HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

I am officially a 1/4 centurian!!





It was a fun birthday.. Waking up to warm wishes for Marcus and Ashley and Megan.. And a slow start to the day..





Mummy cooked my favourite dishes today.. Steamed seabass, steamed egg, potato and carrot soup, sweet and sour prawns.. YUMMY!!





Oh, and my sis, bro and bro-in-law had wanted to get me a watch.. But the baby gs arent attracting me.. So.. in the end, they bought me a DS LITE!!

Will you take a look at this beauty!! I got it in black, and it looks damned sleek lor!!

I love you guys so much!! And dear dear!! Thanks for paying the difference for me!! YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU TOO! (and not just cause you foot the bills for me.. )

and to top it all of, dad let calvin drive his van, and we headed over to giant after cutting my cake.. Marcus was a bit taken aback, cause we took stuff like there were free. Total damage to mum's pocket was more than 100 bucks.. heehee..

MY BIRTHDAY WAS THE GREATEST! ALL THANKS TO ALL OF YOU!

I HATE SCHOOL!!!

I think I'm going to fail, or at least, do badly this semester... :'( boohoohoo....

Sappy dramas and us...

Whenever I watch taiwanese/korean sappy dramas, you will say one of the following:
- again watching this kinda shows
- nice meh? Why you like to watch so much?
- You ah... don't watch and then learn to be suku suku ah...

All these sappy shows follow a tried and tested method to reach to the audience:
- female and male leads miss the opportunity of getting together, go through a huge round of obstacles, before finally being together
- female and male leads are happy together, but due to many different circumstances such as illnesses, parents' disapproval etc, are forced to go through the vicious cycle of trying to overcome it all, before finally being together
- either 2 male leads fighting over 1 female, or the other way round. Who will emerge the final champion?

In the third scenario, it is usually one of the following;
- 2 males are deeply in love with 1 female. As usual, she will always have many happy memories with one, but she is not in love with him. The second, she loves him back deeply, but their times together are normally filled with tears and pain.
- 2 females are deeply in love with 1 male. One of the female will always be the bad person, and try ways and means to discredit the second female. However, the female which the male leads loves will always be the second female.

Everytime I watch sappy dramas, I walk away with the knowledge that I am one of the luckiest person in the world. Why you ask?

- The person with whom I have the most happy memories are, is you. Most of our time together, is spent in great happiness. Not only just sentimental happiness, but also, playful happiness, childish happiness. Wrestling together until our family members ask why are we fighting like small children. Playing silly games together, making up songs and poems and whatsoever.
- The person who has seen me cry, and whom I have seen cry. Not only because of the pain we sometimes bring to each other. But also due to the pain that friends, family, work and the entire world has given to us.

Drama serials always show the girls having to choose between the guy they don't love, but always has happy memories with, and the guy they love but with whom she always cries.

I have the two different guys, but in the same person.

Guys in sappy dramas ensure that the gals they love are protected and cared for well by them. You do everything in your power to make sure that I am protected, against things I am scared of, against the bad people in the world, against the unfairness that I may be subjected to, against sickness and idiots. You do everything you can to care for me. From ensuring that I am covered with the blanket in the middle of the night, to asking me if I need additional facial stuff for my face, to nagging at me to drink lots of water, to giving me massages whenever I am tired, to buying sole pads for my heels so that my feet don't hurt so much.

No matter what happens in this world, what happens in the office, what happens in the family, what happens in school, I take comfort and solace in the fact that when I see you, and am enveloped in your arms, it is like as if nothing can affect me any more. Nothing else matters. All the hurt, anger, unfairness, anxiety. Really seems to disappear, albeit for the short moment, from my mind.

I used to think that sappy dramas are the result of an imaginative script writer. Now I know, it is not just that the scriptwriters are imaginative. It is because in reality, these things do happen in real life. Males and females do fall head over heels in love with each other. They do have relationships so full of troubles, worries and pain, yet they are still in love with each other. They do have relationships that are full of carefree memories.

