Enchek Boss

 

It must have been not long ago

A guy named Helmy finally join the war

Now we have to watch him go

And we will surely miss him so

 

I made a promise that i wont say goodbye

Nor that I would ever cry

What I'm gonna do is to tell him a lie

That someting is poking my eyes

 

For all the guidance that you have given

For all the fights we've finally get even

For all the mistakes you've turn to experience

It's true what they say respect is earn and not given

 

So far thee well and best of luck

Moving on takes a lot of pluck

Roar like a tiger don's squeak like a duck

Go and start afresh leaving all the muck

 

~Adzra, 30112012~

:: That, Is Ugly ::

I might just about to hang myself for writing this entry. Yea, i sure did. But somehow my frustration has taking a huge control over my fear of being the un-popular girl for voicing my concern and things which has bothered me for quite sometime now. 

In most of the personal development courses conducted by professionals to boost  your self esteemed, we were told to be proud of who we are instead of what we are. These lines should sound familiar to you - You should be proud of yourself. Learn to love yourself and others will love you! Even Christina once sing something like this "You are beautiful no matter what they say. Words can't bring you down". Agree?

How many of us especially ladies understand those lines completely? It is sure a great accomplishment when you can overcome your fear or uncertainty and be confident in what you are working with. Those are meant for your inner beauty. I repeat - INNER. Reality check, your physical appearance would be the highlight to anyone's eye to define the level of beauty you are in. Some will appear to be cute, most goes to average-OK looks, little were defined as hot and along the line there are some appear to be sexy.

Sexy can be very subjective. Some may find wearing a mini skirt is sexy. Other may have the impression that putting on anything with leopard print is sexy. Having said, in most of the time sexy is measure by how much skin you are willing to broadcast to your viewer. But honestly, that doesn't work on me. When you reveal too much at a time, i just lost the thrill of wanting more and my wild imagination will be dead. Gone. Stop.

And in some situation it just kill my mood to see a plump lady wearing 2 sizes small from what she should resulting the unpleasant view and the feeling of suffocation. Then, you'll be worry and cautious  that  her button will suddenly pop out and hit your face or whether her tight legging will be rip off and exposing he big bum and you just have to witness that? 

But what will all of that compare to one plus size apple lady wearing low neck blouse just to show off her acne, pimples and maybe birthmarks on her wide bare chest? Ok too much. She cant do much with the birthmarks. Still...what's with the rest of her marks she got? Wearing a short skirt (remember - 2 sizes smaller) just to see the unrecognized 'world map' also known as 'panau' on her hip, tight or wherever. Yet they claimed that sexy? Gosh!

Didn't these people ever has a chance to once a while take a look on the mirror? I love each and every element of woman's body. Its like a living art. Unique and sensual. One of God's great creation who can blew your mind admiring them even just by looking at a glance. 

Seriously, I have no issues of you being sexy as long as its not ugly. And remember, there's no ugly lady in this world except for one who is too lazy to find a right size for her outfit. So girls, please don't be one unless you are not human and have no feeling of being guilty for filling up the world with horrendous looks. We love to see some skin, but not your cellulite please.

:: Saya Bantah Yang Arif! ::

I hate to start my day with a unwanted lecture or should i say "Pukul anak, Sindir menantu" kinda thing. Double hates when i have to listen to it at the exact moment for me to enjoy my foodies. A big NO. Do not by any chance scold me, nag me, even shout at me when I am having my meals. Never ever. 

And please, do not waste my time with your lame statements as below:

"When you are in a company, do not comment or complaint".

I read : Wrong. Doesn't stand up for your rights ring a bell? For those who got nutin to say in how a company is running its business its due to 2 things - The Company is super duper excellent OR the employee are too lazy to think for the Company. If I am a Boss, i don't want to have a Yes Man / Woman to be by my side. being supportive is not the same as sucking up the ass above you. Period.

"You may think you have a good idea, but people might not like it".

I read :  Does it PEOPLE or YOU? Say something about it. Don't just say No but suggest something else which is better. Most people love to argue about everything but refuse to offer solution or option. Those are the kind of people who are lack of motivation and certainly not a career driven type of person. Always remember, work and career are two different things. 

"My office hour starts at 8.45" with a smirk on your face.

