We had fun staying up late talking and playing games, saw a movie, ran, went for a walk, ate yummy food, laid by the pool went to church with no kids. Really it was great. I laughed so hard. My whole stomach is sore in places that have never been sore before including my love handles. That is serious laughing. :) I am so glad I love my inlaws. I mean it would be hard not to considering my best friend and I married our other best friend's brothers. ;) And the fact that our whole little (not so much, 7 kids 5 spouses) went to the same high school and are all within 7 years of each other. Love it! We really just had so much fun. It was just what I needed. Thank you girls, thank you Phil and thank you Nana for letting us stay at your house.
When I came home Phil was up at my parents cabin. So I ran to get a couple b-day presents for Ko. Have I mentioned we have 3 birthdays in 3 weeks? We love June! (P was actually due on Koen's birthday) When Phil got home I told him I was going to go over to the cemetery. It was so nice to go over by myself. I rarely get to do that. I just wore my sunglasses and cried. I cleaned up all his birthday stuff. Put some flowers out. Laid on the grass and just thought about him. Remembered him.
Everyday since his birthday at some point Phil and I think "what happened this day?" Last night laying in bed Phil said "was this the night they called us at 5 AM and told us he was not doing good?" We talked about how hard and crazy that time was. How much we miss him. How scared we are to think about doing it again. This will be an interesting 7 weeks remembering the time we had with our little man.
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I'm glad you had fun! However, I am not glad you didn't mention your missing sister-in-law ;)
So glad that you were able to get away for some YOU time. You look SO pretty next to his marker.
His rose bush is BEAUTIFUL!
Alesha..i feel like a crappy person for never messaging you last week. last Friday i knew it was p man's first birthday and i thought about you ALL day..i went to message you like eight times on FB and then could just never get the right words so i gave up..i finally figured out that nothing i will ever say will be able to take your pain away, i will never (hopefully) be able to empathize with you, but i just wanted you to know that i was thinking of you like literally all day long...your little P man was truly an angel, not sure what it is about him but he is special, and he has touched my life, alot, even though i never met him. Thank you for sharing him and for just being freaking awesome. I think you are amazing and it's not just because you have a cool name ;) Hang in there friend, you are amazing. happy birthday to little P man..
Yay for girl's weekends, so glad it was a great time. I love being able to do that. Love the rose bush and that you got to go to the cemetery yourself. I hope I can do that someday.
I'm sure it was a very hard weekend for you, but I'm glad that you were able to go and do something fun. And happy birthday to sweet Pierce!!
We had such a great time and I'm way glad you decided to come down. I loved every second of it and I really wish we could have stayed even longer than we did. Happy Birthday to Pierce - I'm glad you got some alone time at the cemetery. Love you Lesh!
Fun girls trip!!! The timing was perfect I think to get your mind off other things of course. I didn't even think about the after time...it will be an interesting 7 weeks for sure. I am sorry you have to relive all of this in a way and happy that you get to think about your sweet baby and the time you got to spend with him...Love ya sis!!!
Fun girls trip! I miss you girls. I'm so glad you guys were able to get away for some fun! We should all seriously get together soon! I love the rose bush! It is beautiful!
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