I have met my sappy drama guy in real life. And I thank God for you every single day. I am thankful that it is you. And if that is the one and only thing I can have, it's enough. I don't need mountains of money, or being the valedictorian of the school. I don't need a high flying career. Just as long as I have you.

BWAHAHAHA

How can i not know I am loved i ask you?

First of all, we started off with couple phones shortly after we got together.. Nokia 3230, before being promoted to using DOPOD... oh.. and of cause, couple slippers even now..

And now... introducing... COUPLE LAPTOPS!!

bwahaha.. now, how cool and utterly show off is that!??! WHAT?!?! you dun understand??

Well then.. as they say, pictures say a thousand words...

A look of glee!!

And I am sooo in love with them!!

Showing you what we have been touching..

No touch pad for us..

Are you ready???

Well, here you can see marc with his..

Okok... enough of whetting your appetite

TADAAA!!! Introducing, the twins! One working, and the other sleeping!! bwahaha

SCHOOL

I have just made a decision about school.. Quite a silly decision actually, but I dunno.. I'm just going to go ahead with it.

I have decided to transfer to Bachelor in Marketing. If from the start, I had just made up my mind to take BSM, I could have gotten 6 credit exemptions, and at least 2 sems will not be so hard on myself.

The reason why I am not pursuing BSBC (Bachelor in Business with Communications)? Cause the papers and modules are damned difficult... I mean, I REALLY dont want to learn about the history of TV, radio and newspapers. I DONT want to learn about what sort of stuff I need to watch out for when recording a radio advertisement. SORRY, but it's not really cut out for me..

I am not able to get the extra 2 credit exemptions, cause I had taken them last sem. Shitty..

Due to the degree programme only being a basic degree, with no honours offered, no matter how well or how badly I do, there is NO first class, or second class. JUST a degree. There's gold, silver and bronze awards for the ...... 1st bloody 3 students of the damned cohort.... Even if 2 people top the class, there's only going to be maximum 2 gold awards. And if both students had gotten the same grades for GPA, there'll be two gold awards and no bronze...

From my 1st sem grades, I think I can strive to get one of the awards.. BUT ... with managerial and international econs this sem.. I think im in for a hard time.. Im still desperately trying to cram for econs.. and there's still my managerial accounting and financial management which I need to study for..

I am sitting for 3 exams - MA, ME and FM... I hope I maintain As and Bs... so I can still get my GPA. I MUST!!

My New Baby

Got myself a new toy recently...

Introducing... PANASONIC DMC-LX2!!


although it is smaller than the Kodak that Marcus and I have, it still cant fit into those small camera casing due to its lens.

This little baby of mine boasts of the following:

• Leica DC VARIO-ELMARIT Lens
• Extra Optical zoom of 16:9 Aspect Ratio: 4.4x for 8Mega, 5.5x for 5Mega, 2Maga 3:2 Aspect Ratio: 4.4x for 7Mega, 5.6x for 4Mega, 3Mega4:3 Aspect Ratio: 4.4x for 6Mega, 5.5x for 4Mega, 6.2x for 3Mega, 2Mega, 1Mega
• Focus Area of Normal: Wide 50cm/ Tele 100cm - infinity
  Macro/ MF/ Auto: Wide 5cm/ Tele 30cm - infinity
• 10.2Mega pixel
• with full manual settings for aperture and shutter

I love MY BABY!!!

National Day Preview

Went for the preview yesterday.. The queue was super long, and we spent at least an hr queuing up. Should have gone earlier, but Ash has a lesson. Therefore, we missed all the pre-parade segments like the dimsum dolly etc...

Overall, the show was not too bad.. they made full use of the marina by showcasing our coast guards and divers. and the helicoptors were able to fly right in front of us, unlike at the national stadium.

However, i felt it was too much like a muscial or a show, as there was not much audience participation. We didn't get to sing much National songs, and the mass displays were like.... i dunno... just people walking around.. not much meaning, except it all revolves around water.

