January 30, 2005
the first fair lady i saw was alicia's.
the first fair lady i sat was alicia's.
wahhaha... its quite a nice feeling sitting a 2 seater.. big space n everything
but but.. dun ask me about cars.. i am still noob to it.
n too much space.. i rather felt unsecured. oops.
indirectly i was saying even thou alicia's car was nice.. but i was unsecured sitting in it not becuz of the driver but the factor of space itself.
still it was quite an experience.. n a nice caR! *grinz*
was back at the chalet today for some bbq action... wasnt totally in the mood.. partially becuz i was already half dead. another reason being i was totally broke to the core. i even have to steal some coins from my sis to take a cab to work becuz i was late.
tml wll be another long day... but i am looking forward to it.. not becuz of shopping.. hee..
January 29, 2005
if someone is to tell me what is happening... i will be very glad to do anything, YES anything in return.
at this point of time at 6.00am on a saturday morning, i just came back from a unhappy mahjong session. cuz i lost $$ thats why i am unhappy. in addition, those money are planned to get myself a new phone, table, and some other stuff.
but its not that i am really unhappy, just that some sadness in parting away with some planned $$ in this way that i din intend to spend it like this, gamble that is. mahjong is really my kind of game n USUALLY i wont lose, or shld i say i dun lose much, in perfect happy mood conditions. but right now..... LIFE IS SUCH A BURDEN!
guess ever since i lost to raymond $$$$$$ at lance hse... i have been a loser all the way. never did i win any 4Ds or Totos, or even those stupid scratch n wins. but still i like to gamble... and maybe this way of spending money is a way of my stress relieve. thats why i am still poor to this point of time where i am working n working like no one's business and yet i cant afford to buy myself things i want.
i cant remember where i spend my 2year salary of with at least 200bucks on an average monthly. its just so naturally disappeared from my wallets. guess its time i have to control... control.. n control.. can someone control me? i just hate the freedom i am having right now.
work is nevertheless busy this friday evening n going to so wulu cranwell bungalow gives me another hole. but still.. i guess i am enjoying myself from friendly co-workers n some old pals at the bungalow. seeing everyone still cheerful n having fun is the best reward for me even if it means to sacrifice every single physical n mental strength of mine. I HATE TO SEE FRIENDS AROUND ME BEING UNHAPPY ABOUT SOMETHING WHICH THEY REFUSE TO SAY.
even if i say so... i myself is this kind of person. maybe its the mindset that i shldnt be bothering them with problems or my own. n even if i had said it out... they would think i am stupid, over sensative n not paying much attention to what is happening around. so i guess i just have to keep them to myself becuz nobody is being frank with me either. to rub it, i hate myself for this.
now what i am going to sort out myself is some financial controlling difficulties, and some other issues of life.
dont ever ask me about it cuz i wont be saying either. to make a note that i dun even know how to say myself too.
times up dude. its 615 n i shld be getting some sleep for the next working shift.
January 28, 2005
no lunch... watched HiME... cut some nails and off to orchard. went kino and got losT! damn.. why is kino so big.. looking for women's days 24 jan 05 issue.. and guess whaT? its only the 27th and the 31st jan issue is already out.. what the fuck... bought 2 comics.. and went swedens for some fries n drink. went to work.... and deco for TR! i love new year decos.. esp the mei hua.. hhaha.. i like plucking the shells out of them... revealing that soft white sidE! haha.. oops.
thursday night was busy. full house. even private room is conquered by some 20 odds. but why in the world would this night be such a time of hell.
rather fast home at 11. slack ard n did project from 1-5. argh. right now.. i am a sleepy pig.. i just want to go home.. and get away from this
Fucking
Over
Invested meeting i am having now...
PRESERVERANCE......
and the only thing to look forward to is back at the work place..
and maybe some mahjong session tonight n some dogging.. CHALET! wait for me...
January 27, 2005
after days n days n days n nights n nights n nights of hardwork and preservance... we finally did it! winnes n piglets n tiggers n eeyores n rabbits n kangaroos are dancing in the moonlight~ HOHO~
i must have been a crazy week. ever since the public holiday of the anti-pigs society, everything seems to b wrong.
first was on the day itself the waiting of the missing 518.
up next was the stupidity of me forgetting to bring my working uniform out to work. in this case i got a new shirt, but it was troublesome to me.
den was the
Fucking
Over
Invested project that made me go bonkers. where in the world can some stupud investment project have 85% theorY? hell.
and now i am squatting down there like a freaking idiot trying to stick hair onto my fingers, right in my room, alone at home. was supposed to meet someone for lunch... but guess it was all left unmentioned from monday till now and a new appointment was already made.
hope orchard n work later wont b a fucked up time for me.
forward to chalet! doggies~ wait for me~
January 23, 2005
stupid bandai gundam typing stimulator... its making me stressful and nervous... racing against speed.. somemore its in a language i dunno! hell man... even its kind of challenging.. but its toooooooo sTressFul for me... think i shld stop for a while after that 3hrs of nonstop action..
friday work. its a public holiday. damn it man! i dun even know.. until the day itself. no business at all... yawnz. waited for 518 for 40~50mins... damn dulan.. went to take mrt.. how come got no bus? cb sbs...