I read : How great! What a perfect example for the staff. But wait...Starting the day (or work) at 8.45am(as u claimed) does not entitle you to have lunch at 12.45pm (when it suppose to be 1.00pm) and yes, it does not granted you with the extra 10 minutes to wrap up  your makan-makan at 2.10pm. Sad!

 Nasib baiklah sesetengah orang itu tua pada umurnya. Suka atau tidak, masih ada rasa sekelumit hormat untuk tidak menjatuhkan maruahnya di khalayak umum. Pun begitu, sabar setiap insan ada batasannya. Eloklah tidak bertentang mata daripada asyik nak bersengketa. Dan kerana umur juga la, cK lebih rilek sekarang ni.

Baru sudah Ramadhan berlalu, dah mula nak buat cK berbulu. Memang magiklah dia boleh tahan nafsu berkata perkara2 nista selama sebulan sebelum dia sambung habit lama. Cakap depan2, kan senang. Setel semua benda. Ini tak, nak membebel time orang nak menghadap rezeki. Nasiblah tak putus selera. Nasib juga la cK ingat yang makanan tu cK beli ngan duit belen gaji so, tak boleh nak bazir suka2 hati.

Nak bagi nasihat percuma? Maaf, saya akan minta bila perlu. Dan kamu, bukanlah orang yang pertama saya akan jumpa untuk mengadu  dan bercerita. Try harder to be in my life. But i am proud to tell you that, u will never come close to it. Sorry. Do not cross the line.

:: Funny ::

To save someone's ass from being under utilized, i have to hand over my portfolio. After a hard work in building up repo with outsiders, the credit will now goes to that someone. Before i agree to take up the challenge and responsibility to handle those, i was been approached nicely. And now, without any notes...it just been taken away from me. Just. Like. That. 

Immediately, i lost my mood and excitement to do things. Is this a plot, to make me look like the insignificant ones? Gosh. Only God knows how i feel now. Maybe its the 'colors' and it happen to be that my fair skin does not good enough to beat the others.

Crap!

:: Killing - The New IN Thing ?::

"I could've killed all the Jews in the world, but I kept some alive, so that you can see why I was killing them"

Adolf Hitler

Ironic isn't it? It would be different if the statement came from someone else, not Hitler the Nazi's world-known leader who has made killing as his profession. But again, its been said. By him. The killer, himself. Who else can say it better than him?

In Malay, we used to hear the saying 'Hanya jauhari mengenal manikam'. Meaning, only the one with all the experience in the area / field will have all the knowledge and value in saying things related to his area. Thus, no one can do it better when speaking on Jews though he has to compare them with his own kind. 

Since i was a small kid, i've heard, watch and read all the unacceptable excuses (one after another) being given from this unethical people. With all the force that we (as in the world) have, i failed to understand why cant we stop this nonsense. While we are celebrating our birthday, anniversary, independence day each year..those people in Palastine feels so blessed if none of them been killed on the day. Not to mentioned how blessed they are if they can have their meal maybe once a day? 

Education? They certainly learned how to run fast enough from being shot by the animals. Leisure? Manage to lean on each others back and heal their breath for not being shot by the animals. Art? Sand is the canvas and blood is the paint for the abstract paint, after you get shot by the animals. Forgive me for using too many animals though i think animals is better than them. At least they can be tame and trained. Oh shoot! Same goes to them! They can be tame with powers and they've been trained to kill. How can i missed that!

For my brothers and sisters there, my prayers will be with you always.  Alhamdulillah for those who have made it there and return safely in one piece. For those who doesnt, Syahid awaits you, my true warrior.

Was it so hard to teach them a lesson? Or was it too late?

:: Cukup Tapi Kurang ::

Menunggu sabar kaki-kaki mereka melangkah keluar sebelum masuk memenuhi ruangan Putra. Sambil lagu jadi penyedap halwa telinga, cK pon pusing badan untuk melihat pemandangan luar.

Sekumpulan makcik2 bertudung, awek2 menunggu tegar di hadapan pintu lif. Ya, lif itu untuk orang kurang upaya. cK lihat mereka cukup je sifatnya. Tapi itu mungkin luarnya saja. Yang dalam2 tak tahu la pula.

"Ting tong ting tong".

