August 29, 2005

i only have 3 words for today

A GREAT DAY

enough said?

-"love" is not a word enough to express my feelings for you-

August 26, 2005

life is filled with ups and downs..
i must say i experienced all these in these 3 days.
i was happy doing all those financial documents..
was glad that i can finish them in such a short time..
anxious to get it signed and hand in.

all of the sudden, everything came crashing down with a mail.
problems emerge...
i felt so low.
it was my responsible to get everything in place.
and, i neglected them.
took everything for granted it will be alright.

ARGH! lets hope exams wont be this demoralising.
and i am glad there is always someone beside me..
all my friends
and my dahling.. =)
*hugz*

-soon, all will be over.-

August 24, 2005

i am sick. physically drained.

-and my dear was there for me! *grinz*-

August 19, 2005

I am very tired and sleepy now
in bsc room. what the hell am i doing here?
again?
i asked.

there is our AGM tml
sub comm camp tml
and dear ask me... why i am doing everything?
i wondered.
do i have to do all these?
is it worth all the sacrifices?
what am i doing all these for?
i have no answers to them.

but still, hours ago, i went home to pack my back
with formal wear, sneakers, shorts, shirts,
pouch, 3 big bags. at 12am i went to sch.
goodness sake.
i think dear saw my msg and is totally pissed with me
she wont even reply to me
i dun think she is sleeping.
it just seems to me, i can read alittle of what she is thinking
the things i do, how she react.
all my assumptions. ya.

i even sacrifice the new epi of bleach (45)
watched only 10mins, rushed out hse to catch the last last bus
if there is any. i took a cab.

security checked me. fine.
i went through every little thing to find jo sleeping here.
i am suppose to do some work with her.
she sleep. yah. and i am here typing away.

so young man, what is my purpose here, 3 in the morning
in sch, in the place i spend most of my time, in bsc room?

sorry dear, i cant make promises,
i wanted to be determined to let go every worry i have for bsc,
i thought, lets leave it alone after i come back from SIP.
will i be able?
or is it too latE? why not before the exams?
i thought of the projects i have to handle.
i am confused, dilemma never give choices.

tml i will have a busy day, going class at 9,
rushing to clementi, bedok and back to sch.
i sort of regretted staying over in school..
what the point?
i see myself in a stupid position, covering up for the duties of the others.
i think.. i can let go.. sooner than i think i can.
my powers aint that important...
its you, my family, whom i really want to give this effort to.
sorry if i had hurt you, my love ones.

-depression.-

August 17, 2005

saturday had went shopping with dear, jo and valerie
it was a shopping spree!
jo haf bought a skirt.. i bought 2 t-shirts.. and dear bought a lovely skirt too! just hope that they would wear them more often.. haha..

went back to bsc for pizza.. dear was tired.. and we walked home while everyone else went rooftop.

sunday was lazying day! supposed to be doing tutorial but did nONe!
sister din come to find me as well.. like bro like sis! haha.. both of us are too lazy and sleeping like logs.. was motivated to do some work at ard 6.. but in the end the tutorial was so hard tat we gave up! haha... went to dear's hse for maggie mee! its so nice.. can i have another serving next time? dear always dun allow me eat maggie mee thou its the fact that i seldom eat.. sometimes.. you just have a craving for it! hee..

monday... had some petty cash issue to settle and after that, went to service dear's hp at century square.. after tat we went cartel for dinner.. i think its time we should diet! my dad is complaining about my belly already.. arGH..

today was hell.. alot of updates to do, dragged my meeting time with dear till 5... so sorry~ she must be so damn bored downstairs with her project mates when she had already finished her part. argh. when everything crashes, its hell! help! accompany dear to marine kimage for haircut and dinner at sakae. shit man.. we still go have ice cream at anderson! arGH! i ought to have dieT!!!!! AGHHHHHHHHH! my weight is increasing! people help!

-somethings are ought to be this way.. and nothing can change tat fact-
-this is so discouraging. i am fat.. but not a facT! help~-

August 13, 2005

today, thou tiring..
woke up early in 7am to go early for AA class..
tries to finish my unfinished bsc work..
was even snoring away in bsc room..
after a long day...

FINALLY ITS HERE!
dear was off class..
together we went off...
to what dear had planned.. =)
pet safari.. breeks.. HD foudue.. movies..
i love it! every single of it..
everything was simply amazing.. with you..

