Life didnt goes the way we want..

20feb, tue, 11am, went to ecp. Meet Henri, met peng, taitai, leonard, bong, ben, justin, jen, anne, alwin, el, nantiwat etc. alot pp. Heard abt Henri broke up with his gf.. almost same case as mine. i really know hw he feel cos i went through it b4. Its rather painful! We decided to go drink at night. me & bong & henri, we drink. Henri requested that both of us can be sworn brother, i agreed in the witness of Bong & Heiniken^^ haha.. its nice to hv someone close to support u, motivate u, trust, faith, love.. all this is life!!

Bro.. if u see this Post, i would like to tell u..

Move on.. im will always by your side to help u, encourage u & wont allow u to collapse! Rmb u helped me alot?? When i was i a misery status.. u lift me up.. Thx Bitch.. u r my bitch always.. yea smile ya!!

Again.. i gave up.. ( For my Beloved Zixin..)

once agn.. i gave up hope.. but i had no regrets. I had done my part to make u happy, make u smile, give in to u, give u my utmost care & concern but not jealousy or demanding. im glad i can really treat a girl nicely, as a girlfriend. Thx for allowing me to proof my love towards u, and thx for allowing me to treat u like my princess..jus like fairy tales..

But one thing u wouldnt wish to know.. the Dark Truth of Fairy Tales is that all Fairy Tales comes with a bad ending.
& this is the reason why i gave up believing in fairy tales..

If there is a chance to let me take care of u, not for a moment, but for a life time, let me know. I will do my very best to make u a happier person, add colours to your life & be your companion of your life time...

Luv u always..
zac

im wrong..Fairy Tales really dun exists..

Fate is dam cruel, im deeply in love with her.. but yet i cant be with her. even if im with her, im jus sharing her heart with another guy.. is it worth it for me? i dono.. i know i need her, i know i love her alot and i know i wanna be with her alot, but reality jus make it impossible!! Dam Fuck Up!! Shld i jus give up waiting for her and move on? or shld i wait for her to tell me she love me? Being with her for 4.5yrs.. ended jus becos of another guy's appearance after i went oversea.. is it worth it for me?? All i wan is to be with her.. is it that hard?.. ARGHHH!! Why cant i jus stop thinking of her??!! It Affected my life! im in a very confused status.. better stop here b4 my tears shed down..

My New Car!!

11feb07, i bought my Roces SKT 100!!! its really dam nice!! ( visual ) & very shiok ( Feeling ) But, abit pain on the left side. The right side is perfectly Good!! Funny=_=/./ its a sz 3.5 uk. so cute!! i wore it without taking out for long, for 8hrs!! power~~

i miss kat.. im somehw still waiting for the day that she will come to me and tell me that she will love me forever and wanna be with me forever agn.. maybe it will nv happen.. but i believe in miracle & EndlessLove's Existant. Kat, if u see this, hope u know hw i feel..

k see ya all.. gd morning..

Its really complicated..

When u love some one.. u wan them happy.. but in another hand, u r unhappy.. its really hard.. But since love someone is jus to see him or her happy, its worth it.

i will wait till the day when u come to me & tell me u will love me till the end of time..

This is a story that always goes thru my mind..

Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alonein the parkone night....Daniel: I guess we are the left oversin this worldJasmine: I think so... All of myfriends haveboyfriends and we are only the 2persons left inthis world without any special personin our livesDaniel: Yup I don't know what to doJasmine: I know! We'll play a gameDaniel: What game?Jasmine: i'll be your girlfriend for30 days and youwill be my boyfriendDaniel: That's a great plan in fact idon't haveanything to do for the followingweeks...DAY 1:They watch their first movie and theyboth touchedin a romantic filmDAY 4:They went to the beach and had apicnic...Danieland Jasmine had their quality timetogetherDAY 12:Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus andthey rode ona Horror House....Jasmine was scaredand shetouched Daniel's hand but she touchedsomeoneelse's hand and they both laughed...DAY 15:They saw a fortune teller down theroad and theyasked for their future advice and thefortune tellersaid: "My darlings, Please don't wastethe time ofyour life... spend the rest of yourtime togetherhappily" Then tears flow out from theteller's eyesDAY 20:Jasmine invited Daniel to go to thehill and theysaw a meteor...Jasmine mumbledsomethingDAY 28:They sat on the bus and because of abumby roadJasmine gave her first kiss to Danielby accidentDAY 29:11:37pmJasmine and Daniel sat in the parkwhere they firstdecided to play this game...Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do youwant anydrinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll justgo down the roadJasmine: Apple Juice that's allDaniel: Wait for me....20mins later... a stranger approachedJasmineStranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?Stranger: A reckless drunken driverran overDanieland he is critical in the hospital11:57pmThe doctor went out of the emergencyroom andhehanded out an apple juice and a letterDoctor: We found this in daniel'spocketJasmine reads the letter and it says:Jasmine, This past few days, irealized you are areally cute girl and i am reallyfalling for you..Yourcherished.... smile you wereeverything when weplayed this game..... Before this gamewouldend...I wouldlike you to be my girlfriend for therest of my life.... I love youJasmine....Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:"Daniel ! i don't want you to die... Iloveyou...Remember that night when we sawa meteor,I mumbled something... I mumbled thatI wish wewould be together forever and neverend thisgame.Please don't leave me Daniel.... Ilove you! Youcannot do this to me!"Then the clock strikes 12Daniel's heart stop pumpingTHEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY........Always love your loved ones and showthem howyou feel before it is too late... Youwill never knowwhen they will be gone from yourembrace... If youwere given a time to bestow petals ofeverlastingcompassion and love to your lovedones? Today isthe day.... Love them while they arestill here...

Peace Finally!!

Im happier and stressless now. Not like last time used to drown myself by liquor. can save $ !! The rd is still far.. I had lost something.. my dignity.. but i guess it will come back to me very soon as long as she give it back to me. Hope im right.. i choosed to trust, i choosed to love.. i wont regret. see ya.. meet terry lo!~!
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Final Decision..

Right now, 430am 5feb07, kat is making her final decision.. to stay or go.. somehw i hope we will get back together as a happy couple like what we had last time..and somehw i hope i could let her go forever.. whatever her decision is.. i will respect. But there will only be one answer.. stay or go..

im really tired.. i wan to make a final decision too.. its tough, but no choice, everything has an ending.. after all, my decision will depends on her decision..

Love can be a very nice and sweet thing to hv, but it can be nasty and bitter. it hard to predict, so we got to mound it to the way we wan. All the best to us..

Am i happy??..

Knowing kat love bevan so much in kat blog.. i really wonder..did she even used love me??.. guess i love someone that dun love at all in the five yrs.. im so blind. Until now my mind set of waiting for her is still in my mind..but i got to move on.. so the only way is to hate her.. hate both of them.. but i shldnt.. i guess im stucked. Haha.. i sounded so stupid.. my temper is still so bad..properly due to so much problem in 2007.. only 1mth.. im so fuck up, so stressed up.. holy mama shit.. dam sian.. so i decided to relax myself b4 going in for ns. i will be working jus part time from now.. i got to enjoy myself and hv all the fun that i nv had thx to kat!! Becos of her, my life = no life. Thought that me and her will be together forever will make our life perfect..but ended up what she told me is all packs of lies. i really hate her for this.. she is the only friend that is so fucking rude to me! this is something that im angry with.. even steven, darren everyone shows me respect by talking to me nicely, but things that she said to me is way too much!! even my mother dun say nasty things to me, and hw she got the rite to say me?? nvm.. forget it..

rite here waiting for u? haha.. EndlessLovez happens only in fairy tales..