But the fireworks were as usual, great. There was one where the fireworks cascaded down the side of ECP like a waterfall, and there were also fireworks being set off the top of 3 buildings in Shenton Way, one Marina Boulevard, UOB Plaza and the third i can't remember.


A shot of Meg at home before setting off


Meg and Sherwyn.... cute?!?




Ash, Meg and me.. haha.. playing in the car after Megan was a lil grumpy and cried.. Guess she was wondering why it took so long to travel to the NDP area.



Shots of us on the way to the Marina Bay taken by our dear Marcus kor kor.. look very nice right??

I guess the natural lighting that day was superb.. cause if not, how to make me this pig pig look half not too bad right?! bwahahaha...



Red Lions...





Shots of us at the parade




Us wearing the hats.. Just nice all four of us have different animals.. Ash has a shark, meg a birdy, me nemo fishy and marcus got a lion though u cant see his clearly...


Proud to be a singaporean





After a super long day...


The cascading waterfall of fireworks

TIRED

Damned im tired...



The weekend was so hectic.. Poor Sherwyn was hospitalised due to a urinary tract infection, and Marcus and I had to stay over at ah-chek's place to look after Ash and Megan..



It's no easy feat man.. On Saturday night, Megan was still awake at midnight, and she cried a bit looking for her mum. When I finally made her to bed, and all, it was almost 3am.. When I walked to bed to sleep, i could feel myself swaying..



But alls well that ends well, as Sherwyn was home screaming his head away due to boredom and no one carrying him on Sunday afternoon.



Have been sleeping at 2+am since then, and work is really damned busy..



I collected my school books for this sem together with Diana on Monday night. My fin'l accounting prof has also emailed the class, informing us to read ahead in order to stay with the class... My first class starts next Friday..



IM SO TIRED.. heading out of the office le.. Ciao!!

Random ramblings

Tampines Metro is closing down, and we have made a few trips down to get some loot...

BEST BUY
2 samsonite bags...
Going at half price each. Usual price, $340.00 now only $170.00 each!!

One is a backpack, with a laptop sleeve included!! The other, is a laptop bag... Will try to get my ass working, and take some shots to show.

Not too bad buys
- 5 pairs of panties.. bwahaha.. damned cute.. with a sketch of a pig, and the words FAT PIG on them.. :P $2.00 each only!!

- Biscuits and liquor chocolates.. Original price, range for $3.80 - $7+ each. Now, the Swiss Delice (dunno if correct spelling) are 3 for $10, and the alchoholic chocolates are 2 for $10.

- A TOMY toy that makes badges.. Original price $30+. Now going for $19.90.. BUT we saw one which had a price tag on it, which showed... $3!!!! So we got that to keep and give away as christmas present.. haha..

- 2 Goldlion Long sleeved shirts for Marcus. Original price $89.90 now $39.90.. and one belt..

- Some other stuff that i can't really remember..

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I was walking to the NEL at Outram when i suddenly felt like a salmon fish, trying to swim upstream.. There were soooo many people walking in the opposite direction, pushing and shoving as per the usual morning rush practice..

Last night, I took the train home, and there was this couple sitting in front of me who alighted. I stepped aside to let them pass, before moving into the seat. As i was turning my body and sitting, some one pushed against me, and almost landed on my lap. Took me a few seconds to realize this lady (not an old auntie mind you. If yes, I would have stood up and gave her my seat.) of about 30+?? wearing office attire, was rushing from almost half the train carriage away to run to this empty seat. Too late. She stood up, glared at me like it was my fault that the empty seat was right in front of me, and stood in front of me..

The irony of it all!??! she rushed and went through all that trouble, only to alight at the next stop. ME? I had another 5 more stops to go.. bloody hell..

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Time passes so quickly.. Another 2 more weeks, and I can collect my textbooks for the new term. The four months break has ended, and school is starting again soon. I have 3 exams this sem, and therefore, I will need to work harder!!

