i've been busy the past few days. First it was the xmas eve bbq at my place. Had to visit the wet market pushing a trolley to get some foods in the morning, squeeze along with all the aunties and feeling very much like an auntie. Washed and marinated the foods later on and BoiBoi came over right after that. Bought more stuffs at Giant when we met up with the rest. Happened to see an abandoned trolley just outside IMM so we returned it and got a free buck from there! How lucky...

BoiBoi gave me a pair of Cateye socks and a cordless optical mouse for xmas!!! So sweet of him... Using the mouse now. It's great!! We tried it from the other end of the room and it still worked! Thank you for the wonderful presents!!!

The bbq was good. The satay was super power and the stingrays were good! The beef was really tender and nice considering i'd only paid 3 dollars for a pretty big slab of it. The two pieces of deboned drumsticks were fantastic especially with all the butter and honey and marinate in it!!! They were of a nice golden brown after bbq-ing them. There was a gift exchange and many ppl picked back their own gifts. hahaha... But after some noise and "i exchange with u lah"s, everybody was happy with their items. BoiBoi and i got a pink stuffed dog head that's supposed to glow in the dark! The clearing up wasn't so bad coz we wrapped the 2 portable pits with generous quantity of aluminium foil. (My pit had 2 layers and my friend's had 4. Apparantly i was very paranoid about damaging/ruining my friend's mum's pit. Anyway it had an electric coil but we decided to use charcoal with it so that the coil would be in pristine condition.) Okay we were fucking surprised to see my friend's pit super shiny and totally clean after we took off the aluminium foil. Didn't even clean it before putting it back into the packaging. and sheesh, i was in the washing area washing the drinks dispenser when it turned Christmas... only when BoiBoi came in to wish me Merry Xmas did i realize that, hey, it was xmas already!

Yesterday my family + BoiBoi went to Trader's Hotel to have some high tea buffet. The bill was 180+ for 5 of us but the food wasn't very impressive. Gorged ourselves (if-no-quality-then-it's-quantity concept?) with the variety of mainly local cuisine. My favourite dishes were the stewed pork (actually pork with pig skin and intestines and stomach and cuttlefish and whatever i can't remember... it's a HK dish) and of course the salmon sashimi. i must say the crepe was pretty good too. The beef satay was also nice! Ate till 4pm...

Headed to visit my grandma before going over to Zishin's place for his Xmas party! Mainly his karate students and riding friends there! Slacked around... ate the food compliments from his mum... browsed through a whole load of 2005 catalogues brought over by AR from Interbike... watched a free bike video... chit chatted... then watched Initial D... Stayed till pretty late before taking a cab back. Oh yeah there was a gift exchange too and i got an outdoor blanket from Bee. ahahaaa... Eno was like about to tell me what she'd wrapped inside the sweet packaging and suddenly decided against it in case i happen to get that gift. And so i did... hahaha... And Eno packed a rock melon into a box stuffed with newspapers as his gift. Interesting humour... Thank gawd he didn't execute his roast chicken plan...

Slept at 4+am after accompanying BoiBoi to look for Instant noodles at 7-11. Amazingly the mee kia stall was open at that time!!!! 4am!!! And so he had nice hot meepok there... Headed back and i X_X zzZzzz....

And we got up at 4pm today... Went down to eat tunch and BoiBoi went back after that. End of his 3D2N chalet at my place...

My mum gave me an underwear for xmas. Hope it's comfortable...

Oh yeah... i won a pair of tickets worth 38 bucks to the Countdown at Sentosa! Gonna collect them and hopefully able to sell them. If not, give to someone else also good! Just delighting to win stuffs even though i don't need them!!! 1st 80 people to reply to the email could get the tickets. Or maybe they just gave tickets to whoever replied to the email... Hahaha... Anyway i'll go collect the tickets tomorrow.

Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year to All!!!

Feeling abandoned. i keep having this feeling that BoiBoi never enjoys my company. Keep thinking that he doesn't really care about me although i know that this is not true. i guess when one is out to have fun, no1 else really matters. And the talk about having time to himself, i really don't know how to respond to it. Currently i'm just sms-ing him lesser so that he can have whatever time to himself and can sms me back when he feels that he can spend some time with me. i shouldn't be selfish and keep bugging him to bug me yeah? There must be a reason to why he told me (and probably no1 else) that he wants time to himself.

Having a headache now... sucks. Gotta get up to fucking early tomorrow to open stall @ Fairfield.

My hair's like dropping and dropping and dropping. i'm balding... My head hurts... argh... feel confused... feeling fat... didn't run/ride/do sports today. okay... i AM fat... what the fuck... it's not just the feeling...

Wonder if BoiBoi thinks of me as much as i think of him...

My mum knew that i didn't go for the "Sentosa chalet" last monday. Wonder how she found out. She must have checked my bag or followed me.

so fucked up...

Anyway i reckon she found out that i was taking vitamin P last time but she couldn't ask me about it because that would mean she'd intruded into my drawer.

Bought a top from Zara. BoiBoi said it'd look good only with a skirt. Anyway i still bought it despite the fact that i'm gonna wear it with a nice pair of brown pants from G2000.

My new slippers were super hard on my feet. The base of my feet were already feeling damn sore before i left Orchard. Doubt there's any breaking in for the slippers. Told BoiBoi maybe i'll wear socks with the slippers next time and be a fashion statement. (Had my nice brown + orange + black ankle toe socks in mind.)

My hair's getting long. Keeps poking into my eyes. Irritating fuck. Can't wait to get a headband to keep the hair out.

To the cyclist who was knocked down during last Sunday's Thomson ride, i hope u'll be okay. Hope you responded and that they didn't pull the plug on you. Don't wish to see another fellow cyclist innocently knocked down by a careless/reckless vehicle either.

To my mum if u ever read my blog. Don't try to sneak up on me again ever.

BoiBoi's FSR cracked on Sunday and it's gonna retire. Now he's headaching over what to do. No money to get new full-sus xc frame. GT has too short a seatpost. i wish i've got the money to buy him the Blur. Maybe rob the bank... just ask for 3k? Okay, the most realistic way is to WORK WORK WORK for it. Take up a full-time job after Christmas and take a few months to earn the 3k. Then we shall see what happens...

So tired tired tired tired tired today... Went shopping with BoiBoi to get the presents for the Xmas Eve and Xmas parties. Ended up with all the shower products. We figured that it's something everyone can use... So we shared 2 bottles of Lux shower foam and a scrub for the Xmas Eve party. And i reckon Dove shower cream is something that all riders should use (coz it's so nice and smooth and smells damn good) so i got a small bottle of it for the Xmas party.

Guess what... i got a pair of Louis Garneau tights from my relative as a Christmas present!!!!!!!!!! MUHAHAHAHAAAA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ It looks a little big (M size) but i hope it fits. What a surprise man...

Oh yeah, i managed to go for s21's Sentosa camp last night! Apparantly we (my family) ended up not going for this Christmas party and i still had the little bit of energy to last for the camp. Talked alot and played a new version of Murderer. By 3am, everyone couldn't tahan any more and dozed off in the 8-man tent. The short trip was a great time to catch up with everything and it just felt so good to be with all my jc friends again. It just feels so right, i can't explain how and why.

Mr Sunny, the worker who was doing the renovations in our house the past 2 days, lied to his boss that he was going shopping to actually come over to help my mum with the painting today! Hahahahaa... Such an interesting fella! He speaks with all the languages all jumbled up. Hokkien, Mandarin, English and Malay. Very cheerful person and also very responsible for his job. So finally the house is almost done with all the painting. Without his help, my mum, Iis and i would probably take many many more days and 3 aching necks to finish the job. Plus the fact that i didn't sleep well last night, i'd probably have dozed off on the ladder while painting some pipes.

My mum wanted me to stay home to do more painting tomorrow afternoon and i decided to finish it just now (around midnight) so that i can have fun outside tomorrow! Gotta touch up the paintwork here and there in the morning though...

i was thinking that wow, it'd be so damn sweet if my bf actually asked "hey, do u all need my help for the renovations?" But that'd be asking too much i guess.

Anyway back to the topic. i'm fat. HEEEEELLLLLLLPPPPPPPP!!!!!! i must lose 2 kilos before i become seriously overweight and stupidly SLOW and SLUGGISH on my bike. Maybe i should just ride/move around lesser coz i always lose weight like that. Ride more and my body throws on a couple of kilos. i don't believe it's muscle mass coz muscles certainly don't build up overnight. Maybe i can give the Zone Diet a try. Anyway it sounds good coz i'm pretty much of a meat-eater who tries to add veg + fruits to the diet. Avoid carbo! That's the way! But the carbo craving always comes along... Pasta... Fries... Mee kia... AAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Whole day renovation at my place. Woke up at 7.30am to further prepare for it. Then slacked around while the renovation was in progress. Then it was time to clean up. So much dirt everywhere. Cleaned and cleaned but it was neverending.

Think i gained weight. i'm fat. i'm disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUCKSSSSS!!!!!! Unfit and totally fat and unhealthy but not about to die (i guess). Let me get back to my skipping and a shower before i return...

Not a very good day. Aunty was admitted into hospital coz she couldn't walk. Think it's caused by osteoporosis or some bone degeneration. Went to visit her with another Aunt (her sis), my grandaunt and their friend. It's so nice, warm and touching to see how sisters care for each other so much. i'm jealous. hahaha... But anyway according to my aunt, her sis' condition was much better today.

Went for lunch together. Ate at this Holland V XO yu pian mi fen shop. AGAIN. hahahaa... Then it rained. Trapped there. Decided to go for karaoke session. Cheap cheap!! $10 nett per head!!!!!!! Free flow of drinks too!!! And Smoke FREE environment!! Sang non-stop for 3 hours before heading back.

Kept getting nagged at for reaching home late. Supposed to help prepare the house for the renovation tomorrow morning. Got nagged for not telling my parents my grandaunt called yesterday. No sense eh...

Back from Sungei Rengit! Pretty good trip... Decent enough weather although there were showers here and there. Glad that i spent the entire of my last Sunday cleaning and polishing my bike. It was really much easier to wash the mud off and the frame was sparkling like no one's business. Rode up quite abit of mileage yesterday (considering my long absence from long distance riding and only middle chainring and platform pedals and all the other excuses you can help me think of...) Rode to Changi V to meet the rest. Rode around 15km from the jetty to the hotel. Rode some 30+ km of trail. Fun! Ran on pure adrenalin and perhaps food. Didn't really sleep well the night before.

