August 30, 2004
something's wrong. very wrong
mada mada dane...
August 29, 2004
sleepless nights sucks..
and my back still hurts..
ouch
mada mada.
August 24, 2004
friends like lollipops
The first impression will be that beautiful cover
and the nice little stick attached to it
until you get to know them
slowly you remove their cover
and feel the sweet contents of their being.
everyday you joke, laugh and gossip
slowly and slowly... the lollipop gets smaller and smaller
one day both of you might even quarrel
resulting in a crack
chipping off the smooth surface
you will began to see the ugly side
but all these will soon end...
and what's left will be the white 3-holed stick
and that crumbled plastic cover
nothing like what you saw the first time.
if hating you makes me feel better, i will do it.
August 22, 2004
Finding a brand new me...
might be just a dream...
just to forget my old self...
mada mada dane...
August 18, 2004
If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired
stop being sick and tired
because being sick and tired
will make you more sick and tired.
mada mada dane...
August 14, 2004
Everyone is here looking for answers.
One always looks for other for the answer.
Others might not know the answer,
thats why one is always looking for someone,
for the answer.
thats why we are here.
August 13, 2004
today is friday the 13th... maybe it will be a bad day... but... i already had a very happy day.. really happy.. and i also dunno why... i just felt so GOOD! maybe i just like today.. just today...
for once.. just once.. i felt that the pain no longer exist... just today...
August 11, 2004
now is holiday.. but why today have lecture? all thanks to biz finance.. go there without notes.. but lucky i understand what she talking.. today damn funny.. xiao qiang came to lecture... and the lecturer came to kill it.. haha... most mothers dun scare of cockroaches hoR?
went to help my dad.. mum's hand pain again... haix... den go back to sch and continue CAS project.. damn sianz lor.. setting up and stuff.. backup n restore alot of times.. damn it..
i havent started to do my legal pro.. and monday is the deadline! die man.. think these few days will be doing legal....
got stuck in the toilet... really hurts this time round...
mada mada....
August 09, 2004
saturday...
mac...
today is national day. but i dun really give a damn about it
its double pay. i refused to work. its 3pm and i just woke up
saturday and sunday was work n drink, work and drink.
saturday at tony's. pei yun birthday
sunday at centro. song gave us tickets to go. first time i went centro.
was really nice that i went. even though i dint expect much from clubbin, drinkin n stuff... i was very happy. the queuin sucks. the crowds sucks. the songs sucks too... but i saw alot of my friends... alex, dan, marilyn, and blah blah... quite a few to list. and that was the happy part...
to emphasize that the music sucks, we went home at 2, not even high. that really sucks as well.
its time for projects.
August 08, 2004
my back.
stop this pain.
when will it end?
today when i am working.. i felt like just fainting.. or just die..
the pain is getting worst n worst...
i cant even slp..
it is just so...
feeling like end of the world..
maybe it just the end..
i just need somemore time.... just somemore..
August 06, 2004
this time.. its longer... when will it stop?
finally my exams are over.
finally i can get to sleep more.
but wait,
project deadlines are prompting,
work is starting,
leisure has gone into the nights,
my sleep, my rest, my recovery system,
will never totally recover...
August 05, 2004
Study... Study... Study...
its good for myself to be motivated to study. but guess whaT?
ITS BACK
hope it dun worsen this time...
i need more time... just somemore...
mada mada... just not yet.... just a lil more...
August 03, 2004
Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely and complete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me
Now, I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
There's nothing left to lose
Nothing left to fly
There is nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you
August 01, 2004
As I read through the previous post I have posted...
I sounded SELFISH
I sounded ARROGANT
I sounded EVERYONE OWES ME
Life is cruel, selfish, self-oriented.
WE ONLY HAVE 1 LIFE TO SPARE.
if you gonna ask how am I going to change...
if you gonna ask how different can I be from the past...
if you gonna ask how how how...
Just ask yourself
Have you ever regretted on doing anything in your whole life?
I have.
And i gonna live my way.
NO MORE PAIN.
NO MORE REGRETS.
NO MORE TURNING BACK.
FOR MYSELF
mada mada dane... i only believe my drastic soul...
assume to compare...
compare to assume...
assume to assume...
compare to compare...
assuming to compare...
comparing to assume...
assuming that the assumption is comparison...
comparing the comparison with the assumption...
assumed comparison...
compared assumption...
THEY SUCKS. ROOT OF ALL TROUBLES.