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Transformers fever has taken over Singapore. After Initial D two years ago, when lots of Singapore ah bengs added tachnometers and voltmeters and dunno what other meters and the whoosh sound exhaust and what nots..

Now, Transformers!!

I see bumblebee coloured vehicles on the road (immediately after the show last week, i had suggested to marcus to paint our bike either bumblebee's colour, or red and blue like optimus prime.. bwahhaa).. and just the other morning, we overtook a car ....... TRANSFORMERS ACCORD!! bwahaha.. this guy went to buy the transformers logo and replaced his rear honda sign with the transformers one.. oh boy!!

Useless ramblings and Please dun fall sick!!!

I haven't been blogging for quite some time (nothing new right?!) and life has been going on.

Like what I told Marcus and Diana, I am LOOKING forward to school starting on 3 August. Slightly over a month away.. Why? Cause once school starts, I only have to tahan for 3 months, and its the hols again. And once the hols start, it means I am almost half way through the degree..

I am taking 2 econs modules, one managerial accounts and financial management. Three exams to sit for in November. I AM LOOKING FORWARD!! Bwahaha.. Guess it's just what Marcus said. When you do well, you start looking forward cause you like the feeling.

I am damned proud of myself and the results I got. I guess reverse psychology does work wonders on me. I used it on QM, and that was one of the subjects I scored the best on. I couldn't be bothered about stats, and it shows in the results.

I LOVE ECONS, MANAGEMENT ACCOUNTS AND FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT!!!

bwahaha.. Hope that works!!

I feel cold, and I have a lot of congestion between my eyes, at the back of my nose and my throat.

Should I see a doc and get the nasal spray for the sinus? Or should I see a ENT specialist? Either way, im screwed. The nasal spray is not a long-term solution, and it contains steriods.. I dun really wanna be on drags even though its legitimate. See an ENT? I dun want any thing being poked up my nose you know.. Oh well...

Or maybe it could be dengue fever. After all, the symptoms include fever, headache, nauseau etc.. My tummy been churning since dinner last night, and I do have a headache. Plus some mossie bites which I got.. Oh Shit... Haha.. so pessimistic rite?!

What A Great Day!!

I was on leave today, and I must say, I really enjoyed myself GREATLY!!!

My leave was originally planned for yesterday, but alas, marcus remembered the wrong date of his classes starting, so i changed it to today as he has no classes on.

We headed over to Mustafa last night at about 11pm. Went shopping, and bought quite a bit of stuff! He wanted to get a bag, but we couldn't find any new pieces, and therefore, we went off without it. However, we found out that Mustafa carries raspberries, and blueberries, at VERY CHEAP PRICES!! The last time Marcus got some, it costs him almost $20.00 for a box of each. Last night, the two boxes only cost us $12!!!

We reached home at about 3am, tired like small kids.. it also didn't help that my old naggy grumpy auntie decided to visit.. :D IT HURTS!!

Well, we headed back to IMM today.. Shopped again, got ourselves some food from GIANT, and some clothes, and also not forgetting some loot from Dasio.. :D

the cherry to top it all off? My results for my first sem of studies are out.. It was out at 2pm, but I didnt wanna stress myself and just went ahead to enjoy myself first.. Well, let's just say that the results are.. heehee.. rather heartwarming. I called mum and told her my results, and she was rather elated. Well, let's just hope that i keep up the consistency, after all, in poly, i also had rather ok results in the beginning, but lost steam towards the end.. :D well, not really lost steam. more like lost discipline and hard work!!

oh well.. Looks like i gotta continue to work hard!!

New skins!

New skins for both dear dear and me..

