Watched i,robot just now.  Not too bad at all.  Considering that the story was stolen from Isaac Asimov plus i'm not a fan of Isaac's, the movie was quite good.  It's really quite scary to think of how robots can undergo evolution and start thinking for themselves.  Anyway the jokes in the show were pretty corny but there were still a couple of good ones. 

Might go for the vcd or dvd if it comes out.

And yeah, poor Audi.

Been feeling and acting like a total fucker these days.  WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME?!!!!!??!?!??!?  I get irritated at the slightest things.  Get angry for almost no reasons.  Will just flare up like that.  Simply had to vent my anger on my handphone the other day.  So pissed with myself for being so fucky.  (Sent my hp to the hospital the next day and it's recovered.)  But i have to describe a little on how interestingly good it feels to see and hear your own hp smashing onto the ground.  It's a total audio and visual experience.  Thrilled as you lift your phone.  Adrenaline pumping during the split second when the phone is in the air.  Anger appeased once the phone shatters into the main body, front & rear cover, keypad and battery. 

(It really felt good.  But the impact took away the LCD screen this time.)  Anyway what's left is a treasure hunt (because every part's flown in a different direction).  Took 1 day to find the keypad (which was miraculously behind my printer). 

I really should try to control myself before anything serious happens.  But you must understand, i'm really quite gentle by nature...

When your owner decides that you can't even fix up a water purifier and that only a guy can do it, go on strike.  Don't bother about the trivial matters such as washing the toilets and mopping the floor.  Just leave it to the professionals.

She's a fucking bitch.  Attitude.  Self-centred.  Stuck-up.  Only cares about herself.  Doesn't give a damn about anyone around her.  The world revolves around Her.  Can criticize everyone but herself.  Cannot change.  Treats her parents & boyfriend like shit.  Thinks she's the best.  BITCH!  She's better off not being around.  Even i can't stand her.  Abuses her handphone to release anger.  (And now her hp's OOD.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
That's me.

Been drinking alot of tea these few days.  Testing out each and every one of the 6 types of tea leaves stocked in the fridge.  So far so good...  But it went a little excessive tonight.  Five mugs of tea.  Oops...

Should Ace for the Macroeconomics test today.  All right for the calculations.  Looks like my weakest link still lies in the MCQ.  Lack of adequate understanding for the theory portion coupled with bad luck equals to a bad MCQ potion.  Anyway i like keeping up my principle of being the 1st few to leave the test and still get decent grades.  It's fun.  A challenge. 

My dad's gonna be discharged tomorrow!  Ooo yeah...  Hopefully it will be easy to manage him at home.  He looked fine today.  Even went to the unnecessary extent of seeing his visitors off to the carpark.  Oh well... 

Bleah...  Feeling so horrible today...  Felt like going somewhere for a walk after school but still ended up at home.  Gotta study for Thursday's test.  Sucky. 
 
On the bus back, there was this guy sitting infront of me (at the very front seats of the bus where the seats face the inside of the bus) whose actions turned me off badly.  Some time into the journey, he took out a tweezer and started picking at his stubble.  Next came the mirror.  And then 2 coins (which acted as a tweezer).  Kept picking at his stubble for virtually the entire journey.  Can't people's hygiene habits be kept just within their bathrooms or homes?  I had to almost stare at him for the entire half hour trip.  Bad seat.  No wonder it was vacant. 

Argued with my dad.  Don't really wanna talk about it.  I'm just too headstrong and he's just too sensitive over super-trival matters.
 
Think i'll try to sleep earlier tonight.  Gotta recharge from last week, recharge for next week and also get up early tomorrow morning to read up some school work.  The past week feels like the longest week i've ever experienced.  Came back from the Chinatown retreat on Monday and it still isn't Monday yet.  Feel so tired.  Seem to be losing touch with school, friends, entertainment and everything.  Every day feels tiring and endless and nothing seems to be done at all. 

My dad's able to walk today!!  How cool...  recovery's pretty fast!
 
My mum managed to get a temporary maid to help us clean the house on Sunday.  She's staying over from tonight.  And yeah, her name's Sunshine.  So yeah, Sunshine's in da House. 
 
