , it'll be great .. but nice one by J Chan ..
Then we took night rider to Suntec City .. haha .. i had no spare change .. but one guy gave me a dollar ... Thanks dude .. Then we start on the long long journey there ..
I woke up and found myself in Suntec City .. wow .. so quiet .. nobody .. Then i moved or dragged myself to alight the bus .. I didn't even wanted to run le when i was in yishun .. i was very very tired .. i had bball attachment in the morning and a rough dragonboat day .. and i slept a little the day b4 .. so my eyes are like zombies already ...
Make our way to 7-eleven .. bought a sandwich and they bought bread and mineral water .. and we make our way to the esplanade .. guess what ? i'm the guy who sleeps the most .. go everywhere also sleep .. haha .. i'm just too tired .. Then it's time we should report at the place le .. on the way saw my CLT coursemate JJ .. haha .. i couldn't even recall his name .. haha .. then when we reached there .. we were like ... wah ! SO MANY PEOPLE !! the whole place was practically flooded with humans ..
Derrick left off for his run first as we got separated and his timeslot was earlier .. then after that , edwin and i found a corner near the startline and we sat there first .. guess what i did ? i start to sleep again although it's like 10 mins to the race ? then when the announcer announce " ?? mins to the start for non-competitive runners .. " i thought i heard 2mins .. so i quickly woke up and do my warm up and make my way there .. go there liao , it's 5-10 mins actually .. i could have did a better warm-up ..
Run halfway le .. i got a stomachache .. but i beared with it for about 3 k ? then i couldn't take it , cause i know , i'm bringing along a rather big burden .. so we got out of the running route , and into one of the condos there .. Then the toilet no toilet paper ! wah kao ! then we look around for another toilet .. but to no avail . then i was like .. cannot liao la .. i just do my business first then say .. Edwin make his way to the security guard to ask .. but then , when i looked up , i saw 3 reels of toilet paper .. what the heck .. who places toilet paper there ?
Then we got back on track .. wah kao , 10k itself is already very very far liao lei! we kept running and running .. til our legs are going to break .. it has been quite some time since i had this feeling when i worked overnight at Swissotel ..
Meet up with derrick at the finish line .. then make our way to the toilet to change ... cause derrick's also has a very bad stomachache .. haha .. he said when he waited for us , he was like praying that we come faster ..
Saw Victor from PHS NCC in the queue for daisy Hi -lo milk .. then came over and had a chat .. he's still the same i guess .. 4 years didn't change him ..
We make our way to Suntec to eat something cause we were so so hungry ! haha .. then , all the fast food restaurants and food courts are already flooded by then .. we searched for quite some time for a seat ..
Then make our way to the bus stop , and the bus just ran past us . wah kao ! we missed the bus for nothing ! then i was thinking why not go toilet do business first then take bus .. cause i was afraid of another stomachache ..
We make our way to the 2nd floor . I used the handicap's toilet and derrick the man's toilet .. when i was on the toilet seat .. i was wondering , is the door locked properly ? it doesn't seem like it is .. then all of a sudden , a cleaner opened the door .. then i was like " ???? " haha .. then i called edwin up to guard that freaking door .. cause once that door is opened one arh , a lot of people from outside can see in one ...
So here i am now . Tired .just took a nap ...
i wonder what's happening to me lately .. why i'm getting so down for no reason ... and i always don't feel well ... I need a change in life man ! haix ..
Lost . Just like a child that's lost his way.
Today .. i woke up .. feeling rather weird .. then stopped to think about certain things .. i realised .. i'm a lost man .
Life's been so smooth for me lately .. i feel so empty . so empty . like as if i have lost everything on this earth . Like as if i'm the only man on earth .
The only reason why i wouldn't go the Australia to further my studies , is that i either got into Pilot school .. and already on my way to USA for training .. or that i have a girlfriend that i love very much ... If not , no one's gonna stop my dream .
But by the time i graduated .. i would already by 29 .. and i would have to start my career at such a age .. and by the time i get married .. wouldn't it be very late ?
Guess this is the price of my dream ... the worst is the risks of this career .. i can die anytime .. is it worth it ? What will happen to my family then ..
Today's been a bad day in addition . Supposed to meet Jian Sheng at 745 . 852 came at 744 a.m .. and Jian Sheng wasn't here yet .. so i went to eat breakfast nearby , knowing that 852 will take some time .. then after that go macdonalds' toilet ..
Then i went to the bus stop .. and another 852 pass by again . it was already 805 or 810 already . And after a minute , Jian Sheng came . Can u imagine how SianX diao i am ? Forever late one lei ..
Then .. we were late for dragonboat . We took the bus and the stupid bus driver drove so so so slowly .. and there are so many turns and traffic lights in that bus's route . And plus , there was a jam . I don't really know why either .
Then , during dragonboat , we had a conflict within our boat . Bcos we know we can win the seniors , or even stay on par with the NTU , SAFSA . but we got thrashed again . Everybody's morale were so low .
Today's a real bad day .. i hope later when i'm off to watch Police story with my buddies .. it'll brighten up my day .. and after that , i'm off to city hall to spend the night .. Starting the 21km army marathon at 6a.m .
Well .. hope tomorrow will be a better day .. Hope Heaven has some plans for me ahead of my life soon ..
Crossroads .
Eternal Dragon .Undying Spirit .
Ran about 14k today .. the longest i have ran in my life .. during the run back .. i almost couldn't take it .. my mind was numb .. and i couldn't even focus..it could be lately i'm feeling weak .. about to fall sick le i guess .. i have been going gym for 7 days a week ...