Nearly dieded on the ride to the jetty today. Sucks. My fitness is as good as no fitness. And i was still so eager to ride back home. But by the time we reached ECP i was hungry and super demoralized by my performance earlier. Tired also. Couldn't push myself on Coastal. Weather was fucking hot. Something is very very wrong with me. Hai... was so fucked up that we took a cab to BoiBoi's place and i dropped my bike there. What's my problem?!! So disappointing... and BoiBoi wasn't even feeling tired.

i hate myself.

Turns out we'll be going for the trip afterall. BoiBoi decided to give his course a miss. Pray for good weather...

Woohoo... picked up a card that had a $1 refund yesterday. Isn't that as good as picking up a dollar?

Went swimming + have fun with BoiBoi at JE Sports Complex today! The weather was great in the afternoon and we had fun trying all the slides and moving from activity to activity. But BoiBoi hit his head twice while enjoying the slides. *Rub rub...* Had a good tan though. The place was pretty crowded with all the kids with the school hols. Oh yeah, we also had some great curry chicken for lunch and yummy pizza + lasagne for teabreak.

Later on we happened to meet this guy from NUS cycling club. i met him for the first time last week at the workshop and today we got to see him with his bike AND found out in our conversation that he stays on the same block as me... WOWWW~~~~~~ HUGE surprise! Finally found a cycling kaki staying nearby, or rather on the block. That's one in a million sia! Hahahaha... And BoiBoi and i have seen his bike around the block before. But he's never caught my bike before except for the workshop.

Guess i'm not riding to m'sia next week... BoiBoi forgot he's got this resume writing course that clashed with the ride so he's not going for the ride. Don't think i wanna go with a group of people i'm not familiar with. Plus the fact that i'm not from their club. SO FUCKING DISAPPOINTED AGAIN!!!!!!! I HATE IT!!!!!!! I HATE GETTING DISAPPOINTED LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!! AND my $19 for the period-delaying pills are going to utter waste. WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday i had venison when we went to Bboss. My name might be on Santa's Notti Kids list this year. Rudolf was pretty tough but the sauce that went with him was really tasty!

Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer (Tune)

Rudolf the red-nosed reindeer
Had a very tasty leg
And if you ever tried it
You would even say it's good.

All of the other reindeer
Used to call him venison
They never let cute Rudolf
Join in any Reindeer games.

Then one rainy boring day
We went to B-Boss
Juli wanted venison
So the waiter brought deer meat!

Seeing Rudolf on the dish
Juli squeaked in glee
She took a nice deep breath
Before gobbling up his meat!


Err... i think this is the uncensored version of "Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer"

i want to go for the bikeshow in Taiwan. i want to go i want to go i want to go...................

maybe i'll just lie to my parents that i'm going for a chalet or something... but it's gonna be hard yeah... very very tough... can't buy souvenirs or foods back, gotta shut my mouth up, etc... ARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!
so fucking disappointed last night when they were talking abt the trip. i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!!!

maybe i'll just fucking work my arse off during that period of time and forget about it. Save more money and run away for a trip to Japan AND Taiwan together. If i'm gonna do something like that, might as well do it to the fullest. And i don't even feel like studying anymore right now.

Watched "Casshern" just now. Not too exciting but there was this guy with a really cool hair colour and also a pretty pretty gal. i want my blond hair again...

Ate Pastamania. Ordered the folded pizza that looked like a HUGE curry puff. Nice and tasty with all the juices still trapped within.

Took 174 home again... Had to walk for 20 minutes again... zZzz...

Went Bugis to walk... Literally WALKED and walked and walked. Around 3 hours of non-stop walking before i sat down for dinner. Haven't quite realized before that Bugis Junction is actually much bigger than i'd thought but Seiyu dept store wasn't very exciting. Met BoiBoi after dinner. He gave me a Mashimaro with a nice woollen hat! Now Mashimaro's sitting on my desk. My mum likes it. Said the eyes looked kewt. i like it too coz Mashimaro starts with Mas.

Last night i got up thinking about the incident with the car. Think i complain too much about the close shaves on the road that's why no one, not even my parents, thought much of the one yesterday. Why didn't the car just knock me down, knock me dead? At least the driver would be caught.

Just heard from a friend that her friend crashed on her motorbike in M'sia and died of head injuries. She was dragged 200m. People, ride safe. Condolences to the gal.

Whacked Woodcutter's today! Pretty interesting trail but i feel so chickened out at so many points. Long trail, hot weather and great ride! Had lunch at a coffeeshop at Upper Thomson. There was this Welsh Corgi in one of the landed properties just across the coffeeshop and it was really friendly. Allowed me to pat its nose and paw! Woof!!

On the way back at Bukit Timah, i nearly got knocked down by a car. The scenario was like this. There was a left turn to PIE (Tuas) and a straight road towards Beauty World. i was riding in front of Alex and we wanted to go straight. i turned back to check out the traffic and he shouted to me that the traffic was clear for us to go. i also noticed the car behind him slowing down and giving way to us. Spin, spin and suddenly i saw this car beside me - my handlebar was a few millimetres from the car. Blur, shocked. The stupid car had cut in from another lane that was supposed to have vehicles going only straight. The driver wanted to turn out to PIE. Luckily there was no physical contact. Alex stopped the car and we told the driver off. i was fuming mad and Alex was shocked and angry too. He took down the car licence plate number and we're going to lodge a complaint to TP. The driver was saying that he was in a rush and if everything was okay, he'd have to go off. Shook hands with us as if it'd be of any use. Anyway i suspect that his intention was to cut Alex's path but didn't notice another rider (me) in front. Am still fuming over it.

It's not too pleasant to meet with 2 close shaves, the second much closer than the first, within 2 days. Just this morning i was just sharing my encounter with the huge vehicle that virtually squeezed my vehicle off the main road. Also added that at this rate, i'd be involved in an accident in no time. Please, all drivers out there, drive carefully. Don't take things for granted. Even if u're rushing for an appointment, don't be too hasty on the roads. It's not worth the trouble. Anyway i'll make sure that the driver gets his rightful demerit points. Watch out, SDH 8714D. Fucking drivers...

Went to Chomp Chomp for dinner! Ordered a whole load of food but it wasn't as impressive as i'd thought. Perhaps we didn't order the food from the better stalls. Had this huge cup of sugar cane water. i think it's around a litre or so per serving. Nice and great for quenching my thirst!

Went for a bike workshop organized by NUS cycling club (in NUS... Doh~) today. With my limited knowledge of bikes, there's always something for me to learn at ANY workshop. Got to see a cassette cleaner (actually i don't really know what it's called) that's hard-bristled on one end and curved & jagged on the other. Got to find out how to use a chain whip. Got to know that our chains are made of steel. Got to touch the interesting stuffs in this almost complete bike tool box. Got to break a tyre lever from That box just by prying out my worned Trailblaster tyre. Introduced GHC to this girl who attended the workshop too. Also realized someone in the cycling club was once from the same secondary school as i did. Got to eat horrendous-tasting pasta from the Gecko cafe. (Fortunately the liang cha after that washed it all down my throat.) But most importantly, i got to spend time with BoiBoi!

After the workshop, we went to eat Nasi Lemak @ Fong Seng which was just literally down the hill. After that we went to spin a little and turned back at the CBD area. i miss my big chainring!!! Feel so handicapped without it. Feel so vulnerable to the big vehicles passing by. Anyway we headed back to the Cheese Prata stall for some prata and lotsa drinks. "Neslo" was good! But the "tehcinno" tasted just like teh peng although it looked much more attractive. BoiBoi rode back with me after that.

Gonna ride the Woodcutter's Trail tomorrow!! Will be fun...

i want a Manitou Minute. i want a pair of Time Atac pedals. i want a new Trailblaster (black).

i want to stay out of the house.

i hate R*m. Idiotic arse. Posted some lame reply to the "bike bashing" thread to 1) make BoiBoi look bad 2) make me look bad 3) admit he overprices items 4) show that he's an arsehole. Anyway i'm telling him very very sweetly not to talk rubbish. But since he's shot himself in the head, oops i mean foot, i guess he deserves to type a little more on the forum.

*looks around for dogs...*

Announcement (by Juliana Tan)
Reward to anyone who kidnaps Juliana Tan.
Address: XXXXXX
HP: 9XXXXXXX
Daily routine of kid: 1030 Wakes up, 1400 Goes out, 0100 Returns home.
Please call for appointment.

BoiBoi said, "Go out and take a walk. Isn't it better than staying at home fantasizing about being kidnapped?"

X'mas Wish List
i wish for:
1. everyone to be happy and contented with what they have.
2. myself to have a more positive attitude in life and be more supportive to those around me.
3. "More, Now, Again" by Elizabeth Wurtzel.
4. a few more pairs of ankle socks.

i haven't been a good girl so i shouldn't ask for too much.

Took so much time to fill up 10 lucky draw coupons. No idea why it feels so interesting to sit here for so long doing all these, especially that the chances of winning anything are so slim.

Tomorrow's Friday. My mum asked me to accompany her to visit some relatives in the evening. Not very interested. Rather stay at home and sleep. BoiBoi asked me to accompany him to NUS to sign up for a course and also check out the bikes at Giant. Sounds good to me! But i guess i'm not going to get to swim tomorrow then... Hai... Been looking forward to swimming. Wanted to go swimming today but BoiBoi was supposed to go out with his mum. Oh well... Another day then.

i've been feeling so odd these days... what's my problem dude...

Reckon humans are the lousiest animals on this earth. This thought stemmed from a Q&A section of some papers i read a couple of days back. Someone was asking how to keep the breast milk fresh for her kid when she went for business trip overseas. And the reply came with a whole load of pretty technical stuff, devices, things to take note of, etc. i mean, what the hell, do any other mammals do that? Most of them would have their main attentions on the kids and would provide fresh milk any time. Humans? Nah... not even when they can. Too ashamed of breast-feeding their kids. Need a special room for it. No time. Inconvenience. What excuses. We (humans) seem to be the only mammals who make the least use of our own milk and depend so largely on cow and goat's milk for child growth. Isn't cow milk for little cows (okay, calf i mean)? Let me bitch more... If it starts right from the beginning of one's life, it doesn't end there.