Another kuhli loach died.  Now i'm suspecting it's the temperature of the water.  From a couple of websites, the suggested temperature is pretty low, even lesser than 25 deg C.  Digged out my laboratory thermometer and found my tank temp. to be around 29 deg C.  So maybe that's the reason.  But i can't be forever sitting at the tank dropping in ice cubes, you see.  Anyway if the last (or izzit last 2) guy(s) survive, i'll try to get a few more kuhli friends to join da House, yo. 
 
Should go to bed now... 
 

My dad's able to sit up and blow the 3-ball thingy!!!  1 ball went up!  All great signs of a great recovery!  He could drink water too!  Plus the fever and the pain subsided!  Cool...  Judging from his progress, he should be able to come back very soon.
 
BoiBoi bought me some Fibrax brakepads from Seng Chu Hin today!  What a surprise!  Hehehee...thank you!! *HUG*
 
My reddish shrimp got poached by the funny guys (aka golden penchex) this evening.  Serves it right for wandering into the danger zone.  Wanted to buy a bristlenose pleco from the shop in Clementi today but contemplating now.  It's always a dilemma.  Economic theories are always right - Man has limited resources and unlimited wants, thus a choice has to be made at an opportunity cost.  At first it was between Michael Chiang's play (Private Parts) and pleco.  And after eliminating the play, it became pleco vs saving the cash.  Maybe i'll just get pleco when i've got spare cash.  Worried that it'll starve in my tank.  Worried that it might get cut by the sharp edges of the ornament. 
 
Oh man...  now i've got 100% of bike parts to build up the Norco.  But i guess i'll wait till things blow over and i start riding more before building it up. 

*yAWnzzz*

It's been a long day. Went to visit my dad in the hospital after school. He looks much much better than yesterday and the colour has returned to his face. Still not allowed to eat, still feeling the pain from the op (doh~), but feeling alot better.

Tried waxing today. Fun! Tried it on the legs and now each and every scar on my leg can be seen. It just feels interesting. Not much use unless i buang on my bike more often.

Looking tru what i have to go tru before lesson tomorrow. So many chapters!!! HELP! It is really quite true that once u lose touch of it for some time, it'll take quite awhile to read up on everything again. Law~

Music. Music suddenly sounds so sweet. Sweeter than usual. Perhaps i just miss listening to music. Perhaps it's relief.

My dad's op was a success!! So glad that everything's okay. But when i 1st saw him after the op, i couldn't help but just cry. He looked so pale and weak, looked so helpless with the tubes all hanging around him. And how helpful was everyone, busy nagging to me non-stop about not shedding even a tear infront of him. Hey i'm human alright! Gimme a break...

Okay i must explain my tears. The first thing he said to me when i went over to his side was, "Ju, very pain, bladder full, going to die..." He sounded so weak, totally helpless. (really can't think of other more suitable words to describe the moment.) okay yeah, i know he doesn't have a high tolerance for pain but when u see a close one in such a state, it is really quite human to feel sad.

Many people came to visit him. Uncles, aunties, cousin, friends, etc. A couple of flower baskets came in too. Anyway we came home earlier tonight coz my dad needs alot of rest and my mum's got a bad headache. Plus all the fatigue from rushing all over the island these few days.

BoiBoi's not going to M'sia this weekend coz he wants to accompany me here. Feel really bad about it... Besides, he's been spending the past few days running around with us. Thanks, we all really appreciate it.

It's been such a long day. My dad was admitted into Alexandra Hospital today for the operation noon tomorrow. By the way, the figures such as 50-50 stated in the previous post are quite invalid. My parents are totally confused about the numbers and their uses so i'll ignore those figures and create my own 100% success figure.

Can tell my dad's quite sad over everything that's happening. He's constantly giving us and himself hope through whatever he says. i'm sure everything will be alright after the op! My cousin has been really supportive and encouraging. Afterall, he's been through more than this and he knows how it feels and everything. Guess their family still haven't gotten over the loss of their mum. It's only been around 2 weeks.

