nope, im not a god believer.
today is my birthday. happy birthday to me~!
27 this year, very old. not achievement. very poor.
still, my will on life is totally gone. i had given up on life.
i stopped pursuing my desires.
i stopped relying on myself.
i stopped believing my abilities.
i stopped looking forward for tomorrow.
i stopped searching answers.
i stopped loving anyone, included myself.
so the question is, what else do i have in life?
i have a pink laptop, a cellphone, internet connection.
probably a few friends.
years back, i made a promise to myself.
age of 30 i will stop spending time for myself.
means, no resting, no breaks, no holiday, no romance, nothing for myself.
i will work, work til my death. work for money, power and fame.
my moral values will be nothing, becoming total ruthless, nothing stop me.
and i decided to start a family before coming 30.
that is my life path.
write alot of nonsenses in here. totally not related. idk.
im tired.
sign off.
Zhen-Qing Zhou
周真庆
Friday, August 12, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
DIS
Fly away lonely souls
Into the endless sky
So far away
When you're all alone
feelin' down and lonely
Tell me what you see
deep inside your soul
You only know who you are
So don't be afraid
Just open your heart to me
You will spread your wings
like and eagle learning
how to fly in the sky
Just like the sun rises after the rain
you'll shine in the air
Take off your mask
and be true to your heart
Trust yourself and fly away
Into the light of joy and truth
Where there's a grief,
there will always be a hope
for a place where we can be
who we want to be
Your tears may fade away
but always keep the faith
and live tomorrow
Break through the night away
into a brand new day
It has just begun
There are times when I
wish I could just disappear
far from this place of pain and hurt
If only I could be gone
But something in your eyes
holds me back from running away
Oh yes, it's hard sometimes,
but now I'm strong enough to
tell the sadness "Good-bye"
Just like the moon fills the night
with the stars, I'll dance in the air
Seek in the darkness,
there's nothing to fear
I will stand and fly away!
Into the night I'll find the truth
the pain never ends,
but there will always be a hope
to be free, eternally, in this galaxy
To live another day,
the sun will show the way
and I will follow
Break through the night away
into a brand new day
My journey goes on
Into the light of joy and truth
where there's a grief,
there will always be a hope
for a place where we can be
who we want to be
Your tears may fade away
but always keep the faith
and live tomorrow
Break thru the night away
into the brand new day
Your journey's begun
Into the endless sky
So far away
When you're all alone
feelin' down and lonely
Tell me what you see
deep inside your soul
You only know who you are
So don't be afraid
Just open your heart to me
You will spread your wings
like and eagle learning
how to fly in the sky
Just like the sun rises after the rain
you'll shine in the air
Take off your mask
and be true to your heart
Trust yourself and fly away
Into the light of joy and truth
Where there's a grief,
there will always be a hope
for a place where we can be
who we want to be
Your tears may fade away
but always keep the faith
and live tomorrow
Break through the night away
into a brand new day
It has just begun
There are times when I
wish I could just disappear
far from this place of pain and hurt
If only I could be gone
But something in your eyes
holds me back from running away
Oh yes, it's hard sometimes,
but now I'm strong enough to
tell the sadness "Good-bye"
Just like the moon fills the night
with the stars, I'll dance in the air
Seek in the darkness,
there's nothing to fear
I will stand and fly away!
Into the night I'll find the truth
the pain never ends,
but there will always be a hope
to be free, eternally, in this galaxy
To live another day,
the sun will show the way
and I will follow
Break through the night away
into a brand new day
My journey goes on
Into the light of joy and truth
where there's a grief,
there will always be a hope
for a place where we can be
who we want to be
Your tears may fade away
but always keep the faith
and live tomorrow
Break thru the night away
into the brand new day
Your journey's begun
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
some things doesnt need to be told
dead blog. im back to spam abit here and there.
still haven slp yet coz there is something bothering me.
but nevertheless, life's still goes on.
kay, what should i spam?