Pintu Putra tutup. cK luaskan lagi pemandangan. Nampak seorang lelaki cina jalan berbeza. Bertongkat rupanya dia. Buta. Dia terus berjalan. Tergagau2 mencari hala tuju. Langgar tembok. Berjalan lagi. Akhirnya sampai hampir dengan pintu lif.

Cik kak yang diri ramai2 depan pintu lif tu, buat2 tak nampak je lelaki tu. Ada yang cuba menjauhkan diri. Cuma seorang akak yang akhirnya mengalah dan tarik lelaki tu dari hilang arah. Itu pun selepas lelaki tu, nyaris2 nak langgar akak tu. Geleng kepala cK tengok dorang. Yang masih berlegar dalam kepala sampai sekarang :

1. Macam ni ke konsep satu Malaysia?
2. Ini ke rupa orang yang beradat, beradab dan berbudaya?
3. Kenapa dorang layan orang kurang upaya sebegitu rupa?
4. Hina sangat ke golongan kurang upaya?

Kesian. Masing2 berakal tapi dangkal. Cukup anggota tapi kurang pengajaran. Harap kita dijauhkan dari sikap sebegitu rupa. Segala yang ada hanya pinjaman semata. Sedar2lah sikit, kita nih berhutang sebenarnya. Full loan, installment sampai mati plak tu! At least orang2 OKU ni tak amik full loan ok!

p/s : selalu je pagi2 cK bawak sornag akak buta nih gi opis dia. takdak hal pon!

:: Katakanlah ::

Sejak kebelakangan ini, ada beberapa perkara yang agak mengganggu pemikiran cK secara peribadinya. Bagi cK, usaha untuk menyelesaikan dan menjernihkan keadaan telah pun dilakukan. Namun, andai ada pihak-pihak yang lebih gemar menjauhkan diri, itu terpulang pada mereka. cK tak mampu untuk memuaskan hati semua.

Apa yang terdaya, telahpun cK usahakan. Tak mungkinlah cK pergi menyembah umpama menghadap sultan ataupun permaisuri di singgahsana. Memang benar kata orang-orang tua "Kerana mulut badan binasa". Namun, lihat dari dua sudut yang berbeza.

1. Andai terlalu banyak berkata-kata

Dikhuatiri kita akan mengeluarkan kata-kata nista dan cela hingga menyebabkan luka dihati jiwa makluk tuhan yang lainnya. Sesama manusia, cara kita menerima sesuatu perkara adalah berbeza-beza. Maka, tidak hairanlah bila dia bermasam muka, sedangkan kita maksudkan yang sebaliknya.

Cara terbaik, bermaaf-maaflah sesama kita. But then again, its easy to forgive then to forget. Kebanyakan kita hipokrit bila berkata "semua orang patut diberi peluang kedua" bila mana diri kita tidak pernah sudi untuk menerima mereka. Renunglah sedalam yang mungkin sambil berfikir sejenak adakah kita sudah belajar menerima kekurangan orang-orang dikalangan kita?


2. Bila mulut terkunci tidak mahu berbicara.

Mungkin sesetengah kita rasa, cara ini lebih selamat daripada menjebakkan diri dalam kancah pergeseran atau kemelut yang lebih mendalam. Tetapi, sedarkah kita juga yang sesuatu itu tidak akan berubah sifatnya andainya tidak ada sesuatu yang mengubahnya.

Lihat dalam diri sendiri. Andai kita tidak mahu terus disakiti, apa kata cuba berhenti dari menyakiti atau mungkin lebih banyak mengekspresi diri untuk membenarkan individu lain lebih memahami situasi. Bukankah cara ini lebih baik dan dihormati daripada terus memendam rasa sakit hati dan mula menjaja cerita di sana sini?


Apa pun, ianya masih lagi hak individu. Dosa dengan tuhan, boleh kita memohon agar diberikan keampunan. Namun, dosa sesama insan hanya dia yang bisa berikan keputusan. Nampak umpama remeh namun jika terjadinya perbalahan dan salah satu pihak enggan memaafkan, bersedialah untuk menerima celaan yang tidak terhingga dari Dia yang menjadikan diri kita dan sekalian insan.

Amin.