U know , i have always wanted to tell u ( Ci Yu ) .. u know .. bout Utopia . This place may never exists , and u may think that u will never ever see that place in ur life .. well , i just wanna tell u , as long as u believe in Utopia , in your heart , it will exist. and u will see it one day .
Well , life can bring u down .. but as long as you believe , it will come true too . So don't give up on Utopia all right ?
As we were running , all of us were feeling very tired .. and i told jia hui and jian sheng .. " Jia you ! wo men shi meng nan xiu oh ! " haha .. then after that .. we were running like mad dogs ..
i've just realised something . i can't let go of bball at all . i can't be like JS . Bball was once in my life . but it will forever be . i really wish to play bball like what i did in the past with Lian Hua Dang . or meet new people .. i really miss the feeling of flight . and i promised myself that i must slam dunk it . well ..
Life's been pretty smooth sailing lately .. projects .. dragonboat .. and i have to admit , i miss NCC . i miss everybody ..
a mth 14days . Wonder will this year be different .. i'm not too sure . there isn't anyone who really did anything for me b4 . except ying hui la .. she did a bottle full of stars all that .. to hope that i get thru that tough obstacle in my life .. well .. thanks for that anyway ! although it was 3 years ago ..
i blogging off .. bro's scolding ..
Don't give up in life . Destiny . Fate . Faith .Hope.
Hmm .. got CIPR project done .. woo hoo .. but ... the thing i'm still very peh chek with .. is .. MY HAIR !!! i will not forget what mum has done .. i'm gonna kill her ! haha ..
i saw hx' nick changed to sth like life sucks ... i guess everyone have been thru this stage , well , i have been facing this for quite some time actually .. Life indeed sucks . Life can get so boring and all that .. but when we actually look at the happy moments that crossed our lives , the people that we have met , that our fates brought us such friends , such people .. such moments , how beautiful can life get ..
Sometimes , in life , we make wrong decisions , we choose the wrong choices , and we hate ourselves for that . For getting played by heaven once again in our lives .. but , all these , could actually make us learn something out of it . a man , or woman , will be against all odds ALL his or her life .. Cause Heaven is not blind . Whatever we do , he'll be watching from above . and i believe in the good will be returned will the good ( am i correct in saying this ? or i phrased it wrongly ? ) .
i believe , as long as there's hope in life , as long there is a flame burning inside of us , we mustn't give up on life . i believe in myself too . All my hard work and effort may have been turned down all my life , but one day , i believe , things will change . One day , my hard work and efforts will result .
all we have to do when we feel down , when we wanna give up on life , is to tell ourselves , we must live on , to see the day , when things change . i mustnt give up on the way when i haven't seen any results .
So Hx , u know what i'm trying to say ? Life still goes on . if fate , reality , turns against us , all we can do , for ourselves at least , is to live life to the fullest . That's the only thing we can do . We can't change our fate or destiny either . All we can do , is to walk bravely into the future . Have hope in our hearts .
Love hurts . Indeed it is true . But Love can bring u happiness too . It's only , whether you have met ur Mr Right . And for me , whether i have met my guardian angel . Not everyone , who comes by , can bring u happiness in love . No . It can only be that fated one . So , everytime , when love tries to hurt us again ,we can only tell ourselves , he's not the one , or she's not the one . And try to recover from the wounds and continue on the search for that special one . Don't give up on love to .. Love can be everlasting .
Hope you can see that ray of light in your life again .. come on , life ain't that bad ! haha ... take care dude .
Open your heart .
well , monday always suck .. why ? cause school starts ! and i have to make the long long way to school once again ... man...
Eric , darren and me now gan chiong bout CIPR project le .. wednesday present lei ! while .. we did nothing at all ! haha .. hope we can complete tomorrow ..
Skipping school and dragonboat tml to do the project .. the worst is to skip dragonboat ! wah lao .. feel so sianx diao .. haha .. i must excercise for 7 days a week one now .. haha .. if not i feel that i'm wasting time ..
OH MY !! now my foot has a hole in it liao .. with blood and all the crap .. what the heck happened man .. i didn't even feel any much pain .. must be .. Dragonboat again ! always caused blisters/ bruises around my body one .. haha ..
yawnx .. so bored .. haha .. she's so busy lately .. guess she's also like me , busy man .. but soon all her project all over le .. haha .. that's great ! but my exam coming le ... that's bad . hmm , semester going to be over soon .. and wah kao , holiday one month only .. how sianx .. haha .. wish for another 7 mth holiday ..
heard there's another subaru impreza challenge again this time , i think it's the hand place on the car that one .. and this time .. it's a WRX !!!!! if i have the time and chance , i sure will participate and hang on all the way , it's a wRX u know !! a $141000 bucks car lei ! must listen radio more le ... see how to participate .. haha , bet they've never seen a kid join such a competition ba ? and they won't expect a kid to be so desperate for a car .. haha .. somemore it's a WRX lei !
so sleepy .. guess i'm gonna turn in soon .. so so so sianx ..
i'm glad we're on this one way street . Just You and i.
"
I can't dream..sleepless nights have got me bad..
The only dream i ever had ..is being with you..
I'll be loving you forever..Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never..
Even if you took my heart..And tore it apart..I would love you still, forever.
If tomorrow never comes ..Will she know how much I loved her
If my time on earth were through ..And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past ..Gonna be enough to last ,
if tomorrow never comes. "
Sunday's a bad day .. why ? cause tomorrow is school school school again ! i hate lessons ..
