April 29, 2004
rather tiring. A&F meeting on tues and thurs. talk about A&F orientation and A&F day. lots of stuff coming. hope next sem will be filled with f,l,p n j. everything will be fine. everything will restart. everything will change. thats what i hoped for. another meeting coming up next 2 weeks.
ended at 2 today, went to tony meet lance den proceed to orchard, meet the YI TIAO XIN gang and go ms. sat at the same spot. same weather. what luck. i felt like breaking down. bowling still sucks for me. never improve for years. steamboat up next. den arcade with some bishibashi action. home.
shes leaving. but i am giving her a surprise. wait till den....
April 28, 2004
i cant sing. i think i just shut up my whole life.
went chinatown. geylang. fetch them home. irene walked home. den rf. saw a "ghost" at her house. cy was scared. ran home. jiawen den nicole. went loyang bai bai. ivy stop. den zhenzhu. home at 2.30.
sleep till 5. slack abit. eat dinner. back to slp again. chaoz.
April 26, 2004
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! after 2~3 days of suanning from my asshole friends... the papers are finally over! and we are FREE!... but to think about it... time really passed very very slow when studying... its like it had been weeks and months before the papers. the recent event just before the exams, feels like it was a month ago stuff... maybe becuz i got over it... =)
well... life's just like this.but over this 2 week period (basically from 13th to 26th april) learned alot of things...lots of memories... and i love them all.. 2 weeks that felt like a month or two. was not at home all the time.
the very first thing i loved was the frequent trips to HG... my secondary school days... but those were usually 1 hour plus... now only like at most a 45mins trip.. somemore different route... if u ask me to go the old route now.. i can tell u i've forgotten how to go. that very time i tried i landed in ang mo kio. haha..
and thanks to lance the lousy driver. always sacrificing his own mental strength to drive us ard... pick us up and send us home. driving is very tiring... and i can feel it even i sit beside him. (sit only also wan to sleep... what about the driving one? haha) really brings me back to the days when DHF was active (woot! a year already) and Dominic and Andy and Melyvin had to do all the picking up and sending home stuff. but really i appreciate all the little things you all have done. its really good to know you guys. just wait for my license and car. i promise i will drive u guys ard next time. I WILL DRIVE. (",) was having supper almost everyday. EVERYDAY will it be. was those usual hangouts like 85, CV, geylang. regular places. nothing much further den that. it doesnt really matter if we eat 85 everyday, CV everyday, or whatsoever everyday. dun haf to think of other places. we are fine... there is no need to think to the extent that we will expand the locations... sometimes sticking to a place is a joy too.. =)
all thanks to polymates i have known. and alot better in this period. and thanks for studying together...
esp to lance. providing his house as a standard studying location and for "acctg prjt", lishern always there to help me kill lance together! haha.... chenyang, kokyao, jiawen, ruifang, zhenzhu, nicole, cheryl... your presence motivates me to study! leekim to join the recent supper gang. lol.
hereby i have to apologize to the NEL gang, JSE and whosoever involved. i really wanted to go over there to study, but the thought that it will be very far to get back home holds me back. a few times i did really wan to study with you ppl, but i just think that the travelling time will just be as wasteful as going out for supper. i chose supper. heh. mahjong was not in the mood some of the times u ask me eddie. sorry about that. u just always ask at the wrong time and i dun know why too. when we wan accting project it just come so naturally and the feeling was there.. hahah till nx time.. i promise.
this exam period was really fun. hope i did not left out my tb028 mates. i did not even ask them out to study! but well i miss all of u. back den was fun. and i will remember them. =)
holidays have arrived and working period are starting. it just rawks. i just miss my colleagues down there.
have a SL camp coming up, busy days are coming. gatherings are surfacing. cheers pal. WE ALL RAWKS
you are never alone, for i am here with you. -endorphinified-
April 22, 2004
TypingMaster online test
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April 17, 2004
weekend is busy. study. chaoz
April 15, 2004
sarah - me - sam
trying to act hungry when we eat finish
my dearest sister~ *muackz*
-sakae sushi hereen-
so gan dong, my sister see my nick ,she jio me go out to eat. but i have to skip my class. for the stupid buffet starts at 3. hurr... everything was good. was really nice, fun and i really really enjoyed myself... thanks for everything.. =) love yaz.
i know i was not alone
April 14, 2004
today, i am endorphinless.
tomorrow... will there be any more of it to come?
study... study.. study.
study also pass, dun study also pass.....
why studY?
till laterz...
April 12, 2004
the picture of me eating alone during feb
today was overall, well, fine.
stats i was half asleep. ob i was not even listening. micro i say bye. went suntec to go interview TR for lance. i mean lance go interview. hee. anyway, on the way back we travelled mainly, north, south and east. on bus. we changed 6buses just to get home. great.
lance = dangerous driver = still learning = knn = fucked up driver = my good friend
so i still have to sit his car, even i dun have life insurance and accident insurance. its fine. just for lance.
today i shld sleep at 12. wan anz.
was boring at home. decided to go for a spin on lance's lorry with LS. lance's driving skills sucks as usual. go HG find RF. talk abit. go lance' grandpa farm see see.
we tried to do stuns with his lorry. haha. peace man. i think i got a long way to go before i will get my lisence. i am still counting! 2more mths.
cleared out my notes. preparing to study but here i am again. damn. see you peeps ard.
i wish for only 3 wishes. and only 3 wishes i will wish for. firstly i want to be more selfish den what i am now..
