Friday, March 19, 2010

mfa

1) the flu and sore throat plus phlegm thing has been bothering me for the past week, and today i still feel a tad lethargic and weak. this sucks when i'm sparring twice tomorrow.

2) my left calf is annoying painful, and it doesn't seem like it will recover by tomorrow. it took an unfortunate blow in training yesterday, and if i have to limp a few steps first after getting up from sitting down or lying down then i wonder how i will pull through tomorrow.

3) i got rejected for that internship.

4) me and my group mates have absolutely no idea how to properly tackle the debate motion, "What was rational in the early 20th century European knowledge system became irrational at the end of the century." i get lost completely in abstract terms like postmodernism, existentialism, and i'm researching on Foucault. that's just wonderful.

5) arsenal got drawn with barcelona. the sort of draw that would completely hinder arsenal's progress.

you turned my life around, you picked me up when i was down.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

jack neo

arguably the biggest news that has gripped town this past week is that of director jack neo's affair. you can see many parallels with the tiger woods fiasco - although jack neo isn't that famous, nor is he that rich, or good looking, or plays golf. okay then scrap the parallels part then.

but seriously - how often do you such things happening in singapore? it just takes a small spark to cause the whole edifice to crumble. who knew he was such an asshole? haha. though i must say singapore hasn't got that 'mistress' culture - by that i mean the public accepts that such things like cheating and affairs is prevalent in the entertainment circles and people lap up such stories with glee, like how they do in the us and the uk. on top of that these mistresses, when the media approaches them to reveal it all, make a killing out of such stories. unfortunately what we've gotten is a public backlash against jack neo, and also against the 2-year mistress. if wendy thought she could make a killing from divulging such stories - i think she's extremely naive.

on to wendy. firstly i think she's rather ugly. secondly, i cannot fathom why she identifies herself as a model first, then actress next. she might be a part-time actress, but is she a full-time model? one of the new paper columnists wrote that it was no wonder singapore's modelling industry is in the doldrums, when we have models with the looks wendy has. but then again for all you know, she could be, as jj described it, a 'hand' model - only her hands appear with the soap or cleansing cream on tv ads. but seriously, no offence to wendy, but it really is a joke if she really identifies herself as a model. goodness knows why she wanted to confront his wife anyway. and she said she called the media to document the whole thing to punish jack neo, but didn't fathom it will lead to all this. for goodness sake - either shes stupid, or i'm stupid. i don't think i am, so it's the former then. it's true - she's only 22 and still immature and naive. don't get me wrong - jack is an asshole if all these allegations are true, but i think wendy went too far. pardon my my strong stance here - i still cannot take it that she identifies herself as a model. haha.

on another note the past 2 weeks have been kind to me. i managed to get through the hellish week well, and this past week has been markedly relaxed for me. but i think things are coming along fine - i managed to do much of the real estate finance tutorial just now! what is more amazing is that i sort of self-taught myself, even though it took hours. but i don't mind really. and the past 2 weeks have been rejuvenating too. in the sense that i think i've gotten a clearer picture of what my future might turn out to be.

there are those plans for internships during the coming holidays. the other day while showering in the evening a sudden thought struck me - a topic or at least an area of focus for my honours thesis. i have some concrete thoughts on my post-graduation plans also. so far so good i think.

so for now i'll just carry on with what i'm doing. although, seriously, i need to drop 3kg somehow. how to do that while maintaining current dietary habits? i probably must start running soon, but i know that won't really happen haha.

on another note i just want to say this - that so far in these world, there are 3 types of people that i totally have no time for:
1) people who i hate
2) people who hate me
3) people who have a fucked up attitude (in general, specifically it's hard to define)

a clean sweep of all 3 would totally mean that you're quite fucked up. you're lucky only 2 of them apply to you.

when the stars go blind, and the darkness starts to flood your eyes,
when you're falling behind, i will carry you.