Faith in every Footstep

Most people who know me well, know of the adventure we are on. A year ago in June, I moved my house and family to the Griesmyer farm. It was a huge change at first. I lived in the middle of nowhere. The church was 45 miles away. There were no friends for me or the children close enough to visit and play with. I went through some trials of my faith but eventually settled into the wonder and luxury that the simple farm life affords. I had many interesting experiences along the way that I'll have to save for another post. In January of 2013, Gary quit active duty military life. We had another trial as we figured out how to manage the depression of separating him from his previous life as well as the depression of now being dependent on someone else. July 2013 brought us to Akron, OH where Gary has been accepted to attend law school. After more trials of faith, we found a small house to rent in our price range.  We love the area. We love the ward. We love our new friends. I LOVE that I now live about 1.5 miles from my college roomie and best friend, Beth Adams. She and I have a great history together and get along splendidly. She's awesome! I feel blessed. Yet trials of faith continue to come in and out of our lives. A major concern for us right now is of course, money. Or the lack thereof. I received notice that the renter that just signed another year lease with us in July, will be moving out in 30 days! This is a blessing in disguise even though my faith is being tested AGAIN! Will we get another renter in? Will we have to sell and lose a ton of money on the house? There are many questions that are unanswered right now. But here are a few things I have learned about faith over the last year or more:

• Faith is an Action-there has never been a time in my life that I have not been asked to DO something that tested my faith.
• You can have faith and still be worried or concerned-I used to think that if I had enough faith I would not worry about things, I would have total confidence that everything would work out. I have learned though that I can be acting on faith and still have concerns that I take to the Lord and my husband.
• Trials of Faith make us stronger and wiser- I was sitting in RS last week while we were having a lesson on faith and one woman made a comment that there was nothing in her life that has ever been 'hard' because she had faith. At first I thought that maybe she just hasn't had hard things happen to her in her life. But then I thought, trials of faith make us stronger so that things don't seem so 'hard'. Some people think my life as a military wife has been hard. I guess it has but in the moment, you just do it because your faith in God helps you through. 
• Faith is a journey- it is not something you become perfect at ...EVER! I think I will always freak a little bit when a new major trial come into my life. It doesn't matter that I've learned this lesson over and over again: God knows me and loves me and will take care of me. I know that! I really, really do! It doesn't mean that I am prefect in my faith though. It is a journey that I am still on.   

I too find my lack of faith disturbing but continue to work on it each and everyday. I think that's the whole point though, don't you?