its been quite a long time since i post an entry in this blog. it just like my passion and commitment for this blog is diminishing as time passes by. stalking to other's blog makes me wonder..."oh,kuno gile blog aku". hahahahah.... so peeps..help me with this one. where did u guys get those cool layouts for ur blogs? mcm cool gile....nak jugakkkkkk......hehehehehe...
~chow~
p/s: winter break almost over. probably wont see me regularly these coming 3 months. kene struggle gile bangang wei. seriously!
Every time you feel like you cannot go on You feel so lost and That you're so alone All you see is night And darkness all around You feel so helpless You can’t see which way to go Don’t despair n' never loose hope Cos' Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah x3
Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Every time you can make one more mistake You feel you can’t repent And that it's why too late You’re so confused, Wrong decisions you have made Hunt your mind and your heart is full of shame Don’t despair and never loose hope Cos' Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah x3
Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insha Allah you’ll find your way Turn to Allah He’s never far away Put your trust in Him Raise your hands and pray Oh Ya Allah Guide my steps don’t let me go astray You’re the only one that showed me the way, Showed me the way x2
saban malam aku berfikir. berfikir akan kesan akibat keputusan yang bakal ku ambil. perasaan takut yang menghimpit.. menjadikan aku gentar memberi kata putus. aku tak tahu apa yang akan berlaku pada hari esok atau lusa yang aku tahu.. aku tak mahu menyesal melepaskan apa yang di depan mata dan menyerah kalah sebelum aku gigih mencuba akanku pelihara ia sebaiknya. insyaallah....
p/s: wah..melampau jiwang.kompem kene bahan nih.hahahahahaa...
Thank God I Found You by Mariah Carey , 98°, and Joe
Lyrics:
[MC:] Ahhhm Mhhh
[98 Degrees & Joe:] Oh yeah
[MC:] I would give up everything Before I'd seperate myself from you After so much suffering I finally found unvarnished truth I was all by myself for the longest time So cold inside And the hurt from the heartache would not subside I felt like dying Until you saved my life
[all:] Thank God I found you (Yeah yeah) I was lost without you (I was lost) My every wish and every dream (Mmmmh) Somehow became reality When you brought the sunlight Completed my whole life I'm overwhelmed with graditude 'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you
[MC & Joe:] Mmmh Oh yeah Whoaaaaaa Oh yeah
[98 Degrees & Joe:] I will give you everything (everything) There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do (oh no) To ensure your happiness I'll cherish every part of you 'Cause without you beside me I can't survive Don't wanna try (I don't wanna try) If you keeping me warm each and every night I'll be allright (be allright) 'Cause I need you in my life
[all:] Ooooh Thank God I found you (I'm thanking you) I was lost without you (So lost without you) My every wish and every dream (Every wish, every dream) Somehow became reality When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight) Completed my whole life (completed) I'm overwhelmed with graditude (overwhelmed with graditude) ('Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you) And I'm so thankful I found you
[MC & Joe:] Oooooh (See) See I was so desolate before you came to me Looking back (looking back) I guess it shows that we were destined To shine over the rain to appreciate The gift of what we have And I'd go through it all over again To be able to feel This way (This way)
[all:] Thank God I found you (Yeah yeah) I was lost without you (Lost without you baby) My every wish and every dream (And every dream) Somehow became reality Oooooooh When you brought the sunlight (Brought the light) Completed my whole life (My whole life) I'm overwhelmed with graditude See baby I'm so thankful I found you Oooooooh Thank God I found you I was lost without you I'm overwhelmed with graditude (So overwhelmed) My baby I'm so thankful I found You You I'm overwhelmed with graditude My baby I'm so thankful I found (I found you)
tajuk post haruslah kontroversi. ya! harus ya rakan2! salam muhibbah dan salam perantauan...(erk!motif??) setelah berabad dan berkurun lamanya hidup dalam keadaan huru hara dan tidak tentu hala...akhirnya keadaan sudah kembali normal dan kembali aman. (banyak maksud tuh) tatkala semua sedang riuh dengan Piala Dunia 2010...aku berjaga saban malam demi mencari sesuap nasi. (ok!cut da crap!!) minggu lepas..selesai sudah kerja part time ku sebagai stock taker. sepanjang sebulan bekerja..x dpt ku nafikan. macam2 pengalaman yang ak dapat. tapi..nak dipendekkan cerita...kerja selama sebulan dgn AJIS(All Japanese Inventory Service) mmg best! kenal kawan2 baru...dpt berjalan smpai ke JB. dok hotel best! mmg syok!however, i never thought that it will end this way..i mean..not the way it shud b. (sape yg faham..faham la ye) .but..overall..even it didnt end in a gud way...im glad..sebab insiden itu unite all of us and we start to learn what friends is all about. (not to mention...love also. (ditujukan pd my cousin..diba)hehehe...
