4.36

 you are tired of faking emotions built throughout the times

putting on smiles not to make people uncomfortable is tiring

showing happiness solely to satisfy others, non-stop

at one point, you grow tiring of it

you'll no longer be able to do that

little girl

 that little girl

growing strong and manly

crushing all her emotions

blowing them to disappear

far, they went

until one day

they came back

asking her to feel their existence

that little girl wanted to rest

allow her to feel sad

allow her to be sad

allow her to be angry

allow her to run away from being strong

she too is weak

of emptiness

of emptiness

how do I actually feel?

is there anything left in my heart?

...

4.14

one who is always prepared, be it when travelling or when doing work, perhaps he was always blamed for parts he should not be responsible for, in the first place? thoughts came, it might be better for him to prepare. you know, just in case? and the habit develops gradually. 

one who is careless, see how others take care of him. you know he's used to it. and the habit develops gradually too. 

when we talk about how the environment can influence our lifestyle, bear in mind. it's the people who matter most. what they do, what they talk about, how they treat us. if it successfully puts pressure on you, you've now affected. 'how people think of you' has successfully shaped you. they succeed in developing pressure in you. 

6.26

there are times when you really wish that the pain or the wound you had could easily be erased the same like how your foot steps are vanished when the water comes from the sea, and turn your foot steps into countless sand again.

there's no such thing as scar that doesn't heal. it heals as time passes. believe that.

6.26