:: Tipis Lagi Nipis ::

“Dan sungguh akan kami berikan cobaan kepadamu dengan sedikit ketakutan, kekurangan harta jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan berikanlah berita gembira pada orang-orang yang sabar, (iaitu) orang-orang yang apabila ditimpa musibah, mereka mengucapkan ‘innalillahi wa inna ilaihi roji’un’.” (Surah Al-Baqarah : 155-156)

cK akui dua minggu kebelakangan ini kesabaran agak tipis. Bukannya sengaja ingin menduga kewarasan diri cuma keadaan boleh berlaku tanpa dijangka. Masih belajar dan mencuba sedaya mungkin untuk memperkasakan kesabaran diri.

Maaf atas segala keterlanjuran perkataan mahupun perbuatan. Ku bukan sempurna dari imannya. Hari demi hari ditempuhi dengan rasa lebih bersemangat dari hari yang sebelumnya. Dengan satu harapan, segalanya akan jadi lebih baik dari semalam.

Sesekali menoleh kebelakang untuk mengambil iktibar atas setiap satu kejadian. Namun yang pasti, langkah terus dihayun melangkah ke hadapan menghadapi segala cabaran yang mendatang.

Ya Tuhanku, lengkapilah aku dengan kesabaran menghadapi dugaanmu.

:: Syiling Nikel Itu ::

I am broke. Totally broke.

So what, if i admit it?

Dah memang tengah pokai. Ngaku je la. I'm not living in a lala-land and everything will be good all time. I have my up and down too.

Too bad, u just dun seem to understand. Dah rasa malas nak bercakap ngan orang-orang plastik ni. Berbuih mulut bercakap tapi tuli rupanya. Kesian seh.

To be honest, i have lost my patience to u. Memang la cK ni jenis cepat panas hati dan cepat sejuk but in your case, it will never be sejuk ok. Why? U dont deserve it, seriously. I cant find any 1 good reason why i should.

Daripada layan kerenah ko tu, baikla cK kira belen2 syilling yang ada nih. There go my precious 50 cents big rounded syilling. Huwaaaaa..!!!! Poket lobang woookkk!!!!

:: Tanam Tebu ::

I hate to say it.

Even to remember about it.

But i have to.

cK ni bukanlah tergolong dalam orang-orang yang baik sangat hatinya. Namun, the part yang bila orang suka mempergunakan kebaikan kita ni cukup menyakitkan hati. Sedar tak sedar kepercayaan dan rasa hormat kita pada orang tu pun mula terhakis, sedikit demi sedikit.

Bila bab berjanji, cK cukup pantang kalau orang tak kotakan. Ya, manusia memang dikurniakan sifat lupa. Itulah satu kata kunci bagi menjawab setiap perbuatan kita yang suka melengahkan sesuatu dan tidak melaksanakan perkara yang sepatutnya.

Lupa itu akan diiringi oleh pelbagai alasan lain samada yang logik atau pun tidak. Segala-gala jenis cerita boleh direka dan diberi untuk menyelamatkan diri. Selamat ke? I don't think so. Excuse me for saying this. When u promise me things, i will make sure it been said and done. Cari sampai lubang cacing pun sanggup ok!

And now, bila i dah stuck..where we you? Were u there to help? Yes, i need you to help. Not because i need something in return of what i have done for you. But, merely because you have failed to deliver what you have promised me which has lead me to this miserable situation. My kindness has blinded you. Worst still, you push me away.

Ya Allah, tunjukkan aku jalan.

:: L.E.H.E.R ::

Ini semua gara-gara seorang lelaki gempal yang berdiri dibelakang cK dalam train pagi tadi. Bukanlah sengaja niat di hati untuk menuding jari, TETAPI kehadiran dia telah mengundang rasa tak puas hati.

Dia menghimpit cK yang sudah hampir lemas dibelakangnya. Dek kerana jaki, cK pusing belakang nak tengok siapakah gerangan manusia durjana itu. Bila cK toleh, dia stop pushing. Then, he starts back! Dengan pantas cK menoleh dan.... "Ouch! Sakitnyer leher!"

cK cuba lagi untuk menoleh ke kiri namun "Aaaahhh...sakitnya!". Tak bole toleh kiri wooo!!! Bila cuba juga, sakitnya ya amats! Sampai je pejabat, cK tanya kat kawan2 mana tahu ada yang sudi tolong urutkan. Tapi, hampeh! Takde sapa pon yang boleh bunyi2kan leher tu. Crap!

