Feeling shitty again lately... existential crisis... don't see any point in being around... no purpose in life... not procreating to repopulate the world... not able to meet parents' expectations (the education, the money, the house...)... they like to say "You see! That's a purpose!"... but where... it's just a form of consolation... it's high time to get my will done up... it will make things a lot easier for everyone... i stopped my meds for 3 days so far... just seems kinda pointless to take them anyway...