It's been over a week since i've blogged in. Exams are over. I've been to Kuching and back. And i just didn't feel like blogging. Hahaha... Perhaps my boring, insignificant life needn't be published on the net.

Been picking at my fingers alot for over the past week+. Pretty bad. It's one of the worse picking times i've ever encountered. 6 fingers feeling raw and 2 of which were bleeding. Hahaha... (didn't touch the other 4 coz they are my favourite fingers.)

Anyway hope it gets better soon. Can't help pickin' because... it's the urge to get rid of the imperfection on the fingers.

Finally finished an amount of revision i deem decent. Not exactly super confident but i feel good about trying to put in the effort. My aim's only to pass anyway. Just came online to look at the past years' papers and they look do-able enough. Listening to "Wu Jian Dao" now. Relaxing. Enjoying exam life. Music sounds sweeter now. Puffy looks cuter. I feel more tired. Hahahaa...

Watched the American Bo Liao show "Are you Hot?" just now and i think it's pretty bad. Dislike one of the judges Rachael. Feel that she gives too many negative comments about the contestants. Oh come on, aren't you all there to have fun? Looks like she's got her personal thing mixed up with it. Anyway Rachael, please take a look at yourself in the mirror.

Switched over to Central during the adverts and Charlotte Church was singing Christmas Carols. It was beautiful. Totally awesome. It's a zillion times better than "Are you Hot?". Somehow i feel the Christmas spirit again. It's the time of the year. Christmas really makes me reminisce about the past, about how beautiful things can get. Charlotte Church's strong opera voice plus her pretty blue eyes really adds to it. Her face looked so angelic when she sang. (Perhaps it was the cameraman who was doing his job.)

Feeling so tired. Maybe i should get to bed soon before my grouchy/sad/angry/dissatisfied self appears. Oww... Stomachache...

Darn. Think i'm cooked for this paper. My hopes of getting an A are dashed. Should be able to pass i guess... Atrocious! There were even parts of questions that i left virtually blank. Couldn't answer them at all. And of course, loads of ambiguous answers were written. Hopefully Mr Tan is more lenient in marking the papers...

So tired. Wonder how i managed to crawl back from the MRT station just now. Legs were aching from sitting in the Antarctic-cold exam hall for 3 whole hours. Dropped dead (beat) onto the bed and *snorez*. Tomorrow's paper is the more worrying one. Haven't finished reading through the notes for the first time. Can't remember a shit about what it's talking about. No idea on how to approach any questions.

Perhaps i should just get back to my textbook...

Rode T15 with BoiBoi this morning. Very very bad stamina. Sheeks... And the trail eroded quite a bit from the last time i went there. To think last time T15 was just a super flat trail to me...

Came back with lots of fatigue in the legs. Studied a little, bummed around.

Plain worried about the exams. Just worried that i'd blank out when i see the exam paper.

It's raining big time. Really nice and cooling and relaxing and everything. No regrets in not going to school for the consultation sessions today. Initially i got up at 0830 to head for school. After sitting at my desk for quite awhile and staring at my notes, there seemed nothing much to ask. Okay, back to bed. It started pouring during lunch and oh well...

Room looks so dark. I like it. Can't stand the brightness of the lights. Suits my moods too...

I'm back. So boring. Feeling totally unmotivated to do work. Yesterday i did my stuff and then went out to sign up for an Entrepreneurship Forum at Tanjong Pagar CC and later hanged around at Clementi for dinner and to get some stuff from the fish shop.

When i got back, i got nagged non-stop by first my mum, then my dad. Nagged about me not going home for dinner. They always say the same thing. Food outside not healthy. Waste money. Blah blah blah... If i could go out without all these nonsense, i'll probably be doing my revision right now. How sickening. Might as well slack at home and rot and everything.

Puffy just passed away. Internal bacteria infection. I thought he would make it. He was such a strong little fellow and has been holding on for weeks despite being ill and not eating. It's my fault again. Why didn't i suspect internal bacteria infection?! Took him out of the tank this morning because his condition didn't look good at all. His colour was darker than usual and white spots and stuff stucked onto him. His fin had been nipped badly last night too. At first when i took him out, he was still swimming around and looked fine. But by this afternoon, he got weaker and his tummy started to bloat. I saw him struggling to keep alive. He didn't want to die. He lay on his side. Barely moved. I tried to move him around. His fins started moving. 10 minutes later, only his soul was left.

Poor puffy. Perhaps i'm not fated with puffer fishes. Rest in Peace, Puffy.

Managed to push myself to revise some stuff this morning. Later on decided that i deserved a break for the rest of the day so i went out with BoiBoi.

Baker's Inn. Walnut Cheesecake. Double cappucino. Shiok. Decided to head over to Cineleisure for pasta but we didn't manage to reach there before the rain started. Ended up playing pool at Monstercue.

Finally when the rain stopped, we continued our quest. Hanged around. We were in World of Sports (2nd level) when we met Mark (Leong). Cool! He was waiting for his friend. We chatted for awhile and slowly edged towards the entrance of the shop. Just then David (Xtac) came along with his gf. Oh boy was it a coincidence. Hahaha... After they went off, we continued yakking away and who knows Gab came along with Juli. Wah... it was exactly the same spot where we were standing at. Yak yak yak... They went off... We yakked further and yes, you guessed it. Another couple whom we know came along. Joey and Gerald this time. My my, what good feng shui that spot has! 4 couples within less than half an hour?

Went for pasta after that and hanged around in Orchard. Somewhere outside Wisma, i saw someone familiar - Marianne. James (Aggressor) was also beside her! Ahahaha... After we slipped past unnoticed, i called James and he was like "?!?!". Hahaha... Looks like today is a really good day to pak tor. 5 couples we met in the evening.

Checked out some bike magazines in Borders before getting shooed out of the place. No no, we weren't irritating. It's just closing time. Took a train back. BoiBoi came along too. He wanted to collect his bike from my place.

Feeling quite guilty now. I should've stayed at home the whole day to revise my stuff instead of roaming around outside. Wondering if i can finish my revision by this week...

*YAWNZ* This morning BoiBoi went to BT with the rest. He dropped out at Chestnut Ave because he wasn't feeling too good. I went over to meet him and we rode back to my place. The weather is indeed really hot today. By the time i reached the trail, i could feel that my body had lost a whole load of water. BoiBoi took a shower at my place and we slacked around. Supposed to go for the mass ride 3 recce ride but under such circumstances, nah.

BoiBoi's sleeping on my bed now. I've slept enough. Too much and i'll be feeling tired again. It's been a slack day n i'm lovin' it.

Slept for only 3 hours plus. Was forcing myself to do some pass year exam papers till 4+ in the morning. Accompanied BoiBoi for medical checkup at Shaw's and later rushed over to ICA building (formerly known as SIR building) to update my passport photo.

Headed to school for afternoon lecture after that. Ah Bao bought Tang Yuans in Peanut soup from Beach Road for me and we shared it. Good stuff eh! Coincidentally, Ah Bao had gone to ICA building to renew her passport! But because she went there slightly later than me, we missed each other.

Went for TEF Wilson's wedding dinner with BoiBoi at Orchid Country Club. So tired. By that time, my eyes couldn't really focus well already. Met a couple of riders there and even met my brother-in-law! He said that he had some business relations with Wilson. Cool... The world sure is small! There were 62 tables in all, not small at all! The food was pretty okay. I liked the Yam ? the best. It's like the Yam Ring you eat outside except that it's a solid whole piece with a scallop inside. Delicious!

Gab dropped Slayer and me off at Yishun MRT after that and i took a train back. Seriously half-dead and stoned. Anyway it's been a good day... at least many stuffs accomplished!

Finger's still swollen and super itchy.

Got Da Yan Jing (my fish) back from BoiBoi. Welcome back boy!! He sure looks excited...

If there is anything that i can't tolerate, it's Itch. Pain, fatigue, anything, is perfectly fine. My finger has freaking been itching the entire day. And it swelled slightly more today. I HATE THE ITCH!!!!!!!!!! Why isn't it more painful than itchy?! It bugged me so much when i was playing pool that i lost to a friend. ARGH! And i can't fully bend my finger inwards because of the swell. The edge of the skin on the fingernail just feels like ripping off when i do that.

This thing spoilt my entire day. Thought of going out after school but the medicine made me so drowsy, i could even barely keep awake for lecture. Kept yawning. Urgh...

Sleepy... Hiakz! Got stung by a bee just now. I was sitting at the bus stop peacefully when this bugger came along and rested on my left index finger when i wasn't looking. Naturally, my reaction was to fling my left hand around to get rid of it and well, the bugger's reaction was to sting me. He even left a gift of pollen on my finger. *blur* Tried to get the sting out but it was too fine. Not painful at all. The finger just swelled slightly. Asked my mum what to apply and she insisted that i went to see the doc. Oh well, 27 bucks for just some antiseptic (or was it antibiotic?) cream and some anti-histamine pills (was it?). Something like that... Bleah. Why would a bugger want to commit suicide like this?

FINALLY!!!!!!!

Done with the report. Boy is this whole thing a killer. Err... actually our report is like twice the length of what we're supposed to do. Oops. But the more the merrier right? Luckily there's no trilogy from what happened yesterday. Project-mate 1 sent me the full report this morning at 9. She spent the whole night up doing the thingy. Oh dear. But i guess it looks pretty good. Sweet. Impressive. Now am feeling a little sleepy... Uh oh...

