i'm now blogging during the half time between france and the netherlands. kuyt scored and the dutch are leading 1-0. if it stays this way the dutch will qualify for the quarters! haha. they play nice football, as do portugal, which is the 2nd country i support. i like the style that both countries play with. it's a pity the dutch jersey this time round isn't as nice as the one they had for the last world cup.
work has been such a bore. late nights caused by staying up to watch euro 2008 hasn't helped my cause. sometimes i just while time away by walking around and chatting with the other staff to while time away. the other day i took a 2 hour lunchbreak just to waste time. haha.
the other day me and nana went out and happened to drop by at the convert's association at geylang. a place that she wouldn't feel out of place i told her. haha. in any case the bookstore has alot of interesting books, so i got myself a teach yourself arabic book. haha. there's a high chance it might end up rotting away on my bookshelf, as is always the case with me and books purchased. and the book is quite thick. but i should really pick up arabic. jerome says it's a waste that i don't since it would really be an advantage for me. so i should probably start somewhere then. haha. even if teaching yourself a language is quite hard. but hey, apparently raffles did that in his youth. haha.
just now i dropped by the pc show at suntec. i ran into fahmi and he accompanied me in getting the asus pc eee 900 laptop. i got it at 798 bucks. it's that cheap because its small (the screen is 9 inch) and it has minimal functions. just enough for me to bring it around in my sling bag to do work anywhere in school. haha. so now that i have a laptop, i don't have to go around doing work on other people's laptops or just wasting 4 or 5 hours away straight at the computer lab in school. i'm trying to resist the temptation of installing msn on my laptop, although fahmi says that's impossible. let's see how. haha.
recently people have been in the mood of holding my hands for no reason at all. at work all i do is promote the exhibition there, and when i point to the tickets in their hand some actually reach out to hold it, as if i wanted to shake their hands. hallo people! who shakes hands with their left? i was really using my left hand to gesture. haha. 2 people in succession reached out to hold my hand thinking that i wanted to shake their hands when i wasn't. haha. just now was even weirder. i was crossing the road to suntec, and then there was this family crossing too. there was this granny, and she mistook me as one of her two male grandchildren. without looking she unwittingly held my arm, thinking that i would hold her arm and guide her to cross. haha. when she turned she exclaimed eh! then she moved away in embarassment. haha. i was stunned for a while. really weird.
oh and one more thing - thanks to those who flooded my tagboard. the thing is it's not i'm giving up. i'm not. i will try again so don't worry. it's ust that i'm fatalist in a way, in the sense that i will try even if i think i will never be good at it. but well, we all wouldn't know what's up for us in the future. so yes i will pick myself up and try.
okay the match has restarted and it's really end to end stuff. france are really piling on the pressure. come on netherlands!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Monday, June 09, 2008
so much for the lucky forehead. i lost my first match and with that i'm out. haha.
i was utterly disappointed with myself because i didn't put up a good and proper fight. i'm not upset because i lost, but more of how i lost. i thought it was a rather disgraceful showing. i totally could not execute any moves properly, and at the end of the day the opponent was much better than me. i got felled a few times, and even if there were a few unfair calls against me overall i accept i fared very poorly and my opponent did much better. it was embarassing to say the least, in front of all my friends and not put up a proper fight. i also showed my utter lack of fitness towards the end. after the match i just locked myself up in the toilet for around 15minutes and just leaned my head against the door and closed my eyes and thinking of what just happened. a lot of things just flashed through my mind during that time which seemed like forever. beads of sweat were still drippping down my face then. i couldn't help but feel that i should have performed at least much better. i don't think i want to watch my video of that match. at least not now. congrats to those who have proceeded to the next few rounds.
oh well. i joined silat in the first place not because of glory or medals - but because i want to try something new, something i might never have the chance to do again. i accept that for some reason or another i really have limited skills and abilities. years of playing football and badminton have never really improved my skills, and attempts to learn simple things like swimming and playing the guitar have failed. i give up easily sometimes and i lack discipline too but many times i really feel hampered by the fact that i really cannot master skills well. like some people have a talent to draw, or sing, or play the guitar, do sports, become it-savvy etc etc. i just can't grasp them. i'm very poor at things when it comes to being hands-on about it. it gets frustrating when i think of exactly what useful or worthwhile skill that i actually have, because it seems that i have none. this of course would not stop me from training. i might never improve in the future, but at least i should really try harder the next time round. i should still try even if i fail, but at least i must know i have tried. oh well, we'll see how the next 2 semesters pan out.
work is ultra boring. all i do is just stand around and give brochures and that's just about it. for 7 hours! haha. at least today wasn't so bad. because there were 5 of us at my area and we kept talking to each other to while away the time. if you ask me i prefer working at takashimaya last year, even if it is quite tough and the hours are long and all. then again generally speaking, work sucks and for all the pressures i get throughout my school life, i would rather read thousands of readings and type out essays than just do routine work every single day. seriously. oh well. at least i work till only close to the end of the month, and july i have lots of stuffs to do and things to occupy myself with.
it's a good thing the euros have started. i'm with holland, but i have an affection for portugal too. haha. good thing my house can tap on those free indonesian channels.
i was utterly disappointed with myself because i didn't put up a good and proper fight. i'm not upset because i lost, but more of how i lost. i thought it was a rather disgraceful showing. i totally could not execute any moves properly, and at the end of the day the opponent was much better than me. i got felled a few times, and even if there were a few unfair calls against me overall i accept i fared very poorly and my opponent did much better. it was embarassing to say the least, in front of all my friends and not put up a proper fight. i also showed my utter lack of fitness towards the end. after the match i just locked myself up in the toilet for around 15minutes and just leaned my head against the door and closed my eyes and thinking of what just happened. a lot of things just flashed through my mind during that time which seemed like forever. beads of sweat were still drippping down my face then. i couldn't help but feel that i should have performed at least much better. i don't think i want to watch my video of that match. at least not now. congrats to those who have proceeded to the next few rounds.
oh well. i joined silat in the first place not because of glory or medals - but because i want to try something new, something i might never have the chance to do again. i accept that for some reason or another i really have limited skills and abilities. years of playing football and badminton have never really improved my skills, and attempts to learn simple things like swimming and playing the guitar have failed. i give up easily sometimes and i lack discipline too but many times i really feel hampered by the fact that i really cannot master skills well. like some people have a talent to draw, or sing, or play the guitar, do sports, become it-savvy etc etc. i just can't grasp them. i'm very poor at things when it comes to being hands-on about it. it gets frustrating when i think of exactly what useful or worthwhile skill that i actually have, because it seems that i have none. this of course would not stop me from training. i might never improve in the future, but at least i should really try harder the next time round. i should still try even if i fail, but at least i must know i have tried. oh well, we'll see how the next 2 semesters pan out.
work is ultra boring. all i do is just stand around and give brochures and that's just about it. for 7 hours! haha. at least today wasn't so bad. because there were 5 of us at my area and we kept talking to each other to while away the time. if you ask me i prefer working at takashimaya last year, even if it is quite tough and the hours are long and all. then again generally speaking, work sucks and for all the pressures i get throughout my school life, i would rather read thousands of readings and type out essays than just do routine work every single day. seriously. oh well. at least i work till only close to the end of the month, and july i have lots of stuffs to do and things to occupy myself with.
it's a good thing the euros have started. i'm with holland, but i have an affection for portugal too. haha. good thing my house can tap on those free indonesian channels.
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