Sakae Sushi

Hmm hmm, by the courtesy of our Yuki-chan, today's lunch was... JAPANESE FOOD! Well er, not that I seldom eat Jap food or what but... oh well, so we went all the way to KLCC and dined at Sakae Sushi. And oops... I actually forgot to take pictures of the front door. Well don't matter that.
When we reached... we were like, the first customers there I believe. I thought that sushi shops are more towards those spinning sushi mechanism thing, as below...

But then it turns out... it wasn't just about this. (count me ignorant, I love japanese food but I have no idea about japanese restaurants lol). Well can you see that computer monitor there? That's the ordering machine, which I feel its very much good. First off, you wouldn't need to ask the waiter/waitresses to come and take your order, and also process is so fast that you'll get your food pretty quickly.

As our host(me-proclaimed, wuhaha), Yuki started of with some plates of sushi that included squids & all, which in fact, I like those stuff... But, I'm one to think about prices lol. Anyways, its a pity that I just can't get the names down of each type... so I'll just post some pictures up here instead =.=

The free California Roll from HK's coupon

Ultraman-fin unknown sushi (guest hand YUKI xD)

I dunno what is this, but it tastes a bit like potato-ish thing

Pumpkin Chawamushi, some kinda pudding stuff (heard it was made by fish eggs)

The classical Ebi aka Shrimp sushi (I think)

Actually this is where we get the fin-like sushi thing (first shot angle)

I have no idea what it is, but sure is god damn delicious

Well, for a lil conclusion of this, I kinda regret not coming to Sakae sushi for our Service Marketing project lol. This place is nice and the food are... nyum. Just the price... lol. Just for a little information about the sushi :

Green plates are RM1.90

Pink plates are RM3.90

Red plates are RM5.90

There are also other foods such as gyudon, udon & soba, sukiyaki, bento, teriyaki, and many other stuff that I can't remember ._. I guess it's quite a standard price for a japanese restaurant, and personally I won't mind coming again to this place. Last 2 pictures...

Nice angle courtesy of Yuki-chan =o


Itadakimasu~

Merry Christmas

Ho ho ho, merry xmas! Yeah, it's the day we call a happy day... but I don't know, I'm pretty sad myself off late. No, I'm not getting some kinda "sure die" sickness or what. AND NO, I'M NO SAD THAT I GOT DUMPED, I'M NOT EVEN IN A RELATIONSHIP TO START WITH. It's, my dad... Well, I'm not going to go into that part of the story, but... It gives me somewhat a revelation that, things that you plan, won't always go the way you want to be. Getting a car before 25, a family before 35, a house before 40, all these kinda stuff are easy to obtain. But, getting a perfectly normal, happy life... It's just hard to plan and get them nicely.

I just hate to cry about these kinda stuff, when you know that your family is going to break down sooner or later, but as dad says, what can I do? I can't stop things that are bound to happen, it's just not in my power. Not that I'm good at being a middleman, its just that, sometimes, we're just powerless against these kind of stuff. I feel guilty and useless, but then dad would just remind me that it's not my fault. I've always wondered about this but, maybe it isn't. I don't need enlightment, I just want everyone to be happy. If dad's happy about leaving the house and going to some place far, then I'll support him. I love mom, and I love dad too... I just want you both to be happy.

Kinda pushed to do this -.-

*Note: I've translated the whole thing from chinese to english to suit every person who reads this blog*

（１）Do fill it if you are picked，if you do not fill it you are being disrespectful to the questions itself and also the person who sent this to you.
（２）Honestly answer every question.
（３）Do NOT edit the questions whatsoever. (Translation don't count :D)
（４）Pick 10 friends to fill this in.
（５）After picking, please inform them that they have been picked.
（６）After the 10 people filled this up，they are required to send this back to you.

————–[ I ] . Personal - 10Q ————–
[ 01 ] Name: Hilmi
[ 02 ] Nickname: Yam Mi, Ah Mi, Zero, Uncle
[ 03 ] Bloodtype：AB
[ 04 ] Zodiac：Scorpio
[ 05 ] Male/Female?：Male
[ 06 ] Age：19
[ 07 ] Where do you live：KL
[ 08 ] Current school：TARC
[ 09 ] Do you have a handphone?：Yeh
[ 10 ] Refering the above, how many? ：2, but I only use one.