Morning tutorial. Wasn't supposed to have tutorial today. It was supposed to be on Monday. Lecturer didn't turn up for Monday's tutorial and some fucking asshole in my class complained to the course coordinator about it. If i'm not wrong, the lecturer told the class to just sign for that one and the asshole wasn't happy about it. What's her problem? Tutorials or not, there's no difference.

I don't mind going for useless tutorials but the ASSHOLE DID NOT TURN UP FOR EITHER SESSION. Fucking bitch. Wasting resources.

Bummed around after that. Read the papers, had lunch, read Forbes, watched TV, napped till lecture started. Ended up sitting outside the lecture theatre with Dear and talked until tea break.

Walked all the way from Lakeside MRT to JW Ave 1 to buy feeder fish but what the fish(?!), there weren't any that i wanted. Fortunately a bag of Calbee Sour Cream Potato Chips accompanied me throughout the 20-minute walk. Felt slightly weak and faint but somehow ended back home.

Switched on my pc after dinner only to realize that Project-mate 1 had not sent me the report for editing. Pissed. Saved up a document that Project-mate 2 sent. Opened it. What audacity to produce such a piece of crap! A pathetic graph without arrowheads on the axes. Horrible writing. 4 points: 1st point with 10 lines of description, 2nd with 6, 3rd with 4 and last with 2. Rubbish! Cursed and swore and bitched about her to Project-mate 1 and 3 and BoiBoi. Don't stab our backs if you can't produce a decent piece of work.

Had to re-do her work. Couldn't bring myself to edit the stuff so i changed most of it. Called her. "******, i've read your file. Your work SUCKS!" "Huh? How come?" blah blah blah... all the lame excuses shot out. I'm gonna confront her and ask why she talked behind our backs. Gonna tell her she's of no standard to say our work is of no quality. I'm not afraid of telling such stuff because i've done my part and i feel it's decent enough to meet the lecturer.

Until now, i still haven't received the rest of the report to edit. Is it bad time management or bad time management, i wonder. i don't want to rush through it tomorrow morning. Nothing good ever comes out from last-minute work. And i just got a message that the stuff will be sent to me later.

Isn't it a totally fucked up day?

Been out the entire day. Played pool at Mambo at Lucky Plaza with Chee Keong from 1430 to 1730 and went to eat after that. BoiBoi was supposed to come along but he had to get a new fish tank. Sat there and talked for quite some time. Later on we walked over to Takashimaya to see if the girl he's chasing was working at that hour. No luck. Hanged around, looked at loads of big-faced watches. Nearly bought the orange leather strap for my Swatch but phew, managed to peel myself away from the store. Suddenly remember what we kept saying yesterday. All bubbly girls who are 19 this year haven't grown up. Hahahaa... It's not funny when i type it out but when it comes to saying it... it's pretty amusing.

Went to Far East too. The basement had been renovated and it sure looks pretty good - at least there are more shops now. Saw some colourful lighters at a shop and i got a brown "Wei Ta Nai" design lighter. Cool! The M&Ms one looked good too!

CK was saying that 88.3fm recommended Checker's Cafe at UOL building and since i was feeling hungry already, we headed over there. Ulu place. But the restaurant was impressive! Sofa seats inside. Simple decor. Spacious place outside that looks like it can accomodate bikes (Important factor to determine where to eat when i'm on bike in town). And best of all, it's open 24 hours!!! I ordered a Garlic Steak with Spaghetti on a sizzling pan. Dessert was Waffles with Ice Cream! Excellent stuff! Add till i couldn't move. Will go back for more in the future! Good hangout place too. Plus they played Chinese music. (Actually it was just David Tao's "Black Tangerine" album filling the air)

By then, it was like 10pm already. Wanted to take a bus back but BoiBoi wanted to come down and meet me. Ck took a cab back and i sat outside Cineleisure waiting for BoiBoi. There was this lady who was sitting on a chair at Rocky Master's cafe and somehow her chair leg tipped over the edge of the raise platform. *CrAsH* Hahaha... Couldn't help sniggering to myself. Crazy senario. Weird position. All eyes on her. Boiboi came along and we decided to go for a snack at Lips Cafe. Passed by this new "Buttercup Cafe" on the 2nd level and decided to give it a shot.

The place looked concept and clean. Very clean lines. The chairs were all made of clear acrylic which was pretty unique. BoiBoi was really impressed with his food and the whole place. Not too bad. But i didn't eat anything coz i was absolutely too stuffed for anything more. Apparantly this cafe started out from Europe & America (think so...forgot liao) and it has now reached Singapore. The guy mentioned that by next year, there'll be 5 or 6 Buttercups around. Cool. I believe it'll make it big! Passed the lighter to BoiBoi too.

Headed home on MRT after that. Was chatting with Ah Bao from Jurong East station all the way to my place. Hahaha... Looks like we can never run out of things to say.

Yeah, that was my Sunday.

The Test Day. Not too bad. In fact, it was much much easier than i'd thought. Was the 2nd to leave the lecture. Hopefully i can do well in it. Perhaps at least a B?

Went to my cousin's wedding ceremony at Sri Mariamman Temple just now. It was my first time going there and my first time attending such a ceremony. Actually i was more pissed over having to carry a sloppy-looking bag and looking after my grandma closely than appreciating the Indian marriage ceremony. Just because my dad argued with my maid surely doesn't mean that i have to do all these stuff?! Shouldn't he be the one taking over the responsibilities? My grandma even tripped when both of us didn't notice a step that popped out from nowhere. Fortunately my mum grabbed hold of her in time or else I'll be the one carrying the blame for any misfortunes.

I always thought that we should be sitted together as a family during such occasions but it seems like it wasn't the case just now. My dad was sitting with his brothers 2 rows infront and my mum was by the stage capturing everything but me on her videocam. And there i was, all alone with strangers sitting on both sides and 2 bags on my laps.

Told my mum i should have worn a simpler attire like tee + berms rather than my shirt + pants combi to go with the bag i was carrying.

My dad insisted that i should carry the bag because he had a backache. (What the fish?!)

Uncle asked me to get a driving licence but i flatly refused, saying that i don't want to end up being a slave for the family, having to drive people around, carry everything and take care of people at the same time. It's not my ambition, sorry.

The food was impressive. Too spicy for my taste, but very well-hidden vegetarian food. Okay, i mean the mutton and fish and chicken tasted and looked exactly like mutton and fish and chicken but they weren't mutton and fish and chicken. It's just like Chinese vegetarian food with all the "fake" flour items. The fruits were of a good variety - honeydew, rockmelon, red & yellow watermelon and grapes.

Okay, what am i doing at this time of the morning?! zZz...

Been hiding in my room the whole of today. Gave tutorial and lecture a miss to study for tomorrow's test. Didn't spent alot of time on studying but it's been pretty productive so far. Other than going to the toilet and downstairs for lunch, it's all hiding in my dark little room. Eyes can't seem to take much light well today. Maybe i should put on my shades and strut around outside later. Hahaha.

Chanced upon http://www.ezlink.com.sgjust now when i was helping BoiBoi look for the opening hours for the ticketing offices. I say, the raise in price (non-refundable cost) for the ezlink card is atrocious. A whole 5 bucks for only the card? Like what someone mentioned on an advertisement on tv, do we have to pay for the paper that is used to print our notes?! Okay, never mind about this issue. What about having to pay more using cash than when using the not-so-ezlink card? Aren't we all taking exactly the same transport? It just doesn't make sense. Is the government out to punish people for not advocating its policy? Crap. All this shit just makes my blood boil. The dispute over such issues will never end here, in Singapore, because of the never ending growth of such unfairness.

So tired today. Came back from school directly and plonked right into my bed. Physically and mentally drained. Feel that i've been pushing myself too much for nothing. It's like putting in alot of effort but it doesn't seem to be enough to finish my stuff. Worried about doing badly for my test this Sat. Not motivated enough to do my project stuffs anymore. Been feeling so tired these few days. What's happening to me?

Just came back from school. Played pool during break just now. Got challenged by 2 guys. The first round was good. Won nicely. (My friends were saying that the guy was quite paiseh. Oops...) As for the second, it was quite disgusting. I ended the game nicely and just as we shook hands, the cue ball dropped into one of the pockets. DaMn! Anyway, that was a good excuse to get back to lecture. It sure was stressful playing with some other people. But the good thing was that, i didn't pay a single cent for the 3 games i played. Hahaha...

Punkie and Poolish i may be on the outside, this nerd still has to attack the tutorials and projects later!

Tired. Sleepy.

Got the results of last week's Biz Stats test. A. Phew. I'd have killed myself if i did worse because i was the first to hand up the test script and step out of the classroom. Looks like i ain't doing too bad this sem.

zZz...

BoiBoi came along for my dad's birthday lunch at Crown Palace Restaurant in Yishun. The food wasn't as good as i expected but the steamed Soon Hock and the Bird's Nest Soup was the best of all. Wonder if the 500+ bucks he paid was worth it. I guess so?

Hanged around in Yishun with BoiBoi after my family left. Went to look for That Fishshop. It wasn't too bad. Lotsa stuff there. Big puffies! Hahaha... Headed to Tiong Bahru coz BoiBoi wanted to trim his hair. Shopped around for a gift for my dad but couldn't find anything good. BoiBoi then got me a stuffed star. Very smooth material(which BoiBoi claimed was lycra) and very soft. In addition to the bright yellow, it was really cute! Thanks leh... Then headed to Orchard to look for some black socks. Slacked around... ended up in Coffee Bean at Centrepoint. Ordered a Chai Latte and a Shitake Mushroom Quiche. WARNING WARNING!! Never order these. Chai tasted pretty horrible, and it left us wondering what ingredients were added. It had a strong taste of the star looking spice added into Oriental dishes. The quiche didn't taste good either. Where's the mushroom? Oh well...

