Eve opens up about losing ectopic pregnancy in 2006 and being 'in denial' about it: 'I was lying to myself'

Eve is reflecting on her experience losing an ectopic pregnancy in 2006.

In her forthcoming memoir Who's That Girl?, the "Let Me Blow Ya Mind" detailed the medical difficulties that led to an emergency surgery during the production of her sitcom Eve. "I told them all it was appendicitis," Eve writes in the book. "It was called a tubal pregnancy, where the embryonic sac ruptured in my one fallopian tube. It’s also known as an ectopic pregnancy. I had to have emergency surgery and stop filming the show for two weeks."

Eve goes on to contemplate why she didn't reveal the information sooner. "I don’t know why I lied to everyone on set and said that my appendix had ruptured, really," she writes. "Maybe because I was lying to myself. If I faced losing my baby, then I didn’t know if two weeks would be enough emotional healing time. In the end, it was barely enough healing time for me physically, before I was right back to work on set."

The rapper said that because she appeared at a number of red carpet events shortly after she lost the pregnancy, she has seen a number of photos of herself from that chapter of her life — and she doesn't like what she sees. "I can see how skinny I was. Too skinny," she writes. "And too much in denial. But it’s like I’ve said before, sometimes I did whatever it took to show up and get the job done… even if it was to my own detriment."

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Eve notes that she did not fully reflect on the experience at the time. "For years, I never grieved losing my first baby," she says. "I didn’t know how to, but I eventually learned. I had to speak to that baby and acknowledge their existence. I had to forgive myself and know that what had happened wasn’t my fault, that I deserved to be a mother, and that I was ready to bring a baby into this world down here."

The singer later discovered that endometriosis and fibroids contributed to the ectopic pregnancy. "In 2006, my doctor never told me that one of my fallopian tubes was narrowed — the one that caused the rupture — and that it was covered in endometriosis," she writes. "I could have had a procedure called a tubal ligation that would have fixed it, but none of that was ever told to me. Back then, even discussing things like endometriosis was completely taboo. People barely knew what it even was. And that kind of procedure is better to have done when you’re younger, since it gets harder as you get older. Again, no one told me any of this. I know now that I also had fibroids, which so many people do — but I had a lot of them."

Eventually, after undergoing a tumultuous IVF experience, Eve gave birth to her first son, Wilde Wolf, in 2022. "After Wilde was born, I fully embraced being his mother," she writes. "Every moment he was fed, every moment he cried, everything — I took it all in." 

Who's That Girl? releases Sept. 17.