katanya hati....

aku yg tak pernah putus asa utk mu
kau yg tak pernah ada utk ku

Mr ZA,
berkali kali aku membaca surat2 kita
yg aku masih simpan tu
tp ini bkn bermakna aku angau yer!!!! pahammm!!????!!!
-->sjk aku jmpak balik magic box tu la
klu tidak, jgn nk harap la aku nk baca

kenapa aku simpan??hanya itu yg ada
1.luka lama yg bt aku melupakan kewujudan surat2 tersebut
2.krn kepayahan hati nak terima hakikat maka aku buangkn semua kenangan lama, smpi aku terlupa utk mmbuang surat2 fizikal nya --->huh mcm tu pun boleh!! korg xpernah baca psl unconscious mind ka haa

due to thz incident
my past memori yg i accidently ter tak'delete'
aku kena bg time for me to relax & regain
i hv to be in peace mode now (hiatus??prahara?mind war?? wht ever la)
in order to betulkn balik my o-tak yg dh strangled serabut serabai nih
hmmm...

so kena la pulak dgn nex week nya
aku akn berkpg utk prog AGAC
so bertepatan sekali la
smbl2 berprogram
smbl2 melupakan all d sad things
tp yg xbest nya...
my dad bleh plak p mintak tlg kt bapa Mr ZA
utk bt solat hajat utk aku
waaaaa...bapa nii......
buat malu aku sajaaa
bapa kan buleh bt solat hajat sendiriiiii
pasepa nk suh bapak dia tlg bt kan pulakkkk
huwaaaaa.......
-->bapak dia is an ust at d kampong oke. make sense now??!!
so unfair utk aku kan??

aduiiii la
kenapa la semua ni jadik kt aku
gedebuk gedebuk dok kena kt batang idong aku
dh la idong xmancung
bertambah penyet la uhuk uhuk uhuk

so guys, my fwens, my saiber fwens
i will go on to be 'halimunan' for a week
or 2 weeks or wht eva weeks
catch up with u all later
and pray tht i will successfully pass the AGAC prog
with rainbow colors
or color tht match with happiness
or whteva color tht is nice
or wht eva la
dunno how to tell

and p/s: dear Mr ZA,
if u ever came across thz blog
pls bear in mind..u can read it
but dont juz jump out to conclu.
u r not me.....
& u dun even know me...at all

bubbye for now
atreyu05 sign off...