Took a bus back. So tired that i slept all the way back. While walking back from the bus stop, i saw a Nissan Skyline. Wow. The most unlikely place to find one. zZz... *hugging the star to sleep... DroOl*

Boring lecture in the afternoon. Waited a whole 45 minutes for my parents to pick me up after that. Went to cousin's wedding dinner. Although the place was small, the decor was nice - a theme of white and blue. Had our mini polaroid shots taken at the entrance and signed beside the stickered photos. I can't imagine him getting married already. Wow. Anyway the food was catered by Jack's Place. Not too bad afterall.

Bummed around for quite long and reached home at 11+. Christina called me out for a midnight movie at Jurong Point. I agreed coz there was practically nothing much else to do. "Wishing Stairs" was the title of the show. A Korean horror movie. The 2 lead actresses were pretty cute. (I think one of them stars in "My Sassy Girl".) But the movie wasn't all too scary. Perhaps it's just interesting. Yeah.

We took a cab back to my place. Sat around and chatted until 4+ before dozing off to sleep.

Fuck. The more i look at my whole fucking blog, the more fucked up and kiddy it looks. I fucking can't even express myself properly.

Today. Everyday i get to learn something new. Today is the day i got to understand the term "worried sick". SMS-ed and called BoiBoi the whole day and he didn't respond. At first i thought he was busy or was resting at home. But when these extended into the evening, i got paranoid. I didn't know what to do or how to contact BoiBoi. I just badly wanted to know if he was okay. What if something happened to BoiBoi and here i was all dumb and stupid wondering where he was? All the while when i was with Ah Bao and the rest looking for birthday gifts, i couldn't stop checking my handphone if BoiBoi had left a message. During dinner in Marche, Ah Bao could tell that i was getting more and more anxious about BoiBoi. I couldn't engage myself properly in any conversation. I could only think about BoiBoi.

As i walked to the bus stop, my mouth was getting dry. Felt nauseated all the way home although BoiBoi finally dropped me a "I'm here" sms. The feeling of helplessness, sadness, hung over me. BoiBoi was feeling down and i couldn't do anything to cheer him up. I felt weak. Fragile. Anyone could smash me into pieces any time. The strong look totally opposed my true feelings. From the bus stop, i rushed home fast. Felt like puking. I don't know.

I only know, i want to make BoiBoi happy.

Who cares about the microeconomics tutorial...

BoiBoi, things will get better. It takes time... you know it too...

Went to Christina's place after school. BY told me that Chris missed one of her exams and wanted to commit suicide yesterday. Apparantly her boyfriend broke up with her and she didn't take it too well. They've been together like for 3 months and she told me that she really loved him and that it was unlike the previous relationships she had. Helluva bastard. He told her that she didn't understand him well enough. Guess it's a totally lame excuse and the real reason was that he liked another girl. When Chris missed her exam, he even called her in the middle of the night asking her "You trying to make me feel bad?". What an asshole!!! Hai, just because of an stupid dumbass, she's gotta stay in poly for another semester.

3 of us went to eat KFC near my place. Order 2 meals (that were for 4 people) and i became the 4th person too. Never in my life have i heard of anyone eating 3 pieces of chicken and 4 drumlets and 2 small whipped potatoes and further pressured to down 2 large gassy drinks. Okay. I swear never to eat KFC again in my entire life. Actually it wasn't filling but more of oily and sickening.

Watched "The Ring" on TV till i dozed off. BoiBoi went to watch Matrix Revolutions with his brother in Tiong Bahru Plaza at 10 pm. I didn't go because by the time the movie ended, it'd be over midnight and i dread the taxi midnight surcharge. If it's at Jurong Point or somewhere nearer, i wouldn't mind. Besides, i wanna sleep and get up early to study for my Biz Stat test tomorrow.

*Yawnz...* Finally i get to do my blog on the actual day and time itself. The past few entries had been done not at the stated times.

Had good sleep last night, in fact, lotsa sleep. It's good, really. Went to school feeling decently like a conscientious student. My my, what English am i typing. Anyway i had a pretty much slack time during lecture coz the topic taught today was relatively simple. Arranged to meet BoiBoi 1 hour after lecture. Went over to Holland Village to get a nice, pretty sunflower for BoiBoi and rushed over to Clementi in a cab.

Had dinner together at a coffeeshop and visited the fish shops nearby. Fish-buying spree today!! BoiBoi got a whole lot of Neon Tetras, Angelfish, tiny dunno-what-name fishes, 2 solefishes, a whole packet of feeder fish and an external filter. WOW! And i got myself 2 puffer fishes that had orange stripes on their sides and 2 what-look-like-swordtails.

BoiBoi came over to my place. Unloaded the fishes. Within half an hour, that helluva greedy guy in my tank ate up one of the swordtails. Goodness. He even tried to devour one of the puffies but spat it out immediately. (Guess fugu's not of his taste.) Within 2 hours, the other swordtail vanished. Hai... it's such a pity because those swordtails looked really cute and stumpy. Small guys. Only around half the size of my previous swordtails.

Anyway the puffies look really comfortable in the tank. Huge appetites for their sizes! Noticed them nipping at the others. Hope this doesn't continue... Froggie hasn't been eaten up by Catfish. Was so worried the other day when i couldn't find him around. But now he's floating around alot. Wonder if he's doing this to move out of Catfish's path... Damn! One puffy just nipped him.

Time to sleep... Been doing my project report for the past 2 hours or so and it's only half done. Am i putting in too much effort or am i just slow at doing things? zZzzz...

The fatigue had been brought over from the past 2 days. Almost couldn't get up in the morning for my tutorial which was at 9.30 am. Digged myself out of bed, had a shower, checked my emails and rushed off to school.

Tutorial was such a bore coz i've been a great student who's done all her work. HAHAHAA... Today's tutorial is quite a waste of time. After that, headed to the library to zap some stuff and return a book. Lunch. Ate with my classmates and later joined Zombie and Angie who'd come over to SIM. Zombie, as usual, was eating his favourite Chicken Cutlet which he claims that it's half the price and twice the size of the ones outside. Hanged around awhile before heading off to the student lounge.

Watched the start of an Inter Varsity Debate. Looks like the debates nowadays do not follow the standard debating styles that we used last time. But the most impressive part was that, the ang mos from some German University could speak such fluent Mandarin, it put all of us watching the debate to shame. Oh boy.

Pool after that. Didn't play very well because i was really too sleepy. Lecture. Boring. But at least today's lecture was better than the previous ones coz the lecturer was in a way criticising systems in Singapore. I absolutely enjoy listening to such stuff.

Home. Slept big time on the bus and nearly missed my stop. In fact i got up exactly at my stop and practically hopped off the bus. Gotta do so much stuff tonight. Hope i can finish all of it. I crave sleep. I need sleep.

BoiBoi's not feeling well again today. BoiBoi, take things easy okay? You'll get better soon! Maybe i didn't take care of you well enough... *HUGZ* Get well soon...

Just got back from my cousin's wedding dinner @ Marriot Hotel. So tired.

Visited the fish exhibition at the Expo with BoiBoi from morning to late afternoon. Saw many beautifully decorated tanks and everything. Legs were aching from yesterday but nevertheless, walked around looking at whatever that was available. Met a secondary school friend who was my lower sec classmate! Hadn't seen him for 3 years and surprisingly he still looks quite the same. Cool.

Headed over to Marriot after that. The reception was at 7 and i must say, it's a pretty good idea to let people hang around before going into the ballroom. At least the latecomers will not be so late for the dinner. Sat with a whole lot of strangers at the table but after the ice was broken, it was hard to tell that we'd only known each other for a few hours.

These dinners always take too long. Towards the end of it, my eyes could barely open anymore. Just felt so tired. So worn. Home. Didn't even take off my socks when i landed dead beat on the bed.

Been awake for like 19 hours? Got up so damn early this morning, like around 6.20 am, to go for my cousin's wedding ceremony at his place. I swear if i ever get married, there's no way i'll ask people over to my place at such an unearthly hour.

Anyway they'd just moved into some bungalow at Chestnut Drive a week back. Goodness. Both its exterior and interior had been designed by my cousin. It's sort of a project for his Architecture course in NUS. Beautiful. Very impressive piece of work. Especially the kitchens. Yes, i mean kitchens with the S. It's more of an American type of open concept style in which the kitchen overlooks the living room directly. And if u think that frying or any exciting ways of cooking would mess up the entire place, there's another kitchen just outside for you to experiment or carry out messy ideas.

Gush gush at everything there... Furthermore, the guest room is such a comfy place where it almost overlooks Track15! AHHH! That's the dream place any mountain biker could wish for...

Anyway, we had breakfast and lunch there. They had both meals done by the caterer and i must admit that the service of the waiters from the cater was good.

Went to St. Patrick's Court to clean up that place again. The new tenant would be moving in tomorrow.

BoiBoi jio-ed me to Plaza Singapura to watch "Ong Bak" with Eugene and Meng. It's quite a good show (considering that it was a 9.20pm show and i'd been out for more than 12 hours and i didn't fall asleep watching it). Mostly action. Heard that the stunts were done only by the stuntmen without any external help. Somehow i could feel the importance of religion in the story. Guess the show's worth watching.