Survival. Many of us don't seem to fight for our own survivals. As in Want to Exist. It's more of studying & working to keep up with everyone else rather than to live a life, see the world, enjoy the nature, etc. i must digress a little at this point of time. Humans are probably the most cruel species on Earth. They kill for fun. People kill ants/cockroaches/lizards because they're irritating. (If these little fellas are killed because they'd done great damage, it'd be a different story altogether.) People hunt for rabbit, birds, deers and many other creatures for pleasure, enjoyment and to prove their capability (if applicable). People kill people because of jealousy, despair, sadism, etc. These actions should not be deemed fit for anyone. Animals hunt/kill because they Need to eat. Lions don't kill deers for fun. Bears don't fish for pleasure. Ants don't attack for nothing. Bees don't sting for no reason.

Just because humans think they have the greatest brain power around shouldn't mean that things can be taken for granted yeah?

Niki Gudex!!!! Intense 5.5 EVP!!!!! Sweet bike for a pretty rider... (Actually all her bikes are intense are sweet!!!!!!) And i want the Manitou Minute on the bike...... *whimper* *silently adds "Manitou Minute" to X'mas Wish List*

Bored bored bored. Been running errands today and slacking the rest of the time. Sg Idol Finals tonight and in fact the results are just minutes away. Bought some huge shrimps today. They're HUGE! At least 3 to 4 times the usual size. Hope they'll live well in the tank. Wonder what to do tomorrow... When u're on a super budget and have lots of time and not willing to get a job, everything seems restrictive. Think i'll sleep early tonight... zZzzz...

Looking at the activities for the month of December and also the only $250 i have for the month, this is gonna be a real lesson on financial planning. Fortunately i'll be spending quite a couple of days at home for the renovation and another couple of days at Fairfield selling PE attires. i'll probably pack sandwiches out for the rest of the month and hope that there'll be at least a hundred bucks left by the end of the month for the NY eve hotel stay. Cross my fingers for a small pay package next month for facing the unreasonable parents & principal @ Fairfield.

Went swimming todaaay! (Need the exercise to lose the kilos i put on over the past weeks.) And after that went to eat chicken rice and prata. (What irony... argh) The weather was barely warm and the water was COLD. Brr... It eventually rained but by then, we were all ready to get out of the pool. i wanna swim more these days...

Haven't blogged for a couple of days. Dunno where to start from. Think i'll just do a summary...

Friday afternoon: Went to GHC to collect my bike.

Friday evening: Went for cousin's wedding dinner. Have never met my uncle (my mum's real bro) nor that cousin before. Managed to see all of my mum's siblings (real and half) @ the dinner. Bridegroom's bro was sitting at our table. Talked too much. Pretty girlfriend though... Doorgift was a keychain with 2 metal "ppl" on it. Unique, concept, memorable. Coffee cake popped out from nowhere. Tried some, da bao-ed some. Dinner was okay, food not too bad but service quite bad. Heard it's $850 per table excluding drinks (red wine, beer, etc). Wonder if that includes the reception. After the dinner, headed to Eugene's place.

Played err... (forgot the game name). Some car-crashing game. Nothing much to do so kept playing and playing. The guys were shagged from the ride so they dozed off at around 4+. i carried on till 6+. Tried to sleep but aircon was way too cold for comfort. Eugene was on his bed, BoiBoi on the sofa (with the only extra blanket) and i took the floor. Thank gawd the floor's carpeted or they'd have found a snowgirl on the floor the next morning. Just couldn't sleep coz too cold. Tossed, turned, everything, stole BoiBoi's pillow over, then managed to catch 20 winks?

Saturday: Bought a Speedo swimsuit from Parkway Parade. 50 bucks~~~ Headed to Pasir Ris to meet family. Reached there too early and upon seeing the great weather, couldn't resist going into the pool first. Lotsa kids taking swimming lessons. Family arrived after that. Hanged around in the pool awhile more then showered and headed for dinner. KFC and bubble tea. (The reason i put on weight.) Dropped my grandma back at the home then went back. Dozed off in no time.

Today: Went riding! Damn slow on the way to Zombie's house. Weather was good though. Went to Butterfly Trail today. Nice trail! But had to stop many times coz of my lousy skills, lotsa roots and logs lying across the trail. Liked it though... Tricky and interesting. But the roots were pretty slippery due to the wet weather. My bike is a sweetie on the trail! Tried building humps at the logs (so that riders won't have to stop to carry their bikes over) while some were at the back clearing up some overhanging foliage. Wanted to go to Woodcutter's but lunch seemed to be of higher priority. So... Makan! 6 muddy and happy riders @ the usual coffeeshop.

Woodcutter's next week!!!! =D

Raining outside right now... What a blessing that the weather was fantastic this morning!

Tired~~~~~~~

Supposed to go ride around in town and sentosa but... STUPID WEATHER!!!! BoiBoi and i ended up just fixing our bikes at the shop and leaving it there to go off for dinner and fun. BoiBoi's bike was easy to settle. Fixed on the front brake cable and it was good to go! Later on found out that one of the tyre's sidewalls had a hole on it. Put in a 2-dollar note just to tahan for awhile.

My bike seems to always be a big headache. Got worried so many times today because of it. Our mission was to 1) Change the wonder cup 2) Fix on the chainguide. Looked easy, sounded easy but was a killer to manage.

First i tried to remove the crank. Crank remover stripped quite abit of the threads on my crank because the little piece of metal wasn't inserted properly!!! Freaking big scare we got! Fortunately after the experienced mechanic uncle at the shop tried again, the crank could get out. Thank gawd we didn't have to think about drilling the entire thing out.

Next was to remove the bb cup. The guys were using all their strengths to turn the cup out but the bb cup didn't seem to unscrew from the wonder cup. Since the wonder cups were not secure together by any bolts, the wonder cup on the non-drive side ACTUALLY MOVED ALONG WITH THE BB!!!!!! AAAAHHHH!!!!! *4 ppl squatting around the bike with ??? all over* BoiBoi decided that we should knock the bb from the other side and get the cups (which were still stuck together) out. With all of us biting our nails and hoping that the bb threads wouldn't strip, BoiBoi whacked it out!!!! *another huge sigh of relief*

If that problem hadn't been fixed, the next problem wouldn't have arose. How to get the bb cup out from the wonder cup?! Had to use the vice (metal-to-metal coz the wooden blocks couldn't hold the cup in place) to clamp the wonder cup and BoiBoi using all his strength to remove it. *Fear* Had the wonder cup been ovalized? It was *phew* when the bb could be fitted in nicely.

Everything went generally well after that. Aligned and knocked in the new wonder cup without much problem. Bolts were lousy and didn't seem to fit the holes at first but i just screwed them in. Chainguide. Wasn't compatible with the bashring so off the bashring went. Fitted the chainguide. BB too long. *help* BoiBoi decided that violence was still the solution to everything (remember all the whacking with the hammer just now?) and so he bent the chainguide to align the rollers with the chain. Worx!

Now my bike's as shiok as new!! All thanks to everyone! =D Gotta go to the shop and ride it back tomolo!

Had dinner at Bboss (opp Istana). 2-for-1 set meals! Divided the cost among the 3 of us. Cheap and great food!!! About 50 bucks for everything.

Realized what i want for Christmas. Told BoiBoi liao. A pair of socks. Saw so many socks at Taka just now. But they were like $8.30 per pair and i was thinking hey, that'd be 83 bucks if i bought 10 pairs for myself. SHEESH~~~~ Imagine if i asked my mum," Can i have $83 to buy socks?"??!!! But the socks really look good and comfy.

Went to play pool @ Mambo @ Lucky Plaza. As usual the front row was taken up by the experts. Really entertaining to watch them play. And oh, the cues there are new! Heeheee... As usual, Eugene super tyco one~ *luff luff luff* And there was this magical touch in BoiBoi today. Whenever we rubbed our butts on his knee/shoe, we'll get the balls in/ the opponent misses. Not bad eh?

Tired. Should sleep soon. Long day ahead tomolo.

BoiBoi camped over here for the past few days! Exams over on Monday so having fun right now! Watched "Saw" on Monday evening and back at home later that night, "Texas Chainsaw Massacre". "Saw" was pretty good and had a nice twist at the end. The other show was just bloody and gory. Watched "Taxi2" the next morning. Funny and pretty exciting! Watched "The Incredibles" just now too. It was much better than i'd thought - which is good.

BBQ last night. Didn't have much appetite. Was saying that our BBQs are getting much more organized. Everything in place, nothing missing from the list. The food wasn't too bad but they could have been left marinated for a while longer. We started the fire pretty fast too. Cleaning up was much easier than the previous BBQ coz we wrapped the portable BBQ pits in aluminium foil.

Downside of the camp was that we had to sleep in the living room. If we could have my bedroom, it'd be really really sweet... aircon and beds...

Anyway had so much fun these few days. Relaxing, slack, sleep. Hope there're many more of these days to come...

My hair's dropping......alot........*help*
i don't wanna be dumped!!!! =(

Went riding with the rest yesterday. Went to this trail where my friend said that it had been exhumed, thus the nice depressions on the ground for us to have fun. The trail was just so fun! Haven't had a nice trail ride for so long. Went down this downhill where, according to everyone else, everyone crashed last time. Fortunately this time everyone made it down without any trouble. Nearly buanged though. Firstly i wasn't expecting the slope to look so gentle. Secondly, i didn't know That was the slope they were referring to. Thirdly, the speed was just exhilarating! Lost my footing at one point of time, but managed to regained control again. There were 2 other nice slopes around that area - Hamburger Hill and Camel Mound. Interesting names... Oh yeah, and Titanium Hill too?

My favorite trail, T15, can be officially declared (by me) as no longer a trail, and also not much of my favourite trail. One of the most rutty sections have been smoothened out. The climb and descend are still there, but very much cemented. And i still remember the formerly existent Gangsa Loop where there were many gorgeous humps to ride over. What's happening to all the trails?!

The camelbak BoiBoi passed to me had a holey bite-piece (extra hole included). When i first bit it to get the water flowing, there was this super long squirt of water from the right side of my mouth. It must have looked really comical but *phew* i don't think anyone caught that. (It happened quite a couple of times.) Anyway ended back home with sore back & arms and a muddy bike. Still not quite used to the bike geometry i guess.