————–[ 2 ] . Friends - 10Q ————–
[ 11 ] Your best friend（only 1）: No best friend... sadly.
[ 12 ] Most hated person（only 1）：none
[ 13 ] Most beautiful female friend（only 1）：viv? i dunno ._.
[ 14 ] Most handsome male friend（only 1）：er...
[ 15 ] Hate which kind of girl：100% brainless and bitchy girl
[ 16 ] Hate which kind of guy：act smart without facts and annoying guys
[ 17 ] Your good friends (no limit)：too many to list out ._.
[ 18 ] Always go out with which friends?：HK, the Yams
[ 19 ] Most blur friend（only 1, excluding yourself) : Can't think of a suitable candidate... we got a club for it you know...
[ 20 ] Cutest friend（only 1）：Junie =o

————–[ 3 ] . Lovelife - 15Q ————–
[ 21 ] Have anyone you like?：No
[ 22 ] If yes, who is he/she：told you no lo
[ 23 ] If no，when would you wish to be in a relationship?：when it comes, it comes. aka sui yuan gg
[ 24 ] So far, how many confession to people did you made?：2 gua
[ 25 ] So far, how many people confessed to you?：1 gua
[ 26 ] So far, how many BF/GF did you have?: 0 zero jiro (either i was too picky or i was too bad lolol)
[ 27 ] Are you in a relationship now?：nope
[ 28 ] One of your best friend(same sex) confesses to you, what would you do?：No idea, but surely a no go
[ 29 ] Your first love confessed to you, will you accept him/her?：maybe...
[ 30 ] Why do you like the person you like now?：like air-.-?
[ 31 ] Held the hands of your other half?：nope
[ 32 ] Kissed or hugged your other half?：nope
[ 33 ] Held the hands of an opposite sex?：yep
[ 34 ] Who was it? What relationship are you with that person?：dont remember, but it was a friend
[ 35 ] Anyone trying to court/woo/chase you?：i wish LOL

——–[ 4 ] Random - 10Q ————–
[ 36 ] If one day，a good friend leaves you，what would you do?：People come people go, what can i do about it?
[ 37 ] If one day，a good friend betrays you，what would you do?：ditch em, unless they have a very good reason.
[ 38 ] If one day，a good friend ditches you for a new friend，what would you do?：wont feel anything, their choice, though i'll feel kinda disappointed
[ 39 ] If you can't stand your parents，will you run away from home?：nope, got free food free bed run for what? gg
[ 40 ] Are you serious in class?：depends
[ 41 ] What do you normally do in class? : listen, chat, kacau lecturer
[ 42 ] Is your studies good?：so-so
[ 43 ] What do you do with your computer?：Chat, afk, kfa, download, play games, see video *power of technology =o*
[ 44 ] Your instant messenger(MSN，YM etc)has how many contacts of the same sex?：Never bother to count
[ 45 ] Your instant messenger has how many contacts of the opposite sex?：Refer Q[44]

————–[ 5 ] Who's guilty - 10Q ————–
[ 46 ] Who's the person who picked you：HK
[ 47 ] Is he/she good to you：ok lo
[ 48 ] Who is he/she to you?：classmate
[ 49 ] Have you liked this person before：er... as a friend ya... not queer-ish like D:
[ 50 ] How long have you known each other：as long as we joined the college.
[ 51 ] What kind of person is he/she：gila person gg
[ 52 ] Is he/she handsome/beautiful?：cannot comment on this, life threatening.
[ 53 ] Has this person liked you before?：unless he's gay...
[ 54 ] Is this person in a relationship with you?：friend lo
[ 55 ] If you liked this person, what would you do?：kill myself, im not gay dammit

————-[ 6 ] . First person to come into your mind- 10Q————-
[ 56 ] If mentioned "Beautiful girl", who's the first that comes into your mind? Yoobin of Wonder girls =o
[ 57 ] Handsome guy?：takeshi kaneshiro lolol
[ 58 ] The person who keeps kacau you：gayyi
[ 59 ] Gila?：Hard Gay-sama
[ 60 ] Secret admirer?：blank ._.
[ 61 ] Have fun?: Junie
[ 62 ] Smart ass?：Me LOL
[ 63 ] Blur guy/gal：Me... sadly
[ 64 ] Laugh very easily：Angie? i dono
[ 65 ] Like to laugh：bali... no doubt

