gots to go zzzzzz......

okay...for those of u who actually comes here to read my crap...all im gonna say is....ive gots to go.....

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

for a while...will be back as soon as the stress level ain't so high anymore....

demands of the IB is here....

muahhuggers to those of u....and milabshu all....

say what???

i dont get it whats with people....not that i care or anything.....but "darls this is my space...my life...i mean i know you dont like me and all you want to do is diss me...but darlin' you know what i dont care...'cos to tell you the truth...people like you make me even stronger...you are the ones who inspire me to be who i want to me!"


its sad how people love to diss and all....not that i dont do that...but its just that people can't keep to their own....have your thoughts..but dont bother tellin' cos no one wants to listen...sorry...i bet you...no one wants to hear your thoughts thats y....oh-so-sad!!!


hmmm......anyhoots...other than my new visitor....life is good...well not really....i'm dead ass tired....i mean i've been out and about almost nightly with the parentals...plus school work...and all that crap....but then the weekend is for the friends....hahaha....can't wait for the weekend...


last night...had this carolling practice with kids...and it was fun....not that i love kids but they were sooo cute....i cant wait for christmas...the best time of the year....gifts and all....hahaha....i like!


anyways....before this gets way ass long..better bounce...got work to so....toodle-loo...*muahhuggers*


oh...to you....get a life..and try enjoyin it....i pity people like you!

:.fuck this shit!.:

i hate that motherfather bitch so damn motherfather much!!!!


argh.......now my exeat...what next....suspension??...wtf??...i dont do no shit in this fucking school.....motherfather!!!....i hate her....sooo motherfather muchos......i am sooo gonna not live like this...this aint my life....this aint all....she is sooo gonna get everything she asked for.....argh...kill this mother father bitch!!!!!



suicidal...yes....but not for me!!!.....for her!!!....she thinks she knows every single fucking thing....i dont think so...you mother father bitch!!!

hmm...

i'm finally 19!!!.....OMG!!...i feel so fucking old......mother father!!!....oh well....


anyhoots...had a party...some ppl came and i sorta enjoyed myself...wont be bothered to type who came....then like around 12 ish...we had games...and we lasted till 4:30am...hahahaa.....neat neat.....enjoyed myself...


sunday...went out with geon, then out to church, then out to gadong to have a drink with ben and freddy....


monday....stayed home...did work...went to church...then to gadong with yennied bunzzz...then met up with ben and freddy again....


tuesday....school.....gadong....home.....church....yayasan...for some kids party at jollibee.....*yawn*...


cudnt be bothered to type everything....so...i'm out......and will be for a while...muahhuggers...

:. me and me .:

gak...last day of school for the mid-term break....but its like no fun at all...somehow i'd rather be in school rather than being at home...cos i simply can't work when im at home....*damn*


Things to do for the mid-term break:
1) world lit by saturday-tomorrow!
2) international day dance tonight! - patrol =(
3) party!
4) design and technology porfolio
5) extended essay 2nd draft
4) business coursework 2nd draft
5) homeworks!!


damn!....so damn much!....in just one week....argh...wonder what i'm going to do....oh well...anyhoots..this week has been an aight week...tuesday went out with jeff for a movie: Resident evil:apocalypse...i'm suggesting everyone should watch it if you've watched the 1st resident evil...its good....as in damn good...then after the movie we went to ogh to meet up with my sister and her bunch of mates....drank a lil' bit of alcohol then home sweet home with good rest....wednesday went out again with jeff and mye..the sister..went to the mall...she had to do something there...then ended up going to chill for a drink with tinette and jojo....the usual peeps i'm with..and its fun...and now the weekend...damn! how sad....can't wait for tomorrow where i can go drinking!!...yayeness...*lets drink to that*


okay...so imma be boucning for now...but will be back as soon as i can and if ever i survive the workload that i have for the following week....byess.....*muahhuggers*

:. plain ol me .:

Life is good.......just when i thought everything was going down....everything seems to get back to its place....yayeness *damn haven't typed that in ages......


anyhoots....last nite was a blast....we had a surprise party for me daddy...then like we invited a couple of people we know...and the basketball team...well players that we know...which is like the whole team....anyhoots....me and daddy went to send my mom to church then went off to get some gas...when we arrived home me sister had everyone ready for the party and all...everyone was there...and when we arrived everyone was singing happy birthday....aren't me and my sister the sweetest daughters...hahaha!!!....then the party started...and so fun we had...then everyone left....but like at 1ish mike b, mike g, nani, chris corbs and bob came back for a another round of yummy food....hehehe...too bad cant have much food... *soup diet - given by the doctor for a week* and so we were chatting until like the wee hours of the morning...sad mike g has to go....he's cute...he was tryina chat me up and get me to eat..but sad i already brushed my teeth and was ready for bed when they arrived...so i didnt eat..but we talked a bit...hes hilarious but i can't really laugh...my tummy (well part of it) hurts! anyhoots....when they left....i went straight to bed!....


and now...the weekend!....argh.....sad sad....no one to chill with anymore...chris aint here... =(...oh well....gotta get my sister to chill somewhere for the weekend.....ha!...and get some work done.....hehehe...well till next time...byeee....*muahhuggers*

:. nothing but me .:

haizzz....this sucks....not this...but this.....*i know you don't get me*


I'm still stuck in school still waiting for abang sufri...and hopefully off to see Princess Diaries 2....I so can't wait to watch it... =)


Last night...well can't say it was a blast...but i miss chillin' as in just chillin'...sittin' and drinking....talking about everything and anything....damn... me, my sister, ate tnet, kuya eugene and chris...were chillin' at my place...then chris left early....*tired..yawn yawn*...then about 1ish mike, corbs, nani, rodell, bobi and this other dude came to the house...now that is when we all started to chill....mike, nani, corbs and rodell are like good friends of ours who happens to be on holiday...well not exactly holiday but like here for the shell rimula basketball tourney....and they were being such sweeties by coming over last night for a drink....the night was long...but it was fun...laughs and all...but we then started to reminise about last year and the previous year....damn...oh well..times change...hahaha...*i moved house*


anyhoots....other than that...me and my sister have been watching the shell rimula basketball tourney....no, not cos of the guys but cos of the game...its good..and i mean damn good...*last year was better*....anyways....thats wats been occupying me...and well chillin' with chris...which reminds me...he's leaving lunch time tomorrow for sg. then for uk....argh...i am soooo gonna miss that guy....he is such a sweetie...


okay, before i bore like the whole lot of you....imma go now...so till whenever...hahaha....*muahhuggers*


to ma taggers :
[teta]....nope...its chris as in chris low...my godbrother...hahaha...the chinese dude who used to go to JIs...then moved to uk??but chris brown, i must say...hes hot....hahahaha....wish it was him...hahahaha *miss u lots wuman*
[izzah]...nope...not kris..but chris...when are u coming back here??? miss na kita...
[joenah]....i know.....miss u lots....*muahhuggers*

:. back in the game called love .:

gak.....


I THINK I'M IN LOVE!!!!


this is sooo not right....i'm feeling all these emotions right now....and like i don't know if its good but hell...i dont really care...i'm loving this fact....but yes...i'm stayin out of relationships...and thats a fact!....well for a while that is....hahahha


so...back to my life...i've been spending most of my time with chris....who just came back from uk...hotter than ever...i must add....damn...hahahaha.....but yeah...he's cool...a nice person to talk to...like all the time....we talk about anything and everything....other than spending most of my time with him...i've been in school...and home with my family....hahaha....spending quality time....*yeah right* nah....


so....hahaha....i'll blog...when i actually have something to blog about...but for now...my mind is blank...