Balik rumah, ingatkan bolehlah mengharapkan Mama letupkan leher tu. Apakan daya...Mama mencuba nasib buat kali kedua namun tak juga berjaya! cK try gugel2 pasal neck pain ni. Namun leh kata hampir semua tak membantu. Paling habis treatment yang disyorkan adalah sapu ointment dan yang penting rehatkan leher tu dari melakukan pergerakan yang banyak. Not helping!

Tapi, dalam banyak2 kan..ayat yang satu ni tak boleh blah tol - "Ko ada leher meh?". Rasa nak pijak jek! Huh!

:: Harsh...Rash...Hush? ::

Dear Ms X,

I've read the email u sent to Ms Y on your log book submission. It was harsh and unfair to her. She is transfers to Internship department (with no question ask) last two weeks due to lack of staff.

For you just to penalize her is totally unacceptable. She is now doing all the clean up left by the previous staff (that should be blamed for the irresponsibility).

This indirectly shows her contribution to help you guys to have better record and profiling for FIs view. Support her rather than being so blunt.

For once, be rational. She is in the position to help and she is doing her task as require by her Boss. I don't think she should apologize for a mistake she didn't do.

Plus, i believe the report should be sent via PDF format (scan) and not TIF as given by you. Still, she did not make a big fuss out of it. Have some mercy, will you?

P/s : With one finger pointing to others to show his/her mistake, another 4 points to u. Think about it.

Tell me does the above sounds like UGUT?

:: The Missing Docs ::

Missing doctors found dead in ravine

By M. KUMAR

KUALA LUMPUR: The two specialist doctors, missing since Wednesday, were found dead deep in a ravine near the Klang Gates in Ulu Ampang Saturday morning.

Search and rescue teams had a tough time airlifting them out as ravine was thickly forested.

Police believe the two had slipped and fallen when they went hiking at the popular hiker’s place in Bukit Tabuh near Taman Melawati.

Haliza, 53, and Amin Tai Abdullah @ Tai Yen Ming, 57, - a paediatrician and a paediatric surgeon at a medical centre in Ampang - were reported missing since Wednesday.

The families of Haliza and Amin Tai, both fond of jungle trekking, had made police reports when they did not return home Wednesday night, State Chief Police Officer Deputy Commissioner Datuk Khalid Abu Bakar had said Friday

Police received information that Haliza’s car was found Saturday morning. Tracker dogs and a helicopter search spotted the two, said Ampang Deputy OCPD Supt Amiruddin Jamaluddin.

The bodies were found decomposed.

Inilah puncanya kenapa kawasan rumah cK riud rendah ngan bunyi heli bomba dan polis yang dua unit itu. Sememangnya kawasan bukit bukau depan rumah ni memang menjadi pilihan ramai untuk jungle trekking. Terasa bahagia bila dah sampai ke puncak. Lawa beb!

Cuma hari ini, keadaan agak pelik. Ramai photog, wartawan, polis, JPA..ramai la kira orang. Memang dah jangka, mesti ada "scene". Selalunya kalau dah huru hara macam tu, yang akan keluar dari hutan itu hanyalah jasad tanpa nyawanya. Dan, itulah yang terjadi.

Sempat cK rakam detik2 pencarian, dan operasi mengeluarkan mayat mangsa dari tapak kejadian. Keluarga mangsa memang berendam ngan air mata. Ramai juga warga2 Melawati nih yang turut sama menemankan keluarga mangsa ketika operasi di jalankan.

cK harap kalian sedekahkan Al-Fatihah kepada arwah.

:: Makan Cili dan Rasa Pedas ::

"And then! A fan whose daily doings sometime seem to revolve around me and my friends pasted that particular James Bond theme song on her site and shared it with all. The fan even had the cheek to agree with my notion about Malay folks and forums. I was hoping for some defense on my part, but no, you broke me down as well, just like the rest. So I guess that proves, there’s really nobody left to trust or rely on, not even fans."