————-[ 7 ] .School - 11Q ————–
[ 66 ] Who's your form teacher：There's no such thing as a form teacher in college please =.=
[ 67 ] Where is your seat?：random
[ 68 ] Your favourite teacher：Pn Alagammai back in F4 i guess...
[ 70 ] Is your English good：guess so
[ 71 ] Is your sports good：Cybersports ok la... real sports i'd die
[ 72 ] Is your Math good：so-so... dont ask me about add maths will do
[ 73 ] Do you like your principal：current one dono, but i never like the past ones... other then my kindergarten principal lol
[ 74 ] Is your school beautiful：so-so
[ 75 ] Your class：R1
[ 76 ] What floor is your class at?：random

————–[ 8 ] .PICK NAME -———-
I: People who are picked, please post this at your blog and Answer it there.
II: Pass it to another 10 person~
III:Do inform the people who are picked through their blog message box.
IV: This 10 people may not refuse to answer.
V: If you are picked, do state who and where you got this, and then pass it to 10 people’
VI: Chosen ones, you all will be blessed and your wish will come true :D

First 10 who read my blog la gg... lazy pick anyone.

About...

respect. Well what do we know about respect? Is it a feeling? A term? Or just plainly a word?

Well to me, its something you must have. Normally, respect is something you give to others, but today... I'll have to say its kinda for your ownself. Is respect holding people in high regard, listening to what they say and such? Actually, it's just a little thing that can't really be explained. Having respect for others gives a lot of good points in life. Being more courteous, being more likeable, being a better person.

Losing your respect or being disrespectful is one thing, but losing respect of yourself... That's kinda unforgivable. The reason, actually, why I'm writing this post today, is because of a certain coursemate. I don't mind you talking during me presenting, but whistling till the whole lecture hall is your damn sound? Gimme a break dude, you think I wouldn't mind? I'm not really a hard guy to be friends with, but then... do you really have to do that? If I we're to be cruel, I'd just shove you with "you're weak and you act like you're better then me?"

I didn't said that. Why? Coz' I still have some respect for you. But then, do you have any for me?

Disorder.

The title does in a sense, suit my current condition. I'm not really stressed out or what. It's just that things aren't really in place in my life now. Sleeptime, eat time, whatever time. Disorder is the only word I can think of in terms of relating it to one another. Well maybe I'm not doing stuff in the right way, as always.

Aside of that, I think things around me are kinda changing. Like how people react, how things work, casual stuff like that. I wonder if I'm actually kinda laid back behind, or are things going on a move too fast for me? Nevertheless, in such a crude way of living, probably it's the former then the latter.

School life is ok, but some stuff kinda screwed up for me. Guess I was too stupid to do such things without clear and full consideration of the consequences. Not that I mind though, but I just didn't expect that it might jeopardize our friendship. I know it's kinda hard to look at me at the same way but... I'm still me, and you're still you. Well you know, you did make a little change in me. I get to look at things in a more cheerful way, I can smile more when you're around, and I don't feel so stressed when looking at you. But lol, we're better off as buddies in the end. Can't thank you enough for the changes that you made to me.

EDITED for the sake of my self-conscience.

Everything's a big pity. Things just don't happen how you wanted it to be.

Yet again... slowly towards...

Towards exam that is. Gee, I really wish I could start studying, but with this sleeping disorder in place... Ok, that's it. I'm a goner. Speaking of which, forget about exam awhile. The one thing I really wish to do, is to get in a relationship. Haha... random thought of the day as usual. It's not like I really care but, yeah... I do wanna try this kinda thing for a change. I've always wondered either if I'm too sensitive, or totally not sensitive at all. Does relationship make one grow? I wonder about that too... Haha, guess I'm quite good at these no-brainer thoughts alright. Having a relationship isn't simple, yet I always fool myself about it. Where's my sense of resposibility? I dunno, somewhere down the drain maybe?

Near the start of Ramadhan

Ramadhan. Widely known as the Puasa month in Malaysia. Right... ok this isn't what I wanted to talk about but, sheesh, it's that time again. Well, this month is where the Muslim fast(what we call puasa) for 30 days, blah blah blah and there, public holiday aka Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Yep, that's about it. In a correct way of saying, it's to build up your spiritual power, your tolerance, blah blah and mostly well, it's about the endurance of the mind and body. That's how I see it. Mom would say, " Oh great, diet!" Dad would say, "Oh great, diet!"... and later eating 2x the dinner we had normally. Lol, yeah I do that once in awhile too, but for this year? Don't think that's gonna happen. Not with my finger out of the line. Ok, forget bout this puasa thingy. Lately, there are a string of small events happening in my life.