Love me lots...hahaha....and love u all lots too..*muahhhuggers*

:.lunch hour sucks.:

argh.......figgin' argh.....LUNCH HOUR SUCKS!!!!

i swear...this is sooooo not me......i don't like what is happening to my friggin' life!....i miss my babyfarker....i was just goin' through my english lit text during my english class...and there i found her letter!!!!....argh....babybooonzzzzz.....i soooo need you down here in friggin' brunei!!!....gawd.....u know u are the only one who can help cheer me up and everything!....argh....i miss u....i miss him....i miss abgzzz.....i'm missing every one and no one knows it....oh well...not like they give a fuck!


i see the old people i used to hang with, the feelin aint just the same no more....u guys don't get it...u dont know what has been happening with me....ITS NOT MY FAULT!!!!! thank god yennie bunzz is back...i missed her too farkin' lots too...she was one of the few people who i can cry on to....gawd! i miss everyone who has walked in and out of my life recently....especially u!....i may not want to admit it but yes i miss u!!!...among all people but why you!....no not YOU!...but you! it irritates me 'cos everytime i want to do something, it would remind me of YOU!....argh, the malls, the places, the drinks! gawd!....no!!!!.....i hate this part!....i'm leaving but you are not! leave me alone!...i need that...i seriously do!!!! please !!!


alright, before i start gettin all irritated and all...and start to tear up again and reminise about my lovely past...i should go....but before that.....nina and nana....hi *muahhuggers*

:.back in school.;

2nd day back in school and it hasnt been as how i expected it to be....not hell...but better! i guess its cos i've done some work during the holidays...yes, i sat my ass down in front of my school work during the holidays.

anyhoots, life hasnt been that bad...a couple of ups and downs, but so far, i have been happy and the decisions that I have been making has been making me really happy. I know i have regretted some, but then again when i think of it, it aint worth regretting 'cos i know at least i have tried. =)

In the past 2 days, i have been in and out of the hospital, monday, was there for a check up then on tuesday, was there for blood test if i have annemia??? like me annemic?, i don't think so...but oh well, what the hell, never know. was so scared during the blood test....gak, but it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be so.....

Besides hospital and school, i have been getting some of my much needed sleeps both in the afternoon and at night...loving it! but somehow i am able to get some work done so its all good.....sad bit is, i dont have my laptop now...well i do but its at the hospital =( so i am stuck with my brothers pc which no one uses... =( i want my baby back!!! oh well another couple of days =)

taggers!!!
boonish:- i love u lots woman!!
kak cil:- will msg u asap....love u too....
iyra:- thanks for droppin me some <33 much needed =) <33 u lots too...

to everyone...*muahhuggers*

the past few weeks

Life isn’t as unfair as we think it really is. There are some things in life that is good but we think it really isn’t. There are some happenings in our life in which we don’t expect or don’t want to happen. For some reason, I, have been thinking about what has been happening in my life for the past few weeks.

It all started when I started to hang around my sisters and their friends. They are one unbelievable group of people that I know. These are the people who taught me to grow up; they taught me part of who I am today. I am grateful that they are my friends as well. I love the fact that they do not disregard because of my age. Yes, I am way younger than all of them and all of them are already working while here I am still in school and enjoying it. I was starting to hate school because of the workload but then to come think of it, I am pretty lucky that I’m still in school because I get to enjoy life as well.

So, this bunch of people that I have been out and about with most of the time are not workaholics but they make sure that their work is done, but are fun-aholics (if there is such word). They love to enjoy the pleasures of life *let’s drink to that*.

The best thing about being with them are the fact that when you are feeling depressed or whatever is putting your spirit down, someone is always there to cheer up whoever is down. There is always someone there anytime you need a friend. We always as in always make up occasions just so that we could enjoy each and everyone’s company. *anniversary, birthdays* There was never a time that I spent with them that I didn’t enjoy and I have never regretted the late night sleeping, the sessions, the f.ts’ , chilling, basically everything that we do.

I used to think that life is all about pain and suffering. Well sure, we do suffer as well but up to a certain point. We also enjoy life but when we do, we don’t usually realize that we are already enjoying our life and only realize it in the end. How sad is that? Oh well, all I can say is that whatever it is, just be happy and take things as they come and think of that future not just the present.

*this is for the menglait association* Thanks for everything!

they are the ones who have made me happy these past few weeks...thanks you sooo much....love u all lots and lots!!!

:. out and about .:

woooooaaaaahhh!!!! its been a while since i've blogged here. sorry! i've been uber busy with my life and when i get back home i'm uber tired already and so i tend to fall asleep! ha! what an excuse!

 
anyhoots! Last WEDNESDAY   me was out like practically the whole day! gawd....so tiring this whole week. I was out and about with my siblings and a couple of my sisters friends like the whole nite and that nite ended in the morning at like umm.....2am! Baby, Abg Lanny and Abg Farisan came and picked me up at like 8ish *i think* then we left for Boonish's place...then we were off to gadong to do some walking....hahahaha! after gadong it was ARENA time baby!.....we went to arena to meet up with my siblings and her friends. Original plan was to drop me off but no they stayed and played pool.....After arena, the guys dropped me off to CHILLs in gadong 'cos me siblings went there first and I just followed. Then HOME SWEET HOME we went after like 1am...hahaha...but eugene, tinette, bri, turk*dunno his name*, diman and lim came along to our place to do some booze drinking baby!....hahaha...and the morning ended at 2:30ish....

 
THURSDAY...got up at 8ish and left my crib at 9ish *umi, aisya and maya came to pick me up* and headed for the airport. We were supposed to meetup with boons at the time but she wasnt there yet but hadi was, so we went to express and ate. Then baby, abg lanny and abg farisan came and joined us. After a while BOONISH came and we were all 'we are not goin to cry' hahahaha....and so we didnt. After sending boonish off we *maya, aisya, baby, hads, abg lanny and  abg farsan* went off to gadong.....stayed there till lunch time then like before we left gadong Boonish messaged me that she was already in gadong. *missing u to the max darlin*  came home and did some bummin' around then like around 8ish diman came and picked me and my sisters up, went to riverview to meet up with hong then off to sugar and spice we went for dinner. Eugene and Tinette followed us after a while then off to gadong we went for pool *decided that arena was just no the place that nite* . The nite ended at around 12ish then home sweet home we went.