Home.

Woke up around 1+ in the afternoon. Just the time for lunch and later on spent two-thirds of my afternoon in front of my computer chatting with all the bored people in mIRC #togoparts.com channel. Badly wanted to drag myself out to ride but kept procrastinating big time. Sick. Disgusted at myself. Kept telling myself that the weather sucked. Finally at goodness-knows-what-time, i pried myself out of the chair for a spin. Adjusted my saddle a little, then rode out. Was drizzling. Couldn't disappoint myself by stepping back into my house. Rode and rode till i reached West Coast. It wasn't that far but there was just no motivation for myself to go anywhere. The return journey was dampened with the rain. Eyes hurt from the attack of the raindrops. Brain couldn't focus on the road well. (In fact i still don't feel too good now.) Regretted not wearing my helmet.

Better if i get pneumonia or an accident or something and end up in the hospital. Need a change in life.

Did i mention... during lunch today i was telling myself that i'd already achieved my goal of the year? (Goal was to rid myself of depression by this year.) Now that i think back, maybe not.

Got back an hour ago. Been slacking for pretty much the whole day again and then went out in the evening for a movie. Caught "Matchstick Men" at Plaza Singapura with BoiBoi. The show was pretty good. In fact, i kinda like it.

Nicholas Cage played his role really well, especially his Obsessive Compulsive Disorder thingy. As real as it can get, i guess it was really mean for the audience (myself included) to laugh repeatedly at his actions. Anyway the storyline was good and had a twist at the end - just the way i like stories to be. Go catch it if you haven't!

Wondering what to do tomorrow... or rather later. Should i go out for a ride? Swim? Slack? Stay home to study? I've gotta work on one of my modules on Organizational Behaviour coz i've got absolutely no idea what our dear lecturer is garbling all about. Project? Quite done. Stayed up late last night to finish my stuff. Or at least i created a piece of work decent enough for me to sleep properly. Simple contentment.

Meeting up with project mates on Friday to do a writeup for another project. Was supposed to meet on Wednesday but ah-hem... due to some delay of the interview that had to be done by a friend, we had to postpone our meeting to Friday.

Maybe i could try to clear up all the nibbled plants in my tank too. Veins are floating everywhere now.

Not-so-project day today. Pretty slack. In fact almost nothing done. Bleah. Basically only got my bike done up. PhwEeeT~! Got the rubber patches from Biker's Hub and for the first time in my life patched a tube. (It's nothing great but considering how many people at the XC clinics i taught about the theory of patching a tube, it's quite shocking.) Took my bike out for a run and boy did it feel good. At least the drivetrain's smooth enough. Think i need new brakepads though... *sigh*... and that means an outflow of financial resources.

A friend came over to collect some scores for one of her modules. She's in the engineering faculty of NUS but is taking a module that requires her to compose a piece of music. What the heck?! This isn't the way to an all-round education. I mean i don't see the relation at all. Anyway it's not my module so i don't have much authority to bitch around. Talk about Singapore's education system...

My Grass Monster is growing great! The grass is almost 5cm tall already! The Monster looks so cute too... Hahaha... And now i'm cultivating another one for my mum. Hers is a Tortoise Grass Monster!

Project before AND after today's afternoon lecture. Kinda sick of project, project and project. By the end of the day, i was so stoned, nothing much registered into my head during the discussion. Stayed back for 2 hours (until 7pm) just to tie things up. Rushed to a bikeshop near my place to get patches but weirdly (or sadly), the shop had run out of them.

Okay. Improvisation time. Got a tube of glue suitable for sticking rubber and hoped it'd work. After squeezing some out, i'm still wondering big time whether it'll work.

Think i'm stressing myself out. After i left school for home, anxiety seemed to get the better of me. Couldn't think about anything else except for project, project and project. Think i'll do everything i'm supposed to do for this week of hols by tonight. Actually it isn't too much i guess...

Still wondering if i should give the glue a try...

Home alone on this beautiful Sunday! Was so bored, i took out revision exercises to do. Am i becoming a nerd or something?! Blasted the theatre system in the living room with some Dance, Rock and uh... some other music. It's really the only time when i can have some peace when enjoying my favourite musics loud! Had Wanton Mee for lunch and later sent BoiBoi's watch to the shop for a battery change. The Mee was quite good but the Wanton kinda sucked. Too thick-skinned.

Home again. Took out my bike and attempted to tune the front derailleur again. Almost got it. Hahaha... Lousy. BoiBoi came along a little while later and helped me with it. Did the rear gear cables too. Damn. Why am i so slow at these?! Anyway he had to rush off so i accompanied him to the fish shop to grab some feeder fish. Nice, fresh fish today!

Home again. Back to my rig. Washed the brake pads. They were utterly BLACK and disgusting with all the grime or whatever-you-call-it stuck on them. (Btw the brake pads were supposed to be RED.) Whipped out the toothbrush and started the cleaning. Changed the brake noodles too. I'd gotten the new ones such a long time ago but was really too lazy to replace those on my bike with the new ones. Cool. Now the bike's looking new.

But wait. I still don't understand why the front tire's leaking. Don't want to understand either. It's just irritating to know that only my wheelsets with Stan's tubeless system don't work all the time. Anyway, i decided to switch back to tubes. Digged the storeroom and found a tire which i liked and a tube that looked usable. Cursed, sweared, bitched, Everything, and after a long wrestle, managed to take the Nokian tire off the rim along with the rubber strip inside. *Sigh of relief* Oh yeah, did i mention that it was quite a surprise for me when i realized how much bike stuff were lying around in boxes? It's not alot as compared to many of my fellow riding friends but to me it's more than enough.

For those who want to train your strength and technique of removing normal tubes and tires fast, try removing those with Stans. No tire will be too difficult to deal with after that. Put the other tire and tube onto the rim without touching any tire levers. *Snigger* Pumped the thing up. Pssssstt........... Damn. The tube had been rolled up for too long, the sides cracked. AAAAHHHH!!!!!! No use crying over a hole in the tube. Back to the store. Came out with a lightweight tube that had a pinch. Wanted to patch the hole but... NO PATCH! Don't like the Parktool's stick-on patch coz it doesn't last. It was already 8.30pm. Doubted that any bikeshop would still be open. *SiGh* Wanted to install the improvised tubeless system on but it's too troublesome. Thus, no test ride today... So disappointing. DAMN! Why didn't i go ride around before touching the front wheel?! Oh well, there's still tomorrow i guess...

Ah. What happened to my feeder fish? Put all of them into my tank and already-not-so-baby-catfish went into a mad frenzy gobbling everyone in his way. Ferocious little fellow! But now his belly is bulging way too much. Greedy!

As i'm recollecting my day, 2 slices of walnut cake, a coconut, an apple and a glass of water accompany me.

Think i'll study some notes tomorrow before going to school... and get some patches after school... and better not think of what's gonna happen in school...

Got back at around 1 am. Had lecture in the afternoon. Very half-heartedly went for it because it's a real spoiler for my long weekend. Damn. But it's over anyway, so who cares?

Headed over to Lucky Plaza's Mambo for pool with Chee Keong after that. Didn't play too well today but there were a couple of good shots here and there. BoiBoi joined us too! Later on Ah Poh came hobbling along too. He endoed off his rental bike the previous day and had a couple of scrapes in his knee, palm and elbow. Sheesh.

Feeding time @ the food court at the basement level. Nothing exciting. BoiBoi and i hanged around Orchard. Walked to Heeren and landed in HMV listening to music in the "Dance" and "Classical" sections. Quite the opposites but anyway, it doesn't really matter. Strolled to BoiBoi's place to send him back, then, with half a heart and brain in bed, took bus service 174M back. Almost missed my stop but miraculously woke up just in time.

A little itchy here and there. Took all the medicines again and realized that hey, why are there so many of them? It must be the doc's try in guessing which medication works.

Now i'm just sitting in front of the computer. Bleah.

Bad day of itch. Seriously, i'd prefer pain to itch. I'd rather be in control of things.

Anyway BoiBoi came over in the evening. Realized that i had a fever and insisted that i went to see the doc. After some persuasion, i agreed. Off to the doc we went. Boy was it a long queue! I was the 8th in line and we decided to go for dinner and visit a few fish shops before returning back to the clinic. After 1 fish shop & a full dinner, i was only in the middle of the line. 2 more fish shops and a handphone shop later, i was almost there. Lousy doc. Horrible diagnosis. Didn't tell me what my allergy was caused by. Didn't state if my fever had anything to do with the rash. What nonsense and a waste of $31.00!

Fortunately the medication worked after a couple of hours.

Just reached home around an hour+ ago. Went out with BoiBoi and company to celebrate BoiBoi's birthday! Had dinner at Sizzler at Suntec. The sirloin steak was horrible but the salad bar was pretty solid, so i guess it's much worth it. BoiBoi had this ribs thingy and someone took a photo of it with all our knives and forks stuck onto it. Violence! Hope it turns out cool!

Had this rash thingy on my neck. Darn irritating. Furthermore i don't know what's the cause of it. Some said it could be heat rash, others said hives (what's that?). Badly wanted to go back after dinner to shower and change into a nice clean set of clothings but didn't due to time constraint. Hope it clears off by tomorrow. It's really getting worse now. HELP!