April 11, 2004
yesterday (friday) was edward's bdae (if i am not wrong i remember that name correctly)
he came down with tsunting. dinner at tony's. of all places they sit at the sits near the kitchen. the moment i walk out i can see them. if they have sit somewhere near the bar or the private room i dun think i will would have seen them too. he gave her roses. i treat them skillet cookie. just for his birthday. if any of u 2 get to see this, blessing to both of u. cheers =)
PH aint busy anyway, was a easy 11hrs earned. but my cash flow is still not enough... i planned, counted, analyized, and its still not enuff... debts have to repaid and no cash is flowing in... so where has all my $$ gone? i have no idea.
saturday was good too. my manager say i only gave effort for 2hrs when i worked 5hrs. so how hard can saturday be? i am not working for next week. exams are nearing... but i am still falling behind...
went cycling ard the east. tired. the original plan was to have dinner at 201. but in the end all 7 of us turned up eaten. so whats the point? landed in lance's hse for mahjong. again. the main purpose was to, well, cheer up cheryl, but i think we ended up cheering up ourselves. just back home. bathe and blogging ard. was cool. everyone is happy.
there is always someone sacrificing for another's joy. if i am will to sacrifice, everyone will be better off.
April 10, 2004
i'm alone
since the start of my journey
i am to split mountains, divide seas
but it all seems so impossible
because i am alone
i'm alone
the mountains is heavily armoured
with the roots of mother nature
but i need to fulfill my job
because i am alone
i'm alone
rain and storm, thunder and lightning
sun and shine, scorch and burn
its wearing me out
but i have no time to rest
because i am alone
i'm alone
days passed, weeks goes by
i am seeing results
the task was not that difficult either
but this was not good enough
because i am alone
i'm alone
the year has ended
and now the path is cleared
the mountain had split
and i have to carry on
because i am alone
i'm alone
on my way to my new task
i was reflecting on the hardships
the pain i have endured
everything now looked so peaceful
because i am alone
i'm alone
i realised the roots was soaked
the land was burned
the valley was firm
the sea was already divided
but who else can have done it?
for i am alone
i'm not alone
the clouds had shaded me
the winds pushed me forward
the sun gave me hope
the rain lightens me up
and i will still carry on
because i am not alone
no talents at all... all i wan to say is thank you for being there.
April 09, 2004
totally lost. mahjong god has fallen. i died
April 07, 2004
Hidden Track
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How do I hide
the pain inside
the place that I lost you.
Scent of your hair
scattered so fast
I just cannot catch up
Close my both eyes
but still I see
the tracks that u left me
In the moonlight
kept on searching
the back view that i miss
If we say breakup means the start of the pain
Before reaching the end, I'll try to love u again
The love that I want to tell u but I can't
Is there someone who can understand?
I won't try to think
then I'll forget you
and then slowly close my eyes
Thinking of the day
someone will replace
so I've no need to miss you
I won't try to think
then I'll smile a bit
and then slowly close my eyes
Thinking once again
your so gentle face
before I will forget
(The tears in my heart
Made my vision blur
I'll soon can't see a thing)
extracted from melyvn's blog
i miss those outings i have joined.
i miss the days when i first joined DHF
i miss the days when i first came into TP
i miss the days when i played QQ
i miss the days when i am working full time in TR
i miss valerie.
i miss cchs
i miss soccer sessions after school
i miss the days when i first play wc3 online
i miss those conference we have till wee hours
i miss the fishtank.
i miss my dear classmates and pals
i miss the days when i always take 74 and 72 home
i miss the days when i played counterstrike
i miss the days when i take mrt to bishan and back to tampines
i miss the days when i first came cchs
i miss the days when we always have chalet, bbq, and wild nights
i miss yps
i miss the days when we play boardgames and cardgames
i miss the days when we eat those tasty cheap chicken wing on saturdays
i miss remedial lessons
i miss the days when we quarrel with the teachers
i miss the days when we are playing those kiddy games
i miss the days when i first came yps
i miss hk
i miss the past. i miss the old times. i miss the days when we are childish and naive.i miss the days when we hold no responsiblity. i miss the days when we can do what we like because we are still kids. i miss the days when we can talk like its only you and me. i miss... the old me.
i need you, pig. hold me up. support me.
April 06, 2004
class ended early today. send RF home. talk abit. home at 8. watched LOTR3. cranky ending... watever..
i think i am very fortunant.... i am living the way i want... and i shouldnt complain..
April 05, 2004
yesterday iz 040404. nice day huh. but nothing good has happen. i got my answer. and my life still goes on. nothing changes.
April 04, 2004
today.rain.sun.work.tired.hungry.slp.
the man without the answer will wonder, dream and hope. the man with the answer will move forward.
April 03, 2004
i have said nothing because there is nothing i can say that would describe how i feel as perfectly as you deserve it. - melvin's msn -
that's the feeling for me. today.
April 02, 2004
april's fool yesterday.... shaun did a very stupid joke on me... which has totally no effect... he say he was a bi.... so what? haha... he dint know that i was even gayer den him.. hahahahha...
yuan ying also another one.. the "THIS IS APRIL FOOL" already shown on her first sentence on msn... she got no creativity at all.... haha
well.. thats the only 2 joke done on me.. nothing much this year... i miss my sec sch....
did the stupidest thing in my life yesterday... i just dunno how to say... was just yi shi chong dong... the 2nd time i did this... the first time i got an direct answer from the phone.. but this time.... i dunno what will happen... it on depends..
i know you are not considering it... just tell me to give up..