homesick for the future

sometimes i just want to know what the future holds. i just want a little taste to help me get by. some days it's hard to push myself out of bed just to relive the day before. groundhog day at its best. maybe it's because january has sucked the life out of me but i just need a change of scenery or something! but then i ponder and feel like i need to be here. i have a good job that is really flexible and has a lot of variety and good benefits. i would be lucky to find another one like it. and i want to keep working with ffhe and i want to be involved with the mexican community--i love those people. i have other things in the works too that motivate me to stick around. i just don't want to feel like i'm waiting around for the next thing to happen. i want to LIVE and i want ADVENTURE.