As some of you know, I got my finger kinda screwed up. This is how it happened... Was rushing for some presentation on Monday, then... fell cause of the slippery floor, which the god damn cleaner was directly next to, and was chatting with another cleaner. My finger was kinda folded that time, and to support my body from the impact, hands landed first... but too bad for my finger. The finger landed on the edge of the stair steps... and I guess let's just finish the rest of the story with our imaginations... And yes, it's hella pain that time. What happened to the finger you ask? Hmm, in bandages for like a week already? lol. Not much of a problem, though I must say I can't hold the pen in this condition, and hey!!! Exam's around the corner. Am I screwed up or what?

Ah, forget bout the finger. Though I screwed up the finger... There was a small deed I did. Kinda stupid to say but... I saved a small rat's life. And this is the pic of the rat. (Evidence lol)





Well anyways, what happen was, the Alam Flora people took the rubbish and never close the big rubbish bins nicely, and so happens that this poor rat kinda fell inside... and there was a big rain that day. The water got caught up inside the bin, and this poor fella was about to drown by it. Couldn't get out by himself obviously, so I just kinda tumble the bin for the little guy to get out. Yeah I know, I don't really like animals, but not till the extent that I'll be happy to see em' dead though. So in the end, the little guy was freed from the water jail *lol I know it's a lame name* and limped out. Bet he was caught in there for a long time, could see it shivering a bit. Haha, felt kinda relieved in a weird sense, but who cares. As long as nothing dies here and there I'm fine with it.

Why so serious?

Hmm, well well well. If it isn't The Dark Knight. Yeah, I went for the movie with the buncha coursemates, where especially our honourable... "ball girl" wanted to see sooooooo much. Well I had to say that this was the only Batman movie that I feel is really worth watching, and a part of that it really potraited the good vs evil in desperation feel very good. Overall it was a show with a notable short storyline, with great effects and action... and the plot of the movie really makes you think on The Joker's insanity of breaking down your minds. However, the real message that the show conveys, is actually about trust and the true colours of oneself. Most people would find betrayal to be necessary for survival. But then, think again. Sometimes one's trickery of the mind may just make you resort to unnecessary betrayal, and furthermore, betrayal to me, is a heavy sin. In reality, these kind of thing do happen, though not in such an extreme condition (meaning not life n death situation or bombings). Give it a thought. If it was you who were being threaten or tortured in mind to betray your comrades, friends and people who trusted you... would you do it? Or would you not?

New sem's around the corner...

Well, yeah. Most kids my age would rather go anywhere BUT school, I guess. But seriously, I'm starting to get bored of this holiday shit. It's not like I could go anywhere. Anyways... guess what. I'm going to Cambodia in the middle of first school week. Nuh-uh that ain't cool for me... Nothing much of importance happened lately, so you know, no topic for blog... haha. Oh yeah, have I told anybody I'm going for a serious hairdo?

Thinking back about myself.

It's another normal day... well maybe not. Mom & dad were out for 2 days, went back to Penang for my gramps' funeral. And yeah, them only, I didn't go back. I used "I need to go for exam" as an excuse. Well actually, yeah, I really can't go because of the exam, not that I would be dropped out from the course but... I wouldn't want that to happen, and I just had to play safe. Is that selfish, or being considerate to my mom & dad? Only god knows... heck, would I know for myself since I'm so confused about whats' happening lately?

Anyways, other than this problem, other stuffs are fine. Well it's probably because I don't practically DO anything in the first place... Don't really have much to talk about this post, just trying to keep things updated. Also... I really think I need to trim down a bit. Haha... what mom said that me getting a bit fit would give me the "playboy" qualities to really bloom did make my day.

Letting go.

I guess you could say that I've received enlightment, or rather being more clear about what I want. I just want to move on. To Sotong, if you see this, I'd like to tell you that, you're the bestest friend I had so far... I've decided to make a move on my own life according to my own pace, and not being such a stuck-up emo ass. Wahahaha... I got back my confidence thanks to some shit that happened recently. Will tell you if you are free~ ngahaha.

To any other readers out there who read this blog before, you can expect a change pretty soon. Might be me just talking to the wall but, I love you guys. Take every chance you have to make yourselves happy in the right way. Supports from everyone is very much appreciated.

Sotong, love you lots for bearing with me last time. Although we don't have chance to talk much lately, hopefully we can get another chance to meet each other. By then, take good care of yourself~ say hi to bugs for me too~

Clear thought.