The house is gonna be really quiet and empty for quite some time. Dad'll probably be in hospital for a week, maid's going back to Indonesia tomorrow for a month and my grandma will be sent to St Luke's to be taken care of for the time being.

On top of all these, i can't seem to concentrate much on my school work. Been reaching home late and tired. Trying to squeeze in a few minutes here and there to catch up with previous lectures. But not much time to attempt the tutorials. Hope to at least scrape through this semester.

Feeling kinda numb now. Don't know how to respond to things that are happening. Good thing and bad thing to blog today.

Just came back from our Chinatown retreat and it was a success! It was a 3 day 2 night stay at the Keong Saik Hotel! On the first day, Saturday, we went over to Sentosa to bbq. High-class BBQ, as what i referred to it as. We had beef, salmon, shishamo, chicken wings, satay and lotsa other items. Although my culinary skills aren't of any standard, most of the foods eventually became quite edible.

The hotel room was rather small but its facilities were sufficient for the 2 of us. Service was rather personalized as the hotel isn't very big. Simple setting and everything down to the minimum. Our room number was 305 and anyway, the door to the room couldn't really be trusted fully.

On the 2nd day, we pretended to be tourists and roamed the streets of Singapore's Chinatown. Had delicious tea leaf eggs as we ventured around the unfamiliar place. Took a couple of photos too! Got to eat tang yuans from my favourite stall too! Didn't really buy anything but memories are literally our free souvenirs.

Headed back to our cosy hideout after that! Caught "Japan Hour" on CNA and couldn't resist some Japanese cuisine!!! After lotsa debating on hunting for dinner, we set on going to Takashimaya's Cold Storage to grab sushis and sashimis! There was also a food fair within the shopping centre, further enhancing our hunting experience. Out of everything we bought back to our room, the smoked salmon was the most decent dish.

Monday morning. Managed to wake up in time to catch the "light breakfast" that was inclusive in the hotel stay. The basic breakfast items were all the cafe had to offer. Toast, spreads, orange juice, fresh milk, cereal, eggs and tea/coffee. Went back to bed for awhile and... had to rush off for school. =.="

Called back to inform my maid that i wasn't having dinner at home. Got a shock when my mum picked up the phone instead. She said something happened and that she'd tell me when i got home. Through persistance, i digged the truth out of her. My dad's diagnosed with colon cancer. It took some time for it to sink in. I didn't know how to react. Things will change greatly from this time onwards.

I later found out that my dad's op on the coming Wednesday has a 50-50 rate of success. Really hope everything will turn for the better. Don't understand why this happened. Maybe it's a punishment for me for not spending time with my family, not showing concern and treating them like outsiders.

My maid's going back to Indonesia for a month to visit her mother who's in hospital. Hope things work out on her side.

All bad things seem to come at the same time.

Maybe this is all a bad dream. Maybe sleep will restore life into pristine condition.

By the way, from observation, it seems like only major illnesses or death can bring people together. My aunty's wake/funeral did see all my uncles being present. Even on occasions such as Chinese New Year or my grandmother's birthday, their attendance is not as perfect. My dad's close colleague visited him this evening. My uncle & aunty came over at night. My cousin & his gf gave me consolation through sms.

I should sleep now. Discovered an undone tutorial that's probably due tomorrow. Gotta do it in my dreams.

Went for Yoshihiro Andoh's concert in the evening! It's a concert featuring the new electone model Stagea ELS-01(C). The guy looked pretty funky in terms of his dressing and hairdo. His music was average but from his style of playing, i feel that he is more into dance pieces. When he played the dance pieces, u could see him swaying along with the beat, plus the smile on his face. Got his autograph too. Took a couple of pics of him but only 1 seem to turn out okay. Cool guy. In fact quite cute too. No wonder the brochure stated that many of his fans are young women. Hahaha...

An Indian lady sitting beside me during the concert passed me a sweet. What do you do when an unsuspicious-looking stranger offers you a sweet? Take it.