Was telling BoiBoi what a pity it was to give up my music lessons. Guess these thoughts stemmed from my recent attempts to brush up some super rusty electone-controlling skills. i think i play rather fine, considering the fact that i haven't touched the instrument for months. Regretted for going for group lessons in the past. Should have gone for 1-to-1 lessons and rise through the grades faster. Could have also focussed on my other weaker aspects and perhaps introduce new songs/skills to make the package look better. Really wish to have a solo performance some day. Was supposed to perform a solo last time but due to some last minute CCA camp, i had to give it a miss. It was so disappointing especially after all that practice put into it. The song was my favourite too. But anyway i still can play the song now. Hahaha...

Can't believe i actually spent my entire day slacking in orchard. Anyway it was good.

My main reason of going there was actually to enjoy the Christmassy feeling in Tangs. Just love the basement the most. They sell all sorts of kitchen items there and play Christmas songs during this period of time. There's this very warm and homely feeling there and not to mention lotsa very intrigueing items on sale. Couldn't resist touching so many items. Saw BBQ pits, cups, plates, mugs, pans, chopsticks, spoons, forks, knives and much much much more. Can't seem to get enough of it!! Just seeing all these items puts me on cloud nine. Can't wait to have my own home, my very own kitchen, with all these beautiful crockery, cutlery, recipes, everything.

Met up with BoiBoi for lunch @ Mos Burger @ Lido. Hanged around and (to my delight & excitement) discovered a SUPERMARKET beside the fast food restaurant!! It's called Isetan Supermarket and judging from the items on sale, it must be very much catered to the Japanese market. The supermarket seemed to have a much wider variety of items as compared to Cold Storage or even Marketplace. The fish, the beef, the cheese, the Everything... HAHAHAHAa.... you've probably guessed it! i couldn't have been happier to hang around in there.

Hanged around at Kinokuniya later on. So tempted to buy a couple of books but, nonono, must save money. Noticed a couple of books (other than Prozac Nation) by Elizabeth Wurtzel. Particularly interested in one of them but it costs around 20 bucks. *sighz* Anyway later on i had fun with this stereogram book. Headed on to the mag section to ease my itchy heart. As usual, bike mags.

Met up with BoiBoi again for dinner! Ate at the foodcourt in Cine. Ordered duck noodles but the noodles were very much uncooked (which was a pity because the duck and soup was really good). BoiBoi wanted to buy bananas so we went over to Takashimaya's Cold Storage. Looked like the monkeys have beaten us to it. Crossed over to Paragon's Marketplace and the situation was even worse. Got pears instead. And as usual, i couldn't have been happier to be in another supermarket. It's just the place that seems to give me hope, make me dream - dream of having my own home, my own kitchen, my very own choice of foods and deco.

Weird infactuations...

Wet weather again today... Such a lazy afternoon... Slack... zZzz...

Goldfish died. =( Well, serves it right for being so greedy i guess. Found it floating upside down beside the hatchery and a tail sticking out of its mouth. Must have choked on the cory it was trying to eat. (Btw, corys are armoured.) A headcount for the corys showed that only 1 was attacked. Moral of the story: Corys can't be eaten. Anyway it was quite sad to take goldfish out of the tank. It had grown tremendously from the time BoiBoi gave it to me. Now my tank looks so empty and quiet. Perhaps it's time to acquire some new roommates...

In a pretty good mood today. Interestingly. Went out to celebrate Hari Raya Puasa. Ate at this place called Rajah Inn. My dad was saying it had an Indonesian buffet but it ended up to be something like what i call a zhap chai peng buffet. Okay, it was stated in black and white, Indonesian Porridge Buffet. Average. Damn oily.

Posting this so late coz i just came back from a ride. Actually it's more of just a slacking session at the WCP jetty. Was looking forward so much for prata tonight but the shop was closed. The slacking session was good but BoiBoi wasn't there... =( It would have been perfect if BoiBoi came along. And i got home too late; BoiBoi is sleeping already.

Good night BoiBoi... Sleep tight... i'll see you tomorrow!

Kinda surprised by myself today. Talked much more than usual. Both to friends and family. Just rattle on and on. Hope i'll be like that tomolo too.

Keep feeling tired, sleepy and irritable... What's wrong with me...

Had ala carte buffet lunch @ a sze chuan restaurant. Celebration for my dad's birthday. The food was not bad and the prawns and the mango pudding was good! Ate more than usual. But feeling hungry now.

Felt kinda awkward at the lunch. Dad wanted to eat stuffs like prawns and sharks' fin but mum kept objecting and protesting against it. Never mind about this. It's when she looks over and says "Ju, hor?" that i've got no idea what to say. Not quite right for me to side anyone. It always happens. Sucks. Furthermore, on top of this ugly situation, BoiBoi was there to witness it.

Think i'll get something to eat soon...

Download Mozilla FireFox 1.0 today. It's working good now and it looks more friendly than IE. Hopefully no more pop-ups and no more unauthorized downloads.

Went all over the place today. Picked 10 bucks at the check-out counter in Cold Storage. Sold my tyre for 20 bucks. Got myself lost in Takashimaya and ended up missing the bus. So tempted to eat dim sum today but pulled myself away from that costly idea. i was at like paragon and the only dim sum place i can think of there is Ding Tai Feng, which isn't very friendly to my wallet.

Came back to sleep. So tired, sleepy and everything. Anyway it's better for me to just sleep than to start the wild thoughts. Woke up, had dinner, then realized CK sms-ed me to play pool. i must admit, my jc friends think alike alot. i was thinking of playing pool today and there we go, someone msgs me out to play.

However much i love pool, today's the first time i actually stared at the ball, thinking, i can't shoot any more balls in tonight. The feeling wasn't really there but i guess it's just me and the fatigue that keeps hanging over me.

It's all about me, me and me, yeah?

Lousy mood today. Feel so sucky, sian and everything. So bored. Life's crap. Life's a total joke.

There're so many things i want to say but it's so hard to tell anyone. It seems like i can only keep it to myself. It's overbearing but i gotta try. Sometimes i just want to hide in my room and let the tears wash away everything i feel bothered about. As much as i hate hospitals, clinics and doctors, when i was climbing the stairs to my place just now, i thought that perhaps if i went back to see the shrink and begged for some vitamin P, i'll be fine and everything will be good. But a few seconds later when i reached the 4th level, i told myself that it is impossible. i'm just deceiving myself to say that vitamin P cures it all. There're just many other factors other than my stupid brain.

i feel so guilty to keep thinking of negative stuffs today but every little thing just triggers off my string of thoughts. i just know that i shouldn't hang around alone too much these few days because it'll only do myself harm. (maybe not "it'll", but "i'll") Hope to succeed in persuading myself in continuing with everything. i've lost hope in my life. No drive to study. No drive to find a job. No drive to go out and ride. No drive to hang out with friends and socialize like i could in the past. juliana is as good as dead.

Finally i can get into here. Kept getting linked to some other site.

Had BBQ again just now. Bought this little metal BBQ pit and BBQ-ed outside my house with BoiBoi. Celebrate his end of oral exam. Food was only okay but the whole thing was generally successful.

Bored. Gonna write 500 more numbers tomorrow. Buy tape from Bras Basah. Collect bananas and curry puffs. Stone. Help. Feeling so lifeless. What have i been doing the past few days?!!!!!!!

What the fuck... Maybe i'll just pick a movie and watch it tomorrow night. Then go back and sleep early. But weekend movies are really expensive. Don't want to spend the unnecessary money. Maybe i can go ride... Cheaper, happier activity. But no prata ride coz i think the rest are going round island. Turned the ride down coz i feel myself getting weak and unfit mentally and physically.

i KNOW... maybe can go play pool... haven't touched the stick and balls for so long.

*SIGH* When u've plans for the next day and suddenly something goes a little haywire, u feel so screwed. It's like being totally out of control of the situation. Gotta find a replacement.

Sometimes i really don't know what i'm talking about. Think i'm having PMS now. Always feel so blank or depressed at some point in time. Can't really feel. Can't feel what's love, happiness, blissfulness, hate or full. Only sadness or huh-ness is in my dictionary right now. What's wrong with me?! Fuck. Fucked up.

Felt like i was conversing with myself alot today. Kept asking questions and answering to those questions i asked. Think i should stay home and watch more TV tomorrow. Avoid trouble.

You've got no idea how good it feels to have my own nails trimmed so nice and short. It just feels so right. Don't understand why people like to keep long nails. Long nails do not seem to have any practical purpose other than breaking (which is still not very practical). I feel so neat and clean just like that. Freshly trimmed toenails are great too. Get rid of all the black stuff between the nails and the flesh. Yucks! No idea how much dirt/bacteria/trail is in there.

Finally got the minimum required no. of lucky draw coupons done today. Drove myself to do faster by telling myself that i don't want to spend an entire week in my room just writing and cutting numbers. i still want to go out... slack around... hang around... *yawnz* So tired.

So sian. mother kept nagging just now about all the stuff i gotta do for the mass swap. i know it's last minute and i know it's all the shit that's pushed to me so last minute. i mean what the heck, how to get good & cheap food plus find exciting carnival stall holders to participate within only 1 week??? All these should have been done at least a few weeks before the event, not 1 pathetic week before it. Okay, blame me for not wanting to join the committee earlier. Anyway i'm just trying my luck, whacking 3 stall vendors to see if they wanna come down. If not, too bad. As for food, the worst that could happen is that we have not much of a variety.

Hai, i feel worst when i've got no money to spend. So fucking pathetic. 55 cents in my wallet. 22 bucks in the bank. Unlucky is the person who robs me.

Just came back from a birthday party! 21st birthday of someone whom none of us except Chris has met. Initially we thought that it was pretty thick-skinned to go there and eat for free, considering we don't know the birthday boy. But the birthday fella was nice and friendly and warmly invited us to eat the catered food and BBQ the satay. As the hours ticked by, we got to know a few people here and there, chat, and ate alot. The curry chicken was good!!! Seriously, i don't mind going for more of these "blind birthday parties". Know more people, have fun, eat, why not? Chris rented a car and that was the only thing i paid for. Cool huh...

Rode just now!!! Finally! We were supposed to go t15 but bcoz my water bladder had some problem and i lost most of the water, we rode just a little of t15. Then headed through the second half of bt before having lunch at Johnson Duck! Beautiful weather... So nice, hot and sunny. But oh well, as expected, the trail was slightly muddy and at some parts, slimey and slippery.

