finally i realize hw bad i got...
the feeling to cry came
but i wun
nitez bloggie
~

scholarship

nw that im goint to lost my scholarship
i really feel guilty
gotta think of how to solve financial prob...
it had been quite some time i dun need to open my mouth to ask for money frm my parents
as i can get them from my scholarship...
but now~
im thinking to repeat Performance Management that i get D last sem...
it kinda hurts whn my mum says haiya now no scholarship dy...repeat for wat wor...
it gonna costs me rm1000 for the paper...n i really wanna improve my CGPA...
it had dropped tremendously since last sem...
what had happened to me...
my brain had stopped to function properly?
or had i take thgs for granted thinking that i can score n i start to put less effort...
next sem gonna be a hard semester for me...

2011

its 2011 and 2010 had ended...
kinda much had happened in 2010...
i had gone through tears and smile...and i did learn alot...
but my academic drops like ppl going for bungee jump...
wat a year...

lets mentioned smthg i learn that i wish to share with u guys:
#u c...we've got to stop complaining and do sm action that can actually save or change the situation to a better one...complains dun help~
#whn u r in a team organizing events...if any internal prob occur...we need to solve it internally instead of making a fuss bout it...for the sake of enjoyment of participants...
#as usual...different way of talking or conveying message do affect the level of acceptance of listeners even though the message is the same...
#money can't buy friendship...at the same time...we've got to learn to let our friends go if they wish to...its no longer the same like whn we r still young...ppl come n go in our life...we need to accept that they will not necessary be there anymore whn we need them...be more independent~
#what more in relationship...dun expect much thn u will get hurt lesser...pls und the word lesser!! which means u will still get hurt~
#no matter how hard current situation will be...the globe will still rotate n time will still pass n heal your wound...stay strong n handle the situation like an adult...im no longer a children...take up my responsibility n sustain the result for watever shit i had did!
#enjoy wat we have now cause we might lose it in the next second...believe me~
#family is important...love them more...
most probably there are few more that i can't recall at the current moment...

my resolution for this year:
@punctuality (im always late)
@improve on my academic studies (or else i gonna fail one day)
@love my family and friends more n more
@dun take thgs for granted...care more bout my dear

Happy New Year guys~ hope it isnt too late babes sekalian~

bb

today result is out...
well nth much to say as usual...
disappointment...i guess i gonna say bye bye to my scholarship...
who else to blame except myself huh...
i've got my muet result too...band 4...targeted result...but i hope my eng improves~
besides this matter...
it still give me a shock and hard to accept that
someone who had once been so close to me...
had try to ignore my existence dy...