[In the interest of full disclosure, I started this post in February of 2021 and never got back to give it a final spit-shine to send it out into the void.]
Have you seen the wonderful 2001 film Amelie*? The scene below entered my mind yesterday as I drove to work listing to the “Ten Minutes With” episodes of The Coode Street Podcast. To set up the scene, the main protagonist, Amelie, is on a mission to do good and she comes upon a local man, who is blind, and guides him to the metro while painting a picture with her words of all that is going on around him.
It amazes me, even after four decades of reading, the feeling of euphoria and sense of wonder that can come upon me suddenly when people are talking about, or I am thinking about, books.
As I listened to the podcasts and authors and editors like Sheila Williams, Max Gladstone, Delia Sherman, Jason Sizemore, and Terri Windling talked about what they were reading during these months of the pandemic, it wasn’t so much what they were reading that excited me but simply the fact that they were reading…the fact that books exist and that reading is a delight.
The more that I listened, the more I found myself getting distracted with images that burst upon me like the revelation of the blind man after his experience with Amelie: book after book after book that fill my (virtual and physical) shelves–books read and books not-yet read–flooded my brain and the endorphin/dopamine rush was intense:
The Doomsday Book (Connie Willis), The Snow Queen (Vonda McIntyre), Network Effect (Martha Wells), The Ten Thousand Doors of January (Alix E. Harrow), The Cuckoo’s Boys (Robert Reed), Great North Road (Peter F. Hamilton), several novels in the Liaden Universe (Sharon Lee/Steve Miller), The Starless Sea (Erin Morgenstern), Rise of Empire (Michael J. Sullivan), and so many more.
There are several Agatha Christie novels, more Rex Stout Nero Wolfe mysteries, classics I’ve not read by Asimov, Heinlein, Norton, Harrison. I have nonfiction books about space travel, autobiographies from astronauts, books about the Civil War, about past Presidents; books by J.R.R. Tolkien and about J.R.R. Tolkien and his universe, literary classics.
I have stacks of books that I picked up on my pilgrimage to Uncle Hugo’s in Minnesota before it was burned down (and is now back open and in business!). Whenever I enter the living room, the bedroom, the library, the basement, I see books and books and books, ones I want to read, and ones I want to reread, and a couple of times a year I just get flooded with this magical, marvelous feeling of just how wonderful it is to own books, to be able to read, and to be blessed with a desire to read.
Some combination of eye-catching cover art, the smell of ink and paper, the look of the font, the design of the physical object, and the knowledge that therein lies knowledge and adventure and wonder, comes together in a glorious, euphoric high. While I wish that was always my experience, I suspect that if it were, it would become normal and diminish the sense of wonder that occurs whenever this book high strikes.
How about you? Does what I am describing make any sense to you at all? How does the love of books and reading (or some other hobby/interest of yours) manifest in your life?
*A disclaimer: while Amelie is a truly beautiful, marvelous feel-good film, it does have some brief but graphic nudity/sexual content. And it is a subtitled film…so reading will be involved.