Berry Strawberry

Yeah! he is Lotso. whish is stand for lots-of-hugss =) cute no? but he smell strawberryyyy *love*love*love*

Its just another day. Wednesday. Good sail everybody!

The Bitter Sweet

Good Morning people=) It is very early in the morning and Im already wake up from my dreamland. I had sunbrun, painful skin and swollen eyes. yeah, u heard no wrong than this -- swollen eyes-- It was suppose a happy day for everyone as we got 3rd place for volleyball competition. But to me, it is something saddening and yet heartbreaking. It not about 3rd places or what we had achieved in the competition.

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Dear life-time-best-buddy-C ,

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Maybe you are right that im never face any failure in my life before. In schooling time, Im always excel in everything i've done. Im always try my best in every single thing im get involved in and yet stil i am now. Doing the best in everything im involve and hope to strike for the best.

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When im once a music girl in school, im nvr gv up to learn new intruments when we step into secondary school. During primary, it was a modern band and im a trumpeter. It never fail me to master up tis intrument with the determination that hide inside my little-fist-big-heart at that time. As time come, we are graduate and proceed to secondary shool. I was then change to chinese orchestra hua-yue. It was totally something different from what i played during primary life. But stil, it never turn me down after few years of practise and training, I can proudly say that Im good at the new chinese intruments. And yet, to be promoted to hand an important post of the society.=)

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I was once a girlguides too. We are always combine with the scouts and have activities. In this society, I do belive that hard work will show people ur potential to be the leader of the team. And i did it. I never ever think of rely on anykind of relationship, that mite happen like some people's sister is the leader and so she got higher chances to be promoted..and blablabla. It works, when my hard work pay off. I was then assigned to hand crucial position in this society again. yeah, thats my seconday school life that full with responsibilities and fun.

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I was also once a sport girl in school throughout primary-secondary school. Im not any state player or a top high record to high jump or even not a shortest time record for maraton running. But, I was proudly to say that Im a netball player. I was once a school player. I never ever forget the training that quite burden of at that period of time. I always thought of skipping those training, but never i did fail to attend the practice. It not only practising in school but some weekends we have to go some sports club to training and gear up ourself. Its not an easy task for a schooling child that hv to spend off weekends for the netball training.

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And now, im a university student. Joining and learn of volleyball never once come through my mind. But i would then give myself a try and learn new sports since its no harm trying. Friends giving support and motivation when im struggling to join this club as im zero about volleyball! (with not counted those secondary time we are force to ball digging or do serving during PJ period.ha!) Its never! for the kind of height of me, never once think of volleyball.=) a 160cm girl play volleyball? it sound rather funny. But, i tried and its now over a year joining volleyball. never deny I stil not yet master it. Maybe this is not my game perhaps. Its not that im giving up but I do tried alot. But, disappointment never fail to hit me in every competition I have taken part. Yeah, Im a reserve player but I am stil worst than some freshies that had just join our team for few months only. It just feeling its such a disgrace. Or perhanps, a good relationship with the leader will have higher chances to play during competition? I dont believe all this. But what can i do when this is what happen in reality. To walk away but not break my principle by having good relation with the leader just for my own good sake.

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Yeah, my bf is a volleyball player in our uni too. People might think that I went training just for the purpose of accompany my bf and spend time doing things togather by going vb training? wtf?!

Joining volleyball competition just the purpose of had a chance to go with the team and giving support to my bf? All of this bulls*t is making me sick. Giving my best to play with the teamate(if i were giving a chance), giving motivation support to the teamate, and concentrate on the game when teamate playing on, was all i do. Never once i leave my team and go to the boy's team and cheer for them when my girls team are on match.

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Attending training during uni time was always excite me as I wanted to learn new things from here, and I want to master it to be a part of the team. But sadly, hard work never pay off this time.

For this time, i do cry hard after the competition. It was tear-jerking and heartbreaking, I couln'd hold it anymore. Everytime I told myself that I shld gv myself another chance after every competition. Maybe some other reserve player are good than me, that is why they have chance to play during competition. But, this time, this competition will be the last. Something that ashame me happened, and I am now done with it.

