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Bloggie...

I'm working now for my internship... its true that studying life still feels better...

gotta force myself to wake up early in the morning and only ends work when the night falls...

its not easy to earn money man...lolz...

seldom see mr.sun...

count down every monday for saturday to fall...

1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and it will be TGIF! =)

St John Charity Dinner 2011

Tonight I attended St John Ambulance Malaysia Charity Dinner

held in conjunction with the St John Ambulance National Conference 2011 in

Teluk Intan, Perak...

Like usual attended the dinner with my family members and my relatives...

the different issue for this year is that I went with a companion and it is during the mid of my

Year 3 Sem 1 final examination..

I have always respected the President of St John Ambulance Malaysia...

Every time listening to his speech, it somehow portrays to me how loyal and committed he is in serving the society through the NGO...and so does all the members of the organization...

I was one of them in the past and this reminds me of the similar charity dinner I attended in year 2008....there is this person whom I love attended the dinner...

Yet this year I lost him, who had cared and loved me since the day I was borned...

he is a very special person to me...

I could still recall what he had done and his expression when I was just a small kid...

His reaction when my foot got stuck in the bicycle rim on the way he cycled me to attend my tuition class...

His expression when he was shouting as I was fighting with my sister in the house...

He taught me how to speak and listen to the hokkien dialect...

He loved guiness beer...and he gave me a taste of that when I was just a kid...

the first sip of the taste of the bitterness of beer that I had ever tasted...

I could even remember when I was as old as one or two years old kid or I was just a baby back then...when I was under his hug and he tug the bottle of milk into my mouth....I used to play with his slagging thin arm skin till I finished my milk...

there isn't much picture I had with him before...

this is the one I could find in my lappy during the charity dinner back in year 2008...

since the day I moved to johor, I had somehow lost contact with him and the family for 5 years...

and only met him once a year after I moved back to my hometown...

=(

I will always love him and remember him...

Pangkor Trip 2011

~Pangkor Trip 2011~

It had been a good experience for me to be appointed as the chairman for this event...Have been organizing alot of events and this is the one where I have to take responsibility of everything..taking care and making sure everything goes right...and do our job in a team...

Though it is not a perfect trip and there are problems in between, we have really enjoyed ourselves and I'm glad to know each and everyone in the trip...

Some pichas to be shared:

taken by my friend

Group picha 1

Group picha 2

Group picha 3

realistic

day by day

i get more and more realistic realizing how this world functions

i seriously don't like it

but i have no choice

but to accept thats the fact

my dear world

~

happy birthday

Happy Birthday

to you~

...apparently invisible pressure is killing me slowly...

exam period

dear bloggie...

its exam period now...

i have two papers down and 4 more to go...

its really hard to stay focus and stay strong in determination...

these 4 papers arent easy and one of them is my repeating paper...

i really hope i can score in it...one of the paper that made me receive warning letter for my used to be scholarship...

another paper which had caused the termination of my scholarship im considering whether shud i repeat next semester to improve on my cgpa...hmmmm...

oh...this hour i've hav to stay awake to revise...must work hard...never say never to notes now...lolz...

oh i miss my bofie~

wat a day...

tonight is the night i feel to blog...

hi everyone...
its another mid nite 3:37am

an unlucky day for me...din do well in my english paper this afternoon as i mistook the paper as a 2 and a half hour paper instead of a 2 hour paper...
ended up i finish the report in 15minutes and that fucking report costs me 40 marks...
i do wonder how much can i get...damn panick that time...
luckily i can still think and SIMPLY write...
anyway in the evening i realize i lost my driving license...
cool huh~
reached home at 6pm and went out again at 6.45pm for a farewell dinner with photography society's seniors...to9 feels good even though its tiring...
u know its really happy to see ppl smile and laugh happily...
if only life is that free and easy...i wonder why do we bring so much pressure and stress into it...

easy come easy go???
hahaha...

"Photography isnt bout the photos u have got...its bout the fun u have with ur friend" quoted from one of the seniors...

