Feel like putting things in point form today.

- Father's resigning from his job. Finds it too stressful. =|
- One of my salamanders passed away... sigh... i didn't know what to do last night when i saw white spots developing on its skin. Poor thing... He looked so peaceful when i found him dead... =*(
- BoiBoi's mum sponsoring him a full-time Jap course. i'm taking over the part-time one for him since he signed up for it already and it's not refundable. i believe it'll be a suitable course for myself. =)
- Treated BoiBoi to dinner for some good news that i shouldn't say now. Meepok. Suki Sushi. Shihlin tempura. =)
- Got a whole list of people to share a present for Matthew. Bicycle. =)

- That's about it today.

This morning i made a trip down to Raffles Place that area to run some errands before heading to work. i really love that place. The scenery always makes me feel so peaceful and relaxed (although i'm always rushing to get things done there and to get to work asap) and the Botero bird always looks so fat and kewt. Maybe that's why the pigeons love hanging around that area. Walking from office to the UOB outlet, i like to slow down my pace a little, take a couple of deep breaths and pretend i'm on holiday (which, on the contrary, am far from it). i'll bring my camera the next time i go there. Take a few pics of big bird (not the Sesame Street one lah).

Think it's the Monday blues today. Didn't feel like doing anything. Made sandwiches at a super slow pace. Sat around more than usual. Just felt so sian (sick & tired & bored) of everything. The only ding-ding was that i got to meet Ah Bao for dinner after work. Ate at NYDC. Uh... Bratwurst Jamboree and some other bombastically-named item.

i really want to go Taiwan. Eat, slack, ride. If i don't go for a holiday soon, i'll go nuts. Really need to inject some excitement in my life before i die of boredom, routine and depression.

I NEED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hai... Or maybe life still isn't that worth living. That's why need to resort to such stupid perks lah! What the hell... Trying to cover up or what...

Can't believe i rode bt alone today. Just 1 lap. Today just isn't my riding day. Feeling not quite right. Can't climb for nuts. No guts to push myself on the downhill sections. No motivation to go faster. Really. Met a couple of lizards and a family of monkeys on the trail too.

Maybe i got up and started riding a little too late, that's why.

And maybe because my chain jumped off the cog and plunged into the spokes just at the start of the trail, that's why.

Or maybe because BoiBoi didn't wait for my reply (before going to watch some model competition) to see if i was awake to ride then.

It must have been the early (10am) phone call i got from my colleague to borrow 10 bucks for transport. i was obviously irritated and very unwilling to help (especially when i'm so rudely awaken).

Today the first thing i saw when i stepped into the shop was my manager's super black face. Something very wrong. Make it many many things not right.

Sigh... Feel so angry for her also. i mean, she's a really nice person and doesn't deserve shit like this.

And my stupid goddamn fucking colleague actually asked me the following:

- How come your pay is 899. blah blah?
- When did you sign your confirmation letter?
- What was your pay after confirmation?
- Why izzit this amount this month?

just when i stepped into the kitchen and hadn't even thought about collecting my pay yet (let alone see it right?!).

How would the motherfucking fella know my pay this month if he didn't look at the pay cheques that the other girl brought in this morning?!?!?! What right does he have to look at people's pay slips like that?! His motive is clear - he wants to know whether my pay is higher than his (DOH~) [and suay suay this month the calculation seems to be wrong] and guess that i got a secret promotion or pay raise. What nonsense...

At least i know jolly well we're getting the same pay... Reliable sources...

That is not just the point. i'm just so pissed that everyone's not cooperating to help out in the shop. Poor manager yeah? As in poor thing... And it's fucking demoralizing for her too. Count me in on that.

Anyway she was really upset at a whole list of things that i don't really wanna mention. It's disappointing...

It's SATURDAY AGAIN!!!!! Oh my... Days are passing by too quickly for my aged heart. Doing closing today. Bleah... Maybe later can go and eat KFC! Got discount coupons!

Was so tired at Adele's birthday party last night. Probably ate too much from the catering buffet. Anyway it was good to see my jc friends again. Oh yeah, there was this bottle of Absolut Vodka lying around and Bryan opened it for his own consumption. Yucks i didn't know it tasted that baaaad... It was like some antiseptic handwash or some cleaning agent?! Uh... i'll stick to Jack Daniels any time...

OMG Forbes is starting a new magazine Forbes Asia!!! Why didn't they think of that earlier!? Can't understand a shit about them going on and on about the U.S. economy and all that stuffs... Plus i don't really need to know about that also, especially when i don't even know about my very own continent.

Going off to work...

