EndlessLovez DONT Exsist at all..

3 wks had past.. the days in army is tough.. i lost my freedom.. i lost kat as a fren. Finally i realize there is really alot things in life that is very precious.. i didnt cherish them well.. ended up with regrets. I believe that i had understand what is life.. its always up and down, its hard to travel smoothly.. it wont be like last time when im used to get everything i wan.. im stepping on to my 1st step of my journey.. my story...

For the past 3wks, i learned alot.

Endurance. Both physically and mentally. No matter hw hard it is, nv give up.. hang in there and greater harvest will appear. All my Platoon mates thinks that im mentally strong.. but im not.. i tends to think alot.. like my usual life style, my tempo of life is always very relaxing.. but its very diff in army.. & secondly.. Kat.. i couldnt stop thinking of her.. even tho i know its unfair for chloe..
The rest will be knowledge, Ability & Discipline.


For Kat...
For the last time im telling u that im missing u.. i miss the old days that we had fun together.. Rmb i used to piggy back u? & u told me its a training for my NS. I miss those days when we skate together.. its so nice.. & i guess it will nv happen agn.. its gone.. All our happy moments only left with memories & regrets.. The song nv fail to flash thru my mind.. dun feel gd, but no choice. I read thru your blog.. can tell u really love bev alot.. u had my blessing. Cherish everything u hv, apreciate what your friends had done for u.. same goes to me. If u r telling me i ruined your relationship with bev, i sincerely apologize to u. Its my fault. Do take good care of yourself, dun fall sick as friends around u will get worried. 5yrs of memories will always be there in my mind.. its impossible to forget, but im sure both of us will be a much happier person very soon. Farewell..


For Chloe...
Thx for being so nice to me.. u r always there when ever i almost collapse.. u had put in 101% of effort jus to see me smile. Thx to u im able to pull thru my hard times. U had been really nice to me.. & had been very understanding. When i tell u im still thinking of kat.. i know that u wont feel good, but u accepted it. Utimately i know its not being fair to u, but the only solution now is Time.. Allow Time to dissolve everything. After all, im glad that i had u..

For Guan Liang, Henri, Terry

Once agn, many thx to all of u. U guys had been helping me in many many ways. We i got myself in deep shit, u guys nv fail to be there for me.. when im sad, u guys will always be the one accompany me thru out. Life is nv complete with out u guys! Buddies For Life!^^

Now is 7.30am.. got to get some rest.. booking in tonight 7.30pm. Shagged....zzZZ

To Army i go!!

13apr07, 7.30am, jurong camp. Enlisted to Combat Engineer 30th Battlion operation unit. Feeling fine.. miss skate, my hair & pon pon nasi lemak!! so tired.. went st jame 11apr 1030pm-4am. Kat half drunk then went to ben hse with 5 guys.. yet i cant do a thing.. Ben even fucking guai lan with me.. fuck it man.. forget it lah.. i gave up.. Forget abt everything and move on. ns days shld be fun^^ k la.. gtg.. see ya all agn 3wks later.

my final 48 hrs..end of my freedom for 2yrs..

not much freedom left i guess.. i lost my enlistment letter and i dono what to do.. sian..hw sia.. i dun even know what to do what to bring..where to report, what time etc.. dam sian..
my worries is.. will she stay faithful to me? can she wait for me?.. all my doubt remain as a doubt.. i wanted to skate.. i wan my hair.. i wan my freedom.. all vanished.. i miss alot..even my favorite pungol nasi lemak..hmm..i wan to eat it everyday!!.. pp who own me $ dun even wanna pay me back.. wtf lah.. dam sick.. nvm..forget it.. anyway.. i enjoyed my day with my class mates!!^^ really nice of them to organize an outing for me..thx all. gt to rest..

Trip to Batam

2apr-4apr, batam. was very fun except some arguement with kat..

why kat keep saying i like Tiff? =_=.. so lame can..

Thot kat said going to make me a happy person for the last 14days?

ended up nasty.

abit sian.. but nvm..

Kat wanna go DXO tmr, thurs 5apr, but i cant go. And i really cant go

and she think that im lying to her..wth..

nvm.. i shall cherish every moment i hv now instead of bothering abt hw kat treat me.

Left 8days.. will kat wait for me? i dono.. hope she will..

i guess.. its hard for her too.. it wont be easy to wait..

and it wont be hard to wait, it all depend on her mindset.

im so tired, yet i cant slp..

now is 5apr, 4.45am

shld i give up on her after i go ns?

i dono.. abit confused.. tgt for almost 5yrs..

and if i jus let go, the yrs we spend tgt will be wasted.

what shld i do? hw can i make her be loyal and faithful to me?

i had tried to treat her well.. it did not work.

i tried to treat her normally, ended up worst.

hmm.. maybe i shld try treat her badly?

haha..impossible.

i dono.. i jus wanna be happy. simple..

Lost Lovez..


Once its gone, its gone forever...

Great days ahead!!^^

29maro7, woke up 9.45am, left home to shop 10am, founded a Nokia N73 Music Edition on the rd when i was skating to shop. song bo!! Reached shop 10.10am, go eat, reached SGH 12noon. demo at 12.30pm with zhuzhu & chee mai. screwed up abit but still it goes well. The space is rather small, smaller den our IC retail floor=-=.. so small.. hw to skate?.. ended up we did some slalom move, dance, figure, slide & synchronize tricks. At 1st we thot we will be doing pure sliding, but ended up sian half, but still, we really had a fantastic day!^^ zhu, mai & me went see see look look play play etc..^^ song!! den 4pm, Demo round 2! this time round its much much better. The management cleared the place for us, creating a lane for us to pick up spd den to a space for us to slide etc. hmm.. better. i love the music there!! its jus like clubbing sia!! automatic will dance.. lol.. everything ended 5.30pm, den zhu, mai, me went to meet henri at sun tec. den we went to city link underpass to skate. 1st time i feel so great even tho we had been skated for the whole day! from 10am-10pm. pro.. Took video of me, zhu, mai sliding..hehe.. putting in youtude soon^^ reached home 11pm.. shag.. but still feeling good^^ pick up fone, demo very fun, nite skate etc, all is jus so good.. the only ssian thing in my mind is.. i only left with 14 days to enjoy. kk ended here.. see ya..

17 days left..

abit sian.. 17 days left.. can i enjoy all these 17days anot? tired.. still need to work...sian.. work work work.. sian,., aw.. my pi gu very pain.. tired.. no mood.. nite..

Work..

27days to enlistment.. im getting sick and tired of working!! i really wanna hv some of my own time to do things i wan to do! Why is everyone stressing me up??? Fuck la!! all i wan is to SKATE!!! fucking jus becos of work and other stuff stop me from hving fun b4 ns.. im dam fucking sian now.. jus feel like put down all my burden and jus hv fun.. dun give a dam to anything.. jus simply do what i like.. but.. i cant....