@#%@%@$%^#^$^#%
saturday work at night also... but its damn busy can.. even if there is no que.. maybe cuz one of the host melissa is new ba... make win go bonkers... tired n hungry... went home bathe n waited for the others to come..
bit by bit... still invain... i think i might as well do it myself.. ask them come.. n waste my time! OOPS.. they gonna kill me when they see this... slpt at 4... n woke up at 9plus 10 off to work...
home just. tired. here i come beddiE!
twin spica.....
January 20, 2005
winnie the pooh rocks my life! been looking at it since yesterday.. till now... eeyores piglets tiggers and some kangaroos are appearing... glowing in the moonlight! soon i will go crazy... with all these lil monsters in my room... ARGH
finding the missing piece...
sleep well girls...
happy holidayS!
get well soon sister cheryl!
January 19, 2005
test are finally ending! last paper...!
pls... give me a GOOD reason to study FOI... yawnz.
January 14, 2005
EXAMS ARE HERE!
damn TP.
January 12, 2005
tired tired tired!
the morning sucks. i just wan to sleep more
the school sucks. why must it be so early?
the test sucks. of all topics.. those?
the food suck. i have been ordering food so disgustingly unedible and i have to finish em anyway
the breaks suck. all i can do is slack.. slack.. slack...
the buses suck. why cant the people ever move?
the phone sucks. it never rings.
the bed sucks. i just wan to have a good night rest and it keep turning me around
and you sucks. my friend isnt urs are you trying to say that?
and you sucks twice. at least HE wont go round discussing about it.
and i sucks too! not only HE knows. even people you hate knows. grinz.
life sucks. just like a vaccum cleaner.
January 11, 2005
happy weekends!
went msia to celebrate my mama ah fang's wedding~ haha.. at kluang...
when we reach at night on saturday.. it was a mini reception at ah fang's hse... sort of gathering..
got food.. and BOOZe.. haha.. they are crazzy people! everyone was forced to drink JD... and her mum... kaoz.. pour half a glass for us... haha... they bought 8 btls.. chit chat... sleept at 2.
sundaY! woke up at 6. gotta prepare to go and take pic... with the beautiful bridE! and of cuz.. play the groom lol.. i wasnt involved thou... i took pics.. haha.. so much fun seeing them trying to get angbaos and stuff.. when will i have the chance? hee... headed off to the groom's hse.. den reception for lunch.. haha.. more gatherings.. but no booze. haha... sit ard till 12... home to sleep more.. haha..
woke up at 3... and get ready for the wedding dinner! i guess people here aint care about a WHOLE night dinner... they are tooooo fast toooooo furious. it started exactly at 4... and food just keep coming.. and so are booze. even its only red wine n hennessy.. its hell! we insisted we dun wan to drink hennessy... and they keep refilling red wine for us... once i look away... and leave the table.. and i come back.. its full again! what hell.. i can estimate i drank 3~4 btls of it... and was moderately high at the end of the event. wasnt too much i guess. =D i am still sober.
pack pack chop chop... 9 we left home.. n headed back sG!
thats for the weekend. HAPPY MARRIAGE FANG! blessing to you n ur hubbY~
January 08, 2005
i am back alive!
on wed went hq hse... eat chix rice.. den watch tv... den for that moment.. i already felt that i am sick!
diao... was like so weak all the way home.. bathe.. n slept.
keep waking up inbwt... but still have to slp.. eat diff kind med..
west la.. east la.. still like tat.. eh.. i din mix k.. i know.. haha
the next day... totally cannot make it.
went sch. actually i refused to go see doctor. but the moment i sit down in com lab...
keens weak
arms are heavy~ (rap rap lost urself)
okay.. so jw n ll acc me to see doc...
39.7 degrees! kaoz... my doctor was shocked too.. ahha.. cuz this is recorD! i mean.. my record.. haha
eat qing teng! haha.. despite all the heat i am getting.. i still wan qing teng...
and thanks to the two unqualified nurse jw n ll... but still thanks for taking care of me..
next day... 37.5 cool.
went out for dinner with the girls n lance.. fish porriage doesnt go will egg! yuck... but still.. not much taste.. i manage to finish half the big bowl.. n qing teng as well! haha..
home.... eat med n slp...
i am now 36.4! ya.~ going malaysia.. no need worry quarantine.. =P
cya peeps...
January 05, 2005
i am physically sick
i am mentally sick
i am emtionally sick...
i am just so sick....
anyways.. i will be lying on my bed..
still can call me... bleah...
-i think i started with a bad year. cool-
January 04, 2005
if u trust me.. dun ask...
but please.. tell me what u r thinking...
thats all i need to know...