"Failure is always an option"
i love this quotes by savage adam from mythbusters
or
"Quack, damn u"
by jamie hyneman from mythbusters.
these peoples love failure, why?
coz u can collect data. every failure is a vaild data. lol. i juz love them.
how about school life?
to be honest, relationship is a two way bridge.
if one stop and the other stop too, yet still waiting for each other to cross.
we are done. tat's for sure.
im can be very friendly, very kind. but.
sometimes im not. or rather im too good that peoples started giving shit.
drop tat! fuck off, out of my sight.
anyway, is not bothering me. neither do i care. i noe it's over.
" Peoples are fucking boring "
the zq u noe, it gone too. once u lose it, u will nvr see it return.
Locke
still haven slp yet coz there is something bothering me.
but nevertheless, life's still goes on.
kay, what should i spam?
"Failure is always an option"
i love this quotes by savage adam from mythbusters
or
"Quack, damn u"
by jamie hyneman from mythbusters.
these peoples love failure, why?
coz u can collect data. every failure is a vaild data. lol. i juz love them.
how about school life?
to be honest, relationship is a two way bridge.
if one stop and the other stop too, yet still waiting for each other to cross.
we are done. tat's for sure.
im can be very friendly, very kind. but.
sometimes im not. or rather im too good that peoples started giving shit.
drop tat! fuck off, out of my sight.
anyway, is not bothering me. neither do i care. i noe it's over.
" Peoples are fucking boring "
the zq u noe, it gone too. once u lose it, u will nvr see it return.
Locke
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Updates*
after presentation,
this is the first time that i did not enjoy the project.
actually, this is the second time.
seems that every project from last sem til now,
everything is not going smoothly.
examples, like, sense of urgency, deadlines, work to be done,
things to be done, important what are you doing, things you should not forget.. etc
this time, i can say one thing, i give up on the project. this project.
from the start of the sems, i'm trying to finish asap but peoples just ignore the fact that we are facing new stuffs and most of them are very reluctant to learn new skills.
the matter of fact is, i also agree that it's is hard to face it when you are dealing all sort of problems, such as schools, BGR, family problem, personal problem.
but in the end, who's working, and who's not. everyone have eyes.
i must admit that this time i have not taken responsibility as a leader, OR
in my context, not tanking things up.
sadly, i told myself not to tank stuffs for others, but in the end, im tanking again. but it is much less in volume. but in the end, i didn't finish my task.
because some people don't use brain to program and every things say i dunno, i dunno, i dunno, i dunno. this is very very frustrating. i mean, if u dunno, y cant u go find out the answer? or are u intent to leave it like this. 13 weeks on learning new programming language and yet u still can tell me i dunno. darn it. dammit.
anyway, Crtl+A -> Delete > are you sure? Y
I'm throwing all the complaints and nonsenses away.
I believe that no one wants to do project with me, or rather,
i dun wan to do project with anyone.
i can carry my own weight, i shall just ignore those faggots who only know to complaint and do nothing.
this is the first time that i did not enjoy the project.
actually, this is the second time.
seems that every project from last sem til now,
everything is not going smoothly.
examples, like, sense of urgency, deadlines, work to be done,
things to be done, important what are you doing, things you should not forget.. etc
this time, i can say one thing, i give up on the project. this project.
from the start of the sems, i'm trying to finish asap but peoples just ignore the fact that we are facing new stuffs and most of them are very reluctant to learn new skills.
the matter of fact is, i also agree that it's is hard to face it when you are dealing all sort of problems, such as schools, BGR, family problem, personal problem.
but in the end, who's working, and who's not. everyone have eyes.
i must admit that this time i have not taken responsibility as a leader, OR
in my context, not tanking things up.
sadly, i told myself not to tank stuffs for others, but in the end, im tanking again. but it is much less in volume. but in the end, i didn't finish my task.
because some people don't use brain to program and every things say i dunno, i dunno, i dunno, i dunno. this is very very frustrating. i mean, if u dunno, y cant u go find out the answer? or are u intent to leave it like this. 13 weeks on learning new programming language and yet u still can tell me i dunno. darn it. dammit.
anyway, Crtl+A -> Delete > are you sure? Y
I'm throwing all the complaints and nonsenses away.