4 of us (BoiBoi, Eugene, Eno & Me) later went to have a drink at the lounge in Pan Pacific Hotel. Ambience was good. I ordered a Frozen Margarita (which wasn't as impressive as i thought). Thought of getting the Salty Dog (Vodka + Grapefruit) but Eugene commented that it would be too sour. Hahaha...

We asked the waitress about what they have for a birthday special for BoiBoi and they offered us a couple of song requests and a slice of Tiramisu cake for BoiBoi! And uh... i sabo-ed Boiboi by adding a "Request for birthday boy to dance" note on the song request sheet. Oops... BoiBoi... Forgive me k? We just want you to have a more memorable and fun birthday! Besides, everyone didn't seem too satisfied with the singer on the stage.

BoiBoi was such a sport! He went up and although he didn't dance, he sang "Now and Forever" by Richard Marx! BoiBoi, i didn't lie to you when i said that you sang really well!!! *MeLtz @ BoiBoi'S beAutIfuL vOiCe~*

Later on, BoiBoi had to finish up Someone's drink because err... we kinda made a mess out of it. But it really isn't that bad, i swear! Damn, i should have finished it for BoiBoi, then you wouldn't get a hangover.

I sure had fun tonight. But most importantly, i hope that BoiBoi had fun too!

Something to share...

Panadol's the #1 most commonly used drug in America, followed by Prozac.
Prozac can be found so readily in the pharmacies in the US but not so in Singapore.
Prozac is so goddamn expensive (around US$100 for 30 tablets)in the US whereas Prozac is dirt cheap (S$4.00+ for the same 30 tablets) from the government-subsidised hospitals in Singapore.

Do all these mean anything?

BOO! Finally, the econs test is over. Don't think i'll be scoring too well in it but i don't have much expectations of myself. Besides i didn't put in alot of effort into the revision.

Popped over to Jurong Point for a walk. Had a seafood ciabatta and a peach tartlet from Delifrance for dinner. The fish shop had 2 Red Tail Catfishes for sale at $30 each! Anyway i wanted to get a couple of small fishes to finish those white little wormsy thingys in my tank. Couldn't find any that i thought looked decent enough. On my way to the bus interchange, i came across this stall selling Grass Monsters. It was interesting enough so one of them became my property. Got the one that was supposed to be shaped in the form of a rabbit. (It didn't really look like a rabbit but i was taken over by its cute form.)

The Grass Monster, as the name implies, will have grass growing from it after a few days of simple cultivation.
1st day: Soak it in water for an hour.
2nd day: Soak it in water for a minute.
By then, grass is supposed to start growing on the Monster's back.
Rest of the days: Soak the Monster awhile to feed the roots with water.
Sounds easy enough.

Think i need more of such stuff to cultivate my patience.

Went over to the fish shop at the market near my place. Saw 2 puffer fishes that were around 7-8 cm long! The lady at the shop said that they were only for $2 each! My goodness, similar ones from other shops would be sold for at least $20-30! Anyway got 3 Neon Tetras. Hopefully they finish off those white little guys.

Strolled back. Saw the Giant XTC SE with SID fork and Crossmax wheelset again. Everytime i walk back from the market, i see the bike around. There was also a Norco Sasquatch and a Specialized M4 i think. The Specialized is also a regular around that area.

*Yawnz* Still have my project stuff to be done. But feeling kinda excited coz... it's BoiBoi's BIRTHDAY tomorrow!!!!!!

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE BOIBOI!!!!

Back from school. Overall it was a pretty fine day but thinking of having to study for the Econs test tomorrow makes me wanna freak out and die. Some classmates were heading to Mac at YMCA to study but i didn't follow coz the travelling time would probably kill me if the notes couldn't.

I was telling BoiBoi that my family and i are going on a trip to [i forgot where] on [i forgot when]. He asked me if it was Sarawak (coz that was what i mentioned the other day) but my parents have changed their minds probably coz of the fully booked trips. BoiBoi then responded by sending me a "Hahaha... Hahahahaha..." sms followed by the statement "Rich people are decisive and poor people are indecisive and change their minds fast."which he quoted from a seminar he attended yesterday. How true is this statement, i ask myself. I don't wanna go to the extent of typing a full-length argumentative or discussive essay but this is a pretty controversial statement.

I don't agree much with the statement. Personally, i've come across many people who are not exactly poor but are very weak in maintaining their stands. Hesitating in choosing a place for lunch? Buying something? You know what i mean. Could it be the personality rather than the financial status of the person? How about all the other external factors such as circumstances at that point of time?

Perhaps i'm being categorized under the "poor" group due to my indecisiveness sometimes. Just to put in a word for myself, i don't think that my decision-making power is that bad because i try to do what i want or something that pleases others. It's about knowing what you really want and not following others. It is even less of the whether you are rich or poor.

Rich people can be very indecisive too, especially when it comes to spending money. Hahaha. What my mum mentioned last time is really interesting. A millionaire would be unwilling to spend a dollar more than needed but a poor person wouldn't mind doing so because a dollar may rob the title "millionaire" off a person whereas the poorer guy would not be as much affected. Agreed.

Anyway impulsive or quick, mindless decisions are not exactly good. Don't ever bother if you're rich or poor. Just make the right decisions for yourself and face up to them.

A whole load of rubbish. I've just got too much time to spare.

Suddenly i'm wondering again if it's an insult hurled towards me...

TIRED. Another long day but more than half of it has been spent on entertainment. Rushed to school for lecture in the morning thinking that i was late. Turned out that the lecturer hadn't arrived. The few of us (the rest were probably suffering from the Monday Blues) waited around for close to 40 minutes before deciding to give her a call. We were wondering if there was a change in timetable but the sign outside had stated clearly that we had a lecture at that point of time. I was given the honour of calling her and uh... we found out that she didn't know there was a lecture for us today. The course coordinator had failed to inform her of the Appointment with us. Within just 20 minutes, she arrived and started the lecture as if nothing happened at all. Wow.

Had Johnson Duck Rice at Bukit Timah with 13 other classmates. Pretty good stuff we had that made us so reluctant to return to SIM for the afternoon lecture. A whole half hour after lunch was dedicated to haggling over whether going back for lecture or crossing the road for a pool session would be better. So frustrated with them. Can't they just follow their hearts and have a backbone of their own? Besides, it's no use forcing others who are unwilling to do whatever they are forced to do. It's the body and the heart (or mind or whatever) thing. Ultimately, everyone sticked to their own choices.

1st time not attending lecture since the start of the course. Had a great time playing pool. Cheap and decent enough a place to content us. Played for around 3 hours before heading over to Adam Road Hawker Centre for dinner. The rest had wanted to study for the coming Economics test at Serene Centre but i chose to catch the movie "Cabin Fever" with BoiBoi and company.

The storyline was quite okay, in fact almost good, at the start. But as the plot went on, the scenes got really lame and everything. The ending was the worst. Stupid. Kiddy. A total utopia of their own. Goodness. Anyway the scenes were gorry and bloody enough to keep my eyes hooked onto the screen. Complained to BoiBoi about how noisy he and company were during the movie. Maybe i'm just a tad too sensitive about it. Whatever.

Long journey back on the last MRT train. Practically crawled back from the station to my place. Exhausted. But i guess it's good. At least i'll be too tired to think of any stuffs again. Gotta go to school early for project discussion tomorrow. Turning in now. An article to be read before i get to school later. Goodnite BoiBoi.

Been a really really long day. Rushed from school to Pasir Ris for a friend's sister's 21st birthday chalet BBQ. Wasn't all that exciting but it was pretty good to bum around. A friend drove us home later using her boyfriend's car. We were kind of worried coz she's only got her licence 2 days ago. Sheesh. Managed to reach home in one good piece though. Phew! It was pretty freaky to sit in a not-so-controlled car but i guess it's fun.

Reached back at around 3am and talked to BoiBoi over the phone for the next 2 hours. Had a discussion on important issues which are really sensitive to both of us. My stomach wasn't feeling very good too. In fact i was feeling nauseated. Probably my stomach was acting on the food from the BBQ. Despite that, we decided to head out for breakfast at Ghim Moh together right after that. Swear i was seeing stars at that point of time. Kept asking myself why i was out at 5+ on a Sunday morning. Guess we just had to meet. It's the feeling. I know.

BoiBoi came over to my place and we napped a couple of hours before heading out to the fish shop in Jurong East to check out some wallpaper and at the same time have lunch nearby. Spent the rest of the afternoon drilling holes in my sandy bedroom wall and got my magazine rack up. Changed the wallpaper for my fish tank too. We both prefer the present one (which is all black) to the old one which was alot duller.

Dinner. Ate at the coffeeshop opposite my place. Came back and bummed on the bed. It feels so good to relax with a loved one. BoiBoi was drained and so was i. It had been an absolutely long day. It's one of the best times spent together. I mean it. Solid personal time for each other. The entire day.

It's only 9pm. Goodness. When is this stupid Friday going to end?! Came back from school right after lecture ended and started doing school work. Finished whatever that was planned to do. WHAT NOW? I'm becoming obsessed in doing work, nothing can stop me, except that for now, work is running out. I hate Friday nights! I hate to be alone. And what else could be better than thinking about Saturday's afternoon lecture?

It's appetite is ferocious one!!!
My one can eat one whole cube by itself!!! Den the stomach pui pui one.....

Heeheehee~

BoiBoi~

Did a short run in the morning. Boy, was it hot. In fact i think it's one of the hottest mornings in at least the past month. Running without sufficient intake of liquids before that was a huge mistake. Not only a decent speed could not be sustained, yours faithfully was seeing stars after that.

