no bueno

i decided not to go to disneyland. it turned out not to be disneyland in the first place, but rather california adventure. the whole reason i wanted to go to disneyland is bc i have never been there before! plus the fires are out of control and basically i just didnt want to go because once i looked at the itinerary it looked really lame. but im still taking the time off so im just gonna study. i get paid vacation, so i guess getting paid to study is pretty cool.

love it

back

dont worry faithful readers, im still here. i just haven't really felt like updating. my apologies.

my thoughts:

i have had two posts about dogs in the past month. i think im obsessed.
i freakin love my grandpa and old people in general.
i love this weather!
i love halloween too.
and b chon.
and also cheesey popcorn.

last night i hopped on my longboard and rode for a long time. this was after a hiatus of about 3 months due to my awful fall at the end of july. it was awesome!

los perros

i really really love dogs. so much that its almost sickening. not to the point that i wear clothing w dogs plastered on it or anything like that. but almost.

also

today at work i was looking for a picture of baby jessica, the baby that fell into the well and was rescued.

instead of this:

this came up:

in texas we call it mod podge

things ive been thinking while looking at pictures on facebook:

*no one really cares to see that many pictures of you jumping
*if your jaw wasn't that big you might be pretty

i think im going to stop while im ahead because i sound like a beeotch.

i have another secret to send to postsecret, its going to be amazing.

tonight had dinner with matt. it was so nice to be with a good friend. we talked and laughed and laughed and talked. it was so fun. then we did arts and crafts at the boys and girls club til midnight. i loved it.

our apartment got "boo-ed" tonight. its like doorbell ditching but you get treats and then you have to pass it on. well we got boo-ed twice today, once in the morning and once at night, because once you get boo-ed you're supposed to put a picture of a ghost on your door so people know not to pass it on to you. well we didn't. so we got a lot of treats and delicious goodness. we are working the system, though not entirely by choice.

september reflections

i kind of miss september. here's why:

mouthwash

last night i went to an amazing concert for bishop allen and john vanderslice. it was in provo, so it was in a smaller venue. but i just love the concert ambience.

we got there early to get our tickets. the owner of velour came out and told us he would only sell tickets to us so we got them and then walked around downtown provo. while we were waiting outside velour, john vanderslice walked out and started talking to us and asked us good places to eat. we gave him some suggestions and he said thanks and went on his way. we walked around for a bit and then waited in line and then were let in.

bishop allen played an amazing show and we were right up front. when john vanderslice came on set he talked to the five of us and told us that he would play a song for us after the show. so he played, it was amazing of course. in the middle of the show he goes "this is what we're going to do tonight, after the last song we're gonna have a dance party and then we're gonna go get gelato". and everyone was like woooooooot! so on the last song he and his band went out into the middle of the audience and everyone made a circle around him and it got dead silent and he just sang. we hopped on stage and watched and then we all sang with him and it was incredible. as soon as he played the last note the hip-hop music blasted on, the disco ball illuminated and the strobes flashed. and everyone started dancing. it was so cool. so then we waited around for a bit and most everyone left. then he took my group out and people followed us and he played a song for us outside velour on the sidewalk. it was sooooo cool! then we just started walking to the gelato shop a couple blocks away and he was playing and singing and there was so much energy. we all got gelato, he sat and talked for a bit and then most people stayed at the gelato shop but we walked with him back. it was probably one of the best shows ive ever been to.

honestly i had never heard of either of the musicians before but i can honestly say i may become john vanderslice's biggest fan. he was sooo amazing, humble, down to earth. i loved it.

make my day

on facebook i added the honesty box (application where people can post anonymous things about you) and someone posted this:

"Drizzle, you're stunning. Simply amazing! Wish more people out there were genuine like you are. Thanks."

whoever wrote that: thank you for making my day.

still here

im having a hard time staying motivated in training for the 1ok im doing in less than a month. i get bored, which is weird because i love to run.

last night i went to such a cool event to inform the community about the tragedy occuring in burma. basically it was amazing.

im watching grey's anatomy season 3. it reminds me of my grandma. i used to go visit her thursday nights. she was really cognitively unaware of her surroundings at that time, and she knew i was there but didnt really talk to me. so i just laid with her in her bed and watched tv. grey's anatomy came on everytime i was there. so watching half of the third season reminds me of her. i miss her.

current events

lets help the people of burma! write a letter to your congressman expressing your concern. DO something! for more ideas, knowledge, encouragement...go here:

www.uscampaignforburma.org

postsecret

when i was brushing my teeth i thought of a postsecret to send in. so i made the postcard and everything. its going in the mail tonight. how cool would that be if it gets posted?

the internet goes super fast late at night.

carousel

i had an awesome weekend. i took friday off to study for a test. i studied for about 6 hours and i think i aced the test. it wasn't on a scantron so i won't find out til wednesday. that night i hung out w my new friend qjh and my old friend b-chon. we just talked and laughed all night. it was so fun.

saturday morning me and beth went to conference and got breakfast and talked and i loved it. on the way home we stopped at ikea and shopped and had lunch. we listened to conference on the way back. when we got home we went our seperate ways and finished watching it. then i relaxed, tye-dyed a shirt, and went running. later i picked up b-chon and we got some delicious fried chicken and watched garden state and knitted. yesterday was a good day.

today i woke up, watched morning conference, slept, and watched afternoon conference. b-chon came over and we finished our kfc and talked for hours. then i cleaned my room and talked to my mom. this weekend was just relaxing. fun. if i said thrilling, you probably wouldn't understand. but actually, it was.

zzzzzzZZzzzz...

i have been so tired all day and yet now, at 1:17 in the am, i cannot make myself get in bed. perhaps by the end of this little survey, my bed will be calling my name...