I decided to take a long break from MapleStory. Yeah, it's sad. Just moving away from it like that. I feel guilty, yet relieved. I wonder why... oh well, I just needed a break from it anyways. What I thought of today was, a clear thought about "wanting a change", and whatever things related to me referring to this statement. It's actually a total bullshit for me to say this kinda things, reason being that me myself am very, very hypocritic even to myself. Changes don't come when you keep repeatedly say about them. Instead, they come either where you least expect it to come, or maybe through one's hardwork. I have to admit that, I'm some sort of a Lotus Eater (We learn that story back on secondary school, talking about some guy that decides to have fun for his whole life and kill himself when he finished his money). Maybe? Or am I just a guy that needs more attention and love? Who knows? Even I myself don't know what I want or what I need.

P/S : Yeah, I'm just filling this blog up once in awhile. I always hope that you'd leave your comments here. Heh, feels like I'm looking for your symphathy or something yeah... Guess I should stop doing that you know. You are that one special person that... ah nevermind.

Forgive me, the girl who took my heart.

Guess in this situation, I've really become a failure. Failure to realize that... sometimes, if things weren't meant to be, it won't be as you hope for. The more you hope for, the bigger your disappointment. I was a fool to think that I could be with you. As you said last time... how are you going to be a couple together with a person you barely know in real life? Well, now I understood why. It's right. I guess I've been always putting too much real feelings into fake stuff. Thanks for the good times. It made me cheered up even when I was in the weakest state that time. I'll just cry and move on... Haha, how sissy of me. If you are reading this... I just wanna let you know that I think I've did the wrong thing to myself. I've fallen for you... but yet, it's barely impossible ya? I do hope that I was the guy in your checklist, but hey. I'm just a normal friend to you I guess. Words are just decorations, it can be fake yet true sometimes. But do know... Every word I said to you, was truly from my heart.

Just filling in the posts

I don't know what's happening actually. Sometimes, we just get really confused about what we want and where are we aiming to. Maybe this is what's happening to me? Nah... doesn't seem like it. I feel like... me everytime saying about "not motivated" or "no inspiration" these kinda stuff is... totally a big bullshit to myself. It's just me being lazy I guess... no. It's certain. Why am I so lazy? I can't blame others for it.

I guess really I should be making a change for myself. But how am I to start? I can't rely on anyone about this right?

What have I done this time?

Well yesterday, I decided to go to the CC where I work to get my pay for the day I worked. Since, the boss always comes at midnight, it's normal that I would stay there till he comes. *Without his approval I can't take my money* Anyways... I waited till 3am in the morning, till my mom called. I know it's no good I stay till such late times... but sometimes if it's something I have to do, I will do. Maybe it's just a mere RM30, but still. I have been promised this money 2 days ago and I still haven't received it. Shouldn't I do something about it? I don't know... Different people different thoughts.

Some say... not listening to your mother would bring you bad stuff. And yes... I'd second that, 'coz it happened to me. Woke up at 8am, but then I found myself sick... and really weak. Had no choice but to continue resting... and skipped class in the process. And when I woke up again, I'm like... seeing several images of clocks! Man... 1 shows 4pm, the other shows 2pm... what the hell man! First time in my entire life I face such a problem. Actually, I don't think it's a very serious matter... but me doing such stuff is really unforgiveable. I really wonder... where have my mind wandered off to?

Speaking of which... it's the first time I dreamed of something about fighting. Although I was winning in the dream... I don't want to have this kind of dream. I might be a short-tempered person, but still... I prefer peace more than any other person would want it.

Wee... 7am.

You see... I don't wake up at these kinda hour. Yep, I didn't sleep, if that's your guess. Couldn't sleep actually. So... again I'm writing this senseless blog to keep it updated and all. Oh well, it was a boring day as we say, starting from Mapling, to bossing and then DotA. Nothing nice really happen, just a few trivial stuff like s0fer making the door open and me winning some games. Gee... Come to think of it, I don't even know why I can't sleep. Been thinking about a lot of stuff that I shouldn't. I guess sometimes... no matter how close you are to a person, you can't just butt in their lives and make decisions for them. Having the heart to help is one thing, having the ability is another. If you're seeing this, I guess I'll have to say sorry again. I definately don't know how to help you, but I really wish I did had a way. Just take good care of yourself sis.

To my little Sotong, sorry also. Guess I can't really turn back my sleep time just yet. Promise you but can't do so. Hopefully I'll be able to go back to normal A.S.A.P. Love you lots, and everyone also.

Cherish life as it should be. We only have 1 time living. Do what is best for it.

6am in the morning...