Brief review of my Norco's performance:
Climbing: 6/10
Descending: 10/10
Cornering: 10/10
Handling: 9/10

I guess a dirtjump frame will always bear the characteristics of a dirtjump bike no matter the setup. But really, i swear, tackling the climbs was a bitch. *huff.. puff.... wheeze....* Still not there yet.

I LOVE RIDING!!!!!

Had this odd dream last night. i was supposed to meet BoiBoi, E and M somewhere. Somehow i ended up at an industrial estate where i couldn't find my way through coz of many physical obstacles. There were like HUGE tools like spanners and stuffs being lifted from vehicles to the place. (HUGE = longer than any human being) It was just interesting. Then rushed to the train station. Had to run by this long quiet path. Reached the station and there was a sign "train will be here in a few min" or something equivalent to this. But when i checked the timings somewhere else, the train would only arrive after almost 3 hours. (It was 11+am then and the train timing was 2.30pm.) The dream stopped here.

The other night i dreamt that i got back my A level physics paper. We actually got back the exam paper itself. It was so screwed. Results sucked (can't remember it though). BoiBoi was sitting beside me. Saw his grades. Beautiful big numbers. Felt so stupid sitting beside him. Teacher went through the solutions. Was so sad and disappointed that i didn't pay attention and simply dozed off. Got awoken by the teacher who demanded that i do the corrections and submit it to her. Didn't understand a shit about the solutions so i just copied from my friends who were really helpful. Saw my secondary school friend outside the room later on.

Still feel i'm being haunted by myself for screwing up the As.

Scarlet Division - Just the start

(chorus)
No matter who you are~
Won't you come into my world?
Like a shooting star~
Take this journey with me to the heart!
Don't you see that this is just the start?

Finally found the song! Can download it here! I'm addicted to Jamie Oliver's cook show Oliver's Twist!!!! HELP!

Haven't blogged for so long. Wow. Seems like it takes me much more effort to switch on the computer and do a blog when my mum's in the room. She keeps saying i sleep too late but i guess it's more of me disturbing her with all the typing on the computer if i hang around online.

2 days back i was so bored i went to walk in town. Alone. Okay, from the fact that i walked from Somerset to Suntec, i guess i was really bored. Hahahaa... The exciting part was that i got to visit Marketplace in Raffles City and Carrefour in Suntec! Love supermarkets... Had some chicken shaker in Carrefour and it was good! Went to the arcade too. (1 token 2 credits for puzzle fighter!) Bought some bread and pate for dinner but, surprise surprise, Mariam jio-ed me out for dinner with Choon and OJY. We ate at Boon Lay Market. Ordered a whole load of oily junkie food and talked like no tomorrow. Hahahaa... Shiok!! And i was just thinking of them that afternoon.

Sticked my name on my bike yesterday! YAY!! Grey looks pretty good against white. Went for a spin after the downpour. Thought of heading to t15 but i didn't equip myself with water. Moreover i'm still having a cold. (Bleah) Saw this Indian/Bangla fella riding a cannondale super v. Orange frame with black-green (or was it blue?)-black tyres. From his way of riding, i guess he's not familiar with the bike. Hopefully it's not another TGP member's bike...

I've found a reason to dress like a kid. It's good to feel like one. It's fun. Carefree. Casual. Good.

I've found a reason why i'm not bothering to look for a job. I'm demoralized. It's so straightforward. Parents (esp mother) don't seem to be giving enough positive encouragement to their kid. Kid, from previous experience when working at F&B outlet, knows that parents only can complain about everything even when she holds a perfectly decent job. Kid's interest is in F&B so why throw her into the office? Comfort and 9-5 hours in the office aren't everything. If parents want to complain, they can complain about anything. Hours, work, attire, pay, friends, company, everything. Therefore, kid'd rather not get a job than to get whacked all the way up the demoralization scale.

Nothing much to do today that's why i've decided to come here to blog. Feel like going out later. Perhaps orchard? No rides today, thank you. Wet weather. More coughy than yesterday.

After reading this email about some girl who's been teased at all her life, i thought i'd just add in something here.

You know, i've always been haunted by 2 incidents in my life. Whenever i stand at the top of a concrete/wooden platform of around a metre high, i think back of the time when i was in school (either pri or sec), we were wanted from the stage to the back of the hall. Obviously everyone just jumped off the stage but someone pushed me right off the edge. Just fell flat on the ground. Until now i've got no idea who did that. But i still remember the whole incident so clearly.

Another incident. i associate me being fat with this particular incident. i was in kindergarden. We (classmates and i) were playing on the swing (the one with 2 rows of seats facing each other) and as usually, being kids, we loved overloading the thing. Someone just pushed me off the swing. Fell onto the sandy ground and had a load of bloody abrasions on my knees. Can't remember who did it too. Anyway i was brought aside to sit down. Later on the rest of the kids came along and laughed at me. i don't know why. Was it because i was fat? Or clumsy? Or was it purely out of fun? It happened so long ago (kindergarden = me being 4/5/6 yrs old) yet it's still etched deep in my mind. The physical injury was nothing much but i always feel so sad thinking of these 2 incidents. i just want to know the reasons for their actions.

And oh yeah, the most disgusting thing was that no one (my so-called friends) bothered to help me up.

Think i caught a cold from BoiBoi. Bleah... Didn't think my body was this weak.

Just came back from BoiBoi's birthday BBQ party at Eugene's place. Raining outside. Shared a cab back with the rest. BBQ was okay although not very noisy. The amount of food was just nice. Slacked around, ate and had lotsa green tea. BoiBoi cut a cake too! The time before and after the BBQ was spent in the bedroom slacking. The rest were playing some xbox game and i read a book that was lying around in the room. Managed to read finish the book. Don't really remember the title. Was it something like "Life of a Homo Sapien"? All local short stories from the 90s. Some of it sounded like literature texts. Others were pretty interesting. But generally i don't really like the author's style of writing. Seems like he tries too hard to make the dialogues sound heartlanded.

Really feel like riding tomorrow. Ride t15 on my norco. But it's raining right now. And i'm having a stupid cold. What the heck...

It's raining outside right now! WoOohoOOooO!!! Awesome weather for sleeping.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOIBOI!!!! *jumps around!~* Hope BoiBoi likes the simple gifts i gave him! Oh... Get well soon from the cold too!

The pleco i bought yesterday did a really great job in clearing up the brown stuff on the sides of my tank! Must be one really hungry dude...

Check out the photos we took today! i especially love this one of BoiBoi coz BoiBoi looks really kewt here with the expression! And check this Coke can out! OoOo yeah baby... it looks so sharp and clear, it's even nicer than the real one!

Had so much fun with BoiBoi today. Laugh laugh laugh... joke joke joke... crap crap crap...

i love BoiBoi!

Hanged out at NUS today. Brought lunch over for BoiBoi and relaxed in the library while waiting for his lecture to end so that we could go shopping in town. Managed to browse through a couple of books during the 2 hours. One on human rights, one on proverbs and another on dreams. Didn't have enough time to go through another psychology book that i'd picked but it'll always be there for me to read (it's a reference book). Oh yeah, we took lotsa photos during lunch too! And all the pix turned out really well! That's pretty surprising coz usually my photography skills suck. Anyway we had fun! And i was helping (or rather slowing) Boiboi (down) in memorizing the lines for his skit! It's all in japanese and obviously i had a Great time learning it, let alone memorizing it. Hahaha...

Headed over to Orchard to walk walk and buy stuff. Drizzling the entire day and both of us ended up so tired and sleepy. Went home early. Guess who i met on the bus? Clown~ Hahaha... i boarded the bus and was looking for a seat when i saw a familiar hat and tee. *plop* beside him and "hi!". What a coincidence... Anyway that meant company for me for half the journey!

Just lost my post. Computer's nuts? Server's nuts? Fucked up.

Went drinking again last night. It's such a good sport when u're sad and angry. But anyway not much was drunk before i started crying and puking everywhere. Need to let it out i guess (emotionally and foodly?). But what a waste of the duck rice. I remember clearly seeing the cucumber and rice in the sink accompanied with all the brown sauce. Anyway no hangovers today. Woke up at 8+ in the morning and thought it was 9+. Hahaha...

Rode around with Mitaimak and his friend Ericsson (not sure if that's the spelling but it's pronounced like that anyway). E wanted to take photos of the vintage stuff around the area and so we hanged around, rode around and tried to recapture the past. Didn't join them to Jurong Hill coz i was on my monty. Moreover, the sky looked kinda threatening.

Got bitten by the pedal when i was reaching home. Ouch...

Oh yeah, the gloves were finally done yesterday! But not before breaking another 2 needles... and pricking myself a couple more times.

BoiBoi got me a chainguide! Will fix up the new Wonder Cup and the chainguide when my bike comes home.

Was mending BoiBoi's gloves just now. There were like holes at the ends of the fingers and the palm area was worn off. The finger parts were pretty easy to deal with, just that i had to be careful not to sew the fingers together. I thought i did a pretty good job considering sewing is not really my interest. But when it came to the palm area, i broke 2 needles, pricked myself a couple of times and made a whole lot of holes on my table.

Conclusion: Sewing can be a violent sport and may not be suitable for the faint-hearted.(Anyway, i'm still not done with the palm area of the 1st glove. How frustrating!!! Think i might need thimbles for all fingers.)

Went out to watch movie just now. What luck, i found 2 movie tickets to "White Chicks" for 1740! Of course we went for that movie too. The show we were watching started at 1900 so we just had to miss the ending part of the 1st show. Anyway "2046" was too cheem for us to understand. To the non-artistic people, it's a show without a storyline and with scenes and characters totally irrelevant to anything else. Furthermore, it was a pretty long show (around 2hours+).

Anyway i consider finding 2 movie tickets like this a windfall! While waiting for BoiBoi, i was just looking at some leaflets that i got when entering PS and something on the floor caught my eye. *glance* Hey, those are movie tickets! And Hey, they're not torn yet! *picked them up* Hey hey, not too bad timing! (It was 1720 then.) And we haven't caught the show yet! And hey, there're exactly 2 tickets! If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

Read up on charcoal-related suicides. Too many of such cases are happening in places like Japan. (On an interesting note (from one of the articles), in Japan, suicide has been glorified and often portrayed as honourable. Suicide is often portrayed as something beautiful in Japanese culture.) It's sad to browse through so many articles relating to suicides. It is hard to imagine why people would resort to suicide. Guess it takes one to know one. Anyway this charcoal suicide thingy could come in handy in the future, so it's worth it for me to read up a little more about it.

