Showing posts with label having a perfect brightness of hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label having a perfect brightness of hope. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

"Trust in the Lord, and do good" Psalms 37:3



Its time to say hello to a new transfer! I can't believe another transfer has ended. However, I did not get transferred, but I did get a new companion. She is a native Korean sister and she is wonderful. This is the first companion to whom I speak Korean to full time. It's pretty amazing, partly because it's made me realize that I can spend an entire day speaking Korean and get along just fine. It has certainly made me feel better about how much of the language I have actually learned, because it's still easy to feel completely Korean challenged. Sometimes a stranger will say something to me and I have absolutely no idea what they say, but then magically I remember, "hey you talk to your companion in Korean every day and you understand her, so you can do it." I just give myself a little pep talk and almost magically I can figure out what I am hearing. 

This past transfer was a little bit rough. Beginning the very first week in the area everyone started to cancel their appointments with us. It seemed as though our investigators, who had been so reliable in the past, dropped off the face of the earth. It got us a little down, but we tried our best to do everything we could to find new searching souls and keep the area progressing. Unfortunately, all of our best efforts seemed to come to naught. At times that made it a little bit harder to keep going every day. We were trying as hard as we could, and I kept trusting the Lord that if we would work and strive to do our best the Holy Ghost will reward us. It may not be immediate, but I have faith that it will come.

 I was able to see this magnified this past week. The Saturday or Sunday before the transfer ended the elders in Sujeong gave us a number of a woman who wanted to learn English. Honestly, my thoughts might not have been as positive as they should have been. They may (or may not) have gone something like this, "great, another investigator who wants to learn English but has probably zero interest in the gospel." However,  we were still thankful for the referral and called her to set up an appointment for this past week. When we met her and came to get to know her we learned more about her. She has had some struggles in her life and wants to make a new start for herself. As we talked about her religious background we learned that she had been to a few different churches in the past but none of them really felt right. A few days later we met with her again and she told us some of the things that she struggles with. She wonders about why we are here and worries about where we will go after this life is over. She said that people tell her that it is senseless that she worries about these things, but they constantly trouble her. I couldn't believe it. Every question and concern this sister had expressed was one that could be answered through this gospel. I marveled that I had answers for her, ones that quieted her fears and calmed her worries. I feel so incredibly grateful for the opportunity to teach her about the Plan of Salvation. I felt this was a miracle. 

There wasn't any big show or sign but I still recognized the miracle, and it reminded me again that Heavenly Father is aware of me and sees my efforts. I also know that it was just not my miracle, but hers too. She was the one who was searching for answers, wondering if she would ever find them. We were only the hands that delivered the message. I hope you all can come to realize and recognize the small miracles of hope that you receive in your own lives. I know that each of us can see the hand of the Lord in quieting our soul and lifting our spirit toward a brightness of hope. This is true for everyone, but we must “trust in the Lord, and do good” to see it for the miracle that it is. I love you all and hope you have a wonderful week. 

Love,
Sister Annie

Monday, July 8, 2013

"Press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope" 2 Nephi 31:20


It's rainy season in Korea ladies and gentlemen and you know what that means.... Well it means there's a lot of rain. We got soaked this week and I have never before seen anything like it. In Utah we don't really have much rain. It might rain for an hour or so and then quit, but in in Korea it will pour for 20 minutes and then taper off and then it will pour again. It will repeat this cycle for days on end. In reality it never actually stops raining, even if their aren't raindrops coming down it is so humid that it feels like it's constantly misting and you end up wet even during the breaks between showers. It is definitely a new, and soggy, experience for me. 

The days seem to be flying by a little bit, which is good I guess as that means I'm busy. But at the same time, the time that it takes for the days to become weeks seem like they take forever. I feel as though this may be the pattern of my entire mission. Each week feels like a month, but when the end of the week comes it seems like it's only been a day. I can't decide if this is a good thing or not, but it is what it is, and thats what I've got, so I'm going to try and enjoy it. 

Hope has been on my mind a lot this week. 

As I mentioned a couple of weeks ago, suddenly finding myself in a foreign country has not an easy adjustment. I feel as though I've had a harder time with it because I am expected to learn the language (and I want to learn the language), but it just hasn't quite come yet. I know that I have only been here for 3 weeks, but it is easy to get discouraged when I can't even understand what little children are saying (maybe that is a bad marker of my progress). 

Thankfully, I think I have found the answer to my frustration, and that solution is hope. Perhaps to you it doesn't sound like a real and tangible solution. You might even think that it's just an excuse to put off finding an actual solution to my problems, but I don't see it that way. 

I have though about hope this week through a different lens, one of need. Finding myself  really longing for something for the first time, I see that hope is having trust that the Lord will fulfill His promises to you. Finding hope is looking at past experiences and past trials, evaluating them, and then realizing that your Father in Heaven carried you through those trials and He can, and will, get you through whatever trials you are dealing with right now. 

I know that my call to Korea was divinely inspired. I am not sure why I need to be here right now serving as a missionary and learning Korean; but I know that the Lord wants me here. I have felt the peace in my heart that only can come through the witness of the Holy Ghost. Because of this confirmation I know that my Heavenly Father knows me better than anyone else does. I know that He wants to help me through this. I know He wants and needs me to succeed. I have been promised that as I work my hardest and stay obedient I will receive blessings, and I will have the Lord's help in my work. 

I also know that it is the same for everyone. Whatever is going on in your life, God has a plan for you. It may not be through an exact set route, but it is easiest reached through His set path. The push forward will be easier is If you turn to Him. Believe that it is possible, hope than you can, and have faith that you will succeed. Have a perfect brightness of hope in His plan. This phrase promises warmth , joy, and enlightenment. To have this hope we must trust  His promise that He will get you through anything. The brightness of hope suggests that the blessings we will receive after being steadfast in the path of Christ will be greater than anything we could ever imagine. 

I love you all and hope you are well.

Sister Annie