Hi, my name is:
drea

When I'm nervous:
i get really fidgety, can't breathe

The last song I listened to:
the moment i said it

By this time next year:
i'll be going to school, still

I have a hard time understanding:
people's actions

In the morning I:
can't get out of bed

Last night :
i was so tired

My heart is:
recovering

Do you smoke weed?
no

Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks?
no

Who are the last people that came to your house?
prob ty-ty

Is there someone you want to fight?
no

Song playing?
closing in

Do you have a best friend?:
several

Who did you get this from?
amanda

How much money did you make today?
hourly wage x 8 hours

Have you ever tripped going up steps?:
broke my toe doing so

Are you tired?
not at all

Does anyone in life know the real you?
i would like to think so

The person you like is older or younger?
they're usually older

What color is your shirt?
blue

Are you a predator?
no

Do you like anyone?
not really

When people get depressed are you the one they turn to?
maybe for advice

How long does it take you to get ready?
30 mins or less

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
today, everyday

Last movies you watched?
the prince and me

Do you wish at 11:11?
no

Do you wear contacts or glasses?
perfect vision

Next vacation you're going on?
disneyland

What was the last rumor you heard about yourself?
no idea

Happy?
mostly

Who is the last person you hugged?
matt

The last place you went out to?
campus

Who/What made you angry today?
myself

Do you sing in the shower?
no

Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
yes, but not recently

Do you find yourself loved?
i believe so

Has anyone you were close to you passed away recently?
in the past year, yes

Whats orange, near you?
purse straps

What is your natural hair color?
bronde

Where was your default picture taken?
provo

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
i can't

How many kids do you want to have?
lots

Do you believe in second chances?
i do

Are you one to hold grudges?
usually for a bit, then i tend to forget, most of the time

woof

i love dogs. i really want to get one. or a cat. but there are not pets allowed in byu housing, which stinks. i miss eddie the dog. im going to go visit him soon.

reflection

me and beth had this conversation today, and instead of trying to sum it up, here it is:

talking about matt...

Beth: yeah
he's funny though
me: but him and robbie are really good at making you feel good about yourself
and if you are someone he considers your best friend he will do anything for you and will protect you
Beth: no, matt seems like a really good guy
i'm really glad you became such good friends with them over the summer
me: me too. i needed them. esp considering the joey/jeff/whitney situation. i always talking about summers being time for me to gain my independence, but this summer i think i did. and i also grew spiritually, something else that has never happened during the summer
Beth: i know. you seemed so happy this summer. i'm so glad you stayed (as much as i wanted you to come to DC) b/c i think you benefited so much more by being here
me: i did benefit alot, it is amazing. i was really bummed at the beginning of the summer bc i felt really alone; you were gone, amy moved back to texas, and casey and i werent on speaking terms
then i started hanging out w matt and them, and also was good friends w dan standage
Beth: i think that just shows that the lord has a plan for us. your trial turned out to be something amazing for you
me: yah its so true
but ive come to the realization that my life just wasnt meant to be easy, but im used to it now
Beth: i think the lord knows that that's how you grow...through trials
me: yah, sometimes its so hard though, sometimes i cant help but just asking for a break or something. sometimes it feels like one thing after another, but most of the time i just have to laugh
and i think of all the crappy things that have happened to me and still how ive turned out
things could be a lot worse
Beth: you're so positive. that's just wonderful
me: dont get me wrong, its not positive all the time. part of it is just bc im used to having things happen to me that most people just consider bad luck. that stuff just happens to me
Beth: but i think it's good that you can still enjoy life even though you've been through quite a bit and know more is in store for you
me: sometimes its scary though, i try not to think about what could be in store bc of everything that has happened so far, sometimes i dont even want to know what will happen next
sometimes i just have to live one day at a time
Beth: it's true
but the lord will only give us stuff that he knows we can handle if we turn to him
me: i know but when youre going through it, even with the lord's help, it feels like its the hardest hting in the world
Beth: no, definitely. i just know there's always hope
me: how comforting to know there is hope
Beth: sometimes i think that's the only thing that keeps me going - just knowing that it'll be over eventually and i'll get through it
me: oh gosh i know, imagine not even having that little speck of hope

that was the end of that. it was a good conversation.

also

Sonnet 148

O me! what eyes hath love put in my head,
Which have no correspondence with true sight!
Or, if they have, where is my judgment fled,
That censures falsely what they see aright?
If that be fair whereon my false eyes dote,
What means the world to say it is not so?
If it be not, then love doth well denote
Love's eye is not so true as all men's: no,
How can it? O how can love's eye be true,
That is so vexed with watching and with tears?
No marvel then, though I mistake my view;
The sun itself sees not till heaven clears.
O cunning love! With tears thou keep'st me blind,
Lest eyes well seeing thy foul faults should find.


they read that sonnet by Shakespeare in the movie "The Prince and Me". although that movie is really cheesy, i like this sonnet.

oh bla di oh bla da

i hung out w b-chon alot this weekend and it was wonderful. my car is out of the shop and im so glad to have it back. i seriously love my car so much and it was so hard that it was gone.

the next month or so is going to be amazing. here is the break down:

oct 6: conference!
oct 13: sky diving!
oct 20: break!
oct 27: california!
nov 3: 10k in So. Utah!

i'm so stinkin excited! i love having plans. i also love road trips and oct 27 and nov 3 involve road trips. that is so exciting.

i think everything is going to be okay.