Went gym and running with Da-dick and Edwin today .. we ran from gym to upper seletar and to northpoint .. hey hey , that is FAR all right ? like 8 km ? that's mad ! haha .. but upper seletar is sure beautiful .. running thru fresh air , looking at people fishing .. and the best is .. it's a great racing spot ! haha ..
my hip and BUTT is beginning to hurt .. well , yesterday when i just alighted from the boat .. my butt was in total pain .. i had problem walking somemore .. well .. what happened ?
hmm .. she had headache yesterday .. a real bad one .. and she have to rush her project too .. so what am i supposed to say ? haha .. she said panadol's useless .. well , the projects are rushing her for time .. she can't take a break .. oh man .. i was at a loss of words .. just hope she gets better .. : )
Hmm , haha , told her tomorrow will be better , and yes indeed ! she said it went away .. just that she's stressed with work and all that .. hmm , i was thinking i owe her ice cream .. so why not surprise her with her fav ice cream .. since she loves to eat .. haha .. then i search thru stores .. NTUC , minimarts .. why don't have arh ??? i search for an hour plus and finally a supermarket near her home have .. haha .. i was sweating like mad by then .. haha .. and the worst is that i'm late ! derrick and edwin are already at stadium waiting for me le .. so after passing her the ice cream .. i flew with my new bike home to change .. haha , man ! i really am a dangerous rider ! at top speed and cutting corners at high speed .. haha ..
she was so shocked that i bought ice cream .. well .. this guy is always full of surprises .. haha ... don't u think so? ( BHB liao ) ... haha ... well ..
i'm really tired liao ! hmm .. later have to do the OC essay .. well .. i love essays ! haha ... so i'm off to go ESSAY le ..
*Remember guys , ming tian hui gen hao ! tomorrow is always better ! - HB quote
i'm glad i'm on this one way street . Just you and i .
Saturday today = to dragonboat day .. haha .. today , i rowed and rowed ... til i almost died ! serious ! i really couldn't take it .. my shoulder muscles were at the stage of bursting .. haha ..
Well ,felt good too .. but we kept losing to the seniors.. that's bad ! we were on par with them the past few weeks .. we gotta work hard guys !
Troubles are a little lighter this week .. hmm , hope days become brighter as time goes by .. time heals everything right ?
hmm .. school .. really makes me sick ! haha .. i hate projects .. i rather study books .. oh man .. can't wait to go the army and after that , go SIA ... sianx ! Studying is always sianx ! but working is worse ! haha ..
hmm .. i think i really need to get a new set of clothes .. cause my clothes are like so little ! haha .. then everytime borrow my bro's .. when he's sleeping of course .. muhaha ..
I wanna watch the Terminal man .. cause it really sounds like it has a cool storyline .. by STEVEN SPIELBERG somemore ! sure can trust his movies one .. so it's a must catch ! Resident Evil is also out .. although i was once so afraid of resident evil .. but , now is different ! haha .. hope it will be a very cool movie too ..
Children Advent ( FF7 ) is coming out soon .. the title already sounds so cool and my bro says the trailer is way 2 cool .. but i haven't watched it .. really can't wait ! the other final fantasy movie that time was like ... " ........ " this one i bet will be different ..
Hmm .. where is Ronan Keating anyway ? haven't hear his songs for quite some time .. Clay Aiken also .. hope they produce albums soon .. cause they are my fav singers ! haha .. they rock !
guess that's enuf .. haha .. so tired .. going to die soon le .. haha ..
Picture of You .
"Didn't they say that I would make a mistake
Didn't they say you were going to be trouble.
People told me you were too much to take
I couldn't see it
I didn't wanna know.
I let you in and you let me down
You messed me up and you turned my life around
You left me feeling I had nowhere to go
I was alone
How was I to know that
You'd be there
When I needed somebody.
You'd be there
The only one who could help me
I had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong.
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along
Who'd believe that after all we've been through
I'd be able to put my trust in you
Goes to show you can forgive and forget
Looking back
I have no regrets .. "
- Picture of You , Boyzone
Reality is indeed cruel . Reality may be a monster . But life is beautiful ! Don't u guys think so ?
Heard from Mum , another guy jumped at the MRt again at Bishan .. i feel a little sad for such people .. cause they fail to see that life is very beautiful .. Why does it have to end like this .. Suicide is dreadful .
Well , do i sound better ? yeah .. thanks to my poly mates .. Eric ,Wen Zhong , ALEX ! and yuan hao ! haha .. Firdaus also ! thanks guys .. And not to forget , THE PIAK ! and sam .. MANTIS .. thanks guys ! u guys made poly so fun to be in ...
Hmm , Alex is finally attached ! haha .. happy for him , hope this girl can really bring him happiness .. now what bout the rest ? we gotta work hard also ok ? haha .. if u like someone , just open your heart .
i hope , singapore soon have another car expo ! please bring me a outstanding Nissan Skyline and not to forget .. a Efini Mazda Rx-7 ok ! HOW CAN U GUYS FORGET RX-7 ??!! i'm so angry man when car expo didn't have 3rd Gen Rx-7 ...
I realised .. maybe i should confide in my guy buddies more .. they can help me too .. Guys to Guys .. we share our real feelings ..
I've lost almost everything . But i still have my soul , my mind , my body and my heart . i still have my Buddies ! my good pals .. family ! i wanna live on .