Btw i lost yesterday's blog. Screwed up dial-up connection i have. Either that or blogspot's server wasn't working smoothly. Don't really remember what i wrote but i think it must have been something really negative that isn't worth remembering. So let's fuck it.

Nothing much happened today... sigh... Boring~

Ate alot at night. Had more than usual for dinner, complained dinner wasn't filling, then had a big bowl of beancurd skin with gingko nuts for dessert. Sat down to watch tv and mouth started feeling itchy again so the prawn crackers my mum bought from JB got attacked as well. Then had some pomelo so fill the remaining space in the stomach. And also added 2 cups of green tea. I LOVE EATING!!!

Went out for dinner with BoiBoi at Bugis! The duck rice behind Bugis Junction is fantastic! We just love it! It's probably the cheapest and the most decent food in Bugis. Played awhile at the arcade before going back. From the MRT station to my place, there was this gal walking in front of me. She was wearing this super short mini skirt (i call it a micro skirt) and even given the fact that she was shorter than me, the curvature of her bum was revealed to anyone walking behind her. (Btw, it was close to midnight already.) To all the people who love wearing provocative clothing, please don't complain/scream/whine when you get molested/raped/gawked at. You deserve it.

Anyway check out my Norco! And my Monty too... Oh yeah, i just added this to my bike today. Kewt hor? Compliments from BoiBoi...

Maiden ride for my Norco on Sat. Supposed to go ECP but ended up watching DVD at Eugene's place. Slacked until so late plus i was so tired, i had to leave my bike at BoiBoi's place. Argh. I should have just insisted on leaving earlier instead of going with their idea. Wasn't in a very good mood too. And i was so stoned. And sad too.

Anyway my bike's home now! I'm just feeling tired...

Been feeling so bleah these few days. I feel like i've lost the motive in life. No aim. No point. When i'm riding on the road, i keep thinking, hey knock me down. It doesn't really matter anymore. My mum keeps bugging me to find a job. If it isn't on that topic, it'd be "so have you decided on the course yet?" I can't take it anymore. It irritates and bugs me terribly. I get totally upset over it. Can't i take a break? I mean i've been studying for like so many goddamn fucking years and i don't deserve some time to rest and have fun? I hate it.

You see, even if i find a job, my parents will never be satisfied with it. They'll complain about the working hours, the pay, everything and anything that can be complained about. On top of that, i wanna be in the f&b line - something which they seem to look down upon. I wanna start my own business. My dad says it's tough, it's this, it's that, anything but possible. How motivating. Just whack me on the head. I don't care.

Running low on cash at the moment. See how it goes...

Guess i'm just blabbering nonsense again. Feeling tired. Time to sleep...

Froggie died. =...( I WANT FROGGIE BACK!!!!!!!! He's so kewt and has such an appealingly voracious appetite. Hai...

For every down, there's an up. Just got the Norco built up with BoiBoi's assistance! Had trouble with the bb but everything seems good for the moment. The bike rides really well and sweet and it just lacks the rear brake which i'll install tomorrow. The whole bike looks really unique and it feels good. Pretty agile. BoiBoi likes it too! Heehee... Will take some pix of it asap.

Gonna ride to GHC tomorrow. Perhaps drop by Sentosa to pick up my Islander card too.

Oh yeah, went to Kian Hong today. Interesting place but it was smaller than i'd thought. Eno helped to install the bb but surrendered due to complications. Anyway there was this Limar helmet that had an battery-operated fan at the forehead area. Kid's helmet. Interesting idea. Hahaha... Saw loads of Fox Forx spare parts in the shelves too. Lots of Scott bikes. Mets. Tacx. Shimano (doh~). And a black Bianchi full-sus. (Wasn't really convinced that it was a Bianchi coz firstly i've never seen a black Bianchi before (aren't all of them of the same disgusting greeny colour?) and secondly, are there full-sus Bianchis?

Going to sleep earlier tonight. Shag. Adrenaline all running out from going here and there plus all the excitement of my new bike. Anyway do i have to change my nick from ZaskarGal to NorcoGal or 4hunGal or HunnyGal or whatever shit? Hahaha... Actually i think MontyGal sounds interesting but i ride the monty too little to add it to my nick.

Okay i'm hitting the bed now. zZzzz...

I am so goddamn addicted to sleeping so little and still keeping myself active in the day. I love it, i love it, i love it! Running on adrenaline or something... Okay lah, i do have quite a fair bit of sleep every day - around 5 hours+? Anyway it's shiok. Can do lotsa things in the night. Can reach home at 12 or 1 in the morning and still have time and energy to do stuff.

Fuck, i keep washing my hands till they're all so dry now. Even looks wrinkled. Poor hands, you've suffered so much just for me.

Just had a ham-and-cheese sandwich half an hour ago. Good stuff. Honey baked ham and gouda cheese. Nicely brownly toasted. Hmmm... was that supper or breakfast...?

Hiakz it's almost 3. Been online for so long but keep running around the house doing this and that. Went out for dinner with BoiBoi just now. Then went to his place for a slacking session at the pool. Boy, was it relaxing. The environment was so pleasant and beautiful and there were few people around. Maybe we should go for swims more often. Then i can try to improve on my freestyle.

Froggie is injured. =( It's left webbed leg has a hole in the webbing. Can tell that it really hurts. Froggie doesn't seem so keen in eating now. Suspects for causing injury: Talking catfish (with all the spikes on them, who else could it be?) Removed them from the tank. ARGH!!! Froggie get well soon!!

Gonna build up the Norco tomorrow!!!!!!! *EXCITED*

I have sinned again today. Added too many innards to the steamboat today. BoiBoi doesn't like innards and i should never have ever let the thought of putting them in a shared steamboat cross my mind at all, let alone putting in any. FUCK. I'm such an asshole. Just stick to normal food, bitch!!!!!

Hit the record low of my weight today! Don't remember when i last weighed this amount. But it's never enough. By standards of most young, attractive people out there, i'm still fat.

Was going crazy again last night. Was browsing through this Lifestyle magazine and ended up cutting out all the contest/lucky draw coupons. Desperado. Hunted high and low in the house for envelopes and stamps... at 2+ in the morning. That sense of euphoria, accomplishment, after filling up the little forms and scribbling addresses on the envelopes. If not for cutting back on my daily expenses, i'd have started buying a whole load of mags from Jurong Point this morning just for these. Couldn't sleep too. Just stoned in bed, tossed and turned, looked at the clock, anything but sleep. Then this morning i just felt so sad. All that thingy about life and bleah and bleah. Anyway i'm okay now.

BoiBoi came over today! Made sandwiches again but this time using a new sandwich machine that popped out of nowhere and currently hanging around in the kitchen. It's really quite effective but hard to clean after using. We had garlic spread, margarine, honey baked ham, regular cheese slices, gouda and mushroom hotdog with the white bread. Nice stuff. I love sandwiches with loads of melted cheese in 'em.

This bug wasted my $3.50 kway chap. Looked forward to eating the kway chap. In fact i was just starting to indulge in it when the black alien thingy caught my eye. Okay i wasn't gonna eat it anymore. Yuck. It's too big to be neglected and forgotten within seconds. Argh, my money...

Never mind.

Finally back home... back to the comfort of my computer chair... my desk.

Had quite much fun going out with Chris and her bike friends. Went to watch Resident Evil at Great World City. The storyline was not too bad but i thought the filming wasn't so good - the violent scenes were a little blurred and too shaky i feel. Bet there'll be a part 3 to it.

Headed over to JB for makan. Don't know what's the name of the place but it's quite straightforward to go there. The prata we had weren't so fantastic but the ambience was nice, relaxing and cooling. Smoked grape-flavoured bong too. Cheap leh... It was only RM12.

It's a triple first time today. First time meeting Chris' friends. First time going to JB on motorbike. First time going to JB past midnight. Cool huh...

The company was pretty good so i guess that makes the trip worthwhile. Hee... Anyway out of the group of 4 bikes, 2 were red Ducatis, plus both the owners' gf/wife's names are Sarah. How cool can that get man. (Sheesh i'm still wondering how a motorbike can cost $47k.)

Waiting for my hair to dry before zZz...

Think i got a temporary definition of love. Love is when you have many friends who accept your looks but you still cling on to the one who doesn't. Izzit accurate? Hehehe... I will change for the person i love. Or at least i'll try. Hard.

Hah... did i tell u how stupid i was that day? 2 days back i took out my mp3 player to load in some songs. The cable of the earphones were coiled around it then. After i happily loaded everything, uncoiled the cable, i was just plain shocked to see the screen smashed. Fuck fuck fuck... my beloved player from BoiBoi!!! &@*@*!~@~#*&@)!^*#$@! Really... i was just blur for that moment. Then came the realization that i forgot to take it out of my bag when i used the bag as a cushion for knocking in the cups for my frame. X_X Felt so goddamn stupid. Dumb. And i thought the player was dead forever. (But surprisingly the internals weren't hurt.)

Later that day, i tried to switch it on again and WOW~~~ it was still working except that nothing appeared on the screen! SO LUCKY!!!! Don't have to get a new player then! =D Okay lah, can't really make use of the functions in it but i guess the main functions are the player and the thumbdrive properties.

And HAH... my oakleys were in the same compartment of the bag too...

Got the black elastic strap for my watch! Looks really good...

Weather's been so nice and cool. Think it rained the entire night so it's free aircon for everyone. Anyway there's a pasar malam near my place. Look and think at all the food... hahahaaa...

Went for BBQ at class chalet just now! Food was average but generally it's fun! Don't really feel like staying so, yeah, i'm back home in front of the computer now. Bought a Swatch just now! Black black one... Just gotta look around for a nice strap to go along with it.

Changed my tank water today too... Everyone's looking good.

Gonna spend the whole day at the hospital tomorrow to accompany my dad. Hopefully it'll be interesting and not too boring. Arm myself with books, mags and music.

I still don't understand this line "i've put in so much into the relationship, yet i don't get results." Not of importance now so i'm putting it aside. =)

Just came back from San's birthday chalet. Was a last min decision to stay over coz she called me yesterday and said that she'd be the only one left staying in the chalet. Oops... Wanted to go tanning in the earlier part of the morning but i woke up at 10+ (and check out was at 11). And it started raining when i took out my shades (ARGH~). So yeah, home it was.

