camp

so i got back from the orientation camp a few days ago.

but first, my last day of work ended on the worst possible note ever. the previous sentence had a pun in there relating to what happened, but i don't want to talk about it haha. but work's finally over, and i get a few days rest now to recharge.

anyways back to the camp. i suppose everyone else had a blast. well i didn't really enjoy myself at the camp, partly due to myself. i was totally invisible during the camp. for much of the camp i was very sleepy, and i just couldn't be as enthusiastic as i would like to have been. haha. but actually i'm really not the kind of person to go for such camps. just doesn't suit my personality i think. haha. but at least i made a few friends. friends that i feel i can talk to with. i still haven't really recovered from the exhaustions of the camp, proven by the fact that this weekend alone was the 1st time i had afternoon naps at home in eons.

but it was fun engaging people, and seeing people interact. at least there was abundance of healthy debates and discussions going on within the group. about our religion, our society, our people. which really stimulates the mind, and opens it up to more interesting viewpoints. sometimes it got so heated because naturally, some would be very emotional with their principles and all. but it was good. i learnt alot from such healthy discussions. in fact i think i've learnt alot about our people and our society over the past 2 years.

of course, no thanks to my ns experience, my workplace and my new school. the people i've met from the 3 places are from totally different types of backgrounds. but it should be good for me, to interact with such people. but of course, i haven't actually seen the real picture yet. but i imagine it to be very sad. especially, the real picture of my own society.

seriously, how can we not agree to the fact that the malay society is the one with the most social problems? as i have argued before, i feel we should call ourselves the malaise instead of the malays. if i am ever going to write a book on my society, it would titled 'the malaise' - so don't copy me. haha. anyways, seriously, we never seem to be able to find solutions to combat such problems. everytime we think we've eradicated a problem, another type emerges. it's really sad. malays score very high in the abortion rates, teenage pregnancy rates, teenage marriages rates, school dropout rates and the list goes on. and them with their nonsensical way of dressing, coupled with their ability to create a ruckus everywhere they go and act as if they are so damn cool. it's a national shame, i feel, that my society is churning out such people who obviously have no future and who don't ever even think about their future. all they care about is looking cool just pushing around baby prams in town, with their 101 piercings on their eyebrows and the list goes on. have you ever wondered why you only see young malay couples pushing prams around or just going out with small kids in town, but never from the other races? i don't know about you, but that really is a startling fact for me.

so what is it with these people?? if i had my way they will be purged sooner rather than later. what a waste to society these people are. to think people are the only resources our country has, and we are churning out such sub-standard ill-mannered people? it's no wonder the government actively tries to recruit foreign talent, because our own people are just not convincing enough. i really can't understand why we have people like this. definitely the household has to bear part of the blame. screwed-up families will naturally produce screwed-up offsprings. but it isn't a curse, is it? surely one can buckle the trend. but sadly alot of such people still choose to carry on with their screwed-up lives.

and this is only just the beginning. if you read history, china has this generation of people called 'the lost generation'. these people were the ones who served as the red guards under mao zedong in the 60s. what they did was just to memorise the little red book, and just harass anyone who was anti-mao. they did that for well over a decade, and when mao died they were already in their 20s, but with no proper educational qualifications nor skills. hence many became jobless, and they were really too old to go back to school. they had wasted their teenage years by not making full use of it.

is that what we want of our own people? if such trends persist i can forsee us having a 'lost generation' of our own. and they might probably turn to crime to survive. hence we might have another problems in our hands. tsk tsk. i shudder to even about my own future, what more of my own people or my own country? reality is just sad.

well, at least from the camp, i've learnt that at least people do still care. and at least my society will still churn out people who will bring benefits, and bring good for all. but these are only a select few. the majority of the soon to be 'lost generation' is still out there, waiting for a reality check, waiting for someone to actually wake them up from their prolonged sleep.

purge them i say! haha. as if.

bag

the long search for the new bag has finally ended.

after weeks and weeks or searching for a bag, i finally decided on that nike bag that purchased it at vivocity just now. this after so much trouble combing through the streets and shops of kl, jb and places like bugis, orchard and queensway. finally. almost what i wanted, but hey - nothing's ever perfect. and this should probably signal the end of my shopping spree.

