hello world.

gah i used to be so good at this thing. i actually do like posting and writing things on the internet. i do. there, i said it. but i don't do it because i forget or maybe i feel like i don't have good things to say, or maybe my views have been heard a million times before. and also, i don't sit at a computer like i used to. i was at a computer all day most days and now in this new life, i forget about my computer, i forget about my phone, sometimes i forget to respond to texts. it is really weird. it is really weird to be living a whole new life.

i am in missouri. i am teaching yoga 4 times a week and working at a yoga studio two days a week. i help out at a local nursing home with activities and i work for a NGO. we bought a farm and are renovating the house. my life is filled with good things. i'm learning how to be a wife (which is not coming naturally to me like i thought it would) and  i am married to a kind, hard working man who is one of the goofiest people i've ever met and we laugh all of our days.

with that being said, life is not perfect. i am trying to figure out how to not live in suburbia but instead a little rural town. i still struggle with anxiety every now and then. i miss the comfort and familiarity my old life afforded me. but i am tough and some days are full of little victories and some days are full of big ones.