:D Childish.. but I think its cute! :D

Oh, and I know how to do the skins stuff le.. :D

....... ????

everything that comes out of my mouth seems to have an adverse effect.

things which were meant as a harmless joke seemed to cause a tsunami effect instead.

when others do it, its ok. when i do it, it is not.

whatever it is, i think i must start growing up more.. learn from my mistakes, cause its only for my own good.

even if i can only wonder why others do not have to answer for the same mistakes made, i should learn to live with it, and bother.

sheryl tan, remember, its only cause you are you, and you are important, that's why you HAVE to remember all this and change your bad points..

Oh well..

on a different note, can some one please help me? I have been trying to download the blog skins off blogskins, but kept having problems when I upload the template. What's wrong!?!?! Please help!! Thanks in advance!!

FINALLY

It's finally OVER!!!

Woohoo!! My crazy first sem is OVER... YUPZ...

I have submitted my final indiv report for law, stats and FIIM.. :D

Next term is coming up (this thurs is my first lesson) and I only have QM to concentrate on.. Of cause, I still have to do my Effective Comms and Thinking with Mathematics.. But it should be more slack..

There were lots of last min hiccups. What with late-nite filming of my presentations (thanks dear for being my director/editor! and staying up late late late with me!) and the rush to school to submit the work.

I had to take leave on the first fri of starting work with the new company, and I fell sick on the second friday. :( But still had to drag myself to school to submit my work. Full-fledge high fever on Friday night. Looks the effect of working on my projects and late nights took its toil on me. :(

Oh well.. I have my law grp project report back. Not fantastic results though - 64% and I got my TMA01 results for Effective Comms back 72%.

Thinking with Maths exam is on 10 May.. So sian.. :(...

Then it would be holidays till aug before the mad rush starts again..

On a happier note, Marcus bought me 3 bags last night! Haha. I bought 2 pairs of shoes and 3 bags this month!! One big bag, one medium bag and one small bag.. hahaha..

ok.. I have to help marcus with his work in return for his kindness to me the last few weeks.. haha:D work hard everyone!!

Couldn't resist

I am supposed to be busy rushing out the remaining 2 grp based case study reports due this week,

PLUS start work on the 3 individual projects due next week and the week after (50% weightage for all!!!)

But I just couldn't resist dropping this short post...

My youngest cousin was born!!

As of yesterday, Ashley and Megan have a younger brother!! My uncle and his wifey must be happy.. Finally a boy to add to the family... heehee..

Ok.. Back to work now Sheryl Tan.. It's the boring stats that you oh so hate...

Diana, don't laugh if u are reading this.. It's ur turn in August!! :D

You give me something by James Morrison

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

The Letter by James Morrison

It's got my name on it,
and it's just waiting there for me,
i feel the cold run through my veins.

and it's got her shame on it,
she couldnt say it to my face,
but i wont waste time placing blame.

[chorus]
but i know that i'll move on,
and tell myself i'll find me something better,
i let go and just forget her.
she was no good for me,
deep down i know that's the way it has to be so,
how comes i still can't open this letter?
i can't forget her.

really wish i could

well, there must be a name for it,
whatever this is you've done to me,
i'm all twisted up inside.

well who's gonna pay for it,
if it's not you i guess it's me,
you left with you're life and took mine.

[chorus]x2

it's got my name on it,
and it's just waiting there for me.

Tired....

It's now 12.10am...

I got back about an hour earlier... Just bathed and had my dinner...

Class tonight was surprisingly quite fun, even though it was supposed to be a boring subject - Contract & Agency Law... Guess it was cause my lecturer was quite funny...

Tomorrow is Finance class.. Guess that will be boring cause of the lecturer..

Anyway, met one of our old diploma coursemate... also DMKT one.. but class of 23... hmm... didnt recognize her though.. dunno how the hell she recognized me,... considering dat i have put on so much weight!!

Gosh!!

Oh well.. going to dry my hair, and hope to get some sleep liao lor!!

Its the end of a 15 hours out of home, and another 7 hours more to another one just like today!! haha...

Sunshine after the rain?!

Some updates:

Monday

Marcus helped to send my hp down to SIS building for repair.. and it cost me $149 for a phone which I paid $498 for.. wtf...

