*insert expression....

relieved to be at home for a substantial amount of time. Not sayin i'm complainin abt wats goin on. BUt if not for the loss... I wouldn't feel so this way. Ok no one died no one got hurt and i am fine except for the fact tat i lost it. I lost tat thing u hv to bring along wherever u go. Tat thing tat u use in order to consume products. And honest i've pieced up 3theories and apparently 2 are a dead end and the third is half dead. The only other theory I chose not to believe was dat someone actually walked in my room and took it... Wat a time to reli need a listening ear huh...

wells let me carry on ranting i guess.

SOmetimes i wonder If i'm being too hard on myself. COncealing the real initial feelings. THe normal reactions of how one should act. Its funny how i can just not show my sadness. Its the facade tat's easier to pull than reli show who u are inside.

ITs easier right? To put a defense than be vulnerable and open to the slightest attack(wells attack not in a bad way).

ANyway honestly even though things happen i guess for reasons, and i cant help but wonder why out of all times things happen at this particular moment. oh wells if i were to insert an expression i'd be confused coz i'm not sure wat to feel...

okok enough of the self pitying. SOrta organised my head on wat steps to take to tackle this situation. Rather then let it overtake my senses and worry, shall be hopeful. If hope fails, than i hv to do wat is required...

"I've stumbled upon a treasure chest, and I want to share the gold. But as I begin to share it, I can't help but think why not keep it all for me? Because the more I share the less I'll have. The more I give the more I'll lose. Like a slow rotting disease, the thought etched its way into my soul. The poison began to clot my ability to see beyond the giving.

Like a modern day shylock giving had to be restricted, reserved and have a specific gain. Without a thought for the needs of others, I only see me...."

"What makes you give your last cookie away?
Or help me clean my room all day
Why would you let me use your stereo
or save me the middle of your oreo...

Why do you always try to be
there when I really really need you
There to care, you're always willing to share
Love makes a friend be a friend like you
Love makes a friendship and turns it into
SOmething to last your whole life through
Love makes a friend be a friend like you...

What makes you give your heart away...
What makes you open up and say
All of the feelings that you hold inside
All of the feelings that you try to hide...

Why do you always try to be
there when I really really need you
There to care, you're always willing to share
Love makes a friend be a friend like you
Love makes a friendship and turns it into
SOmething to last your whole life through
Love makes a friend be a friend like you... "

Was looking for this for quite some time. AM actually seeing pretty far. And am making some plans to reach that which i see. BUt the fine line is, whether wat i see i wat God sees...

We all plan, we all want to make a difference somewhere. But is tat whr we ought to be? Or is dat wat we ought to be doin?

Day by day, clues are falling. But the challenge seems mounting... I ask how will I do it. THe only answer is... just... There is never a place for giving up. Never a place to say it cannot be done. Never a situation to hard to overcome. BUt we dont overcome it alone. We dun overcome it alone. Many things we can do by ourselves, but the joy of doing comes in the sharing....ANd the burden of loss is divided when many are one...