I believe that no one wants to do project with me, or rather,
i dun wan to do project with anyone.
i can carry my own weight, i shall just ignore those faggots who only know to complaint and do nothing.
Monday, June 21, 2010
UP
what's up lately?
nothing much,
go to school once a while in the two week term break
mostly stay at home reading stuffs and recharge my physical and mental batteries
intensive reading and studying. although i slack a lot most of the days :)
but still, it's quite boring XXXXX no no no... just been normal relaxing day which i haven really look on to it. nice :)
lots of problems have solved, i guess so. coz most of the problems have been pushed back. nothing to cry over where time is not right :/ heh
i am now drinking bubble tea at the void deck while typing my blog. not bad :) nice feeling thou :? but still kinda lonely here, miss my gf at TAIWAN although we have already break. oh well, i miss the lovely days :=
i believe i have change alot in my personality, character, the way of thinking.
coz i have been too kind or soft to most of the peoples.
where i get alot of scolding from my buddy, all along these years.
daniel and jeannie often say,
" zzq ah, without us ah, u sure kanna eaten die die (jia ka si si) by other peoples "
haha, i agree but i believe that i have nothing to lose.
but now, i cannot spend time with others where they think is it.
coz time is too important to me.
i have wasted alot of time on alot of things. too much.
that's sound so emo, but oh well. end. full stop. that's it. heh
signed off. check out. i be back some other time :)
my dear blog :]
nothing much,
go to school once a while in the two week term break
mostly stay at home reading stuffs and recharge my physical and mental batteries
intensive reading and studying. although i slack a lot most of the days :)
but still, it's quite boring XXXXX no no no... just been normal relaxing day which i haven really look on to it. nice :)
lots of problems have solved, i guess so. coz most of the problems have been pushed back. nothing to cry over where time is not right :/ heh
i am now drinking bubble tea at the void deck while typing my blog. not bad :) nice feeling thou :? but still kinda lonely here, miss my gf at TAIWAN although we have already break. oh well, i miss the lovely days :=
i believe i have change alot in my personality, character, the way of thinking.
coz i have been too kind or soft to most of the peoples.
where i get alot of scolding from my buddy, all along these years.
daniel and jeannie often say,
" zzq ah, without us ah, u sure kanna eaten die die (jia ka si si) by other peoples "
haha, i agree but i believe that i have nothing to lose.
but now, i cannot spend time with others where they think is it.
coz time is too important to me.
i have wasted alot of time on alot of things. too much.
that's sound so emo, but oh well. end. full stop. that's it. heh
signed off. check out. i be back some other time :)
my dear blog :]
Friday, May 28, 2010
my life brother
just now went out with my dear brother, sani tan.
sudden call from him and we are out for supper.
we meet at the flats void deck and out we go to chong pang nasi lemak.
we chat for awhile and talks alot of things recently happening.
he reflected that i, zq, currently he felt i changed. a lot. from the start at the point when in army.
i tot that i changed in to good ways, but he say that i changed to a emo face which is not he have know before.
the bubbly, cheerful, LoL zzq. they used to call me zzq. or ah qing. haha
i didnt actually expect that answers from him. haha.
asked about my current problems, sharing thru him.
he gave a lot of encouraging words, cheer me up, actually made me almost cry.
damn him, how dare he made me going to cry. lucky i did hold back. or else damn malu.
he really is my life brother, not only respect, something even bigger than my own brother.
im so thankful that he talk to me, help me.
lately i been too stress up due to a lot of problems and reasons.
he told me, relex, just follow what u wanted to do, take in problems with no sweat. which i used to be.
thanks again, sani tan. :) one of the few i trusted in my life.
zzq
sudden call from him and we are out for supper.
we meet at the flats void deck and out we go to chong pang nasi lemak.
we chat for awhile and talks alot of things recently happening.
he reflected that i, zq, currently he felt i changed. a lot. from the start at the point when in army.
i tot that i changed in to good ways, but he say that i changed to a emo face which is not he have know before.
the bubbly, cheerful, LoL zzq. they used to call me zzq. or ah qing. haha
i didnt actually expect that answers from him. haha.
asked about my current problems, sharing thru him.