BoiBoi came over after work to get the cichlids. We had a exhausting time trying to catch those hyperactive guys with just a net and 4 hands. But Bravo to BoiBoi who caught 5 out of 6 of them!! The purple cichlid was the most cunning one who hid in a dark corner, making us scratch our heads and wondering where he disappeared to.

Now my tank has only 5 guys inside - (baby)Catfish, Froggie, Flatfish, Royal and Pleco. Really hope that all of them will thrive. Catfish ate out of my hand just now. Either he's overly friendly to strangers (he's only been in my tank for 2 days?) or that he's damn greedy. Nevertheless, a really adorable little chap.

Just finished my tutorial a while ago. Think i'm going nuts. If i don't have any work to do, i'll just go crazy. If i have work pending, my mind can only be occupied by it. But i know that if i put in all my effort now, history will repeat and you'll find me charred - burnt out. Sometimes i tell myself to just forget about work to set my mind at ease but i can't do it.

I don't really know... Does it feel better to be sad or angry?
About what, you'd ask. I don't know...

Microeconomics lecture again today. I can't believe i actually stayed up late and completed the tutorial questions and stuff last night. 1 word to describe the my feelings after the lecture - BLUR. Although i have a background in economics, there're a couple of concepts which are still not engraved in my mind. But it sure was a satisfaction trying to understand them during the lecture - which left me craving for a treat anywhere. The self-centred me badly wanted to reward myself for being so hardworking for once but hai, what else could i do alone other than taking a bus home? Disappointment. I crave for company. I just need nothing more than attention.

Back home, i found out that my Catfish's tail was nipped off a little. Guess the cichilds don't really like him. He wasn't exactly too wise in trying to occupy someone else's territory. Will probably get the cichilds removed. Perhaps at the same time, i'll revamp the tank a little to make it look more spacious.

I love you too~

BoiBoi~

Had a great urge to get another Pufferfish. Went to the shop at Clementi and ended up getting a Red Tail Catfish. Haiyo, no words can describe his cuteness, the charm that his little face gives. Anyway my parents can't deny that he's really cute.

It's the Monday Blues. Tutorial and lecture were such a bore (when were they ever interesting?) but at least they diverted my attention away from my pretty depressed mood. Went over to BoiBoi's place after school to visit him coz he wasn't feeling well today and was on MC. BoiBoi, must take care okay? I love you...

My swordtail died today. My mum threw it out before i reached home so i've got absolutely no idea what caused its death. Just a few days back i was so delighted by the fact that the sword was really growing from his (or her?) tail but now... Hai... Hope he passed away due to old age and not anything else. He's also one of my favourite guys (and one of the oldest ones too) in the tank. Sighs... What have i done that caused all these?!

Maybe i'm just not fated to keep fishes.

I'm sorry........

BoiBoi~

Never tell others things about other people that you know. Misunderstandings are bound to happen. Friendships on the verge of tearing apart.

Bought the October issue of MBUK (Mountain Biking UK). Found it by accident at the magazine stand in Holland Village. Anyway it came with the DVD of the Siemens mobile X Lake Jump. The DVD wasn't too bad. The action was pretty spectacular. If ya wanna catch it, go grab the mag yourself.

Had dinner with secondary school friends at Swensen's. The fish and chips weren't too fantastic, just average.

Really don't feel like typing now. Good night.

"Underworld" is one of the most boring shows i've ever watched. Storyline isn't too strong. What makes up for it is the setting and the costumes. I don't know if it's just me, but all the male characters in the show look so similar. Yuck. Not worth watching. Waste of $8.50. Or maybe was i just too tired?

In school library waiting for BoiBoi now. Tiring day. Had both morning AND afternoon lectures and worse still, they were of the same module. X_X I think the lecturer was probably also sick of our faces. Hahaha... What makes matters worse is that, on Monday, we're gonna have a full day of him again.

Gonna watch "Underworld" later. Have this feeling i'll meet my classmates there because coincidentally, they were discussing where to watch that show in the evening and Plaza Singapura was one of their choices. Heehee... But i find the movie timing a little late - 2145. It's been a long day and there's still lecture tomorrow afternoon and the Cyclethon after that.

Anyway for lunch we went to Ngee Ann's Canteen 1 to eat. Was sitting there talking to Bao Ying until i saw someone familiar walking by. "Eh? Isn't that Wendy from SIM?" She turned towards our direction and "WAH!". Hahahaha... She's so cute, humourous and cheerful! It's like Bao Ying and i always get to see her around, not in the libraries nor walkways but at the bazaars in school! Hahahaa... Boy were we all shocked! It's fated that we always meet like this. Even met her once at Clementi's Mac on a Sunday. This time she was in Ngee Ann to collect something. Wendy wasn't even going to SIM for that matters. Sheesh... The world sure is small.

Changed the water in my tank in the morning before rushing off to school. Looking at everyone inside looking so restless and acting weird, on the precaution, i'll just do a 2/3-tank of water change. Came back and la and behold, the tank was of a beautiful sight. The water was so clear and everyone looked much happier! Bought 2 new plants and added them in after a short treatment of Potassium Permaganate solution. The tank looks pretty good now except for the fact that the plants are mostly of the same height. It's hard to find nice and tall plants but at least now i don't have the restrict my choice to hardy plants because Puffy is no longer in the tank. (He needed brackish water.)

Was so enthusiastic about coming home to do some Biz Stats homework but looks like fatigue has taken over.

Helping BoiBoi type his ? now. Work? Assignment? Whatever it's called. Actually it's pretty fun coz it's really like a treasure hunt in the computer, finding all the not-commonly-used symbols. Sad thing is that, the writing covers a whole page but the typed one isn't as impressive! Anyway, back to work...

Got up at 0800 this rainy morning. Had to go for tutorial lesson at 0930. Ultimate boredom. A boring tutorial and a whole afternoon ahead isn't exactly a great way to start the rainy day. The 1st half of the afternoon lecture was pretty unexciting and it sure was tough keeping awake.

Played pool after school and headed back. Popped by the fish shops near the market and noticed the puffer fishes on sale. They were so healthy and glowing green on the head (which means they're happy little guys!)! Despite so, it was really hard for me to pick out one of them to bring back. I'll never ever get back my same little Puffy again. Ended up not getting any one of them. Perhaps i'm really not cut out to rear puffer fishes.

Feeling slightly better from my cold already. Guess it's the fresh air outside in addition to the distractions. There was a blood donation drive going on in school and i promised myself to donate some a few weeks back when i saw the advertisement but so unfortunately my cold doesn't really qualify me for it at the moment. Quite a couple of my classmates went for it though! It's such a pleasant surprise to see such enthusiastic youngsters! In fact some of them are even regular donars! How funky can my class get... Especially when it comes to anything to do with fund-raising or charity or whatever supposed-to-be-good-for-others events.

Just changed the sponge filter in my tank. Royal pleco looks pretty happy these days and he's coming out of his usual hangout more to bum around. Hope he's got enough food to keep himself contented.

Gotta go rest very soon. My joints are starting to ache a little, eyelids just like Garfield's and reaction slower than a snail's. zZz...

oh my goodness... :(
R.I.P, Puffy....

Puffy passed away peacefully this early morning. May God bless him.

*SOBZ* We will miss his cute little face that peers carefully from inside the tank. The picky worm-eating habits. The bewildered look when he sees something unusual. Most of all, we'll miss Puffy. 2 days ago when i fed everyone live krill, Puffy looked so blissful and happy as he gobbled a few down. Why didn't i buy more krill after that?

Puffy, you'll be happier in the other world.

It's been a busy day. Had a haircut in Kimarie @ Suntec before rushing over to school for afternoon lessons. What kind of Saturday is this with afternoon lecture? Anyway the lecturer made everyone confused with his poor explanation and lack of substantial examples.

Didn't go with the rest for movie because i felt that it was unlikely that we would be able to get tickets, let alone good seats. Instead i headed over to Sim Lim to hunt for the ink cartridge for my printer. $60 for a black cartridge! What the...

For no reason got angry with Mas. Perhaps i'm just too much of an attention-seeker or whatsoever. Resigned to fate and decided that hanging out alone is the best.

Headed over to Bugis Junction to bum around. Happened to see good timings for Infernal Affairs II and got a ticket for myself for the 1930 show. I personally prefer Infernal Affairs as compared to its prequel, partly because of Tony Leung. The storyline of the prequel isn't too exciting but for the fans of Edison Chen and Shawn Yu(e?), it shouldn't be too bad.

Had my dinner in the theatre. A packet of 4 salmon sushi, 4 salmon maki and 1 (i forgot what was inside) inari from Cold Storage. Bit into a fishbone when i was eating the sushi. Atrocious. Worse still i was eating in pitch darkness. Anyway later on i was sniffing & coughing my way through the movie. Falling ill already.

Took a bus back from Bugis. Music on 93.3fm was quite good, or at least it entertained me well for most of the journey.

Boy am i gonna hate all the Saturdays in the next 2 months.

hey hey..... :D
is that Mas?

haha... welcome!

That Mas ah.... He should be shot for going to your house man....

I'll poke him until he surrenders next time I see him.... :(

BoiBoi~

That Mas ah..... Should be shot for going to your house.....

I'll poke him until he surrender next time.....