BoiBoi had fever last night. Down with flu. Hope it's subsided by today. =(

Went to check out the old folks' home that my grandma's going in soon. It was WOW~ like from the 60s or 70s. The general feeling, the environment, the setting, everything. Initially i thought that it'd be really sad to put her there but after the tour with the home manager, i realize many elderly people are happy to stay there. Guess the people staying there feel more "at home" with such an environment as compared to that of a more modern place. I believe that with such passionate staff and good environment, my grandma will not be lonely there. The home conducts like physiotherapy every day and ha, the old folks get to eat 6 meals a day.

Went for a short ride too. Checked out the cheese fondue at Lucerne Village at Pasir Panjang. It costs $48 for 2 persons!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO EX!!!!!!

Watched "New Police Story" at PS with BoiBoi! Pretty good show with all the action. Storyline's not too bad also. Good laughs here and there. Lotsa action. Go watch it if you haven't.

HAHA!! Had ironed sandwich for lunch... It really works! The cheese melted and dripped out, the garlic spread evenly spread all over the bread, margarine sizzling like no tomorrow, and of course bread nicely and brownly ironed out! Just takes more time to use the iron as compared to the toaster but i guess we all need some excitement in life.

Bought shrimps for my tank. Froggie ate a whole shrimp! Oh man... That's pretty aggressive considering Froggie's mouth isn't very big. And uh, Goldfish, being the supposedly docile fella in the tank, ate like at least 3 shrimps in a row.

My sofa-bed came in! Feels quite hard though. Never mind, i'll get to try it tonight. Actually getting very used to the sofa downstairs already. Missing my bed alot...

Q: Where to get 80c Cheng Tng? A: Hawker centre behind Redhill MRT.
Sweet and with generous ingredients!

So bored today. Wanted to go for a ride but feeling lazy already. Watched Bob Blumer's cooking program just now and now i'm really itching to make an ironed sandwich. (If you thought i made a typo or you've read wrongly, nope!) Really cool.

Stuff needed to make the sandwich:
-Regular slices of bread
-Cheese (Cheddar cheese was used in the show)
-Aluminium foil
-Butter
-Ironing board
-Iron

Spread butter on the alu foil, put the sandwich onto it (bread-cheese-bread), fold the alu over, iron each side for 3 minutes and voila~, brown toast with great melted cheese. *help* Too funky to be true! Must try it out for myself some day!

Shit, keep exposing myself to so much food and ideas these days.

Hahahaa... He also taught viewers how to prepare lettuce for a salad. Said the lettuce gotta be dry. So... he put the lettuce into a pillowcase and dumped the whole thing into the washing machine for a dry spin. And yeah... Think it really, really works!

Should go riding today... Check out the sky! It's sky blue, DOH~ So hot... sunny... Great for a workout. Get rid of the excess fat on my yucky body.

Accompanied my dad to NUH just now. Okay, i got this sense of dejavu as we passed by the Neuroscience Centre on the way to the Cancer Centre on the 4th level of Kent Ridge Wing 2. The all-so-familiar but feared place of NUH. (Just got reminded of the treatment and medicine and everything i got just last year.) *HELP* Say it's a recently acquired phobia that i haven't overcome. How dumb...

Went to view the showflats at Lakeshore too. Actually the main purpose was to drop the Lucky Draw coupon there (coz the prizes are trips overseas). Anyway the flats were pretty small. Probably that's why the designers decided to throw in lots of glass and mirror in their work.

Bought McAfee AntiSpyware program. Hope it's effective. Still got 2 pop-ups since i scanned my computer with the program... Sheesh... Oh well, what can i expect for $34.90?

Craving for cheese fondue. Watched some cooking program yesterday (or was it the day before?) and they were making some really nice classic Swiss cheese fondue. So tempted to whack a recipe from the net and try it. But i think it's gonna be tough to look for the different cheeses. And my kitchen doesn't have a fondue pot. Plus i don't even know how the dish is supposed to taste like (can imagine though...). Should be pretty expensive in the restaurants. Sure looks delicious... *sluRp*

Was feeling so blur and lost in Jurong Point just now. It's the kind of sudden change of mood from excitement to *huh?* and -_-. What's happening to me... Anyway, met YL there too. What a coincidence!

BoiBoi's having a cold. Get well soon... i love you.

Didn't visit my grandma today. She's having a fever and urinary tract infection. Get well soon too...

My fingers are really going to rot off soon. Stop picking your fingers juliana! They look so raw already! Go cycle more so that u'll wear your gloves! Can't you just kick this stupid habit?! Grow up girl!

Moving downstairs after switching the computer off. Been sleeping on the sofa downstairs for the past week or so. Not very comfortable. But the environment's good. I get the big-screen tv, my electone, good lighting and also the kitchen. Downside is that, there's no toilet, fish tank, corded phone and, of course, my very own bed. It all started when my mum wasn't feeling well so she couldn't share the bed with my dad. Not too sure if she's okay now but anyway she doesn't seem keen to go back to her bed so i get the sofa for as long as it goes. She's ordered a sofa bed and it's coming in on Friday. Hopefully it's good. Need some good rest coz i'm getting cranky and nutty and everything already.

It's raining... Sky's so dark... Still must visit Grandma later...

Still wondering which watch to buy. So many good-looking ones around but all come with hefty price tags.

Determined to win a trip overseas. Been signing up for all the lucky draws that offer holiday packages as prizes. I wouldn't mind a short trip to somewhere... Anywhere.

Froggie didn't manage to eat much today. It's a little slow at getting the bloodworms. Maybe i'll throw in somemore food later. Kewtsie little fella...

Ah... check out da froggie here.

Been sleeping for almost the whole day. Will go out later. Walk around. Monday's almost gone like this. Fuck. I'm picking my fingers like mad again. Got this huge blister from using the hammer too. Pusing a little.

Hai, sad.

I must be very bad company. That's why even BoiBoi doesn't want to hang out with me. Guess it's destined that i should be a lone ranger.

Vodka please. Or maybe a car accident will do. Just hate myself. What's wrong with this fucked up girl? Fucking attitude problem. Fucking no sense of humour. Fucking low EQ. Plain fucked up.

Feel so sucky. I must have done something really bad to piss BoiBoi off. Hai... I'm trying my best. It isn't working.

I JUST GOT A FROG!!!! I love frogs, be it the ones in the tank or the ones in the pot. SHO KEWT!!! I think it's an African Albino Clawed Frog. Guess my perspective towards albino water creatures has changed! Hope it likes the environment in the tank. Looked around on the net and the requirements stated seem to fit the description of my tank. Hopefully it won't become too aggressive though. But then again i don't think any of the tankmates are afraid of froggie at all. But... Please Don't Jump Out!!! (The tank's not covered.)

Hey i can type 71 words per minute with only 3 spelling mistakes! (It's pretty fast isn't it?) Went to apply for job at the job agency and they made us do a typing speed test. Well, the years that i've spent infront of the computer chatting on icq and irc have finally paid off. Hahaha... Initially i wrote "Food and Beverage" as the wanted job but after the lady-in-charge saw my typing results, she asked "Are you sure you don't want to do admin work?" Hahahaa... Anyway i'm just not keen in that.

So the rest of the day was spent hanging around with Bao and Von at International Plaza and Orchard. Had good food for lunch and dinner. Had fun. Talked alot. Crapped even more. Checked out the UOL programs in Stansfield. Discussed about the job offers. Complained about our results.

By the way, my results suck. SUCK totally. Got B C+ D+. YUCKS!!!!!!! The WORST ever in my entire course. The only encouragement is that... i'm now a DIPLOMA HOLDER!! Hai... Kinda disappointing... But i've already expected sucky results.

Hope to get the job as a surveyor at AH. It sounds fun enough. I love jobs with human interaction.

Hai... can't go Pengarang this weekend. My mum wasn't too approving of it. There's been a cold war in the house. 3 ways to respond - Flight, Fight or Fright. My response - Flight. Really don't know what to do. It just feels so awkward. Even Iis (my maid) feels that. That's why i'm blatantly avoiding having meals with the rest of the family.

Just confidently cleared up everything on my desk. Confidently because i am pretty sure my results (that'll be out at 1700 tomorrow) will be okay (i.e pass). Took off all the photos that i've sticked onto the wall at my desk. Need a change of things. No point sticking to the same thing for so long. Cleaned my desk and dressing table, tidied the stuffs, threw out alot of junk and feeling good now. 1 stack of reading material waiting for me. I need it. Need it to pass time, to distract myself from so many things.

Caught a glimpse of 2 of my talking catfishes just now. That's good; at least they're still around.

Going out the whole day tomorrow. Hoping to cut down expenses though. It's been tough on my wallet and bank account.

Someone help me! Gonna break down again soon. Find it so stressful with my parents. Relationship wise, advice wise. Hai... Never mind. Just occupy myself for the moment.

But i'm still really looking forward to going Pengarang...

Went for a BBQ + camp with BoiBoi, Eugene and Marinel at Sentosa yesterday till today! Shiok! BBQ food was good... the steaks were fantastic and the chicken wings were fabulous! All thanks to BoiBoi's superb marinating skills.

We were like the only people pitching a tent on Camp Laguna last night. The only tent around. And after midnight, the only 2 people on the campsite. It was good though. Peaceful, quiet. Kept bugging BoiBoi to teach me some Japanese words and phrases. Suddenly got this urge to pick up the language and at least be able to communicate my ideas across in Japanese. Anyway i'll really have to work on it to see results.

Took some photos. Turned out so much better than expected!

Gotta think about my plan for the future. Things don't seem to look too certain and i'm unsure of where to head. Yeah, i need a break first before carrying on.

Bought 3 "xiao mao" (laughing catfish?) yesterday. The only time i saw them was in the aquarium of the fish shop and when they were in the plastic bag in which they were packaged in. No signs of them ever since i let them into my tank. Shy creatures. Hope they are getting used to their new home.

Hungry. Been eating quite abit today and gaining back the weight i lost over the past weeks. ARGH!! Sucks... why am i always complaining about my weight... it must be the society. Seems like it's inculcated into everyone that thin is good. Thin as in bamboo stick thin. It's through the media too. The artistes on tv are plain blunt about it. But come to think of it, it doesn't really matter if i'm a little plump. People don't really bother about a-little-plump kinda people. Just see and forget. Maybe it isn't so bad afterall. Try convincing myself first.