We headed over to Ikea.. Got ourselves new bedspreads and quilt covers.. Matching ones leh.. Mine in red, and his in blue.. so now both our beds will be alike during CNY!

Tuesday

Marcus brought me over to school after work.. Haha.. I kept pestering him like a small kid on her first day of school;
"daddy, i scared scared neh.. " "Daddy, later no one talk to me how?" "Daddy, i scared of teacher.. black black neh" "Daddy, later recess no one go toilet with me how?"

Haha.. Class was eh.. ok... I mean, Finance can't get anymore interestingly lah, let's face the truth. I almost fell asleep, but stopped myself.. Cannot waste my time and money like that..

Marc had passed me his hp, cause if not I am uncontactable while he is at home.. But being in NP campus, I couldn't get any wireless network connection..

Had a bite of tasteless tuna sandwich (cannot taste the tuna) and lukewarm coffee, before continuing with class.

Wednesday

My hp is BACK!!! Thanks dear!!

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It's tiring. It really is. I mean, I can't pretend that I am superwoman, being able to cope with classes that last till 10pm.

It's a choice which I had taken, and I have to face it. I can't afford to slip up here. Cause to borrow a quote from a famous man "I HAVE A DEGREE TO CATCH".

Life is tough, that's for sure. A life whereby for the next 1.5months, I have to wake up by 7am Monday - Friday to work, knock off at 6pm. Every Monday, Tuesday and Thursday, I have to rush off to school and study till 10pm.

By the time I reach home, it will be at least 11pm.

That will mean I have been awake for 16 hours. And yet to rest.

I MUST PERSEVERE!!!

Look at it on the bright side, I am getting smarter! bwahaha.

I have a test next weekend, and the following weekend, I have another 2 more tests.

My deadlines for this sem: (almost every single week.. i have something due.. )

11 Feb
- 1 MCQ test

18 Feb
- 2 MCQ tests

25 Feb
- 1 MCQ test

2 Mar
- 1 paper assignment and a grp proj

4 Mar
- 2 MCQ tests

9 Mar
- 2 more grp projs

16 Mar
- 1 indiv project

23 Mar
- 2 more indiv projs

30 Mar
- 1 paper assignment

7 Apr
- 1 paper assignment

8 Apr
- 1 MCQ quiz

22 Apr
- 1 MCQ quiz

27 Apr
- 1 grp proj

11 May
- 1 indiv proj

Date unsure
Maths test

I'm so dead...

so upset....

Spoilt my new handphone.. bloody hell!!!

Didnt even drop it.. Just knocked it.. and though my fat finger was in d wae of the d knock, my lcd screen still suffered, and spoilt...

Cost of new LCD screen.. $150.00....

I threw away the receipt.. Had to call starhub to get a proof of purchase from them.. Stupid Dopod had a registration card which I sent in.. But they didn't say that the registration card was not a proof of purchase or warranty!? BLOODY FUCK!!

It's the start to a brand new world

Just collected my textbooks from school last night.. Oh boy...

5 textbooks. 4 study guides.... and 1 fucking exam!! Arghhh.. i thought I had chosen all project based for this sem!! bish bash..

Anyway, yeah, for those who do not know, I am starting my degree (FINALLY.. can hear marcus' sigh of relief)... at U*n*i*S*I*M. Bachelor in Business with Communications.

Damned industrious can me?? I maxed out my credits this sem, and took 2 out of 3 compulsary electives.. My modules for this term are:

1. Statistics - Something I utterly hate.. Did damned badly in Poly. That's why examption for this (Term I)
2. Contract & Agency Law - Part of Business Law.. Did badly in Poly too... bwahaha.. but that's nothing new.. *blush* (Term I)
3. Financial Institute, Instruments and Markets - This is the one which has an exam.. Oh boy.. Dear dear.. Must teach me yeah!! (Term I)
4. Quantitative Method - Same as module 1. (Term II)
5. Effective Communications
6. Thinking with Mathematics...