 
FRIDAY....a sooo boring day i tell u. Didnt do no nothing but bum around the WHOLE day!....gawd...i said i was gonna do some school work...maybe later! hahaha...then like at nite me and my parents went to gadong for some SHOPPIN....hehehe....bumped into a couple of people...and my baby, abd lanny, hads and abg lanny.  okay i am not mentionin any other names...'cos sooo not even important! Then like me was soo bored watched like a series of movies...gawd! how sad.....hmm....oh welsh....

 
and so thats how my week went!...hahaha.....bah im outs....*muahhuggers*

:. i'm feelin' so good .:

i said to myself i'd blog last night when i got home about how my day went and all...but nah.....was tired and I needed to do something better like reading my world lit text and so i did.


hahahaha.....random thinking here ;)


Tuesday - 20th July 2004

 
I was bumming, well tecnically bumming cos when i got up did my part of the chores then when mommy came home she told me to arrange these papers and so I did and now all i'm waiting for is the correct answers for me to be able to mark them :) hahaha....then around 5ish me and mommy went for a walk down the road then to the back of this school *dunno the name* we did a lil' bit of joggin'. I like!!! hehehehe....finally got some exercise for me! While joggin Aisyah dearest gave me a buzz and asked me to come over for dinner cos its like *supposedly* a farewell dinner for the boonie boonzzz, yes darls we loves u lots and lots :)


Came home took a quick shower...got bored so i actually fixed my hair...for what seemed the first time in umm......hahahaha....ages!! i dont fix my hair anymore! then umi and aisyah came and pick me up....dropped me off their place and they went off to pick my boy up from baz's place ;) Boonish came, then more people started to come. Finally DINNER.....i tell u this is one of the most yummiest food i had in a while....yummy berabis... ;)  I was practically eatin' soo much, but yeah had to watch what i eat. There were all sorts of food....and the yummiest dish was the pasta with scallops and prawns, the other yummy ones are salmon, mashed potatoes, prawns, chicken....and the desert!! damn...talking about food making me hungry...and i'm just waiting for my sister to finish cooking our roasted chicken for lunch...*yum yum*


Around 10ish Umi, maya, ben and Baby sent me home :)....home sweet home....by the time i arrived home, the family was just haing dinner. NO, I didnt join them but i sat down with them and talked :) then after dinner...mummy had the urge to go to the night market...and she had to drag me along.... haizz~ tired but it felt good to be spendnig time with the parentals once in a while....but when we got home she went all MENTAL...gak~ what is wrong with people nowadays....sooo mental~ not good noh!


So that was my day yesterday~ Monday was boring like hell...so wont even be bothered to talk about that! And today, I'm not even sure what i'm going to do except i'll be goin out with my mommy later when she gets home, or something that's what she told me last nite :) Then I'll prolly get back to more *pukes*Studying!


*thought of the day*
I'm feeling so good, no reason for me to feel good but i just do! I feel loved! *muahhuggers*
 
 

:. WOOOOO.: /added

wow.....hehehehe....a new whatchamacallit??....hehehehe...i think this is soooo cool..... (say what???)..nyahahahha..
 
 
boredom.....haizzz....random post here....
 
 
currently chatting with beelz and izzah, two my closest friends..but they dont know each other...anyhoots..im just waiting for time to pass.....gak....boredom..and the weather is soooo nyaman to sleep in but i just woke up....like 3-4 hours ago....so...umm.taking the idea of sleeping offf......NOOO.....no more sleepin in the afternoon...m gonna get ma ass working...promise!!
 
 
i've actually started on some of my school work...(what-am-i-thinking??)...finished my research for my business coursework and for my extended essay...starting to re-read my world lit texts and other texts, started on my maths....GAWD....i don't do work...nooo...not me!! but i am....hehehhe...somehow i'm shooo proud of myself...
 
 
SAD....thats what i'm feeling now...gawd, i just hate it when i have to send my friends off and Boonish is leaving me already :( hmph!!....dun like as in dun like!!! then kak cil  is leaving again....but i know she'll be back soonish..ya kak?? haizzz...life...
 
 
YESTERDAY.....saturday...went out with jet in the afternoon....bonded with my long lost neighbour...hahaha....then met up with baby and hadz, chilled and walked around for what seemed ages, bumped into people...the usual gadong faces....boredom!!...then i found out that i was literally stuck there, gawd! but then eventually someone came and picked me up to go to ate annie's birthday bash in naja's house...overflowing of alcoholic drinks, overflowing of smokes....ordinary ones :) hehehehe....i was kinda wasted...NOT!!! hehehe...i shoooo enjoyed my nite!! heheheh...then kak cil and abg sal slept over.and before we slept abg sal made us watch PONTIANAK...hell no!!..good thing i was like literally not watchin the movie....hehehhe...wud watch it wen i have someone to hug..but not last nyt :(....oh welsh... :(....
 
 
okay...me thinks this post is getting shooo long.... but who cares....
 
 
i'm sick!!!....i dont like.....down with fever and flu :( not good at all.....my whole back and ass has been lyin down the whole day....and its not doin me any good at all i tell u! its making the situation worst...so imma be doin more stuffs so me ass wont just be stuck on the couch in front of the teevee or in front of the laptop :( gawd...i hate being sick!!!

 

hehehe...bah m outs...
 
 

:. but why me?? .:

i was wondering how life is....and like i'm currently chatting with a childhood friend... Marco....and OMG!!...i didnt know life is that cruel..hehehe..kiddin' marco....but yeah...life is cruel...GAK!!!.....its like i see it this way...and other ppl see it that way..totally different from myn...gawd...i miss it when i didnt bother about all these things...but now i guess i do...i'm growing..still learnin...but im accepting facts about how life is... oh welsh...thats just how its got to be....then i'm gonna be accepting it....for all i care...i know i live my life for me...and not to make 'em happy..kay maybe i do care..but just this tiny bit!!...i am sensitive to...i just dont show it...ppl who knows me well should know that...


anyhoots...instead of me goin on and on about how ppl see me...i should stop...and STOP being judgemental...okay...wil try ma best.....hehehhe....


bah im out...tired....hehehhe...

:.Honey.:

okay i think i'm way behind with movies and all....blame that to my tyt sched man...so i watched like 3 friggin' movies this afternoon...until now the teevee is on...gosh...wat a movie maniac i tell u...but i dont get to do this all the time...


so...was watching like Till there was u, Honey, Hellboy ...good movies i tell u..but i liked honey the best...hehehe...i love the dancing and all...me likes...i love dancing... ;)


haizzz...life is boring...however, i'm supposed to be spendin at least 6hours on school work and all...i tried...trust me i have...but it aint workin that much...i'm lucky me rents dont force me to lock maself in ma room...damn imma die if i stay there for long...but then i love ma room...hell ma room is ze best....


last nite izzah and jasmine gave me a surprise visit...goos thing me wasnt in a huge ass tee that i'm usually in...ehehehe....well we had this long ass gurl talks...about me life, their lives and all...haven't seen them in ages....gak....i missed my gurls soooo much...we used to chil...wait...me and izzah hated each other...hehehe..but we are all good now...shes one of my closest friend...someone i trust.. ;) then after talking we just had to eat...hunger baby...and the food my sister cooked was nyaman berabis....hehehehe....irya darling u know wat i mean...


anyhoots....m off....have to chat with my mates...hehehe...bah to everyone.... me loves u all

:.life.:

Today is just one of those days where everything went so-so...boredom!!! but hey it wasnt that bad either...something i like happened...like finally they opened their eyes to the truth...without me getting involved in it...so yeah...


I'm missing the boy soooooo bad..i swear...okay...so we were together the whole day..but we had those ups and downs...but it wasnt as bad...but still!!...we separated and i wasnt feeling oh so good...its like as if something was bothering him but not telling...can someone please tell me when something is going on...i seriously hate being the last person to know...i do!!!


Yesterday....went out with the Fucker clan...thats babyfucker, skyfucker, windfucker(me), dustbinfucker, flowerfucker, chairfucker, tablefucker, slutfucker...i hope i didnt forget anyone...okay....well these weren't the only ones in the fucker clan...but the rest couldnt make it... its all good....we all missed the other fuckers!!...promise we do!!!.....


anyhoots....this post is for Babyfucker, chair fucker, vondutch fucker (abg lanny which fucker are u again??...hehehehe).....u guys are the best...thanks u guys oh soooo much...u guys rock!!!.... I love u guys soooo much....

okay...i'm out...will post again laters....*muahhuggers*

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WOOOO!

hhehehhe...hihi....i come from mars and u do not know me and you'll never will MuAHaMuAhA....i come in peace!!!n me name iz pwyncess n im serious!!!!!abt me name mauAhAmuAhA

:.Happiness.:

gak...i felt sad for nothing....nyahahahahaha.....