-and i love you so~-

August 12, 2005

Today is a disaster!

woke up 720 in the morning..
was tired and sleepy.. had no choice but go sch.
waited at ultra supplies to get my notes.
"went" for aa tut. that ooi damn fucked up man..
he is trying to wei nan me. or is it me with the bad attitude?
fuck it man....

went to bsc room. realise have to do up 2 proposal.
got my cash advance from lay guat.. i am rich! *feels*
rushed to meet ys at 1030 to help him buy drinks..
back to sch to get the doorgift from the supplier..
and went for "lunch" with dear..
no time siA!

the external lecturer to boring to the CORE.
at the same time of the lecture.. people are trying to study for AA.
i was falling asleep. HE is BORING. AA is BORING.
Boring2

went to BSC to continue study at 1. i cant take it. the lecture is tooooooo boring.
even in BSC room.. i fell asleep...
determined to study.. i study, sleep, study sleep. haha..
at last, the AA test. its MCQ. but its rather tough.
damn it. i took a peep at eddie answer n it was diff from mine
i was thinking.. fuck it man! i think i am right!
so i handed up my script.

send dear off to bus stop and went back bsc room to check the doorgifts
so fed up! so many pens are faulty! (no ink)
dear came in time to help me.. haha.. and 2 of us met up with yihan to go to ys chalet!
BBQ time people!

the food is good... haha.. (hungry everything nice)
drink alot of packet drinks.. and soda. bleah..
played mahjong.. and dear won $8! woho. yihan won $44.. lol.. she is the big winner!

after that went CV to buy ice.. and catch a glimpse of Project Superstar results..
and rush back chalet to watch the next part.
fuck it man.. that blind man went in to the finals 2.
how pathetic can it be? i dunno what will happen if he get the championship..
lets hope i can get tickets to the final 2.

played a few rounds of mahjong here and there..
went homE! so tired.. and dear was sick!
sorry dear had to make u accompany me all the way..
it must have bored u.
and thank you for accompanying me!

-contridiction... haha-
-and i love you so!-
-to me.. it doesnt matter how long we are together-
-so let this special day tells you.. I LOVE YOU SO!-
-grinz-

August 11, 2005

i am so so worried about dear..
she sound so sick on the phone!
coughing n sneezing..
she was working hard on her cra project..
and at the same time studyin for tml AA's test..

what am i doing here??!?!

i just wish i can go over and hug u...
*sob*

August 10, 2005

happy national daY!

but as if i cared. it seems to be most inconvenient day of the YEAR
everyone is out to watch the ndp... roads are blocked.. bus are full..
restaurants are crowded...

EVERYONE IS GOING BONKERS!
esp when i have to finish my CRA project
due wed 5pm. tml. and i got a make up test tml 4pm.
sucks man... fucked up day!!!!!

BUT HOWEVER NONETHELESS NOT TO MENTION
i have spent a wonderful night with dear at mediacorp..
we went to watch project super star.. the girl semi finals.
to watch the actual filming of it.. how FAKE it can be...
and of cuz.. see the parts that never ever get to be broadcasted.
lets hope we can get tickets to the finals!

-Let's hold on together forever-
-but forever is not enough..-

August 07, 2005

hee.. today i am a naughty boY!
dear.. let me reveal my surprise to you! =P

woke up 2 in the afternoon
meet 3.30 with ys to eat lunch.. discuss about chalet stuff..
he went to cut hair.. back to his hse.. and to supermarket.
abandon the idea of buying part of the items there.
shld buy everything else on wed with yihan & weiting at bedok SS.

reach TP busstop at 6. haha... took 23 and change to 857..
suntec 7. carrefour to buy vokda n tequila..
heres the exciting part dear! *grinz*

u have eaten a secret recipe's marble cheesecake.
u have eaten another a nydc b3 cheesecake.
afterwhich i went to bugis... and buy milktea..
went home for dinner...

after dinner.. i went busstop. called u..
before the bus come.. i hang up. WHAHA..
i alighted.. went kopitiam and bought ICE.
there.. i called u.. asking u to come down..

and SURPRISE! =) i just love the way you look when u are clueless!
good luck for the test.. =) love ya~

-from your piggy dear-

Back from LTC CAMP!
burned slightly on the face..
tired and exhausted.. i tried to focus on every part of the camp.
half heartedly, i slept half of the slacketon's and whole of the last workshop.
but i had had fun! it was really fun playing ELP and TEAM and frisbee.
but i think i sucks at some of the game.. something doubting my part of the team.

none the less.. it was fun! fun! fun! food wasnt good but activites are fun...
after the last activity we clean ourselves and set off to bryan's hse for his birthday party!

and fuck mr panda for dropping spiderman cake. haha..
panda is clumsy right? just kidding pal.. no offenses hor.. =P

i still myself having problems interacting with strangers. bleah..
kind of hard for me.. still.

and i really miss you! throughout the whole camp.. i was dying to read them.. and i tore it as soon as i reach home.. see how desperate i am? hee... =P

August 06, 2005

Its been a great week!
have so much time to spend with dear..
and the best of all.. to understand her better!
its not like everything is to be taken for granted
but the best we can do is compromise...

the most important is to be happy together right?
i am sure the trust, confidence and secure will follow..
i am sure i can provide the mental and physcial strength to be there for you whenever you need me..

we need other as much as we do right? =)

-from your loving silly boy-

-to my loving silly girl-

August 02, 2005

its been some time since i blogged!
was busy with school... bsc...
almost left no time for dear!
i felt i've neglected her...
i wont find excuses to cover myself..
i am FREE. i set my TIME!

its a day just for just.. so dun reject me k?

love,
ayc