Today = Sucky day
Supposed to do closing, ended up doing opening coz someone on mc and i was holding the other key. Manager called me last night to inform me about it. Lan lan lor, have to open the shop. Alone. Again. Someone supposed to come in at 8 but she didn't appear, so i was having fun entertaining myself with doing all the things...

Then we had 2 reasonably big lunch deliveries. i did the sandwiches for both of them lor. So damn shagged after that. Didn't have much time for a breather at all. Even my hot choc became cold choc. Slacked after lunch. i had to. Not gonna be hardworking after lunch today maan... Must take my fair share of break for the day.

Went out with Mariam and Poh to buy Adele's birthday gift. Got her a small fridge from Mustafa for her hostel room. Pretty interesting i guess. Furthermore the fridge will be delivered tomorrow! That's faster than i'd thought. Hope her party tomorrow will be fun! Looking forward to meet my jc friends...

Sigh, i feel so tired. Hamstrings aching. Been aching for the past 2 days. Maybe i haven't had enough of rest. i need to sleep...

Got 3 kewt newts for my tank! Really lovable, smiley-looking little guys! They move kinda slowly though. Hope they can at least be fast enough to catch some food...

Had this odd dream last night. Dreamt i had a blind girlfriend and i felt really happy going out and being with her. It felt so (!&@&%!%$&!(@!~-ly right, i feel so guilty. But i can't control my dreams... But damn odd lor. Blind? Why?

Hisashi!!!! (One of the damn rare times i ever post pix of any guy.)

Went for brunch ride this morning. BT. The turnout was pretty small - around 7 including the ride leader. Weather was really cooling and good for riding (and sleeping). Trail was wet though...

Realize it really helps when u ride the same trail a couple more times. Smoother and everything. But my riding wasn't really good today. Kinda unpredictable and not as confident as usual. Anyway Eno rode his new bike (commencal) down. Rarity to see him on trail (and with helmet too)! As usual, pornographic bike + setup.

Actually BT isn't that tough i guess. i just lack patience and skill to climb some slopes. Sometimes i just can't be bothered to climb at all but at least i attacked all of the slopes today. And of course whack all the downslopes at decent speed. We were supposed to meet at the T-junction (left to t15, right to vc) after either riding 0.5 or 1.5 rounds of bt. Too slack liao, took 0.5 rounds and stopped there. Then lunch lor. Then didn't quite had enough of trail yet so went by the last portion of bt back to vc where i slacked all the way back home.

Got this guy washing the floor at BB swimming complex to jet-spray my bike. Evil owner... Trying to kill my bike or what. But u know lah, the convenience of it all. As long as don't shoot the bearings/bb/whatever should be okay lah.

Trail's fun but i don't think i wanna go bt every weekend. BORING!!!!! No life one... Siao eh... So what if can climb all the slopes no-sweat style and descend like a dh goddess?! So what if my timing hits 15 minutes?! (Btw, that'll never ever happen.) *YAWN* No big deal. Might as well slack and take it easy.

Let me play my Mastermind now... Lotsa techniques to figure out.

I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF GLAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Teru's voice is starting to sound so damn sexy... Hisashi looks awesome... Jiro looks so boyish... Takuro's compositions just sound so goood... Help... Now that i digged out their vcd from years back, i've realized why i was so crazy about Glay last time. Hopefully their recent productions are as good as their older ones.

Went out with BoiBoi just now. Headed to Bugis to terminate his pacnet account. And then visit the new National Library which opened last month. It was (too) big and kinda inconvenient to get from one section to another. Walk, walk, walk. So many empty floors... CHEY! Thought how come the library so tall one. Now we know.

There were photos on display and some were taken from historical moments that changed Singapore. Really nice photos. Love those of buildings especially. There was one of Cathay cinema in the '70s? If only that pic was on sale... And there was another one of the terrorist attack on MacDonald House. Can't remember the year but it was awesome. No no i don't mean the event was awesome. It's just the pic. i can put in my mind the before and after of that place.

As we were exiting the galley, both of us thought we saw my jc classmate's gf walking in & holding some guy's hand. Maybe they broke up. Or maybe she's got a twin sister. Or maybe she one-leg-step-two-boat. Oh well...

HaiyAH! Suddenly remembered we didn't reach our destination (Art Friend).

Anyway BoiBoi wanted a hot drink and we headed over to Shaw Towers' Starbucks for a Caramel Macchiato. (Yah la... BoiBoi hinted so obviously that he wanted a CARAMEL drink. HOR?~) But on the way i hijacked our journey lor. Made a turn to Purvis St for the famous beef noodles. Yum... 5 bucks for each bowl...

