It's been a long time coming haha... well, haven't been here in ages, and isn't it fitting to post once again on 1st Jan 2013, after the last post in 1st Jan 2012? Okay, the previous sentence seems grammatically wrong somewhat, but I'm too lazy to fix that. Too lazy for anything haha. Why must block leave end today?

2012's been a long year - the year I entered army. I think I understand what they mean now, that time seems to flow slowly in the present, but when we look back it all seems like a blur. The only thing I can compare it to now, ironically, is a route march - there seems to be no end in sight, and we keep trudging on, but sooner or later we know that it will end, and when it does, hey! We don't feel as tired as we did a minute ago, we stand up straighter and feel a sense of achievement in what we did, never mind how much we complained about it before.

Haha I seem to be hating on army like everyone else eh? But seriously, my NS journey thus far has been punctuated with some happy moments and even a sense of camaraderie and family. My time on course, especially during Starlight were awesome. Now, here in unit, there's a solid group of friends who are trustworthy and caring. Sure, the road ahead might be more bumpy than we are used to, but I'm sure we will persevere and overcome. We always have!

On a personal level, there's been some down points. Sometimes I question myself a little too much, and sometimes I ask too little. I don't feel like elaborating, and maybe that's a good thing. For when I look back on 2012 many years from now, I doubt these minor upsets will mean much; just a blip on the cosmic scale of things. And it is when we let go of our petty grudges and regrets that we truly can grab on to the next opportunity knocking on our door.

But the main thing is,

I'm happy with where I am, and I'm ready to take on the new year till the 3 letters in December that await like a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. Hopefully, that's when my next post will be!

Till then,
the adventure continues...

It's time to begin, isn't it
I get a little bit bigger but then, I admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand,
I'm never changing who I am.

Its been a long time since I posted, and I guess it'll be a long time till I post again, if ever. Haha, I know I said the same thing at the end of 2010, but to be honest, things change with time, and sometimes we should go along with it and leave things be.

Writing my personal essay recently has reminded me again why I like writing: putting the jumbled up thoughts in my head into words, capturing my feelings at the moment and then revisiting everything in the future, older and hopefully wiser but nonetheless still able to appreciate and understand my own growth and journey.

(grins) This might sound pretty syrupy and sweet right now, but I like being that sort of person. And I really enjoy relieving the crazy going ons from my past posts, from my initially super awkward form of writing (brought a smile to my face) to the more introspective pieces which I think only I will know what they truly mean and represent.

These past 6 years have been a blast. Thanks to everyone who've accompanied me on this journey, however short it was. Thanks for all the shared memories, strong friendships and kind words. Oh, and thanks blog! (:

Happy New Year!

I'm not sure yet,
about life, about love,
but in time
I'm sure that I'll
be fine.

Not Sure Yet - Andy Lange

Not bad! Back to the days where amateur dance was cool and storyline was thinly veiled links to campfire songs.


And being 01-06. (:

Yesterday was All in the Name of Art! And it was an awesome show haha, even if I didn't get to watch everything! The rj performers were obvoiusly talented (comedy, singers and a nice original song!), but I think the kids from the Little Arts Academy really surprised me with their dedicated performances!

Was attached to their theatre group during the concert, and when I first led them out they were all hyper and rowdy and pulling on me but when it was their turn they just went into character in a snap. It was like, one moment a boy was wrapping the curtains around my leg and the next he was firing imaginary arrows on stage. Really proud of them! Then out they came and they were all flying around again haha. Plus they call me 'teacher' lol, how can I not smile at that? XD

And I think the most surprising moment of the night was when that cute little girl in the ballerina outfit just came forward and hugged each of us out of the blue.

Really, all in all I had a good time and it was meaningful too. Good job Moses and Du Xuan! :D

Got the letter a few days ago. Yup, the thin, top-secret-confidential pleaselearnsomepropertearingtechniquestodelicatelyreaditscontents letter. Is it really that much more secure to send a letter sealed upon itself? Because I almost ripped it open trying to follow the dotted lines haha.

Anyway, main thing was I had to go online to complete some forms, but firstly had to register myself again, with my full name and nric and stuff, which I did quickly in a no-brainer way. Then on to the forms - BUT IT DIDN'T WORK. So typed everything more carefully this time. And the site kept telling me that it wasn't my real name and/or nric.

So after hitting 'enter' about 20 times and then checking the url to see if I was at some nigerian scam site, I called on the big guns: my parents! And they couldn't figure it out too. So they went to check my original documents, and well...

Long story short, the name that I've been using for over 18 years of my life, using to apply for all the random forms, IS WRONG. Shocked me when I saw it, my mother couldn't believe it too, thought it was an error and started chiding my father. The funny thing is, when I typed in my... correct name, the website accepted it. :O

Funny how we're always learning something new about ourselves, huh!

we all want to know,
how it ends.

oh, happily ever after,
won't you know, won't you know,
oh, skip to the ending,
who'd like to know, i'll like to know
author of the moment,
can you tell me,
do i end up, do i end up happy?

Happily Ever After - He is We