BoiBoi~

Fuck. My whole beautiful evening is wasted. Nothing i need to do can be achieved now. Never make an ASS out of U and ME. After my lecture ended at 5pm, Mas messaged me "I'll come and find you", assuming that i was going home. The fucking stupid me assumed that he was meeting me at SIM, until i received "I'm taking 507". (507 goes to my place.) Serious case of miscommunication. How the fuck did i get an A for my Business Communication module last sem?? When i reached back, he was sleeping.

It'll be an utter waste of time to go out again from home. Mas then went back after dinner at the coffeeshop saying "it's so as not to remind us of this evening". (Is this a way of hiding away from things?) Anyway, i've got so few free evenings to get stuff done and what have i gotten myself into this time?! Fuck. Now i'm wondering what to do. Nonsensical.

Ah... BoiBoi... Finally!! Hahahaa...

It's been a long, tiring day. We've all been so busy finding group members for our projects and it's only the 2nd day into this semester! Previous group members decided to back out to join their buddies (found during the 3-week break). They later told us that they felt bad and that they would join us for the future projects.

I find it quite a waste of time and energy to have different group members for different projects because meetings would probably clash and especially with our super tight schedule this sem, we'll not have much time to meet up. The reassurance made me feel better but disappointment was yet to come.

We were later told that "We will see first lor! If cannot work with them (their new group members), then will change group." It kind of made us feel like we're junk, thrash that's being thrown around. Anyway we both feel that Someone has changed. Actually not changed but more of revealed more of herself. Hahaha, but anyway we're still friends!

Got my tuition money too. Went to buy lotsa stuffs. Chemicals for fish tank, algae wafers, live krill (a treat for my sweeties), 2 highlighters (for only $1!) and collected photos sent for developing.

Cleared my study table and threw out almost everything. Hahaha. At least now my lecture notes are nicely filed into their respective files. Notes from the last sem are nicely cable-tied and dumped aside. Think i'll get a magazine rack for my mags. I've got so many types of mags, and such a messy room, that sometimes they are left unwrapped for a few months.

Now that things are a little more orderly, I hope to be able to study better.

Anyway my fishes really love the krill! Puffy has a little trouble reaching the krill before the rest but still enjoys the treat as much! Looks like he's much happier having life food rather than the frozen blood worms twice every day.

Ahhhh!
Finally I find out how to post in your Blog hehe....

BoiBoi here! WeePorting for Duty!

1st day of this semester was okay. 1st lecture was microeconomics. Boring. Busy guessing where the lecturer was from. Suggested to raise a hand to clear this doubt. Afterall, u need to know your enemy before winning the battle. New dessert section in the foodcourt. Now i can satisfy my cravings without spending too much.

Went to eat with Clown at Don in Park Mall. Had Age dashi tofu and Ice Lemon Tea. Good tofu i say. At least it's pretty decent for the price paid. Talked cock, slacked, went over to Olio Dome to grab some coffee. Had Ice Mocha with Gelato. GOOD STUFF!! Except that the serving was quite small. But all good things come in small packages, so what can i expect?

Grabbed a bus back after that. Felt kinda hungry. Guess the tofu can't satisfy my appetite. Had a popiah from my favourite stall but the popiah today didn't taste as good as other days, probably because it was late and the popiah skins were dehydrated.

So tired. Tired of everything too. Been running all over in town today. Went to PUB building to settle some documents, then headed to Tiong Bahru Plaza to collect some medicine for my mum. Had this wonderful Honey Glazed Chicken Drumstick from Cold Storage for lunch and then proceeded to Sentosa to submit the membership form. Got a temporary card and headed in for a spin around. Initially i thought of slacking at the beach but was really too tired to get off the bus. Headed back after that.

Sentosa is pretty inaccessible actually. I hate switching over to the NE line from Outram Park MRT coz it's a long walk between. Oh well, i'm just one lazy pig.

Collapsed onto the bed right after stepping into my bedroom. Don't feel very good. BoiBoi wasn't feeling too good today and went back early. Get well soon...

School's starting tomorrow. Back onto the stage.

Last night i asked my mum if i could move into the apartment at Katong coz the tenants are shifting on 1st Oct. She flatly refused before i could barely finish my sentence. Gave lame reasons like the agent had to bring potential clients to view the place, had to clean the place, i have school, etc. I thought it'd be a good opportunity to give myself some freedom and at the same time fully concentrate on my studies but looks like that idea will never form.

EVERYTHING POSSIBLE
by Fred Small

We have cleared off the table, the leftovers saved
Washed the dishes and put them away
I have told you a story and tucked you in tight
At the end of your knockabout day

As the moon sets its sails to carry you to sleep
over the midnight sea
I will sing you a song no one sang to me
May it keep you good company

You can be anybody you want to be
You can love whomever you will
You can travel any country where your heart leads
And know I will love you still

You can live by yourself, you can gather friends around
You can choose one special one
And the only measure of your words and your deeds
Will be the love you leave behind when you're done

There are girls who grow up strong and bold
There are boys quiet and kind
Some race on ahead, some follow behind
Some go in their own way and time

Some women love women, some men love men
Some raise children, some never do
You can dream all the day never reaching the end
Of everything possible for you

Don't be rattled by names, by taunts, by games
But seek out spirits true
If you give your friends the best part of yourself
They will give the same back to you

You can be anybody you want to be
You can love whomever you will
You can travel any country where your heart leads
And know I will love you still

You can live by yourself, you can gather friends around
You can choose one special one
And the only measure of your words and your deeds
Will be the love you leave behind when you're done

Words and music by Fred Small. (c) Copyright 1983 Pine Barrens Music (BMI). From the album, Everything Possible: Fred Small in Concert (Flying Fish #625).

Can't sleep again. Was watching some horror show on Channel 8 till i dozed off for perhaps around an hour? Everything's spinning around in my mind. Really need to find some way to expend my energy, to tire myself so much that i'll sleep. It's a couple of hours more before sunrise, before the play starts all over again.

Fishies, i wonder if u all know your dear little mistress isn't feeling too well. Please try to understand a little coz it's a really hard time i'm going through. In place of the love, there will be more food okay? Don't be too naughty. Thanks.

I'm trying so very hard to understand what's happening but it all disintegrates to tears. What am i becoming? A freaking crybaby? I hope not. I hate kids. School's starting in 2 days. Better resolve these stuffs before then. Looks like this semester's gonna be a killer.

To all readers of Zaskie's blog, sorry for not bolding the words as usual. No energy to. Can't pay much attention to it.

Life goes on...

It's like what i said, pulling wool over your eyes if you say life is all so good here. For now everything looks fine but thinking into the future, i'm not so certain. I've been asking myself, what's wrong? I'm having a good education now, have a complete family, a great boyfriend, loads of friends, things i want, etc. But why am i not happy? It's hard to explain why i don't seek help from my parents but anyway, will find other sources of help.

Hai, been such a ? day today. From last night till now, everything's a daze. Been sleeping & crying on and off. So many things bugging me, especially those which concern the happiness of people around. The impact hasn't subsided. I hate feelings. Living without them is so much better. Hahaha...

Going out to play pool now. Need the distraction.

Well..
The very first thing that you can do would be to stop bitching about how life sucks and stuff..
On the other hand, look at the bright side of life!

Note how many people around you are concerned about you... ie, Mas and your parents.
If you seriously think you need to talk to someone, why it not be your parents?
It's not really a good idea to keep this under wraps from your parents or something.. heh.

PS: I think Mas knows about this right?

*sighs*

Reality has finally hit, really slammed hard onto me. The Issues were brought up just a couple of hours back. Perhaps it's really time to seriously reflect on them and take appropriate actions, just to clear up the confusion and torment i'm facing at this stage of life. It upsets not only myself, but also people close to me. I'm totally afraid of going back to any form of medication or consultation or whatsoever because it's not easy to keep it away from my family. Feel totally shitty now. WHY do i have to be like this? Feel all alone in this world. Perhaps seeking proper counselling will do my life good instead of the daily whining and ranting about how life sucks and shouldn't be lived. Is it that hard to keep a decent level of contentment and sanity? If every one else can do it, why can't i?

hahahaa....now my 2.4 cannot make it.....probably land up in hospital before u even start....hehehee.....
got only the frame la! haiyo! cannot read properly ah?
hahahaa.... anyway, frame or bike, none is yours choonz!!!!!!

haha..
don't play play with me ah.

next time i piah 2.4km timing with you... not! :D I don't run fast at all one.
oah.

Got new bike (or rather new frame?)
can give me your zaskar frame to me then?
I don't even have a poor bike...
:D

Anyway, cherish the bike that Boiboi (oops, that's not for me to call.. heh! :D), I mean Mas gave you... :D

One word: Disappointment.

How in the world can a rider not be able to fix up his/her own bike?! Okay, the theory's easy, but i can't even reach the stage to apply it. Cables + cable housing are already beyond my skills (do i even have any?) and strength. If i can't even cut 'em to the length i need, how am i even gonna fix 'em on the bike?! -_-

Fortunately, removing of all that mud that's from somewhere right across the island isn't too hard. Changing the chain is easy, no traces of struggle other than all the black greasy stuff on my hands and in-between the 10 fingernails. Re-adjusted the handlebar and added some gorgeous green Dura Ace grease to the bar-stem interface. Hope it dampens off the creaking. (Or the hunt for another bar starts again.)

Funny huh. Seems like i've got no luck with handlebars. Bent 2 so far. And this sweet one starts to creak.

