Do you have the pent-up feeling?
Of knowing something that stokes the fire in your heart?
But you must never do anything about it?

You even want to bash somebody up.
But no.
You don't want to cause hurt.
You just want happiness.

So what do you do?
You shout into the pillow.
Hoping the voices of your pent-up emotions will travel halfway around the world.

In other news,
events closer to home depresses the heart
But the brain decides that it is all for the best.
So Brain 1 - 0 Heart.

why do i feel so sad when i listen to these songs?
Ashily is really killing me.

Labels: zpop

Compare and contrast.
The two words I hate most.
Since young.
Why do people hurt each other
Just because they
Compare
The better ones get ostracised. Labelled as elitists.
The lousier ones get segregated. Labelled as delinquent.

Well...it can be said that this is merely human nature.
When you look
You notice things that move
Because your eyes compare what the current moment with the previous one.
It is written in your biological code.
And I still can't figure out what is wrong with me.

I am currently watching the Korean F4...Boys Before Flowers.
I dunno why I keep doing this.
Everytime I watch all these drama I get emo.
As if I am not emo enough in the first place.
I have the knack of piling other people's troubles onto myself
Together with all the embarassing things only I could do to myself

The sky. Sparkling with stars. Or are they satellites?
I look up at night.
Are these the same stars you are looking at?
Glistening like your teardrops
Suspended in the dark gloomy night.

The music. Tugging at your heartstrings.
The same song you always listen to when you are happy
Now it just makes you feel sad.
The song echoes in your mind.

The memories. Carving up your heart.
Happy memories. They make you distraught when you think of the present.
Sad memories. They make you writhe in regret.
The past
Blurs into the present
And you do not know what is happening anymore.

And yet as I type all these.
I haven't the faintest clue
What the hell is depressing me.
Is this what they call
Depression?
Feels more like
Suppression.
Suppress all the melancholy
And then you look up into the sky once more.
Are you crying on behalf of me?
And thus concludes yet another ramble.
Of which nothing makes sense.

i dunno why

I just started tuitioning a Pri 2 kid.
A favour for a very good friend.
He's a very good boy, but he has very lousy English.
Maybe I expect too much from a Pri 2 boy.
But I shall try to improve his english.
Is it too soon to introduce phonetics??

Anyway so Sunday was the first time I went for tuition...
A bit nervous at first but luckily Simin went with me.
Quite worried for her since she went to Canada...
She's not exactly the type who takes care of herself well
And there's not exactly anyone who takes good care of her
Actually...I'm more worried she might even have to take care of somebody else...
But I guess that's a concern I should not delve into.

And Monday was the last exam for Adeline! Wow! Graduate liao!
Sigh...and I am still barely in Year 1...
Had a nice dinner with her after my tuition.
Gossip soothes the soul.
Thanks Ade for being such a great listening ear!
So sorry for being a bit grouchy...a mix of this and that...
Actually I wouldn't have noticed if you didn't point it out.

I hate the construction workers!
They throw metal pieces onto the ground with such loud clanging noise
I CANNOT SLEEP FOR ***** SAKE!
Plus being preoccupied with other people's problems do not help at all.

Oh...my cousins and I discovered Garena! Now we can DOTA together without Battlenet
Spent the last few nights playing DOTA again! Reminds me of JC and Michael Lai and Ting

Today I went to walk the Telok Blangah Bridge with my uni classmates
Amazingly 8 of us were there!
The stairs were quite breathtaking. As in PANT PANT PANT PANT TAKE YOUR BREATH AWAY.
and so was the view from the top of Mount Faber and the bridge.
Then we went into the HortPark, which was very very beautiful
There's even a shop selling plants and related items...good for greening your home
Then we were supposed to continue all the way to Kent Ridge
But it rained...so we hurried down the ridge and took a bus from Pasir Panjang...
...ALL THE WAY TO TOA PAYOH
Apparently going to Toa Payoh is for aunties and uncles only.
The senior auntie(SY) and senior uncle(Kelvin) actually met each other there last week
Well...both of them really do come from the same era...they sing the same retro songs!
Anyway lunch was Hog's Breath Cafe with a nice set meal.
I had Chicken Leg something or other, which turned out to be Chicken Chop.
Plus watercress soup, a piece of garlic bread and........ APPLE CRUMBLE!
ok...actually it tasted more like soft apple pie but it's ok

Tired tired tired.

I figure there will never be such a thing as a time machine.
That's because I would be going back in time frantically trying to undo my past.

I lie in bed
My eyes, I do not dare to shut.
Everytime I do, the images flash again
All the stupid things I did
All the hurtful words I said
In the day I tread on eggshells
Determined not to be a jerk again
Will I lose another friend?
Will I add to the collection of regrets?

Life.
A celebration of spontaneity.
Spontaneity is really not working for me.
I do not trust myself.
No.
So I consider each and every action
But I find
By the time I act
I will always be too late.

Is there a guidebook to being me?
Cos I'll give anything for one of those.

They say The past always catches up to you.
No.
I've never left it in the first place.

Fractured thoughts.

If you have never watched this before...
Its about these 4 nerds and The Pretty Blond Neighbour.
Very interesting if you can get the intellectual jokes. :P
Not being elitist here!!

Anyway...I feel terrible.
I dunno how to console heartbroken people.
Sometimes I wonder if I make it worse...
Me and my untactful mouth.
I must really think before I talk...ARGH

Haiz.
Please cheer up ok?