Guess I made it to the headlines! Yey! It's funny how well-known ppl (does he) is threaten by my FB's entry. This is not the first time (yet not the last ), we have come to arguments and seriously it's suck. Mind my language, peeps. Here's my comment on his note (above):

1. My world does not revolve around any of the so called big shot. It's not fame that i look for. I am blessed with all the love from the good people.

2. So what if I put it the on my page? Did i mentioned u? Did i told the crowd about your finding in those forums? As my brain recalled, nutin related to you or any of your celebs fren being mentioned in the video post. Even up to this entry, i have mentioned zero that can connect you to the post. Why so sensitive?

3. Yes, i second you for your thought on how shallow some Malay folks and forum could be. Still, i dont think they should be blame 100%. Speaking from experience, seems like there's lots to badmouth bout you compares to compliments. Have you ever learn from your mistake? Did you accept it when people criticized? Ask yourself, honestly. A change will do you good. Fyi, I am not going to starts any gossip/thread on you as i find it a waste of time.

4. The most you can do is just delete me from your list? Oh yea, some of your frens did the same too. Wonder why eh? They have those sixth sense and suddenly realize how evil i am? I guess, more are believed to leave. Is that the best solution for you to settle your unsatisfactory? C'mon. Try harder.

5. By bitching infront of your thousands fan (biyatch?) sounds so typical Malay to me. Don't you have "discuss" or "advice" in your life dictionary? Add in if you dont.

6. You should hold the responsible for your downfall and stop pointing fingers to others.

To all my loved ones, friends and acquaintance who know me personally, your thought counts. For a stranger who constantly condemn-his-own-kind-but-act-like-one, I don't give a damn.

:: Am I That Big?!

Beberapa hari ni, cK telah berusaha membz-bodykan diri dengan kerja-kerja pejabat. Nak dikatakan banyak sangat, tidak juga. I'll be busier next week I guess. Mana nak pegi jelajah IPT, uruskan industry visit, pergi menyebok untuk corporate social responsibilities, having Assistance Governor for Prominent Leader session..macam2 lagi lah.

Still, cK dalam mode berkecil hati. Pada siapa? Biarlah, i don't want to discuss about it. Period. back to business. Dalam pada sibuk tu, terdetik gak kat dalam hati.."Aiseh!! Hari nih tak update blog la!". Heheheh.. sungguh kemaruk ok! Tak senang duduk dibuatnya.

I have a few things to share but what happened this evening during my journey home memang rasa gempak nak share ngan korang. Ianya telah membuatkan cK tertanya2, apakah cK sudah sangat2 terlebih muatan?

Al-kisah, ada seorang akak ni elok lentok kat kusi dalam LRT. No one bother pon. Macam biasa cK memang akan berdiri tak kira time pergi or balik kerja (guess Cik Nad pon nasib serupa jek). From Pasar Seni tu cK dah nampak akak nih lentok baik punya.

Cekci apa perot besor nih. Heh!

Sehinggalah di KLCC, tiba2 akak tu cam tersedar. Terus dia angkat muka, offer seat. Acik sebelah cK tu geleng2, pastu akak tu pandang cK lak. Apalagi, cK just senyum dan geleng je. Dah biasa berdiri, takde hal lah! Alih-alih akak tu bersuara "Eh, duduklah. Meh sini meh. Duduk lah ye?"

Bila cK geleng beria2 baru akak tu berhenti tanya. Tapi, kejap2 dia usha cK. Sampai je kat stesen Wangsa Maju, Leq dah sedia menunggu. My first question to her, " Am i so big that you can see me as a pregnant lady?". Apalagi, gelak je la member!

Tapi kan korang...cK memang besar sangat ke? Last week masa main2 timbang kat FF tu, looks like i have lost weight. Camne nih? Masihkah saya menjadi raksaksa di mata anda?

:: Dis is sax ::

I am not mad.

I am not sad.

But i am upset.

:: Cheetah Jahat!!!! ::

Kita nak boikot Cheetah!

Kita biar dia makan sekali sehari je!

Kita nak suh dia tidur luar!

Kita nak panggil dia GEMOK je, takmo panggey nama dia!

Bencinya kita!!!!!