I'm shoooo happy today... :)


baby is still sick...tapi wat to do?....oh well...just get well ya baby??...


anyhoots....i've been having the best day of ma life.....well sorta... :) me had the presentation thingy today for my EE....and okay...i cant say it's that bad...but it went okay but not as good as i wanted it to be... :(

gak...tired...

i wanted to post longer but m just tooo lazy...

bah i'm out....(if ever i'll post later again ;)

Haz...oists.....me cudnt care less wat u think...

can i say cry??.....

:'(

i want to cry....wait....i am crying..i hate feeling like this, the whole world is coming down on me!!! nooooo......

i hate my life....i hate me...i hate everything that is going on in my freaking life!!!!

crying wont make me feel better as it bever does....argh...i hate feeling like this...probably the only way that would make me feel better is that to hurt me again....

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.........................its not supposed to be like this!!!!

Die!!

:.happiness.:

I miss u oh sooooooooo much


anyways...that was not meant for anyone in particular...it was me and my random thinkin :)


hmm...just got back from a scruptious dinner with Lisa, Gina, Gerry and YENNIE BUNZ....damn i miss hanging out with them....we went for dinner at Sugar and Spice...then off to Taurean Cafe we went..for ice cream....nyamanzzz i tell u....*yummie* and the talk that we had was good....damn its been ages since ive had talks like those... :)

anyhoots...umm...about missing people...yesh, i do miss random people, my best friend, my closest ever friends from school and the list goes on..but i miss this particular person. a person i've been longing to talk to..but i know it aint gonna happen soon...oh welsh..its all good...i'm happy for that person... ;)


I'M HAPPPPPPPYYYYYY

shouts to my taggers!!!

Beelzzz thanks a bunchies wuman....i got it fixed...:0 hehehee....
Zah thanks wuman...i'm lovin the layout too..out tayo soon ha...miss na kita...
to my other taggers!!...thanks for visiting the site

love u all lots and lots and lots...muahhuggers...

:. WOOO .:

psst....finally a nu layout! took me ages to get this thing rite..ask dian, she knows...ive been bugging her...even beelzz...oh welsh...sorrie for being me!!

i can say this layout rocks...cool eh...i know its too pink and all...but yeah..i like pink..but at least this isnt shoooo feminine like the other pinks that i know ;) okay...imma stick to this layout till...umm....i dunno when....nyahahahaa....

anyhoots...

okay since ive last blogged....ive done shoo much....*omg!* can u actually believe the fact that i've been shoo rajin nowadays..like wtf?...school is about to end in exactly 3 days...well not counting tomorrow....WOOOO!!! cant wait for the hols...will bum for a while then will prolly do more school work..gak..!! shoo weird..nothing to do...hmm..well i do have tons and tons of 'holiday homework'...i just shoo hate it when teaches call it dat..its like ruining ma holiday.... oh welsh..

argh...im like shooo pissed....i spent the whole nite fixing this layout...and taking care of kids that i wasn't able to do anything else...sad sad...oh welsh, i'm just not the kind of person who does more than two things at once :(i gotta learn how..teta...i know ur good at this one...

Saturday nite...and i didnt go jalan...like wtf?..oh welsh....hehehe...had things to do...yeah rite..my siblings sooo ruined my nite...they didnt say they were going out...gosh man!..please give me an earlier note that i have to take care of the kid... but its all good 'cos like i was out the whole nite last nite...and it was shooo damn fun..hehehe...chilled with ma gurlfriends....i misshed u guys shoo muchos....went out with fizzieee, qeelzz, fizziee's younger sister, aisyah and maya...the moment we reached gaydong, i headed straight for ZaZa to check out what the boyfy was doin...amazingly he was having a hair cut!!...gak...never thought he'd do it without telling me....or me buggin him to do it...*baby me loves u*..then we were roaming around gadong like the whole day...finally went home like at 9ish...haizz..tired!!!

okay...i'd blog about today too..but nothing much happened...so yeah...

ATTENTION to all my readers!!! i have an announcement...hahahaa....IZA is now gonna join me...so lets all welcome her!!!

okays...now shoutouts to my taggers:-
Dian:-...heres ma updates...hehehe...u know me is a busy wuman!!

QiQi:-...loved the time i spent withchu yesterday....and shorrieee...me loves u wuman!!

Qool:-...hmm...matet=slut..i dont think thats an equation..i'll give u a better equation Matet=Bitch...as in Beautiful Intelligent Talented Caring Honest

zah:-...psst...wuman...missing u!!!

iyra:-....me missh u guys to the max....psst....i like ur layout *hint hint*

mimi:-..thanks u...hehehe... :) im still workin on it..

okay i'm out

:. lifes a rollercoaster .:

omg!....just yesterday i finally talked to beelzzz, i swear i haven't talked to this wuman in a long long time...i missed u sooo damn much...like a freaking muthafucker!!...it was really funny cos me, boonish, bildo and choonah were talking about different Johns.....hehehe..soo funny i tell u...then it had to end...

Bildo...u get well soonish ya??....boonish....jalan again...hehehe...

anyways, currently chatting with Baby, Abang Lanny and syafeee....i was chatting witn dian but i dunno wat happened to her..oh welsh...i miss u wuman!

anyhootsss, ive been such a bum lately...i swear, i mean saturday...i didnt go to school, they had their sports day...HOTNESS!! so it was a mega NO-NO!!...but then like at nite...i went jalan...until around 11ish...was in gaydong with my sister and her group of friends first then they left so i chilled with a couple of people i know....around 7ish Boonish came.. then ppl started showing up....i missed my baby sooo damn much...but he came to see me...even if i know he was sooo tired from his 2 day trip to miri with his boys...then abang lanny came...and we chilled at West Street Cafe....dang....i missed that place sooo much. Mas was asking me to chill with him in this new cafe called solitude, tapinya, I didn't have time...next time ya?...hehehe...Alvin was being such a doll by sending me back home...thanks dearies... ;)

the whole of sunday....i was just dead asleep...my mom was sooo pissed at me i tell u...but then again...we were okay at the end of the day..cos we went for a mother-daughter bonding...well with daddy on the side...we went to the mall...shopped...hehehe..i miss those days when it was just the 3 of us....dang!...call me an attention seeker..but i do miss bonding with my mom and my dad...havnt been doing that since everyone came... haiz...thats just how life is... :)

today...nyahahhaha..boring..school was dead boring...but during break...and our free time...i played..SCRABBLE with ppl...nyahahaa..soo much fun!...i won!!!... yes humphrey i'm good in it ....then tonight...had that awards ceremony crap..it was okay...baby came...then Abg Lanny ..haiz...abg muiz i like ur hair!!!

bah im out!

Muahhuggers

Shouts to my Taggers!
Kak Cil :- Muahhuggers to u too...love u lots kak

Yuiho:- its all good...dont worry about it...

