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assalamualaikum.
seems like ages i did not post anything in my blog. i almost forgot about this blog when i am too busy writing my assingments. alhamdulillah everything has been submitted.

i want to refresh my dream.

actually i am feeling shy to post this. to said what my dream is. but i think when i do this it a step to make it real. i know this is crazy.. well let see how crazy is that.

MY ultimate dream : die in proper condition with iman and islam.

since secondary school i have dream which is to be 'isteri solehah' or aka aim toward excellent wife. what a weird dream though. i know now i am not marry to anyone yet but it not a fault to dream right? this come first when my second dream about my ambition as a doctor. well you know why? i tell you few reasons

1. when my secondary school a lot of my roomate and even classmate have a boy friend aka ' rakan istemewa or special friend' . it like a trend seriously.. mcm penyakit merebak pun ada. to be honest sometimes i felt jealous when they have someone to share and laugh etc. i think that normal...yet when i look at them..this dream come out. to be 'isteri solehah' i need to take good care of myself is a even before marriage also after that. i want the' halal' relationship.

2. when i start to work ... i really want to plan my daily life to make sure i be able to handle my family. i dont want to abandon them because of my work. not matter how busy i am.

then my ambition as a doctor. i still remember there is guys in my previous university in uitm. they laughing at me when i decided to be a doctor as my profession, they said in future it hard for me to get a husband because of the busy job and also status. however everyone need to remember there is nothing easy in today life. even a teacher also can be busy..how it that? i have heard a lot of successful doctors who can manage to handle the family. it so possible to do this plus i my first dream is to be 'isteri solehah' right?
i believe in Allah. right one for me will be out there. he will choose me from who i am and my family, and accept me as myself.

3. why doctor? to be honest this is not my first ambition my first one is to be an inspector (being influnce by gerak khas drama in tv on that time haha) . so opposite right? so far... i enjoy learing medicine especially when it come to practise. osce, communication ...visit patient, visit other health care professional . i like it. i dont said that i already good in doing that but i enjoy it. be a doctor is a good opportunity for me to keep doing good deeds in mylife (stereotype answer huh) it is ok!! . i dont have a lot of money to give people but i want to help to heal people ' inside and outside'. to be a competence doctor i need to learn...more right now.
4. i love topic food and exercise when i am young. i know that i am cubby right now but i want to learn more about this apply it and share this with people surrounding me. therefore i really want spread this. start from my hometown. then to the whole country. education about diet and exercise is important to reduce number of diabetes and heart problem in malaysia. healthy lifestyle basically. i am sure it already establish in malaysia. but i need to find more info about this and find a friends who want to join.