Mum's been trying hard to talk to her 2 beloved sons .. guess maybe i should try to talk to my brother more .. but i HOPE he can cALM DOWN AT SOME TIMES ! haha .. look at ur bro here , he's always listening to u all this while ! hey , i have my tolerance also k ?
I'm so glad my family went thru so much , and we are still together .. can't imagine if things fell apart ..
actually , if time can stay still , i would like to be where i am today , everyday . i don't wanna lose anybody , including my grandparents . Everyone's so dear to me .. Reality is indeed cruel !
Final Fantasy .. i love the song playing on my blog ! Eyes on me - Faye wong .
haha .. i really hope Squaresoft create FF8 movie .. it'll be a wonderful movie ...
i've thought of writing to Japan .. to get them to create FF8 as a movie .. haha .. but like how do i get about doing it ?
Final fantasy ... Changed my life .. Can't believe it right guys ? really it did... that's why i love it .. Taught me so much meaning of life .. People see as a game .. i see it as a key in my life ..
well , maybe i'm so free today , that's why i blog so much .. haha .. going for hair cut soon le ! don't know whether wanna change hair style .. so sian of my current one ...
and Samy , i just wanna tell u ,i didn't take it to heart .. i understand , that sometimes , people can lose it , or say things that they don't really mean .. But in life , what u have said , it's just like water , it cannot be collected back , but i make it in a way that u can take it back ...
Haha , i really hope i can buy a dog soon .. either a small puppy .. or a real big one .. i want it to be my companion .. to play with me .. Run with me .. dogs are such beautiful creatures .. i hope Mum can really respect me .. and give me a chance to rear a dog ..
woo hoo , me going back to NCC ! hope i can find time for myself also ...
said so much today , later tml don't know what to blog le .. haha .. tomorrow , OC And S&W ... Basketball !! Fly tomorrow !
* Friends ! Love ! will bring you through the time compression world - Laguna Loire
Days become duller ..
I finally wake up to my senses . I guess it's actually all a fantasy image by Heaven again . Oh great , been played again ... well .. life still goes on ..
U know .. i ever dreamt of a day .. when my gf's birthday come .. i'll bring her to a theatre .. and leave her outside first .. giving some lame excuse .. and ask her into the theatre by sms ... and when she walks in .. The light will shine through the darkly lighted theatre .. focusing on the stage .. And i'll play the piano .. May it be canon in Del major or An jing ..
i still have many ideas .. but apparently , they can't be implemented .. The other time for Yan Ni's birthday .. i wanted to arrange something real cool .. even with the help of my buddies .. to Set up a mini fireworks at Fort Canning for her .. presenting her with a cake .. but there was time constraint ..
I'll always remember what my friends would always say .. " Come on , get over it . She's not worth it. " " It's her loss .. " , well , i'm not sure bout this but many of them say ..
Being played again and again .. well , can God give me change ? i really feel totally like an idiot u know ? anyway .. you never hears what i say .. and thanks a lot today too , for letting me fall into a so so small hole when i was running . The hole was like so small and yet my whole leg went thru it .. and bruised my body for nothing . well , you can say that i'm dumb ..
i question my purpose again . I believe this world has love , trust , hope , faith , peace , beauty . But Heaven tries to hide it all from me ..
man , i don't even know what i'm saying .. back to my stupid singlehood life . The one man world , the Solitaire life . Clay Aiken sang the right song for me . Everything takes me down ..
Pessimistic ? well .. could be , but i don't think so . A life against all odds is not a nice one to exp with .
No one is here to hear me cry . No one is here to hear me say anything . All in their own worlds .
I think i get it . Maybe Heaven's telling me , not to look for it , but let it look for me . let Love look for me . U see , everytime i look for it , it never succeeds . I just have to see it pass by and grab it . isn't it ?
i'm so f*** up with everything liao , i don't know what to say anymore , no words can express how i feel , no one understands . arrrrRRRGGGGGhhhHHHHHhhh!!!
How much longer .. then i can be with u .
" I won't care where i'll be tomorrow , as long as you're with me . "
Now in lesson .. seems like many people are late .. haha , 8a.m class is always like that .. haha .. shocked to see Alex here so early !
I shan't think very much .. let fate decide .
Dragonboat today ... YawnZ* but last saturday was a really good day .. we managed to catch up with the senior's boat .. they never managed to kick us off their tail ..haha ..
hmm , blog later , teacher's starting .. Miraclez.
Happy moments don't last ?
Monday .. Monday Blues ..
Today ain't a very happy day.. first is that i didn't see her , next is that .. she is starting not to reply some of my msgs .. i don't know whether it's me being too sensitive or what .. but .. i'm troubled over this ..
I looked at my hp .. every hour .. every 20 mins .. every 10 mins .. even every few minutes .. still nothing .
my mind can't set at ease .. i don't know why .. but .. am i in love ?
i remembered i said such a sentence before " i may not be perfect , but i'll be perfect for u . "
There are always happy moments in my life .. people and moments that make me smile.. but it's not perfect .. it can only be perfect with her . Is this another long wait ? or will there be a miracle soon ? I hope and pray , it's soon ..
If i could take her away with me , i'll ask her to fly away with me , to look for that perfect world , no troubles . no worries . That place .
" ALways LOOk on the Bright Side of LIFE ! " i'll remind myself of this always ! Life can be dull , life can be sad , life can be meaningless , but life is beautiful ! and i won't let go of this gift .
Hope tomorrow will be a better day ! May Heaven hear my prayers and send a miracle down soon ..
A different day.