And Starbucks! The place was deserted and we got the sofa seats. So damn comfy we almost couldn't leave the place.

Took 502 back. Super long journey but i slept all the way. Was kinda uncomfortable in my seat but who cares...

So shagged when i reached home. Had to take a 2-hour nap before dragging myself up for a shower, and subsequently come online for entertainment while my hair dried.

i should sleep now... before i go crazy again.

Check our dinner out!

And the $6+-used-for-a-zillion-bbqs pit from Giant... with all the satay and prawns grilling nicely over the charcoal...

2 crazy nuts BBQ-ing along the corridor...

Weekend go chalet ah! Tgp one at Costa Sands Sentosa. DIRTY TOILETS!!!!!!! And Mavic aka Guobin (i know u're looking at this), u watch out!!!! Don't EVER let me catch YOU leaving my BoiBoi behind on the trail AGAIN! MuhAhaHAhahAHaa...

Zish booked 5 huts and sheesh, the huts were minute. 3 beds in each hut. Tiny huts. Common toilet. BBQ! Yum... The crabsticks were the most delicious ones i've eaten in my 21 years of life. i don't know what the hell's inside those stuffs but hell, they're good!

And i just finished another bbq (with esther) just tonight. It was a very last minute thing. Initially i thought of bbq-ing alone but ended up asking her at the super last minute. BoiBoi couldn't make it coz he promised his mum to stay home for dinner. Made a trip down to Giant to grab those foods. Chicken mid-wing joints, squid, rubbery beef, baby potatoes, super tasty salmon fillet, prawns and satay. The salmon was the best! It was so sweet and tender, i regretted not getting more of it. The marinate was not much, either light soy sauce or light soy sauce with sesame oil. i can't remember.

i can't remember...

But i remember myself breaking down today. Went to the toilet to cry during work - in fact it was around lunch time.

Going nuts. Can't stop thinking of something that isn't even supposed to occur to anyone.

This morning just minutes before my alarm clock went off, my hp went off. (What kind of sentence is this...) Anyway in some super drowsy, blurry state, i saw BoiBoi's name on the screen. And a few seconds later, i was even more blur to learn that he was walking towards my place. "HUH?~" He couldn't sleep well and so decided to give me a surprise by coming down to my place to have breakfast together! Pretty cool hor? Hehehe... It happens just once in a lifetime. So sweet of BoiBoi!!!!! =D

Well, it did make my day yeah? Hahahahaa...

My mind was running around again... thinking about myself and stuffs. Okay, let me just come straight to the point. With the buncha not-really-straight-colleagues all around, i start to wonder again about my sexual orientation. Today's conclusion is that, i'm still a confused kid. i still don't know what i really want. But i know it'll be really nice if everyone around me can accept what i am and what i might be in the future.

So odd huh... Thinking of such things...

But you see, when you have only 5 colleagues of which 2 are lesbians and that you are confused about yourself, it's a rather big cloud of HUH?...

Anyway ultimately it's not really the answer i get that's important. i realized (again, just today again) that it feels so good to be able to open up to someone and talk about things that i find so hard (make it impossible) to tell anyone at all. =) And it's not the length of time u've known each other. It's just the comfortable feeling, the trust and everything.

We (Esther, Tammy, Andy and i) went to Breko at Holland V for dinner. Seemed to keep eating the entire day so Esther and i ended up sharing one baked potato. Yum... But they were really, really stingy on the sour cream and cheddar cheese and all those toppings. Haiyah... Complaining about them is like shooting ourselves in the feet. We work in that similarly stingy way too? And we cannot stop complaining about irritating, never-satisfied customers who keep pressing for more and making noise about the company's policies?

i'm going to sleep now. It's past my bedtime already. Getting into the habit of getting enough sleep. It seems to put me in a better mood.

Bored. Nation's birthday tomorrow. Wanted to ride out to watch the fireworks at midnight (yes, just about 10min from now.) but ended up feeling too lazy and turned off thinking of the return journey. So here i am, stucked in front of the screen.

Bored.

Bored.

Bored.

Today's one of those freak days where everything seems to go totally unexpected. i mean what are the odds of 2 out of 4 ppl on shift go on mc and 3 people pop out from nowhere to help? 1 new person, 1 from SLT and another from T2. Wow...

Working styles were totally different. Things were done differently, communication style was different, it was (uh...) rather refreshing to know. Was tiring to keep seeing one new face after the other though. 8am, 12 noon, 2pm. Fortunately prep was more or less finished by lunch so it wasn't much of a prob.

Really sucks to be short-handed.