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Thanks babeY C, im glad u are here with me during price giving ceremony. I just do not want to ruin everyone's happiness and my sayang's feeling at that moment.*hugs* yeah, u are here always,like i do. buddies rulez yea? :D

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To my sayang Babo =) thanks for being understanding. You are not the first one im looking for at that moment because you are the one I care the most. I do not want you to put any blame on anyone or felt the sadness in my heart like I do while you are suppose to get ur medal happily at that moment. But, you do find me =) your shoulder that fit me well the most reach me just when i needed the most. Thanks for being with me no matter what had happen. Having you with me, the courage is is now all in me =)

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Theres one said:

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**Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak, sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go**

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Aloha!

Hi people... not much updates lately because theres nth special in my life now. Im now leading a boring miserable life =( heading to a boring couple life... not much during the weekends, no more good good night outing on every friday night. thats saddening *sob* fml... Life seems like getting busy and busier.... I got my own assign, test, and thesis to worry with; and he got his working loads..the stress that he had to face everyday, even during the weekends i would just rather stay back at home watch online movie spend time with him instead of hanging around the shopping mall =( thats why im saying we are now being a boring couple on earth...doing what normal couple do. watch movie, stay at home lazz around like nobody business....out for lunch, then back hm nap or online movie or i'll be reading magazine...then go for dinner.. and there goes our weekends.wtf.. Where are those happening us hanging around at shopping mall? or go for movie every week?

I would say love is blind. What say you?

It was always a special day to me on a particular day but we always go through and treat it ordinaryly. Sometimes i just wonder how things work as we always got different view of perspective. I guess thats what we attracted to each other by our differences?LOL

I always think that birthday is a day, where we are the queen/king of the day. XD Its a day where we must celebrate with lotsa frens, getting wishes from frens all over the world.hahaha...BUT for him, he thinks that birthday not really a big matter to be celebrate, maybe thats whats all-guys thought about? birthday is nothing? NO WAY!

I think Valentine is a day which is equivalent to gift, datez, and sweet words..but this year valentine falls on the same day as first day of CNY, SO..which also means that we are not going to celebrate our very first valentine as we were went back to our very own sweet hometown. Thats saddening right? wtf

Seeing and always looking forward for our every monthly anniversary, I knew thats silly. I knew we just counted in months but not in years yet, but that does meant something to me. Seeing that-particular-day the month coming every month, our love just grow along with time. Looking forward as always that-particular-day- of every month, but its sometimes a disappointment. We are just too busy or what? We forgot to wish each other happy 3rd month anniversary the other day...and i'd forgot if I;d wish the 4th month the other day..or 5th month.... gawd!!... we must be the worst couple of all....S.O.S are we that busy? *pat forehead*

I think loving each other was not counting on how we celebrate those date...or what gift we might get from our soulmate? (readers, no offence yea=) ) After all, we stil trying to explore each other's interest and spend so much time doing things togather happilysurrounded by the "chemical reaction". We stil doing silly things to each other...which we wont expected sometimes. We stil want each other to be the first one to know the good news or bad news. =) sharing the same thounghts and giving the vitamin L. ha..

Well well.... I gotto get back that same -old -me, stick with the theory that weekends is a MUST to hangout, chill out, and wind out the stress =) If not, what are weekends meant to be? not only staying at home eat , sleep =.=" unless theres exam or assignment on board, then weekends will be busy on notes and info searching. which is shitness to the max! ha~~

Anyway, IF u guys already forget how I look like~~~ ha... Heres my current picture! Its stil me afterall the mash-potato-cheesy wedges-sausage-mc-muffin-fries! LOL

Mc*D had been my staple food lately ^,^ the addiction is back! help~~but stil i really think that theres "something" contained in McD that always makes people happy after having it. Or maybe they pump nitrogen gas into it during the frying or baking process? hahahaha

Okies....Nah~~~ Thats me looo....stil the same old me, same old bedroom, same old mirror that let me camwhore

HappY Sunday folks!

Crappy Head

It is hot. as in so HOT. such a hot weather! This is crazy as cny is coming. The weather is always untolerable when cny is at the corner. As usual my room will like an oven evernight but this time round I'd move to middle room compare to last year was small room. Insanely hot when in small room. T.T but middle room is also hot, just that not as hot as small room. hmm.... nvmnvm..somehow sometimes I get to sleep in aircon room as..*erhem* ^^

Cook myself lunch just now. Bought a new cooking pan last week when shop in 1U. Wanted to buy this pan so long ...so badly ....finally now i got it! :D :D :D See see see.......