honestly i don't think i've bought so many stuff in such a short space of time. like at least 10 new shirts, a bag and 3 pairs of shoes within less than 2 months. is crazy, i know. haha. and i also made a new pair of spectacles the other day at jb. metallic purple and black in colour. haha. to mme it's real nice and cool, but haha i wonder what everyone else will think. i can envision almost everyone saying "why purple!?"

was almost tempted to buy a pair of jeans too with fab just now but just couldn't find the nice 1 with the right size. anyways i don't think i really need jeans too. and fab gave me 2 plain tees for free because he couldn't fit them. my gosh my cupboard will really be packed with so much tops. actually there's still the need 2 buy a new watch but watches area all very pricey, and the prices don't change much. so i guess that will really have to wait.

on another note i'm really lethargic nowadays. after returning to kl i worked for 7 straight days, in between alternating between morning and afternoon shifts. god knows how i managed to pull through. but the good news is i'm resigning. sunday's my last day in fact. so i'm left with tomorrow and sunday to work! after that it''s off to the orientation camp. there's like so much hype around the camp, with people saying it's really gonnna be real fun and all. i'm just like err okay, thanks for the input.

oh and i bought a lenin tee from bugis village just now too. so i've a mao and lenin tee, i'm just left with a stalin tee. haha. they even had a ho chi minh tee selling there. i was like what? it's really weird. though i've yet to see a castro or a kim il sung or kim jong il shirt anywhere. castro would be really cool though, instead of those 2 korean despots. or even ho chi minh for that matter. haha.

leaving my job would be really sad, because of the 5 months i slogged it out there with the rest has been quite an eye-opener. my job really taught me quite a number of things that i previously never gave a hoot about. at least in terms of my ways of thinking, it definitely has an effect there. but ah, there's always the school to look forward to.

on another note.

a friend says my personal life is really like a soap opera.

i really second that.

re-kl

got back from kl yesterday evening.

and i'm super-duper tired. the exertions of it all caused me to turn up at work with a sleepy face and totally unkempt hair. the colleagues could see the weariness on my face. it doesn't help that i've to work 7 straight days till my next off. if i do pull through, i'm the real deal man. haha.

the trip was okay. it's not like you get to go away for a few days with your friends often. although a lot of cock ups happened but it was still fun. although i only managed to only buy a shirt and a pair of ugly-looking shoes at a combined cost of RM63. but in all i spent around RM335! haha. don't ask me what happened to rest. i'm not too sure myself.

the 1st day was spent at berjaya times square mainly. got to go in the indoor thempark. and the dna mixer ride was real crazy. haha. the ride jus spins you round and round for a few minutes. haha all i know some of the rest felt like throwing up or giddy after that. but me? no! haha. i went through most of the intimidating rides but it was okay. actually i was the 1st one who wanted to back initially, but that was because my stomach wasn't really 100% at the time. then the evening was spent at this club. the live band there rocks man. their opening act was don't matter by akon. i was like what? what kinda band jams don't matter? but anyway the band played all kinds of genre actually. was really great.

the 2nd day we all watched transformers at the imax theatre at the times square. and the movie kicks ass! i'm grateful i never caught it in singapore. the screen was huge! bigger than any screens in singapore, really! and to watch such a movie on such a screen was really mind-blowing. i liked the part when optimus prime stepped on the witwicky's garden fountain and said sorry, my bad. haha. but the whole movie was damn cool. is the best movie i've watched this year. but not say i've watched alot though. and then then evening was spent at petaling street. the last day was spent at the twin towers. i tried to find my sling bag, but it was in vain. we ended up missing the 4pm bus and had to fork out extra to take the 5pm one.

but overall it was fun. thanks to my friends, and thanks to our other friends in kl who brought us around. i still have RM100 with me which i'm really itching to spend.

on another note.

lately i feel i've gone through alot. it's taken a toll on me, mentally. sometimes i ask myself why must things always pan out this way. sometimes it's always been a case of so near yet so far. i also feel drained phsyically. it doesn't help that i've lost 5kg since i started working. i look more gaunt and scrawny now. i hope i will start school with a blast and have fun there.

although in the past i have always started school with a troubled state of mind.