Went to Sentosa with Dragonboat today .. at first , there was only 6 people .. wah , that was pathetic .. and we learnt that a lot of people are not coming .. then Js and i were like " What THE !! "
Then .. more and more people come .. haha .. although it was not the whole of DB but still not bad la .. , played soccer .. bball today .. Suntan .. swim .. many lots of stuff ..
Haha , but today i quite i enjoyed myself .. esp with Ken around .. haha .. with him , it will always be fun .. haha ..
But i kept checking my hp today .. from 9 plus .. til 3 or 4 plus .. nothing ..
but after playing and all that .. so went back up , gonna shower that time .. checked my hp .. and there was a msg .. of course i felt better ! haha ..
Well .. i don't know what's she busy with today .. but since she's busy .. i shan't disturb her .. if were the old me , i would msg her now again .. and every few hours .. but i believe i should trust her words .. so here goes my wait for her msg .. decided to wait for her to msg me until i really cannot take it ..
Having a cold right now .. in fact since morning .. i kept waking up ytd bcos my nose kept on had something running down .. now too .. hope i don't get sick tomorrow ..
Wondering how she's doing now .. oh well .. i've gotta remind myself to be patient ! :-)
haha .. at the mean time .. i shall watch slam dunk .. and wait for her to msg me .. hope she don't take very long .. bcos today's a really tiring day for me .. sunburnt , blisters at my leg and backside ! haha .. To my poly mates tomorrow , pls don't whack me at the butt all right .. d|o.0|b
Was all wrong yesterday .. She changed it all .
Woo Hoo !! feeling great now .. in totally hight spirits .. except the fact that i had a cold since i woke up ..
Was pretty "Buay Song " yesterday bout my clan yesterday .. but i got over it .. haha ..
i listened to Canon in Del Major once again today .. really healed my spirits ( of course this is not the actual reason why i'm feeling so great today , only my buddies know right ? Keep it a secret k guys ? haha .. )
" I don't mind spending everyday .. out on your corner in the pouring , Look for the girl broken smile .. ask her if she wanna stay awhile , and she will be loved . "
" I've come so far .. then i realised ... i've fallen for you . "
" What can i do , to make you mine .. Fallen so hard , so fast , this time .. What did i say , what did you do .. How did i fall in Love with you.
I don't wanna live this life , i don't wanna say goodbye .. With You i wanna Spend the rest of my life . "
Well .. guess i'm taking a turn in life after all these while .. I hope this is not a test set by Heaven again ,or is this neither another trick played by heaven . Fate brings 2 persons together ..
Well , just wanna say that i am very happy today ! haha .. Enjoyed my day with u today .. although it was just a short while ? and we didn't catch any movie .. haha ...
Haha , well i'll stop here .. i think i can really sleep real tight tonight .. and rock tomorrow at Sentosa ! woo hoo !!
i drive myself crazy .. thinking of u .
"Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head..
Where was my heart..
Now I cry alone in the dark...
I lay awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do...
I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me...
You confessed your love and Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free...
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I’ve only got myself to blame...
Why...didn't I know it
How much I love you baby
Why...couldn't i show it
If I had only told you...
When I had the chance...
Oh I had the chance..
I drive myself crazy , thinking of u .. "
- I drive myself crazy , N Sync
i'm feeling a little depressed right now , won't say why ..
Been played over and over again .. i wonder when will this stop , and i'm getting very sick of it .
What's wrong with me ? or what's wrong with my fate , or what's wrong with my destiny ? am i supposed to recieve tests from Heaven all my life , and live a no purposed life ? guess u guys don't know what i'm saying ..
well , i have so much to say but .. no one's here for me to share my downs .. share my joy .. a one man world ..
i always wish , to start a new life , to start all over again , to be the man i once was , to lead the happy life i once had ...
i always tell myself , to believe . To believe in my heart . to believe in myself . But this man is no normal man , no matter how hard he tries .. no matter how much he looks on the bright side , everything takes him down .. my fate ? against all odds ..
lost my best friend , lost my good friends , i have just become a image , everyone who sees everyday , says hi and bye to , i never become part of their hearts ..
well , i always tell my friends " come on , you're still young , just 17 , there's so much going for u in life .. u can't give up on love or life .. "
i'm the one whose telling people these .. while i myself can't do it ..
Maybe it;s only today that i feel so weird .. i've gotta tell myself that tomorrow is always a better day ..
Accidentally in Love .
Yawnz* .. woke up a little earlier than the time i'm supposed to thanks to the washing machine man .. call to tell me that the washing machine is ready and repaired ..wah .. of all days , choose today ! haha .. u know , whoever disturbs me when i sleep , i'll never let him off .. ( Rukawa Slam dunk always say one ) haha ..
Basketball attachment sucks man ... i really very unhappy bout it .. Say what CCA attachment .. i'm sure today a lot of people will confront him one .. haha , then kick him out man since his attitude sucks so much ..
Hmm , my right leg starts hurting once again .. what the heck man .. something that was 2 years ago better not repeat .. cause it really sucks , when u run , it hurts , when u do anything , it hurts , then like that how to play bball !! haha .. that's why i'm not in any team ,if not my legs can never ever be used again ..
Today's dragonboat day again .. going to do Nafa Test and stroke rowing .. Nafa test is the really boring part .. sianz , hope the S&W don't make us run and run and run and run ... if not my 2.4 timing sure affected one ..
Dragonboat going Sentosa on Sunday .. so excited man , go there kick some butt with my friends .. hope William , Guo yi , Wai Leong they all go .. if not sure sianz one ..