River_phoenix:-...miss u gazillions wuman!

teta:-...miss na miss na kita...balik ka na dito!

bah...byessss

:.woah.:

woah...its been almost a week since i've last blog...nyahahaha..ive just been tooo toooo lazy as well as tooo tooo busy...haiz, life is such a bitch nowadays, but who fucking cares...nyahahhaa!!

since ive last blogged, ive been doing sooo much....u'd be surprised with what ive been up to.

Wednesday, went for this group 4 project field trip in Kampong Ayer, well instead of doing bullshit we hanged around in Bandar for what seemed forever. Joshings, treated me to lunch...*muahhuggers* Thanks u ;) no not you joshua lew..but joshua goh, it was hilarious because after that we went to giordano for some modelling stunt...nyahahaha...trisha did most of it...but serene and me, did a lil ourselves too....then back to school we went ;)

Thursday, boring boring boring..until i went out with d' sisters and ocean. we were off to gadong by around late 7ish, then met up with Khalid and abang Lanny, *to those peeps i forgot to msg m so so sorry...i'll make it up to u*. Around umm....8ish Bruce, Jeff and Rob joined us in Chill cafe. Then around 9ish..moved somewhereto just chill....the night was fun until...SHE had to destroy it as wat she demands cant be done...like *fuck woman get ur fucking act right...you know that he cant be there for u always..hes got a fucking girlfriend...*

Today...nyahhahaha...woke up soo fucking early..like its a FRIDAY...but NOOO...i had this group 4 trip again...but we only chilled so it was all good ;)...

i'd shout out to my taggers..but apparently i've been taggin there..so yeah..sorry u guys...no shoutouts to u yet....but *muahhuggers* to all of u.

okay i'm out...

no wait...

if you wanna be somebody, if u wanna go somewhere, then u better wake up and pay attention -quote from Sister Act 2

okay now im really out...

miss u like a mother fucker u babyfucker

byessss

:.Freedom.:

i sooooo love this word...freedom, this doesnt mean freedom from the parentals or whatever...but freedom from everything....

i was just in this youth conference thingy for the whole weekend, i assumed it to be boring..but it was worth it in the end...i swear..it really was, i enjoyed every single bit of it. i felt scared to actually go, i was technically forced to go and at some point i chose to go as well ;) [in which im very proud of]. the first day was all get to know the group and all and have fun, the day was suppose to end my us watching Braveheart, that Mel Gibson movie but there were som technical problems so we ended up watching it on the 2nd day. the movie was ayts i guess but it really isnt my kind of movie. the 2nd day ended with a disco, it was fun to the max but unfortunately, ppl here dont know how to rave...sad sad sad....but it was good... the last and 3rd day ended earlier than the rest of the days, it ended up lke past 2. the day ended with awards ceremony and my group, ABRAHAM'S NATION won the braveheart challenge...the braveheart challenge was one of the funnest things that happened...we had games like water balloon fights, obstacle races, treasure hunts and a couple more in which i cant remember...theres were the only ones i took part in... ;)

anyways, after the Braveheart, youth conference in church. my sister, ate mye asked me to chill with her at Lizzie's cafe, she loves that place shooo much, dunno why though. i messaged baby to join us and he did after a couple of hours. ate mye then decided to watch a movie at the mall, so mall we went to watch Chronicles of Riddick, i was shoo tired from the conference that i fell asleep in the movie house...what a waste! i saw one of my closest ever friend in the movies...gak...i miss u shoo much wuman! then home i went....and i just flopped in bed after that.

today...school...hmm...i woke up pretty late for school... oh welsh, at least i got there on time ;) i was sooo happy cos i got my dt paper back and i got more than i expected and so Ms. Akhtar moved me to higher level....she said I have confidence in you! this is something i dont usually get. then for break me, johnson and trisha went to eat breakfast at some restaurant and for some reason me and trish just wasn't up for eating. after school...lazed around a bit, i felt sooo damn tired but i ended up doing some school work.

Shoutouts to my taggers:-
Yuiho, dont u find it hilarious and sad that she doesnt have anything better to do? i guess she really doesnt have a life!
Dan, as i've said earlier in one of my posts, i dont care if anyone hates me because u see dan dearie, i lived 18 years existing and surviving without them and so i can still live without them.
Michelle dearie, i'm just sooo glad that you keep coming back here...hope to read from u soonish ;)

okay im out, back to work i go ;)

*muahhuggers*

:. likes and loves .:

There are things in this world that ain't worth wasting time for and there are things that are good to spend quality time for

hate the haters for all i care for i dont hate...i dislike and these are two different words with two different meaning

okay...

i'm out

i'll post proper when i have the time ;)

:.nyahahahahahahahaha.:

this is sooo hilarious....i mean gosh....dont u think its funny how people who dislikes u goes to your blog and reads them....sad sad sad...don't they have better things to do with their precious time??...i guess not....hahahaha....another funny this is...people just blames u out of the blue for no fucking reason...i mean..dude...hate for all i care...cos it aint affecting me....why should it?? please refresh my mind....oh..and me scared...nyahahaha....thats another funny shit....hahahahaha.....*laughs out sooo damn loud*

anyways, i've finally watched Harry Potter...damn...it wasnt up to my expectations..but it was worth watching it...i went with the family...and it felt good...as in damn good as this is a very rare occasion...after the movies we went for dinner...the next day...i had my Business and Management Exams...damn..didnt even study much for it...but *hopefully* i did okay... ;)

today...hmm...what did i do??....hmm....ooohhh...slept sooo fucking late last night...like at 4am...with my bro...he left this morning....*miss u loads already kuya* damn...i dont even know when i'm gonna see him again...off to the airport we went around 10ish...then went out for lunch...then off to gadong i went with maya and aisyah...then after a while...hads msged...so we met up with him, chilled at the zone..got bored...walked around the mall, got even more bored...went back to the zone...damn Brunei has no where to go...oh welsh ;) bumped into a couple of people i know...but no one special...the boy is still in miri...*baby if your reading this...i miss you*
tonight...had that Summer Sounds thingy....Boring...so i wont even say anything about it... ;)

taggers dearies....umm..i've already replied u on the tagboard...so i doubt i have to say anything here...but to josh....funny eh?...hehehe....u know wat i mean boy ;)

im hungry and its late...so i'm out

*muahhuggers*

:. suck the tags as they aint hurting me .:

well what can i say?... my dissers so happen to enjoy everything in here...well not that i care much..hehehe...it just entertains me.. ;)

didnt blog for the weekend...hahaha...too busy

this is how it went...

Saturday
went for this flag ceremony over at the 'ang bahay',its the residence of the Philippine ambassador here....had to wear formal clothes...it was like at 7am...hello?...still in bed??....oh welsh....went..but everything was worth the waking up..cos the food was delicious...*yum yum*...after that...had to go for my music exam...which happened to be crap..oh welsh...just hope i pass in it.. ;) then the whole afternoon...had a whole family bonding..which felt nice..cos we are barely at home like all of us together...as we are all busy people....yesh...dissers....we have a life!

Sunday
haha...i loved this day...i guess i was just way tooo tired with everything...as in everything... all i did was sleeep....yesh...finally got my much needed sleep... ;) studied a bit of business...but not too much..but i did.. ;)

then today...here i am...reading what people has been bitching about in my site...but do i care??... hell no! unbothered...i mean why should i?...i have more things to do with my life than be bothered about useless people who wont tell the truth about themselves...sad sad...

okay...enough about this crap...i want a coffee milkshake!!!!

nyahahahaha....

shouts to my taggers:-
i'd like to do this one by one..but i havnt much time...so imma make this for all of u
well these are for those who are worth hollering at... *love u all lots*

okay...im out...