Well here am I, 6am + a bit bit in the morning, having some typing time for myself. I've been thinking... What have I done all these while. By coming out with this thought... basically I get to realise that, I've been doing a pretty whole lot of crap for a long long time. Guess I'll need some guidance and inspiration. I feel quite a nuisance to some people, maybe I think too much, or maybe it's a fact. I don't know, nah... I think I should say as "I don't want to know". Thinking back and comparing other's life to myself, I feel... I'm quite a lucky guy. Spoilt brat, selfish boy, immature idiot, whatever you can dish out. I really hope I can change all of these. Heh... guess it's plain bullshit to talk about these kind of things now.

What do you think? Am I getting emo again or what? Haha... sounds like I'm making you stand in a very bad position yeah... Sorry though. Sorry that I'm being such a selfish and inconsiderate person. Have I done a lot for you? I don't know lol. I just know that, you did a lot for me. And... seriously. I'm touched and happy. I felt like crying sometimes haha... Now it's like... without you around, I'm just not me. Gee, I don't know how to end this by the way. I just hope I can do my best to not let you be sad... Don't think I can be the guy to make you happy forever or those kinda stuff. Just a plain guy that wants to see you be happy in your life.

Guess this is all. Hope you actually read through.

P/S : It's just how I feel. If you think I'd do something stupid, don't worry. I won't.

What's gonna become of me?

Well I didn't really give a real thought about this issue. True, it's the holidays now for me till MARCH, dang... Being back at home at 7am in the morning and waking up at 4pm just isn't right. I know that, yes. I don't have anything to do. Maybe yes, maybe no. Partly why I'm writing this is just to let out those inner feelings. I'm seriously confused with the fact that, "Hey... you're ruining your precious time around by doing nothing and NOTHING." Or so to say... my awkward feelings about all the recent happenings around. My life is dull in a way that... I don't really meet a lot of people, just sticking there on that few places, and sitting my life out. Why am I doing this? What would she say if she read this? Haha... Stupid me right? Sometimes I really wish that she'd just scold me or something. But guess that's kinda impossible, unless I tell her to take a look at this blog or something... Gee, we used to say "Let's get married for that ring" and end up I really like her. Thinking back, how stupid am I. It's just not gonna happen. Not everyday is a Sunday in any matter of life. I have to work hard. Or maybe just give up? Maybe I''ll just work myself out this time... It's time I make a change, at least for myself. I've been giving up too much on things that happen in my life. Life's a war, maybe a game, or anything you might describe it to be. Well at least, bless me for having a chance to continue it, rather than just die off or something.

For the good, or for the bad?

Confusingly, and as expected. Things did go way out of control. Well, it was kinda in deepshit-ish situation already, but just so that I decided to stick my head in it and meddle in the mud, it just keeps getting BADDER and BADDER. Who would've thought that, in the end I was the one who couldn't wait for the chance to come? No one ever thought that this would happen, I'm sure of it myself.

For the people who actually have the time to read what I say, my advice is... Never, EVER, EVER... butt into confusing situations. In my case, I never liked it, but I'm glad I did it. Clarifying and trusting someone in a confusing incident may more or less, make you grow.

I don't dare to say that I'm doing a good job in this problem, yet in the first place, I wasn't even suppoesed to be in this shit. Maybe, it's because I throw too much personal feelings in this matter, or just. As my mentor *I think of her as that* said, I can't always be the noble hero in everyone's problem. People still have to face the music sooner or later. You just can't be there helping them every single second. It'll just make things shit.

Something I'd Like to try

Before I start my post today, I've been thinking about doing something that I haven't done in like... 2 years. Poem writing. Oh well, this is how I feel though, so let's get this going :

Long we met, short we knew,
Times goes by and feelings spill,
Sometimes we never expect,
Sometimes we never knew,
To hide aside or stand with might?
That's what's hard to do.

Give me hope, give me might,
Give me what I can't decide.
Comes to mind, down to heart,
This is what I decide?
No, no, this is old.
Things just will be old.

I see water, I see ground,
My heart's softer, and turning around.
What've I achieve, what I seek,
They just fall off the reek.
What a pity, what a fool,
To think that life's a fool.

My day and night, my love at sight,
Is this all a truth?
Never, never, never a truth,
I've been too much a fool,
To think that everything was a mere tool.
In the end of the podium of life,
I bear the loser of life.

What a pity, what a fool.
For I in the end,
Is the biggest fool.

Well, that's just about what I wanna write about today. Can't think of anymore.
I will be a better person, I will be a better man. Give me time and I will bend, the fate of my demise at hand.

Thanks for bearing with me. Seriously, I wish I could make up to you my dear sister.