Oh ya , forget to ask my buddies whether they wanna go eat sushi buffet tomorrow ... haha , me lately very sianz ma .. wanna eat and relax and talk crap with my friends .. haha , but tomorrow night still got Clan Match .. must make sure i go home early .. if not kanna scolding again ..
hmm , so sick of life lately .. Wonder will there be any changes soon of what ..haha .. and when it comes to this pt , Wan hua and edwin , pls don't introduce me girls anymore all right ? haha , i'm not that kind of guy who goes everywhere and know girls just based on their looks or sth like that .. haha , but , i still hope Heaven sends her down soon ...
Another night another day .
In school now .. was forced to come and wake up early thanks to Dad .. he have to leave home early .. while this son of his , is always lazy to take the bus .. u know , this guy always sleep on his trip to school ..
3 more weeks to final exam right ? i'm not really prepared .. i think i have to change this attitude of mine .. i have to be serious , responsible and disciplined for my own studies . i won't let 4 years of history repeat itself .
Dragonboat .. although it gets boring sometimes , but with the dudes there , it sure is fun ! haha , like when Wai Leong was doing his station ,all of us in the grp were like practically screaming into his ears bcos when it was our turn , he would grumble that it was too slow or sth .. haha , so U deserved it ! but .. we got a scolding in return ! haha ... WE Deserved IT !
Haha .. then i reach home .. eat dinner .. then wanted to do dumbells one but .. i was too too tired to do anything le ! haha .. i couldn't even focus .. oh well .. so i watched the TV programme " who wants to marry my Dad ? " and in a few mins , i fell asleep .. after smsing , i really had no more energy le ! haha .. good to sleep early and wake up early is it ?
Then Yeow Chong early in the moring msg me .. i was like " !!!!!!!! " then i just replied a YA and went back to sleep .. then awhile dad wake me up le .. wah lao !! haha ..
Oh man ... next year then my family going Taiwan ! thanks to my weird holiday schedule .. bcos all the early slots were booked !! well .. it's ok .. haha ..
OBS ( NP ) was organzing a trip to South Africa .. with mountaineering and wilf life orienteering ... something like that , so cool man ! haiz , but i can't go ! although it costs $3800 , i think it's a very enriching experience .. and why Mum won't let me go ? or Dad ? bcos they are afraid that this son of theirs will die there ! wah , my dear parents , i'm 17 , i have even attained the rank of a officer in NCC , i handled the worst situations that u can even imagined , i have done the most dangerous things u can even imagined , i had narrow escapes of death , and this son of yours always take safely precautions , bcos he don't want to die too ! haha .. now get it ?
I remembered a time when i even risked my life for my cadets .. my friends too .. the cadets' lives were always ahead of us .. if we were to die , we were to die first , not them ..
i miss NCC so much , if only i could turn back time 4 years , when i can really study again , when i can cherish time with my buddies . Going through the harsh training is all right , doing another 400 push ups a day is ok ... as long as we are together going through this , as Ah Huat ( Coach Dragonboat ) always say , " Tough times don't last but tough men do " and i truly believe in that .
Well ,i'm already in the year 2004 , so turning back time is impossible . Just gotta move on with life , as i always tell myself and my friends , tomorrow will always be a better day .
hmm i have to plan dance steps for the charity event " gift of christmas " planned by my seniors .. well . of course i have a team ... i was wondering .. can i do something that i didn't do for 2 years again ? haha , my body has become as hard as rock already liao ! oh man .. haha .. hope i can get back the X -factor ..
Gtg , school's gonna start .. and by the way ,lecturer WONG SOON FATT rocks ! haha .. Way to go Dude ! i'm sure all my classmates agree right ?
A world undone .
U know , i ever asked myself in this world , whether i have really good friends or not . Indeed , i have extraordinary friends , friends that really brought joy into my life and forever they will be my buddies , never forget them .
Last year , when the o's were coming , i went studying almost everyday with my ncc buddies , at Changi airport . Marcus , Sebas , Martin , Derrick , Andy , Edwin and Hon Siong .. at that pt of time , i really feel happy .. although studying sucks , but i really enjoyed it ..
Then the o's were over . All of us walk different paths , as i no longer go back to NCC due to my poly , i don't see Marcus , Sebas and Hon Siong anymore ... Martin and Edwin is busy with his o's , derrick with his A's ... but edwin ,derrick and me meet up bout once a week .. still not so bad .. of course , we love to go to the gym , that's why !
Then comes my " Lian Hua Dang " gang , my ex classmates .. we played bball every week or even every day in the past .. but ever since the o's were near or were over , we stopped this routine .. as we were studying or working .. Ever since work started , we drifted apart .. lost interest in bball , i admit , me too , i lost interest in bball once but now i still love it very much .. cause it's part of my life already.
Well , then as i have said again and again , i've lost my best friend . You can say now that i'm left with no one now . My poly mates are just friends , really good friends but we ain't as close as sec sch ones .
My Sec sch friends no longer care bout " Yi Qi " , and whenever we ask them out , lots of excuses come out ..
You know , i will always be there for my friends , i'm sure u guys noticed , but apparently , no one was always here for me . i thought i always had very good friends that i can confide in , share my joy or share my downs , but apparently , they are invisible images .
I don't know whether heaven wanna prove that true friends don't exist or what but i believe , true friends do , brotherhood does exists . i'm still the same old guy , who goes anywhere for my friends , who does anything for my friends , i'm still .. the Ng HB u guys know .