:.loving the attention.:

somehow...i'm loving the fact that these taggers of mine have given me great attention...thank you..greatly appreciated...sadly enough...i haven't much time in noticing it...except those from the people i love and know...i mean if u wanna tag about me and khalid..or whoever..please tell me who u are...why keep the personality..that is just way childish...i swear... ;)

anyways...

i'm currently chatting with dian, who apparently is so no liking my taggers, well honey as i've said before and im going to say again, 'i dont care shit...because i have a life to live unlike theirs...and i know that they are sooo jealous of my beauty...haha... am i right or am i right?

oh well...

i swear i had soo much fun today...bonded with mommy like the whole day...i miss doing that...oh welsh...my time is back baby!! we went to fratinis for this pizza making session...then ate...*yum yum*...then went for a lil' shopping round the mall...yayes...mummy got me a discman...hahaha...i feel like a real brat...oh well...then like the whole afternoon...me and mum were just talking about everything and anything...i mish those times...

okay...enough about my day...now..shout out to my taggers...[who are worth to be spoken to]

river_phoenix...you know that i dont care...love u too... *muahhuggers*

angel...*muahhhuggers*...need not get pissed off...my dear angel...cos i dont care ;)

izzah...yeah see u soon...and i sooo need to see u...miss u shooo much darls...can i link u here??...and yess...will teach you how to make a site like this one.. ;)

boon li...darls...leave them be...they havent a life to live...pity them..at least we know people are actually stting eyes on us...hehehe...and what do they know about us??...nothign right?...gosh...i pity them as they are sooo jealous of what we have... see u soon babe ;)

Liz...yeah the password works..thanks..saw it...love your site...love the layout...well about my taggers...im letting them be...as it aint annoying me at all..actually i'm loving the fact that they interested in my life as they come here and read my blogs ;)

well i guess thats it for today...i've got a big day tomorrow...so i'm out

i want a coffee milkshake from lizzies...

back to studying

*muahhuggers*

im bag in blogging...hehehe...

EXAM...so not good...mandarin not good...i swear...it killed my ib grades...ish man...but the rest...hopefully i did good in them...oh well...its over and done and i cant do anything about it no more...

well....due to the stress that i am currently having from my exams...i cut my hair...yes i did...not too short though..but its shorter for about 5 inchs or so...and im glad i did...my head now feels a lot lighter...hehee...and soon imma dye me hair..not too sure of the colour yet though...but definitely not blond..that was soo 1998...

currently talking with jeff...and marco, who is my neighbour..haizz..why do i even bother...hehehe..kiddin koya you know i love you...hehehe..

i'm not really supposed to be bloggin now...cos like...imma suppose to be strudyin...so i'm gonna go back to my studying...but before that....

shout out to my taggers...

HAHA...i know you have nothing better to do...well make a site of your own....but then again...i'd like to thank you for visiting my site...i feel so blessed that you came and visited...as i know someone is paying attention to me...;)..i aint mad at you or whatever...and whatever khalid says...well thats his opinion not myn...okay?... but yea...i'd like to say thank you..and hope to see more of your tags... ;)

YUCK...well what can i say...at least i aint s ugly as u..but as ive said to HAHA...thank you for visiting my site...and you are most welcome to come back again ;)

Khalid..thanks for defending me...you know i love you...*muahhuggers baby*

frenlezz...yeah..long time no see...lets chill ya?

vokal..you know i dont give shit...because i welcome them...words don't hurt me no longer.. ;)...im way past that age...these are prolly one of the year 10-ers in our school...who is sooo jealous of me...ryt vokal?

celia...you know i loves u too kak...mish u gazillions kak...*muahhuggers*

izzah...thanks...me did this myself...hehehe...u like?...miss u...

babyboonzzz...haizz..what to do...im famous...hahaha....they all love me...especially the one who is tagging...hehehe... ;)

maya..darls..me loves u lots too...u too take care... ;)

i was just going thru random pics and i saw this...then i ut it up on my msn as my display...one of my friend was like...hey i like this pic..so since im like lacking out of blogss...i myt as well put up pics hee...

im bored!..
i should be...STUDYING

okays...


someone jst told me to put this up in here...
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STUDYING

i said i was gonna go for a while and not blog..but i can get bored...

hahaha...im suppose to be studyin..i dont know why im not....i swear i'll be dead for my e.lit paper2 tomorrow..

not feeling too good today...havnt talked to HIM for like what..the whole day...argh...not good...

currently chatting with boonish...gurl...live life...and be happy...dun regret what has happened....regret on things u wish u did but didnt do...

okay...i'm blank...

i'm out..

haizz...

...........

hmmm.. i'm boreddd.. heheh... well... another week of skool then holidays... yayes! matet's havin exams so she wont blog for a while.. hehhe.. so i'll be blogging then.. hahahah.. god damn i'm so tired... been really really tired for the past few days... eh gila eh like this... need to sleep mann... alright then... i better get goin... laters..

i love you baby.. :) -khalid

phew~ so tired man...i swear...i havent been this tired in a long long time...oh welsh...its all good ;)

Today was such a hectic day...but last night was fun....hehe..although there are lots of ups and downs about last night...it went pretty well :)

last nite...me went with jett to gadong...and as expected there would be a lot of people that i know there....phew~..but it was all good...cos i havn't really been spending quality time with these people...and yes i love all of them ;)

today...me had to wake up extra early to leave before 7am...so yeah...my dad woke me up at like 6am..and i slept at what time?? 5am??....hello?..zzz is badly needed here...oh welsh..its all good...it was fun...went to the manggis centre for that 106th Philippine Independence Day celebration...it was tiring but great fun...for once i actually did something useful ;) ...from like 7am...til about 2ish...i was selling food and drinks...yesh selling well i got me trophy for the scrabble tourney...then i mc-ed for the so called Brunei Idol for the filipinoes here...so yeah....and now here i am....

argh...exam stress

i'm out

STUDY

hmm..a new layout...neat eh?...yesh...i did all the codings by myself...hehehe..took me awhile....well i did get some help from crew-la-vokal...he was being a dear...so yeah...but this layout is still under construction....but its better than nothing ryt?...

a totally different look from my old one...hahaha...

oh and to the commentors will get the comments thingy fixed once i get to it yea?...hehhe..sorry..but for now..the tag-board will do...

*muahhhuggers*

:. why? .: ~edited

why is it that people are sooo bothered about me...hmmm..this is pretty interesting....as no one has ever paid that much attention to me before...well adviCer dear..thank you for your concern...and no this is not sarcastically if thats what you are thinking...yes...im thanking you......its greatly appreciated...

i don't know what to blog about...haiz..life well...its been a great rollercoaster ride...and im still riding that rollercoaster...

well till later...

batt died

okay....i'm back..and with the power supply on instead of the batt...so nope it wont die now...anyways....after my blog this afternoon....i went out with jett this afternoon to gaydong....i swaer it was soo empty today...yes we bumped into a couple of people..but that was just about it...so yeah....*boring*...well not like i was there to chill...i was there to do some schoolwork...hahaha...yesh i did WORK!...

when we wanted to go home....we just realised that we got stranded there...and so i was pretty pissed off about it...but when the parentals came to get me....they decided on having dinner at the mall....*hello....i was just there the whole day!* well so yeah we did...then after that we cruised around for a bit....while strollin...i saw this cute ass pink tee....and yes!....mommy got it for me...but i got a black one instead of the pink...i have lots of pink tops...i should really get a change of colour in my closet....so yeah...

when we came home...my mom was like lets go for a brisk walk...and since i had a lot of energy then....i went with my mom and my dad..and we talked about my future and everything that's like practically in front of us...so yeah...i miss these walks...me and my mom used to do this alot....

right now....im feeling sooo loved /strong> :P

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:. liar .:

i hate u...u fucking liar!!...why can;t you fucking tell the truth about u?....u BITCH!!!...u are such a whore.....wait...u are a whore....god!...hell u bitch...u shud die in HELL!!!

yes i know, adviCer dear u are gonna comment on this...well honey dear...please leave me alone...this is my space...this is where im gonna be putting all my shit!....if u dont want to see me like this...well go look at someone elses blog...and not myn!...this is my fucking life!