:: Risau ::

Last few days, i've done this so called medical check up. Adalah sorang akak tu, menjual produk so dia bagi free examination untuk sesiapa yang berminat. Pakai elektromagnet. Ada jarum yang dia cucuk2 kat part2 tertentu di tapak tangan, celah2 jari.

Another reason for doing so pun sebab Ayu beria2 suh buat. Saja nak test kesahihan kata-kata akak tuh. Maka, cK pun buatlah. Yelah, tak salah mendengar kan? Meh baca hasil (finding) yang akak tuh leh simpulkan masa mendialisis cK.

1. "Buah pinggang adik ni kurang air."
Ye...saya tahu..Saya kan lemah nak minum air suam ni. Dok balun air sejok or air manis je.

2. "Ada sikit gula dalam darah."
Ouch...tuh la...minum lagi ice lemon tea, teh ais...kan dah naik gula dah!

3. "Suka mandi malam ke? Paru2 berair sikit nih"
Ehhh...pandai betul akak nih. Macam taw2 je.

4. "Susah nak tidur malam kan?"
Errk....this is sooo spooky. Akak nih tilik nasib ke apa? Ni sume YM, FB n blog punya pasal nih!

5. "Pinggang selalu sakit2 tak?"
Uwaaa...kenapa akak nih tahu semua nih!!!

6. "Angin banyak dalam badan. Ni mesti selalu makan tak ikut masa."
Bukan angin je kak oii!! Hangen pon ada! Akak tu kata juga cK suka delayed makan. Dah betol2 lapar, baru nak makan. Tak elok sebab time tu angin dah pun masuk dalam badan. Tu la...cK dah kata....Susah la nk diet camni! Heheheh...

7. "Ovari ada masalah sikit. Period tak teratur."
Ishhh...betol wooo!!! Ini memang cK sedar. Salah satu ovari cK ni ada yang kurang cerdik sikit. Sebab tu la kadang2 cK boleh puasa full sebulan! Dah tak period, nak buat camne kan? Rasanya maybe yang sebelah kiri kot. Sebabnya, pernah berlatih taekwando dulu partner cK tertendang kuat giler kat side kiri tuh. Memang sakit yang amat! Mula la risau nih!!

8. "Sel aktif ye"
Wow...aktif! Hehhee..Then cK tanya "Sel apa kak?"
Sekali akak tu jawab "Payudara!".
"Maksudnya?"
"Selalu check sendiri tak bila period?"
"Ada"
"Ada rasa macam ketul2?"
"Tak."
"Pernah buat memogram? Baik pegi buat. Sebab sel adik nih aktif. Kadang2 bukan cancer. Tapi kita berjaga2. Maklumlah kita mengadap komputer, henpon sumer tu...radiasi".
"Eh akak ni...takkan laaahh"


Ahhh...sudaaahhh...Biar benar akak nih! Then, cK tanya dia satu soalan.

"Kak, kalau tumit kaki kanan selalu sakit macam mencucuk2 tuh kenapa ye?"
"Dah kahwin?"
"Belum"
"Peranakan adik ada masalah tu"

Aiyooooo!!!!! Ye, cK pernah terhentak masa naik mountain bike dulu. Tapi, takde la rasa macam kesannya sangat hebat. Ishh...memogram? Ermm..nak kena buat nih. Now i am really worried! Apakah!

:: Don't ::

Do not stand on my grave and weep
I am not there, I did not sleep
Do not stand on my grave and cry
I am not there, I did not die

:: I Hope Its You ::

I have this conversation recently.

CK : I hope u'll get married before i do.
?? : Oh, rili? I hope u'll settle down before me.

CK : Nope. U know why? If i were married before you do, when something wrong happen i'll be running back to you.
?? : Huh?

CK : That's why i need you to kahwin dulu. So that, i know u have sumone to jaga. Therefore, I cant be running to you for advice lagi dah.

I guess its true that my world or your world does not revolved around each other only. But don't you know that among all I choose to be with you? For the reason being I can be myself, my own self. When I can be sacarstic and no one bother. I can crakes jokes and we just laugh out loud. I can just cry and you can comfort me.


" Aku tak minat nak layan orang yang aku tak tahu apa masalahnya".

Well said. But were you there to listen?

It is sad, when I need you and you was not there. Tak ada yang kekal. Maka maybe it's about time to just kiss and say goodbye?