163 8 9943 697 29....
January 02, 2005
AYC NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
1. don't want to hear any of my friends dying. be strong gy.
2. change my tables.... the more i look at them.. the more irritated i get...
3. get my GL100! the only phone i like...
4. get a PS2! i miss my gaming paradise...
5. earn more money money money.. get a new job!
6. fly fly n fly away! jan i am going to KL.. feb to thai... i wan more!
7. get my class 2 license.
8. get gooood results for studies.
9. learn guitar!
10. slim down! hurr..
11. catch up with everyone.. miss all!
12. let my wishes to hit 20000! (see below taggie. i really start from 0! >.<)
13. know myself better.
14. quit smking.
15. wake up early... and be punctual for classes
16. stop sweeting
17. lazy.. nevER!
18. maybe i din really cared about all these resolutions
19. oh just shut up bastard... u cared about nothing in the first place
well... 2004 has already ended. for almost every year, people will say its a bad year.. n hope for a better one.. hey look man! aint u tired of repeating them every year.. even if u din realise that? give urself a break. its just those say-or-dun-say-doesnt-really-matter stuff. cover words. ke dao hua.
it wont be a bad year if u looked on the bright side. people just like to look n the bad side, n keep telling ourselves things can be better. look at the tsunami. i dun even care about it. why? say whatever u wan. say i am heartless, idiot, bastard, s hole...
LOOK.
its always due to those BIG THINGS like 911, n all these earthquakes.. that people start to think about God. to give u some basic knowlegde, i am also once His sheep, and i know what exactly i am talking about right now.
people start to pity, start to try n help. comon la.. yes, we are here happily living, alive, no disaster. i dun think even 0.00001% of the people living on this island had ever suffered. really. suffered.
tell me about those being raped, being sexually abused, trying to die becuz their bf/gf broke their hearts, being cheated, bankrupted, dieases, cancer, homeless, lonely. ARE THESE REALLY BEING SUFFERING?
you guys know nothing about being suffering. neither have i experienced. but at least i know the degree of what a suffer is really is.
its not about being hungry all the time.
its not about being raped or abused.
its not about being homeless, lonely.
its not about being cheated, bankrupt.
its not about being ill.
you know nothing about suffering.
thats the reason i am not pitying anyone. they dun wan ur pity.
to tsunami victims. its a insult you think they cant live on without your only-trying-to-do-what-i-can help. thats a suffer.
here. i am trying to be happy boy, giving happy new year resolutions.
its the best year that past. i dun hope a better to come, for i will tend to take more things more granted.. and live too proudly, too complacently. this is enough. gimme a bad yEAR!
now u muz be laughing. asking why i am such a weird person.
too many times too high expectations.
too many times too much hopes.
too many times too disappointed
too many times too depressed.
low expectations
less hopes
more satisfied
happier
isnt that betteR?
2005. 12 months. 52 weeks. 365days. 8760hours. 525600minutes. 31536000seconds. 2006.
Woot! Happy new year to all... welcome to year 2005.
lets start with the first moment of new year.
on the last year of 2004, i was working like a idiot.. tired n shag.. back real pain.. straight 2 to 11. even i tell sally that i am really tired n cant extend myself to 11.. she insisted. in the end i punch my card at 1059. go to staircase to sleep for 15mins. after that... even before i realise.. everyone is already outside at the bar.. preparing to partY! hahha.. this year the food is better...
and i think this year is bettER! more people.. more fun... still like double the people attended last yr.. if i am not wrong.. but mayb i am.. haha..
booze for the night : 48pint heineken, 1 absoulte, 2 smirnoff, 1jw black, 1 gin if i am not wrong.
people are crazy for booze.. was already high at 2.. talk on the phone at den.. by the time i return at 3... everyone is already challenging. for what i know.. my mama ah fang challenged ah batt the RM... and batt losT! he lost a btl of smirnoff.. haha... up next is richard n grace.. due to forseen circumstances... while i stepped into the restaurant.. fang n grace asked for my help... since i am the son n grace my mama's buddy.. i keep drinking... until grace only drank 2 shots.. and i think richard drank 6.. haha.. everyone was HIGH.
vomitted silently. lol. nobody saw.
already 4. to hq hse.. talk talk talk.. haha.. for the rare few times.. i can talk until i feel thirsty.. or isit the effects of being highly alcoholic? haha...they force me to go sleep at 6... woke up at 7.. still half awake. hq gotta work... so no choice.. jw send me home.. and sleep..
fly aeroplane for the 12-3 schedule. work at 6. till 10. today's business real bad. whats happening? everyone is poor after donating to the tsunami victims? hmm...
went 85 for supper. hungry man. ate alot. hee.. went with cy.. den meet jw n zz.. cy went off home first.. send his hot porriage for grandpa.. hee..after that we left ard 1... send jw home.. den me n zz home too..