DIE BITCH DIE!!!!

.shit im hungry...and they wont give me food...DIE BITCH DIE!!!.

:. fuck her .:

i hate her.....

fuck her!

i want to fucking kill her!!!

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bleh~

i'd blog tonight....i wanted to..but im bored...and have nothing to blog about..make sense?...oh welsh...haha....bye...i'll just post some pics up...hehehe....

holla to ma biatches....beelzz href="http://pinky-kitty.com">, babyboonzz href="http://babyboonzzz.blogspot.com"> and to qiqi if i missed any of u...it doesnt mean i dont love u all...i do...muahhhuggers

for some reason...a lot of people has complimented me on this picture...i like!!!
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:.i ain't worth it but he still loves me .:

i was just wondering on what adviser posted on my comments...well adviser dear...umm...i hate to ruin all the good image that u have and for trying to fix my life and all...but honey darling...nope i don't need anyone to advise me on my life...trust me..its just that phase i am at...so yeah..but thanks anyways...it was great knowing you.

anyways...i've been way way too out of my life recently...i've been like sooo busy last weekend...i swear...i have never thought it was gonna happen but it did...i wanted to have a really non-busy weekend...especially on sunday i was so planning to getting some much needed sleep...i mean the whole week was soo tiring...i had soo much things to do for the whole week...last wekend carousel..then after dat...wednesday had the prom/ graduation nite of the yr 13-ers then like i had a whole binch of things to do after dat but i seriously couldn't really be bothered about it now...so yeah...

The most recent doing though was the scrabble tournament...yesh...i joined in again this year...and again for like the 2nd time...i got 3rd....hmm..but most of the people said i've improved on my scrabble skills...hahaha....like 'u for real or something?'...i'm like the worst at it....but what the heck...i got 3rd baby!!...

umm...today...nyahhhh....i went to send off kris its sooo weird..cos like i've never sent her off..and like this is the first time i sent her off...and it was good....cos i felt soo much better...and like i'm gonna miss this woman a lot...because shes the person who i know i can tell anything and everything too...so yeah...miss u already wuman ...then off to gadong with mummy and tita lina...hahaha...went dvd shopping with these two ladies...hehehe....a lot of dvds...hehehe...and after that....i've been sitting in front of the tv for like 9 hours to be exact....how sad can i get?...yesh..im that bored...but i've seriousl watched all sorts of movies for the day...i started with ella enchantment..i advise people who loves fairy tales to watch this...then i moved to thirteen ....and i strongly advise adults with teenage kids who are psychotic to watch this...was well as freaky friday...these are movies that might help them understand us teenagers more...i swear...it made a strong connection to me...especiallythirteen..moving on...after those two...now...im watching freddy vs. jason ...and its damn good..hehehe..oh welsh...

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beelzoi love u too..me mish u...muahhuggers..

:. i aint perfect .:

i was just watching fighting temptation..and i swear its a great movie to watch...i liked it sooo much...damn i wish i could sing that good...hmm..

anyways...my brain has just lost all of its memories...i swear...ive had too much information in me today...we had TOK like thw whole day...what was that all about?? but then again..it was good...so yeah....but by the end of the day...i was like hell i cant take no more information from school...and i was supposed to be having mandarin classes after school....i ended up not going but chilled in gadong withabang lanny, ram, boonish, her baby and my baby...then ram send me back to school before 3..thinking i was gonna get picked up at 3...but then no...i got picked up at 4...i was so pissed off...i was bloody tired and i didn't get any sleep last nyt....wtf?...

by the tym i came home i was sooo fcuking exhausted...and thinking that i could get some sleep..but the mother was like..call this person...do this and dat..like the whole afternoon...by the time it was 6-ish..i got so pissed off...i went to sleep..finally!!...so yeah..and i got up at 9-ish...hahah.....then played scrabble with my neighbour jasper and the mother ...and now here i am....

i'm goin...

:. why does life have to be so unfair? .:

Sometimes when i look at my life...i start to think how jealous i am of some of my friends...i mean like look..they have the best siblings in the world..while mine...are like backstabbing me...ouch...sometimes i just want to go and scream...realease everything...all the truth about them...but fuck no one just believes in me....they only believe in THEM.....i hate u all....i swear i do!

please do see me as an adult...not as a child who is still 5 years old for i am no longer the person who I used to be...

:. hmmmmmm .:

hmmm... i'm bored... well i just got back from school.. shit i'm so tired... school is so tiring... sighss.. oh welsh... here i am, doin nuthin.. bored... hehe so yeah i decided to blog.. heheh saja.. ;).. shit i'm so blank.. alright then.. laters..

just wanna make you happy.. i love you :) -k

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aww...ain't he the schweeetest???
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:. interestin .:

i dunno why i'm like bloggin now when i know i'm not really supposeed to be...cos im supposed to be doing some research..oh well...i've got the whole afternoon to do that...hahaha...and plus im feeling all pemalas now... =) what can i do?...i just got out from school and like i've been studying my ass out in school earlier...i mean can u believe it...i actually did my mandarin work...hell i dont do that shit...but i did it earlier...hahaha..without getting forced to do it..i dunno i just felt so rajin in school earlier...its just weird wen u have like the mood to do something now...and then after a while u just dont have the mood to...hmm...interesting...*ahh....one of my loved words for now....*

oh yeah..im like a picture freak now...hahaha..*since wen wasnt i a picture freak* hehehe...im like sticking pictures of me and the people i love...and maybe...since im like way too lazy to blog now...i myt as well post a couple more pictures...hehehe....so enjoy the show...hehehe....love u lots...muahhhuggers....