有时候想一想
是否一个人就什么都不用烦了
管得多，又觉得自己烦
不知为何让自己那么烦恼
不管，他又觉得你不关心他
不知该怎么样才对
会不会久而久之就忘了
开心是怎么写的
苦脸伤心的脸孔又多了
。。。

为何天下的男生都是一样的？

March life

hey guys,
it had been long since my last update...
had been busy with assignments, mid terms and events lately...
even assignments and mid terms had took off my entire month...
somehow busy life is jz able to keep me emotionally balance...
im nt free to think bout other stuffs...jz enough to think wats ahead of me...
whats i've got to do...how much time left for nap or sleep...
have heard bout assignments problem here and there...had heard bout myself gossiping around too...
suddenly tired of it...tired of talking too much? haha is that me?
well...
there was once i pass by my uni laboratories...
i saw alot of them playing with the equipments or wat do u call it...
this is the result of leaving science stream for such a long time...
by then only i realize i do miss the labs moments jz fooling around with chemicals or physic theories or even the goat's heart? lolz...
it had been almost three years my studies in utar...
fast huh~ one more sem...i will be going for internship...
one more year...my uni life will end...
how will it be for my working life?

worrying for my cgpa this sem...i do hope i could be able to start my revision earlier
...

~regret i jz fail to start today too~

everything happens for a reason

"everything happens for a reason
its time to get that regret off your mind and move on"

*dealing with with disappointment and regret is like coming to a
fork in the road-
one way leads downwards to rumination and guilt;
the other way leads upwards to a better version of yourself"

then how do we deal with regret??
-write down your regrets: this clarifies them in your mind
-examine them: understand the reasons behind your decisions
-change your toxic thought patterns
-grieve losses that you have suffered. Acknowledge that you feel sad or angry about the situation
-make ammends: apologise for something you've done
-identify lessons: make sure u learn frm regretful experiences, mistakes are fine, as long as they are new ones.
-develop compassion: understand other ppl's points of view and emphathise. Have compassion for yourself too.
-forgive others: this frees you from anger and pain.
-forgive yourself: Stop condemning yourself. "in order to truly love yourself, you have to be capable of forgiving yourself for being a human tornado of emotions, fears and appetites."
-live free of regrets: accept what has already happened, learn your lesson, and move on...*

This is part of the article extract from CLEO magazinne...i have my regrets too and somehow i should learn to accept that had already happened and there is nothing i can do to change the fact...
gotta move on and stay strong~

finally i realize hw bad i got...
the feeling to cry came
but i wun
nitez bloggie
~

scholarship

nw that im goint to lost my scholarship
i really feel guilty
gotta think of how to solve financial prob...
it had been quite some time i dun need to open my mouth to ask for money frm my parents
as i can get them from my scholarship...
but now~
im thinking to repeat Performance Management that i get D last sem...
it kinda hurts whn my mum says haiya now no scholarship dy...repeat for wat wor...
it gonna costs me rm1000 for the paper...n i really wanna improve my CGPA...
it had dropped tremendously since last sem...
what had happened to me...
my brain had stopped to function properly?
or had i take thgs for granted thinking that i can score n i start to put less effort...
next sem gonna be a hard semester for me...

2011

its 2011 and 2010 had ended...
kinda much had happened in 2010...
i had gone through tears and smile...and i did learn alot...
but my academic drops like ppl going for bungee jump...
wat a year...

lets mentioned smthg i learn that i wish to share with u guys:
#u c...we've got to stop complaining and do sm action that can actually save or change the situation to a better one...complains dun help~
#whn u r in a team organizing events...if any internal prob occur...we need to solve it internally instead of making a fuss bout it...for the sake of enjoyment of participants...
#as usual...different way of talking or conveying message do affect the level of acceptance of listeners even though the message is the same...
#money can't buy friendship...at the same time...we've got to learn to let our friends go if they wish to...its no longer the same like whn we r still young...ppl come n go in our life...we need to accept that they will not necessary be there anymore whn we need them...be more independent~
#what more in relationship...dun expect much thn u will get hurt lesser...pls und the word lesser!! which means u will still get hurt~
#no matter how hard current situation will be...the globe will still rotate n time will still pass n heal your wound...stay strong n handle the situation like an adult...im no longer a children...take up my responsibility n sustain the result for watever shit i had did!
#enjoy wat we have now cause we might lose it in the next second...believe me~
#family is important...love them more...
most probably there are few more that i can't recall at the current moment...

my resolution for this year:
@punctuality (im always late)
@improve on my academic studies (or else i gonna fail one day)
@love my family and friends more n more
@dun take thgs for granted...care more bout my dear

Happy New Year guys~ hope it isnt too late babes sekalian~

bb

today result is out...
well nth much to say as usual...
disappointment...i guess i gonna say bye bye to my scholarship...
who else to blame except myself huh...
i've got my muet result too...band 4...targeted result...but i hope my eng improves~
besides this matter...
it still give me a shock and hard to accept that
someone who had once been so close to me...
had try to ignore my existence dy...