When trade offs happen

Do you value money, time, freedom, or kinship more?

I think inherently, humans are selfish. It's a matter of whether you want to display that selfish side, or not. 

And I also think it's especially likely for the selfish side to show in a marriage. Before marrying, you may think of the consequences and tread more carefully (esp the guys who needs to propose!) After marriage, certainly one starts to be more lax about everything, after all, the deal's done, right?

These are exactly the vibes that I'm getting lately. 

Everyone has their priorities in life, yes. And not everyone's priority may be the same, sure. But when your partner and your priorities are totally different, there lies the troublesome part. Should you give in to his/her priorities or should you insist on your own principles? 

When you are there: - 

1) making demands for your partner to stay at home and spend time with you (but you face the computer and ignore the human being and go for a nap thereafter), 

2) interrogating your partner for spending money on cabs (when you convinced your partner that cabbing each weekend is less costly than owning a car),

3) complaining that your partner's activities do not involve you (but refused to come out when plans are made), and

4) unreasonably flipping sides about plans,

remember a superb lesson that I learnt today from Marry Me: 儅你在挑剔別人時，別人也在挑剔你。

Don't take everything for granted. 

我可能不會愛你。

我可能不會愛你。

可能我不會愛你。

我不可能會愛你。

I had a hard time wondering which was the correct title when I first saw this series. I guess after 10 episodes, I realise that all three are applicable. I like the drama for its realness, and reflection of the world. 

That said, the drama is REALLY not helping. 

李大仁，你會放棄嗎？

投入容易，放棄難啊。

Chinese New Year

Some hits, some misses. Kinect was fun, food was way too much, kids are always lovely, violent cousins much. 

That about all summed up the weekend, that is, Saturday to Monday. Not funny to realise that I would be back at work in less than 24 hrs. Holiday no enough!

But for one thing, I realise how old they really look suddenly, and I know that time is pressing. Pensive. 

And also, I realise how much I come to value the talking, chatting, and the lack of it all with one comment. And so I think I finally understood how important it is to me.

Gotta rot for 2 more hrs before going over to uncle's place.

Super 感觸 post

Had a fantastic dinner with the gals today at Swensen's. The easy banter we had is still evident, and even though we only meet up like once in how long, but we never did lose the super friendship we had and have :) I was so glad we got to meet up in the end! Even though it was after ALOT, alot of miscommunication lol. Updated each other about a lot of stuff, and also told them some stuff that I never meant to say. Lol. Don't know what I was thinking ya. But just thought I should at least tell someone bout it.. You guys are the only people to know!!!!! Then again, there are a lot of details that I think I never elaborate on, haha. Forgot to mention them =.=

But it also left me feeling very unsettled. Thought more bout it than I should.. Feeling very weirded now. I hadn't started talking bout it to expect to end up feeling this way =.= Ok lor. We shall see how it goes. Haha.

Fyi, it's really damn hard to get me to tell something/anything like that. Haha.

Something else that left a deep impression on me was that Hafi mentioned that some of her friends are married or are going to marry. Like ?! Wow. We are nearly the same age?! So we were talking bout how marriage comes at this point of time, then she said that she would like to get married 2 yrs after graduation.. Which brought me to realize that maybe this phase of life is not too far off to start thinking bout now.. BUT THEN.

Got no one how to think about anything? Haha! I told her I don't want to start thinking bout all these until I can actually see something like this happening aka there's like, at least SOMEONE. Lol. Then she actually suggested online dating!!!! I was wow-ed. Lols. That came up because I was telling her I already don't have much chances to actually meet new people.. Since I have no permanent workplace yet, and I don't go socializing around like, much at all. But I was rather surprised, because it doesn't seem like she would suggest something like that, but apparently I was totally wrong because she was totally fine with it.

My bottomline is, I would never accept something like that. Think I am a super introvert. I am ok with being very friendly and chatty msn, or online, or sms and stuff, but ultimately, if I'm gonna meet a total stranger face to face, I think I will just shut up -.- It takes just a while to become a hi bye friend to me, but to become a really close friend, it takes more than just normal interaction I guess.

Which is why I might broach this topic when I'm doing up an entry, but I will never start something like this in real life, because it's just not me to start blabbering out what I'm really thinking. This entry might as well be the closest anyone can get to my heart. Hahahaha =D

And then again, I am always very melancholic when I realize my attached friends are moving away from me because their partner takes the top priority after the status change :( It's not something I can prevent, because everyone is different, so I can only accept and try to deal with it. Apparently there's nothing much I can do if I try to still maintain the friendship the way it was but in the end the other side does nothing right? Haha. So.. If there's ever someone, the topmost criteria must be that I must have my own friendship freedom and he can never dictate who I should or should not go out with, because I have definitely as many good guy friends as good girl friends, :)

So yea, I concluded that I might be single all my life. Haha!!! But hell no, I don't want that. I want to get married. LOL. How ironic.

Looking forward to meeting again on 14th Jan :)