i'm now blogging on my sister's lappie.

mine is down. damn it. and i think i can only collect back my cpu tomorrow. haha. i seriously think i've a problem with computers since they always spoil all too easily.

in any case raya has been very mundane. we didn't go out this weekend, and only went out on the 1st day and last saturday. not that i took advantage of that and studied anyway. but i'm now bored and just sian my lappie is now the subject of yusri's it jinx. oh well.

anyway raya every year is all the same routine things. only this year i see mre of those minah and mat couples going out and doing their routines. i see more of those see through kebayas and ther figure-hugging tubes. those long skirts with slits that go high up to the thighs i've yet to see though. one of these days we're gonna get those cleavage-baring kebayas you know. don't bet on it not happening.

the other day on my way home i saw this mat and this secondary school girl with her uniform on. the mat was going off so they did this customary handshake of theirs (you know the kind stupid minahs submit themselves to do with their so-called 'elder brothers'). but this was revolutionary. first the minah shook hands and placed his palm on her forehead. then she pecked both the cheeks of the mat. thn the mat returned the favour and did likewise. and then to top it all off - they then pecked on the lips. then the mat went off.

wow. i'm sure they are not even together in the strictest sense of 'in a relationship' but look at the elaborate customary goodbye ritual. wow. i'm amazed it has already progressed to such a stage. i've always viewed girls who show their 'respect' to elder guys by shaking hands as stupid. for what rational reason should they show such respect? i'm sure at this point in time girls can think for themselves what is right and what is wrong. what sort of pleasure or honour they derive form such acts i cannot fathom the slightest. it's all linked to the 'abang angkat' and 'adik angkat' thing which i find even more ridiculously absurd. i've always viewed such things with utter disdain.

pardon me if i sound too strong, but sometimes i feel that my own community is really heading towards self-destruction. we make up almost 15% of the singapore population, yet only 4% of our students make it to university level. indians make up 7& yet 10% of their students make it to universities. there is a huge disparity in that. how can that not be possible? during fasting month i see malay people still sitting around at coffeeshops not only sipping coffee but beer at that. people are struggling to make ends meet but we have youths who spend their time idly and can be seen at their worst at night and especially weekends. then when such problems spiral into out of control, then who's to blame? parents? the stupid kids themselves?

then suddenly the onus is on the government or even the few malay elites to take on the problem. is that fair i ask you? when are they ever going to realise that we are at the bottom rung of society in every sense - economy, education, social status etc etc. but all they wanna do is to make babies all year round and drink beer and idle and etc etc.

i have friends who drink beer, and aren't probably the most pious but at least they have something called common sense. common sense to know what in life they want to be, and know what is stupid and what is not. at least they know what they seek to do in life. sometimes i wonder what else do malays lack. if religion cannot provide a meaningful guide in life, at least common sense should. or even a sense of why can't i do better than him, or i want to be like that guy kind of mentality. but it's sorely lacking, and i fear when i grow older the malay problem will just be a mega-problem. till then i would think it's too late to stem the tide.

pardon me for my strong feelings. i just feel sometimes when it comes to issues regarding malays, i can't help it but feel very strongly about it. yup. so that's all.

on a lighter note i think i'm receiving much more duit raya than in previous years. okay dah. toodles!