Accompanied my mum to Gleneagles hospital today for some observation coz she hasn't been feeling well the past few weeks. Everything's fine, fortunately. Only needs to take some medication. She's glad, i'm glad, everything's good.

Feeling a little sad. My mum was like telling me to continue my studies, that she wanted me to carry on with a degree. Told her i'm gonna work first and i'll study again when i know what course i wanna take. It's such a dilemma. I mean, should i just whack a course to make her happy or should i go ahead with my own plan? Ultimately, i'm still determined to take a degree course coz it's supposedly gonna fetch me a better pay next time. I HAVE to be able to support 2 parents. It sucks just to think of it. It isn't fair. I didn't choose to be born. Was thinking about my financial status in the future, or at least how i might be living next time. Suddenly everything looks more gloomy than what i'd thought before. I don't know. My life needs a little more planning than this.

Oh well, no point dwelling over it. Watched "Garfield" just now and "The Terminal" yesterday. Garfield was short and not too exciting. Storyline was expected. And it's only about an hour and twenty minutes long.

The Terminal wasn't so bad. Quite some laughs here and there. Catherine Zeta-Jones is pretty. Tom Hanks acted well. But generally the storyline's about nothing much. (That's what i feel.) Watch it and you'll know what i mean.

That's like 3 movies in 3 days. Gawd, the theatres' earning alot from this buncha suckers. Hahahaa...

Btw i was reading Forbes today and there was a listing of the 40 richest people in SEA. Reading through their achievements, i realized that the top few were doing real estate, followed by banking, technology and food. So is this a sign that the real estate industry is lucrative business? Perhaps with a good capital and accurate foresight, yeah.

Anyway, i don't understand more than half of the stuff i read in Forbes. Don't know if that's normal. No one i know reads Forbes. It's alot alot on the international economy and economic & political changes caused by the various activities in the world. But i have to admit, i understand much more of what's in the magazine after taking my diploma course. More able to relate to the articles and the lingo. But then again, who the hell reads Forbes at the age of 20? The cheemest magazines people around read are like Time, Newsweek, National Geographic (i find it very very cheem) and of course Her World, FHM, 8-days, etc. Maybe i should stop subscribing to Forbes and start on Teens, Teenage or Seventeen. Since i look 15, shouldn't i be reading something a 15 yr old reads? =P

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/sunnysan33/album?.dir=/2fc7&.src=ph&.tok=phlnutBBr13dQv2K

Some pix that we took yesterday when i rode down to Sentosa to meet my 2 classmates Bao & San who were tanning on the beach.

HA! I'm back! EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!! Judging from the past 3 days of torture, i should be able to pass all the papers. (N.B. Only a pass, unlikely previously when everything should be As.) That's my level of confidence for this round of exams. But anyway i've put in my best coz i really can't bring myself to do 3-hour papers again nor see my lecturers' faces in the next sem.

Anyway went to watch Man on Fire (is that the name of the movie?) just now. It's really one of the best shows i've watched recently. Very touching. Right music at the right times. Beautiful. It's about the kidnapping scene in Mexico and how this bodyguard bonded with the little girl whom he was supposed to guard. Wonderful sadistic scenes of the bodyguard Creasy. Touching flashbacks of the girl. Not bad at all. Corruption and everything. Movie's close to two and a half hours and i was like crying more than half the time. Hahahahaa... Thought it was really touching - the closeness between Creasy and the little girl Pita (?). Worth watching!

Came back and finally cleaned my tank inside out. Been procrastinating for more than 2 weeks because of my exams and also my fever spree. Everyone in the tank seemed to look more and more sian by the days and i guess a nice good water change will improve the conditions. Love how the tank looks after a good wash. Bet everyone will perk up by tomorrow morning.

Oh yeah. Dinner was good. Ate at Lips Cafe. Yummy! But spent a bomb for that hour of satisfaction. Couldn't resist giving a treat to all (BoiBoi, Eugene & Marinelle (is that how her name's spelt?)) In such a good mood after the paper. In fact i was already on the verge of bursting with excitement and joy during the last 15 minutes of the paper. (Btw today's paper was one of the rare papers that i've sat in for the full 3 hours. Felt somewhat guilty for not studying some parts in detailed and thought that i could redeem myself by staying for the full 3 hours.)

So tired tired and tired. Finally get a chance to catch a good rest. Haven't been sleeping well for the past many days. zZzz...

Man my computer's really a little screwed up. Lost my previous blog entry. Guess it didn't make it into the server.

X_O Feeling like that right now. It's law day. Yeah, studying my law module, cramming all the stuffs in the entire day. Seriously wonder how much i can regurgitate during the exam. Anyway i'm only hoping for a pass for this module, nothing more. OMG it's 10 already! Luckily didn't go for eugene's bbq or else i'd probably have studied quite alot lesser. Lots of time for bbqs after exam k? And hopefully more drinking + slacking sessions. And of course eat like no tomorrow and play like no childhood. (What kinda engrish is that man?!)

Both my swatches are down. 1 out of order and the other outta battery. The most ingenious (& irritating) thing about swatches is that they can't be repaired. The body's a whole piece except for the battery compartment. But anyway my swatch has been serving me for the past 5 years and no complaints from me. Great swatch! Gonna get another irony. (But hor, i really can't bear to spend money to buy another watch...)

Oh man oh man oh man... tomorrow's SUNDAY and monday's gonna come smack into my face all so soon. EXAMS! HELP!!! But as fast as monday's gonna come, wednesday will be over in a couple more blinks.

Feel like sleeping now... ARGH! I wanna ride... Haven't rode for 10 yrs man... Thursday... Must ride soon... And oh... handlebar's still creaky. What's with me and the handlebars?! Think i'll try switching it to the Azonic... but it wrecks the whole geometry... oh well... see how it goes.

After 6 days of fever and ?s, finally i get a non-fever day! Got a blood test at NUH yesterday and oh well, it's just some stupid virus having fun in my stomach. But it's so irritating to be at home. Didn't sleep well last night; no one sleeps well if there're constantly people intruding your privacy and disturbing u the entire night. My day wasn't spared too. Might consider going out to study tomorrow.

1 and a half potatoes for lunch isn't too appetizing but i guess it's good for dieting purposes on top of getting rid of diarrhoea.

Olympics is over. Didn't manage to catch the closing ceremony early this morning but i hope there'll be a repeat broadcast. Really enjoy watching the Olympics. It's so amazing how people can push themselves to the limits and perform so wonderfully. Was watching some artistic gymnastics just now. The moves are all so beautiful and swift. Deadly accurate.

Better get back to studying. Not much done today. Gotta buck up lots more...

Still had a 38. something deg fever this morning and oh well, wasted 25 bucks to revisit the doc who merely changed my medication and said it's nothing serious. Think i'm feeling better now. But can't really get myself to sit down and concentrate on the studies. Got that dull feeling hung over me. Very much itching to know my CA results though. Wonder when the results will be out.

Feel like going out. Wasted almost my entire week lying in bed. Need more fresh air. Since Wednesday i've been wondering if i'll be able to ride on Sunday. Guess i've got the answer now. Even if the fever's gone, the pile of revision work is still on the table. Lots and lots to catch up. Feeling all alone and sad right now. Can't get anything done.

This is the worst time to get sick sick and sick. SICK!!!!! Fever... If it's the time to break records in the Olympics, then it's quite the time to break my own record for highest temperature ever achieved. Having fever for 3 days in a row during your study break is no joke. I need to study!!!! Anyway the record temperature was like 39.8 deg C. Got a jab for it yesterday and ouch, the site of the jab still hurts a little. Feeling better today and i should be able to get down to work this afternoon.

My computer's dying on me. So many stupid programs installed from goodness-knows-where slowed the entire system. Might consider getting a new PC but the present one seems to be working now...

Baby Funny Guy died. Been acting a little weird since yesterday... Guess it's the water...

BoiBoi did a haircut for me on Sat and after seeing my friends' responses today, i guess it's a like-it-or-hate-it kinda hairstyle. It's good with me!

Been wanting to get a new hp but can't bear to spend the few hundred bucks for one. Can't bring myself to buy such an expensive item. Think a monophonic phone when my plan ends should do. At least the older phones seem more lasting.

Ah ha! Finally this thingy is working again. Just now i couldn't type anything in.

Went riding today... weather was HOT. Must lose weight. Last night i was like so damn upset about gaining one kilo. Determined to lose it, or even better if more. But pretty much dehydrated coz i was, as usual, carrying only a 500ml bottle.

PLAYING BADMINTON TOMORROW!!!! Muhahahaa... i'm gonna make sure my weight-loss program is successful. Hate to be the heaviest among people around me. Although it's a healthy, average, fit kind of heavy, i hate it. Hahaha... and how am i supposed to respond when the super-underweightees say that they gotta lose weight? What's this whole weight thingy about anyway?! Why can't we all be fat and happy? Try convincing myself first...

Imagine a waistline of... 24"? (If i can ever attain that, i still want my short + fat legs for cycling. i need my old arms too.) Oops... not too proportionate but anyway, who cares.

But i love to see my fishes well-fed and fat. ARGHHHH!!!!!! My funny guy just laid an egg (FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I SAW THE EGG!!!) and gourami conveniently came over and snapped it up before i could respond. =( The egg's pretty big! Much bigger than i thought. Around 1mm in diameter. Will keep a more alert lookout for more.

Got back the latest Macroecons test results. SUCKED BIG TIME! Pulled my overall CA results down by at least 2 grades. Demoralized. Not at all motivated to catch up with all the work anymore. It's the worst results i've gotten for this entire course. I HATE IT!!!! HATE MYSELF!!!!!! DUMBASS!!!!!!!!!

Got a presentation tomorrow. Should turn out fine...





Be positive. Positive. Positive. Act positive. Gotta be positive. If not for myself, for every one else. Positive. Action. Speech. Positive. Everything is good. Nothing's bad. Dumbass, you can do it. u're so slow and stupid, can't do anything, so u'd better be able to look at things positively. +ve. Good. Positive. No negative nonsense from you or it's punishment.

Found the white angelfish looking at some white stuff that was on the filter pipe. Realized that the white stuffs are actually eggs! But since i took the other angelfish out yesterday to give BoiBoi, i don't think the eggs are fertilized. Anyway i harvested around 37 of them and put them into the hatchery. No harm seeing if they can hatch.

Gonna sleep now... tiredz...