Say , haha , why am i talking bout all this anyway ? Thanks to Ci Yu la .. haha .. Just wanna tell u that , there are true friends in this world , there'll be always someone who will be there for u , to share ur joy , share ur downs , cheer u up . All u have to do is wait for such a person to come by . This world maybe cruel , but it still can be beautiful ! haha .. er .. talking too far le ba ?
well .. i'm in PWA class doing this .. haha .. saw her ytd .. Heaven's on my side man ! haha .. hope he really is !
Gotta go .. i'm feeling so tired ... and i got top in the class for CIP ! when i nv study at all! Woo hOO !!
"Have you ever you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
Cause the magic that surrounds you
Will lift you up and guide you on your way
I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You See I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally ..
I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe... "
- i Believe . Fantasia Barrino ( American Idol )
i'm feeling better everyday .. i do not hog on to that pain in my heart anymore .. my spirit gets better everyday .. No more Nightmares ! i'm closer to the stage of starting a new life .. really Glad all is over . That i finally let everything go .
But .. i was a little worried over my bro . U see , i was chatting halfway on msn then he told me he needed to use the net bcos he just had a tiff with his gf .. then i was like " wah kao , i haven't been using the net for quite some time thanks to him and finally when i have time then u ... " so i delayed for more time ..
Then he came over , and showed me a msg on his hp , telling me that they are breaking up of something .. i was so shocked ! then i quickly said byes to my friends and left as soon as possible .. hope everything is all right .. u guys gone thru so much , loved each other deeply and my parents like her so much too ... if i was my bro , i would do everything to get her back .
hmm , but today when he woke up , he seems like he's fine .. he's the normal guy who wakes up in the morning .. haha , hope all is fine !
Glad that my family is in the state it is today .. no more quarrelling , no more suprises , no more problems . I promised them to work hard , i told them i'm gonna be a pilot .. so i can give them a good life . but Mum just told me .. that money wasn't everything .. they don't ask for a luxury life .. they just wanna get on with life happily ... -__- ?? haha , cause i told her , that i wanna get Dad a Benz , i said , he suffered so much for the family all these years , and he always admired Jaguar and Benz all that .. so i guess , i want him to have a luxury car once in his life .. so i have to work hard ! and i promised myself a rx-7 , it's my dream . So , it's for myself too !
Well , it's not for me or my family only , it's for my wife and kids too ! haha .. too far le ba ? i just don't want them to go thru the hard life i have , i want them to be happy , don't need to worry bout the money problem ..
haha .. what wife .. i have been single for such a long time liao .. haha , talk bout Gf first la .. , well , hope Heaven is with me this time ard ! haha ..
U guys gotta be thinking , why i have so many chances with girls , when they come ask for my no. ( haha , i know , not a lot of girls come ask for my no. la ) but , i'm someone who wanna take it slow , i don't wanna see got girl liao arh , then i chiong for her or what one .. i wanna know her , know her better .. and of course she must be someone i like too ..
Well , class gonna start liao , blog soon again ..
CLONE of ME !
i was making my way to Clementi MRT yesterday to meet up with Piak they all .. when i see a guy and girl boarding the mrt .. i thought was just normal people or what .. just a guy wearing the same t shirt that i have ..
Then the train started moving and i just take a look right .. and .. hey wait , that guy .. LOOKS LIKE ME !! the shirt , the necklace , is also the type i have , and his side view really looks like me ! The eyes .. the nose .. the mouth .. the smile .. and the worst is .. we have the same HEIGHT ! This is crazy ! the first time in my life i see someone who just looks like me !
This is way too crazy man .. haha , if i could , i wanna know this guy . he seems to have the same character as me .. haha .. cool .. bye guys ! Dragonboat competition coming soon ..
Life goes on ...
"My dad is a driving legend . Not in that Ayrton Senna kind of way, but as far as i can remember , he was and still is the smoothest driver i know . My fondest recollections sterm from the numerous scuffles I used to have with my brother - in the back seat his trusty Ford Escort . He would drive , talk to my mum , and simultaneously smack us from the front , without missing a beat . That man gave new meaning to the term " driving discipline ."
He has never ,I repeat never , lost his way befotre . No matter the location , the terrain and sans map , my Dad would find his destination . He was one of those drivers who could put anyone to sleep when he drove . From grandma , to cousins and of course my brother and me , we all had at one time or another , falled into a drooling slumber from his silky smooth handling .
In fact my Dad , to me is the epitome of the 'steady driver '.His adamant refusal to use the horn has also shaped my own dislike , for horn - happy road bullies . so much so , that my wife sometimes smacks the horn on my behalf - from the passenger's seat .
Six years of driving experience later , i'm still nowhere near my Dad's skill when he was my age . Then again , when he was 30 , he already has 2 kids . Then it hit me , my Dad isn't a good driver -he's a family driver . He drives the way he does because his family's life depends on it .
Man.. that makes him more ' steady ' ...
So drive safe Dads . Ignore the punk who overtakes you . Just make sure everyone gets home safe and warm . And if you can , serenade the kids to sleep with your driving . I assure you , they'll remember that nap for the rest of their lifes ."
- IMRAN , Editor of Torque Magazine
I really like this article .. it really touched me deep inside somehow or rather and i typed it all out to share with u guys . My Dad is also someone like this . But sometimes , he gets impatient and overtakes people .. oh well , my Dad is still a driving legend in my eyes .
I realised the fact that , although i have the need for Speed . My family's life depends on me . Even if they are not on my car , they still need me to go on . And i think dying bcos of speeding is a bad reason to die with .