he gave a lot of encouraging words, cheer me up, actually made me almost cry.
damn him, how dare he made me going to cry. lucky i did hold back. or else damn malu.
he really is my life brother, not only respect, something even bigger than my own brother.
im so thankful that he talk to me, help me.
lately i been too stress up due to a lot of problems and reasons.
he told me, relex, just follow what u wanted to do, take in problems with no sweat. which i used to be.
thanks again, sani tan. :) one of the few i trusted in my life.
zzq
Friday, May 21, 2010
Stop! In the name of LOVE - globe
Quelque part entre minuit et I'aube
Je te voyais flotter dans mon reve
Et un soupir entre tes levres
Ballottee par la brise d'automne
Hypnotysee par cette flamme d'amour
Dans cette ombre de tristesse
Telle une feuille morte
Sous cette lune blafarde
Tes larmes inondent mon coeur fragile
Et dans ce ciel sans nuages
Tous mes sourires etaient inutiles
A plat ventre,les yeux clos
Esperant malgre tout
C'est a peine si je t'endendais
Trop timide pour pouvoir te dire
Quelque part entre minuit et I'aube
Je te voyais flotter dans mon reve
Avec un sourire un peu tremblant
Baby,baby,I'm aware of where you go
Each time you leave my door
I watch you walk down the street
Knowing your other love you'll meet
This time before'you run to her
Leaving me alone and hurt
After I've been good to you
After I've been sweet to you
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over, think it over,
think it over, think it over
When the world outside of you
Seems to go too fast for you
Then stop to rest,take a deen breath
And melt into this flow of life
Don't lose your presence of mind
Whatever may happen
Even the red sky turns to grey
You have to fly
I see you crying in the rain
Putting your head on the line
Your love to me can be a strain
How can I ease your pain…
Following the morning star
I'm passing you by
Leaving you in your delusions
Our love never die
When the world outside of you
Seems to go too fast for you
Then stop to rest,take a deep breath
And melt into this flow of life
Our love never die
Together we'll reach the sky
I've known of your, your secret nights
I've even seen her maybe once or twice
But is her sweet expression
Worth more than my love and affection?
This time before you leave my arms
And rush off to her charms
Haven't I been good to you?
Haven't I been sweet to you?
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over, think it over,
think it over, think it over
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over, think it over,
think it over, think it over
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart…
Je te voyais flotter dans mon reve
Et un soupir entre tes levres
Ballottee par la brise d'automne
Hypnotysee par cette flamme d'amour
Dans cette ombre de tristesse
Telle une feuille morte
Sous cette lune blafarde
Tes larmes inondent mon coeur fragile
Et dans ce ciel sans nuages
Tous mes sourires etaient inutiles
A plat ventre,les yeux clos
Esperant malgre tout
C'est a peine si je t'endendais
Trop timide pour pouvoir te dire
Quelque part entre minuit et I'aube
Je te voyais flotter dans mon reve
Avec un sourire un peu tremblant
Baby,baby,I'm aware of where you go
Each time you leave my door
I watch you walk down the street
Knowing your other love you'll meet
This time before'you run to her
Leaving me alone and hurt
After I've been good to you
After I've been sweet to you
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over, think it over,
think it over, think it over
When the world outside of you
Seems to go too fast for you
Then stop to rest,take a deen breath
And melt into this flow of life
Don't lose your presence of mind
Whatever may happen
Even the red sky turns to grey
You have to fly
I see you crying in the rain
Putting your head on the line
Your love to me can be a strain
How can I ease your pain…
Following the morning star
I'm passing you by
Leaving you in your delusions
Our love never die
When the world outside of you
Seems to go too fast for you
Then stop to rest,take a deep breath
And melt into this flow of life
Our love never die
Together we'll reach the sky
I've known of your, your secret nights
I've even seen her maybe once or twice
But is her sweet expression
Worth more than my love and affection?
This time before you leave my arms
And rush off to her charms
Haven't I been good to you?
Haven't I been sweet to you?
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over, think it over,
think it over, think it over
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over, think it over,
think it over, think it over
Stop! in the name of love
Before you break my heart…