DIAN: yesh...its one of our recent pics...and thanks for the compliment darling...i love u so so much...*muahhuggers*

chillin at the west street cafe!
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:. boredom .:

here i am bloggin again..i guess cos im soooo bored...but aint gonna blog...just gpnna put up some pics that i saw from HIS phone that i liked..hehehe

boredom in the car!
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:. me... .:

i felt so special today for some reason....its like the 2nd time this week that i was in the newspaper...hahaha...and yesh..finally...the show is over...:) felt relieved cos its over..but i miss everyone from the play...i guess that's just how it is..:) oh welsh... one of my friends msged me this job well done folks...expect 3 weeks of fame it was so weird...but yeah...:) then like this afternoon when i went to church a couple of people recognized me in the papers...it was so weird...but yeah..that made me special...hehehe...

i'd love to blog more...but im just way way too lazy now...:) so yeah...hehehe..tata ppl...love u lots muahhhugers

:. over and done with .:

I've been busy with school...and im so sorry i haven't been spending time with you

hmm...ive been soo busy with the school play and all...and its been tough...but its been good..one night is done and so far we were applauded by people..and that made me happy....one more night to go and yes! i am done with the play...kinda got tired of all the practices and all..so yeah.. :)

besides the play...i haven't really been doing much...been bumming for all i know...hehehhe...and school had been a drag...lots of deadlines..but so far ive met them..so yeah...its been good...nothing to complain about in life for now...hahaha...im enjoying it...i guess cos the play had been keeping me real busy to even be bothered about anything that has been happening..:) and i actually end up sleeping by the time i arrive in my crib...so yeah...

anyhoots...am like such a bum...i was too lazy to get up for school today..so i ended up not goin...then now im like chatting with an old friend, DIAN...shes such a sweetheart...and yes darling u can have the person that u want...im giving u my blessings on having him...hehehe...

oh to the people who has commented earlier...wud like to say thanks...and to fucker mucker love your comment...SLUT

Beelzy Darling love u soo much...miss u gazillions too...muahhhhuggers wuman!

:. dum-de-dum-de-dum .:

i just realised how much work i've got....hmmm...interesting...i've been bumming too much last weekend that i should get my assback to work...

hmm....i wonder if whatever i said will work...hahaha...we'll see how the week goes...anyways...life now is better than how it was last week...its funny how people still doesnt forget what has happened....i guess they will but not too soon...i wish they do soon though cos sometimes it hurts...oh welsh...thats how life is...i never wanted their attention...

schools been a beeatch..cos i've got like a lot of shit to do...an essay for T.O.K and a commentary for english...i've also got the play which is going to be on this weekend....shit...im soo scared... =( oh welsh...i got myself into it..i myt as well do my best...anyways...with all these work...ive got like side stuffs as well...hmm...i wonder how its gonna work this week...i'm definitely gonna be getting my lazy ass to work this week...i have to!

otays...ive gots to be bouncing...ciaos...muahhuggers...and to u... i love you...yesh! i do!

:. argh... .:

i swear thereis something wrong with me...i've been having the worst week ever in my 18 years of existence in this world...yesterday i just felt like killing myself for telling the truth to the parents...and for some reason they would rather believe the bullshit that the sister is giving them...i just hate it...

then today i wake up with a swollen right eye...wtf? was my first reaction when i saw myself in the mirror this morning...luckily...before i left school i checked myself again in the mirror and its not that bad anymore...*phew*...hmm...oh welsh...one of those days...

now...my head is killing me and my eye is as itching as hell...argh...this is killing me...so is my cough...i feel like dying...ish ish...oh welsh...i so need something to make me feel better...i need to get out and have a breather...or else i myt suffocate... :(

someone help me...:(

:. kill me .:

sucidal

die!!!!

i don't want to live anymore...someone kill me....its either that....or i'm gonna kill myself.....

:. Unloved .:

I was in a state where i don't know who I am anymore...it feels as if something has come over me

In the library now...releasing the depression of life...it hurts to come to think of it...i know it is my fault why this is happening...but i have no intention of doing what i did...it hurts....yes it does. if some of you are thinking that i broke up with him....not that...and even if i did...i wouldn't tell much about it...as that would hurt me the most...

The thing that hurts me right now...is that my family is angry at me for doing what i did....and yes....i know they are....I'm sorry for hurting you all...but i felt at that time that it was for the best..I just couldnt take any more of the pain that you are giving me...and no, i am not talkin about my parents as i have the most loving parents in the world....i may sometimes deny it..but it is true when i look at everything that they have done for me...its more like my siblings...yes...you guys hurt me...

well i have to go..back to class...back to the life...argh....stressed over a lot of things...i love you....

baby...i love you...

:. Flushed and fucked .:

since its been ages since i've blogged here...and i've missed on a couple of occasions in which i'm suppose to be bloggin about...i myt as well... =/

Life has been so tough for me...and i seriously don't know how am i gonna make it through the next couple of days...i swear...i've had a rough weekend...a rough few days of the weekday..and i bet you..it's gonna be worst in the next few days..it might even take days or even weeks...in which i know is gonna be the worst days of my 18 years of living... =/...it hurts to think of it...but yes...i feel so left out with my family...

i know i've got friends..but its so hard to trust now...i dont know...it hurts to come think of it...but i love them all...no doubt about it..i would do anything for them..and they all know it...

well i ain't gonna tell my life story here..maybe when i'm more relaxed to...if not...i might end up just crying...and sulking...i hate sulking..its the thing that i hate doing the most...

i better get goin...will just blog again next tym.... =/ when i'm feeling better...

a week and two days till the show finally comes...and i'm scared shit...i havn't memorise all my lines..but will get over it...

till next tym....

kissed by ANGELEEKA

:. Life's A Bitch .:

if it weren't for you...i wouldnt be strong...i just wanna thank you for making me who i am today....

I havent been bloggin here for a while now...i guess cos im just too caught up with a lot of shit in my life..and im thankful that those things happened....

school has been a bitch...and its been killing me...i hate homeworks....but i cant start to slack again...:( oh welsh....

i gots to go i've got class...so imma boucncing..will prolly be bloggin laterss....when im free at home ayts... okays??...love u lots..muahhuggers

:. You think you know but you really don't .:

Think about it....do u really know who you really are??...do you think you know the person that you are in a relationship really well??...just give it some time and think about it...maybe you'd say yes, i do...but then again...there are a lot of things that would hurt us but that other person doesnt know....or there are some things about the other person that would hurt that person but you dont know....see....its just an example of how you really dont know the other person....oh welsh...dat's just how life is...we just have to know the person as much as we can...ayts??...hmm....i was just thinkin about it...and thought of bloggin about it...oh welsh... :) hmmm...



umm....supposed to be doing some english research right now...but im just way too lazy as usual...well i have been bumming abit..but i've also been doing some work for school...so i cant really say im dead lazy....that is just not me...well i was like that..but not anymore...with me being un-lazy...ive been feeling good about it... :) hahaha..i doubt that people who know me pretty well will be like...'what?...matet...work?....so not her'...oh well people change... hahaha....boredom....ish man...umm....i gots to do some research on the glass menagerie...have to do some presentation on it like on monday i think...so not sure wen...i was late when the teacher gave us that thingy....hahaha...i should really try to get to school on time.. :)


oh welsh..i better be heading...will blog later before i leave the library... ;) hahha....boredom....

<3 M-tet

:. then .:

i was once a girl who used to love to flirt, have fun in life and is never serious..but then again...to come think of it...why whould i be like that??...im fucking grown up now...i have to live my life to the max...and also enjoy it while i can...well sure there are restrictions...but its fyn...not like i really follow these rules anyways....ryts?? oh welsh..dat is just so me...not to follow them..hmm..anyhoots...this is like the then of me...and the now is so different from who i was...i was hurted by someone who i love dearly..it was cos of what that person said...i know the past affects the future..that is why most of us are tryin not to let it affect us..however it just does not WORK.....argh i hate it..it hurts so much to go back to the past.... :(

:: this is me ::

i cant really see how people just judge others by their past or how they dress and act....somehow this just isnt what life is really all about...trust me...ive been there...people judge me all the time...not only of my ugly past...but also of my current get ups...somehow these judgements dont really get into me...because all i know is that i aint hurting no one...and i aint doing wrong...so then why should i bother?....ryt??...oh well....its just that sometimes REALITY BITES.....

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m-tet