Well, mum gave me fish and prawns to bring back KL on my last trip back pg. So, im gonna fried it all! But...i have remove all the intestine by myself =( but im successed thou! from the direction mum gave..i hold on my breath and makes my hand senseless and dig up all the jelly-like thingy in the fish stomach ><~~~~~~

Then add some olive oil(u'll know the reason why most recommended to use olive oil later), add some vineger, salt applied on fish, some soy sause and pepper, a packet of instant noodle. Thats it! Fast and easy (Y)(Y)

Yumm~~~~

Why do I always use Olive oil? Well, cause i'll mix it with my instant noodle later after i boil my noodle instead to fried the noodle. (to lower the heatiness of the food, boil always healthy than fried rite rite rite XD) I always keep olive oil with me as its really healthy compare to others. U can put on salad, mix with ur spaggetti, mix woth ur noodle, or drink it! (haha...JOKING). FYI, olive oil is beneficial to our health as it has high content of monosaturated fat. Give protection to our heart from diseases, lower our LDL and increase HDL (dont know how true it is, but thats what I study before.lol)

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Its hard sometimes but I believe time is the wisest counselor afterall. And now I know how u feel the unsecurity of my appearance afterall u have it. Im now turning to be like u, act like u but not until ur level. You are so success that we are now hardly talk anymore. Maybe you are right and im so fine with it now. Should I do as u do? I dont think i can make it. We are having the different personality. And most important im not a good fishmonger like u, thou i wish i am.

*crap* duno what im talking....

GREAT DAY PEEPS~!

When the Inbox Is Out Of Memory

Browsing through my handphone inbox its just makes me feel hard. I think i started to miss everyone. =(
YES, people that use to be close with me, people that use to text me in the middle of the nite for yamcha.

I miss people who text me for shooping.

I miss people who text me for singK.

I miss people who text me for words of concern when saw my upset pm or sad shoutout at fb.

I miss people who text me just to say "i miss you" and i feel awkward rather than annoy cz...its makes me feels happy at the same time i feel weird as : why u say "i miss u".lol

I miss people who saw me passby but i didnt saw u, and u just text me just to say "u look beautiful today". Its just a simple msg but brighten up my day ^^

I miss people who allways send me nice and warm forward msg, its not the matter of forward or own type msg, but it just reminds me of im standing a little space in ur heart. =)

I miss people who always come out with crazy plan and we are all get excited with it.

I miss people who i use to hang out with no purpose but just sit and chat blank.

I miss people who are my partner in crime always thought of how to eat the cheese cakes when the manager in not in.

I miss people who always do the last minutes plan with me to cinema for movie, even the show starts in 10mins time but stil able to rush out for the movie.

I MISS YOU GUYS!!!

StoP~~~~~

Sometimes i would really wish TIME can be stop or to be slow down for a while. Time really flies like blinking of eyes? Everything just passby so fast that things pretty mess up sometimes but its out of control. but to let it be and adapt to it.

But at least...I've make myself breakfast as usual.

and cook myself lunch sometimes. Its stil taste not bad thou ^^

and went to club after miss out so much clubbing dates with my girls =.=

Well...when putting all things aside and recalling back. I'll thrilled with what had happen in this few months. Its like a dream that hard to be awake and never wanted to. But stil...i guess its time to wake up and back to reality. Uni, friends, shopping, movie, and love.

Who doesnt wants to have their own romantic, interesting, happy love story that would makes others envy of? =) Im glad, that im not into long distance relationship anymore but I guess there always pros and cons. (*type*delete*type*delete*.......what to write out ><)

I guess im stil finding a balance point of have my own great one. To have what I always dream of. I knew its not gonna be easy to always have what we dream of but we can create it. Its not an ordinary one, but its not too special too. BUT its how things should be.

Great Day peeps =)

Bad Dream

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Cant write a word. I feel pressure from all. u name it, i'll have it.

I know..everyone got own pressure... sigh.. tats life!