Had 5 additions to the tank yesterday - 5 kuhli loaches. So lively and wriggly! BoiBoi bought me an ornament and gravel for my tank and oh boy, the tank looks gorgeous with the ornament in it! The ornament has the volume and height for my tank. Added 2 fako plants in this morning and everyone looks happy about it. My tank looks too good to be true!

Current strength:
10 golden penchex
8 panda corys
5 kuhli loaches
2 angelfish
2 gourami
1 brown eel
1 stumpy (err... forgot the name)
? glass shrimps

if only i could sit infront of the tank and not go to school...

Going for a holiday over the weekends! A romantic hotel stay + BBQ for 2! Shopping for the BBQ items this weekend. Parents don't look/sound exactly supportive of the event but as long as i keep those grades up, it shouldn't matter too much.

Putting on weight again... Keep eating and eating... not excessively but in significant quantities. Trying hard to keep telling myself weight is just a number. But it's also the looks. Be fat and no one wants to employ you. That won't do... The older generation always comment on whether u've put on or lost weight. Unless the change is very noticeable, there is no need for such comments. By the way, all my friends are like of only 80% (or even lesser) of my body weight.

It's raining outside... think i should just cook some noodles at home before going to school. Hopefully the weather clears by then.

Ankle okay liao but heart not okay. Feeling a little sad. Wishing i could stab myself and die on the spot.

OWWWWWW.....my left ankle's hurting big time... couldn't even squat just now!!!!! wonder if my shoes are the problem. Will elevate my left leg tonight and use another pair of shoes tomorrow. should be alright then...

BoiBoi came back liao!!! He looked so tired just now but still saw me back... so sweet... Judging from his comments about the ride, it's all nice and good! Argh, too bad i can't go for it. Busy struggling with school...

Anyway Malaysia will always be there for all of us to go to!

Today's lecture was a killer. Everyone's mind became saturated by the end of the lesson. Read up a little while waiting for BoiBoi and actually it doesn't seem so tough. But there's really quite abit of memorizing to do - something which i'm very poor at.

Notice that my fishes shit only at night. Their bits and pieces of shit move along with the current and it's looks rather disgusting as their owners take a nip at them here and there.

Went for a short ride with Zombie and company. And we went durian-hunting near t15. That's quite new eh? Hahahaa... Angie managed to find 1 durian which looked acceptable. (They took it back. Wonder if it was edible.) I was pretty weak on the bike today. Slow, sluggish and everything. Plus now my left ankle's feeling "suan". Yucks... totally disgusted with myself.

Just changed my tank water. Now it looks nice and clear (and not yucky yellow) but i'm a little worried about a white-worm attack.

Feeling restless now. Doing homework is the last thing on my mind but the module's a killer.

Why did i ever keep a blog? Don't remember if i mentioned it before... it's just a record of my life when i die. Probably no one will want to know about my life but oh well... Another reason is that i'd probably wanna recall what i did in the past and given my goldfish memory, i'd need a journal/diary/blog. Somehow the blog choice seems better coz there'll be nothing in black and white for kaypohs in the house to chance upon when i die (or even when i'm alive).

Everyone in my tank looks generally happy. The eel's still alive and it's quite active tonight - probably from the huge shock when i poured in the water full force. These fellas need a reminder of nature anyway. Don't like the little particles floating around in the tank. They'd better clear. Or maybe i need to change the filter sponge already.

This semester's gonna be stressful. 3 alien modules. 1 of which has language out of this world. Maybe i shouldn't hope for any As. Let me go settle the homework first...

feeling so miserable. it's pouring BIG TIME right now. thought i could go out for a spin and dinner-cum-supper. the clouds outside seemed white from the illumination of lights just now and i thought "hey the sky looks not too bad..." but oh well, the story took a turn for the WORST WORST WORST within a few minutes. sitting in my room all alone now. family's gone out for dinner. boiboi's in malaysia. i'm feeling fat. raining like no tomorrow. HELP!!!!

right thumb's hurting. i've got no one to blame except for myself. was picking at my fingers during lecture today. the thumb got the worst punishment (for what, i don't know). i've never made any of my fingers bleed so much before. but i couldn't resist the pain and the blood. ended up going to the washroom to wash it. now it's just pusing. quite ugly. deep too. probably will take a few days to heal.

think maybe i should just cook some instant noodles for myself and sleep everything off. want to just cry.