ok!dah banyak melalut..kembali pada tajuk asal. BERCINTA. what is love anyway? yang aku taw..cinta pd tuhan yang satu...cinta pd ibu bapa..pada keluarga. itu sahaja. cinta antara lelaki dan perempuan?? that is the most complicated one. maybe because i had never experienced it. aku masih ingat...zaman persekolahan. cinta antara lelaki dan perempuan..sangat2 di larang. kononnya sebab buat kita alpa..leka..n da most important thing...terdorong ke arah maksiat. paling best..cikgu2 kat sekolah nak suruh student break up. dorang menggunakan cara halus. ada 1 hari..diperuntukkan untuk tangkap gmba mereka yang berpasang pasangan. kononnya nak dipos ke ibu bapa.biar mereka takot. yela..kalau mak bapak taw...for sure la kene marah.kan? tp,ak selamat. sebab xde bf..(huhu). tapi..ak kagum dgn ckgu yg mncul dgn idea tu.sbb mmg ramai jugak yang clash.takot parents taw. memang sangat menggelabah para pasangan ketika itu. except ko kan zarifah! rilek muke bahagia tangkap gmba ngan ahyamn.cipan tol ko!hahaha...
aku masih ingat..ibu selalu pesan.."jangan nak bercinta cinta lagi!" aku pegang kata2 itu!memang!ak xde pon nak kapel2 ke pe..(pdhal xde org nak pon.hahaha). blaja je...kalau bercinta..nanti ibu marah! nanti pointer x dapat 3..cane?? so..cinta2 ni..tolak tepi! (admire2 2 mstila ade...tp,xde r smpai nk bercinta) so..nak dijadikan cerita..ak meneruskan kehidupan tanpa menghiraukan pasal cinta. until one day my mum ask.."kakak xde bf ke??" dalam ati ak kata.."aik??bukan dulu x bagi de bf ke??" katanye..dulu sekolah lagi. memang la...skang ni dh besa. umo dah lebih 20.kalau xde sesape..risau jugak. aku pening suda...cane ni??memang kene de bf ke??aku igt still x boley lg... aku pun bengong...nape dulu x tanye...start umo bape ley de bf.haiyoo...kan skang dah terkontang kanting nk carik. itulah dy ibuku..dulu menghalang gila2! skang sbok dok tanya2!! apakah yang kau mahu wahai bonda??
ramai yang selalu tanya..kenapa aku xde bf? dan ramai jugak yg cop..ak choosy. (memilih) p/s:aku bukan lesbo ye kerol! (sial kau!). jawapannya..senang je. im not a man chaser...im a love chaser. so, aku kene betol2 yakin sebelum terima cinta seseorang. kalau setakat nak dapat title 'ada bf'..sumpah senang! (i used to..hehehe..) tp,nak betul2 sayangkan org 2..sumpah susah! sbb 2 ak plek..nape de org ley tukar2 bf. senangnya perasaan die berubah arah. senang kata..mcm cinta 2 adalah 1 objek yang boleh dipindah dan dialihkan sesuka hati.apakah??
so,kepada si dia yang namanya dirahsiakan. mekacih sbb mncul dlm idup sy. sekarang ini..kmu adalah org yg sgt penting dalam idup sy. without u...i feel sumtin is missing. (heheh..malu2..). tapi,smpai skang..sy masih ragu2.."is it ok for me to start diz luv n start loving u?" . i still dunno the answer...i know im being selfish. but,i hope u can wait for me. i promise it wouldn't be long. promise! :D
hihihi....o yes..diz ain't a lie. currently im in luv! deeply fall in luv with him..my MR.X! i always wanted him so badly.. thanx god..we'r really belong to each other.. i will never ignoring u mr.x...*wink*
p/s: for now..we dun hv any pic together. later k.hehehehe....