Maybe , through these years , this need of Speed of mine will die off as i mature . Cars are for transport . Not for hell racers .
Oh yeah , i bought a new bike today ! and it looks just so way too cool man ! haha .. With Mum and Dad's sponsorship of course .. Finally , i have a new bike . i have been using a bike all this while that lasted for more than a decade on this earth . And even once when i was cycling halfway .. the pedal dropped out ..
So no more embarassing moments ! haha , now i'm proud of the bike i have ! Not like the other one .. when people see me with that antique , i feel so ma lu .. haha .. oh well , i'm a materialistic guy i guess . Thanks to my family .
A new day tomorrow ! May tomorrow be a better day ! may i become one step closer to her !
Follow your heart .
Follow your heart . Let it lead the way .
Feel like a song without the words , a man without a soul .
A bird without its wings , a heart without a home .
Feel like a knight without a sword , the sky without the sun .
Cos you are the one ..
Feel like a ship beneath the waves , a child that lost his way .
A door without a key , a face without a name .
Feel like a breath without the air , and everyday's the same..
since you've gone away .
Gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning , you used to be the one that put a smile on my face .. There are no words that could describe how i missed u , and i missed u everyday !
I nv gonna leave your side . Never Gonna leave your side ,again .
Still holding girl , i won't let you go !
Cause when i'm lying in your arms .. i know i'm home .
This was the song that really touched me a year ago .. and it still sounds as good . i'm pretty confused right now but i've decided to follow my heart . I can't forget her angellic look . Her angel eyes . Her sweet smile . She could be just my angel . i'm not letting go now . That's for sure .
5 more days to seeing her . if God is not cruel , let me see her within these few days . Maybe i should have just go and get her no. ... but .. i don't want to be the kind of guy to rush into things u know .
If i ever get this girl and we love each other deeply , if we can get ourselves into such a stage , i'm sure i wanna marry her . Going to Australia , i will give it up . i will give up going to US for pilot also . i just wanna be with her . i can't bear to leave the ones i love . Mum , dad , bro , friends . they are just too dear to me too .
So God , bless me this time around will ya ? she's someone i really interested in . So please please please , let her be the one !
BBQ day becomes a really happy day !
Well , we had course BBQ today at east coast .. haha , I pon Dragonboat today .. OOPS ! well , i want to go for dragonboat but JS didn't go today cause he sick .. well .. so bo pian lo . i Go with my classmates together ..
WE took bus at 2 plus or 3 plus .. then reached there at like .. 530 ? or 6 ? haha .. i'm sure tired out after the trip .. Well , we had fun today .. right guys ?
Hmm .. i really love my poly class mates .. Eric , wen Zhong , alex , the girls .. everyone ! haha .. " Lao Ge Hui Yi , Ben and Eric " haha.. then the 2 of us will start singin ..
We rented bike too ... i was fetching denise on skates first then she took off the skates and i had to fetch her to get ICE .. oh my .. haha .. then the whole grp of us were laughing and laughing the whole day man ..
Today , i got to interact with the 01 class today .. and thought that they were good people now .. i had the impression that they suck .. but .. seems like the 2 classes are friends now .. haha ..
Oh .. when i was barbecuing halfway .. this girl of class 1 came up to me .. she asked for my no. .. i tot it was some truth or Dare game or what .. then BenSon from class 1 told it wasn't , she was serious .. then i was like " ?????? " Then he told me i am the best looking guy in the class .. then i was like " haha , dude , u want to lend money from me right ? " haha .. so i just gave her my no. but she told me she had some interest in me too .. oh well ..
Is this some joke ? when i finally want to take action then comes another one .. i am confused . I mean .. i just have to take things slowly now ..
Oh well , Shiqi was right . she told me girls will come after me .I was like , Won't la .. then at the point of time , nothing happened yet .. But a while later .. First came a girl from my OC module .. then now ..
Have God finally sent her down ? or is this another test he has for my heart ? Please , don't play with me anymore ....
Now in sch .. oh man , dragonboat almost killed me yesterday ... but it wasn't as crazy as the first training .. like did we do more than 300 pushups yesterday ? not to forget 30 pullups and gym stuff .. ~ BBQ this saturday .. woo , pon dragonboat .. oh yeah .. but can see class 3 and 4 .. see see got chance anot .. haha .. and also i wanna check out one girl from year 2 .. ~ i'm so tired lately .. i have to learn to sleep early liao .. gonna rush straight home after school today .. play online game to relax .. tomorrow dragonboat again .. oh well .. ~ my birthday is in a month liao ! but guess it could be just some ordinary day .. my birthday is also after final year exams .. great .. ~ Going Taiwan this year ! So excited ! hope to see Cyndi Wang there .. HAHA HAHA .. crazy right ? wanna look for lots of clothes and stuff .. hope to catch more glimpse of rx-7s and skylines .. ~ i'm so tired .. yesterday i even missed a bus stop .. js and i were so tired that we slept so soundly ... haha ......~ Hanging out great with my poly mates man .. haha .. ~ Hope i can resume my bball life too. . . i don't wanna give it up . i wanna fly . ~ well , don't i sound like a complicated guy that seems to like many girls at one time ? no la .. when i have a gf , i will devote myself to her .. guess all my close friends know bout this the best .. haha .. ~ Maybe i should learn more about love .. seriously i think i need to ... learn to like someone truely .. learn to sacrifice .. learn to change for the one i love .. learn to give up things .. ~ Ending here . A new life ! so great ! painful memories of her are finally ended ! No more . a long goodbye .