Oh boy, wonder if i can qualify as a bike mechanic next time. Hahaha. I don't wanna be a mechanic but it'd be nice to be able to do something that's not in my field.

Should i go to the library later? Grab a couple of books? Or just hang around in town? Hmmm...

It's freaking raining this beautiful morning again. Thought i could change those gear cables on my bike and get rid of all that T15 & Ubin mud but i guess it's just not the day. Wanted to submit the form for the membership to Sentosa too. Oh well, we shall see later.

GOT THE NORCO 4HUN FRAME FROM BOIBOI TODAAAAAYYYY!!!!!!!!
AAAAHHHH!!!!!!
ONE OF MY DREAM FRAMES!!!!
*sniFf* Thanks BoiBoi... You're the Bestest.....
The sweetest bicycle frame i've ever come across. Pure white with a orange outline of the words "Norco" on the downtube. Pretty weldings add to the overall beauty of the already gorgeous frame. Wonder how it'll ride...

http://www.norco.com/bikes/2002bikes/images/4hun.jpg

It's... *sniff*...*sob*......it's a dream come true... As if riding it before wasn't enough, now i get to see it everyday!!!!!!! YAAAYYY!!!!Wonder where to put the 4Hun up. I'm afraid to scratch it. It's a gift of purity and love. (Ironically, this frame's for withstanding all the thrashing. Doesn't sound so angelic now huh.)

THANK YOU BOIBOI!!! I promise i'll hug the 4Hun to sleep every night okay?

Visited Sentosa with BoiBoi today! Had lunch at Pastamania first before travelling to Sentosa from Harbourfront via cablecar. It was pretty expensive, S$8.50 per head. But it included 4 trips so i guess it's not too bad. The ticket to Underwater World was like S$17.15 per person!!!!!! AAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No wonder Sentosa's dying off... Underwater World was alot smaller than i thought.

Guess when u're young, everything around you seems big... Really Big. But we were fascinated by many creatures - Huge cuttlefish, super healthy LITTLE puffies(!!!), embryos belonging to the Bamboo Shark, etc. Then when we were sitting around, a stupid kid threw some film container which hit my head (oh well, as usual). Ouch! Gotta wear a helmet EVERYWHERE in the future.

Dolphin Lagoon's next. The show was pretty disappointing. The glare from the sun was irritating to the eyes. The kids from the audience were noisy and looked spastic. If not for the fact that the tickets to the Underwater World included a show at the Dolphin Lagoon, we probably wouldn't have wasted our time to watch it. Bleah.

Walked to Palawan Beach. There was this sweet thing in bikini with a pretty good bod i noticed taking a shower outside the toilet + shower. Her boyfriend was walking a poodle. Cool.

Cable car trip again!!! Caught a glimpse of the sunset. Took photos together on the cable car. Fantasized about falling down from it.

Dinner at... oops... i forgot...... AH! Think we ate somewhere near my place...

wAh... Choonz ah...think u're fitter than me liao leh......SHEESH...........

Anyway it's NYAA again today... in Ubin this time......rained....drizzled....whatever you call it.........Was fun though. Woke up so freaking early just to cycle down to Changi. This is the first time i'm cycling to Changi on my own and i realized how unmotivating it is to cycle alone for long distances. Anyway when we were leaving the jetty, we saw a whole group of supposedly pretty (to the guys) girls with the former 93.3fm deejay Dasmond queueing up for the boats. They must have been going to Ubin for some filming or whatsoever.

Slacked for the 1st half of the journey.
Lunch was at one of the seafood restorans. 1st time i'm eating at the restaurant in Ubin! The food was good... fried squid, egg omelette, Kampong chicken, sambal kang kong. These were luxuries in the time of a storm. Hahaha... The students who had only fried rice were all giving us dirty looks which made us feel kinda guilty but heck! They could have ordered dishes if they like!

Back on the trail, one of the student's brake on the rental bike got a little nuts, so we decided to switch bikes. Well then, it was my turn to scream my lungs out down the slopes. Hahahaa.... It's my 2nd time using a rental bike on the trail and actually i kinda like it... Very fun!

Returned to Changi and ate again. 2 students joined us at the table and we started talking about all sorts of stuffs. They were telling us about shoplifting and everything and well, one of them sure sounded professional. Hahaahaa... imagine someone younger than you telling you which shops have shoplifting devices which are working, or what items can be just taken off the shelves, or which grey tags at the boutiques have to be dealt with carefully to avoid ink spillage. Wow... eye-opener for me! But well, all we could tell them is to stop all these because it's really not worth being caught.

Zish's dad drove us back. Phew! Saves me the trouble and energy to ride all the way back. How lazy... It used to be so different last time. Rides to and from Ubin were common and even almost a weekly affair.

Well..
I am pretty much fine... haha.
Never knew that you have a fish fetish... haha!

For me, I am starting to exercise once in a while... The biggest accomplishment for me was to run (well, not really 100%. More like 60% run, 20% walk, 15% crawl, 5% roll) the 10km route for AHM... in sandals somemore! whahaha.

Actually I didn't want to run, I was accompnaying my friend (who doesn't run as well). But little did we know that he fell sick on that day, so I was literally the only one who was not running. Oh heck, so I decided to run as well.

:D
I'm so proud of myself!!!!!!!!!! whahaa....

One of my purple African Cichlids passed away this morning. It was acting weird last night. Well, the neon tetra i put in a small glass was found dried and stucked onto the floor just beside my bed this morning too. Okay, now i know it's quite a lousy idea to try making fishes look good in small glassware.

To replace my Cichlid, i got a solefish. The rest of the fishes (especially the purple Cichlid with a black strip on his top fin) are giving it really weird looks, as if it's an alien or something. Anyway hope the solefish eats at least one of the foods that i drop into the tank. Can't find any info about in on the internet.

Cleaned up my Monty (bicycle la...) and changed the pedals to the new VPs i got yesterday. Shone the whole chrome frame using WD40. Initially i didn't know that frames could be shone using that but i had accidentally squirt some on the frame while dealing with the chain! That part of the frame looked so clean and shiny that i decided to continue using the WD40 for the rest. Cool. Guess i get to learn something new everyday. Anyway, now my bike is as good as new! Sweet... Only thing left to do is to polish up the rider's skills.

Had lunch with my mum, aunty & her friend at Lei Garden Seafood Restaurant at Orchard Plaza. I never knew that there was such a posh restaurant in that building. The seafood they have to offer in those tanks were awing! Huge, fat lobsters of close to 2 feet body length filled a couple of tanks. Live baby abalones stuck to the glass panes of the tanks, Moray eels of at least 3 metres in length, a turtle with a shell of around 1.5 metre, huge hairy crabs with super long legs, geoduck, etc. It was, indeed, a shame that we had Dim Sum instead of seafood. But the Dim Sum consisted of items that are rarely served in other restaurants! Can't really describe how they're like but nevermind. Hahaha... The service was good, ambience relaxing and everything.

Now i'm wondering how to spend the rest of my evening.

Just got home around an hour or so ago. Went to collect some stuff from a friend and then headed to Gee Hin Chan (my usual bike shop hangout place)to buy a hundred bucks of stuff. Utterly broke with a huge hole in the pocket and a wallet a few hundred grams lighter. Got some XTR teflon coated shifter cables, XT housing, XT chain, 2 white blinkers (1 for BoiBoi, the other for myself), 2 metres of small clear hose(?) for the cables and a pair of beautiful maroon-coloured VP double cage pedals. Hai, it sure is expensive to maintain 2 bikes.

Lugged 2 heavy bags and strolled from Waterloo St to Orchard Rd. For what? I don't know. Anyway Lips the Cafe looked inviting so i decided to pop over for a Ice Hazelnut. Read the June issue of FHM there. Yes, Buffy sure looks good i must agree. She looks younger than her real age, 26, and is a real babe. Oh well, almost. Oh yeah, i didn't know that there are both the local and the US versions of FHM till i noticed them at the airport the other day.

Headed to Holland Village for dinner at Sushi Tei with BoiBoi after that. Dinner costed a bomb but i feel that at least the food was decently good. I guess you pay for what you get. BoiBoi went off in a cab almost immediately after we stepped out of the restaurant. Could only hurriedly dig the blinker + heart (which i bought in Orchard) out of my bag to pass to him just before he hopped onto the cab. So disappointed. Guess i gotta understand that it is very tiring after a long day's work and he needs alot of rest. Promised i'll never ask him out for dinner on weekdays again. In a way it's good because i won't have to eat dinner then.

Anyway BoiBoi told me that he wouldn't be racing this Sunday because i wasn't happy about him racing. I don't mind if you race, but please don't tell me that every coming race will be your last race. It's irritating. Period.

Touched my electone for the first time in more than half a year. At least i managed to struggle my way through a couple of songs. Fingers feel a little stiff. Finding it hard to inject feelings into the songs. Wonder how are the rest of the people in my electone class doing. Have they graduated to the next grade? I have this feeling i quitted at the right time. Unless i want to pursue music as a career, i don't see the need to learn till i reach the highest grade. If your foundation is good, it's really up to your talent already. Anyway it's another expensive activity. A decent electone is already over $10K and the lessons are not cheap either (they were over $150 per month at Grade 5, when i stopped taking them). A rough calculation showed that my parents spent easily an amount close to $15K for the lessons i'd been taking since i was 7. Bleah.

Sick. Wondering what's my itinery for tomorrow. Gotta whip up something exciting for myself. Something that's budget and fun.(By the way, these 2 adjectives never go together.) SICKENING!