So bored. Decided to come online for awhile before going school today. Sleepy too.

BoiBoi's outta the country at the moment. On a quest to cycle to KL. Saw him off at Woodlands checkpoint yesterday morning. Initially i wanted to ride there but it ended up pouring like mad in addition to a handful of thunders and lightnings. Thought i could take a train or a bus there but it was like 5.30 in the morning. Ended up taking a cab. Still had to be tormented by the weather before achieving my sweet goal. My bottom-half got totally drenched by the time i got into the cab. But for BoiBoi, waking up at 0445, getting wet in the rain and paying a midnight surcharge cabfare is nothing!

According to BoiBoi, the ride's been good! That's good... but i miss BoiBoi...

Anyway after that i went home to catch another 2 hours of sleep before heading out for school. Went to Bugis with Bao & San after that. Had a gorgeous dinner of duck rice! I couldn't resist some durian strudel from Ritz so i dragged both of them over for some. They didn't believe me when i said it was really yummy but anyway their eyes nearly popped out when they took a bite of it. IT WAS HEAVEN!!!!!!!!! The durian was fresh, filling was generous and the sweet crust complemented the durian! *help* Bao da bao-ed a whole durian strudel back! Later on we kept scheming on going to her house for the strudel... MuhHahAhahaHaaaa~~~..........

Think i should go to school now... don't feel like going... wondering what to do after school... i don't wanna have dinner with family... i wanna ride but i feel sleeeeepy...

Today's the first day of school for this semester! Nothing exciting... Had a lecture on macroeconomics and the lecture was bo-ring. Her voice and looks had a drowsy effect on us.

Heard that there'll not be any group projects this semester. Don't know if that's a good thing but anyway i still hope to get at least an A this semester. Hope hope hope it'll put me in the top few percent of the class.

BoiBoi's riding to KL tomorrow and will be back on Monday. Promised to see him off in the morning so i think i'd better go zZz now... Miss him already... =(

Finally i get to sit down infront of the computer to blog.

Spent my Tuesday & Wednesday helping out with my auntie's wake & funeral. Experienced two first-times on Tuesday. First was to see the paper house + money being burnt for my auntie. I've never ever seen anyone burn the paper house before. Thought it was pretty cool coz the fire was quite large at the climax of the burning and the trees directly above were swaying like there's no tomorrow. Right after we headed back to the void deck, there was a blackout in the entire housing estate. Everyone started whipping out their handphones and torches and starting groping around in the dark. Meanwhile someone managed to find tealights and the place soon glowed with a romantic candlelight. At the same time, i was also surprised that BoiBoi's place (River Valley area) too experienced a blackout. (i was in woodlands at that point of time.)

Attended my auntie's funeral on Wednesday. It's the first time i've attended a funeral. When the visitors streamed in to take a last look at my auntie, many of them started crying. The atmosphere was rather tense but sad at the same time. Took the bus to the temple and passed by Jln Machang (their old place). Cremation was fast and the ashes were collected only 3 hours later. Bright Hill Temple had a huge terrapin pond (aka Ootland~), a large koi pond and a rabbit hanging around the pond. Peaceful place...

Met up with BoiBoi for lunch later on. Tried some yakiniku buffet thingy and uh... as usual we got ripped off!!!! Misleading information on the brochure!!!! Ended up spending $73+ for only 2 persons. *help* The food was not too bad though... fortunately... But we were both expecting the lunch to be $19+ per head. We'll never go there again... and for those who ever get to read this... yeah... DON'T GO THERE! It's a Japanese restaurant on the 4th level of Orchard Shopping Centre.

Just packed my table and cleared all the notes and rubbish for last sem. Now my table seems too empty... i've got more toys than anything else on it! Big and small mismatched-coloured TYs, Snuffy (Snauzher? how do u spell it...), Fuzz (brown TY) and Gorrilla.

HELP! I DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!!!!! Mentally unprepared..........