Goodbye 2011.

I’ve been away for long and something triggered me to come back here and revisit my past. I know this sounds a little fake but I do tear when I came across this blogspot of mine. How much I actually missed penning down my feelings and nobody would ever bother.

2011 is coming to end soon

and I’m glad, I’ve braced through this year though there were ups and downs in life and people I do cherish come and go as and when they want. I greatly appreciate this past cause without it; I definitely won’t be who I am today.

Something special about 2011 will definitely be YOU. I’m blessed to have this special somebody that love me regardless of who I am. We both know how impossible it is between us but we’re living these moments together. How I wish you’re the one..*tears* (4Dec11)

Graduation was one of my proudest moments of 2011. I can’t thank Allah enough for giving me the guidance and motivation to succeed in life. I’m glad that I could make my parents proud of me and those tears.. it’s worth my effort.

Besides excelling in my studies, I’m definitely blessed to be given the honour of winning the

“Arts Leader of the Year”

in Temasek Polytechnic. Insyallah, with this award, I could be accepted in the university with sponsorship covered. Ameen.

This year’s resolutions- I’ve got many to accomplish. I’m working towards a better me.

Nobody’s perfect and I’m glad I’ve you to guide me through.

1) To leave the past and keep looking forward in life.
2) Don’t give special attention to those who don’t deserve a place in me.
3) Get into the University of my Choice and do miracles!
4) Find a new talent in me
5) & to be with you.

Anyways, I could be planning all I want but it’s all up to him to decide. I’m leaving every moment for him. Dear Allah, bless me always.

P/S: Anyways I would be switching my blogspot as I don’t wish for some jealous bitch to view it. No more evil eye on me.

takecare love.

Triggered!

When true friend advices you, it’s for a good cause. Only true ones will tell you when you’re wrong. I’m sorry and deeply disappointed with you. For our own good, I hope you’ve realised that I’m just pretending this friendship just because you’re not behaving like before.

And yes, I’m pretending.

"I won't treat you like this if you don't trigger me"

takecare love.

One wish.

I just can’t stop thinking. It kept bothering me now and then. I can only be at ease once my uncertainties are answered and for that to happen, I can just dream on, yeah. Despite this, I’m happy that you’ve been trying to make me smile, unknowingly. I know you’re aware of this feeling but why do you need to leave me uncertain? As promised, when will your "someday" be? It need to be answered cause I can’t live this way.

"If I have one wish, I wish that you could answer my uncertainties"

takecare love.

Holidays, finally!

Fantastic! I’m finally breathing freedom through my nostrils. Only god knows how much of a break I really need and yes, finally, it’s here!

I’ve been through much before this and I’m always thankful to Allah for keeping me strong to survive through these challenges.

Without him, I’m just nothing.

Anyways, before the exams, I really had a wonderful getaway with my loved ones! If you need to speak or think of a real beauty, Indonesia is definitely a beautiful country.

However, we might not be lucky.

Everyone, yes everyone indeed, fall sick once we're back in Singapore

And no thanks to that, I was really sick to take my exams.

Times were bad with my health conditions, but thank god, I survived through till date.

Now, I wonder what’s there in store for me.

What’s my future all about?

And maybe I shall leave it to him.

For I am just a creator of my dreams, but only he decides.

takecare love.

Gem, the Friendship.

I know it have been ages since I blog about my daily activities but I just can’t help it due to my busy schedules. You can say I’ve got no life!

Anyways, how can life be not interesting with my lovely and beautiful 7 ladies?

Well, they revolve around me almost every hour of my lives. We might not have win the cash prize during Dhool 2010/2011 competition, but what we’ve gained is definitely a gem, the friendship. I totally miss the hectic dance schedule I’m occupied with almost every day.

What has struck me is the little kid who cried when we didn’t manage to win. She really touches my heart and absolutely, everyone’s too. That’s how much we meant to her and I’m thankful to have lovely supporters throughout our journey in the competition. For those new friends I met during the competition, I’m glad to know you. You’ve been great dancers too!

Now, back to school! I’m really looking forward to the end of this semester in school. I know I’m going to miss every single memory I had in school with everyone but life continues, people move on. So do I (:

I’m crossing my little fingers and pray really hard to get into a university soon. If it’s possible, somewhere near you, love. You’re that motivation always. Insyallah, ameen.

For life is similar to a marathon and not a short sprint. Live it!

takecare love.

Forget Friendship.

I’m of no important anymore.
Let’s just pretend this friendship.
We’re just not going to be like last time anymore.

takecare love.

Utter Pretence

I gave up.

I’m just too tired to make things right.

I know it’s so not me, but situation is causing this.

No matter how perfect you try to make things happen,

everyone will just go against you thinking you’re being selfish and harsh.

Why can’t people think nicely of you?

I don’t understand why people have to pretend and then hurt the other party.

We may look very close but I never knew it was forced to.

No best friends or close friends can ever be trusted, sorry to say.

But this is what it’s being portrayed by bitching behind the backs.

Today, I learned that no matter how much you treasure someone,

nothing can be appreciated from it. Nothing!

So, why do we need to treasure such friendship when it’s just pretence?

takecare love.

DHOOL- TP UNIFIED!

I love this magical night!

My dear girls, we’re a step ahead now from realizing our dream!

I’m so thankful to god for this miracle and with god wills; we’ll do our very best for the other remaining rounds.

I agree that our journey together was not easy but we made it through. I hope that all the negative comments you girls received from the fellow seniors or anyone is not taken to heart. After all, you girls know how much we want this journey to be perfect!

So, now its time to have your break and till we meet next time!

Let’s promise to keep improving ourselves and to make others realize how important this competition is to us.

After all, it comes from within, our passion.

I love you Girls!

Not forgetting our fellow helpers who were the backbone of TP Unified!

Without you people, we’ll not be where we are right now and plus the supporters who took so much of effort to be there for us.

I thank thee for everything!

Do support TP UNIFIED in Dhool and watch us every Saturday at 7PM on Vasantham Central!

takecare love.

Goodbye Friends!

Nobody could understand what I’m feeling right now. I could not believe that even people whom you made important in your life like your own best friend could hurt you this bad. Don’t you think we should not consider the friendship anymore?

To you: I’ve NEVER dislike you as you’re always considered as my favourite best friend! But, I don’t know where I got the courage to say “bye” to you as you know I never like the word as it means separation to me. Perhaps, you didn’t say anything to hurt me but your action has definitely caused the pain within. You’re totally not the best friend that I first met and I miss the real you.

And to those that concern: I just don’t see the purpose of me. I just don’t feel belonged anymore. I just want to quit and leave this. I don’t seem to be appreciated for what I’ve done so far and sadly, I’m being looked upon as the bad person now. Thanks for hurting me and making me feel this way. For at least I would know who are my TRUE friends!

takecare love.