If you realize, you will see that I have 3 modules for term I, and only 1 module for term II. Effective Comms and Thinking with Maths are sem-long modules, besides, no lectures (only 2 for effective comms) and mostly internet based learning...

I MUST WORK HARD!! IT'S FOR MYSELF, AND A BRIGHTER FUTURE!!!!

What is right, what is wrong?

How do you define when some one is right or some one is wrong?

When one person feels, and the other person feels otherwise?

Is life really a never ending circle?

Do we really all have to go on a ride that brings us to the same high and low points consistently?

When is it right? When is it wrong?

When should I say sorry, or when should I stand firm?

If life is just all about this, where did all the joy I had known gone to?

Does the fault lie with the fact that I try to pre-empt stuff?

When things come to this state, what is left? What should be said? What should be felt?

Am I such a failure, or is it just the plain simple fact that I have known all this while?

Can I ever do anything right, or simply put, can I stop screwing things up?

Is it fair that I help others to screw up their lives too?

When will I be able to stop fucking up, and finally lead a life that's right?

When left is wrong, and right is wrong, where then should I go?

Is there really hope for me?

If there is a bachelor, masters and doctorate course in screwing up, am I the top in the class?

I am lost.

What is right, what is wrong?

What is left for me to do?

Which is more important?

Where do I stand?

I keep screwing up, will I ever stop?

What's the lowest point that I will go to?

Is there some one who is better at screwing up than me?

If I am a master in ruining the lives of others, can some one please ruin mine?

What's the purpose of it all?

The best thing in life, is there even one?

Is there such a thing as a supporting pillar?

It feels as though everything I do is wrong. EVERY SINGLE THING.

I don't know.

What is the best thing? I do not know. I do not fucking hell know a single thing about it.

All I know is I am superb at screwing up.

Even when I think that what I do is right, it inevitably turns out to be the wrong decision.

I do not like the way I am now. But then again, is it just that I have been like this all the while, just that no one has pointed it out to me?

If I can fail in life so miserably, why then am I here?

I just want some one to tell me. What is right? What is wrong?

If I cannot stop screwing up my life, and that of those around me, than what?!

Who cares if it was intentional, or cares if it was accidental. The fact remains that I had, have and always will screw up. What then!?

Library of pictures from the past few months

Haven't uploaded lots of photos from the past few months.

First visit to Vivocity back in Oct 06

Happily together

Dirty faces after a day of school for dear dear, and a day of me waiting for him to finish before the fun begins!

This pic is a lil blurred, but I find that dear dear was looking at me very tenderly.. bwahaha.


Hilarious change of role in the relationship.

Badminton playing with Ashley, Megan, Liang Bei and my favourite MAN!! :D

Look at her.. Look like as if really damned good at playing hor she???

The three little pigs


See the little girl.. dunno holding badminton racket, or what...


Happily posing.. But I think her shorts too big for her.. you see, the crotch there, like got one bulge like as if she's a boy.. bwahaha


Laughing so happily.. The shot is blurred, but honestly, it's difficult taking a shot of her, cause she kept running around!

Dirty looking girls... Liang Bei don't like to take pics, so she is hiding behind Megan..

See Megan in action!


Look at her climbing around in the playground, looking so dirty! and poor marcus had to run around with her. Look at his eyes.. like so tired!..

Christmas party cum housewarming at sis' place

Don't come and talk to me if you got no presents for me..

Say cheese children!! My 5 youngest cousins.. Song Sian is the only boy from the group now, but then, Auntie Siew Choo and Ah Chek will be proud parents of a boy in March!


Ashley Tan... Still my favourite after all these years..


Megan kept holding onto the elephant! and observe Song Sian's pose! Hilarious!


Carrying away the loot...


Oh yes... Her loot too!


And Song Sian too got lots!! Couldn't find Jee Xuan to take a pic of her and her presents.

Happily playing with the presents after opening some of them.